#tossing my thoughts into the void

[fancy-rock-dove]

Having some feelings this evening about Frodo’s reaction to people around him being corrupted by desire for the One Ring. How generally devoid it is of any blame placed on that person, and how he instead treats it as a tragedy to spare others from by distancing himself.

It’s a big deal in the latter books that Frodo wants to show Sméagol kindness if possible because things have progressed so far that Frodo can recognize his own experience in him. But what’s really making me stare at a wall right now are Frodo’s early days reactions even before the personal identification is as strong.

Basically, I can’t stop thinking about how deeply Frodo’s reaction to that last encounter with Boromir is informed by the fact that the first person to ever try and take the ring from Frodo was actually Bilbo. The fact that the first person Frodo ever saw corrupted to that point, even for a moment, was the kind, clever, caring uncle who adopted and taught him, and who Frodo thinks the world of.

Just thinking about the personal relationship Frodo had with the very first person he saw the Ring affect and how fundamentally that set the tone for his understanding of it for the entirety of the journey.

[mak-be-ghouled]

i know it’s a common thought that it takes a while for phantom to really hone in on his element when he comes topside, but what if he’s immediately very good at using his element and is even one of, if not the most, powerful quint the ministry has ever summoned?

phantom finally feeling useful topside, getting to use his element to help.

working in the infirmity, picking up extra shifts, volunteering when he can.

countless hours spent in rehearsal rooms practicing until his fingers bleed, and then some because he’s a quint after all, he can just heal himself and go on.

helping out in the greenhouses and during ministry services.

healing his pack when they’re hurt, soothing aching muscles and joints, fighting off anxieties and night terrors.

anything to feel useful. anything to have a purpose.

that is until he physically can’t anymore. can’t wring out any more quintessence from his fatigued body. can’t drag himself out of bed or… anything.

and just like a star, he’s burnt out

[iersei]

the law of being hermie the unworthy (any iteration) is that you aren't allowed to win

[fancy-rock-dove]

Saw this cross my dash and went to reblog this version with these tags and then realized they’re literally my tags from *checks notes* …March.

Glad I amuse myself.

xie lian: mu qing, are you still undressed? you've been in your room for hours now.

mu qing: *breathless* I just... I just can't find any nice clothing... to wear.

xie lian: what do you mean? your closet has a lot of nice things.

*xie lian opens up the door to the closet*

xie lian: see? shirts, pants, hi fengxin, shoes...

[thefluxsystem]

Thoughts on Innerworlds:

They’re not physical locations that system members actually live & walk around in, but the brain may make them perceive it that way.

When we front, we can “remember” what happened in our innerworld while we were there. Since we share a brain, we all have the same “storyline” there, which has created consistent “memories” from within our innerworld over the years.

We’ve had things happen there that have helped us process & recover from things that happened in the outerworld. (It’s why it’s used as a therapeutic technique.)

There’s a fine line with it. It’s possible to rely too heavily on the innerworld to escape the stress of this life, which, for many CDD systems, was the only way they could survive. Once it’s safe to do so, it is important to draw up a healthy distinction between innerworld reality and physical reality. But, on the other hand, entirely denying the legitimacy of innerworld events can greatly hinder healing.

Oftentimes, innerworld happenings are metaphorical. They occur because there’s something the brain/system needs to work through. For example, a “physical fight” occurring within the innerworld may represent clashing morals between two system members, and signify that the misalignment needs to be addressed.

So, are innerworlds “real”? Maybe not in the way the walls of my house are, but it’s real in that it’s a significant part of how my brain functions. To deny that reality entirely is to deny the very thoughts in my head, simply because I can’t touch them & other’s can’t see them.

[unapologetiicapathy]

currently trying to learn irish

havent learned how to tell someone my name yet but i do know how to ask for tea with lemon and sugar now

[kindest-little-fella-in-town]

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OH NO…. YOU HIT MY COMICPOSTING!!!

[lost-but-with-coffee]

I know it’s Ark-Nights

But every once in awhile I catch myself slipping and say AR-knights

[astromechs]

man, you ever get tired of ship-based fandoms?

[psychicthepsychic-daily]

brainrotting over a purpleswap au where Psychic and Void switch roles but not personalities

Psychic is a rising singer and musician who joined the Dearests' record label way back in its early days, as an expression of loyalty after DD freed him from hell. they were planning on just using his talent to their advantage, probably to advance GF's career, and tossing him aside when they were done with him...but that never happened. DD ended up getting attached to him and keeping him around, and he's become a star in his own right. he's the longest-lasting singer to work with the Dearests, and the oldest.

he knows about the Dearests' corruption and is a willing participant in it all. like his classic counterpart, he's serious and quiet, and has a sarcastic sense of humor. he values loyalty and competence, and has no problem with getting his hands dirty so the Dearests come out on top. he's a bit more outwardly arrogant than classic!Psychic, even condescending to some people, but he genuinely cares for the Dearests and has become close coworkers and friends with Girlfriend. he's still got his mouse companion Jen, but she's probably a brown mouse whereas the original is a very pale grey. just for the heck of it lol

Void is a begrudging servant of the Dearests, along with the Accretions, although they have different roles and Void is still their superior. He hates his job. He still needs an ego check and is fully convinced he's meant to be so much greater. The only reason he's still working under the Dearests is because he's waiting to save up enough that he can leave and start his own career as a singer. He's even willing to take the Accretions along, if they agree to work for him. none of them are as close to the Dearests as classic!Psychic, they're just there. Void's just as egotistical and prone to anger as his original counterpart, but he doesn't have as much of the luxury to show it. he usually ends up taking his frustrations out on the Accretions, when the Dearests aren't around.

Jet is a stray cat that Void found and took in without the Dearests' knowledge. DD hates animals, and GF loves cats. Void doesn't want them to take Jet for any reason, so he makes sure Jet doesn't come by when they can find out. unbeknownst to Void, Psychic knows about the cat that's been coming by to see him but he hasn't bothered to say anything about it.

of course, each knows that the other exists. they don't like each other. lmao

Void resents Psychic for what he sees as having it all, and thinks he could far outdo Psychic in the music industry if he only had the resources. Psychic doesn't care for Void's better-than-you attitude and finds it ill-fitting on a lowly servant. he usually ignores Void, but dislikes the lack of respect V has for the Dearests.

however, everything changes when Boyfriend enters the picture.

Psychic's a little protective of GF, and although he respects her and wants her to make her own choices, he still doesn't like BF. he finds the boy's lack of tact a little reminiscent of Void. Void resents BF for much the same reasons as he does Psychic, but BF is annoying to boot, making him worse in V's opinion. it's at this point that they have a common ground where they can start building their halfhearted friendship.

[tossed-bricks]

Been having a particularly fun time lately with people telling me rlly conflicting things they thought or assumed about me since they met me in September. All my uni friends keep telling me rlly weird conflicting opinions. I’ve had ppl tell me they thought I hated them bcs I’m hard to read w/ scary vibes, someone else was FLOORED and said I was so happy and welcoming they couldn’t believe it. Got told today several ppl thought I enjoyed being teased or lightly bullied/made fun of and had to be like well. No. I’m usually actually panicking or in a mild fight or flight when you tease me. I’ve heard that I’m scary more times than I can count but I get that bcs I have a lot of eyeliner and a miserable resting face. I’m just so confused on who people think I am because I think I’m as clear and open and honest about myself as I can be and I just don’t get where the confusion comes from

[iersei]

babygirl doodles as i test out ideas for my design of her as a teen

[unapologetiicapathy]

ive had a few different blog titles or display names or wtvr tf theyre called but um this current one is my favorite :3

[lunarlegend]

imagine if they'd accidentally added Stella to the group chat

[lost-but-with-coffee]

[doomedpuppetyuri]

starling is a he/him lesbian. To me