Dude I wish I could death ray zap my OCD
like ZZZP ZZZP!! STOP THINKING!!
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Re: your mental health comic - I hope, if any of those characters are based on real hallucinations youve had, that you don't have them anymore. You're a good person who doesn't deserve to be talked to like that.
(Referencing this or this post, I’m not sure which)
Thank you so much for your kind words! The characters in those works are representations of actual hallucinations I’ve experienced. They were real nasty pieces of work, but I haven’t actually hallucinated one in a severe enough manner to talk to them in about… Shoot. Hang on, I need to think… 5-ish years now? I think? And the last time I did, I heard a brief sentence before I took some heavy-duty meds that knocked me out and took care of the hallucination by the time I woke up. I’ve gone through a lot of growth between now and then, and I’m now in a place where the only lasting legacy those losers have had is making me very good at abstract descriptions + personifications and self-reflection. Their cruel words are fuzzy and vague things that I barely remember.
Heck, I went through some old notes to remember some nicknames I gave them, and it was a blast from the past that I actually laughed at! They actually called me “less than worthless” to the point I internalized and verbalized it many times? Wow. That’s pretty cringe, guys. You spent your entire lives bullying a teenager. Cool. Now I love myself and forgot that was ever a mantra I recited at all times in my head.
I once had a project I was working on where I made a fictionalized autobiography set in a fantasy world starring a self-insert and these jokers. It was going to be a kind of field guide to hallucinations I experienced. I stopped working on it after a while because it was too painful for me to develop, as it was meant to dig deep into the pain and struggles I went through on a daily basis… and now I’m looking back at it and considering making it a humorous story about how ridiculous my hallucinations were— at least the ones with consistent personalities. Comedy equals tragedy plus time, truly.
I might end up posting some of the more solemn journal comics I made about these chuckleheads... It'd be weird to dig up my significantly older work, but I think it would do me some good and maybe be enjoyable / educational for others!
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unanswered star wars questions:
what do public bathrooms look like in kiffar space where about one percent of the population is psychometric?
squat toilets and bidets? depending on genitalia, you could bring your own device to piss standing up.
people think quinlan vos is a germophobe but there's no way he's putting his ass on a coruscanti toilet seat ever again. not after last time.
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session number 2 today of talking to my therapist about glee alksjfsdklfs we talked about other stuff beforehand so i didnt get to give her the full recap of s2 we only got up to original song. i skipped comeback completely and was like "hmm i dont wanna talk about that one" and she's like "that's okay <3" but yeah i was like angrily recapping grilled cheesus and duets and such and making her hate finn lmao. she said she loved rocky horror and john stamos so she liked hearing about those parts. and she gasped when i told her about karofsky kissing kurt. it was a fun session lol
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"End of the line, dear. Halt"
You were in the middle of the conversation when you heard its whisper. You don't need to turn around to know it is staring at you again. The glare of the Others' red eye makes you clam up in your thoughts again. A feeling of an old wound opening up again, and the only thought in your head. Others, that darn thing. It does not need to know how you feel. No one does. You raise your eyes at the visitor again and utter out a simple "Leave. And don't look it in the eyes"
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i absolutely despise how common "intrusive thoughts" has become in people's vocabulary, when almost every time people use it incorrectly. i don't have extreme intrusive thoughts, but i definitely have them, and they are NOT fun or pleasant. they make me feel sick and horrible about myself, and it's worse because i can't FORCE them away.
i'm so tired of seeing mentally well people confusing impulsive thoughts with intrusive thoughts. and then when people talk about their REAL intrusive thoughts, suddenly you're a gross and evil person... please eat the curb.
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The fact that ppl are referring to their dumb impulses as intrusive thoughts while I'm sitting here getting hit out of nowhere with the thought that "hey if I took metformin without any food I could maybe kill myself" is.....interesting
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