#tomorrow he will be opening them

[judemathisdaily]

Jude nui with the Christmas gifts!!!

[gomzdrawfr]

Broken strings of fate

PriceGhostWeek Day 7 (last day)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

MDZS Equineswap AU part 1: Bro we are horses. It’s okay to cry around me, we are best friends. Bro we are kissing.

[girl side of the swap]

[yeonzzzn]

user yeonzzzn can’t come to the phone because she’s too busy foaming at the mouth and down on all fours barking like a mf dog over choi soobin

[rosy-cozy-radio]

THAT WAS AMAZING ITHACA SAGA YEAH LETS GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had so much fun with the epic livestream, bumblrs if you haven’t yet please check out epic it’s AWESOME

…one might even say EPIC (bu dum tis)

[bittersweetresilience]

say hi to me i don't know, i just remembered being so much brighter, i guess

cigarette ash like wildfire burning holes in the nighttime open scars feel like barbed wire white lies flying high like a ceasefire dropping flags on the shoreline this is as far as i can feel right 'cause what you don't know can haunt you

and all we ever wanted was sunlight and honesty highlights to want to repeat let's get away from here and live like the movies do i won't mind when it's over at least i didn't think for a while

don't drag it out living like that doesn't mean a thing

so let's, make a great escape and i'll be waiting outside for the getaway it doesn't matter who we are we'll keep running through the dark and all we'll ever need is another day we can slow down 'cause tomorrow is a mile away and live like shooting stars 'cause happy endings hardest to fake

and i wanna let you know i wanna let you go but i just can't bring myself to speak but this is how it goes the end credits, they roll this bridge was built over kerosene but we can watch it and all i ever wanted was sunlight and honesty highlights to want to repeat let's get away from here and live like the movies do i won't mind when it's over at least i didn't think

so let's run, make a great escape and i'll be waiting outside for the getaway it doesn't matter who we are we'll keep running through the dark and all we'll ever need is another day we can slow down 'cause tomorrow is a mile away and live like shooting stars you can wish away forever but you'll never find a thing like today

[faaun]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

[marley-manson]

Comrades in Arms has so much gender role stuff going on and I'm very into it.

Brief preamble, masculinity and femininity aren't 'traits that men have' and 'traits that women have,' they're socially prescribed attributes that can vary from society to society and are forcibly assigned to men and women. I feel like I should mention this because in addition to good things I describe a few pretty negative things as feminine and that's because they are. Because most societies, especially 50s military society, want women to have traits such as passivity. Not because they're inherent to men and women.

So anyway, I'm just gonna dive right in. A lot of Hawkeye and Margaret's bickering in the first episode revolves around Hawkeye not being masculine enough. Margaret calls him a coward when he doesn't press forward through the shelling, Margaret gets angry when he can't fix the jeep ("How can a grown man be so mechanically incompetent?"), and she asks, "What kind of man are you?" in the next scene.

Hawkeye's attitude in return is wry self-awareness. "If you don't mind, I'm going to go into a mild panic," after the coward remark. Pretending to know what he's doing with the jeep with an exaggerated casualness ("Oh sure :) no problem :) I'll have this thing going in no time :)") before kicking it and then going "that's this right?" when she tells him to open the hood. Singing a jingle and joking that it's a civil war marching song and he's just trying to be military. And my favourite, Hawkeye's answer to Margaret's what kind of a man are you is, "Certainly not a serviceman," followed by, "There's a YMCA over here. Act like you got a moustache," and topped off with calling the hut he found "cute." There's also a moment where he is aware of something military (strategic significance of the hut), which surprises Margaret, and he pointedly downplays it by claiming he saw it in a movie.

My point being that the vibe is Margaret being consistently irritated that Hawkeye isn't performing a certain kind of military-flavoured masculinity, and Hawkeye knowing it and poking fun at her frustration. Margaret wants Hawkeye to be more military and more masculine in ways that go hand in hand, Hawkeye is resistant to that and plays up the opposite, both to bug her and because it's more genuine for him. He doesn't know how to fix a jeep, he is scared of bombs, he does cruise at YMCAs, etc

There's the fun scene with the debris and Hawkeye's injured leg, where they begin the sequence with Hawkeye on top of Margaret, shielding her, and Margaret mistaking Hawkeye's injury for an innuendo when he says he can't get off of her. Then they swap positions when Margaret examines and dresses the wound in his leg, complete with deliberate innuendo this time ("Margaret, there's no time for that now, look at my wound.") Which again, kinda highlights, advertantly or in, Hawkeye being more comfortable the less he has to conform to masculine standards. Not literally ofc, Hawkeye's obviously got no problem fucking women lmao, but as a joke that serves as a continuation of this gender role stuff I think it's fun and works well.

You can make a case that they start to get along when Margaret acts more accepting of Hawkeye's nonconformity. When Hawkeye says he's tough when he refuses morphine for the stitches and Margaret sarcastically says "uh huh," before he starts screaming. When Margaret opens up to him about the letter when he finally asks sincerely and Hawkeye listens and tries to be as genuinely supportive as he can. And when they start making out after Hawkeye commiserates with her about being scared and joins her in screaming his head off about the shelling.

The next morning this gets exaggerated in an interesting way. In the first half Margaret was outwardly tough and cold the majority of the time, insisting they drive through the shelling instead of running back where they came, checking the jeep herself, arming herself before going to bed. Even when telling Hawkeye about the letter, she insisted she was fine and that she prides herself on being able to adjust to anything. Hawkeye may not be masculine, but she is.

When they wake up, she's the opposite. Warm and affectionate, exaggerating her femininity in some ways (insisting on "making breakfast," fishing for compliments on her looks by being self-depricating, sudden passivity when they see a North Korean soldier and she irrationally insists they'll be fine and he won't come in), and emotionally "open" to the point of blatantly lying about or at least exaggerating how she feels (eg saying she loves his sense of humour after not getting a joke and before castigating him for making too many jokes a few scenes later).

She's playing an overly feminine role that doesn't suit her, but that she sees as the natural state of affairs for a man and a woman in a relationship, and she tries to shove Hawkeye into the appropriate type of masculine counterpoint. Most egregiously while treating him like one of her soldier boyfriends while she's panicking about being discovered ("Oh my brave soldier, you're wonderful, you're my inspiration," and, "I love to see a strong man who takes charge like that," lol), but also when she says she'll buy him a new shirt, assuming commitment and monogamy on his part, asking if he ever shaves ("Just my legs," says Hawkeye pointedly.)

Hawkeye is still Hawkeye - unmasculine, unmilitary, unable and unwilling to be the man Margaret invented for him. As he awkwardly goes along with it at first for whatever reason, he constantly looks like he's staring down a poisonous spider, and eventually he starts getting actively sarcastic in response.

Anyway, yadda yadda yadda, after an argument Margaret reverts back to her usual self and drops the feminized roleplaying, and when Hawkeye comes to her tent after the welcome back party, she finds a happy medium in genuine emotional openness, begun and encouraged by Hawkeye.

Essentially this episode explores Margaret's relationship with gender performance with Hawkeye as a counterpoint and, in the brief moments when they connect, mainly when they're screaming in terror together and in the last pre-tag scene, a parallel. Margaret starts off the episode as her usual masculine of centre, closed off, brusque self to Hawkeye's pointedly feminine-of-centre, emotionally open self. Halfway through, to Hawkeye's terrified bewilderment, she puts on a performance of femininity that doesn't reflect how she really feels, and in no way complements Hawkeye's gender expression, which isn't masculine enough to suit her and not saccharinely feminine enough to parallel her.

But at the end she finds she can still be herself, while adopting a little of Hawkeye's more healthy femininity in her newfound attempt to be emotionally open, and that's the place where she and Hawkeye click as friends. When they're sharing their feelings and commiserating and supporting each other. When she's not trying to be something she's not, and not trying to force or berate Hawkeye into being something he's not, and they can both just be a little gender non-conforming in their own ways that complement each other.

[b4kuch1n]

hfr indulgence weekend

[baby-xemnas]

i love thinking about law being secretive about who he shares his bed with.

yes his relationship would seem bizarre to most. he is very happy and content in it and has nothing to prove thank you

[landgraabbed]

sometimes you gotta take in the lil details

[morrigan-sims]

Hi! :3 I'm sorry but I don't know the names for most of the things I'm asking for so this may be a confusing read :{ basically yknow that one character rook that you've been using as a dnd character? I really like his corset thingy majig or like top that hes wearing but I can't find it anywhere :( do you remember where you got it? or what its called?

Hi nonny!!! No worries! You got it right! I've been calling them corsets in my head too. My beloved idiot bastard man looks so good in them, and I'm sure your sims will too!!! 💖

I'm not sure which corset shirt you're talking about, bc he's worn two. I'm going to assume you're talking about this one from my most recent CAS pics (which my best friend, Ash @heyastra, calls his "slut shirt")

You can find that one here. (reuploaded bc the original is paywalled)

but in case you're not looking for that one, there's also this one from the Hanged Man render and my earlier CAS pic of him.

Which you can find Here.

[mihai-florescu]

This really was our yumenosaki academy♡

[i-am-agent-washingtub]

Took my little brother to school with me and all he did was nibble my homework >:(

[woundedheartwithin]

Your mom is in hospital again? Is she going to be OK for now?

Thank you for asking! That’s really sweet, I really appreciate you ❤️❤️❤️

Well… okay is a relative term here I think. Medically, yes, she’s alright now. She apparently got fucking pneumonia the last time she was in the hospital, so she’s been in for like a week and a half this time on really strong antibiotics. But because this hospital apparently doesn’t believe in getting their patients out of bed unless a physical therapist is present, she has to go back to rehab to get back on her feet. That’ll probably be another three weeks. The second she’s back home, I’m requesting all her medical records and we’re getting an attorney to see if we have a case to sue this shithole

I just don’t get it. The first time we went last year for her stomach ulcers it was literally wonderful. The most pleasant hospital stay any of us had ever had. My mom almost didn’t wanna leave because they treated her so well. They had her in the newer building and they were so attentive and had her walking and doing stuff the whole time so she didn’t just lay in bed and atrophy. Then the last time while she was in the ICU, which is also in the newer building, she received exemplary care there too. The nurses were sweet and patient and they got her out of bed the moment she was able to. And like the emergency surgeons saved her life, so I have no doubt that there is absolutely the capacity for good care at this place. But god fucking forbid you get stuck in the older main building. It’s like an entirely different hospital. We took her back to the same place because we, probably foolishly, hoped she’d get the same care she got in the newer building since she’d be on a different floor, but no, it’s more of the same as it was last time. So we’re taking her to a different rehab place this time because fuck this hospital

She’s doing well with her intestine stuff tho, so that’s a bright spot. Everything with that is healed and back to normal, which is wild because I’m personally still reeling from the fact that she had 130cm of her small intestine removed. Now if we can just get her walking again she’ll be great

The crazy part is, I’m no stranger to long hospital stays. I had a few when I was younger, and an over night stay just last year for my kidney stone surgery. I was at a different hospital, and their protocol was so different. I never saw a physical therapist, the nurses would just get me out of bed and make me do laps around the floor a couple times a day. And I was laid up for a few days way back when I was like 12 because one of the fucking nurses had me on an adult dose of morphine (my doctor was pissed, I’m pretty sure that nurse got fired that day), and I was super weak when they could finally get me up, but it was still just like two nurses and my mom helping me walk around. So I’d walk all over the hospital for as long as they’d let me. And like during my overnight stay last year, the night nurse woke me up at three in the morning like hey you have to walk I want you to do two laps around the floor, and then the day nurse woke me up at eight like hey same thing let’s do laps. They were obsessed with getting me out of bed and on my feet and I had a tube with a foley attached sticking out of my back and an IV stand with morphine to carry around. At this place, they’re like well we have to call a PT, and the PT doesn’t even work on that floor so they have to schedule an appointment, and the nurses apparently aren’t even allowed to just move her from the bed to the chair, so she’s just wasted away in this bed for a week and a half (and nearly three weeks last time)

It’s been so incredibly frustrating and stressful and I’m just ready for her to be back home 😭😭

[anonyanonymouse]

I'm so disappointed I won't be able to immediately tune in on the twst update like usual 😭 I'm pretty sure this is the first time I won't be watching it right after it's up, and not only that, but my early morning obligation preventing me from enjoying the update is going to last FIVE hours 😭😭😭