#to teach them that being emotionally vulnerable is a good thing

[kg-day]

Something I absolutely adore about The Lord of the Rings is the healthy depiction of masculinity, and how it's not seen through just the Hobbits - who are known for valuing friendship, love, and a quiet, simple life. It's Aragorn, Legolas, Gimli, Gandalf, Boromir, Faramir, Eomer, and Theoden. All of the men love, they laugh, they cry, they express themselves, they grieve, and they're never weaker for it. In fact, it's this emotional vulnerability - their capacity for love - that helps them succeed in saving Middle Earth. It's such a refreshing and beautiful thing to see.

Just props to JRR Tolkien for writing the characters the way he did and to Peter Jackson and the cast for bringing it to life so beautifully.

[elysiansparadise]

Aspects of Chiron

⚷ Chiron is a planetoid that helps us spot some of our wounds. You can get to know yours on Astro.com in the section “additional objects”. If you want to take a closer look to yours click here -> ⚷

⬜Chiron conjunct Sun: These people have wounds related to acceptance, either from themselves or from others. They may seek to help others in a selfless way, but they do not dare to ask for help or appear very vulnerable. Issues with the father or father figure. They may have confidence problems. They have a lot of charisma and people see them as very kind and polite people. It is likely that both the father and them have had a complicated life.

⬜Chiron conjunct Moon: They immediately make others feel good emotionally, they know what others need to feel good easily. They are very empathetic, caring and attentive people with those they love. They may have differences or issues with the mother. The mother and them could have had a complicated life. They may have trouble setting boundaries. Melancholic tendencies and remembering a lot about what once hurt them in the past.

⬜Chiron conjunct Mercury: These people have the ability to listen and understand well what other people want to express. They are excellent listeners and great advisors. They have a lot of wisdom. The wound lies in not feeling heard or understood by the people around them. They know what it's like to not feel heard, so they always show respect to others by being attentive. May have a tendency to hesitate about their own knowledge.

⬜Chiron conjunct Venus: These natives usually look for emotionally deep relationships in which they can open up to their partner and have them do the same. They may have wounds related to their beauty, feminine side or love life. Their partners can improve a lot thanks to the native and vice versa. They can see beauty in things that others don't. Usually shows an enchanting beauty rather tender and adorable. Great charm.

⬜Chiron conjunct Mars: These people may have had trouble standing up for themselves when they were young, but they never hesitate to stand up for others. Wounds with male figures, sex, or by the anger of others or their own anger. Setting boundaries could have been harsh for them.  They long to be people who guide others through justice, understanding and motivation. Over time they develop a strong temperament.

⬜Chiron conjunct Jupiter: These people have a lot of wisdom in themselves and can be developed souls. They learn from their mistakes and provide support, advice and healing to others. They could have gone through very tense things, which is why they mature before their time. They may doubt your skills and knowledge. Wounds by teachers. They can teach others to see the good side of themselves and look for ways to heal.

⬜Chiron conjunct Saturn: Feeling of not having been supported or of not having had the necessary guidance. They matured before their time and that led them to acquire a lot of wisdom. They will actively work to heal themselves and may become frustrated if they feel that they are not yet there. Their lesson is to learn that healing takes time and that they will eventually achieve it. Wounds related to not feeling enough or underestimating your successes.

⬜Chiron conjunct Uranus: Wounded by having felt different from the rest and/or judged for their uniqueness. These people may seek to help their friends alleviate their emotional problems. They have an eccentric charm and authenticity that attracts attention, becoming inspiring to others. They learned to solve their problems on their own and may have difficulty relying on anyone. Fear of becoming dependent on something or someone.

⬜Chiron conjunct Neptune: True healers, they can give themselves deeply to the work of helping others heal. Great counselors, they instinctively say and do the right thing to support others. Betrayals, deceptions and lies could have hurt them. Great artistic talents, great ability to dazzle many. Sweet, empathetic and very kind to their peers. Music, art and spirituality can be healing for them. Tendency to dissociate to avoid thinking about their problems.

⬜Chiron conjunct Pluto: Betrayals, death and abandonment could have deeply hurt the native. Problems trusting other people but incredibly reliable for those who they love the most. Loyal people who would like someone who would be as loyal as they are. Difficult childhoods in which they did not feel respected or loved. Ability to transform your wounds into your strengths and make them something truly beautiful. Interest in psychology and self-improvement.

⬜Chiron conjunct Rising: They can be very magnetic people to others and will evoke a sense of peace and comfort in others. They will actively seek to help other people feel good about themselves. They may have self-acceptance problems either because of their personality or their physical appearance. People can easily trust them and see in them someone very wise who has been through a lot. Very assertive and constantly wanting to improve.

⬜Chiron conjunct Midheaven: They most likely work on something related to supporting, healing and encouraging other people. From young people they think that the best thing would be to find a path in which they do more good for others. Tendency to set too many expectations for themselves and become frustrated and harsh when not meeting them. People feel naturally drawn to them and feel that they can be understood by them.

⬜Chiron trine Sun: They are people with a very intelligent and perceptive personality of the people around them, as well as themselves. They can have the gift of healing and be people with a nature that appeals to people because they are not judgmental or criticize or speak badly of others. People not only find them charming, but also kind and admirable. Ease of raising the self-esteem of others and helping them love themselves more.

⬜Chiron trine Moon: You give great emotional comfort to others and seem to understand them better than anyone. People deeply appreciate your support and the willingness you show to get to know them well. Your hugs are the most comforting and you can make others feel through small gestures. Mystical, charming and very empathetic. They love to make others feel safe and protected. You are very sensitive to the emotions of others.

⬜Chiron trine Mercury: Natives with a strong and highly developed intuition, a great ability to analyze the people around them. Your words can be of great help to another and bring them a lot of relief. They are very rational people capable of seeing many sides of the same situation. They may enjoy meditating or other methods to calm the mind. They can work well under pressure and help calm others with just words.

⬜Chiron trine Venus: Ability to help their partners find healing and will seek to accompany them during the process. Love can be healing for them and they have a deep liking to help those who need it most. Can transform their pain into beautiful things through art and/or hobbies they have. Of great tact and assertiveness. They like relationships in which there is mutual protection and where they seek to understand the other deeply.

⬜Chiron trine Mars: We encounter great leaders who, through motivation and meaningful actions [whether big or small] encourage others to help themselves. They have the goal of healing themselves to improve as people and let go of everything that stagnates them and does not help them. Assertive and blunt when it comes to establishing limits. They have a strong sense of self and do not allow themselves or others to be trampled on by anyone.

⬜Chiron trine Jupiter: They have the ability to teach and inspire others, and help them in the process of finding meaning in their own lives, as well as showing them that they can recover from the tragedies they experience. They can bring out the good side in people and encourage them to improve. Charitable, humanitarian and kind. They do not minimize the suffering or difficulties of others. They validate and support people who need it.

⬜Chiron trine Saturn: They do not let their wounds define them and have a great ability to overcome and heal from what once hurt them. Great maturity and resilience. Another indicator of leadership skills, these people teach others to find their power after they have found theirs. They seek to be the support of others and the support figure that they would have liked to have. They respect limits and beliefs even if they do not share them.

⬜Chiron trine Uranus: These people have the ability to move, let go and get rid of everything that does not contribute to their life or that does not make them happy. Altruistic but with their feet on the ground, they help those who allow themselves to be helped. They inspire others to be themselves without fear of what others say/think and can easily heal the wounds of the public, peers or those who feel they do not fit in.

⬜Chiron trine Neptune: They are people with a very strong imagination and great talents for creating beautiful things. Compassionate, understanding and generous with others. They may have a unique way of wowing others without trying very hard. They support and help others selflessly and can go out of their way to help those who need it. Altruistic and they have an old soul vibe. Very spiritual people who want to help others in their journey in this life.

⬜Chiron trine Pluto: They have a natural ability to get to the bottom of others' wounds, great capacities to help others find their inner power. They are people who have gone through many changes and who see in their wounds something that has made them strong enough to face what life presents them. There is something very appealing about them. Their strength may be something that others find dazzling and inspiring in many ways.

⬜Chiron trine Rising: They are very cordial and fascinating people in the eyes of others. A mixture of friendliness, intelligence and talent. They immerse themselves in a path of healing from a young age and kindly support their loved ones in the process. Ambivert, calm and patient. Many of them want to contribute positively to the lives of people significant to them, showing support and lending their ear and presence. 

⬜Chiron trine Midheaven: They are people perceived as friendly, caring and reliable, many people go to them and open up easily. It is common for many to lean towards a profession in which they provide support and care to other people. They see empathy and altruism as crucial values ​​for creating a better society. Many professional and academic successes await you. Noble heart and actions to contribute to society.

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⬜Chiron sextile Sun: Here we find very understanding and empathetic people who are willing to lend a hand to help those who need it most. They are sensitive and altruistic people. It is very likely that they have a very healthy level of self-esteem.They use their experiences and knowledge gained after personal situations to help others find solutions to their problems. 

⬜Chiron sextile Moon: Gentle and loving on the inside regardless of their exterior. They love to show love to those they love and know how to do it well. They adapt to people's love language and unconsciously make them feel comfortable. They are consistent, understanding and very giving when it comes to their bonds.

⬜Chiron sextile Mercury: A calm way of speaking, they know how to get to the core of others. Their words leave a positive mark on others. Constant search for knowledge, especially on spiritual or social issues. Deep understanding of people. They listen and fervently try to make everyone feel like they fit and are part of the group.

⬜Chiron sextile Venus: They like people in contact with their most intense and deep emotions. Love in the most wholesome way possible. A liking for comforting relationships with a strong emotional bond. They help others accept their body and beauty. They can be very good at resolving any conflicts or helping others see the good side of things.

⬜Chiron sextile Mars: They tend to be assertive when communicating what they don't like. They are brave, compassionate and charming. They actively look for ways to help themselves and others. These natives always try to give that feeling of security and protection to those they love and are not afraid to defend those they love from anything.

⬜Chiron sextile Jupiter: They help others see their positive traits and aspects. They are people who have become intelligent and wise because of what they have been through. Search for wisdom, both internal and external, and willingness to be wisdom for others. The trips they take can be healing for them. Kind heart and an appropriate level of empathy. Resilient.

⬜Chiron sextile Saturn: People who are strong in mind and heart, get ahead no matter what. They can provide positive lessons and a lot of support to those they love. They remain kind and compassionate no matter the hardships of life. Independent and highly devoted. Observant and attentive when it comes to others, they respect their own boundaries and those of others.

⬜Chiron sextile Uranus: They have come a long way to find self-acceptance and appreciation for all sides of themselves. Your actions and personality can be inspirational to others. Great sense of friendship, they are altruistic and very considerate of their friends. They feel proud of what makes them different from the rest and share/inspire this feeling with others.

⬜Chiron sextile Neptune: They are amazing at providing emotional support, perhaps sometimes more than practical. People feel good about your presence and readily accept your help. They intuitively know things that can affect or heal other people. They can use spirituality to heal and understand others deeply and to understand themselves better.

⬜Chiron sextile Pluto: They can transform themselves at a deep mental & emotional level, a sensation of reborn after a crisis, whatever it may be. These natives have a great intuition to know about the emotions and wounds of the other. Deep capacity for emotional, psychological and mental connection with many people, regardless of age, gender or background.

⬜Chiron sextile Rising: From a young age they are inclined to help, support and be there for other people. Interest in self-knowledge, psychology and self-improvement. They like to and usually come across as a strong person with whom you can vent, someone kind who understands your wounds. They always treat others as they would like to be treated. 

⬜Chiron sextile Midheaven: Easily gain the appreciation and trust of the people, because they seem approachable, kind and polite. Their work is related to healing issues or other forms of support for sectors of society. Others often see in them a good leader, someone who actively strives to improve the emotional state of the people.

⬜Chiron opposite Sun: The differences with their fathers could have brought about many issues between them. They may put on a very confident and independent appearance out of fear of being seen for who they are and being judged or criticized for it. He can be a good leader. Issues with your ego, either being too big or too little.

⬜Chiron opposite Moon: People feel safe with them, but they don't usually have that feeling. Issues expressing their feelings and/or communicating their emotional needs. They want to be there for those they love because they know what it feels like to not feel that support. Whether they want to be parents or not, they always show respect and kindness to children.

⬜Chiron opposite Mercury: Sometimes your own mind can hurt you, negative self-talk and view of yourself. They are people with great intelligence and great communication skills. They can have perfectionist tendencies and be very demanding of themselves. Excellent listeners, they can find quick solutions to problems of others but not of themselves.

⬜Chiron opposite Venus: They tend to be people who doubt the love they can receive. Some have the wound of thinking that they will not be loved. Very selective with their partners for fear of getting hurt. Many may ask for their advice on matters of love, regardless of the native's degree of experience. Their love can be very healing and pure.

⬜Chiron opposite Mars: They tend to put barriers between themselves and others, be somewhat defensive, and feel like they have to be alert. Tendency to anxiety and/or nervousness. They allow others to rely on them and do not hesitate to stand up for them. Very well established boundaries and do not allow anyone to be disrespectful to them.

⬜Chiron opposite Jupiter: They may be people who bring positivity to the lives of others but have issues with them staying positive. The hope that good things can happen to them is usually wounded. They are very spiritual people who seek knowledge regarding matters of this type. They seek a deep meaning in all things. Try to stay strong no matter what, 

⬜Chiron opposite Saturn: Tendency to expect the worst to happen. Skeptical and difficult to convince. They do not trust others easily. They could’ve felt that there was no one to rely on and they may have matured due to the absence of a stable and constant figure. Dislike being seen as vulnerable. Independent, logical and seen as strong by others.

⬜Chiron opposite Uranus: Feeling of always being different from the rest. They don’t feel accepted by others. Wounds related to loneliness or some abrupt change in their lives. They accept everyone regardless of their differences and hate making others feel like they are not included. May not want to be seen as weird, but embracing their identity fully will bring healing to them.

⬜Chiron opposite Neptune: Healing abilities that you may not be aware of. They can be very empathic and there is a risk of putting other people's problems on their shoulders. They have a noble and loving heart that they are afraid to show for fear of being deceived or hurt. Looking for physical ways to express their feelings can be very healing for them.

⬜Chiron opposite Pluto: Wounds related to trusting others, betrayals or little support in the past. They may have problems forgiving and/or forgetting. Constant feeling of not being safe, need to be alert and avoid betrayal at all costs. You may have a tendency to isolate yourself. These people definitely change the lives of those around them on a great level.

⬜Chiron opposite Rising: They may have many wounds regarding themselves, their value and abilities. They have a hard time trusting themselves and hate projecting that. Tend to overthink a lot before daring to do something. Help others with things they don't help themselves with. Fight the idea of ​​not being loved. They give themselves completely to loving someone.

⬜Chiron opposite Midheaven: People can see them as a person who has been through a lot and still has a noble heart. Differences with authority figures, it is likely that one of them has hurt them. They may have problems accepting help and having emotionally intimate moments with others. They provide the emotional and/or verbal comfort that they would have liked to receive.

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⬜Chiron square Sun: Differences and wounds resulting from the father, his actions or words towards the native. Trouble feeling happy with yourself or proud of who you are. Lack of validation in childhood. Ability to identify the wounds that others hold with themselves. They do not judge others and it's easy for them to be accepting and a positive influence on others. Tendency to doubt oneself a lot and have confidence problems. Helpful and generous. 

⬜Chiron square Moon: These natives carry many childhood wounds, their emotional needs may not be fully met. The relationship with the mother may be somewhat strained at certain points and they may feel that they cannot rely on her. These people are able to give a lot of emotional comfort to others and make them feel truly understood, but they hardly feel understood or connected to others. It is crucial that they heal their inner child.

⬜Chiron square Mercury: Painful words or memories seem to wander around your head constantly. Wounded by cruel comments from people close or significant to the native. They greatly doubt their intelligence. They are very understanding, observant and somewhat shy people, they dislike arguments and never waste their time talking to people who do not want to understand. They give the impression of being very wary, intelligent and rational.

⬜Chiron square Venus: Problems integrating your feminine energy and/or in your relationships. They may enjoy giving sincere compliments to others but have trouble accepting compliments. Your vision of your relationship or marriage may be damaged or you may have seen a lot of pain in the relationships of people you loved. They love intensely and want something genuine that will give them hope in love. Trouble seeing your own beauty.

⬜Chiron square Mars: They may have wounds related to male figures, their masculine energy, and frequent tensions or arguments in their childhood. They like to project themselves as strong and do not like to feel very vulnerable. They are afraid to take risks or initiative. They could feel that they themselves had to save and help themselves. They likely grew up in an environment that was boisterous, aggressive, or tense in some way.

⬜Chiron square Mars: They may have wounds related to male figures, their masculine energy, and frequent tensions or arguments in their childhood. They like to project themselves as strong and do not like to feel very vulnerable. They are afraid to take risks or initiative. They could feel that they themselves had to save and help themselves. They likely grew up in an environment that was boisterous, aggressive, or tense in some way.

⬜Chiron square Jupiter: They may have had great hopes or dreams that were disappointed in some way. They are people who can be hurt easily. Sensitive, very empathetic and compassionate. May have crises of faith, where they feel abandoned by God or another deity. They do not let anyone they love be immersed in sadness, being the natives who motivate them to find their own joy. Wounds are a product of the religion or beliefs that were transmitted to them.

⬜Chiron square Saturn: The father figure or figures that are supposed to be supportive could have hurt the native. Feeling of loneliness and deep sadness. They look for ways to motivate themselves to keep going. Silently caring and attentive with others. They don't put expectations on people but on themselves. Humble people. Respectful, responsible and hard workers. They feel better about themselves by achieving things and feel that it is the only way.

⬜Chiron square Uranus: Wounds from feeling separated, judged or not accepted by members of a community or people your age. Feeling like an outcast. They may have the feeling of being alone even with people. Wounds of abandonment or unstable people/situations in their lives. They may have difficulty loving all sides of themselves, but they want the ones they appreciate to succeed. Family chainbreaker vibes.

⬜Chiron square Neptune: Wounds for feeling forgotten or for feeling that others took advantage of your love and kindness. Evasive tendencies about their own pain, from addictions, overworking, or using humor to hide that the topic hurts them. Unconditionality and great devotion. Wounds of betrayal and/or disappointment from someone they loved. They don't want to worry those they love, so they isolate themselves when they have problems.

⬜Chiron square Pluto: They have a wound related to loss or abandonment, or even a lack of control over their own lives. They are too reserved with what torments them emotionally due to the fear of being judged or betrayed after opening up. They often feel like they can't rely on someone. May have a strong inclination towards spiritual themes as a way of helping themselves and others find inner peace and understanding of their inner demons.

⬜Chiron square Rising: The wound lies in physical appearance and this in turn can affect the way they see other areas of their lives. They are people who are too understanding of others, perhaps more than themselves. They will want and be able to help others not feel or go through what they do. They may have wounds that they have carried since childhood and/or because of one or both parents. They help others but hardly allow themselves to be helped.

⬜Chiron square Midheaven: Natives are likely to doubt their ability to achieve great things and may have a tendency to self-sabotage. They help others but refuse to be helped for fear of looking very vulnerable or weak. The father figure may have hurt the native in some way. They can work hard to not think about their problems. They may have problems trusting themselves and their potential. They are seen as wise and strong by others.

[cyberclouddream]

First House Overlay: what people identify with within you and how you can guide each other. Also includes the angles, Chiron, and BM Lilith :)

Sun in your First House

They identify with your confidence and ego, even if you may struggle with those things. They see you as a version of themselves they either admire or want to be. You radiate traits they think are worth showing off. You’re the type of person that’s difficult for them not to notice, because they may see you as commanding or vibrant. You’re akin to the living embodiment of their self-image, which is why they feel so drawn to you or feel the need to compete with you.

They tend to listen to you on advice about confidence and self-expression. They can help you when it comes to being your true self and owning your strengths.

Moon in your First House

They resonate with your emotions and sensitivities, whether you’re emotionally stable or a total wreck. They connect with how you feel and how you show vulnerability. You become a mirror of their own emotional responses, and they latch onto your moods like they’re their own. Whether they’re drawn to your sensitivity or repelled by your emotional baggage, they can’t help but identify with how you wear your feelings on your sleeve.

You can help them navigate their feelings by sharing your insights on vulnerability and emotional health. They can offer you a deeper understanding of your own feelings and provide emotional support well.

Mercury in your First House

They identify with the way you think and communicate. You’re someone whose thoughts reflect their own mental processes, making you seem relatable, witty, or just intellectually inclined to them. They see you as someone who think in the same way as they do. They see themselves in how you process and share ideas, even if you’re the type to constantly talk over them.

You help guide them when it comes to effective communication and thinking critically. They tend to challenge your ideas and introduce fresh perspectives to enhance your understanding of things.

Venus in the First House

You reflect the type of charm and beauty they value. They recognize you in the traits they love about themselves or want in others, like your charm, style, or allure. They can’t help but identify with how you express love, pleasure, or maybe you just look good to them no matter what. You embody their ideals of attraction, which is why they either fall for you or get envious.

You can help refine their tastes in love and aesthetics by sharing your opinions on relationships. They can teach you about emotional connections and the depth you often ignore.

Mars in the First House

They see their own drive, aggression, or sexual energy in you. They identify with your ability to take action or pick a fight. They connect with your raw energy and ambition, almost like you’re the manifestation of their own internal fire. They might see you as a fellow warrior for what they advocate for, or just someone whose energy reflects their own inner battles.

You can motivate them to be bold and assertive in pursuing their ambitions. They can inspire you to take risks based on their unique approaches to action and ambition.

Jupiter in the First House

They identify with your optimism, ambition, or philosophies. You come across as someone who reflects their desire for growth and expansion, whether that’s in wealth, wisdom, or lifestyle choices. They see you in the qualities that make them feel optimistic about life, like a reflection of their higher-minded aspirations. You embody the “go big or go home” attitude they wish to live by.

You help give them a reality check on growth and opportunities. They can provide you with goods ideas based on your potential.

Saturn in the First House

They identify with your sense of responsibility and control. You’re a walking reminder of what they value in terms of discipline, endurance, and hard work. They see a bit of their own caution and realism in how you handle yourself. They resonate with your type of structured, no-nonsense approach to life.

You can help hammer some discipline and responsibility into their lives. They tend to give you the tough love you need to commit and stick to your goals.

Ascendant in the First House

They identify with the way you present yourself to the world. It’s like looking into a mirror for them; your overall appearance, attitude, and how you come off at first glance matches what they either already are or want to be. You represent and idealized version if how they wish to be perceived.

You can help them polish their image and how they come off to others, and vice versa.

Midheaven in the First House

They see you as the kind of public image or success they want for themselves. Your career path, reputation, and goals hit home for them, they’re what they either align with or aspire towards. They look at you and see a reflection of the status they crave or the recognition they think they deserve.

You can teach them how to present themselves publicly or professional and own the room. They can make you rethink how you come across in your own career.

Imum Coeli (IC) in the First House

They identify with your private self, like your roots, family life, or emotional foundation. You bring out a reflection of their own home life or inner child. You feel familiar, maybe even like home to them. Whether it’s your emotional depth or the way you handle your past, they resonate with how you embody the most hidden parts of who they are at their core.

You can help them create a stable emotional base. They can offer you hard truths about your own roots and family drama.

Descendant in the First House

They identify with your approach to relationships and partnerships. You reflect the traits they want in a partner or the qualities they value in one-on-one dynamics. You’re a living version of what they think a good relationship looks like, and they see you in the traits they either seek in others or want to cultivate themselves. It’s almost like you mirror back their ideal relationship blueprint.

You tend to give them solid advice on relationships and partnerships. They can give you insight onto what true connection looks like.

North Node/Rahu in the First House

They identify with the future potential they see in you. You embody the qualities they’re striving towards, the lessons they need to learn in this life. They see you as someone who’s on the path they aspire to walk, whether that’s spiritual growth, career success, or personal evolution. You’re like a guidepost for where they need to head.

You can help them by sharing your growth experiences that resonate with their journey. They can help make you aware of goals you need to chase and focus on, like goals you’re too afraid to chase.

South Node/Ketu in the First House

They identify with your past, your ingrained habits, and your familiar patterns. They resonate with you because you remind them of where they’ve been or the lessons they’ve already learned. You represent a comfort zone for them, someone who reflects the easy paths of life. You’re a mirror of the habits they need to let go if but still feel connected to.

You can help them break free from their old habits. They can help remind you of the lessons you need to learn from your own mistakes.

Black Moon Lilith in the First House

They identify with your raw, unapologetic, and sometimes rebellious side. You embody the qualities they suppress in themselves, the untamed, instinctual, or taboo parts of human nature. They see a reflection of their own wildness or desires that are usually kept under wraps. You remind them of the parts of themselves that society doesn’t approve of, but they secretly crave to express. You reflect the shadow side of their nature that they might both fear and be drawn to.

You can push them to embrace their wild side and own their desires. They can help you confront your shadow self and understand your darker instincts.

Chiron in the First House

They identify with your wounds and the way you carry your pain. You reflect back to them their own vulnerabilities, weaknesses, and healing journey. They see you in the scars they themselves are grappling with, whether that’s emotional trauma, insecurities, or a sense of inadequacy. They see parts of themselves in your suffering or your attempts to overcome it.

You can share your healing tricks and how to deal with vulnerability. They’ll provide insights on pain that can help you in your own healing journey.

[tomurakii]

I like bloodweave. Okay. But I DON'T like the version of them in fanfic where Astarion is a dick and Gale is like. Whining and pleading for him to be emotionally vulnerable (or just. Nice to him) prior to the relationship being established. Because that is just not accurate. Gale needs the player to express interest in him during his weave-teaching scene before he even considers hitting on them properly. Gale is entirely resigned to his fate and needs someone else to pull him away from it. Gale only starts being sweet and romantic and devoted after you accept his love confession and give him hope for the future. Gale says fuck all and then slinks away to cry privately if you break up with him.

Like he isn't chasing after people lmao. He isn't dropping to his knees and crying about anything much less this dickhead he met a week ago. He is overwhelmingly passive about literally everything personal to him up to and including his own death (provided there are no casualties/there is a good reason) until after the player expresses that they care about him. Astarion is not doing that in any of these fics.

Like Gale is friendly and a dork and doesn't wanna get murdered but he fully has a suicide plan. He thought the artefacts would help him survive but he didn't believe he'd ever truly live again. If Gale confessed and Astarion said/did like one (1) mean thing afterward Gale's romance is closed off forever. He's wandering into the forest to cry. He's killing himself immediately. His fragile ego and self worth can't take it. You have to understand that when we joke about him being pathetic it's not bc he's like. Sopping wet and chasing people down and begging for a scrap of attention. It's because he craves affection but would literally rather die than ask or even hope for it until someone else forces that hope back into his serotonin-deficient tadpole brain.

[physalian]

How to Make Clean Romance Entertaining

@bananasugarwarrior ask and you shall receive

As an ace/arospec, I approach writing romance very differently than many authors and this is kind of my wish-fulfillment list more than anything.

Biggest detractor of implying anything in scenes you didn’t write: You don’t have those scenes to explore character development. I touched on this in What No One Tells You About Writing #6 and the problem I ran into a few times when writing ENNS and other works is that if you fade to black, you can’t continue important conversation or an exploration of boundaries, or fluffy new emotions, if they’d otherwise be in those missing scenes. Sex scenes are, unfortunately, prime real estate for some rich character development.

So you have to work all that rich character development around it. It’s up to you where you want to draw the line of “use your imagination” but everything up to the missing smut, and after, remains more prime real estate. You have loads of other options to explore clean intimacy and some I borrowed from this list that I reblogged about ways to show non-sexual intimacy between characters.

There’s more to a relationship to explore between your characters than just how good each other is in the bedroom. Here’s a few suggestions:

Tragic Backstory stuff and emotional boundaries

One teaching the other a niche or important skill to succeed/survive

A common physical threat, like monetary problems, job insecurity, sickness, or an actual challenge/quest/adventure/mission

A common emotional threat, like a lack of communication, or exercising an anxiety or phobia, or issues over speaking their minds

A common goal: Marriage, children, a new car or home, competing for joint acceptance into a team/group/club/prize competition

There’s also plenty for your love interests to think about their significant others aside from how sexy they are and how badly they want to get in their pants.

Introvert A can love how much B is an extrovert, or vice versa

A loves that B is good with animals, or children, the elderly, etc

A can love B’s skill and passion for their hobbies or a movement they believe in, or their stances on morality and the actions they take to back it up

A can love B’s skill as a teacher, their patience, kindness, and understanding

A can love B’s relationships with their friends and family, their maturity (or lack thereof), their work ethic

A can love B’s quirks and tics, like how they organize things or if they sing in the shower or how they dance when they’re listening to headphones

Point being:

And take this with a grain of biased salt because I’m ace and think sex is superfluous anyway: If you can’t write your characters in love with each other without sex, I won’t believe they’re in love with sex. Fiction, for me, that takes the narrative shortcut of “these two are the main couple of course they’re going to get together, I don’t have to do any work on writing why they’re in love you just came here for sex” annoy me, and quite a lot of other people, too, if the amount of gay ships that ignore the canon hetero couple are anything to go by.

The arc of their relationship doesn’t have to culminate in sex. Their arc should be specific to what these two characters want to achieve out of a romantic relationship. For a lot of people, that’s sex, but for others, maybe it’s just someone to cuddle on the couch with and watch movies, or someone they can finally trust and let in and be emotionally vulnerable with. Someone they can explore the town with, or travel, or take to dinner. Someone who doesn’t belittle them or laugh at them or disregard their interests.

Substitute relationship climaxes other than sex:

A finally trusts B with a secret they’ve been hiding for fear of ridicule, and B accepts them wholeheartedly (not Liar Revealed)

A and B finally perfect some routine they’ve been slaving over for months (like a dance or if they’re combat partners, a difficult maneuver)

A has been in love, but in doubt, and finally understands that B is The One when B is the only one to show up for A’s big speech/recital/presentation/gallery that no one else cares about

A has never let themselves be in love and it’s something wholly unspectacular that completely bowls them over with an epiphany

A is touch-averse and their biggest leap into physical intimacy is a huge hug, and B can’t be prouder of them

A and B narrowly survive some dangerous situation and have a serious realignment of priorities and newfound mad respect for each other

Actually, circling back to the whole “gay ships that ignore the canon hetero couple” thing:

This has been said before but if you’re looking for how to write a romantic relationship without sex, look no further than the male leads of many mainstream pieces of pop culture. Here, the presumption of romance isn’t built in, thus the writer has to actually put in effort to make these two characters like and respect each other, and give them things to talk about that isn’t just flirting. That’s what makes them feel more believable than the main man’s relationship with the cardboard lady lead.

[warmilksz]

How will your future spouse comfort you when you are sad?

Pick a Ghibli character Intuitive reading

Hi everyone 👋☺️ here is another reading I hope your ur day is a little brighter after reading this💕🫣 (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)⁠♥ Ghibli movies are my favorite movies ever. So I decided to make that the theme on this post! 💖💖💖Thanks for reading, liking, reblogging and sharing 💖💖💖

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CENTERING: Aight, just inhale for 4seconds, hold for 6, exhale for 8! Put all thoughts of the future and past to rest. Feels your hands, your chest rising and falling. We will get in touch with your intuition by appreciating the present.

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They really care, they love you. If you want to be alone they will respect that and leave you alone. I'm getting that when you guys are happy your really happy together. This may be my physical group 😳. Maybe they might try to soothe you sexually. I think they are kinda awkward when ur sad and they may not know the right words to say at times. But they know what makes you feel good so they will try to comfort you that way if u catch my drift 🫣. But I'm getting you may not always be happy after that, and may want to be left alone sometimes. Just to process your thoughts. (I'm feeling kinda heavy, are you going through something tough rn?) In any case, your spouse knows that u need space for you and wants to respect it by leaving you alone when you need it. And when you're ready to open up, they will be there waiting for you ready to hear you out 🤗.

Hmmm interesting I'm drawing a blank here. Maybe this person doesn't wanna show you, or has a hard time being vulnerable. The thing is, If you were sad, it would still shake them up emotionally. It's like they want to be this tough and strong for you on the outside ,your rock. But seeing you cry would shatter their heart inside 🥺! They would feel obligated to action. Like if it was something someone said that saddened you, they would confront them. If not they would immediately want to find a solution for you. On that note, I'm getting a strong masculine and possible feminine vibe here. Like a knight and a princess ☺️ Mainly the masculine one tho . Like one of you is kinda stoic and the other may be sensitive 😩. I think your relationship will teach them more about feelings and how important it is to be intune with emotions and not close their heart to things. U Will help them with it

Similar to pile 1 they will have a lot of respect for you and want to treat you like the independent person you are. But they also feel drawn to you when you are sad. It's very nurturing.. Im also picking up that some of your spouses are good communicators and they may have a way with words but for the most part, choose to stay silent and just hold you gently when ur sad. They want you to be at peace when ur with them, they wanna be your oasis in the dessert. I think they realize deep down they really just wanna scoop you up and never let you go from their arms 😢💕. I think you'd let them too 🩷😭 Awe! Sometimes silence and a gentle hug can speak more than any words.

For this pile, I'm getting they're such a try hard lol. It's really sweet and I'm already feeling kinda bubbly for this pile hahah. If u was sad, they would take one look at your face and be able to tell without you saying anything. This person takes notes on you 📖🩷! They would probably start being extra nice to you aswell. I'm getting buying you ice cream, or other sweet stuff, buying you shoes or that thing they saw you staring at while you didn't notice them. Maybe this person is well off 😌 cause when your sad they want to buy you happiness lol. Hmmm, if happiness was made, they'd buy the factory for u 😏 But they know that is just a bandaid. I think they love you so much they can't stand to see you feel sad. As adorable as it is, it's important to feel all your emotions, even the sad ones. Maybe you guys can cuddle and cry together. I'm getting they would share your tears just so you'd have less of them 😢💘

[dontbesoweirdkira]

I know it was kind of covered in your how many children would they have, but I want to know how Sam, Vito and Paulie would handle taking care and raising kids. I think it would be chaotic

A/N: let’s pretend this didn’t come out months later and at 1am.🫣 didn’t add Vito because I already spoke on him being a father.

Warnings: none super fluffy

Requests: open 24/7

Masterlist

Sam

I think Sam would be a rather stoic and emotionally absent dad. I’ve mentioned before that he absolutely loved his kids and would give them the world but he’s just flawed.

He’s terrified of being a bad father and his kids resenting him when he gets older so in turn he just shuts down a little bit.

I don’t think any of the mafia one characters had *great* fathers and so Sam is definitely struggling with navigating through fatherhood. Especially if he has daughters. He doesn’t know how or where to start with taking care of a little girl and he would push that more into the mother. He’d be a standard over protective dad who doubles as the walking atm.

I think with boys he’d have a bit of an easier time. At first when they are little he’s kind of stand-offish. That is an unknown territory for him and he’s never been good with babies or toddlers. He hates the crying, the diapers, the mess and all that. Getting down to their level is slightly uncomfortable for him to do aswell.

I like to think when they get older tho maybe around 7 or 8 he starts to lighten the load for his wife. Probably try to find more time away from the mob so he can actually get to know them. He’d take his kids out shooting, to sports games/races, to get ice cream and most importantly to meet the family.

I can imagine his kids being sneaky menaces. I just know one would sneak under the table during a meeting and bite Tommy’s ankle. Or steal candies from shops nearby while Sam is preoccupied.

I personally see sam as kind of like the older brother of the trio and new recruits of the mob. He’s an old soul and is rather good at teaching things. But—when the it comes down to it he can be a bit goofy and let himself go. I think he’s that way too with his boys. His dating and life advice are a bit….unconventional to say the least lol.

With time he’ll understand that it’s okay to be vulnerable with them and to show them more that he loves them. A few mess ups won’t change the undying love his boys have for him.

Paulie

The fun dad that everyone absolutely wanted growing up.

Paulie isn’t a perfect father by any means and he has a lot of work he needs to do on himself but he truly is a family man at heart. That’s all he’s ever wanted in his entire life and it’s the whole reason he joined the mob is to actually have people around him that “cared”.

Now he finally gets to be and provide everything that he never had growing up. Unlike Sammy, I think Paulie loveeees when his children are babies/toddlers. He loves getting down on the floor with them and playing pretend games. He’ll gladly listen to his baby girl talk about her dollies or his son boast about his trains all day. It brings him so much joy.

He never got to really have a childhood and for him this is finally his time to experience all the wonderful bliss of being a child.

He’s actually really great at calming the children down for nap time and poopy diapers doesn’t phase this gangster in the slightest. Anything beats working for the don.

Speaking of the mob, he would flip his absolute sh*t if he found out any of his kids tried joining or dating in the mob… he wants them to have a clean and happy life. Paulie has seen far too much death and heinous abuse to ever want that for his own.

As far as being serious and able to have teaching moments, I think this is where Sam has him beat. Paulie sometimes doesn’t want to get into the nitty gritty of things, he wants his babies to stay innocent forever. He doesn’t like having to correct them or be the bad cop ever. His children being upset with him kills him. Paulie just so desperately wants to be the good dad they can brag about to all their friends, he only wants them to have good memories.

Having the kids work at the pizza shop with him is a great way for him to install discipline and good morals into them while they can still have fun together.

Speaking of the pizza shop and chaos, lord help him. They have to clean for hours after each shift because they have frequent food fights😭

[idyllic-affections]

dad!pantalone brainrot (ft. il dottore & baizhu) iv.

summary. when their health issues flare up, there are very few doctors that their father will permit to treat them.

trigger & content warnings. implied canon-typical dottore violence, (empty) threats, chronic illness, blood, mentions of death, etc.

tropes, pairings, fic length, & other notes. hurt/comfort. dad!pantalone & reader, il dottore & reader, baizhu & reader. 0.7k words. they/them pronouns for reader. prev | next

author's thoughts. this series is never ending... in my defense, it was going to be a full-length fanfic but i never ended up pursuing that idea. anyway baizhu and pantalone are brothers here! idc if it ends up being non canon, its canon in my heart 💖 this got... slightly angstier than i intended. whoops!

when it comes to his child's health, pantalone only trusts two doctors in all of teyvat.

(he objectively trusts one far more than the other, though.)

il dottore is an... unfortunately large part of their life. the regrator did eventually accept that it was inevitable, given how "close" he and the doctor tend to be. dottore is one of their many tutors, though admittedly, his teaching methods are probably a little concerning... at least [name] is proficient in anatomy and physiology! perhaps pantalone should reconsider whether or not his child should be left alone with him. he'd somewhat gotten over his initial concerns about leaving them with him and his segments after seeing zeta nearly tear someone's head clean off in their defense, but perhaps it's time to reconsider! the second may not be hurting them, per se, but he is creating a desensitized little thing.

(though... it may very well be for the best, given their harbinger lineage. they cannot afford to be soft or squeamish. pantalone knows this very well.)

the second fatui harbinger is also largely responsible for making sure they're in good health. semiannual check-ups are a standard practice as opposed to annual ones; they did happen to inherit their father's poor immune system. dottore once offhandedly commented that it probably came more from the regrator's brother, as even pantalone isn't as prone to illness as his child is. the doctor has never met baizhu personally, but pantalone knows he's right. they tire so easily... sometimes it makes him sick with worry. regardless, it runs in the family, and some get it worse than others, so check-ups are more common.

(check-ups are always an amusing sight when zeta is around, wordlessly fiddling with a needle suspiciously close to their neck.

"put that needle in my throat and i will tear out yours."

he only smiles at them.

their smug aura does not mock him; contrary to popular belief, he finds it quite funny and endearing! they are the only person that can get away with talking shit like that. not even the other dottore clones can talk to him like that without getting a violent response. he lets it slide with omega because he has to, but beyond that...

he's fond of them. he's just too emotionally constipated to admit it.)

however, sometimes pantalone doesn't completely trust dottore not to harm them when they're seriously ill and vulnerable. he knows dottore would gain nothing by bringing them harm, and yet...

archons, becoming a father has made him awfully protective, hasn't it? surely he wasn't like this before he took them back from arlecchino?

times like those, times in which their illness would act up to the point of leaving them bedridden, making them shiver and tremble and spit up blood... times like those are when he calls upon baizhu.

he'd understand their illness better than dottore ever could, anyway. pantalone was right to make such an assumption.

"has your father taught you nothing of energy management?"

"energy management?" they scoffed sarcastically, the warmth from the cup of herbal tea in their hands soothing the chill in their trembling fingers, "from the man who hardly takes care of himself? please. he acts as if he isn't also chronically ill. he'll literally work himself to death if he isn't more careful. it's... worrying, actually." they tapped their nails against the cup mindlessly, chewing on the corner of their lip.

anxiety was not good for their health, especially not when they were already this ill.

"oh?" baizhu's interest was very much piqued at that, and their lips twitched upwards slightly at the way his hand stroked over their head calmingly. "in that case, i'll have to teach you my methods, but... he's been taking poor care of himself, has he?"

"the poorest."

"i see. do tell me everything, for... future reference."

they knew very well that 'future reference' meant a firm chiding. oh well! it's not like they purposely exposed their father's poor habits, no no. they were a loyal child. they'd never do something so terrible and unforgivable...

unless it was baizhu who asked, of couse. it would be awfully rude to withhold secrets about his own relatives from him, after all!

pantalone may get sick with worry over their health, but the sentiment is very much mutual.

please consider reblogging, it helps me out quite a lot!

[loveemagicpeace]

Machine Gun Kelly & his birth chart 🧚🏼‍♀️

💕Gemini rising with mercury in 12th house- the house in which you have your chart ruler is very important because it plays an important role in your life. Mercury in his case means that for him expression through words is very important. In general, being heard and noticed is important to him. But because mercury is in his 12th house means that he expresses himself through his subconscious. Spitituality is an important part of him, and with this he can also find himself. But the 12th house is a very artistic house and is associated with talents that you don't even know you have. He has many talents and is talented in many things because his energy is like that. He can do anything he sets his mind to. It is important for him to express himself through art, energy and music. It is precisely for this reason that not everyone notices it, because the 12th house is a hidden house that does not show outwardly, but you can feel it. To trust through the unknown.

🌙He has Cancer in his 3rd house which means that his expression is quite deep, that he likes to share his pain with others. He talks a lot about his family and childhood. His mind is sensitive and vulnerable - words can hurt him deeply, although he rarely shows it outwardly. Water signs are more about emotions, which in themselves show energy. Therefore, water signs rarely ever actually talk about pain directly, but prefer to express it through art.

🌱Chiron in his 2nd house that his traumas can be expressed through values. He does not know how to appreciate himself, or often feels that he is not enough. A sense of worthlessness can often be present here. He also have jupiter here but his jupiter is Conjunction his chiron -it initiates a profound journey of healing, growth, and integration. This can indicate wounding related to his faith in life. Can indicate an unconscious belief that money is bad. His optimism and faith can be also hurt. This aspect can make him search for answers to the great questions of life. It can manifest as a feeling of worthlessness, sometimes leading to self-destructive behavior. He can feel that life has no meaning and that the universe doesn’t care about him.

🫧Moon in 11th house -he talks a lot about how he feels and publishes a lot about his feelings, but on the other hand, this is something that is very difficult to express in front of others. Especially since he has a pisces moon, which is emotional, vulnerable and sacrificial. Emotionally, social networks can exhaust him and make him sad.

🐚4th house Leo but his Sun is in the 12th house-which means that his family has never been completely stable. That as a child he had to face many difficult and unusual things. He was never fully seen and had to show his true self as he is. Above all, no one really saw him. And that's also the problem now, people don't see it enough. But it is complex because the 12th house represents your subconscious and the things you do better when you are alone.

✨5th house virgo but again his chart ruler is in 12th house -therefore, it is also more difficult for him to express his art and many people do not fully understand it. As a virgo here, he wants to serve to people and give them what they want. But at the same time you don't know how. Even his relationship with his daughter shows that he loves her very much and that she is very important to him. The problem here is that sometimes you simply don't know how to show your child love (especially when you have an empty 5th house).

💜Sagittarius in 7th house & jupiter in his 2nd house- he is lucky with relationships and attracts many good women. You can learn a lot from the relationships you have. He can attract many women who teach him a lot or who are very wise and intelligent. Megan Fox is taurus this is only confirmed by his jupiter in the 2nd house representing his wife- who can be smart, high value, appreciates things. But because of his aspect jupiter conj chiron it can mean that many relationships can be more vulnerable and that he can often feel that he doesn't deserve love.

⚡️With pluto in his 6th house you push yourself to go to the end. To do what you want. He himself said that he becomes obsessed with work. He also have libra in his 6th house which means that he wants to serve others and wants others to see that he is trying.

Mercury Sextile Venus- His way of expressing himself is through music, and that is what inspires him the most.

Mercury Opposition Pluto-The deeper way he expresses himself and shows his feelings is through things he really feels. He uses strong and powerful words a lot. He can express emotions more deeply.

Venus Trine Pluto-The love he feels through the things he loves is very strong and he is always deeply loyal to what he does. For him, music is something that accompanies him and through which he can express himself and his emotions. He feels love very deeply and his love is also felt in a deeper way. Leave a mark. You can see how deeply his music can hit you.

Venus Sextile Neptune-he has a lot of imagination and can quickly empathize with the emotions of others. But this can also be seen from his style of dressing, that he is always dressed more like some kind of cartoon character and also more pisces style.

Mercury Trine Neptune-he has a vivid imagination and can imagine many things. He can think or imagine a lot. This can be good and bad. With his Mercury in the 12th house, it is noticeable that his own thoughts can quickly confuse him and take over his way of thinking. He can see things that aren't there. But he can also be much more prone to wanting to escape from reality.

Pluto Square North Node-his path involves a lot of transformation and change. It can attract a lot of people who are toxic or more intense. It can mean that he can struggle a lot to achieve things. But he can feel lonely many times.

Pluto Trine Chiron- he can have a lot of pain, which is very deep and strong. But he doesn’t show it on the outside. He can transform his pain in a beautiful way. His losses and grieving process help awaken him to dynamic energy. These people are not afraid to go deep into pain or face it. They can really talk more deeply about the pain.

Venus Trine Chiron-he can express hispain beautifully. People can find your pain helpful. Many times, these people can express pain beautifully through music or through any art.

🫧He has a lot of pisces energy therefore he is also many times affected by all things. And that is why many times he seeks his escape in drugs, alcohol or similar thing. It can draw a lot of energy from others.

-Rebekah🧚🏼‍♀️🌙🫧

[ahotpileofs-it]

I have a shit ton of ideas for tanaka cause hes my favorite hamster in funger

Tbh these ideas kinda give him the plot armour funger never gave for our shonen anime protagonist so if you don't like that, feel free to scroll past

What would Tanaka be like as a playable character?

Here are my ideas:

Since he is a latent soul, he can get the skill trees of others without killing them (of course it will take longer to obtain them rather than killing them, though).

This mechanic will basically be asking others to teach you how to do their stuff TM

So because of this there will be a 'friendship' system for Tanaka. (Canonically, Tanaka won't see this as friendship, tough guy since four and all,... but my fanon heart says that yes he will. I will force Tanaka to be emotionally vulnerable for my fanon heart, and I say this as a threat.)

Some characters are more unwilling to share their skills with Tanaka, depends on persuasion and first impressions (based on what dialogue you choose and how good you are at observe).

I think a special case would be Daän as I theorize that Tanaka asking for his knowledge and skills would remind his relationship of himself and Eihner Von Dutch... probably if you play as Tanaka on a run he would be the first person willing to bring him under his wing, so to speak.

You can probably gain multiple skills from others at once, but for characters that we know do not like each other, if they do realize that Tanaka is also mentored by the guy they don't like, they'll stop teaching him and his persuasion won't work as well on them. Also 'friendship' decreases with them. Sometimes both characters pull out which would be a great loss. (Like anyone with pav, karin with the magicians and daan, if you attempt to learn from caligura in front of any contestant, etc.)

Really big point here: we know that Tanaka is unprepared for the Termina festival, thus being the weakest contestants in the beginning. You'll have the most opportunities for death playing as his character, especially so on harder modes, and that can easily end your run.

Also why Tanaka is the hardest character to play as, because you need to stay alive (which WILL be hard, as both mind, body, and hp are significantly lower. Remember, unprepared hamster not ready for the fears of the jungle) for long enough to be able to start learning from others (would think that this studying starts at day 2, or day 1, which if I remember are the days with the most amount of events that Tanaka could die).

I would like to think that him learning from Marcoh would always be canon, even in any multiverse. He really needs the hp boost.

As you learn more and more, these can be things that naturally give Tanaka increase in body, mind, hp, and any other stats. You can still get these stats from items though.

Because Tanaka never experienced something like termina before, his mind stat is irreversibly capped less higher than other contestants. I think that could be a great way for the game to signify that Tanaka is really traumatized by these events. And also went a bit mad for his late meeting lol.

I really think we should bring back "handsome rugged looks" skill for Tanaka. It would be really funny if he were to be the only contestant that could seduce. Will also increase affinity with Sylvian.

With this "rugged handsome looks" skill your persuasion would be improved, and you can make certain enemies skip their turn using that.

Dialogue would probably be like "... is shocked at your vulgar display." I think the moonscorched villagers were raised in pseudo-christianity where they probably said sex isn't ok and the only exception is for Sylvian cultist/sacrifices for sylvian... and I believe in my heart that this skill is obviously not for that god. (a/n: considering that funger has shown rape, I don't think that this would be realistic... probably still effective, but not THAT effective).

Would think that enemies like the Sylvian trooper would either be unfazed or say some flirty stuff idk (skill won't work)

Also! I really like the extra coin toss skill that other folks think would happen with non npc! Tanaka. Really neat.

Speaking of persuasion, Tanaka would have more effective persuauion than other because he is a salaryman. It's basically his job.

On the 'friendship' system, based on different friendship stats you will get different b endings as what your skills are are directly affected by who teaches you. I would also like to think that once Tanaka's latent soul 'awakens', he won't be willing to go back to his old job with new skills he isn't going to use. (a/n: this is where the op part kicks in. Realistically, his b ending would just be the same: only how fast you defeat Termina and if you did succeed would be affected. Still, I like dreaming for my favourite boy to be happy for once. And leave his family cause they really were not good to him, even though they are miles better than other families, they still suck).

When one of the contestants that teaches him moonscorches, if you encounter them he won't fight them, no matter what you do. He will never fight the person that helped him from the ground up. He can never bite the hand that feeds, even if the hand tries to choke him. And that is written in his stubbon nature. (a/n : he was raised to NEVER reky on others, and even if learning from others DO go against this pesson, it will become his character arc to depend on someone else to be stronger. However, I do think canon!Tanaka does still have some self-preservation, and in this case canon Tanaka would probably prioritize his life over morals like this. But my fanon heart is a sobbing girl that likes to think that it's favourite characters would rather kill themselves than kill their friends, and honestly it needs more angst to feed from).

And this part is REALLY, REALLY plot-armoury and really not canon, but in my heart, and even my head, they both agree that Tanaka's b-ending (in my ideas) wouod be the most canon b-ending, as other contestants 'live on' through Tanaka. He carries their memories, and skills, and he uses them to fight Per'kele.

Note: I still like the idea that the logic god ending is canon and what would happen in the 3rd installment, though.

This is the end to my ramblings, sorry for any grammar mistakes, spelling mistakes, etc. English is not my first language. Tahnks for reading this far, to this long-ass tumblr post. I wonder if I can make this into a scarf.

[furiousgoldfish]

One of the most hypocritical 'rules' of abusive families is that if you tell anyone outside the family, or even inside, something that makes your parents 'look bad', you're automatically betraying them. Like it's your job to keep their secrets and to protect them from 'looking bad to others' at any cost. They'll enforce this rule not only by warning you that 'what happens at home stays at home' but actively punishing you if you accidentally let something slip that you didn't even know wasn't normal to do to kids.

On the other hand, they can do whatever they fuck they want to you, and it's still not betrayal, in their own point of view. They can neglect you, fail to take care of you, ignore you, turn you into their emotional-support-child, have you do their part of work at home, have you responsible for more things than they themselves are, they can fail to teach you any life skills, fail to nurture your psychological health, fail to protect you from predators, fail to keep you safe completely, hell they can even get violent and knock you around and torture you for fun and entertainment, humiliate you as a joke and throw insults at you as if you were not a human being, and still it somehow doesn't count as betrayal!

And the thing is, all things on that list that they do to you are a betrayal! All of this means they've failed to provide a family to you, it all means you've been emotionally abandoned and forced to live as if you had no family at all, you had to earn your right to eat and sleep there, you had to raise yourself while enduring abuse, you had to deal with everything in life alone and fear your own lack of abilities to take care of yourself because nobody ever did that and nobody ever taught you how!

Telling others what happens at your home, however, is not a betrayal, it's simply repeating your experience to someone! If your family isn't abusive, this should be a normal and safe thing to do, even with uncomfortable and weird situation, it would not make a family member look abusive if they weren't actually actively abusing you.

You have not betrayed anyone if you speak your truth. The rules of 'everything must go in our favour and nothing in yours' are not real. That is not what family does. If this is what your family demanded of you, they weren't a family to you. Family should be benefiting children, not the reverse! Children are not obliged to do anything to be a part of family! It should be your birthright.

We are not going to build up a world where children are supposed to be 'of good use' to their parents, rather than the parents doing everything they possibly can to raise a happy, valued and healthy child. If you ended up miserable, guilty, traumatized, abandoned, neglected, unwanted, feeling worthless and like something about you is unlovable or irredeemable - they betrayed you. They hurt you when you were the most vulnerable and most in need of safety and protection. You do not owe them anything. And you do not have to forgive them.

[direwombat]

oc smash or pass

*showing up to this a year late with a starbucks* hey guys...

tagged by @socially-awkward-skeleton, @shallow-gravy, @strafethesesinners, @adelaidedrubman, @rhettsabbott, and @josephslittledeputy

and @carlosoliveiraa

Rules: pretty self explanatory. include physical descriptions or pics, and propaganda. the “other” label can be used for “sexuality misalignment” (ie: oc is femme and you’re gay, vice versa or you aren’t into smashing but a specific thing you wanna do with them like perhaps hug or study them under a microscope idc).

QUICK FACTS:

Height: 5’9"

Age: 35 (circa. 2018)

Gender: cis woman (but in the sense that she's just running on default settings and didn't bother to investigate other options.)

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: bisexual

propaganda under the cut

pros:

🐇 loyal. unwaveringly so. she will buckle down and stand with you through your lowest of lows and once you've weathered the storm, she will be there to lift you up and celebrate making it through.

🐇 bilingual! will teach you louisiana french to the best of her abilities if you're interested in learning. she starts with the swear words.

🐇 versatile and attentive in bed. she has her preferences, but is ultimately more interested in what brings her partner pleasure.

🐇 witty. she loves a good back-and-forth and banter is a good way to test your compatibility with her.

🐇 you'll never have to hire a handyman or mechanic ever again. she will take care of it for you (fix your plumbing, touch up the paint on your porch, change your oil/tires, etc). she's like a working dog and needs to feel useful. and that's on top of helping you do household chores.

🐇 while not necessarily spontaneous, she is down to go with the flow when it comes to a night out. all you gotta say is "hey, do you want to do/go to/see xyz?" and her response will almost always be "sure, lemme get my keys/jacket." get the right amount of booze in her too and you can convince her to engage in most shenanigans.

🐇 enjoys a good late night philosophical conversation or debate. preferably sitting outside under the stars in a white plastic chair and a beer in her hand.

cons:

💀 smokes like an industrial smokestack and reeks of tobacco. hope you like how nicotine tastes because that's all you're getting when you kiss her.

💀 infuriatingly stubborn and prone to self-destructive behavior. will work herself to the bone until she's passing out in order to keep herself distracted and will turn to the bottle when she starts to spiral.

💀 poor emotional communicator. refuses to be emotionally vulnerable and gets deeply uncomfortable when talking about her feelings (and her past).

💀 has night terrors and wakes up thrashing and screaming almost every night. assuming she sleeps at all. also she doesn't take any of her meds so it's going to keep happening.

💀 you will have to listen to her complain about food not being as good as it is in new orleans

💀 bootlicker (voluntarily joined the military and became a cop :/)

💀 claims to be non-religious but is undeniably culturally catholic.

taglist (opt in/out)

@g0dspeeed, @omen-speaker, @confidentandgood, @tommyarashikage, @cassietrn

@fourlittleseedlings, @purplehairsecretlair, @aceghosts, @finding-comfort-in-rain, @voidika,

@locustandwildhoney, @testyfestyenthusiast, @strangefable, @inafieldofdaisies, @alexxmason,

@deputyash, and anyone else wanting to do this!

[elysiansparadise]

Synastry Observations IX

🩶Harmonious aspects between Uranus and Moon make them both able to vent with each other more easily. They feel that they do not have to keep their emotions to themselves and can show them freely with each other, not only because they genuinely try to understand each other, but also because they do not feel that the other judges them for being emotional or for feeling vulnerable. In addition, they help each other get out of their comfort zone and can bring a lot of variety to each other's lives, encouraging them to live new experiences that make them feel emotionally fulfilled.

🩶The aspects between Mars-Vesta create an extremely sensual and passionate atmosphere between you two, both seek to surrender and surrender completely to the other, succumb to their mutual fantasies and enjoy the other's body, flooding themselves with the most primal and burning desire. They want to give the other as much pleasure as they receive, a simple touch is enough to make them tremble, a kiss to belong to the other and one night to see an eternity together.

🩶When your chart ruler falls in the other person's 4th, 8th or 12th house, it is very likely that they will see you as an emotionally deep person, someone with a huge heart although reserved for those you truly appreciate. Sometimes you give them the impression that you read them very easily... too much for their liking. They feel like they can't hide anything from you and that you are able to truly see them for who they truly are. They may feel strangely drawn to you from the beginning and that way in which you touch the most sensitive fibers in the most beautiful and pleasant way.

🩶Moon falling in the other's 3rd house makes you both instinctively understand each other, you feel comfortable talking to the other and you find that the other seems to know exactly what you think or feel about something. There is a strong emotional and intellectual connection, they feel that they can open up to each other like no one else and it is even likely that they have quite similar opinions, experiences and ways of seeing things.

🩶When Juno makes a conjunction, trine or sextile to the other's North Node, a spark of being together can be born in both. They both feel that with each other they can commit to having a serious relationship and can see each other as husband/wife material. They awaken in each other a desire to be together and they can feel a strong loyalty to each other. It is very likely that they want to teach each other what it is like to have a reliable relationship, where love and effort is constant.

🩶Ceres aspecting Venus makes both love to take care of the other, likewise, they seek to satisfy the other's needs and give them everything they ask for, it is a mutual pampering and spoiling. They awaken the greatest and most intense adoration for each other and have the genuine desire to care for and protect their hearts. They both worship each other's bodies, they want to feel every pore of the other, slide their hands into that sensual figure that drives them so crazy. They love satisfying each other's romantic fantasies and making sure they feel the pleasure and love they deserve.

🩶If Mercury is conjunct the Descendant, it is very likely that you both think of each other romantically. Both feel intellectually stimulated by the other and see in the other person someone with a brilliant, beautiful and unique mind. This duo makes the other feel heard, understood and their interest in each other is noticeable. They help each other learn from each other, both on an individual level, and to discover what they are truly looking for in a partner.

🩶The aspects between Jupiter-Neptune mean that between you there is that feeling of being predestined to meet, and that feeling of having connected easily with the other, and despite having been fast, they make it feel so good. Both can frequently dream about each other and this causes them to have an idealized, deep and more positive vision of friendship/romance. They may find themselves daydreaming about each other and want to experience many things at their sides.

🩶When your stellium falls in someone's 9th house, there is a good chance they will see you as a person from whom they can learn a lot. You inspire them and they find themselves having many spontaneous realizations when they talk to you, likewise, they see you as an admirable person to whom they can turn for advice. Fun with you is guaranteed, but on many occasions you can give them reality checks [especially if your stellium is in an air or earth sign].

🩶When your Pallas is conjunct or making a trine with someone's Venus, they see you as a superior person, even out of their leagues. There is a touch of distinction in you, they know that you are not someone they can simply charm with words, for them you are someone who mixes grace, elegance and cunning, they cannot fool you and very often you keep them on their toes. There is a deep admiration from them towards you and both of you can often find yourself thinking about the other spontaneously throughout the day.

🩶When Mars falls in the other’s 3rd house there is a playful and teasing atmosphere around the two. They both challenge each other, laugh out loud with each other and quickly arouse interest. The others easily realize the tension between you, how that playful banter has overtones of desire involved, how between the jokes you make it clear that it is only with the other with whom you connect in this way. They can easily motivate or make the other feel energized, they mutually entertain each other.

🩶Vesta conjunct Moon awakens in each other the purest and most genuine emotions they have ever felt. There is a strong desire to preserve the happiness and comfort of others, to make those gestures that they like so much just to make them smile. There is a deep and pure adoration for the other, as well as a strong devotion that can endure no matter how much time passes. Sensitivity, deep conversations and the feeling of being safe flow between you.

🩶The house in which someone's Pars of Fortune falls will be the area that begins to flow for you or the aspect of your life in which your partner can help you feel more fulfilled. When it falls in the 1st, 2nd or 5th house you can feel that your self-confidence increases considerably. If it falls in your 2nd, 8th or 11th house you may feel that your finances flow better since you are with them. If it falls in your 3rd, 5th, or 12th house, you can feel more creative. In earth houses [2nd, 6th, 10th] you can feel that you progress professionally more easily.

🩶The aspects between Sun-Neptune mean that there is a need in both, a desire to know each other on a deeper level. When we see this aspect, it is very likely that in you there is not only a strong connection, but an ease in understanding each other. You both love each other unconditionally regardless of the flaws or differences between you, you both know how to look beyond it and small differences do not make your love for each other diminish. A lot of support, care and fascination for each other. They could have easily fallen in love with each other.

[bones4thecats]

Shadow Raker x Fembot spider reader, both are Conjux, the reader has the same personality as her and acted like a mother towards Slipstream and Jetstrom, the reader always told them that stealing is good, on earth she is also upset with Drift for taking Slipstream and Jetstrom, also that Shadow Raker and Reader were Airachnid's parents, (I have a Headcanons that Shadow Raker is Airachnid's father and I had to say it)

Shadow Raker's F! S/O Being A 🕷️Mother

Characters: Shadow Raker Requester: @zinnia1506 A/N: PEOPLE GIVE THIS GUY SOME LOVE. HE MAY BE A MANIPULATIVE ASSHOLE, BUT HE'S A LOVEABLE ONE. ⚠️ Spoilers/Trigger Warnings for: War, insinuated horrible parenting/teaching, kidnapping, and fighting. Also, spoilers for Robots in Disguise (2015) S3 Ep9 ⚠️

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╚═════ Shadow Raker ═══════════════════════════╝

🗡️ As fellow Mentors to many young Cybertronians, you and Shadow Raker began your friendship fairly early, specifically just before the war began

🗡️ When it started, the two of you and your students were affiliated with the 'Cons, before leaving the planet to find some more prizes you could come across. Whether it be another student or a thing, living or not, worthy of a cost

🗡️ It took quite a while before you actually bonded, since you had high demands to meet with making sure your students stayed in line with your ideals. But, once bonded, the others could tell you two were far from easy when it came to harming the other. Even if someone tried to touch your shoulder in reassurance, Shadow Raker would be right there, glaring at whomever it was, student or not

🗡️ Once again, it was a while before you became a Carrier and he a Sire. Your sparkling, whom you named Airachnid, was destined to be just as 'amazing' as you both. Maybe she would even lead her own group of students. Highly unlikely, but still

🗡️ In honor of yours and Shadow's closest student, you nicknamed Deadlock, now known as Drift, the 'older brother' of the young spider 'Con

🗡️ Unfortunately, the peaceful life you both lead went to Hell when Deadlock ran off with the two minicons that Shadow Raker was teaching and you were practically raising alongside Airachnid

🗡️ You were pissed when he left. It wasn't that much earlier that your child had left the ship in pursuit of her own life during the war, heading more towards Megatron than her parents did. And you were proud, but got even worse when you lost all contact with her

🗡️ So, having the only two beings that could've come close to replacing the female just get taken and cut off from you got you to the brink of insanity. Thankfully for you, Shadow Raker pledged he would find the boys and bring them back, dealing a proper punishment for the egregious actions taken by Deadlock

🗡️ Searching for the minicons and older one took far longer than anticipated. And in that time, you were made aware of Airachnid's banishment for attempting a mutiny against Megatron not once, but multiple times, and you were appalled. How did you raise that beast?! You taught her to always succeed, failure was never allowed

🗡️ Shadow Raker, during your search, was your only consultant, since the rest of your students had either left your holds and passed, or had just been gone after being called upon by another high-ranking commander in the cause

🗡️ As you landed on Earth and came across the trio of brightly-colored bots, you were shocked to see how different they looked. Drift was far more emotionally attached than you believed, and the boys were so, so much more vulnerable than how they were with you

"Deadlock, my boy, do please allow us to raise the boys once again. Come now, we were the ones who practically raised you to be what you are. You can't hate us now because you side with those brainwashed and corrupt hierarchy Autobots." You said, a memory of picking the then youthful Deadlock up from the ashes of the self-destructing planet.

"My name is not Deadlock, Y/N. And the Autobots do not believe in such a horrific cause. They believe in justice and honesty, in the name of not a tyrannical and energon-thirsty mech, but a honor-filled and benevolent leader. And you did not raise me into what I am now. You made me into a monster, I made myself into a being deserving of two well-meaning students."

🗡️ Shadow Raker cocked an eyebrow and laughed before declaring a punishment was well-earned in the fake scenario he was placing in your children's mindsets

🗡️ As the past mentor and student fought, you aimed for your boys. Allowing yourself to become the form similar to your daughter's and picked them up with webbing around them, keeping them balled up before they could hit your Conjunx

"Now, now, Jetstorm and Slipstream. I'm sure you two will be right at home back on Mother's ship, right?"

"You are not their Mother!"

"Oh, do hush up, Deadlock. You know how much the two matter to Y/N. Wouldn't want to hurt her feelings, now would we?"

I'm to lazy to write the rest of the episode, but the rundown is that Shadow Raker and the Reader escaped onto their ship before being arrested and put into a stasis pod. So, in the end their whereabouts and unknown and the trio of boys get closer than before! Cute I know~

Also, this is how I imagined the reader looking like (credits to art_retr0 on Twitter/X or retr0inactive on Instagram)

[butterflydm]

2x7 - daes dae'mar (more thoughts)

I threw some thoughts out last night before I went to sleep because they were bouncing around in my brain and I wanted to get them down but I wanted to expand on some of that this morning.

Two things we were told in 2x1:

every choice has consequence(s)

alone, we are exposed but, together, we can be a shield wall

We have seen a lot of consequences coming to roost on people's heads this season. One that seems to have surprised a lot of viewers is that we are seeing big consequences from Moiraine and Lan's twenty years of secrecy. Which is both things wrapped up together - the choices they've made have isolated them. While in some cases that's a good thing (Liandrin knowing about the Dragon Reborn hunt would have been very bad!), they've also now had two different Sisters willing to go against Tower law in order to help them (Verin & Alanna).

Choices and consequences.

Moiraine lets Rand go at the Eye of the World in 1x8 -> it takes her until 2x4 to find him again, and it's only after one of the Forsaken has already been manipulating him for months.

Moiraine hides her weaknesses and fears even from the people she loves most -> the people that she loves worry about her intentions. Lan had to go on an entire season-long journey to come to terms with being shut out of Moiraine's head; Siuan has only just learned that Moiraine has been lying to her by omission for six (!) months. (Siuan has just as much right to be angry over this as Rand's loved ones have to be angry with him over lying about being dead imo)

Lan keeps Moiraine's secrets at any cost -> Alanna, Ihvon, and Maksim note his shady behavior and are worried that he's a Darkfriend.

I find both Alanna's worry in 2x5 and Siuan's worry in this episode to be incredibly reasonable reactions to the actual information they had been given (or not given).

Not telling the people you love what you're afraid of or about your failures creates separation (one of the themes of the season). It happened with Moiraine and Lan, and now it's happened with Moiraine and Siuan.

So Siuan has, for the last six months, believed that Moiraine was in control of the situation with Rand. Siuan sent Logain to Cairhien so that he could teach Rand and otherwise has been hands-off, trusting Moiraine to do what was needed to be done. And she just found out that this appears to have been a huge mistake - the Dragon has no control over his power, enough so that Siuan was able to easily shield him. He's barely been taught at all. And at the end of the episode... Moiraine feels betrayed because Siuan used her Oath against her; Siuan feels betrayed because Moiraine help the Dragon break out of Tower control using the help of one of the Forsaken. Even if you strip away Siuan wondering if Moiraine is a Darkfriend/Black Ajah (and given that she straight-out accuses Moiraine of lying, Siuan must be wondering if Moiraine is BA), Moiraine's actions look terrible. Especially since I'm assuming Moiraine didn't mention Lanfear in any of her letters either.

Rafe mentioned that one of the priorities about this season was making sure that the stage would be set for The Shadow Rising and I definitely am feeling that way in this plotline especially. We've just set up the fault lines that will lead to the coup and we've set up chaos in Cairhien.

Choices and consequences.

Rand leaves his loved ones behind, cutting his past life off behind him -> leaving him incredibly emotionally vulnerable when 'Selene' comes to call on him. We are still seeing the consequences of that initial choice unravel. His choice to try to strike it out alone has meant that he has no clue what he's doing.

Mat stays behind at the Waygate, confirming to himself that he's a coward -> again, this opens the door to emotional vulnerability. Something that both Liandrin and now Ishamael are taking full advantage of, pressing on that button of self-loathing in the hopes that it will break, and Mat will break with it.

This season has been making it clear, over and over, that it is a choice to be united, not something that happens by default. You don't have to come with me; you don't have to stay; you don't have to help. Nynaeve tells this to both Egwene and Elayne; in a reversed way, Elyas tells this to Perrin (you can come with me instead of helping your friends who were captured); Rand tells this to Mat.

Moiraine has spent all season trying to make it impossible for Lan to stay by her side, because she believes that she can't protect him without her powers. But that's Lan's choice, not Moiraine's. This fight is his too, not just hers. We see this echoed in Anvaere's storyline -- Moiraine doesn't even know that her life was threatened! She doesn't know that Anvaere destroyed all her hopes and dreams of the future, and of her son's future, to save Moiraine's life. And Anvaere did this in the full belief that Moiraine doesn't love her (which I don't think is true, but Anvaere absolutely believes it). Anvaere will lose everything and gain nothing out of this... except that she is doing the right thing.

It matters to Anveare that she does the right thing, even if it costs her dearly. Even if it costs her everything.

And this is exactly what Siuan does too -- I love that both Siuan and Moiraine make extremely terrible choices because they believe those choices are necessary to save the world -- which ties them into what Renna tells Egwene this episode in a fascinating way. We are definitely getting our Rand & Egwene parallels in 2x6 & 2x7!

Doing the right thing is a choice. But it's a choice that you need accurate information in order to make good decisions about. Lan did a lot of fact-finding recently, and what he learned helped him parse out what 'the right thing' was in the cloud of possible right things.

Nynaeve actually said something like this, back during 1x7 -- Moiraine has already made her choice, now it's time for the Two Rivers' group to make theirs. She does not get to make it for them. And that's what we're seeing this season. We're seeing all of these other players on the board making their choices (and seeing how information, or lack of information, informs those choices).

(which also ties into the theme of cages and freedom; we have to be given the freedom to make choices. Which ties into... well, something that is more spoilery than my tag, so I will stop there.)

[oregano-gremlin]

thinking about what would have happened if in the alpha timeline the time stuff lined up right so that dave and rose were able to raise dirk and roxy like in the beta timeline. so, some headcanons!

striders

i think dave would be a bit like beta roxy, in that he would definitely be loving and care about dirk, but due to both having unresolved personal issues and being very young might not be the best parent. he would probably still do the whole ninja training thing, but i think he'd be way more laid back about it, not springing it on dirk without warning and also being more of the 'teaching and showing' philosophy than the 'beating the shit out of you as a learning experience' one. (i also think he would good-naturedly beat the daylights out of any murder robots dirk sent his way.) i think he would still be somewhat emotionally distant, not in the sense that he would scorn vulnerability in others or anything but that he wouldn't really let down the coolguy facade in front of dirk.

i think dirk would still look up to him, although maybe with more resentment towards his success. he would complain about him to the others a lot more than dave did, and be more insistent that he didn't think his movies were any good. where in the beta timeline the strilondes had strifing and passive-aggressiveness respectively, i think the strider's rivalry thing in this timeline would be trying to one-up each other, mostly in regards to ironic bits. i think dirk would be more passionate about winning than dave, but dave would go along with it and put in effort because it's one of the only bonding activities they regularly go through with. i do think the bits would get a bit mean sometimes, though, driving further emotional distance between the two of them.

lalondes

i think rose and roxy's relationship would be very similar to the way it was in the beta timeline, although with a few major changes. you would definitely still have the setup of the daughter (in this case roxy) assuming her mother's (rose's) genuine shows of affection were mocking, but those displays of affection would look different. i think the main thing would be rose being concerned over roxy's alcoholism, but also getting a bit pushy about psychoanalyzing it to the point where roxy closes off from her, being extra stubborn about not stopping to spite her. rose would get more insistent on her side too, leaving long and rather scathing letters stored with the alcohol and whatnot. i think rose would consider cutting her off entirely by removing all the alcohol in the house, but would at the end of the day believe that forcing roxy to improve herself wouldn't be sustainable, and that it would be best for her to come to that conclusion herself.

in regards to rose's writing, i think roxy would still be a big fan of it, writing fanfiction and all that, although a lot more reluctantly. she would insist to the other three that it was a 'separating the art from the artist' thing, but would secretly hope that she could understand her mother better while still avoiding her by reading her books instead of talking to her. i think that later on she would end up having a similar realization to the one that rose had, where she would finally understand that even if rose wasn't the best at expressing her concern, she did genuinely care about roxy and want the best for her.