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I made one joke about how I think something the NHL is doing is dumb and I got two people on me reaching for shit I didn't even say like the joke is I don't even watch the NHL! I have better uses of my time babes!!
#well anyways guy I thought was cute is actually annoying#and I won't be talking to him anymore#and I'm going to block this other person#for insinuating I hate NHL players#which isn't true#i hate the league#don't interject in a joke im making#to make me seem like an asshole#get a life#as per usual I dont argue with people on the internet#especially if they're both stupid
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"But if college was free, then people would abuse that and get useless degrees" hell yeah I would! If I could go to college without debt I would make it my job to get a degree in every little thing that interested me. I'd get a doctorate in film studies. I'd have a bachelor's degree for every science I like. I'd try to learn at least 5 languages with varying results. I would learn something "useful" like coding and then follow it up with a ""useless"" degree like art history. I'd be the world record speed run holder for getting every degree possible.
But I can't afford college without going into massive debt, so instead I spent the last 5 years trying to figure out what I am passionate enough about to consider going into debt over, because unfortunately being passionate about everything is extremely expensive to pursue.
#simon says#i love learning so much and I hate the USA's college debt system#once they make that shit free I will be unstoppable#this topic sprung up because I had the idea that im very academic and annoyingly analytical that I might as well get a degree in it#because without a degree you just seem like an autistic asshole#but with a degree? then you look like a CREDIBLE autistic asshole#don't worry I will still learn but I still want that funky piece of paper to tell everyone I learnt it#also there's some things that are VERY difficult to learn#like I would love to persue this topic further but unfortunately I would need help with that#also before you say 'try taking [blank] classes instead! it's less expensive than a degree!' im broke#my only learning resource is the library sorry about that#also this is not the post to give me unwarranted financial advice#finances are one of the topics I DO NOT care about and I WILL NOT listen to a word you say
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do u think physical build is an important part of being security? im 5'5 and think i look very timid, but ive seen some entry level security job listings around me that ive been interested in.
I've only been private security for around five years, so I'm still relatively green compared to my colleagues, but I personally am about 5'3" and I've been doing great!
And again, I'm not incredibly experienced, but if I were to make a hire, I'd be prioritizing a number of things before considering height.
Physically you need to be capable of doing your duties without pain- so if you have chronic pain, foot patrol may not be your bag, but CCTV monitoring might work. If you can't drive, being a site manager may not work, but working door duty somewhere local might be.
Physical presence- in regards to 'looking timid'- is something that you can work on if you want to, but sometimes an unassuming appearance is your advantage.
A "problem demographic" (using HEAVY quotations there) for a lot of places like malls and downtown areas is adult women with trauma, addiction, and mental health issues- they're seen by a lot of clients as "crazy ladies" and treated less like people by the general public, and a good number have very good reason not to trust men ESPECIALLY in uniform, but are more often than not perfectly easy to get along with if you're polite, respectful, and don't come off as a threat or authority figure. Being able to offer menstrual products and having resources around the area you can recommend is good, too.
And if I HAVE to move people out from behind buildings and such, saying "fuck off asshole" like folks imagine is NOT as effective as "Hey, sorry, this area is restricted, but here are some other places that might be okay- I need to do another check in about an hour, so heads up, and the church up the street is doing hot chocolate right now".
Really, if you want to do well in security- at least basic work- I'd say you want to focus on the following:
Wear your uniform and keep it tidy
Show up prepared and on time
Be able to approach strangers and talk to them
Keep a positive, non-agressive attitude, and be willing to give people the benefit of the doubt
Learn deescalation techniques to diffuse conflict
Have a strong handle on your personal emotions and opinions
Kerp calm and rational in an emergency
Learn basic first aid and get certified if you can, it's not technically necessary but I've used that more than I'd like to admit
Keep a strong moral compass
Really, I'd say it boils down to keeping to your sense of ethics, showing up on time, and knowing how to follow orders with nuanced interpretation.
Beyond that, you're golden
#Teablart#I've been told repeatedly that what makes me stand out#To both employers and the public#Is that I'm friendly positive non-judgmental and timely#Those seem to be what everyone wants#On top of the basic job work of course#Just be determined to like people#I've met a lot of asshole guards who say they hate people and I refuse to be one of them#If you hate people at least fake it#It's not their fault#We're all just animals my guy we do what we can#The vast majority of people aren't malicious they're just doing what they know#And if all they know is being a dick then that's kind of sad isn't it
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they really put alicent in bridgerton blue on the reunion and genuinely expected me to think that she didn’t in fact march all the way to dragonstone to get wifed up? bfr

#I am only a girl living in a society#I make connections#she looks so pretty in blue though I want more#also you’re telling me that rhaenyra saw her walk in all cute looking to not completely crumble at the sight of her?#like my girl got all dolled up for you do something#rhaenyra IS a puppy dog when it comes to those bambi eyes shut up#Alicent was like you think you want her? I’m the love of your life you moron#and rhaenyra is like I KNOW#like she’s been trying to get the other woman to realize that very thing for the last 15+ years#and alicent’s all heartbroken like oh so you’re taking her to wife#and rhaenyra is like nO? WHAT?? all dumb and speechless cause jealous alicent was definitely not on her bingo card this year#whilst also having her own mental breakdown#because how on earth is she meant to explain this to her councel#or jace for that matter#that sure was goint to be a fun future conversation to have with her heir#but also Alicent just strutted into the room and started acting like a scorned wife?#which left rhaenyra feeling like the asshole parent who stopped paying for child support after the divorce#but also she never wanted a divorce in the first place?? and alicent doesn’t seem to get this?#like she’s already figuring out how to most efficiently empty daemon’s chambers for the woman to move in permanently#but alicent’s still yapping off about not having a place in court anymore and fleeing across the sea#and rhaenyra can’t help the bitter taste in her mouth as she states how that ship came in a little too late for them and it is messyyyy#hotd leaks#house of the dragon leaks#hotd spoilers#house of the dragon#house of the dragon spoilers#rhaenicent#alicent hightower#rhaenyra targaryen#bridgerton
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One liners the sequel
#acontextual house#house md#gregory house#james wilson#thirteen#remy hadley#robert chase#“irene adler” fucking killed me first time I heard it#Wilson you're fucking asshole lmao#now did he made up a name or the Sherlock series existence is canon#but ducklings didn't seem to catch on to the reference so its prob random#or was it losely based on someone real who house knew and who did “win” like irene in sherlock did#the fact that this is wilson (watson) telling (making up) us the story of irene is very neat adaptation move to me#is it even adaptation lol. just a reference I guess#anyway#still i laughed at that line#and whats in the porntitle is “Making room for Daddy's hot bisexual with boyfriend problems.”#ridiculous#applies to them both#long post#longpost
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something bad did indeed happen to that man. spent abt 25 minutes trying to find a better picture of that one (1) offical piece with his eyes open that wasnt compressed or tiny
#library of ruina#yan library of ruina#getting comfortable doodling some objects and mannequin shapes for very obvious reasons. i read the keypage story and now it has a grip on#my brain. wanting to go ahead and plan it out and then draw the mangled memory and nightmare that replays behind the eyelids in the darknes#it was cool to see the reason confirmed from my speculation. twas indeed another reason of blocking out present pain with closing of eyes#considering they made angela have a plot important reason for doing so it would only make sense for another to have a reason for it as well#well. after having a prominent part inside the thumb/index story line. its just going to be yapping about yan now i think#let me add a spoiler tag i suppose? vauge but just incase i dont want to be an asshole. even if most already have played rhe game#library of ruina spoilers#lor spoilers#i really liked the typewritter effect over the voice after distortion. especially so when the effect finishes before the actual garbled voi#does. it makes it feel as if it were being read out after it being written down rather than of own words or volition. along with the text#upon the screen during the fight being just prescripts rather than anything relating to the man himself like the other instances with such#text had been. paired w the name of distorted yan being untranslated to keep the intent of the name being unreadable or not understandable#more into the idea of stripping away of the self or any sense of a self. not personal and not even him anymore. the following of a goal for#the goal for it is given and there isnt any hope of having the ability to not do such a thing. people yearn for a reason and something to d#and for it to be given to them to not hold responsibility nor have to do their own choices anymore. once a crushing weight weighs down#inside the face of an absolute cruelty that is perpetuated and that crushed the dreams or even desires having them be but nothing how can#one move on? it was really nice to see at the end of the fight. its easier to just say such things than to actually do them. even if the ac#ions dont even feel as if they are ones own or that there isnt any say in the matter having to endure all the pain for seemingly nothing it#still is pain. that feeling inside is still real. it still happened. regardless of the circumstances that brought them about#the thumb/index or just fingers seem to be an exaggerated to the extreme showcase of how the colletivist mindset in an unhealthy manner#could be exhibited. the thumb with its hierarchy and absoluteness and the demand for respect along with its strict layers of showing who is#below and who is above. the ability to have power over those underneath . the participation inside of it and the already brought up yearnin#to be apart of a group and to have a title and position inside of a group and of power and even a desire like from pete to join one iirc#the index being of the cruel perpetuating cycle of pain people inflict upon one another a behavior beaten and upkept by the systems as they#drift and desire to live. which causes them to partcipate in that cycle out of necessity. cruel acts upon another in order to live and seei#a need to go ahead and do such things for if they dont they die and another will just do the same to them. social sciences talk and rolands#talks abt how the city opperates reinforce that fact. the index and prescripts are really just a show inside that extreme manner and in a#more literal sense of that. it was really cool to read it..
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You cannot claim to be anti-AI while still actively seeking out and using AI.
Once again.
You cannot claim to be anti-AI while still using generative AI, no matter the reason.
(Bold/italicized text: You cannot claim to be anti-AI while still using generative AI, no matter the reason.)
Even if you’re just using it to make fun of it or show how bad it is.
Even if it’s only for your personal use, and you don’t plan on sharing it with anyone.
Even if you’re “just” roleplaying on Character AI.
If you are willing to justify your usage of a system created and profiting off of stealing from artists and writers, a symstem that is destroying the Earth, then you were never as “against that system” as you think you were. Being anti-AI isn’t something that exists only in name. You can’t claim to be against AI if you are willing and able to use it as soon as it benefits you. You can’t say you’re for writers’ and artists’ rights if you’re using the very thing that is causing them harm. You can’t claim to care about climate change and saving the Earth if you are participating in the system that is destroying it.
There is no middle ground here.
There is no “Oh, but I-“.
If you have the knowledge of what generative AI is doing, of how it is hurting people, and you choose to use it anyway, you aren’t against it. You aren’t fighting against that system, you’re upholding it.
You can say how much you hate AI and how horrible you think it is, if you choose to use it anyway, then your actions and your words are not lining up, and the former reveals so much more than the latter.
Stop pretending like AI is something you can condemn only in name, while using it to your heart’s content in your free time. All it does it tells writers and artists that you don’t really care about us, and that any actions you claim to be taking to protect us are performative at best and lies or even outright malicious at worst.
You are—and I mean this in the kindest way possible, even with the fury that generative AI invokes in me—a complete and utter hypocrite. AI is not your friend. It is a tool, and it is a tool that steals from writers and artists in order to function. It is a tool that is using levels of energy and emitting amounts of polution in order to be maintained that are actively damaging the Earth. No matter how much you try to justify using it to yourself, that doesn’t change.
Stop hiding under the guise of being anti-AI while continuing to use it yourself.
#im not sure how many people on here are doing this#but there are a few people i know irl who have pretty much verbatim said to me how much they hate ai#and yet in the same breath justified their use of ai—particularly character ai—to me#so i figure its still worth it to point out anyway#hypocrisy is not cool folks!#it doesn’t make you look good it just makes you look like an asshole#i feel like this problem (of being anti ai and yet justifying its use) is the most prevalent in the use of character ai#because unfortunately i don’t think as many people are aware of how it steals from writers as people are of how ai art steals from artists#or if they are it seems as though the people ive seen talking about it simply do not care#if this made you angry maybe you should examine why you feel entitled to using something that steals from writers and artists#if you feel inclined to use ai#literally just do it yourself!#it doesnt have to be perfect or the best thing ever made#but the fact that you made it yourself makes it automatically infinity times better than any garbage ai could come up with#anti ai#fuck ai#fuck ai art#fuck ai writing#anti character ai#fuck character ai
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kusuo trying his best to be cynical and jaded but then constantly being moved by the goodness of humanity............vs kusuke who is just genuinely cynical and jaded. im too tired to convey this properly but im onto something here
#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo no psi nan#saiki k#saiki kusou#saiki kusuke#how much has kusuke influenced kusuo throughout their lives.........#kusuo obviously knows kusuke is a manipulative asshole Now#but how long did he spend thinking kusuke was Normal i wonder#it almost seems to me like kusuo tried to make himself more like kusuke before he switched to his current ideal of normalcy#and that thats has a lasting effect on his........psyche.............
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#i hate YouTube sometimes#likes it’s fine it’s fine whatever#but yesterday it was all comments of people who didnt care/know about the subculture questioning why this would be on their timeline#and today it’s a bunch of people kindly ‘educating’ me on the history of punk and goth.#like; ‘in the past you couldn’t just buy goth clothing you had to make it’ no shit Sherlock why do you think my whole channel is about diy#or ‘goth is about the music”’ yes idiot which is why I put an entire section explaining where to find affordable music#or people who seem to not watch the video and just reccomend things you already said#like ‘if you have a library check out maker spaces’ yes exactly which is why I dedicated a section of the video to talking about#library resources you can find and all the equipment you might be able to borrow#like it’s fine it’s fine I really shouldn’t get so annoyed I feel like I’m probably being a bitch right now.#but I think I just woke up grumpy#and whenever people try to ‘teach me about alt’ in my own YouTube comments in a very condescending way#or way that made it clear they didn’t watch the video#it’s just annoying#also feel free to ignore this I don’t need a reply or validation I just needed to vent#I get I’m being an asshole and the ‘#‘comments are good for the algorithm so it’s good why does it bother you’#I don’t know. it does. I’m sorry.#personal#rabbit rambles
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I feel like Chip is a very special friend for Sonic compared to the other companions that Sonic encounter on his adventures.chip seem to have a special place on him.


on that scene sonic says as if chip was protecting him this whole time cuz of the fact of him being the light gaia and chip answers that wasn't him, but sonic himself that made it, but i do think indeed that chip was the reason of sonic not giving up to the dark/ being like the people during the night,but not because of chip protecting him as him being light gaia, but as a friend, chip was on his side even during his night/werehog form, chip was there with sonic during his lowest, chip didn't treat sonic different on his werehog form since chip didn't know/met sonic before, he don't have an idea of how sonic was or suppose to be, so, for him both his day and night version are still him, and that's something that sonic friends don't do, since this version of sonic(werehog) is too different from the sonic that they knew, so they don't even reconizer him or treat him like sonic, even though still him anyway. Doing this adventure and going thru this whole new version/situation together with chip, a friend, made sonic not be consumed by the dark.
Also feel that sonic and chip are very similar, chip just like sonic is a hero, an earth protector, just as sonic, both protect and save and care for the world from the evil, a responsabilite/something that none of sonic friends could understand, none of them carry this duty;something that also make chip friendship so special.


On the scene of adabat temple i feel that what chip meant to say, was that he was scared not because of the temple being "scary", but that he feels that on this temple he would find out who he is, he was scary of what would happen after,cuz after him finding his memory back he wouldn't need to stay with sonic anymore since the reason they were together was to find who he was, chip was scared to end the adventure/lose sonic company and friendship; that's why what sonic says on the night scene is so special "do i need a reason to want to help out a friend?", sonic on this moment confirm to chip that he already consider chip his friend, chip don't need a reason to reach out to him, chip was already his friend;



funny how in the beginning chip was the one scared of ending the adventure and lose sonic, but as the story goes now is sonic being the one insecure about it, the difference being that on sonic is a little more subtle, sonic on the eggmanland scene seem so…indifferent, he doesn't seem to be determined/excited as he was at the beginning even though he's so close to unite all the world parts again and come back to be his normal form (without have to become werehog on the night), sonic is indifferent/scary/sad cuz that's mean that the journey is coming to an end, and that this fight would be the last moments of him and chip, after that, both would go on their separates ways, but even sad sonic still supporting chip, but deep down he didn't want chip to go(and i feel chip notices that, but now chip is the one accepting and sonic is the one struggling) this scene after is almost as if sonic want to say something, but got interrumped by eggman(…if we think, is sad sonic and chip never had a proper goodbye)

before i didn't understand this chip dialogue "sonic, you have to live"(i was like, of course he has to live you can't just let he die!😅) but now i think i understand, chip wasn't talking about "live" on a life and death sense, he was saying that sonic must go on with his life even without him,sonic must keep…living, even if chip is not there anymore, sonic must continuing to live.
Then after when sonic is thrown out of the lava place, he even imagine chip, almost as if sonic was looking out for him, wishing that this was how it end; but chip is not there, the only thing that is, is his bracelet;

"I'II never forget you" "I'II be here by you, always." "A part of the earth you tread"
chip's words of consolation saying to sonic that he is always with him, being a part of the world that sonic lives and protect, when sonic is protecting the earth is as if him and chip were together fighting/doing the adventure and saving the planet, sonic and chip might not be together anymore, but their connection/friendship remains.

chip song("dear my friend") is pretty much very related to all of that, though the song is very related to chip(since the song voice also remind his) i think the song is also about sonic/sonic speaking to chip, no wonder the song image even show both of them, this whole song represents/shows sonic & chip friendship and the game message.
"Good times and bad times, I can count on being with you. I thank you for staying so true (...) And You are my reason I can make it through"
"I know life can be tough on you time and time again laughter maybe gone 'way I will wipe away my tears to-morrow Life must go on, that's the reason that you travel away"
"Just like a river that flows Just like stars in the dark night Lead me in the storm, Lead me in the dark You are the light of my life"
"Memories you can recall With me any time of day You can reach out you can ask me in your soul I will answer when you call me I will come no matter how Cause we are very special friends"
#sonic unleashed#sonic the hedgehog#random things#this text is pretty much me rambling about Sonic & chip friendship#So It can kinda end up a little confuse#But i don't care😤 i Just want to write about and talk about their friendship and what i feel#talking like that made sonic friends sound like assholes😅no no i dont think they are#it just sometimes our friends are not always the best friends on certain moments and i think this was the situation of sonic here#this last image of sonic & chip never fail to make me smile is so silly😄 but also...sad(this is the “dear my friend” song image💧)#For real Sonic is so serious on this eggmanland scene none of the moments he even smile or something...he seem uninterested#reading my text again made me notice that sonic&chip friendship seem very similar to a situation of friendship of a friend that passed away#well we will never know sonic unleashed origins but i can't deny that reminds...that's sad💧
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I think the description of Benson and Randy's relationship as "parasocial" is quite apt. Benson says "I've been watching you, and I know for a fact..." He posits that Randy is not like anyone else in their small shitty town, that there's something uniquely 'fixable' about him. It's something that Benson stakes most of his motivation on throughout the movie 'it was the only thing I believed' and in some ways this is reflected in Randy as truth, but sometimes the character traits Benson projects onto Randy just fall short of reality. Randy says that his mom held him back a grade and Benson paints the picture of a domineering authority figure that Randy must rebel against, And clearly believes this is the case based on the tenacity with which he listens to--and disapproves of-- Randy's conversation with his mother on the phone. However listening to the conversation is just dull. His mom does come across as over bearing, pointing out the number of rings it took him to pick up, but she's otherwise normal compared to the image Benson seems to have of her. Same with Lisa. Benson strolled into the mall with Randy as though a great revelation was to be made, like Lisa was this monumental event in Randy's life, but Randy and Lisa's relationship was underwhelming. They were briefly dating in highschool and they broke it off rather amicably because Randy was not an emotionally fulfilling partner to Lisa. Randy claims not to know why Lisa broke up with him, and to Benson this is an injustice, but in reality it's just Randy being a little obtuse and naive about Lisa's emotional needs. Lisa could've been more transparent about why the relationship ended but they were kids, and she took the path of little resistance, likely in an attempt to spare Randy's feelings. There's nothing unique or life-altering about Lisa and Randy. Benson seems to project this false narrative onto Randy--and the rest of the world, tbh-- that is further highlighted by Marsha's character, who is another NPC that Benson decides to codify within his world view. Marsha once again deviates from the role Benson believes she fits in, standing up to him and rebelling against the notion that all other people in this town are aimless and complacent. Part of me wondered, after they went to Beard's house, why Randy's 'transformation' felt flat for me, and part of it is because the journey Randy takes is somewhat belied by the fact that Benson did not do any of that for Randy. Not any real version of Randy, anyway. Benson did it for a made up version of Randy in his head and he went along with it because there was a gun at his back.
#idrk#it's an interesting aspect of Bensons psychology#the passenger 2023#the passenger#randy bradley#Benson#like it makes me wonder about Randy's home life#the glimpses we get of it are just incredibly mundane#a sister that does dance an overinvolved mother#he was on good enough terms with Lisa that he knew where she worked years later#like i fully believe randy has friends outside of work#benson sees him as this total loser but like#hes justa guy. he was going to get a promotion#he had an asshole coworker and was maybe a little fixated on something he did when he was seven#but randy just seems very normal to me#i think in deciding that Randy was different and fixable benson was actually just acting out the hope that he himself was fixable#that maybe if he could save this young loser coworker from a job that he hated and a life repressing his emotions and never moving past his#trauma then benson too could have hope for himself#and so the end of the movie is kind of a juxtaposition for me#yes there was hope for Randy#there was#randy got to move on with his life got to have his character evolution got to process the traumatic event from his fundamental years#but benson very much did not#in the end it consumed him#and that's sad#anyways#things i think about instead of the impending biochem exam
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artemis and dahlia are so good. the contrast between the supposed hero drizzt always keeping her at an arm's lenght, preferring the "soft look" she puts on to please him where she acts and looks softer and covers her tattoos and scars, knowing she had a painful past but not bothering to ask or look into it because it would shake his morals and he would rather pretend to not know than to actually confront it or even help dahlia through it. meanwhile the supposedly cold killer artemis with just a few looks saw the pain in her, let her have the kill against herzgo because he realized it was important to her even if he had just as good reasons and he didnt know dahlia's yet, and when they were alone he let dahlia be vulnerable to him, asked her about her pain, and when she was not comfortable to speak about it he just stayed near her and comforted her
#bani.txt#impressions so far. im halfway through charon's claw#i really appreciate these books for very much showing drizzt's asshole side#he does not even realize he is one. from his point of view its just dahlia being manipulative or erratic#which granted she is but not to the degree he assumes.#drizzt hardly second guesses his thoughts on her from the moment they start travelling together#i feel like i understand why people see dahlia that wrongly now. they take drizzt's pov as the right one#which makes dahlia's actions seem much worse#meanwhile as someone who has been in dahlia's shoes to a much minor degree if someone thought of me as drizzt does id fucking slap them#its interesting to see the flip coin to drizzt's habit of putting people on pedestals#he put zak on the 'only good person beside me in menzo' pedestal when he was just a man doing his best and not even very well#he puts catti on the 'taught me to tolerate everyone' pedestal when all she did was maybe ask what the goblins were doing#instead of going for the kill immediately (and then happily join when the goblins turned out t be enemies after all)#so now he puts dahlia on the 'mysterious woman manipulating me along' pedestal bc thats easier to say#rather than admitting that the world has changed and so has he#legend of drizzt
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I rewatched the recording I made of rye talking to solas for the last time before the big betrayal ('words of the dread wolf'), and it made me have to sit with my face in my hands for a while over the fact that like... rye did everything right, especially by the ideals of the mourn watch when it comes to interacting with spirits. he's cautious but not disrespectful, he gives gratitude and credit and even some companionable banter where it's due, he's willing to hear solas' point of view out even if he doesn't necessarily buy what he's selling, he stays on his guard the whole time but is honest and fair in his dealings with him as far as possible. and it doesn't matter one fucking bit!!! you can make no mistakes, commit no sins, and still fail, still be at the mercy of a lack of mercy and pure callous circumstance!!!!! this catastrophe is coming for you no matter what. there is no perfect thing you could have done, no exact right thing for you to say, no amount of careful or clever you could have been that could have outtricked these circumstances or would have saved you or anyone else. (nothing you could do to save varric either, but you don't know about that yet. it's just that awful feeling in the back of your mind you keep shying away from like it burns you.)
that's... such a painful but important lesson to have to learn in some ways, I think. both forgiving yourself for what you couldn't know until you did, what you couldn't do and never could have done (should never have been made to face, in a better kinder world), and having to accept the shattered illusion of perfect control and safety ever becoming achievable -- if only I do everything right, everything will be okay. and if things aren't okay, that's because I did something wrong and if I were better the bad thing wouldn't have happened; the logic and grief and desperation to hold on to goodness of a child. the logic solas is unable to let go of from the moment he took physical form and to this day (for all his age and experience I can fix this, I can still fix this is the helpless cry of a child, just one dangerously amplified by near-divine levels of power and a very clever mind), and that rook has to learn to let go of or else drown. the examination of that central question of like... you can act with the best of intentions in this world and with as much information as possible and there will still be unforeseen consequences. bad things will still happen. sometimes it won't even be anyone's fault, no one ever meant for it to happen like that. but it did. it did. how will you live with that? in this game is so GOOD. what a theme
#it makes me so angry on rye's behalf at solas. you *asshole*! you fucking bastard! all these hands reaching out to you honestly#and this is what you do?? THIS is what you choose to do to him after killing one of the most important people in his life????#and deliberately magically gaslighting him about it for MONTHS? oh. fade jail for solas. fade jail for solas for ten thousand years#you bit the hand that reached out to you with good intentions and when it comes back it's going to be holding a knife lol#so interesting to see the way the two of them are very similar in some ways (and then the ways they aren't)#solas fills me with equal amounts of horrified compassion and righteous rage and this is the wrath side of the coin lol#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#solas#Dynamic: That my keen knife see not the wound it makes#also something this line of thinking uncovered for me personally something like...#as the subtype of autistic where something deep inside me is convinced that if only I find exactly the right words#if only I paint what I'm feeling in words until I reach photorealistic clarity -- explain myself *perfectly* in every nuance#THEN I will finally be *understood* because it just doesn't seem to happen naturally ever. so that's all on me. if only I was good enough#connection would finally happen if I could just do all the steps *right*#and having to face that it doesn't really work like that. you can try but it's not actually in your control.#and also not always your responsibility either past a certain point.#...sobering. terrible news. and slightly liberating#also don't even try with people who're in the solas position here b/c he's not actually listening. or if he is listening it's not to you
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stop making him THAT pathetic he does serve cunt a little bit you know. that's kind of his thing
#ik the intro in the pilot kind of makes it seem like he's sooo nothing but I know it fr bcs god talks to me and he's not. he's a cool-#girl. and an asshole.
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Me: The way people villainize weed is indicative of how they view all drug users and addicts, which is anti-leftist and harmful to actual community building but also you don't have to personally like weed
People on tumblr.com: Umm, actually here is why weed is the worst substance on the planet and also every stoner in a 100 mile radius personally tokes up right in my face and also I am the only one whose wellbeing should be considered
#what did i expect from the piss on the poor website#me: have you tried talking to people? most people are more considerate than you'd think and if they aren't then they're assholes#person: every smoker who looks my way has been an asshole and every stoner is like that#me: cool dude don't know what to tell you other than it seems like you specifically attract assholes#literally began my post telling people they don't have to like weed and then went on to expand and people make me every stoner they hate#y'all i haven't been able to smoke weed in four months i am too sober for your antics#i have 'if i explain myself certainly people will be normal' disorder. they also call it autism
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Disliking Taylor Swift is truly not the personality trait that people think it is…. I have No Idea what is going on (and frankly i don’t know if I want to, I’m happy in my I love her bubble) but dear god people need to touch some fucking grass
#Atlanta rambles#I had some guy message me on hinge and go#‘I could go on and on about how overrated Taylor swift is’#all because my profile said I liked her#deadass#like dude….in what world did any of that seem necessary#like congrats on being a hater AND an asshole#and again I love her!!!!#but I am once again asking why everyone feels the need to find some magical way#to make her the center of every conversation#like everyone complains about that but like???? y’all are the ones doing it?????#make it make sense#she is literally just vibing
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