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slugghee · 2 months

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made trace talksprites!

why is this bitch so hard to draw

#the felt #homestuck #homestuck intermission #trace 03 #my art #my doodles #my creations #remember how i said eggs was hard to draw #well trace blows him out of the water (no pun intended)#trying to draw trace from more than a few specific angles gives me immeasurable pain #he has a certain charm to him in my mind thats hard to translate to paper #relaxed but stubborn douchebag who is this close to airing your dirty laundry #ok maybe charm isnt the right word.#lets just say personality #described

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hplonesomeart · 27 days

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I can’t think of any funny quips to put as description for this one so uh- suppose this time around I’ll just let the art speak for itself lol

Enjoy the daily dose of fanart while it lasts because I can’t quite guarantee I’ll be able to keep up this speed throughout the upcoming month. But I’ll sure try to! Thank you all for the support <3

#guys it’s 12:20am I have school today at 7:45 what am I doing with my time management here jksjsksp #was worth it though #oddly enough I haven’t felt this free to express myself or my appreciation for things in a while it seems #so setting time to just let my art take shape on its own accord and freehand it all without any particular goal in mind is just…#a well needed relaxing break to zone out and create for the sake of it you know?#finally i’m not stressing over deadlines or finalizing to perfect #there’s no pressure or obligation <3 #kinda like a ‘oh yeah I made this and the fact I made it is special enough’#….ah wait maybe it’s the peaceful instrumental Spotify playlist taking effect on me too lol #yeah actually that would make a lot of sense #doodles #smg4 fanart #smg4 doodles #smg4 sketches #leggy smg4 #mario smg4 #mr puzzles smg4 #hplonesome art

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saturnvs · 9 months

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art resolutions for 2024? or maybe art hopes for 2024

- draw at least one bella sara horse PLEASE

- draw more horses in general

- draw what i want to, not what i think i should

- RELAX

#that is all #i need to relax when it comes to art #i want it to be fun!#and i can already feel that it’s more fun #i’m enjoying working on my current commission and i’m especially enjoying drawing horses again #stuff at the riding school is slowly coming together #my mind is all about horses right now.. i feel like a kid again #in a good way :)#and i think my art needs to be about that too … the good kind of nostalgia #+ since my family’s economy is .. not great #being able to take commissions is VERY helpful as it means i will be able to pay or help pay the fees #and buy my own equipment and stuff #and take that load off my mother #so really commissions are a great thing for me at the moment :)#this went off track sorry #main resolution for 2024 is to not let it turn out the way 2023 did

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doedipus · 10 months

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wow! it's jazz!

we're spinning out of control oh noooooooooo

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credits under break

Rein van den Broek trumpet, flugelhorn

Jan Vennik reeds, flute

Hans Jansen keyboards

Hans Hollestelle guitar, synthesizer

Jan Hollestelle bass, synthesizer, violoncello, piano

Cees Kranenburg drums, percussion

John Sonneveld producer

Chris Duinmeijer cover art

#the opening track on this thing blows my mind every time #it just oozes cool from front to back #and the rest of the album is paced really well from there #good mix of higher intensity tracks and ones that let you relax a bit #so it's really easy to play the whole thing in one go without getting bored or something #I get a lot of use out of it on bike rides and while cooking #also man this is turbo nerdy but I definitely associate it with gio a lot #someday I want to cut a montage video with it but I definitely haven't done anything remotely cool enough yet #Youtube

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radgeorgie · 2 months

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had an amazing interview yesterday.... was told I'd know by Monday.... but it's alleged they DRUG TEST and I just bought 6 packs of weed edibles 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#AND!!!!! AND!!!!!! IVE GOT THE HOUSE TO MYSELF FOR A SOLID WEEK!!!!!!!#i guess ill know monday if i can get high that night or tuesday but like.... i want to have one now lmao #like.... the paper i signed was more worried about being drunk on the jo #and OBVIOUSLY i wouldnt show up to my folder customer service job high off my ass..... but that thc can stay in your system for awhilw #i had one last nigbt tk celebrate the interview so idk if im even in the clear to begin with #and like.... i told them my start date would ve the 20th & im out of town vefore that so the goal is like.... they go to achedule #and we have to schedule it way out so i have time to like.....not worry & get my pee clean #like.... it wouldnt matter so much if my parents werent LEAVING this E N T I R E week... like.... this is MY vacatioj too!!!!!#and i just bought it after a horrid week 😭😭😭😭😭 worked my ass of it for it in order to relax this week #like #i know i shouldnt be dependent on it and im really trying not to ve #but the anti-anxiety relaxing of it all helps so much #and im reeeeeally not the biggest fan of drinking....i pee too much 😭😭😭😭😭 ironically 😭😭😭😭😭😭#like.... at this point.... its like..... do i care about getting this job more than i care about letting my brain and body relax this week #i always put myself first & listen to my heart & soul to dictate what to do #but my mind just keeps thinking about getting that failed drug test back and going back to the job hunt #but im still IN the job hi t #*hunt #AND HERES THE THING!!!! walking around that damn office.... seeing what people were wearing.....#its professional but i know damn well theres people in there smoking weed #like.... 25 of the 50 employees i saw showed up in casual loungepants these people are not prestigious #and like.... the paper i signed.... they didnt even edit to include the company name????#it kept saying “the Company will not like you to drink on the clock and assumes you will not get behind company vechiles drunk either”#like.... tooooootally understandable i just wanna eat some edibles before im an official employee of your folder business my loves #let me have a 50mg and zone out for the night while im finally free from all these losers..... PLEASE #anyways......personal problems that my brain needs to expel so it doesnt tumble all around for the next few houes #WHILE I DOORDASH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 fuck me #like..... i got this interview through indeed ill just keep going till i cant if it fails

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angerygoomba · 2 months

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listening to ants from up there like a normal healthy person that has relationships that they know will thrive and will not be lost and is certain of their future and enjoys whats happening today and what was happening yesterday and last week and last month. and im cool about it

#ants from up there #intro #chaos space marine #concorde #bread song #good will hunting #haldern #mark's theme #the place where he inserted the blade #snow globes #basketball shoes #guys dont listen to this album it makes you cry a lot #and crying is bad (true)#anyways is anyone else thinking about anything #help #help core lolllll #i have no idea whats in store and ive never liked that ever #i need a react image where a person is staring death into the camera especially now #because ive been feeling it so so so much more lately than before and ive felt it so hard since before summer #i really have no idea how much better this is than jobless summer mentally #i mean in a way it has to be better than summer school summer but at least then i had the inbetween week of the two terms #and yes thankfully i have parents who have enough money to spend two weeks of vacation out of the country which is coming up on saturday #and it will be relaxing ignoring the socializing of family i havent seen in 5 years #but so much of the past month has felt like ive only done work #i feel like my mind is consumed by my job and i really dont know if i like this state of being more than my jobless state of being #i also havent had a workless summer since grade 10 and i was still insecure about my friend group so i didnt go to a lot of the hangouts #but in grade 11 and this year i totally couldve gone to more and felt like i made more worthwhile memories #i wanna say more but tumblr doesnt let you do more than 30 tags #long one #goomb thot

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toastsnaffler · 2 months

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god felt so bad abt how shitty my period cramps are that she sent me an compensatory angel in thr form of mindblowing period horniness. amen

#nsft #was genuinelt baffled when i first discovered other ppl find period sex or even jacking it on their period gross n uncomfortable...l #skill issue clearly #i guess its kind of a kink for me.. just find it rly fun n hot n it feels rlyyyy good esp after so much pain. relaxes all those muscles #small blessing my roomies off on her holiday today so i can properly get into it 😏 no need to worry abt being noisy #and yeah its messy but thats part of the funnn. put a towel down go crazy.#fake covered-in-blood enjoyers when ppl who like period sex come at them:#also been getting back into reading smut lately n ive found a couple fics that have given me a LOT of food for thought 😏😏😏😏#some beautiful minds on this planet earth. manifesting gay sex with someone who can match my dysfunction fr #trying so hard not to immediately fall asleep now ive cleaned up and showered...im so cosy i havent felt this relaxed in weeks 😭#possibly even months. but i need to nip to lidl before it closes to restock my ibuprofen stash for tonight. and also EAT DINNER!#and then my guardian angel Memory Foam Pillow awaits me.... mwah #let me tag this nsft sorry to anyone seeing this unexpectedly i ammmm blissed out and dont care <3 #i hope i have a nice weekend :-)#.diaries

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neobisexual · 4 months

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had a very intense semi lucid dream last night where i was the daughter/acolyte of an insane cult leader/my dad who performed non consenual surgery on me and molested and raped me. it inspired me to start writing a lil sci fi novella but also to clean out my closet and find my vibrator cuz i was desperate for it after waking up lmfao

#he had like. grown me & a few other and inserted more and more mechanical parts into us through our lives #so we were mostly machine inside. but human-looking outside #and i tried to run away and got the shit kicked out of me by my sister/fellow cult member #she patched me up most of the way but for the complicated stuff dad had to help #one of my arms had been broken so he just cut the whole thing open to fuck with the wires and stuff. it felt so awful guhhhhh #and after that he started trying to finger me and asking questions about wether id slept with anyone while i had been away #and told me he knew id been touching myself and that made me disgusting and corrupt and that was why id tried to leave. and he had to fix #my mind too.#there was blood on his fingers when he pulled them out of me and he got so so pissed #i was crying and trying to explain i was on my period but he said that was a lie and id been trying to hide more injuries from him so he #couldnt finish fixing me #and he spent a solid twenty minutes beating me for it while groping me & continuing to finger me #he had a metal arm n that was the one he was using too so i kept getting cut and bleeding more and hed yell and hit me more and he just #wouldnt stop 😵‍💫😵‍💫#i was tied down by my wrists laying on my tummy but he forced me to roll over so he could punch my stomach a lot too ;-;#toward the end he got on top of me and started grinding against me #talking to me nice again and saying i was his girl and he just wanted to make me better and i only had to cooperate #i was sobbing and panicking still but he was just petting me #he tried to push his cock in me but he like. couldnt fit.#he could only get a couple inches in and he stayed sweet for a little longer but then he started getting frustrated #yelling at me to stop fighting him and slapping my face #and i was trying so so hard to relax and let him in so it could be over but i was just too small #he gave up after awhile and finished cleaning me up without saying anything then left me alone down there. still tied down and crying.#that was only one part of the dream there was a whole plotline where i had made contact with 2 people (a brother and sister) on the outside #who were trying to save me. and i was trying to talk my sister into leaving with me because i was so terrified of losing her #eventually i did get out and ended up living with the brother and sister and it was super cute and sweet #parts of the dream were from her pov too. she made us all matching hats :]

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mothram · 11 months

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#diana's music diary #good morning #i slept early #it was nice #very cozy #I only slept like 4 hours though cause I had to get up for a delivery... also I'm posting this a couple of hours after waking...#as is becoming usual for these... I've been kind of vibing to music pretty much...#anyway yesterday was good but so exhausting... played lethal company with friends like I'd said which was really fun!! was a little bit of #process getting my bearings in it since I'd seen maybe one second of gameplay before but after a day or two in game I picked it up I'd say!#I mostly just ran away when I saw something scary but I tried scanning a monster and it opened the door which made me scream once ahaha #after that I was a lil tired but we ended up having a session of the project moon ttrpg I'm in kind of out of nowhere #it was short but v fun to play Frei again he kind of completely shut down the distortion singlehandedly which was surprising considering he #has no combat capability.. incapacitated them and read its mind which helped us figure out what we needed to do to resolve the distortion #-peacefully! my partners character did the actual resolving cause Frei is terrified of going near anything as gross as that distortion was #(it was a giant gross greasy burger monster. who was just bob from bobs burgers. he ended up in a polycule with linda and teddy after.)#Frei also read my partners characters mind a bit and maybe upset him a little by mentioning his daughter (her character is divorced lol)#anyway yeah... I was tired after both of those so I kinda got in bed and passed out quickly while listening to music...#idk what I'll do today I'm a bit sore still and I'm v sick and tired rn so I'll probably just relax a bit...#let's make today nice and cozy and good... love u friends thank u for reading <3

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christianborle · 2 years

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#I fr just unfollowed someone for reblogging a post that was anti adults watching bluey #petty? yes #but I stand by my actions #I know the phrase ‘let people enjoy things’#has been thrown around too much in negative connotations #but I mean REALLY if an adult is enjoying a preschooler show #and is just minding their own business #and having fun with it #WHAT are you so pressed about #we are all stupid monkeys living on a rock in space #I am going to enjoy the nice talking dogs because they bring me joy #like damn relax lmfao #someone in the tags was like #‘it’s not valid to watch it as an adult because it’s not smart like Steven universe’#1) it seems like you have never actually watched any bluey episode in your life #because EVERY episode has a life lesson in it #and 2) even if it was just stupid nonsense fun #that exempts adults from being able to watch it?#and listen like I KNOW I am not this shows target audience I get that #I’m not out here pushing kids out of the way to get to it #I’m just saying #why is it that upsetting to you that an adult is enjoying their childhood whimsy and isn’t bothering anyone doing it #aww it’s too cringe for you? :(#wow I rly wrote a whole essay on here #I am cringe but I am free

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girlyliondragon · 1 year

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IK all my bath talk is weird but like I haven't really enjoyed one in such a long time. It's all been showers ever since the past decade or something so I never got to actually soak and shit like I hear many do. Like what the fuck, is this what simple human pleasures feel like? I'm not even kidding it felt so alien to do again and do sorta 'properly'.

Granted it probably doesn't help that my tub is the classic cheap default one (you know what I mean, the simple rectangle, it doesn't even have a proper ledge for those bath trays I've seen unless I wanna get a standalone table-like one, which I am thinking about) instead of those big, cooler looking ones that are actually built for that sort of thing, but still.

I actually used that melatonin soak I brought up a few days ago yesterday night and I was CONKED out in bed in minutes xdgfcghvjgkhljhgh. Maybe if I get a proper pillow for the tub I will probably risk falling asleep there before I get to the bed because I was sluggish after getting out of there. Which is good, I like that, I've been getting a little too bold with my night hours so it was needed. I've really been wanting to spoil myself with this shit after everything I've had to deal with this year so that I can properly relax for once and forget about bullshit.

Anyways looks like I have some fucking incentive to bathe more now, even if it's just to sit and soak and chill for half an hour with some music to help me gauge the time. :o

TL;DR Emerald is finally learning what fucking physical self-care is.

#Em Speaks #Don't mind me just rambling #Also officially on a ''shower first to clean. bathe to relax. shower again to get bubbles off'' thing with that #so at least once my cleaning habits let myself go again (and they will) I won't sit in my own wet dirt and can get out feeling fresh #I see so many people talk about how they have these fancy candles and eating while bathing and I'm like #oh god I can't do that I'll have to make do'' and I have lol #I don't think I'll ever be the sort to eat or read during a bath. My arms and hands will be wet anyways.#Candles? I do not trust myself with fire at alllll. Tho maybe fake ones can suffice? Idk

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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in my heart sawashiro and arakawa have the same thing going on that minedai do but slightly to the left...like theres a visible difference and a different vibe but...its there yknow...less crazy but also more crazy because theyre older are you getting the vibe im laying down this is difficult to explain

no i get the vibe i got you. it's like minedai but with dads and less willingness to murder his boss out of grief

#snap chats #and they have a kid they both love see Minedai But With Dads yk #two kids if you want to include ichi but jo's more definitely like the stepdad ichi's dad married yk what i mean #like masato is very much Jo And Arakawa's Kid while ichi is Arakawa's Kid. which. yeah. yeah no shit #see thats the only thing with minedai they colud never have a kid cause mine would be the shittiest dad #its NOTHING but projection on the poor tyke and unfortunately daigo inversely has a soft spot for kids #lucky for me i dont mind if my pairings dont have kids. but its great if they have one in canon HAHA time to project the family i wanted #see arasawa is funnier because of the different vibes right let me explain #because mine generally is very upfront with how he feels so them coming to terms with their feelings mutually is more plausible #not OPEN about how he feels but he does tell daigo whats on his mind and all #and so thats why its easier to imagine them ACTUALLY being together esp knowing how daigo wants genuine bonds too #whereas jo like. locks everything away. like get phoenix wright on this dumbass there's a fucking barricade of locks #so its the funniest shit ever trying to imagine jo trying to invite arakawa places or vice versa #i guess it's a similar flavor though.. but different #cause mine'll be like Oh. Oh Ok and go and then he'll be like This Is Nice :) and forget whatever apprehension he had before #but i can only ever imagine jo just. ????? the entire time out whether its out to dinner or like an art show or something #like does he even know HOW to relax.. he's had more time for his mental illness to stew ok mine still had a chance #see thats the cute thing about arasawa tho Going By The Idea Of Jo Liking Art they could enjoy art together #im lit rambling sorry but yes tl;dr anon i get you 100% and its probably why i enjoy it so much

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gwyoi · 1 year

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I have a new issue with cricket. She’s doing good at not pawing at the door anymore but she yells at the door and the window so much now. Im 90% sure it’s because there is a stray outside because when she’s in my room she doesn’t yell nearly as much. it’s gotten to the point where her meows wake me up in the middle of the night because she wants so see the stray so I have to keep her in my room so she doesn’t smell or see the other cat (and that usually does the trick because she chills out after that)…… but now I’m like should I keep her in my room every night?? idk

#I feel bad because I want her to be able to perch on the window when I’m sleeping and stuff but her yelling is so loud she is not a fan of #other cats from what her foster mom has told me so I have no doubt it my mind #she would like to go out to fight…..#I keep her in my room but she has food water and litterbox (bedroom connects to bathroom) and she relaxes so much #like when she yells I pick her up usually and she’s just stressing herself out about it I can tell 😭#ough.#but yeah she’s been playing with toys just fine and I try to play with her right before bed but she still stresses herself out about the #stray. well it might just be an outside cat but we live in the middle of the city so that would be really stupid to let the cat out at night #gwon

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dog-girl-zezora · 1 year

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lilgynt · 1 year

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my dad called me his guardian angel and that i have more patience than my mom and i know i told myself he just says shit but like that actually helped cause same day he was like i do not want to be alone with you and ur crazy so like. that did help a lot!

#personal #he doesn’t mean it and apologizes when his mind comes back to him but like #still good to remember during the bad moments #and this will sound horrible but #it’s not bad. per say.#when he says the nice stuff #but sometimes i do get an uncomfortable spike of anger #it’s like he says stay with me don’t leave help me or calls me nice names like guardian angel or something else #and it’s a flash of anger like im not made for you i don’t exist just for you #and obviously he doesn’t mean that #but hearing that from the guy you’re basing ur whole life around for the past few months #who due to things out of his control and frankly some of his own nature can get pretty nasty #and god im pretty sure it’s just the demita and anxiety but he’s so needy #like my mom can’t get any sleep or space around him #and my dads acting like their married with all aspects and my moms allowing it bc she has her own complicated feelings on the matter #but mostly for him so that’s cool to watch in real time #also watching the stats of how marriage benefits men and not women while my dead sucks the life out of my mom #like he doesn’t mean to but he doesn’t let her relax sleep eat anything like she took a week off work to clean the house & take care of him #and not to martyr my mother cause love her sympathize with her she is still. her.#but no one deserves what she’s going through and i will never have a bad word to say about how she acted during all of this #other things? fuck yeah but this no she handled it like a saint #and she’s been treating me better too so that’s nice #but anyway so fucking needy. i can hear them talking rn bc my dad wakes my mom up to reassure himself #i mean last night i was with him for five hours never left and if i did i warned him. he goes to bed. wakes up screaming my name #not his fault he wants to be reassured but jesus #i mean you go to the kitchen or bathroom from the living room and he says hurry back and interrupts you mid wipe #i’m a little spoiled bc he lets me go to my room some days but my mom doesn’t have any luck #he should get better with meds hopefully #and then worst of all you’ll #okay literally stopped typing bc my dad wouldn’t let my mom sleep and she freaked 😭😭😭 i talked him into just laying down but for how longuh

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mauxanhduong · 2 years

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well! i guess i’ll be the black sheep of the family then!

#does she think i’m being mind controlled or something. like just because i’m living my own life doesn’t mean that i hate you. like …#vent #delete later #genuinely can’t wait to move out 💗#if they even let me. at this rate i feel like. idek.#but. i guess i just have to get used to being criticized. yay 👍#i just hope that by the time my little sibling gets older they’ll have relaxed their standards. because as much as i want to move out i dont #want to like leave them alone. because then i can’t be their rock and encourage them to do what they want even if they get criticized for it #yknow. like it’s just a whole thing. you know how it is with parents

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