#to fill in all of those gaps with rp

[immobiliter]

i would love to know how much furina actually knows/finds out about focalors' grand plan post-archon quest. i would love to know what hers and neuvillette's first conversation is when she decides to leave the palais mermonia, not knowing that he had this whole conversation with focalors about her and then came into his true power. i would love to know if furina is actually aware that her hydro vision came from neuvillette himself

[getvalentined]

I love when folks ask me Fandom Old questions and I get to be like "Yeah, uh, that's from my old online RP group, no it's not canon at all, yes we just made it up, no we did not claim it was canon but the mid to late aughts were a strange time."

It's honestly a shock to realize how often this has happened. I mentioned earlier that Reno's fanon surname came from this same group, but that's not even the half of it. I once made a bunch of screenshot manips based on the most ridiculous ships anyone could think of—someone slapped a random line of text onto one of them and to this day it's used as a "cringe FF7 fandom" meme. I saw it on the twits a bit back and almost fell out of my goddamn chair.

If you've ever heard Scarlet referred to with the surname "West," read about Tseng fighting with metal fans, seen Elena's older sister being called Anna instead of Emma, come across Vincent portrayed as having a PhD in spite of being a Turk, or caught references somewhere to Grimoire experimenting on Vincent as a child, that started with this group. That was us.

One of the funniest examples of this, for me specifically, is that we don't actually know which arm Veld is missing? The fandom generally goes with his left because that's how I drew him in the first picture of the guy ever posted on devart way back in 2005, but it may very well be his right. I've seen people offer "proof" that it's his right based on a scene in the opening cutscene, but you can't tell there either, and with BC's graphics there's literally no way to tell on his sprite.

Hell, this year we found out everyone's assumed timeline of the Kalm fire is wrong, and that's our fault too because we made some assumptions about Felicia's age for an LJ RP that were entirely wrong. She's around Zack's age, not Sephiroth's! She's old enough to run with a terrorist group in BC, but she was a child when Kalm burned, and that happened in 1997—we know this because NPCs in Rebirth literally refer to the fire in Kalm having happened "just ten years ago." Veld has only had his prosthetic for three years when BC starts. (This also implies that, contrary to popular belief, Veld may actually be younger than Vincent. Vincent may have been the senior partner, and that's why he was sent to Nibelheim alone while Veld was left at headquarters.)

We were really wrong on this! But we were working with what we had. There's no canon evidence for the vast majority of these things (the most notable exclusion here is Vincent being educated) but we weren't claiming there was. We were filling gaps, and canon was so sparse that we had a lot of gaps to fill. So if it turns out that Veld lost his right arm, then I'll just have to start drawing him that way—because losing his left was never canon.

Tragically, there's nothing any of us can do to make people stop assuming these things are canon at this point; there aren't a lot of us still in the fandom, and it's not like any of us have those old chatlogs anymore. People from this RP group have DIED since those days. It's been over 20 years since most of us met, and around 15 since most of us were in a public fannish space together.

"Prove it," people say, and I literally can't. Do you know how many computers I've been through since then? 75% of the platforms we used no longer exist. This all started on a BBCode forum! There is no proof!

But...there's no evidence any of these things are canon, either, so maybe think about that? The Kalm fire, Tseng's weapon of choice, Veld's arm, character surnames—none of these are retcons because there was no lore there to retcon. We made it up for our specific purposes, and it escaped containment in an era when there was really no way to do online contact tracing.

It's just one of the weirdest feelings in the world to see younger folk arguing about A or B point in canon, about X or Y retcon—referencing something my friends and I thought up at like 10 o'clock at night on a now-defunct IM client in August of 2005, because we needed something to refer back to for a specific scene in an RP and the source material had nothing to offer.

Absolutely fucking bonkers.

[utilitycaster]

Sort of a distant tangent off my post about Ashton, but I'm growing more and more suspicious of the fandom claim that there's no time for small RP moments in Campaign 3. I do think that it's been challenging to get deeper party bonding or serious conversations that aren't about the big philosophical questions they're facing, since those do take much more time; but then I think about Calamity, or Candela Obscura. I can genuinely give you at least a couple paragraphs about pretty much every relationship in the two Circles, or in the Ring of Brass. I can also point to no shortage of small moments between characters in the Mighty Nein Aeor or Vox Machina Vecna endgame episodes, which were all extremely plot-heavy and fast-paced, and D20 consistently nails character relationships in a fraction of the time.

I think it really does come down to, as Brennan Lee Mulligan always says, the character creation phase. Laying down a solid groundwork in which everyone has a detailed, rich backstory and sense of personality and relationship history (in the case of characters who knew each other prior to the start of the series) is absolutely crucial, and even in the case of characters who don't know each other before going in, a good amount of time spent in character creation ensures that it's easier for them to develop those interpersonal relationships on the fly. I know in actual play there's some degree of finding the character as you play, but there are games for which there is a very short runway, and I don't think it ever hurts to do more extensive character prep than the bare minimum. And if there are gaps, I think it also helps to go back and fill those in mid-way, away from the table - Travis clarifying Chetney's backstory being a great example that allowed the history of Chetney and Deanna to feel realized and full, despite only a few episodes.

I'll also be blunt: most of the time when people complain that there aren't moments because the plot keeps moving...they're mad about shipping. Which has always rung hollow to me. It was a common complaint in C2, that no time was taken for character relationships, despite them taking an entire half of an episode for the Beauyasha date and despite no shortage of moments for all three of the other couples (and plenty of platonic moments between friends). The issue was never a lack of time; it was that the characters they wanted to talk to each other didn't actually have the relationship in canon that the fans had dreamed up, and so, when the chips were down, they went to other people.

It takes two seconds to say something like "I hold their hand", even in the middle of plot-heavy adventuring. If someone doesn't say it, it's rarely the GM rushing them; it's the player either choosing not to do so, or not remembering to do so, and either of those is quite revealing regarding how the player feels about that relationship and where it stands in their priorities.

[ocrpfinder]

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21+ | 🕊️🍪 | oc x oc | mxm | Dark Themes| Dead Dove | I'm looking to play the dom (but I can sub if you're a hard dom) | Real face claims only (unless we need monster forms, etc) | Anything goes (except for bathroom play) | Discord Private server RP with Tupperbox | Semi-Lit to Novella, I match my partners. | Looking for active people/people who love OOC/world building/aesthetics | Filling some time gaps between my slower partners, so they don't feel pressured to reply to me more quickly! I love and want them to feel pressure-free :) |

Theme: Bodyguard x Guarded Individual, OR something similar. I'm still looking for more partners!

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Hello! If you're still reading this, that means you're interested in all the basics I posted above. I'm a 21+F and I don't care what you are. I'm looking to hammer out some bodyguard-esque themed RPs--preferably with a fantasy, supernatural, monstrous or otherwise magical twist. Knights would be so freaking good right now. 😭❤️ But yes--I'd like to play it out where the pair absolutely cannot fall in love, for example, the Regis x Clarus ship from FF15. I'm not looking to play out that ship, but if you know, you know.

I'd really love some Prince x Knight, or something along those lines, be it modern day (with Knights still being a thing because lore and world building reasons!) or set in a fantasy world with names that we can actually pronounce, I'm so down for this. If you're looking for hardcore high fantasy with Ageulisk Maximu'sklur as your main character, I'm not sure we'll be a fit. I can do high fantasy, but please don't expect me to invent complicated locations/names for things.

I usually RP every day, but frequency of posts depends on how much I have on my plate and how bad my health is. I'm on a year-long medical leave, so I have tons of time on my hands. Anyways, I'm not opposed to monster shenanigans, with monsters doing the plowing, nor am I opposed to the bodyguard being forced into his position as a slave. The dom character can be either one, I don't care. I prefer my subs to be dynamic characters, not just pretty things to look at who throw themselves at my muses. I can also mumu, if we see fit for the story. Lots of growth here. Potential 🍪 if they're growing up together or with an age gap.

I love me some healthy dose of smut, but if you love storybuilding and plot that comes WITH a healthy dose of smut, then this is the right one for you.

Please like this post if you're interested and I'll get back to you! :)

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[trappedinafantasy37]

As many of you know, I am currently working through a Shadowheart origin run with Minthara as my only companion. I recently just wrapped up Act I and I just kinda wanted to write about the story so far, cause ya'll know I like telling stories.

WARNING: this gets pretty long. Again, it's a story. But I did include some pictures! Also, some things are gonna be a little outta character and involve my own head canons as I try to fill in the gaps of what isn't directly said in the game.

PRETEXT

Since I had done the Shadowheart origin twice before, I wasn't so strict with certain RP aspects. So, I reclassed her from the beginning to be a Gloomstalker / War Cleric as at the beginning of the game, spell slots were just a little too expensive for her to be a full cleric and she's not really good in melee once those slots run out. But, the build was still semi lore accurate. I also used 1 hireling through the duration of Act I and was playing on Explorer, more so for gameplay reasons though. Narratively, it was just Shadow by herself and things were kinda tough.

THE BEGINNING

After the Nautiloid had crashed and Shadow woke up on the beach, she remembered the mission that she had been given to her by her Mother Superior. She double checks her pack to be sure that the Prism is still secure, which it is, thankfully. But, she has to get movin and groovin. Her mission was a success! But she lost all her comrades. Right now, she is in a strange land who may not be so friendly to Sharrans. So, the first thing she decides is to keep an eye out for a change of clothes to quickly get rid of her Sharran armor and to find a healer for the worm in her skull.

She stumbles into an ancient crypt where there are a few bandits and robbers. She was able to persuade the ones outside the crypt to leave, but the ones inside the crypt weren't so much in a talkative mood. It was a tough fight for her by herself, but she managed to survive. She continues deeper into the crypt to find an old statue to Jergel. What an interesting place for the memory of this god to be!

She walks into a closed off room where she accidentally awakens the dead. Again, another tough fight, but much easier than fighting the robbers and bandits. At least the dead are allergic to holy magic! Once they are killed off, she enters further and meets an interesting skeleton, Withers! After joining the camp, Shadow immediately talks to him for a respec into a Gloomstalker War Cleric of Shar.

She continues on her journey and comes across a pair of tieflings who have a gith trapped in a cage. She knows this gith. It was the one who helped her on the Nautiloid. She knows the gith would surely be angry for her stealing the Prism from her kin and Shadow cannot risk losing it. She convinces the tieflings that this gith is dangerous and she joins them in killing it. Good riddance!

THE GROVE

She continues forward and comes across another challenging situation. A grove is being attacked by a pack of goblins. She has no idea why this fight is going on, but goblins are goblins. She knows they are a threat. She really wants nothing to do with this situation as it isn't her problem. But, there is no other way forward except to fight, so fight she does.

After killing the goblins, she is promptly invited into the grove in which they direct her to Nettie, a healer. She talks to some of the merchants there and purchases new gear so she can finally be rid of her Sharran armor and hide her identity. Thankfully, no one in this grove recognizes the symbols.

Unfortunately, Nettie was of no help to her and directed her to some goblin camp to find the Archdruid Halsin. Shadow groans on the inside, but she needs a healer. As much as she sympathizes with the plight of the tieflings, she has greater priorities right now and this conflict with the goblins and druids just isn't her concern.

But, Shadow is a bit of a meta gamer and decides that the goblin camp will be the last place she travels to. Instead, she goes everywhere else. While ignoring the goblin camp and the situation in the grove, she has gone on many misadventures where she:

Fought on owlbear

Cleared out the Blighted Village of its goblin infestation

Traveled to the Risen Road

Helped some Zhent traders in a Gnoll attack

Rescued Councellor Florrick and learned of the fate of Grand Duke Ulder Ravengard

Discovered a hidden Zhent basement

Traveled to the Underdark

Helped a colony of sentient mushrooms with a duegar infestation

Killed a bulette

Met the great god BOOOAL

Killed a Spectator

Traveled to Grymforge

Freed Nere and took his head

Killed some duegar slavers and freed some gnome slaves

Fought Grym

Killed a Phase Spider Queen

Defeated Ethel

Killed Wood Woad and learned of the Shadow Druids

Confronted Kagha, but she would not back down so Shadow had to kill her and the hostile druids.

Girl has managed to do quite a bit by herself. By now, she is confident that no one around recognizes the symbols of Shar, despite those symbols being literally everywhere in the region for some unknown reason. So, she decides to wear an upgraded version of her armor that she found in Grymforge as it provides better protection for her.

With nothing left to do, it is now time to enter into the goblin camp.

THE GROVE RAID

At some point, she returns back to free Sazza cause she's just tired of fighting and wants an easy way into the camp. She sneaks the goblin out of the grove in which she is safely escorted into the goblin camp. She walks in saying to herself that she is only interested in a healer and Halsin is her priority. As much as she would want to help the tieflings, she is not getting involved in this conflict! That is, until she met Nightwarden Minthara.

Unfortunately, Sazza spilled the beans and told Minthara where the grove was and now the drow wants to recruit Shadow into joining. Of course Shadow has her reservations. They were innocent tieflings and Minthara means to kill them all. But, from Shadow's standpoint, everything was stacked against her. She did not want to play any part in killing the tieflings and was tempted to warn them that Minthara was coming. But Minthara had an army, was backed by a very powerful god who seems to have the ability of mind control, may potentially provide some insight into the worm situation, and well, the dream guardian told Shadow to infiltrate the cult. She also grew increasingly anxious over Minthara's intense desire to retrieve the Prism, the very thing keeping Shadow safe from the Absolute, turning into a mind flayer, and is the one thing she was tasked with returning to Baldur's Gate. She could not risk Minthara taking the Prism from her.

Being trained in the art of espionage, Shadow teams up with Minthara to get a ticket into the cult, especially since Shadow alone couldn't possibly fight against Minthara's goblin warband and she did not have the confidence that the tieflings could either. Not to mention, Shadow can easily evade Minthara's inquisition about the Prism if Shadow presented herself as an ally. At this point, she has abandoned her search into Halsin as it is clear he is Minthara's enemy due to him being Archdruid of the grove and Shadow needs Minthara to think they are on the same side.

Rolling open the gates at the grove made Shadow feel ill to her stomach. But, she knows that this is something her Dark Lady would have wanted. Either way, the tieflings were going to die by Minthara's hand, that was a guarantee. Better to help Minthara and guide the tieflings into embracing their inevitable deaths than to be amongst one of Minthara's casualties where no one would remember her.

After the raid, Shadow just felt horrible and awful. For a brief moment, her indoctrination breaks and the real her slips out. The tieflings were innocent and didn't deserve this. She could have helped, she should have helped. But Minthara reassures her that she is on the right path and she is loved by god Herself. Minthara may have been talking about the Absolute, but Shadow knows Shar approves of her actions today. But the guilt just wouldn't leave and continues to gnaw at her conscious.

Feeling pretty damn horny excited after the raid and the glory to come, Minthara pulls Shadow into the the chapel to celebrate the festivities together. Shadow is more than willing as she'd rather fuck the feelings away or she'd otherwise drink them away. And Minthara certainly helps Shadow by having her feel a wide array of things that aren't guilt. Such as [REDACTED] where Minthara [REDACTED] and then she did this thing with her tongue and [REDACTED]. At some point during the activities, Minthara realizes Shadow's face is very soft and would make an excellent chair, and so she [REDACTED].

Afterwards, the two have a little heart to heart and Shadow sees a side to Minthara that she didn't expect to see. Up until now, she saw Minthara as a monster, some "genocidal lunatic" who probably should have been knocked out in the goblin camp. But, right now, she sees someone who seems genuinely pensive, doubtful, and very much unsure of herself. And, well, who was Shadow to judge. She stood right next to Minthara, participating in the death of the tieflings. If Minthara was a monster, then so was she.

In the middle of the night, Shadow is awakened in her sleep by an overwhelming sensation of an impending murder! She looks up to see Minthara standing above her, ready to kill her. But Minthara gets a little shy and backs away. She explains her doubts and her fears to Shadow and why she perceives her to be a threat to the Absolute. Right now, Minthara is desperate to believe that her perception of Shadow is false. It really does not take too much for Shadow to clear her of any doubts.

Feeling that she is worthy of the Absolute's embrace, Minthara gives Shadow her lyre and a path to Moonrise and the two split up to meet again later. And Minthara sure does hope that she sees Shadow again. After everything that the two just did together in that chapel? Yeah, the half-elf better fucking come back to her. Minthara has plans!

Thanks for reading my story! Currently working through Act 2 right now. Will update the story once I completely finish with the act, but I will post my little mini updates from time to time.

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[chounaifu]

I’m really glad that those asks I sent out are being well-received. There’s still a few more that I need to write up, but, I’m pacing myself. :’)

Thoughts about my own current state beneath the cut, since my therapist always encourages me to open up to the people in my space. Some of it can be potentially triggering, so, please do not open if the discussion of trauma, stalking and abuse is harmful to you:

I’ve been vocal about the horrifying, traumatic stuff that caused me to leave the RPC in 2017, to a few of you before. Without going into deep detail, between the years of 2017-2021, I was trapped in an extremely, extremely abusive relationship with a member of the RPC who is no longer here, thank fuck. Because of my poor coping skills and extremely fragile mental health at the time, he managed to keep me in a social isolation until I finally left him in 2021. And I mean true social isolation; I wasn’t allowed to talk to anybody but him. (I literally had to lie and pretend like I was having internet troubles if I even wanted to open up another chat box on Discord to talk to somebody, because he would literally point out the amount of minutes it took for me to respond to him.) He tracked my location in real time with GPS. He controlled what I ate when we spent time together irl. He forced me to quit one of my jobs before, because he wasn’t pleased with how busy I was. Any free time I had, had to be given to him. I had no identity, no autonomy, no sense of self.

Since I left him in 2021, I’ve been in a long process of learning how to be a human being again, how to exist around multiple people, and how to monitor my energy levels. It’s been hard, and, there’s a lot of times where I have to learn that I am adapting to an entirely new way of life. I used to be able to write a lot of thread replies, ask replies, and drabbles in a short period of time, but, my brain just does not do that anymore. And it makes me sad, but, I know that my RP partners understand my situation.

I cannot emphasis how much going from *one* person to— well, a lot of good friends has been good for me, but also a difficult experience in itself, because I’m still fighting with my own hypersensitivity and paranoia.

Choosing to come back here was one of the scariest decisions I have ever made. And, even though I don’t vocalize it, I actively fight trauma responses every single time I open Tumblr— not because anybody is doing anything to me, but because the experience I went through was so deep.

That’s why I’ve been trying to take a minute to sit down, and send some nice words to everybody. You never know what somebody is going through. *Nobody* knew what I was going through, because I hid it so well— because I was forced to. We’re all human beings, on this rock, and we all chose to sit here and write, whether because it is a coping mechanism, something we’re passionate about, or because it’s simply fun. And I think that’s really, really beautiful.

I don’t think I’m ever going to be the same, energetic Rex that I once was. And I wish I could be. But that is okay.

So, for the people who welcomed me back, and remembered me: thank you for accepting my return, and accepting my apology.

And for the people who didn’t know me, who have become my friend lately: thank you for giving me a chance.

I’ve lost a lot of people, both friends and family, in the past decade or so. Nobody can fill those gaps, but, you guys make me feel a lot less lonely. Believe it or not, I don’t have many friends irl, and I really don’t know what I would be doing with myself right now if I hadn’t chosen to come back to Tumblr.

I wish there was more I could do to help uplift everybody who has been having a difficult time lately, I really, really do. But, at the end of the day, I cannot; what I can do, is point out that there’s at least *one* person out there who wants to see the best happen for you.

I guess what I’m trying to say is, I just want to be a good person, despite of the horrible things I was called by my abuser, and I hope I am doing that.

[2000sgossip]

ugh.  i  guess  it's  that  time  to  let  you  all  know  your  dates  for  this  horrific  holiday.  click  on  the  fun  link  below  (under  the  read  more)  to  figure  out  who  you  will  be  spending  this  horrific  day  with;  you  really  thought  i  was  going  to  plan  it  all  out  for  you  ?  what  ..  are  you  incapable  of  having  a  single  original  thought  ?  figure  it  out  yourself,  i'm  sure  those  braincells  within  your  head  will  think  of  something  less  than  mediocre  for  such  an  event.  

don't  get  too  excited,  though.  know  that  we  have  eyes  and  ears  everywhere  and  if  something  spicy  happens  on  your  little  get  together,  we  will  be  the  first  to  know,  and  sucks  for  you  but  our  lips  are  not  sealed.

ocean  cartier  +  lennon  harlow

ace  kang  +  santiago  vidal

daisy  donnelly  +  nihan  ergenc

raine  rivera  +  bash  guerra

milo  sinclair  +  dante  lecompte

easy  harvey  +  teddy  dizon

florence  ducatti  +  mikhail  ivanov

tobias  forester  +  anya  vipavakit

rowan  delaney  +  evelyn  moreno

mariana  lozano  +  liliana  morales

brandon adams  +  juliana aliso

cassie  oliver  +  dulce  abarca

ricky  presley  +  sidney  kane

axelle  kinneson  +  jia  choi

zoya  wylie  +  sabriye  aydin

logan  sethi  +  tennie  spalding

nesrin durmaz  +  cordelia  deniran

xander  northridge  +  miyeon  seo

ooc  information  :

the  above  list  is  the  pairings  for  this  little  plotdrop  !  if  for  some  reason  you  are  unable  to  get  ahold  of  your  pairing  partner  withing  twenty  four  hours,  please  let  us  know  and  we  will  swap  your  character  with  someone  else  !

these  are  solely  to  encourage  more  interactions  with  more  muns  /  characters,  these  do  not  have  to  be  romantic  dates  and  we  heavily  encourage  coming  up  with  some  creative  little  things  that  your  characters  can  do  together.

there  is  no  deadline  for  these  threads,  it  can  simply  go  into  your  rotation  of  other  threads;  please  do  not  bubble  rp  these  threads  !

we  heavily  encourage  ic  drama,  we  would  love  for  the  gossip  blog  to  fill  with  a  bunch  of  things  that  stirs  the  pot  !

please  make  sure  to  tag  these  accordingly,  so  everyone  knows  what  is  for  the  plotdrop  and  what  isn't.

these  pairings  were  done  at  random  with  the  wheel  of  names  app;  shuffles  were  made  between  each  pairing  to  maintain  the  randomness.  we  also  tried  to  make  sure  that  the  age  ranges  were  understandable  and  fair,  however  if  we  missed  something  and  you  are  uncomfortable  with  the  age  gap  between  characters,  let  us  know  !  although,  do  remember,  these  can  be  friendly  or  first  meeting  type  get  togethers

if  you  have  any  questions,  don't  hesitate  to  reach  out  via  our  question  channel  on  the  discord  or  dm  the  main.

these  threads  can  start  at  any  time  but  we'd  really  like  to  see  a  starter  made  at  least  by  friday  !

[clockwork-sparrow]

Tales from the Frost

Stories following the conclusion of the RP Arc, TOWER.

Stories: 1 [2] 3 4

You were my Best Friend

Witless oaf, Minerva thinks. That he assumes flowers and a pathetic smile can even begin to address his mistakes. She sits on the park bench, radiating infinite poise and chill, and irritably wonders where this puts her, then. Because while he’s a fool who doesn’t deserve a second of her time, she’s the one waiting.

“Min--”

“Don’t. Only my friends can call me that,” she cuts him off.

The corner of Rainer’s mouth tugs back. He sheepishly hovers around her with a gap stretched taut between them, insurmountable and widening like a fissure. She narrows her eyes at him.

“Out with it. What did you come here to say?”

“...Ah. Well.” Rainer fidgets until the stems of his bouquet are bruised. “Well, Min.”

Minerva’s eyebrow twitches. She inhales and holds it in.

“We were friends, once,” he says quietly. His voice dwindles further, spiraling like a plane with a shot-off wing. “Best friends, even.”

“Were.”

“Were,” Rainer agrees. He looks at Minerva’s boots. “We were a lot of things.”

“And we’re not anymore,” Minerva enunciates.

“No. We’re not.”

Minerva doesn’t move. She barely even breathes. Over twenty years of her life have been spent doing damage control for Rainer’s impulsive, unthoughtful actions and now he’s here, talking about what they were before he slept with a terrorist and flaunted a bastard son in her face. She’s been so busy filling in for his inadequacies that she hasn’t processed it much. The hurt’s nearly as sharp as it was on the day she found out.

“You need to leave,” she tells him.

“I will.” Rainer breathes in deeply. “I will, but not before saying I’m sorry.”

“It’s too late.”

“I know, but I’m sorry.” Rainer glances up and meets her eyes. Her unflinching judgment. “I should have told you.”

“What? You should have told me that you were cheating on me?” Minerva scoffs. “It would have changed nothing.”

“Even if you don’t understand why I did it, you deserved to know. I shouldn’t have hid so much from you,” Rainer confesses. He pauses, wets his lip, and swallows before continuing. “It would have changed nothing but, maybe, it could have.”

Minerva rolls her eyes but beneath her fury is a bone deep exhaustion. She’s stood alone for so long and despite the hurt and betrayal, she remembers simpler times. Tainted, yes, but nostalgia, fondness, and yearning regardless.

“But you didn’t tell me. You didn’t choose me.” Minerva’s eyes flick to the earring dangling on Rainer’s ear. “And even now, you’re still warming the bed for someone long gone...Was it worth it, Rainer? Was love worth it?”

Rainer stands straighter.

“Love makes you come alive, like you’re full of fire and stars, free and finally whole,” he says. “And I want that for you, too. I really do.”

“What is this, pity?” Minerva murmurs. “Pity for an old crone?”

“No, it’s just--”  Rainer combs a hand through his hair. “It’s just, you were never going to get that from me, and I’m sorry! I’m sorry, and there’s not a day where I wish it didn’t all fall onto your shoulders, but maybe that burden -- maybe it shouldn’t have existed from the start. Maybe if we weren’t caught in systems that groomed and expected so much of us, then maybe, maybe we could have been...been.....”

“Been what? Friends?” Minerva says in disbelief. “Best friends? Us?”

Guilt and frustration grounds Rainer into momentary silence. He exhales hotly. “Yes, friends. We could’ve been normal friends! We could’ve been what we wanted to be instead of, oh, I don’t know. Arranged everything. Bullcrap.” Unfiltered honesty spills freely from Rainer as he speaks, anguish building toward a crescendo. “But Min, those systems are gone. Those systems are gone and now it's just us. Everyone is dead. Everyone is dead and I...”

Rainer swallows again. Both of them hear his words before he speaks them; the sentence completes in their heads.

“I can’t lose you too.”

Neither of them have anything to say after that and neither of them look away. Like two rangers locked in a quick draw duel, Rainer and Minerva remain frozen in each other’s presence, hurt, aching, and wanting. Minerva eventually breaks the standoff by tucking a strand of loose hair behind her ear. She closes her eyes and breathes out.

“...Let’s try this again.”

[mappishiina]

"Well, well... I suppose you need an explanation of how all of this works?"

"You should already know who I am, of course- your boss, the one guiding you in your job as the warden of MILGRAM? That's right, I'm the one and only Jackalope. You'll want to listen up, because I'm only going to explain this once..."

"This blog allows you to send questions to Mahiru Shiina, Prisoner 006. Think of it... like an extended interrogation. You can send them as yourself, or anonymously... whatever you'd like. Put your name on what you say or not, I don't care."

"As with how things work in MILGRAM regularly, what you say to her and how you say it will affect her just like your judgements do. This will help you to better understand the prisoner. After all, I want you to peer into their hearts and minds. It's best if you can truly understand them, in order to make the best judgement you can."

"Oh, and one last thing: this blog is best viewed on its desktop theme, if possible."

"I've also been told to mention that there's 'OOC info' under the cut, whatever that means."

Hiii. This is, as you can probably guess, an ask blog/rp account! Just real quick under the cut, here's a few basics for conduct:

I am an adult, but will not be answering any NSFW asks, and I also reserve the right to not reply to anything that makes me personally uncomfortable. This probably won't happen anyway, but I want to make my stance clear just in case. There's a lot of minors on milgramblr and running similar roleplay blogs, and I want this to be a safe and comfortable blog for everyone to interact with.

For consistency's sake, the current timeline of this blog is set in trial one. This may, and likely will, change at some point. I might jump timelines around later. But, starting out, it'll be trial one.

I try to stick close to canon in my characterization, but might indulge in a few personal headcanons here and there, especially to fill in gaps on things we don't know. If you send "magic anons" and things of that sort, I may or may not reply/go with it, depending- I'd like to stick mostly with the idea that any asks sent here are the "voices" that the prisoners mention hearing (so, not being able to physically do anything)... but I also may decide to indulge for fun. Basically, it's up to personal discretion. Just know it might not get answered.

This is probably going to be more of an ask-blog type thing than it is... a rp blog per-se, but I may dip my toes into roleplaying a bit on here as well! Other Milgram RP blogs can feel free to interact, and Mahiru will respond to any asks from RP blogs as if they were being sent by your character. I'll tag interactions with other prisoners with their number!

(I might do art for some asks as well, depending on motivation...)

Oh, and I'll edit this to put a tag index here whenever I figure out what I'm doing for those. Right now my ooc tag is simply #ooc, and any graphics I've used on the blog are reblogged under #graphics credits, as well as being credited at the bottom of this post.

Please just in general be nice and remember there's a real person running the account, and hopefully we can all have some fun with this!~ I've definitely been inspired by seeing other ask blogs/roleplay blogs pop up for MILGRAM, so I'm excited to jump in!

graphics credits: mobile icon + header by ameyumez and dividers on this post by 74n5n.

[bulletproof-slimeboy]

Hey guys, it’s Charlie!

So I know I worried you all, with those streams and the disappearing and everything, but I’m okay now! Gonna be in the hospital for a bit but I’ll be back on track as soon as I can.

We’re going for he/him pronouns, in case you were wondering! I’ll figure out tags later- I just wanted to get something out there and let you know I’m okay.

Edit: Tags!

IC: #in-vested

OOC: #genlost the plot

Original posts: #clever chat pun

Talking to cast/ex-cast: #rgb but more and fucked up

Answering asks: #what’s gooping gunkers

The end of a long rb chain: #and scene

TWs: This blog includes spoilers for Generation Loss as well as medical talk, injury and scars, serious mental illness and medication-related health complications.

This is a RP blog for post-show Charlie from Generation Loss! Rather, it’s a blog full of headcanons that mix with the others’ and our own plot because we’re filling in gaps-

…so basically fanfiction. It’s genloss fanfiction co-written by a cast and an audience. Read through, have fun, and feel free to ask and interact! If you want to join us, we’d be super happy to have you.

Extra special secret tags: #the hidden star, and #what

[mossy-tendencies]

Saw your posts about your tma hlvrai au and it seems really interesting! I have my own thoughts on what characters fit each entity. I think Tommy's an Eye avatar rather than a Lonely, he's literally read all of Wikipedia, reads entire OSHA guidelines and only does what he reads in books. Plus he can "see faster." I could see why someone would think he's Lonely because he's an orphan but Eye seems the better choice. Desolation is a good choice for Bubby, but I raise you, Extinction Bubby. I headcanon that the Extinction doesn't choose avatars, but creates avatars because the Extinction is about fear of self made destruction and replacement of humanity. Creating an artifical perfect scientist and having it backfire is very Extinction-aligned in my opinion. Also, he likes nuclear waste. I personally believe Coomer's is Vast. He went into the void and had an existential crisis after finding out his insignificant in the world and I think that eclipses the Flesh body modifications aspects. I agree with your Slaughter Gordon and Spiral Benrey. I haven't thought of what entity Forzen is so I'll accept Hunt. I don't know why you thought Darnold is Corruption, he doesn't have any bugs or disease connections and I don't really see the toxic relationships aspect either (I personally think he's Flesh because of the fingernail-handgun potion). Thoughts?

HI HI! thank you for your ask and for indulging me in my Autism. let me explain my fanon nonsense.

going in order,

i see tommy as an avatar of the lonely because a big part of his narrative (the one i wrote lol) is being deserted by his dad. his dad is an avatar of the eye from the beginning, naturally, resulting in a need to, oh y'know, experiment on his son. learn more about the fears with government-funded isolation to make the perfect avatar. the eye has a stake on tommy in this au, yes (in my notes i have it written as "Avatar of the Lonely [Possible secondary: Eye]"), but the lonely won in the end. the turning point for all the avatars is something i call the Fear Cascade/FearCas (this au's rescas), which turned those marked by a domain into avatars. pretty much everyone but gordon and benrey, the former becoming an avatar later and the latter becoming one before. i still like tommy as an avatar of the eye so he has some passive traits of one, but lonely is the primary.

extinction bubby is great! i had to go with desolation because of the whole fire motif, but also pain. lots of pain. he's a tube baby, a guy who was experimented on relentlessly. He's Afraid Of Pain.

i considered coomer for vast! it was my friend who suggested flesh!coomer, he's just such a dimensional character that i had to pick one aspect of his to focus on. i decided to focus on the prosthetics. they're unnatural and gross and scary but they benefit him. plus the whole clone thing (which i replaced with stranger avatars with a vendetta) and wanting to climb inside of gordon to wear as a skin suit was pretty fleshy to me.

hunt forzen was another suggestion from my friend! a good chunk of the military/hecu (and by that i mean, Most Of Them) are hunt avatars because of the need for the chase. that or slaughter, but a lot of military propaganda revolves around this invisible enemy you have to track down and defeat, some goal that is always on the horizon and only accessible if you work for it.

now as for darnold, you'll have to pardon the projection. i made this au about two years ago and i started it via rp, evolving from there. darnold is a character who only has about 15 minutes of screentime and no character development, so i filled in the gaps with a shitload of lore and ocs. the corruption (at least, my original reason for making darnold an avatar of it), is because of the potions darnold makes. i made him a mushroomy guy with bugs and the like so he uses these mushrooms as ingredients, harnessing the corruption and using it to his advantage. spoilers: darnold doesn't stay just an avatar of the corruption. eye is their secondary, and eventually, they get marked by all fifteen (including extinction). this is very plot relevant. give me a year or two to make it into a fanfiction because i am actively working on it lol. OH AND. catholic guilt. i gave the funny science guy catholic guilt. it's also relevant.

tldr; i made this au a fucking while ago and some of choices have not aged well, but i am sticking by them because i've gone This Far and, despite me working on rewriting it into fanfiction format (as it was originally made for rp), i am sticking to my gut and keeping the hoard of fanon/headcanons/ocs i have made for this universe For Funsies.

thank.

[consequencesofargentdawn]

Overview

Our hotly awaited quarterly report on the PCU and its outlook. We apologise for the slight delay but there had been some last minute changes that needed to be done before publishing. It has been quite the dramatic four months! It appears the PCU event horizon has finally come, the day when we can safely say the group as a whole is on an inexorable decline.

Guild Collapses.

There have been some major casualties to the PCU. The <Blood of Martyrs>, one of the main flagship Alliance based guilds for the cultic group has collapsed, most of its membership having migrated to Epsilon. In it’s place a “PCU / Not PCU” replacement in the shape of the <Vestige of the Flame> has recently popped up to apparently fill the gap for fascist religious fundamentalist Scarlet Crusade RP.

Other significant casualties include the <Aparoshe Stampede> the “official” RP guild of the PCU and the apparent collapse of <Primal Pact>, with most of the remnants of it being folded into the barely animated <Painted Shields>. It also appears as if the <Coppersail Corsairs> have after many iterations and forms have also gone into inactivity.

Following the trend of guilds taken over by the <Grim Gest>, the resident San’layn of RP, <Sunnyglade Ratters> has been sucked dry and left to decay under their custodianship and have folded, much like the <Stormwind City Sentry> before it.

As the <Highblood Myrmidons> have come under Xotrios’ leadership (and then subsequently relegated to be managed by a low level alt of his) we can assume the last of the Blood Elf PCU guilds will be looking to folding as well. Not to worry! Talirei and her guild of harassing women haters and bigots <The Sunspear> will likely open their arms to any incel Blood Elves wanting the “authentic” Blood Elf experience, but don’t want to have to worship at he altar of Talenthiel every morning.

Stagnation, Decline and Surprises.

Across the board there has been very little growth and in most cases, contraction of guild membership, with the proportions of max level characters in a number of guilds having declined considerably, even in the new leadership guild of the PCU the <Hand of Conquest>. In most cases being stuffed with alts in order to conserve the image that they are healthy, case in point being most prevalent within the <Red Venturers> and <Ronin>.

The only guilds showing an overall net increase have been <Boomtech Inc>, The “Shadowbane Coven” (<Cleft of Shadow>/<Ashen Wake>) and ironically, <The Rotgarde> of all people, Otherwise the trend has been stagnation or continued decline, even as the Dragonflight expansion hits its first major content patch (usually when we would expect an up tick in activity across the game, rp included).

So, where does that leave the PCU? Considering their public image is at an all time low, Gruggosh has done nothing to improve any of their atrocious behavior or even the appearance of such. Their own members bicker and trade barbs at one another over guild threads, their own guild threads at that (take note of <The Rotgarde> thread in recent weeks) and they are openly contested like nothing else in game these days, it is safe to suggest that the battle is in fact, over.

Beware The “FakeCU”.

However! We should not rest on laurels. It has become painfully obvious over the last few months that the PCU are attempting some sort of contingency plan to hide from the community until they are forgotten about - think of it like the ratlines to Argentina!

As each PCU guild that decays, a few “FakeCU” guilds seem to show up. This trend is not only obvious in some simple alt searches but how they present themselves, or the ones who have done so publicly at least. Guild thread pops up, title usually has an emoji icon inside it, main post sets out its big vision and within one hour PCU posters are over it like a hot rash saying “HOW GOOD” “HOW BASED” “HOW RAD” these people who have appeared out of nowhere are.The only people who comment on these threads are in turn, only other PCU members or their alts.

We would like to thank the eagle eyed readers who have shared with us recently those suspected of being PCU front guilds.

Predicted projections; changes going forward.

So, what will happen next? We have some predictions as usual. It is highly likely that the <Highblood Myrmidons> will fall off the PCU actives list. <Azure Dawn> is only on it by virtue that the guild functionally exists but its member base have all escaped to the Horde. There are many guilds who are looking extremely precarious in terms of activity and membership. For a group that flaunts how “active” they are, the PCU have had shockingly little to share in public aside from a small brief campaign in Blackrock Mountain, despite so many guilds claiming they are “going to the Dragon Isles.”

To paraphrase a statement made by Perroy a few years ago: “If your guild has under 30 high level people is it really a guild?” Many PCU guilds have dropped under that threshold. This is why we are monitoring the composition of guilds as much as the total net amount.

We here at CoAD think it’s quite reasonable now as the expansion has been out more than six months for people to have levelled their main characters up, the ones who they are going to actually spend the most time on. While yes it is very much true that you do not -need- to be at max level to RP the PCU have placed much stigma on “alt characters” (especially so recently) over the years, so we will merely be holding them to their own standards from here on out.

Which is to say, if there is a PCU guild with under thirty (30) max level characters and/or forty (40) 60+ characters, it will be being added to the “Walking Dead” classification of guild, a shell being propped up purely to maintain an illusion of activity. After all to once again paraphrase the former Dear Leader “Lol just merge with a bigger guild if your guild is so small.”

Concluding thoughts.

While we should allow some time to celebrate, the PCU core is remarkably resilient and manipulative. Morsteth in particular has already been removed from one server before, and he and his guild will likely remain a source of harassment and abuse to others for time to come. Though the extremely recent pantomime show done by his San’layn Quillestra shows that there is a break down in command that would not have happened even two years ago.

Gruggosh remains very much seemingly a continuity figure, but without the same amount of apparent baggage that Perroy carried, which is likely why he was chosen. A “fresh” face tied to little public controversy but long standing officership in the second largest PCU guild.

The fact that there are those who do not recite pure party orthodoxy on command however now and at least a significant minority disaffected with him by the reports we get continues to make us think he will be continuing his gradual purge of elements formerly associated with the Rotgarde and Grim Gest old guard.

Another indicator is also a very simple one. A dramatic collapse in PCU activity in barely half a year. Major guilds collapsing, some consolidating into others and clear fractures. We point you to the <Warsong Marauders> guild that popped up, which we have NOT included in this census due to the fact the leader appears to have deleted and/or removed his characters from PCU guilds.

For now though, we shall continue to remain vigilant, watch and report on changes of significance from within the PCU, their antics and any abuse we find coming from their ranks.

[utilitycaster]

I’ve been curious about your opinion on the Laudna book since it was announced earlier today on Twitter. Do you think the book will be good for filling the gaps that you’ve mentioned in Laudna’s development? Or do you think it’s sort of a cop-out/shortcut from actually establishing any of this at the table? (I’m leaning toward the latter but you have more actual ttrpg experience than I do and I might just be a little sour)

I alluded to this in my discussion of the book yesterday, notably in this post, but: it's not actually a shortcut. (I should also note: while some of my issues with Laudna do derive from the mechanics of D&D/actual play, they would persist if this were a written narrative, or one improvised without a TTRPG. My experience with D&D isn't really relevant here.) The fact that it hasn't been established at the table and it needs to be means that a lot of people are far less invested in Laudna as a character than they would be otherwise, and so the book is going to be a case of "why would I bother when this is my least favorite character specifically due to the lack of sense of backstory".

I also think that again, the issue is that Laudna's backstory does not feel lived-in, even if we don't know it. I've talked about this elsewhere as a negative space issue; I do not feel the weight of those 30 years, nor the closeness of those 2 years with Imogen, whereas, for example, we don't have a huge number of details from Imogen's backstory, actually, but Laura does successfully convey Imogen's mistrust of people and sense of loneliness (the notable exception again being those two years). You don't actually need to establish backstory details in-game in the sense that they don't need to be clearly outlined through RP in the present. You just need to make a character who actually feels like they've been through all the things your character sheet says they've been through, and that's really been the problem, and a book won't fix that and might make it worse.

[hopeful-hugz]

🥚 Made a clarifying update to this and I'm gonna add an explanation here behind the bio thing in particular.

This is more meant for the general public and those who tend to spring muses out of nowhere and not even add them to their muse list or just use wiki pages with no intention of writing a proper bio out.

I'm of the belief that everyone's interpretation is unique, just like every writer is; "I play them like canon" isn't a true statement. At all. Everyone interprets media differently in some aspect and that shows through how you write or how you fill gaps or place a muse in a timeline. You show a lot of a first impression of you and your writing through your muses' bios. This can go doubly if partners are writing with others who play the same muses as you elsewhere. Humans are creatures of bias, it's gonna seep into anything we do. If you only give people that base information, they will formulate things to fill in the gaps based on bias until they've talked with you and written with you enough. That can be incredibly harmful to plotting and communication.

I'm one of the Ideas Guys. A kind of writer that is a lot less common than they used to be on most platforms. If that first impression isn't there, I struggle to formulate proper ideas and make cohesive replies.

THAT BEING SAID!

There are some of you that HAVE come to me in the past and we've gone back and forth or you've actively told me about your muses and characters over time. We don't interact right away, but we Establish Things and Swap Ideas! There's people who actively bounce off me and work with me to find an alternative and we have a plan set in place.

I'm fine with this too; and have actively kept the plans that have been made between myself and partners who have come to me for this! But you have to be willing to talk about your muse in your own words and actually talk back and forth with me about things in order for us to actually get anywhere. I've actually been experiencing this a lot of this in the TWEWY and Murder Drones RPCs (shoutout to the MD RPC in specific for this you guys are PHENOMENAL with your communication, understanding and passion for your muses!) and it has helped me build bonds with these people as a bonus!

With my combination of problems and complications, things like this can be a genuine struggle for me and after a decade of RP. It is really starting to make it impossible to write with some people. I WANT to write with you; I HAVE INTEREST IN YOUR MUSES. But there's some things I need as a person and writer in order for that to happen.

If you actually read through this, I appreciate it. Sorry it's so long, but I hope it clarifies some things.

[zponds]

Glassesless Max

(Requested by Brotherofmay2)

Now there isn’t any art out there of Max without his glasses, so I thought I’d help fill in that gap with this. And several years ago, Brotherofmay (brotherofmay2 now) and Hunty627 did an rp where Max was without his glasses, and Bonnie thought it was quite cute… and brotherofmay (brotherofmay2 now) did make a few image-edit posts a few years back where Max was without his glasses. And this drawing that I made of Glassesless Max serves as a little tribute to all those posts and I hope you all enjoy looking at this drawing.

[enneamage]

I guess I can chime in on the shipping thing as someone who does ship one of the forbidden ones that being Techza. Only in an RP way I’m not truthing or anything and I also don’t write fetish stuff. I just ship them in the most vanilla way possible

I spent about a year and a half having thoughts about shipping it and I felt like a horrible, terrible freak for it. I actively tried to repress my thoughts about it, out of pure fear that anyone I told about it would instantly try to cancel me or something. Even as I read QPR fanfic that was so clearly just people trying to get away with shipping it. Honest to God, I have read QPR fics that are way gayer than the fics tagged with /.

Then I basically cracked and told someone and guess what? They shipped it too and now we both talk about it together. I’m having the most fun I’ve had in this fandom just making AU ideas with that person

It feels so so much better to just admit you ship something rather than try to lie to yourself about it. I’ve talked to multiple people and all of them admit to having read some stuff of the forbidden ships such as Techza or Schlattbur. This fandom is filled with people who all ship stuff but everyone is too scared to talk about it because no one wants to be ostracized or anything

I just think it’d be a much healthier fandom environment if people could just say “Yah, I ship it” rather than having to repress those thoughts out of fear and instead go down the “QPR totally not shipping” path

We’re all fucking weirdos for writing fanfic about Minecraft men at all and that’s okay. I’d rather be a happy weirdo than a repressed and scared shipper

Yeah, one of the most tiresome things about this fandom is I’m pretty sure most people have a dual motive weather they know it or not. You’re much more likely to get the truth out of people in private if they trust you, the average member of the fandom isn’t an open book and if you’re on maintwt you can’t afford to go against the grain so it seems like people are more rigid than they really are. The thing that I find really disdainful is when people join in on dogpiles because they’re afraid of someone catching them in whatever it is they’re ashamed of, so they scapegoat someone else to displace the guilt. I can tell this fandom has a lot of that.

Techza is kind of a classic ‘hiding in plain sight’ example, I could tell from a glance at that community what people were really attached to, but I never saw anything outstandingly sexual from them (maybe I missed something?) so I let it go. They were around Techno’s age, it was all very Greek, I got it.

I think one of the biggest corrupting factors in this fandom has been how hyper-visible everything and everyone is. RPF is a dangerous game but the thin barrier between RPF and ‘shipping the characters’ in MCYT has a way of making some of the most tense fandom dynamics I’ve ever seen, I think people from other server fandoms would vouch for how bad it gets.

Something that I’m actually pretty firm on is that fan spaces should be mostly for fans (not devotional spaces for the benefit of ccs) and offer them a certain level of privacy, I know that there’s nothing to be done about the fourth wall the way things are now but I’m hoping that whatever websites rise up to take the place of Twitter if it ever becomes completely unusable will put more of a gap again. I don’t think we’ll ever be able to turn back time to when RPF was less well-known, but all I can hope for is moving somewhere where the too-close-for-comfort dynamic isn’t at play, because the panopticon has hurt almost as much as it’s helped at this point.