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#to be fair im like the uhhh#*counts*#16th blog in this scroll#but ive never seen myself in any of the 'top _ blogs' scrolls soo#aphelion.txt#dunmeshi#thistle#Thistle i havent updated that fanfic in months im so sorry i dont deserve this honor......#(I'LL GET BACK TO IT EVENTUALLY. I ALWAYS DO)#(I UPDATED ONE OF MY SCARA FICS AFTER A 9MONTHS HIATUS)#i got distracted by my other sad morally conflicted doomedkids is all:/
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#im back#uhhh#so i have not been active..#like at all for like a year or two#mostly because of life and family stuff#and the fell out of the hetalia for a mit#but my god how i have missed it#so i know not alot of people care which#fair enough#just wanted to explain:)#i made a comic#its not good but#It's not terrible#sooo ye😀#why am i like this 😐#art#hetalia#hetalia nordics#aph nordics#hetalia fanart#aph iceland#aph norway#hws norway#hws nordics#hws hetalia#hws iceland#comic#procreate
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Embarrassing that there are so many people in the HK Fandom who can't wait politely for Silksong, even to the point of being abusive and disrespectful towards TC and talking about boycotting the game.
There are so many other things they can do while waiting, and the fact that of all of things they still chose to stress TC really shows how much immature and ungrateful these guys are
#Hollow knight#Silksong#Hollow knight Silksong#Not to be aggressive on main but uhhh#Im pretty sure treating people like shit over a videogame isnt fair at all
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Me age 16: honestly sex seems a little scary
Me age 26: honestly sex seems a little scary 😎😝🤑💯💯🔥🔥🔥
#to be fair at sixteen it really was more of mix of uhhh anxiety in general and also some WHOPPING body image issues#and now im like huh. im not sure i want to touch or be touched like that. welp. im gonna go to the gocey store
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Hey, so for the Human Au, how do think Julie would go about her life? Considering her personality in the website, I would think that he takes up different part-time jobs, but mainly likes working at the community center, mainly for the summer/after school programs where they can come up with and host fun activities for the kids!
no yeah that's pretty much what i was thinking! she bounces from job to job - she probably has a roster of seasonal ones that she rotates between. Julie really does seem like an every-gal yk? doing just one thing all the time would be soooo boring
i like the idea of summer / after school programs a lot actually! since canon Julie is big on games and fun, i'm sure she'd be a great choice for those sorts of things. i bet she works a seasonal summer camp in their county!
#also it would be a cute frank-julie bestie thing#cause frank is a university professor#so then julie being in the education system as a camp counselor / school programs person whatever brains not braining rn#I Just Think It Would Be Sweet! and Fitting!#part of me wants to change Frank from university professor to like a uhhh elementary school teacher#but nah. but lets just say the local schools will have field trips and uh. idk a 'bug day'#yk how kindergartens and elementary schools would sometimes have a giant snake brought in or whatever#well i imagine that in this au frank keeps insects as 'pets'#(not pets as in companion animal but. he has a lot of arthropod tanks in his house lol)#so maybe a couple times a year he gets to interact with kids and julie's probably there too!#ohhhh maybe sometimes he'll go to the summer camp for like. education day or whatever#to talk about insects and animal safety or somethn#he's out there with a tarantula chilling on his head...#most of the kids are disinterested but one or two are so Intrigued and its. adorable. anyway this is about julie#rambles from the bog#wh modern human au#i like to think that both julie and barnaby have seasonal jobs at the county fair#it just lasts a few weeks but they have a good time! barnaby can put his clowning degree to Use!#but im having a great time picturing julie coming up with games and stuff and putting it to good use!#i bet she'd be great at finding compromises and solutions to those Schoolyard Problems yk#i said schoolyard problems and flashbacked to the multiple bad injuries at my elementary. & the seizure in hs...#hm. i saw a lot of serious shit. anyhow not the point#i bet julie is that one guy where whenever someone brings up an odd job she's like 'yeah ive done that'#slingin ice cream? catering? florist delivery? doughnut baker? budtender? running bingo night? Yes To It All!#i bet that in a way... howdy is jealous...
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took a mock ielts test today
#bakuspeech#honestly can not estimate how well I did with written competencies at All they could give me a goose egg and I'd be like. harsh but fair#but the speaking test was SO funny. bc I had to sit there and pretend like I didn't learn english from using tumblr for a decade#and. well. from writing anime fics. and [redacted] fics#so yeah yesterday and today's been dedicated to lunar new year stuff and mock test prep#as in. trying to remember the things I needed to bring to the exam room. which I did forget at home btw. good thing I went two hours#earlier than I shouldve#taking one single formalized aptitude test like ah yeah . this is why I'm not in school no more#twelve years of french to beat language aptitude testing into my very bones and five years out its all already a big open beautiful void#how did I manage that C1. they were 100% taking pity on me#anyways. I think Im good to sleep now. just figured a thing out excited to see it take shape properly#alright have a good night lads. enjoy uhhh words I guess. nice shoelaces u got there
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sits down . thinking about moving blogs Again . idk bro i am just . sits like a ragdoll
#✽ ➝ out. ❜#i feel like there are a lot of people who follow me but don't really Want to write w me idk#am i being Mentally Eel about it ??? yeah probably#im just . idk i feel like people don't uhhh actually like my muse. which like ok fair but idk#negativity /#i think ? i guess ? idk im just . yeah
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All 5 of you who came here specifically for Keys or Shades, I am so fucking sorry
#dont worry ill get bac kto drawing keys stuff and writing shades uhhh#eventually#imo the uf fans have been waiting like#3 years in all fairness lol#no im not going back to writing the fic in full#but...#well lets just say#im considering doing#something... :3
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Hello :) do you parhaps have and could share any arthuriana book references for someone who wants to get into it but doesn't know where to start?
Also your art is amazing and beautiful and everytime you post a new piece i stare at it in adoration and then go try to find and read the cited sources, so thank you so much for sharing your art with us :)
ough, there's probably some arthuriana blogs on this site who have a much more entry level friendly rec list/equipped to answer this than me, because my interest in arthuriana follows specific historical focuses and genre discussions. literally I read the prose tristan because I was scrolling through jstor and a text on the law in camelot mentioned the murder of dinadan, and I went, oh HELLO---
tldr; my other historical interests gave me enough background info that I comfortably jump around wherever my curiosity takes me, so I'm absolutely useless for this 🙃
tbh I'd probably just look up a summary of the main block of arthuriana texts and pick whatever sounds most fun or focus in on a knight you like and run them through a jstor search. perceval and tristan are my favorites, and kay compels me too. watch bbc's merlin and weep over gawaine, then do lancelot du lac (the film) and cry over gawaine a second time)
additionally I'd rec Stephen Knight's Merlin: Knowledge and Power through the Ages and Caitlin R. Green's Concepts of Arthur to go alongside it all because I think both books fuck severely
#ask tag#also thank you! im glad that the cited sources could be fun for other people too!!#sorry i could not be much help with this#it does not help that the brain space i usually save for arhturiana got taken over by an older interest in the templar order#(in like. the brutality of the trials when philip the fair curbstomped them into the ground fascinates me)#(the greater interest is in reception of knights and monastic military orders being reframed in a romantic context#directly overwriting their. uhhh. well! you know how it is!)#(dont get me wrong i love chivalric romances with knights. the ritual of it all. however. i like grit and grime)#ANYWAY i wish you luck with it all anon!
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alright, to give her the benefit of the doubt, like sure at least 60% of not telling the fam anything was traumatised fleeing behaviour but also maybe for the other 40% she just,,,,,,,,forgot
#which is fair i mean!#how do you keep track of who you told what when#and whether thats still the person youre travelling with rn#i mean i get confused abt who in my life ive already told a story to and i only have like 10 people in my life absolute max#the fam after spyfall 'so why did you never tell us abt the master before'#13 not meeting their eyes: uhhh no im sure i told you. mustve mentioned him. at some point#and shes done this often enough (see above) when it was true it's Almost believable#JUST probable enough that you cant call her out on it#i think thats how she gets away with most things#they dont need to BELIEVE her. it just needs to be probable enough to not for sure be called a lie#if they dont believe her at all thats fine as long as they cant do anyhing about it hgfjkghkjgh
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this guy keeps asking me about how organizing is going and i keep saying, like, i have been really busy and exhausted dealing with other things at the moment, and i don't think we will be able to unionize at all if it is literally just me doing any organizing & i got written up recently for something minor which im scared could be used as a fake reason to fire me if the museum catches wind of what im up to. and i need other people's help. and he keeps going ok cool well hope u find someone, bc I really need xyz addressed.
which is frustrating bc yeah im not getting anyone to agree to help w the actual organizing part even though it seems like everyone I've talked to wants a union, but this guy specifically is like. real surprised and disappointed that im not Doing More while making it clear he's not gonna do fuck all himself.
and he just dmed me an article about another local museum unionizing and as much as I'm happy for that museum the fact that he sent it makes me want to scream
#messages from the ouija board#sadies day job#hes a friend but also some of his complaints uhhh fucking suck!#doesnt want more pay so much as he wants the one guy in our dept w only a hs diploma (who isnt working toward a bachelors) to get paid LESS#bc hes like well i have a masters and i do think im worth what were getting paid but i dont think its fair this other guy makes just as much#and its like????? that wouldn't improve ur conditions jeff that would just make tims life worse#this isnt a job u need a masters for esp not a masters in fucking dance. tim does his job just as well as u do!#like its just so petty and gross and hes a good guy otherwise but. ugh.#anyway i feel like im drowning every time i try to work on it so! yeah we're never going to get a union#bc 'collective' seems to mean just one chronically ill full time employee ig
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Ms Kim Pine what song would you say most describes you as a person? :3c
Huh... That's a pretty good question, honestly...
I guess like anyone else I tend towards music that resonates with me, sure... don't tell anyone, but lately I've been listening to Honorable Mention, by Fall Out Boy? It doesn't quite fit the bill, but... it's nice.
But, yeah. A tough one. I might have to get back to you with a better answer, sometime, if that's alright.
#ooc: let me have this let me have this LET ME HAVE THIS--#ooc: uhhh honestly though idk how many songs in my kim playlist are ones that she feasibly could have listened to in terms of the timeline#ooc: like. a fair portion of this stuff definitely came out post 2006 im pretty sure. i know the depeche mode stuff- this-and then a track#+ that I MIGHT be removing are all ones she could have heard for sure?#ooc: this is part of why i do my PZ radio stuff in the discord-- a lot of the songs i modded in are ones she could have listened to. so im#+ constantly on the hunt for tracks that feel like they would be her or that she would listen to at least#ooc: if i could give her a more recent song though- misanthropic drunken loner is one that i feel she'd give as answer here feasibly.#:3c#(ooc: there is a reason for the :3c and like two people know it for sure. heh. it'll be funny when unveiled.. trust....)#ooc: and then earlier today- ack. yesterday actually- i was given penelope scott's Gross for consideration and that actually felt so right+#+in some ways#((ooc: NOW EVERYONE GO LOOK AT THAT ONE KIM EDIT TO HONORABLE MENTION AGAIN--))#pine.txt#asks#anon#rp#kim pine#sp comic#spvtwtg#spto#spvtw#GAME OVER! RESTART...?#ooc: and as always i would love to hear the songs that make yall think of Kim ♡#whoops this got posted early on accident#i am like nodding off as i schedule these rn that's why
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beating a dead horse but people can be soooo weird about wc deaths. i know we are kinda desensitized to it but like.... some of the things people say are just strange like “russetfur actually deserved to die and lionblaze was right to kill her even if it wasn’t an accident because she was old and brittle at the time anyways. also she mocked a baby stuck in a trap in one book so she deserves death and much more. her clanmates are actually so stuck up and entitled and stupid for being upset lionblaze killed her. they should have expected her to die next time a clan raided their camp and attacked them because she was old. what a bunch of brats. its so stupid when a character who isnt the protagonist is upset their clanmate died and that manifests as anger towards their murderer, idiot should know better.”
#all of this is actual word of mouth from the fanbase btw#its weird how people go ''OH erm russetfur deserved to die bc she mocked a baby'' like yes that was fucked up of her but uhhh#i hate to break it to you but thats every character in this series LMAO#what about all the cats that said to leave cloudkit out to die in THUNDERCLAN. whatabt when mousefur said the clan was getting too mixed#hell frecklewish has a whole group rallying for her that she did nothing wrong and shetraumatized literal children for being half clan#and rallied to make them homeless which ended up killing them.#all of this is fucked up yes but all characters involved in those incidents are fan favorites#mousefur gets called an epic girlboss for that meeting. every single cat in this series is xenophobic towards children im sorry#and random murder when they invade HER territory should not have been a ''punishment''#and yeah this extends to lion too technically like every cat in this series has at least one victim at this point#so it wouldnt be fair to say ''hes a bad character bc he killed someone'' (not that thats stopped these same fans but whatever)#but like its weird how people are like ''yeah he was right to do that and he should do it again''#echoed voice
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oh my god am i so fucking tired
#work ended two hours ago but still just so so tired#to be fair it was my first shift back in two weeks after that GODFORSAKEN cold#tales from diana#i was very anxious to do this last night. i had a hard time falling asleep#didnt get as much sleep as i wanted but i still did sleep#i had a half-day kindergarten job originally but when i got there they switched me to full day fifth grade#and it sure was a full day of fifth grade#theyre doing this thing right now in the fifth grade where they switch classes and go to the different teachers#to prepare for middle school. i get it i get it it's a good system#but i did have to teach a one-hour writing class three times to like sixty kids in total#it's a lot. AND i had to do a lunch duty god forbid#tomorrow im subbing full-day for a different kindergarten teacher and since im goin there i doubt theyll send me anywhere else#unless i guess someone else abruptly calls out sick but like. uhhh i just wanna do this k class ive been w them like 4 times this month#theyre easy i know these kids they dont scare me#and in early childhood ed theres always like at least a para or two#in the older grades im lucky if theres one para but today there were none#all day. goooood im tired
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I always get self conscious when people talk about the amount of thought the goes/went into their art because there is.
there is no upper processing happening when I'm designing a character or background. my hand starts moving and my brain shuts off. I recognize there was probably a point in my life where this WASN'T the case but. like. it's why my art is like. mostly flat and lifeless. my art is never intended to tell a story because when I intend to I get angry/frustrated to the point of wanting to break shit because it's not going right. and I've tried to tell stories with my art both comics and stand alone pieces and it all feels fake or flat or.
idk.
I've TRIED to start and finish a piece where I've made conscious choices beyond "does this look good/right" and "am I being offensive in ways I'm aware of with anything here" but it just. makes me want to scream.
I learned people told stories with their art and I tried to and I stopped drawing for 5 years despite having. before that point been doing art studies for 8 to 10 hours a day for. 2 years.
I mostly just think it's because I have nothing to. say.
I can't add anymore tags to this post??? homophobia.
any way this post is useless idk I'm just sad because people do this thing so easily and enjoy it when it makes me break down crying. I don't get it. every person I've known regardless of neurodivergency has been able to do this consciously to some degree and enjoy it and meanwhile my stupid ass is asked how/why i chose something and I just. shrug. idk
looked nice?
#idk i probably say a lot UNintentionally#but like.#idk i feel like im just being. like. whining. for no reason. like boo hoo no one cares grow up if art makes you thay mad just stop drawing#like. man i WANT to think i WANT to tell stories i intend to tell along with the things i dont pick up on but.#i also mean like. if someone looked at a piece they could pick it apart comprehensively. like#but its like. idk. im like. i think im just to stupid for it.#im the same way with media analysis to be fair. which isnt like great but like.#why did someone choose this lighting? i dont know they thought it looked good ?#i have gotten 90-100% on every single analysis and opinion piece i ever submitted in HS for English#the only time i DIDNT get over 89% on an opinipn piece is when i tried to articulate my actual feelings on a topic to go along w researc#THAT got me pulled aside and told what i had written about was inappropriate and that i should think twice#before submitting a paper with that kond of content in the future#ao i did :^) and went back to bullshitting every single thing!#the curtains were blue in this scene to indicate not sadness but instead her deep love for uhhh fuck. flips through reading material and#lands on a random page. her dog buddy who is depcited in chapter (x) seeing as buddy is usually a male dogs name we can extrapolate and say#she chose these curtain colours after his death to remind her of the dog she had lost ÷#end sentence end oaragraph submit paper withoit a secondary proof reading and lie and say i left the roigh draft at home. walk away#how did i get high grades. dude. like everyone says teachers know when a kids bullshitting but like#the teachers ATE MY SHIT UP 😑 i got used as an example of comprehensive stucture and analysis on more than one occasion#this is not me bragging this is me saying i never actually learned how to domthis stuff because i was supported in faking it#some people can do analysis like yhis on their first read through like. and remember it. how? how??? what???#whay do you mean its because you read mote than thee sparknotes and random chapters because the book didnt interest you.#'we know when you dont actually read the book?' why did you compliment me on my comprehensive opinons of the parts i didnt readm#'We know when you write it the night before?' why did you laude me as an example of dedication put into an essay when i fucked around every#single in class wotk session past the first one and frantically typed and printed that in the computer lab before class 20 minutes ago?#why!! like DUDE#its like when they say they can tell when you use wikipedia to soirce things and then lie about it#and then compliment ur sources when youbl just used wikipedias sources. witout reading them urself.#which i also did#and when they tell you not to just use google translate because they can tell. when i did and then edited a LITTLE to catch names.
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anybody else like the youngest staff member at their job and literally feel unwelcomed in the staff room or is that just me
#like...... I should just sit in my car at lunch but like thats lame too#Im afraid to play my 3ds on lunch LOL like I kno those old ladies will laugh at me#like uhhh yeah im 12 stop talking to me#the only girl my age maybe like doesnt talk which I mean fair enough I dont talk either#the only cool teacher has a dif lunch :/
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