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orcelito · 20 days ago

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I admit I still kind of am in survival mode from yesterday. Like I was the "this is fine" dog with a metaphorical house on fire around me. And By God I sure fuckin managed it. In that last hour, as time crept up and I started panicking a bit, I just kept muttering to myself about how "it's fine, I'll be fine. I'm so Fucking good at finishing things." And ykno what? I Did It!!!

But now I still feel that feeling of impending doom. Like there is something I need to do Right Now and if I don't I am going to be Severely Fucked. Trying to get myself to relax some bc while there *is* stuff I need to do today, it's nowhere near as pressing or as monumental a task as yesterday's thing. And no one can go at full throttle all of the time!!!! Gotta chill out for a bit. Watch some anime. Build some Legos. You know.

#speculation nation #got bowling today. we r starting this uhhh. tournament thing. fun fun!!#we r going on teams and we r gonna be matched up to the other teams for the rest of the semester. one per day #and for things to be fair we are starting using the handicap system. where there's extra padding depending on what ur average is #to make things more even across different skill levels. u just gotta bowl better than your average & then u have a shot at winning #which makes all that time i spent sucking shit quite beneficial honestly. ive got like a 90 pin handicap now #as in i add 90 pins to whatever my score is. monday i bowled a 130 (highest ive done on a graded game!) & so with handicap it was a 190 #which i LOVE to see. wait not 190. 220. i can definitely do math.#but yeah so that's fun. and then it's web class and working on my presentation for tomorrow. shouldnt be hard tho.#i REALLYYYY need to do my dishes too. if i have the energy for it i should do that Today. bc. good god they are building up.#and i need to work on my next web lab tomorrow. wow it's only wednesday? it feels like thursday. like tomorrow should be friday.#anyways i dont have many more late hours so i wanna finish my lab early if i can. NO more procrastinating for me.#yesterday sucked so bad that i am like. nuh uh. im working on everything ahead of time. i am. i am. i swear.#but yeah . life . im managing. need to chill out some tho. gonna build some legos

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