#to be always the eldest

[briarthorne]

i made another one

(he's so me fr)

[melmov]

I cast: curse of the eldest (can’t ask for help)

[ppjeterka]

my thoughts re: the main cast of the new nhl amazon docu-series

[froody]

*matriarchal: relating to or denoting a form of social organization in which a woman is the head.

*patriarchal: relating to or denoting a form of social organization in which a man is the head.

[pledgedtoher]

Watching Arcane as an older sister hurts the most when you see all the pain that Vi has endured being left untouched. You want to be mad at the writers for not diving into it, for not giving her trauma some acknowledgement, but do the eldest ever receive that?

Raising your siblings, teaching them how to fend for themselves in the real world, being the most mature out of all your friends because you were forced to grow up. And have you ever received any praise from that? Has anyone told you that they noticed your pain and strength?

Vi's storyline has her in a constant fight for something, and at the end of everything it dwindles down to the only thing she has know her whole life: protecting her sister.

And when have we seen Vi genuinely make a decision she believed would be best for herself? Nothing was ever about her.

[idontmindifuforgetme]

Just a girl who wants to be her mother’s daughter in the ways that matter

[sunlit-mess]

noticing in your vents—

is your sister okay too?

We laugh, sure, but we both know we're not ok.

[masterblooky]

remember how people kept mistaking Lizzie for Jimmy last session when she was invisible on the horse? Because they couldn’t SEE or HEAR her so they couldn’t tell it wasn’t him? And then also if Jimmy never killed her, he would’ve been out first? oh yeah. It’s all coming together

[senseearly]

One thing that I always think about post-dungeon recovery Mithrun who got home is that people were probably used to talking about him while he was still in the room.

Misiril's squad used to that when he was still in their care. Questions towards him were quickly redirected to others when he wouldn't (couldn't) answer their questions -- where was the rest of his squad? what happened to the demon? how did he even end up like this? Asking or talking to Mithrun is a pointless effort. So they stopped doing that.

And Mithrun, he's gotten used to this set-up, not like he could bring himself to care.

When his caretakers and visiting family started doing it, he continued to be apathetic to them (although, the numbness from this large, gaping hole in his chest makes him think that he used to care).

The caretakers would do their duties, but behind his back, they would probably gossip about Mithrun's chances of recovery. Others think there is still hope, a lot of them think this is going to be permanent. Which is good, at least to their business, because Mithrun's brother pays a lot to make sure he is alive. And Mithrun...is not in the state to do that himself. They at least try to whisper when they're around Mithrun, keep their voices low or mention him under an alias or a codename. But Mithrun knows they are talking about him. He is the elephant in the room.

His visiting family is less nice. They take one look at him and weep -- not out of worry, or pity, or sadness -- but of shame. There is no way they can show him to others anymore, they bemoan. There is no way he can represent himself as a member of the House of Kerensil, they cry. He's just like his brother! And, once upon a time, that comment would've hurt Mithrun, a stab right into his heart. But all he feels is a gaping numbness that cannot be filled (It used to be full, he can't help but think).

I wish he had died, someone from his family said while he was within earshot. And Mithrun, barely alive but still breathing, cannot bring himself to care.

The only person that I think would be delighted to see him alive, at least, is his brother. I can see him visiting Mithrun whenever he can (at least in elf time terms). Talking to him as if he can respond, asking him about things when Mithrun can't bring himself to answer. At some point, Mithrun's brother stopped talking to him when he visits; instead, he would just sit next to Mithrun and watch the birds and the flowers. He would drink tea and Mithrun would do nothing.

But once in a while, Mithrun's brother would tell him, I'm glad you came home, I'm glad you're still alive.

[ranna-alga]

Idk about you guys but I am an absolute sucker for stoic, strong, providing/protective, "macho-macho" male characters absolutely just breaking down when the going gets a bit too tough. Willing to shoulder any burden or battle scars if it means granting their loved ones' safety, but cracking when it gets too much, getting disheveled when things go wrong, when things are out of their control, when they've lost so much that they cannot hold it in anymore. They cannot continue being strong, at least just for now when they just need to decompress.

With that said, Arthur Morgan absolutely deserved to have a good cry. I'm upset he hasn't in the game, at least from what we have seen. Despite how strong and hardened this 36-year-old seasoned outlaw is, he is still a man - a good man at heart (at least in my canon as a High Honour truther).

There is no way he couldn’t have cried on the ship after watching his own father and mentee/lowkey-son-figure die right before his eyes. There is no way he couldn’t have cried when he failed his chance of running away with the love of his life whilst he still had the chance, and having to come to terms with the fact that the last memory she will hold of him will be him making another promise he couldn't keep + that the last piece of her he has left is her essentially writing him out of her life with no time or opportunity to explain. There is no way he couldn’t have cried when the fear of death/the fate that awaited him and his loved ones got too overwhelming for him. There is no way he couldn’t have cried when he started seeing both life and death differently after Sister Calderón's inspiring words in that train station.

He deserved to have a good cry. Arthur, a man living in the American 1890s where there was a certain expectation for men (outlaw or otherwise) to surpress any 'weak' emotion, finally admitting "I'm afraid" was one of the 'manliest' and most human moments we ever see him have, and it was so simple yet so beautiful. The man has been through so much pain as much as he has inflicted it - he deserves a hearty moment of release. To cry, to sob, to wail, whatever. He just needed that after everything.

[turrondeluxe]

[shiveringsoldier]

Becket and The Lion in Winter exist independently of each other (different playwrights from different countries), but with Peter O’Toole playing Henry II in both films, The Lion in Winter feels a bit like a sequel to Becket, and it adds a tragic element as a result.

Becket contains a few scenes between Henry II and the future Henry III. Henry shows no affection for his son in those scenes. He only berates him, and he literally kicks his ass. In The Lion in Winter, the son who would have been crowned Henry III is dead. Henry mentions visiting the crypt where his son is buried, and his surviving sons are wounded by his neglect and his obvious favor towards their late brother. But because of the physical and verbal abuse he inflicts in Becket, it doesn’t seem like favoritism at all.

He never cared for any of his children. Henry was simply the firstborn.

[brionysea]

I'm trying really hard not to just be The Complainer because that's an energy I don't want to bring here when I love (present tense; I rewatch it like 5 times a day) arcane season 1 so much but does anyone remember when powder was taken in by silco and being raised by this very utilitarian merciless 'the ends justify the means' type character made jinx turn out violent and merciless as well. and vi was horrified by her and the lanes were terrified of her and piltover was falling over itself trying to scapegoat her as the one bad apple of the undercity to kid themselves into believing that everyone else was perfectly fine with being treated as less than. and that contrasts vi after vander etc. died because she was raised by him and internalised the idea that no one wins in war and fighting back against systemic oppression isn't worth the damage it causes to your own community which is why she ended up working with cait and the council like vander worked with grayson. the people who raised them shaped them into who they are today but then in season 2 jinx has a daughter and she's suddenly completely normal and well adjusted and her attachment style isn't digging her nails in until she draws blood at all. like What. what happened. didn't things used to mean something

[greenbergsays]

Eddie Diaz saying, "[Dating] makes me feel like I have to perform," is never far from my mind

Because first of all, that's probably the queerest thing I've heard any character in the show say and there are two canon lesbians and a canon gay man that came out later in life, to say nothing of Buck and his recent coming out

(And it definitely feeds my demi!Eddie headcanon)

But also because. like.

When you think about it, everything that a relationship entails, he already does with Buck except the physical aspect.

They co-parent a kid. They have family dinner with Chris frequently. They go out together, just the two of them. They've cohabitated.

And they're emotionally intimate with each other. I'd even argue that Eddie has never been more emotionally intimate with anyone else in his life, because even with Shannon he was trying to do The Right Thing and telling her what he thought she wanted to hear, but with Buck he can be fully honest about what's going on in his head.

(See: "I'm worried about you." "I'm worried about me, too.")

(See also: the breakdown scene.)

I mean, it's no wonder people ship them, honestly, but it just proves that dating itself isn't the problem, it's the fact that Eddie is dating the wrong gender people

He's dating people who will make everyone else happy instead of dating people who will make him happy, and because of that, he never feels at ease with his significant other enough to form a real connection with them.

It's no wonder all three of his major relationships have ended in abject failure, he's warring with himself on what he wants vs what he feels he should do to make life easier for everyone else

[atticfish]

Kristen and Aelwyn sit in the kitchen together late at night -- not talking about anything, but understanding nevertheless. Aelwyn makes them her favourite elven tea (Jawbone ordered it from Fallinel) and draws little protective runes on the coins Kristen's saving for her brothers, and Kristen uses whatever spell energy she had left that day to chip away at the aches in Aelwyn's joints. Kristen always does her best to protect Adaine when they're out adventuring, and it's no coincidence that Aelwyn ends up teaching Bricker and Cork at Oakshield Middle. They can't always be with their younger siblings, but they can always count on each other to keep them safe.

[mother-of-houseplants-2]

fiona gallagher // "i bet on losing dogs" by mistki