#tmnt 2003 ashley

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“Let us help you guys...” (. tmnt 2003 .)

SUMMARY: Ever since their encounter with Draco and the Daimyo’s son, Alex, Raph, and the others had realized how odd Donnie and Ash are acting.

NOTES: enjoy! This takes place weeks after the episode called Same As It Never Was. This is one of my favorite episodes in the TMNT 2003 series, so I thought that I would write a oneshot about it and how those events really messed with Ashley and Donatello. You may want to re-read the Same As It Never Was headcanons that I made a while back for some clarity. 

WARNINGS: depictions of self-destructive behaviors, elements of anxiety, elements of depression, mentions of multiple character deaths, implications of disordered eating patterns, depictions of clear mental health issues, arguments amongst couples. If there are any other warnings that a missed, then tell me and I’ll add them.

𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐫: 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲, 𝐰𝐚𝐲, 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐞, 𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐮𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐬, 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐞𝐝, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲!

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THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ASHLEY AND DONATELLO. 

The two ninjas have been fighting their inner demons and trauma alone for the past few weeks. It had been like this since Draco and the Daimyo’s son fused together, stole Lord Simultaneous’ Time Scepter, and sent the turtles and the kunoichis to different points in time. Once Ash and Donnie had gotten back from their point in time, they were vastly different from before. Everyone was extremely worried for Donnie and Ash. Their family desperately wanted to help the two of them with dealing with whatever they had to deal with, but it was so incredibly challenging to get anything out of them. Both Ash and Donnie became quieter and more reclusive. Ash’s irritation and self-destructive habits had started showing up again, and her patience and tolerance were practically nonexistent. Donnie was the same way in terms of irritability. His fuse was a lot shorter than normal, which was extremely unlike Donnie’s typically levelheaded demeanor. Donnie began to throw himself into old inventions and new projects, constantly keeping himself busy with something. 

Everyone knew that Donnie overworked himself to distract himself from the troubles he was experiencing. Their family knew exactly the reason why Ash was wearing long sweatshirts in the middle of the sweltering heat. Ashley and Donatello weren’t the same people as they were before the time-traveling incident happened. For the turtles, April, Casey, and Splinter, all that they felt was helplessness and worry for their two family members. These drastic personality changes in Donnie and Ash have caused rifts in their relationships with others. Donnie was more likely to get aggravated at Alex accidentally knocking something over as she brought her boyfriend his third cup of coffee in the morning, and that led to Donnie blowing up in her face. When Raph would say something sarcastic as a joke, Ash wouldn’t take it as what it was and explode like a bomb. 

It was like walking on eggshells when others were around Ash and Donnie. It was transparent that both Donnie and Ash needed some mental health help, but they both were constantly denying that they needed help. Leo and the others realized that their family members weren’t willing to talk about what they witnessed because they didn’t want to burden anyone. At first, Splinter had told everybody to just give Donnie and Ash some time to process everything themselves. For about two weeks, the Hamato family was patient with the purple-masked turtle and the brunette teenager. By the time the third week had rolled around, nothing was improving. Even now, coming up on the fifth week of no answers and pondering, it was clear to everyone that Donnie and Ash needed to talk about what they were going through. No one wanted to be the one to come off as invading or nosy, but it had become almost too much for the others to see Ash and Donnie deteriorate right in front of their eyes. Seeing how much their family members were suffering in silence was becoming frustrating for the rest of their friends and family because they didn’t know how to help them. Donnie and Ash weren’t giving anyone any sort of inkling as to how they could aid them because they both thought that they didn’t need and deserved the help that was right in front of them. 

Ashley’s stomach growled ferociously. She didn’t have to ponder why the hunger pains were so strong. The brunette hadn’t eaten that much over the past three days, which is something that she didn’t realize Leo and Mikey had picked up on. Ash decided that, fine, she would go and retrieve a little something from the kitchen. Walking into the kitchen area of the lair, Ash saw that her loyal boyfriend was sitting at the counter sipping on a glass of water. Judging by the fact that he was breathing slightly heavier than usual, Ash could surmise that he had been training harder. That was one of his ways of coping with stressful situations. 

“Hey, there, sweetheart. How are ya feeling?” Raph inquired. There was a genuineness to his tone of voice, along with a hint of concern. 

“I’m fine,” The brunette said in a clipped tone. 

It stayed silent for a brief moment. That was until Raph spoke up and broke the quietness. “Ya can’t just keep fighting in silence like this, Ashley. You and Don both can’t keep this up forever.” The red-banded ninja turtle commented on his lover’s and his younger brother’s unusual mannerisms. His tone was lowered and unsmiling. 

Ash grumbled in response. They annoyingly grabbed the cherry and chocolate-flavored Greek yogurt from the top shelf at the back of the fridge, and they slammed the door. They stayed inaudible as they walked to the other side of the kitchen and opened the silverware drawer, retrieving a spoon from its holder. Ash tore open the seal to the Greek yogurt, expecting to remove it cleanly. However, to their dismay, the cover didn’t even come close to ripping off easily. There was only roughly half of it that tore off. This made Ashley growl in anger. “RAH! UGH!” Ash exclaimed loudly with rage in her voice. The brunette threw the spoon across the stovetop, clashing noisily with the top of the stove. “Why didn’t it open right?! Goddammit!” Ash screamed, “You know what? What’s the fucking point? I wasn’t hungry anyway!” Ash then pushed the carton of yogurt to the back of the stovetop. 

Raph approached his girlfriend carefully. Ash had her head in her hands, her lavender-grey hues wide with so many different and complicated feelings that were locked inside of her. “Ashley, calm down,” Raph said softly, putting his hand on her shoulder in an effort to comfort her, “please, you need to talk to someone.” 

Ashley scooted away from her lover’s touch. This disheartened Raph, but he wasn’t going to give up on trying to comfort her. “Don’t touch me, Raph! I’m fine!” Ash protested harshly. 

Raph narrowed his eyes. “Really?! Are you really fine, Ashley?!” The ninja turtle’s voice was rising from its normal vocal volume. “Yer getting upset over a fucking yogurt not opening right! Ya don’t usually get so damn upset about small shit like this! This isn’t like ya!” Raph infuriatingly pointed this out to his significant other. 

Ash clenched their fists. Their demeanor was giving off vibes of irritation, depression, and reverence. All Raph wanted to was to help Ashley, and he wanted to know what had happened. What was going through their mind? “Raphael, for the last fucking time, I’m fine! I don’t need help!” Ash exclaimed arduously. 

Raph balled up his fist, closed his eyes tight, and he slammed it against the counter. This caused a loud BANG! to ring out across the rest of the lair. He opened his eyes, looking straight at his girlfriend, who had fallen silent from what the ninja turtle just did. The atmosphere was tense and thick. Still, she didn’t let the loud noise, no matter how scared she was of them, falter her cutting gaze toward Raph. “You are so goddamn stubborn, ya know that, Ashley?” Raph spoke tightly and lowly. He sighed out of annoyance. “Fuck, it’s like I’m talking to a brick wall! Every time I try something to help ya out, it doesn’t work! There’s always an obstacle that I have to overcome. It’s the same thing with Don! Hell, am I doing something wrong?!” Raph exclaimed stressfully. The volume of his voice was booming at the beginning, but as he continued to speak, his volume went back down to a normal level. “I wanna help ya both out, we all wanna help ya both out, but we just can’t! We can’t because you and Donnie won’t give us anything to go off of!” His emotions were finally erupting, and he was getting everything off of his plastron at last. 

Ash was thinking before they spoke. “Listen, I can’t speak for Donnie, but I’m okay. I don’t need help, so you and the others don’t have to worry about me.” The brunette declared in a low and calm manner. Their tone of voice was too steady for Raph. Far too even and collected to Raph to feel any sort of easement or reassurance from his lover. 

Raph could feel the irritation and rage cloud his thought process. He could sense the pain and agony bubbling up inside of him. Raph bit his lip. All he could do was stare at the love of his life, someone who he loves dearly and more than anyone else in the world, and think about how broken they are. Raph couldn’t even imagine how Ash and Donnie were feeling. They were both feeling and experiencing the same emotions, as they were together when everything took place. “Ashley, I love ya so much. I want ya to be happy in life, and I can’t stand to see ya wallow in the negativity yer feeling. I’m telling ya this now, and I plan on telling Don the same damn thing to hopefully get this through yer thick skulls: ya both need to come clean about what happened when the whole Daimyo-Draco shit went down. This is seriously fucking you two up, and no one here wants ya both to continually suffer in silence.” Raph sighed shakily. It was like he was about to burst out crying from frustration and anxiety. “Please, it doesn’t even have to be me, but at this point, ya need to talk to someone. I’m beggin’ ya, baby, just… help yourself live happily by going to someone that ya love…” The red-masked ninja turtle was practically begging and pleading with Ashley for them to take his advice. He held Ash’s hands gently, tenderly squeezing back. 

Ash just kept that same stone-cold expression on their face. They didn’t know what to say to Raph, so they made the decision to not comment on anything that was said. Ash averted their gaze from Raph’s gaze. Eyes are the windows to the soul, as some others would say, and the brunette teenager knew that Raph was trying to see the emotions carved out in her eyes. She didn’t want Raph to see into her trauma, just to spare him from having to hear everything. Ash doesn’t want that for Raph nor anyone else that they love, and neither would Donnie. 

Ash didn’t squeeze Raph’s hands back. Raph took the hint, so he let go of his partner’s hands. Discouraged by this conversation, he decided that he would leave and give the brunette woman some space to calm down. Before he left the kitchen, though, Raph leaned over and pressed a soft kiss to her forehead. “I love ya, Ash,” Raph muttered, “Don’t forget that.” After that, Raph left the conversation. Ash was frozen in place. Now, they were left alone with only their thoughts, the mess they’d made, and the quietness they’d created. 

Meanwhile, with Donnie and Alex, things were going just about the same as they were with Raph and Ashley. Alex had come into her turtle boyfriend’s laboratory to check up on him. Alex still had that familiar anxious feeling in her gut. Nonetheless, the psychic woman was still very adamant about getting something out of the love of her life. Most every time Alex had dropped by Donnie’s laboratory, she would inquire about how he was feeling. That was her entryway into allowing Donnie an opportunity to voice how he was feeling and what he and her younger sister experienced together. To Alex’s disappointment, Donnie never took that chance to be vocal about his troubles. He would just brush it off like nothing, focus even harder on his work, and then ignore Alex for the rest of the time that she was in there with him. This was frustrating to Donnie’s girlfriend, but alas, Alex wasn’t deterred by his dismissive mannerisms. 

Typically, Alex wouldn’t pry too much when it came to other people dealing with emotionally challenging situations. She knew that people had the right to their emotional privacy, as did she have the right to that, as well. However, under these circumstances, the red-haired woman couldn’t be complicit in Donnie staying silent about his sufferings. She had to say something to Donnie. Even if she didn’t want to be perceived as persistent and nosy, Alex had to get Donnie to say something about what had happened to him and Ash. Alex tried discussing this critical matter with her younger sister, but that didn’t go well by any means. If anything, it made everything so much worse for both of the sisters. If she wasn’t able to reach Ashley, then Alexandria sure as hell was going to reach Donatello. Now, after wanting her boyfriend to communicate with her, Donnie was, unquestionably, antagonized by Alex’s concerns. 

“Alex, stop! I told you so many times already that nothing is wrong!” Donnie exclaimed with vexation, turning around in his swivel seat. 

Alex sighed. She tried not to lose her composure. “Listen, babe, I want to help you. If you just… tell me what happened, if you talk about what you and Ash went through, I can help! I want to comfort you!” Alex expressed vehemently, standing up from her seat. 

Donnie stood up from his seat. “I don’t need comfort, Alex, because I’m—”

“Okay? Okay?! You’re not okay, Donatello! You’re not!” The red-haired psychic exclaimed with a shattered voice. She almost let tears fall from her emerald green orbs, but, as of now, she successfully held them in. “I-It’s challenging enough to watch my baby sister deteriorate in front of me — I can’t lose you, too!” 

Everything went silent. The couple didn’t have the strength to speak up, as they both let Alex’s statements linger in the air for a minute. “Dove… I, um, I-I…” Donnie trailed off, lost. He was rendered speechless. 

“Don’t you fucking say it.” Alex stated darkly, glaring at him, “I mean it, Donatello! Don’t you say that you’re okay, or that you don’t need comfort! You do need those things now more than ever!” Her emerald gaze held tearfulness and worry. 

Donnie thought about what he was going to say next. He knew that what he was about to say was going to piss off his significant other, but he didn’t know what else to say to her. “I’m fine. Just let me work.” He stated simply. 

Even though his statement was barely audible, the redhead heard exactly what the purple-banded ninja turtle had just told her. With that response, she was pissed. Her eyes went wide, and she just went off on her boyfriend. “Donatello Hamato, I want to help you! We all want to help you! However, we can’t do that until you tell us how to do that! Talking to Ashley is fucking pointless because they won’t speak up, and trying to get anything out of you is a goddamn nightmare because you’re not giving anyone anything to work with!” Alexandria confessed with tears beginning to cascade down her face. She was beyond stressed out with her boyfriend, and she, along with the rest of Donnie’s family, was worried sick. This all showed in her voice as she ranted. 

“Dove—”

“We are all feeling so damn hopeless with both you and Ash! Do you know how worried sick we all are of both of you?!” Alex questioned her boyfriend harshly, but she wasn’t giving him any time to respond. “I want you to be able to enjoy your life while you have it! I want you to love yourself and the family that you have! No one wants to see you wallow in your own misery, Donnie. Especially me. I can’t see you fall down the rabbit hole of depression and wander aimlessly through a wonderland of confusion and hurt. Splinter is worried about you. Your brothers, Casey, and April don’t know how to aid you. I… I’ve run out of all of the ideas, as well. I feel so incredibly fucking helpless…! We… We all feel so helpless! We just want to help you two…” Alex sobbed, an arduous and broken tone in her voice. The red-haired teenager began to cry, and the sound of her hiccups filled the room. 

Donnie was stunned by her words. He could see how long Alex had been holding all of this inside of her, and he could only imagine what everyone else was feeling. Even though he wanted to inform his family of what he and his good friend had been through in the previous weeks, Donnie couldn’t bring himself to do it. He was frightened by what he had to go through, and he knew for certain that Ashley was just as haunted as he was. They were both extremely riddled with trauma. 

“I don’t want to talk about it at all, Dove…” Donnie voiced after a moment of silence. 

“Fine,” Alex muttered bitterly, “I’ll give you the space that you need to continue your work. I’m always open to talk if you need someone to rant to.” With that, the female psychic wiped the tears from her eyes and her cheeks. She silently put her hair up in a high ponytail, turning away from Donnie. Without another word, Alexandria Singh had walked out of Donnie’s laboratory. This left Donnie alone, reveling in the aftermath of this argument. He began to overthink everything that had just taken place, wondering what he could have done differently so this wouldn’t have happened. 

Alexandria and Raphael both stormed out of the rooms they were previously in. They both walked into the living room, sitting next to each other on the couch. In front of them sat Leo and Master Splinter on the couch across from them. Mikey resided on the floor in front of the tv where he was playing his video games. It was quiet for a brief moment, as no one knew what to say at first. Splinter was waiting to see if either his second oldest son or the psychic teen was going to speak up, but neither of them did. 

After a bit, Mikey paused his game. “Okay, someone has to say something. The silence is wayyyy too loud for my liking.” The orange-masked turtle commented as he broke the quietness. 

“I’m assuming that you guys got in another fight with Ash and Donnie respectively?” Leo surmised before taking a sip of his chamomile tea. Although, no one needed to guess what happened because everyone else in the lair could hear both altercations going on from where they were. It was even louder because both arguments were happening at the same time. 

“Yeah,” Alex sniffled quietly. She kept her voice low and her responses short. 

Raph just grunted in reply. 

Splinter hummed in thought. “Hmm… this is most troublesome…” He spoke with contemplation. 

“Master Splinter, we’ve tried everything with Donnie and Ashley! What are we supposed to do now?” Leo asked his teacher, searching for some guidance. 

“Fuck, I don’t know what to do! I already told Donnie that we want to help him, but we’re feeling incapable of doing so.” Alex chimed in with distress. 

“I told the exact same thing to Ash, and they didn’t listen to a goddamn thing I said!” Raphael voiced. 

“At least they both know how we all feel now…” Mikey piped up, trying to look on the bright side of things in this situation. 

However, no one else in the room could do that at the moment. “Yeah, but that doesn’t mean that they’re gonna come to us to speak about it, Mike,” Raphael replied to what his younger brother said. 

“Damn…” Mikey cursed under his breath. He was pondering something, but no one had pulled him up on it. 

Splinter carefully stood up from his seat on the couch. “Master Splinter?” Leo inquired. 

“Let me talk to them,” Master Splinter told the four teenagers. 

“Good luck with that, dad,” Raph murmured under his breath. 

Without another word and with no objections from any one of the four teens, Splinter retrieved both Ashley from the kitchen and Donnie from his laboratory. The three of them followed behind the elder inaudibly. Neither Ash nor Donnie even acknowledged Raph or Alex. The two of them couldn’t even look their lovers in the eyes after their respective arguments took place because of how guilty they felt. Ash and Donnie couldn’t even meet Leo and Mikey’s gaze. They wished that they could find the courage to finally tell their family the events that took place, but it was too hard for Ash and Donnie to do that. 

Donnie and Ash sat next to each other. They were sat on their knees facing Master Splinter. “What do you need us for, Master Splinter?” Donnie asked his Sensei. 

Master Splinter grabbed a tea kettle, and he poured the tea he prepared beforehand into three teacups. Calmly, he spoke. “My son, I brought you both into the dojo to discuss what has been bothering you.” Master Splinter stated simply. He handed Ashley and Donnie some tea, which they took with no objections. 

Donnie remained silent. This left the answering up to the brunette. Begrudgingly, she responded to her elder. “I’m okay, Sensei,” Ash whispered briefly. 

Splinter lifted his brow in question. “Ashley, Donatello, it has been quite evident that you are suffering in silence. Whatever it was that you went through, let us help you with processing it.” Master Splinter said calmly, attempting to ease the nerves of his son and his student. 

Ashley took a sip of her tea. Hmm… Earl grey… They thought to themselves. Donnie didn’t bother to take a sip of the tea that his father gave him. “Splinter, I can’t speak for Donnie, but I can assure you and everyone else that there isn’t anything that’s bothering me,” Ash said with a sigh. 

“If there is nothing wrong, then why are you trembling?” Master Splinter questioned with furrowed brows. 

Ash’s stoic expression on her face morphed into one of confusion. Then, into an expression of surprise. What? Trembling? That’s when the brunette teenager glanced down at the hand that held the glass teacup. Sure enough, the teacup was shaking along with their hand. Ash’s lip quivered. Still, she stayed quiet. Donnie glanced over to see that, yes, indeed, Ash’s hand was unsteady due to some sort of emotional distress. Her mental and emotional turmoil was finally showing through after all of this time. 

“You, my son,” Splinter began, making Donnie turn his attention to his father, “have been struggling. You and Ashley have been extremely traumatized by a specific incident. You know you can tell me anything that you desire.” The ninja master tried to appeal to the two young adults that he was a safe space for them to vent their mental and emotional wounds. 

To the Splinter and Ashley’s surprise, it was Donnie that broke first. “S-Sensei, what we saw was awful… It's been over a month now, and I still can’t get those images out of my head! I can’t even sleep at night because of how horrible my nightmares are!” Donnie finally broke, and there were tears pricking his eyes. Tears were threatening to fall, and it became evident in his tone of voice. 

“Don’s right, Splinter… Every time I close my eyes, I see all of the blood. I see all of the gore. I hear them take their last breaths, I hear their painful screams. They keep telling me that I could’ve done better, that—that I should have saved them!” Ashley just started to burst out in sobs. She was hysterically crying, tears falling continually down her cheeks. Her makeup had begun to smudge slightly. However, she didn’t give a care in the world at the moment. 

“Who are you referring to?” Splinter asked his student, intrigued by what they were saying. 

That’s when Donnie and Ash both started to explain everything that happened to them. How they were transported thirty years into the future in a dystopian future, and what happened in that timeline. How the Shredder took over New York City, how Donnie left and never returned, how Splinter died in front of his sons and the kunoichis, and how Casey had been murdered right in front of everyone’s eyes. They both commented on how broken the Hamato family had become in that timeline. Ash even mentioned how she died in childbirth with her and Raph’s fourth child, and how Alex ran away and never came back after losing her husband and their baby. They also mentioned the plan that Ash and Donnie came up with, and how they, with the help of that timeline’s version of Mikey, Leo, Raph, April, and Raph and Ash’s children, were finally able to bring peace to that timeline. However, this is where both Donnie and Ash choked up. 

Splinter took in everything that the teenagers were saying. They were very clearly distressed. Both of them were crying heavily, Ash more than Donnie. It wasn’t like either of them to just start crying like they currently were, and Splinter knew this. Ash was biting her thumb as a small toddler would, and Donnie kept his gaze averted from his father. “Take your time, my children,” Master Splinter told them steadily. He was shocked by the information that was already told to him, but he didn’t let it outwardly affect him. 

“Even though Donnie and I managed to defeat the Shredder and ensure peace in their timeline, so many lives were lost along the way. April has absolutely no other friends left, and me and Raph’s poor babies don’t have their mother nor their father around anymore!” Ash cried out, sniffling. “They don’t even have their Uncles or Aunts by their side to help them through this tough time…” 

“It’s horrendously dark, Master Splinter. It’s all just so… bleak and miserable…” Donnie muttered sadly, his voice breaking under the pressure of his emotions. 

“I am so sorry that you two had witnessed something as traumatic as that. Truly, I am.” Splinter said genuinely. He felt horrible that there was a timeline out there where his mortal enemy had won, his family became broken apart, and his loved ones ended up dead in one way or another. Splinter couldn’t imagine what it was like to see how it ended like Ashley and Donatello did. He paused for a minute, thinking of what else to say. “You both should be proud that you reunited the three brothers with each other. I would like to think that there was a sense of comfort for those three seeing you both there with them.” 

“There was. That version of Raph was just so… broken. Leo and Mikey were, too! Mikey wasn’t as boisterous and fun-loving as he once was, and…” Ash chimed in after they had calmed down from their sobbing, “… fuck! It’s all so tragic! I wish I could do something to rewrite their history! N-None of them deserves what they got!” 

Splinter silently stood up from where he was sitting. The great ninja master crouched down in front of his son and his son’s friend, and he hugged them tightly to comfort them. “You should be proud of what you two did. Even if you couldn’t save everyone, you, Ashley and Donatello, made such an impact on the people that were spared. Your bravery and leadership changed their course of time forever, and you should be fulfilled with what you two did. I know for certain that version of April and the others are beyond grateful for what you both did.” Splinter spoke to his two pupils gently.

Ash and Donnie immediately embraced their Sensei in response. Ashley sniffled a little more, but Donnie still continued to let the tears silently fall from his eyes. “Thank you, Master Splinter, for being there for us,” Ash expressed her and Donnie’s gratitude. 

“Of course. We are all family here, and we need to be there for each other when we need it the most.” Splinter voiced truthfully. 

As the three of them broke the hug, that’s when the rest of the Hamato family walked in. First, it was Mikey, then Leo, then Raph and Alex, and April and Casey. Donnie rushed over to Alex, who engulfed him in a big hug with a gentle smile present on her face. Ash walked quickly over to Raph, and she hugged him tightly. “I’m assuming that you all heard everything?” Ash asked softly. 

“We did, babe, we did,” Raph confirmed as Ash gave him a kiss on the cheek, “ya don’t have to re-explain everything again.” 

Both the couples dispersed from their hugs. Mikey offered his big brother a bright grin, and he pulled Donnie into a side hug. Leo approached Ashley, who was standing next to her boyfriend. “I-I’m sorry if I’ve been a dick over the last few weeks…” Ash trailed off. 

Leo put his hand up. “Ash, we understand. You and Donnie have been through a hell of a lot. You guys need to rest and mentally recoup from what you’ve been through.” The blue-masked leader expressed his comprehension of the situation. 

“Thanks for understanding, bro,” Ashley said with a smile and a thankful gleam in her lavender-grey eyes.

“Let us help you guys,” Leo started, “alright? We can’t have you and Don going through such an ordeal all by yourselves.” 

“Yeah, you’re right,” Ash said as she gave Leo a quick hug, “You’re a good friend, Leonardo. Don’t forget that.” 

Leo just grinned, giving his best friend a nod in response. 

Ashley and Donnie were far from recovered, and they both knew that what they saw that day will still continue to haunt them in a way. However, with their family by their side, Ash and Donnie knew that comfort was just one initiation away. They knew that help was just one call away. Ashley and Donatello knew that they had plenty of support around them, and they also knew that they didn’t have to suffer from their inner demons alone. 

𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 © 𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐥𝐞𝐲 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑. 𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚. 𝐢 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬, 𝐞𝐭𝐜. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐥.

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Hey I’m Han and this is saiyansduelistsandgods, a multi-muse of DBZ, YGO, and multifandom OCs, featuring Goku, Raditz, their older sister Kyira, Goku’s daughter Ashley, The rough-and-tumble Caroline Shelly, and Lisa Green and her Other Half Lillian. This is a semi selective, multiship friendly and multiversed blog!

Mun is 20+, Personals please do not interact,

You can find me on one of my many other blogs for various fandoms and OCs!

@heart-of-change Hayami Kimmi A TMNT OC with verse in 2003, 2007, Rise/2018 and 2012 versions.

@heartofhamato Hamato Karai, a Karai-lived AU blog for ROTTMNT’s Karai

@mcmcntomori -Percy Phantom, A Danny Phantom twin OC based on the episode Identity Crisis

@starkswondertwins - Tony and Ella Stark, An Iron Man: Armored Adventures blog with Tony and his Twin Sister, my OC!

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[biracialalistair]

Kinda stupid question alert! What is Critical Role? I have seen most of the blogs I follow reblog and post a lot about it. Thanks!

Yeah! not a stupid question! 

Critical Role is a Dungeons & Dragons video podcast produced by Geek & Sundry! In their words, it’s “A show where nerdy-ass voice actors sit around and play Dungeons and Dragons.”

There are 115 episodes of the regular campaign, which actually ended a few weeks ago! But don’t worry, in a few months’ time (I believe), they will be creating new characters and starting a new campaign in the same setting!

The main draw, for me at least, is the fact that the cast members are all voice actors, and as such their improv and roleplaying are very good. And the story- oh, the story! I’m still not utterly convinced that there isn’t a writer’s room involved somewhere.

The Dungeon Master is Matthew Mercer, who you might recognize as the voice of McCree in Overwatch, or Levi in Attack on Titan, or Leon Kennedy in Resident Evil, or a bajillion other roles he’s played. 

The rest of the cast consists of Liam O’Brien (Gollum in most LoTR-related games, Dr. Strange/Red Skull in lots of animated Marvel, and TONS more), Laura Bailey (Nadine Ross in Uncharted, Dagna and Bianca in Dragon Age Inquisition, and tons of Marvel/DC stuff), Ashley Johnson (Gwen in Ben 10: Alien Force, Terra in Teen Titans, Ellie in The Last of Us, etc.), Travis Willingham (Knuckles in most recent Sonic stuff, Thor in most recent Marvel stuff, and lots more manly-man type voices), Sam Riegel (Donatello in TMNT 2003, Riven in Winx Club), Taliesin Jaffe (Blanka in Street Fighter, a lot of anime dubs, and most importantly he is my goth dad), Marisha Ray, who doesn’t do a lot of acting but produces a lot for G&S (and is now Matt’s wife!!), and for a brief stint, Orion Acaba (Apollo Justice in Ace Attorney)

It’s a great show, it’s brought me to tears and to laughter in equal parts, and I’ve given Laura Bailey so much of my money OTL

Watch it here or on Youtube!

[canisautistic]

Today on April 19th several things happened:

The Battles of Lexington and Concord 1775

Captain James Cook finds Australia 1770

First Running of the Boston Marathon 1897

Warsaw Ghetto uprising 1943

Oklahoma city bombing 1995

Tamerlan Tsarnaev killed 2013

Charles Manson sentenced to death 1971

Grace Kelly becomes the Princess of Monaco 1956

Sierra Leone becomes a republic 1971

Funeral service for Abraham Lincoln 1865

Baltimore riot of 1861

Mae West sentenced to jail for her play Sex 1927

Marie Antoinette marries  Louis XVI 1770

General Douglas MacArthur retires from the military 1951

The 125th fascicle of the Oxford English dictionary is published 1928

Burma joins the united Nations 1948

The 1st Simpsons short premieres on the Tracy Ullman show

The following people were born:

Emperor Ferdinand I of Austria 1793

Chemist Glenn T Seaborg 1912

Actor Dick Sargent 1930

Actress Jayne Mansfield 1933

Actor Dudley Moore 1935

Actor Tim Curry 1946

Actress Ashley Judd 1968

Actress Kate Hudson 1979

Actor Hayden Christensen 1981

Tennis star Maria Sharapova 1987

Actor James Franco 1978

Model Heather Kuzmich 1986

The following tv episodes premiered:

The Simpsons; Girly Edition 1998, The Good, The Sad, and The Drugly 2009, girly edition 1998, peeping mom 2015

Family Guy: 420 2009, Once Bitten 2015

Gravity Falls: Boyz crazy 2013

Adventure Time: the Enchiridion & the Jiggler 2010

TMNT 2003: The Shredder strikes part 2 2003, Past and Present 2008

Harvey Beaks: Nightclub Night & The Rebel 2015

Chopped: Against the tide 2010,  Chopped Champions: Battle 4, Kitchen Storm 2016

Ed Edd n Eddy: Who, What, Where, Ed! / Keeping Up with the Eds 1999

Phineas and Ferb:  Greece Lightning/Leave the Busting to Us! 2008,  Backyard Hodge Podge 2013

Pokemon: Seeking shelter from the storm 2014, Ring Masters 2001, Some enchanted sweetening 2007, Once there were greenfields 2008,  A Restoration Confrontation! (Part 1) 2012, The Young Flame Strikes Back 2018

We Bare Bears: Charlie’s Big Foot 2017

Lat Man Standing Yass Queen, The Cool Kids Indecent Proposal, The Blacklist the 3rd Estate 2019

And I was born years ago today, not to mention Nancy Guzzaldo, my neighbor and best friend’s mother

Also some roman made bread : “On April 19th I made bread�� Latin graffiti in Pompeii (CIL IV.8792)life fast die young, Romans

[generallemarc]

The humor is...really not landing. I know it was probably only written like, three, three and a half years ago, but all the jokes that aren't classics feel dated, which is weird as hell to say about a show written at some point in 2021 but it's true. It's that godawful post-ironic "hey, see? we're doing a thing. see? we're self-aware! see? see!!??" mentality. But, despite every reviewer I've ever seen constantly denouncing this mindset, I've always been willing to accept a bad first hour or two in the name of "it gets better, trust me." Undead Unluck went from a 7/10 with some seriously creepy "jokes" to one of the greatest manga I've ever read after I got out of the early few arcs, and FMA Brotherhood went from a rushed recap to an adaptation on par with the 03 version once it found its footing, so I'mma trust the public on this one and stick with it. If nothing else, it lets me hear more of Ashley Johnson and Liam O'brien doing basically their best voices. But I'm also going through TMNT 2003, and I swear if Scanlan ends up ruining Donny for me there will be hell to pay for the bastard who talked me into this. Said bastard would be me, but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

Idk how it is in Critical Role, but she's doing almost the exact Tulip/Lake voice for Legend of Vox Machina. With her, Liam O'brien, Travis Willingham, Sam Riegel in there for the 4kids-voice-from-my-childhood rep, and even David Tenant, all this show is missing is Ian Sinclair and it would have literally all of my favorite voice actors from both anime and western animation.

[officiallyashley]

TMNT 2003 HEADCANONS— ‘Same As It Never Was’ headcanons

NOTES: this episode fucking killed me because it’s so damn tragic. However, this is one of my favorite Donnie-centric episodes, so I’m willing to suffer (lol) to write this set of headcanons. Rewatching this episode is nostalgic but also heart-wrenching. 

WARNINGS: mentions of major character deaths, mentions of a miscarriage, elements of mental health struggles, mentions of losing a child. 

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So the Daimyo’s son and Draco had merged together 

Which wasn’t good 

And they had Lord Simultaneous’ Time Scepter 

Which also was not good 

So yeah the turtles and the kunoichis and Splinter were kinda fucked 

What ended up happening was the turtles and the kunoichis were sent to different points in time 

Leo and Jackie had gotten sent to a different time, Raph and Alex were sent to some point in the future, Mikey and Shiphrah had gone to an alternate dimension and met their alternative counterparts, and Donnie and Ash were sent like thirty-something years into the future. 

And that future 

Oh shit it was not a bright one 

Donnie and Ash were trying to get a hold of their surroundings. They were in the lair, but it wasn’t like it had been before. 

The lair was disheveled and decrepit. It was completely destroyed, and there weren’t any signs of anyone being there. It was very eerie. 

As the two were getting a feel of their very unnerving surroundings, Donnie and Ash had been caught by people that weren’t proving to be very nice. They were attacked by the Foot Gestapo, and they weren’t going to back down from the fight. 

However, someone intervened and helped them out. It turned out to be this timeline’s version of Mikey. 

Mikey’s voice was noticeably deeper, and he was missing his left arm. That definitely didn’t sit well with neither Ash nor Donnie. 

“Where the shell have you been all of these years?” Future Mikey questioned, anger seeping into his voice. 

“What? All these years?” Donnie inquired, confused. 

“You’ve been gone for thirty years, Donatello!”

Holy shit. This was not good. This future wasn’t a bright one, that’s for sure, and it was clearly dystopian. 

“When you were gone, Donnie, everything fell apart. It just didn’t work. Guess we really needed that level head or yours.” Mikey stated. 

Ash really wanted to go home. She desperately wanted to go home to where her lover and her friends were, but she knew that she and Donnie had to help them in any way that they could. 

Mikey then took Ash and Donnie to Splinter. To Shiphrah, Jackie, and Master Splinter’s grave. 

This appalled Donnie and Ash. What had happened here? To Ash, and she assumed Donnie had some kind of idea as to what happened, as well, because of the look he gave Ash when Future Mikey wasn’t looking, this timeline was where some kind of uprising took place. If Ash and Donnie had to assume, they would place their bets on the Shredder. 

“What happened?” Donnie asked out of devastation and shock. Ash just remained quiet as she put her hand on his shoulder, a subtle way that she would comfort her loved ones around her. 

“A couple of years after you left, Master Splinter gave his life protecting our brothers and the kunoichis. It’s not very safe here, but it’s where he wanted to be buried. Karai had led Shiphrah into a trap, and she was ultimately killed by Karai. At the time, Carter, her and Leo’s son, was six years old. Jackie… she… she was… never found. We went on a mission, and she was never found. She’s most likely dead because we’ve never found her body and we haven’t heard from her in decades. Our son was around 9 when Jackie went missing.” Mikey explained roughly, trying not to choke up at the mention of his wife. 

Ash and Donnie’s blood went cold at the abundance of awful news. “That’s… that’s awful… I’m so sorry for your loss.” Ash sympathized, just staring at her sisters' and Sensei's graves. The more she looked at it, the more her eyes welled up with tears. She briefly turned away to wipe the tears from her eyes, hoping the others wouldn’t see. 

“What’s even sadder is that Master Splinter never got to meet his other grandkids. Harley was about to be four and Bella was a year old, and you were pregnant with the twins when Splinter died. Shiphrah and Jackie never got to see their children and nieces and nephews grow up.” Mikey elaborated further. 

After taking a moment, the three decided that they were going to take down the Shredder once and for all. However, they were going to need Leo and Raph for this. 

Mikey then took them to April, who was obviously aged dramatically. They also saw Steele, Tessa, Harley, and Whitney there, too. Judging by their reactions, it was clearly very emotional to see their mom. Carter and Hunter also saw their Uncle Donnie and Aunt Ashley, which was also incredibly emotional for them. However, the next generation of Hamatos didn’t have to time explain why they were feeling how they were feeling. 

April had been the main leader of the revolution with Tessa being the leader of the next generation of ninja turtles and Carter being her second-in-command. April was also the one who took part in raising the children. She would help out the turtles with their kids whenever they needed it. It was also mentioned that both April and Tessa were the main driving forces of the revolution against the Shredder. 

April hugged Donnie and Ash tightly. “God, I thought I would never see you two again!” April exclaimed. 

This made Ash wonder… did something happen to her?

This is where they learned that Casey had passed away, which only saddened them more. 

Now, they had to locate Raph and Leo, which they managed to do. 

The two brothers had gotten into a fight, but Donnie managed to disarm them and create some distance from them. 

Raph and Leo were frozen. They swore up and down that they were dreaming. 

“Donnie?!”

“Ashley?!”

“Leo! Raph! We need to talk!” Donnie stated seriously. 

Raph immediately hugged both his brother and Ash. Leo was grinning. 

“Ash, how? How the hell are you here right now…?” The older Raph asked as he hugged the brunette woman. His voice trembled, but he didn’t cry, even though it seemed like he really wanted to. 

“That, um, is a long story, Raph…” Ash muttered as she hugged the older version of her boyfriend in return. Raph was much taller, so he towered over her dramatically, and his right eye had a scar over it. Ash surmised that he had lost vision in his right eye. Also, there were scars on his plastron. It looked like Raph took some pretty nasty hits, that’s for sure. 

Leo, however, had lost his eyesight altogether. He was completely blind. “Ash, Donnie, it-it’s a miracle knowing you’re both here!” Leo exclaimed. 

“We know that Don left at some point, but, if it’s okay to ask, what happened to… me? Where’s Alex and the other kunoichis?” Ash inquired, looking at Raph. 

The older brothers fell silent. 

“I-I mean, if you don’t want to tell it, you don’t have—”

“You died in childbirth with our last kid, with Whitney,” Raph spoke up painfully. 

Everyone was inaudible. Ash was frozen in her spot. Her heart stopped. “I-I died…?” Ash murmured in shock. She looked to Donnie, who was very unnerved. Leo had a despondent look on his face. 

“Shiphrah was killed by Karai and Jacklyn was killed by the Shredder. We never found Jackie’s body. After losing Donnie, her sisters, Master Splinter, and her baby, Alex flew into a state of depression and her powers went out of control. There’s been no contact with her for over twenty years.” Leo explained heavily. 

“April and the kiddos have attempted to make contact with Alex, but they’ve never been successful in locatin’ her. We don’t even know if she’s dead or alive.” Raph added on to what his brother was saying. 

“Yeah… Mikey already told us about Splinter, Shiphrah, and Jackie…” Ashley muttered sadly.

Donnie and Ash were absolutely paralyzed. Even though Mikey had already notified them of the unfortunate news, the two of them were mortified. Nothing was said after that, and it was then that Mikey and April approached the group. This set the group back on track with their mission, albeit with an incredibly disturbed Ashley and Donatello. 

They were very reluctant to go up against the Shredder, but Donnie and Ash gave them a pep talk. 

“I don’t know what happened to you guys, but the turtles I knew never thought anything was hopeless!” Donnie said. 

Ash nodded. “Donnie’s right. Whatever happened to this world is awful and tragic, but we have a chance of getting back what is rightfully yours. Your freedom. Your chance to live out the rest of your lives peacefully and without fear. We have to do it for the ones we’ve lost, and for the ones that we have now.” Ash monologues vehemently. 

She was then pulled into a side hug by Raph. He had a secure hold on her frame. “I’ve missed seein’ the passion in yer eyes, Ash,” Raph stated in a low tone. Ash could hear the sad smile in his voice. It broke her heart immensely, and she knew that it broke Donnie’s heart, as well.

So they all decided to take on the Shredder one last time. Donnie and Ash had come up with a plan as their stay here in 2035 had gone on. So they put that plan in motion. The turtles and Ash had raided Shredder’s lair via the Tunneler. Donnie was wearing an exo-suit to challenge the Shredder. They were immediately jumping into action and they weren’t wasting any time. 

As the final battle was ensuing, everyone was trying their best. Giving it their all for the people that they loved. 

During the battle, Mikey had been buying Donnie and Ashley time for them to take down the Shredder, only for Mikey to get surrounded and slashed to death by many of the Karai Legions. Leo and Raph were killed by Karai later on in the fight. 

Seeing these versions of the turtles getting brutally murdered made Donnie and Ash even madder and more devastated. Ash remembers screaming at the sight of this timeline’s turtles, this timeline’s version of her lover, getting murdered in front of her. She wanted to go home. So so badly. 

Ash and Donnie saw the blood of Raph, Mikey, and Leo. There was so much blood. There was so much goddamn blood. 

Witnessing this turmoil caused Ash’s atmokinesis abilities to go out of control temporarily. As sad as it is, Ash going out of control like this gave Donnie the chance to make his move. This was what ultimately caused them to win the battle against the Shredder. 

Next thing Donnie and Ash knew, April had shot a missile at Karai, which killed Karai instantly. 

Ashley and Donnie and April collapsed to the ground. Leo, Mikey, Raph, April, Ash, and Donnie won. Unfortunately, it cost the lives of Raph, Leo, and Mikey. 

Ash just remembered crying and crying. She was hysterical. This was the most hysterical that she had ever been, the most upset that Donnie had ever seen Ash in. 

Donnie and Ash started to glitch out, the glitches getting more and more prominent. 

“No! This isn’t right! Splinter, Raph, Leo, Casey, Shiphrah, Jackie, and Mikey should be here! They need to be here!” Ash sobbed, rushing over to the dead bodies of her loved ones. “And I-I hate to leave you alone like this, April!”

April glanced over at Ash tearfully. “Ashley, you're right. They should be here with us. You guys gave us a chance to have our future back. You gave us a chance to let Harley, Steele, Tessa, Carter, Hunter, and Whitney live as normal of a life as they can. Just remember: no matter what happens, there is always hope!” April said with tears in her eyes, her voice breaking slightly. 

As Donnie and Ash faded away, the last thing they witnessed was devastation. The last thing Ash saw was the dead body of Raph laying in her arms. She thought of her children and her nephews. She thought of the turtles and her sisters. She could tell that Donnie was just as devastated as Ash was.

When Donnie and Ash returned to their time, Donnie and Ash hugged their loved ones. They hugged the turtles and the kunoichis as tightly as they could. They felt like if they let them go, then they would all fade away, and then their timeline would be just as bleak as the one they just visited.

The two ninjas weren’t the same for a long while. After everything with Draco and the Daimyo was settled, the turtles and the kunoichi were talking about their experiences. However, Ash and Donnie didn’t speak about anything. 

“What happened to the place where you went, Donnie and Ashley?” Mikey asked them. 

“Yeah, I was wondering that, too! Y’all two haven’t talked about it.” Raph mentioned. 

Ash bit her bottom lip, looking apprehensively at Donnie. Donnie looked at her with the same sadness and heartbreak. 

Donnie just shook his head silently. Ash got up from the couch and left the lair after that. She didn’t return to the lair, she didn’t answer any phone calls or texts from any of the turtles. 

It was very transparent that Ash and Donnie were traumatized by everything that they went through. Obviously, everyone else was incredibly confused and concerned for their loved ones. Only Donnie and Ashley knew what happened, and trying to obtain information from them was proving to be incredibly challenging. 

For a couple of weeks, actually, Donnie nor Ash spoke on the matter. It took them a while to even utter a word about it. They were both moodier and noticeably more depressed. Ash became self-destructive and reckless, and Donnie became more irritated. He began overworking himself, drowning himself in his inventions and other work. 

It eventually got to a point where Splinter called Ash and Donnie into the dojo for a serious conversation. He mentioned their behaviors and how they both haven’t been the same people they love since they returned to the present. 

That’s when they broke. Donnie and Ash both broke down and confessed everything. Little did the three of them know that the other turtles and kunoichis, along with April and Casey, had been eavesdropping on the discussion. 

When they heard everything, their jaws dropped. They were gobsmacked at the news of what their loved ones experienced. 

In the end, the healing process for Ash and Donnie was incredibly painful and challenging. Their family had helped them through a lot of it, and even though they both slowly began to get into a better headspace, Donnie and Ash still had trauma from the future they saw. 

Seeing what happened in that timeline, one thing was made very clear to Donnie and Ash: it made them feel eternally grateful for what they have now in their timeline.

𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 © 𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐥𝐞𝐲 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑. 𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐩𝐥���𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚. 𝐢 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬, 𝐞𝐭𝐜. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐥.

[officiallyashley]

TMNT-Verse Info— random facts about ash (my tmnt oc)

NOTES: enjoy! These headcanons apply to all tmnt versions of Ash, unless the headcanon specifies certain versions.

WARNINGS: mentions of pregnancy, mentions of being stabbed, mentions of drowning.

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Ash opens chip bags (+ other bags, too) upside down. It drives Leo absolutely insane.

When Ash was pregnant with all of her children, she ended up getting really really sick during/throughout her third trimester. Throughout her entire pregnancy with Whitney, Ash was constantly and extremely sick.

Ash is known as the “Grammar Guru” because she is such a stickler for proper grammar. She won’t be annoying about it, but it’s more so a personal thing.

Here are all of the names of Ash and Raph’s children (I changed them up a bit): Harlene Yoshiko-Jade Hamato, Steele Leo-Ace Hamato, Tessa Michaela-Cerise Hamato, and Whitney Donelle-Snow Hamato. The name Yoshiko comes from Splinter (Hamato Yoshi), Leo of course comes from Leo, Michaela comes from Michelangelo, and Donelle comes from Donatello. Ash and Raph wanted to name their children after Splinter and the turtles in some way.

Ash grew up watching a hell of a lot of cartoons. Some were from the early 2000s, but mainly from the 90s and the 80s. Thundercats, The Tick, He-Man & She-Ra, Sonic and Mario cartoons — you name it, they've binged all of it. When they met the turtles, Ash introduced these cartoons to them.

Ash calls Raph "hot stuff". She does it because it flusters him every time she calls him that, which amuses Ash.

Like in the 1987 TMNT, I headcanon that Mutant Mayhem Raph and Harley can break the fourth wall.

Everyone thinks that Raph teases the living daylights out of Ash — oh, boy, Ash teases her boyfriend just as much as he does her.

In multiple versions of TMNT, Ash gets stabbed through the torso by Shredder with his blades, and she temporarily dies for a bit. Donnie manages to bring her back, so she’s revived. In TMNT 2012, it happens in season one in the episode with the mutagen bomb (“The Gauntlet”, where they first encounter Shredder). There were instances in the comics, and it also happened in TMNT 2003. In ROTTMNT, Ash got impaled through the chest by Shredder when she was caught off guard. 2003 Ash also drowned and had to be revived after a mission had gone wrong (she was with Raph and Casey when that happened).

Ash uses coconut and apricot shampoo and conditioner.

2012 Ash and Rise Leo would for sure get along great. They relate to a lot of things. They both share similar music tastes, they were both thrown off of roofs of tall buildings, and they like to watch anime and read manga.

2012 Ash was helping Donnie out with one of his inventions, and she was using a staple gun. She then, just like it was nothing, pointed the staple gun at her face and said “does this thing have staples in it?” Ash got startled when everyone yelled at her in concern and she shot herself in the face with a staple gun. Two staples ended up on her forehead and the two others were on the bridge of her nose and her right eyebrow.

All versions of Ashley chew her yogurt and ice cream.

Ash and Raph like to watch funny clips of Jerma in their free time.

𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 © 𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐥𝐞𝐲 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟑. 𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚. 𝐢 𝐨𝐧𝐥𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐩𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐬, 𝐞𝐭𝐜. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐩𝐲 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐥.

[officiallyashley]

TMNT-Verse Incorrect Quotes pt. 2

Note: This includes my oc and my friend's oc btw. Apologies if there are any repeats from the first part. Enjoy!

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2016! Ash: “hey, babe, you wanna play a game?”

Raph: “sure, sweetheart. Whatcha got planned?”

Ash: “okay, so when I say something that you’ve done, you have to put a finger down.”

Raph: “oh, okay.”

Ash: “if I manage to get all of your fingers down, you have to fuck me.”

Raph, caught off guard: “wait, wha—”

Ash: “put all six fingers down if you breathe.”

Raph: “wait—”

Ash: “start stripping.”

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*all Rise/2018 turtles enter Splinter’s room.*

Raph, wearing Leo’s bandanna: “hi, Master Splinter!”

Splinter, turning around: “what do you need, R—”

Mikey, wearing Raph’s bandanna: “oh me gosh, he looks really confused!” 

Leo, wearing Mikey’s bandanna: “see, I told you this plan was genius!”

Splinter: “switch your bandannas back right now!”

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2012! Alex: “you think I enjoy being a mother hen to you all?”

Raph: “…”

2012! Ash: “…”

Mikey: “…”

Leo: “…”

April: “…”

Donnie: “…”

Casey: “…”

Alex: “okay, yeah, it’s like crack to me.” 

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1990! Ash: “You stare at your coffee hoping it gives you perspective and sanity and the ability to make sense of it all and that’s a lot to ask of your coffee.”

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2003! Ash: “I know my husband is very sorry and he didn’t mean it.”

2003! Raph: “I’m very sorry.”

2003! Ash: “see?”

2003! Raph: “but I fucking meant it.”

2003! Ash: “RAPHAEL!”

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*in the TMNT 2012 dimension, before Ash and Raph officially get together and become a couple.*

Casey: “I’m kind of crushing on someone, but I’m worried about telling you who it is, because you’re not going to like it.”

Raph: “just rip the band aid off.” 

Casey: “it’s Ashley.”

Raph: “Put that band aid back on.” 

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1987! Raph, after being saved by Ash: “I owe you one.”

1987! Ash: “that’s okay. You can just date me and call it even.”

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2007! Ash: “I bet I could fit the whole world in my hands!“

2007! Raph: “Ashley, that is physically impossible.”

2007! Ash: *cups Raph’s face*

2007! Ash: “Are you sure?”

2007! Raph, blushing: “stop, I have a reputation to maintain.”

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Rise! Leo: “Hey, Ash, those pants look great on you, but I bet they would look even better on Raph’s floor.”

Rise! Raph: “are… are you hitting on Ash for me…?” 

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2012! Leo: *sees Rise! Leo dabbing.*

2012! Leo, in a horrified whisper: “oh god no.”

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*The Rise turtles and kunoichis are playing Twister together.*

Ash: “left hand on yellow.”

Donnie: *ends up on top of Alex*

Donnie, glaring suspiciously at Ash: “you’re doing this on purpose, aren’t you?”

Ash: “I stopped spinning 20 minutes ago. I’m honestly shocked that you didn’t catch on.”

{~~~}

[officiallyashley]

TMNT-Verse Incorrect Quotes ft. my oc and my friend's oc

Quick note before we start: I called this tmnt-verse because I’m adding the various versions in this set of incorrect quotes. This will also have brief mentions of my friend's, @thepsyichckistune, oc, Alex. Enjoy!

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2012! Ash: "I'm responsible for my own happiness? I can't even be responsible for my own breakfast!"

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Rise! Ash: *seductively taking off her glasses*

Rise! Ash: "wow..."

Rise! Raph, blushing: "haha... what?"

Rise! Ash, squinting: "you're really fucking blurry." 

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—2012! Raph and 2012! Ash bickering over something—

2012! Ash: "you have no idea what I'm capable of!"

2012! Raph: "don't take this personally, but I feel like I'm being threatened by a cupcake."

—Rise! Alex, Rise! Raph, and Rise! Ash in the background watching this all play out—

Rise! Ash: "huh, they bicker like a married couple." 

Rise! Alex: "you guys do that, too, sometimes."

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—Rise! Raph telling 2012! Raph after a particularly hard battle—

Rise! Raph: "at first, I was kinda scared that I wouldn't make it,"

Rise! Raph, pointing to his side: "then I remembered that I had Ashley."

2012! Raph, bluntly: "your Ash isn't with you,"

Rise! Raph: "…"

Rise! Raph: "oh, s h i t, where's Ashley?" 

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Rise! Ash, sitting on the couch next to her counterpart: "So you're telling me... all of you guys got infected by giant mutant wasps? That sounds... scary..."

2012! Ash, nervously: "Haha... yeah... that was, uh, interesting. And scary. Very scary, coming from someone who's deathly afraid of wasps."

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2012! Leo: “Oh fiddlesticks! This really ruffles my feathers!”

2012! Raph, crying: “please, I’m begging you, just say ‘fuck’.”

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TMNT 1987: “Hey, what are like some of the craziest villains you fought?”

2003! Ash: “Like for us, we fought like a war crazy alien in a robotic samurai suit.”

TMNT 1987: “No way! We fought an alien too! But it wasn't a samurai suit, just a human robotic body with a pink squid alien from another dimension controlling it.”

2012! Mikey: “Really? We fought pink squid aliens too! We’ve also been to outer space and fought an entire race of alien dinosaurs.”

TMNT 1987 & TMNT 2003: “NO WAY! US, TOO!!”

Rise! TMNT: “we want to fight an alien…” 

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1987! April: “don’t fear death. Fear the state in which you die.” 

1987! Donnie, in a horrified whisper: “New Jersey.” 

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2007! Raph: “are you choking?!”

2007! Leo: *is coughing loudly and hitting his chest*

2007! Raph: “well, I didn’t hear a ‘yes’, so I guess he’s good.”

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2003! Donnie: *screaming*

2003! Leo: “Donnie, why are you screaming?”

2003! Donnie: *pointing at his computer screen*

2003! Raph: “he’s playing FNAF.”

2003! Ash: “even though we told him not to.”

2003! Leo: *sighs and facepalms*

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2012! Leo: “guys, real combat isn’t a video game!”

2012! Donnie, excitedly: “Ooo, coins!”

2012! Ash, also excitedly: “ohhhh! Rupees!!”

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1987! Raph, talking to 2016! Raph: “oh, is your Ashley also a foodie?” 

2016! Raph: *turning to the kitchen to see 1987! Ash and 2016! Ash eating bags of food that they got from different restaurants*

2016! Raph: “does this answer yer question?”

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[officiallyashley]

Anxiety (. tmnt 2003 .)

SUMMARY: April and Harley go on an emergency trip to the grocery store when everything goes completely wrong.

NOTES: This oneshot features my friend's (@thepsyichckistune) ocs, Alex, Bella, and Alec btw. I wanted to write something about an event that would contribute to Harley’s character, and so here we are! I tried to get a good characterization for Bella, but idk a lot about her character. I tried my best lol 😆 

WARNINGS: depictions of gore, mugging/being robbed, near-death experience, brief depictions of panic attacks, brief depictions of PTSD, brief mentions of drugs/alcohol.

𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐫: 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲, 𝐰𝐚𝐲, 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐞, 𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐮𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐬, 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐞𝐝, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲!

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HARLEY CONTINUED TO SUCK ON HER BUTTERSCOTCH LOLLIPOP.

She waited — very impatiently — for her Aunt April to check out with the groceries. All she wanted to do was train with her Uncle Leo and spar with her cousin and younger twin siblings, mainly because Harley wanted to get back at her brother, Steele, for pranking her earlier in the day. Unfortunately for the fifteen-year-old girl, Harley was instructed to accompany her Aunt April to the grocery store because of the number of necessities that they had to get. 

Harley tapped her foot restlessly. She looked up at her Aunt April, seeing that the red-haired older woman had finished scanning the groceries. Once April had finally finished scanning the groceries, she turned to her niece. “Hey, Harls, you mind giving me a hand with the bags of groceries?” April inquired as she took the first few grocery bags. 

“FINALLY! You’re done!” Harley exclaimed, sticking her butterscotch lollipop in her mouth and holding it there. The light brunette teenager jumped at the chance to help her Aunt with carrying the grocery bags because it meant getting home to the lair quicker. 

“Harley, you’re acting like that was the most grueling thing you’ve experienced,” April commented with a playful roll of her eyes. “Plus, you’re not in any hurry.” 

Harley scoffed. “Uh, yeah, I am actually.” The teenager corrected jauntily as she and her Aunt walked out of the store. They made their way down the street, going down the usual route that they took to get back to the lair. 

April lifted her brow. “Uh huh… what exactly do you have to do? Especially since it’s almost 1:30 in the morning.” The red-haired woman questioned her niece. 

“I have to beat Steele’s ass for pranking me earlier today. That jackass thought that putting blue food coloring in my toothbrush this morning was real fucking funny…” Harley answered with a pestered grumble. Her two-times pink-green hues were slanted, irritation showing in her eyes. 

“Watch your language, Harley Jade.” April chastised lightly, giving her a warning glance. “Also, Steele’s prank was pretty funny.” The Aunt giggled at the recollection of the light brunette having her white teeth stained a dark blue as a product of the prank her younger brother pulled on her. 

Harley simply let out a “hmph” and brushed off the reprimand, obviously not caring about it. The two women turned down a corner of the street. Both Harley and April continued to walk down the streets of New York, the only light being that of the moon and the dim yellow of the street lamps. This part of the city was usually pretty quiet and remote. Compared to the hustle and bustle of downtown New York City, this section of the city was a barren wasteland. April and Harley typically chose this route to commute back to the lair because of the lack of people out, especially during the nighttime, which made it easier for them to get caught or have someone follow them and discover the turtles’ lair. 

The aunt and niece duo took a right turn down an alleyway. However, something felt wrong. Something wasn’t right about the atmosphere and circumstances, and both Harley and April could feel how off this was. That’s when April and Harley turned around and saw a black-haired woman with pale skin approach them. The woman was in a battered burnt orange short-sleeved t-shirt and ripped white jeans. The woman was clearly under the influence of some type of substance, whether alcohol or a kind of drug or maybe even a mix of both, as she was mumbling slurred speech and stumbling on her footing. She also looked skinny. Incredibly and unhealthily skinny. 

“Um… can we help you?” April spoke up, her words getting caught in her throat at the beginning. She put herself in front of Harley, forcing the teen to be shielded behind her aunt. 

“Give me… give me everything you have…” The black-haired woman slurred, her voice lower in tone. 

April raised a brow. “Excuse me?” The red-haired older woman inquired as she backed herself and Harley away from the dangerous woman. The unpredictable woman kept getting closer and closer to the two women, mumbling about incoherent manners. April and Harley weren’t entirely focusing their attention on whatever this woman was muttering. April and Harley widened their eyes when they saw the woman had a huge boning knife in her grasp. 

“I said… GIVE ME ALL YOUR DAMN STUFF!!” The woman screeched. The mugger had then lunged right at April, charging at her, causing the aunt and niece to drop all of their things. 

Harley’s eyes widened, taking her lollipop out of her mouth and hastily throwing it to the side. Harley then quickly and forcefully pushed her Aunt April out of the way of the woman, letting out a pained grunt as she felt the stinging pain of the boning knife plunging into her lower torso area. Harley gritted her teeth to bear with the aching pain, and the next thing the fifteen-year-old did was grab the woman by the back of the neck and tackle her to the ground. Harley’s choice of action caused an altercation between the two of them on the ground, and in doing so, it dug the knife deeper into her lower abdomen. 

April let out a horrified scream. “HARLEY!!” April roared out painfully with tears in her eyes. 

“Goddamnit, bitch!” Harley cursed as she struggled to gain control of the bladed weapon. Harley could feel the blood from the abdomen wound pour with every movement she made, but she brushed it off. Harley was completely engulfed in adrenaline and anger. “YOU DON’T EVEN THINK OF FUCKING HURTING MY AUNT, YOU HEAR ME, MOTHERFUCKER?!?!” Harley bellowed as she pinned the pale-skinned woman’s right arm down harshly with her knee. At this action, the woman bared her teeth in agony and rage like she was an animal rather than a human. The unhinged woman then proceeded to take the knife that was in her left hand, reach over, and stab the fifteen-year-old girl harshly in her right thigh. 

“FUCK!” Harley cussed once again out of pain. She felt her Aunt’s arms wrap around her underarms and try to pull her back away from the woman, but it was no use on April’s part. Harley was too emotional at the moment. Lightly sweating and slightly out of breath, the light brunette teenager immediately drew her arm back, made a fist, and swiftly punched the woman straight in the nose. The woman’s nose started to bleed profusely, and she had been knocked out instantly by Harley’s hard-hitting punch. 

Harley heaved, the adrenaline in her body and mind beginning to wear down. April managed to get her critically injured niece up off of the unconscious woman. April was mortified at the event that just went down. Gently laying Harley down on the ground, April hastily took off her shirt, which revealed a white tank top underneath, and her niece’s jacket. April took her pale yellow shirt and tied it around the wound on Harley’s upper thigh, and she took Harley's blue leather jacket and tied it around her lower abdomen the best that she could. April O’Neil could only hope and pray that this helped stop the bleeding. 

“Hey… Auntie… you alright?” Harley asked with raspiness in her voice. Harley coughed harshly, coughing up blood that dripped from her chin and down her neck. 

April’s bottom lip quivered. “Shhh… Harley. Save your strength. Don’t speak. I-I’ll get you to your Uncle Donnie…” The red-haired aunt wanted to break down and cry right then and there. She saw the crimson blood of her own niece pooling everywhere on the pavement. April was kicking herself immensely for what had happened. How could she have let Harley get hurt? Loved ones are supposed to always be there for each other and protect each other from anything. April felt like an immense failure like she had let down the entire Hamato family, especially Ashley and Raphael. What was April going to tell the others?

April could see Harley’s eyes rolling into the back of her head. “Oh, shit! Stay with me, Harley! Stay with me! Don’t worry, I’ll get you home.” April frantically told her niece, making her way down to the lair. 

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“Don’t you think Aunt April and Harley should’ve been back by now?” Twelve-year-old Bella questioned her Sensei as she readjusted her ponytail, pulling it tighter. Bella was training with her Uncle Leo, trying to harness her control over her psychic abilities, especially now that they were beginning to manifest to a stronger degree. While Bella and Leo were training, Raph and Ash were in the other training room training eleven-year-old Steele and Tessa. Eight-year-old Whitney and seven-year-old Alec were spending quality time with their grandpa Splinter, talking to him about various matters. Casey and Mikey were playing video games together, having made some kind of bet, while Donnie and Alex were in the laboratory together.  

“I’m sure they’ll be back soon, Bella.” Her Uncle Leo told her reassuringly. “They had a big list of things to get, so it may take them a bit longer than usual.” 

“I know, but… something just… doesn’t feel right,” Bella stated, a sense of disquietude settling in the pit of her stomach. 

Leo raised a brow curiously. “Bella, I’m sure everything is fine. Maybe some meditation can help?” The blue-masked turtle suggested it to his niece. 

The red-haired girl thought for a minute, then decided that she needed to do some meditation. “Yeah, I think it’ll help, Uncle Leo!” Bella said with a small smile. Sometimes she could in her own head, Bella knew, and she knew that focusing and steadying her mind would benefit her in gaining control of her psychic abilities. 

Leo returned the smile. His niece’s sweet smile was always so infectious. Leo nodded, sitting down on the floor. He instructed Bella to sit down next to him by silently patting his hand on the spot next to him. Bella did as she was told, and she sat down next to her sensei. “Remember, Bella,” Leo spoke up, their meditation session starting, “keep your mind focused and clear, calm and unbothered.” 

As a few minutes went by, the blue-banded turtle and the redheaded pre-teen had been making steady progress. That was until they were interrupted. 

“DONNIE!! GUYS!!” A woman’s desperate cries for help were heard from the entrance of the lair. Casey and Mikey turned around, seeing that April was holding a wounded Harley in her arms. Casey and Mikey immediately ran over to a hysterical April and an injured Harley. By now, everyone had rushed out of whatever room they were in to see what the commotion was about. Everyone was petrified and scared, especially Whitney. At the sight of her eldest sister unconscious in her aunt’s arms, Whitney’s immediate thought was that her sister was dead. Steele and Tessa were frozen in place, along with Bella. Whitney hugged her cousin, Bella, as tears rolled down her face. Alec held Tessa’s hand for a sense of comfort. It was a comfort that he didn’t get. 

The turtles, Ash, and Alex were at April and Harley’s side instantly. Ash and Raph were stunned into silence, all they could do was witness the sight of their dying child. The fact that both Ashley and Raphael were silent was… scary… to say the least. However, it was understandable. Extremely understandable. “April, what happened to Harley?!” Donnie questioned as he took his niece in his arms. 

“S-She… g-got s-stabbed…” April breathily and briefly explained. She couldn’t get her sentences out because of her rapid and fast breathing. April was a blubbering and emotional mess. With her sobbing and crying and lack of control over her breathing, it was clear that April was experiencing a panic attack. Alex and Casey exchanged a look before nodding. 

“Hey, April, let’s go in the other room, sit down, and try and calm down,” Casey suggested. 

“Yeah, we got your back. Let’s go take a breather.” Alex said as she and Casey led April into the other room to try and aid her in calming down. 

“Alright, I’m going to operate on her. Don’t disturb me!” Donnie said seriously, rushing into his lab to begin the surgery. 

“Wait, Don! Can one of us be in there with Harley?” Raph asked, referring to him and Ash. 

“No, it’s an emergency situation!” Donnie responded curtly. With that, the doors to his lab were shut. 

Everyone was stunned into silence. In the blink of an eye, tragedy and trauma had struck the Hamato family. After a few long minutes of somber quietness, the orange-masked turtle spoke up. “Poor Harley…” Mikey muttered sadly. 

Ash tried to keep it together. She wanted to keep her composure and calm for the sake of her other kids and her niece and her nephew. However, Ash didn’t even realize that she was already shedding tears. She couldn’t believe what they had just seen. The sight of Harley looking like she was clinging to life was burned into everyone’s minds, especially Raph and Ash’s minds. Her mind went blank as she saw how much pain and agony her eldest daughter was in. 

Leo sat on the couch next to Mikey with his head in his hands. Mikey looked on at the solemn and somber atmosphere in the room. He wanted to do everything in his power to make all of the horrors disappear, but he just couldn’t. Splinter and Bella walked over to Leo, Splinter placing his hand on his shell while Bella hugged him tightly. Leo hugged back as Bella softly cried. Whitney, Alec, and Tessa walked over to their Uncle Mikey, who pulled them all close together in a hug. 

Raph clenched his fists in anger. He gritted his teeth and growled. He turned around, letting out a frustrated cry as he punched the brick wall behind him and his wife. The brick wall had a huge fist-sized hole in it now that Raph had punched. Leo nor any of his other family members reprimanded or disciplined Raph because they were just as distraught and angry. “I swear to god… whoever hurt my little girl is going to get their ass kicked!!” Raph said bitterly, hitting his fist against the wall multiple times. 

Ash stared down at the floor in trepidation and shock. All she wanted to do was hurt the one who hurt her daughter. Ashley went deadly and scarily silent, her fists clenched to the point where her knuckles turned white. Steele approached his mother cautiously. He had never seen his mother so incredibly angry and upset. In fact, none of the third generation of Hamatos had ever seen their mother or Aunt Ashley this pissed off. 

The young turtle boy walked over to his mother slowly. He was pondering if he should even do this, if he should even attempt to talk to her. He wanted to comfort his mom and dad, but he didn’t know how to. Comforting others was never Steele’s forte. Still, he wanted to try so his parents would know the effort he made. 

“Mama…?” Steele spoke up meekly, an uncommon tone of voice for him. Ash didn’t respond to her son. “Mama… um…” Steele trailed off awkwardly. He tried to think of what to say, but he couldn’t think of anything at all. Instead, the young turtle tot hugged his mother, wrapping his arms around her waist, and laid his head on her tummy. 

At her son’s action, Ashley seemed to snap out of her thoughts. She hadn’t even recognized that she was crying or that her son was talking to her. “Steele…” Ash mumbled brokenly. The brunette woman hugged her son tightly. That’s when her bottom lip trembled. In an instant, Ash just fell to the ground, quietly crying while letting out soft hiccups. Steele fell down with his mother, right when Raph came over to his wife and son to comfort them. 

“Mama… Dad… what’s going to happen to Harley…?” Steele asked his mother and father softly. 

All Ashley did was hug her son tighter, crying even harder than before. Raph couldn’t bear to look his son in the eyes. He didn’t know how to even answer that question. “I-I don’t know, buddy… I don’t know…” Raph trailed off somberly. 

Hours and hours went by with Donnie performing the emergency surgery on Harley. It seemed like it took days rather than hours because of how much tension there was in the atmosphere. During this time, April, Alex, and Casey had come back into the living room. April was still very distraught, but she owed the Hamato family an explanation as to what happened. The turtles, the kunoichis, their children, Casey, and Splinter could tell that April felt extremely guilty about what happened. This was really eating her up on the inside. Everyone was worried sick for Harley, and the unknown was incredibly scary to them. All they could do was hope that Donnie could save Harley. 

“Oh, god, it’s all my fault that Harley is in this situation!” April cried, her voice full of guilt. She put her head in her hands as Alec and Mikey comforted her. “I… I completely understand if you all hate me… especially you, Ashley, Raphael, Tessa, Whitney, Steele…” April sighed shakily. “It wouldn’t surprise me if Harley herself hates me, too…” The red-haired woman muttered. 

“April, we don’t hate you. You didn’t have any sort of inkling that this was going to happen.” Alex comforted the older woman. 

“I-I was right there! Right there! I could have stepped in and saved her, but it was escalating s-so quickly…!” April sobbed quietly. “I’m sorry! I’m so sorry!”

Leo went to say something about the matter, and so did Alex, but no one got a chance to say anything they had to say. Donnie opened the doors to his lab, which gained everyone’s attention. All of them stood up from their seats, and everyone was awaiting the outcome of Harley. 

“Stay here, kids,” Raph instructed. Ashley and Raphael ran over to the purple-banded turtle, who looked very stressed. 

“Donnie…?” Ash murmured quietly. She linked one arm around her husband’s arm. She squeezed his hand for a sense of comfort, and Raph squeezed back. 

“How did it go? Is Harley going to be okay?” Raph asked frantically. 

Donnie was silent for a minute. He had a solemn and unfortunate look on his face. He sighed. “I think she’s going to pull through. It’s not guaranteed, as she’ll be in a coma for a while. I’m hoping with her superhuman abilities Harley will pull through.” Donnie explained to his family. “Harley is lucky to have even survived the surgery. She lost a copious and dangerous amount of blood… I nearly lost her three times while I was operating.” He tried to keep his voice down for the last part so the kids couldn’t hear, but he knew that was going to be hard for him to do, as he needed to notify everyone. Hearing this news, gasps rang out in the room. Upon receiving this message, Whitney and Bella shrieked with fright. Alex took her daughter and her youngest niece in her arms and comforted them the best that she could. 

Ash just began to sob as she looked Donnie right in the eyes. “My baby girl…! My poor baby girl…!” The brunette woman sobbed as Raph pulled her into his embrace. 

“Can we see her, Don?” Raph questioned softly. It was an unusual tone of voice for the typically hotheaded ninja turtle, but it was a somber and heartbreaking element to the sound of his voice. 

Donnie nodded. “You can. I would prefer it to be just you two and me in the room.” He told them. 

“Alright,” Ash whispered tearfully. She held Raph’s hand tightly as the couple walked into the laboratory. When they entered Donnie’s laboratory, the parents’ hearts stopped beating in their chests. They ran over to the hospital bed to see their eldest daughter. Donnie followed slowly behind them, wanting to give his brother and his brother’s wife some space to be with their child. Raph and Ash stood on either side of the hospital bed with Ash on the left side and Raph on the right side. 

All that the parents could do was just stare at their unconscious daughter. Both Raph and Ash had been through some scary moments in their lives, but this was by far one of the worst things they’d had to experience. Their poor little girl was barely clinging to life, and she had gone through a lot of trauma in such a short amount of time. Raphael fell to his knees, taking his child’s hand in his own. Ash and Donnie could practically feel the immense amount of anger, rage, and tragedy in the atmosphere. Ashley brushed Harley’s bubblegum pink and light brown bangs from her eyes so the mother could kiss her child’s forehead.  

It was silent. It was the absolute worst silence in the world for the three of them. After a long moment, Raph spoke up. “Hey, Donnie?” The red-masked turtle gained his brother’s attention. 

“Yeah, Raph?” 

“How long is Harley’s recovery going to be?” 

“Well, it’s kind of tough to determine a specific duration of time. It’s also hard to say when Harley will wake up from her coma.” Donnie answered calmly. On the outside, Donnie kept a level head. Donnie had always been one of the ones to keep a collected and balanced train of thought compared to his brothers and the kunoichis, but deep inside, he was incredibly agitated and panic-stricken. He didn’t know how Harley’s recovery was going to go. There was an incredible amount of unknown that was up in the air, and there was a tremendous amount of pressure and stress on Donnie to save Harley and help her recover from her injuries. 

“Now, as I stated earlier because Harley is half-mutant, her recovery should be quicker than a normal human would.” Donnie explained, “Harley’s healing abilities should benefit her in her recovery, but considering the fact that she lost a perilous amount of blood, the outcome is… well, inconclusive.” 

The couple took a few seconds to take in the information that Donnie gave them. “Thank you, Donnie… I know that was very stressful and hard to do.” Ash expressed softly, her voice breaking with emotional pain. Her eyes were red and puffy, and her cheeks had tear stains on them. 

“Of course, Ash, I’ll do anything to save and help Harley,” Donnie said. 

Over the next few days, the demeanor of the lair was very tense. Donnie would only allow himself and two other family members inside to visit Harley, as he didn’t want it to be too crowded and he didn’t want anything to get contaminated. Besides Ash and Raph visiting the fifteen-year-old the most, the others that would visit Harley the most were Bella and Tessa. 

Even though Bella and Tessa were taking this event really hard, they were the only ones out of the third generation of Hamatos that was handling it better. Whitney and Alec were too young and they didn’t understand what was happening. Plus, they were too hysterical. All Whitney and Alec knew was that their big sister and eldest cousin were severely hurt. When April initially brought Harley back, they both thought that Harley had died. Steele, after the initial shock wore off from seeing his older sister like that, decided that the sight of one of the people that he looked up to the most in a horrid state like that was too scarring for him. Unless he had to go in there and see Harley, he wasn’t stepping foot in his Uncle Donnie’s laboratory if he didn’t have to. April occasionally went to visit her niece, but her immense guilt and regret were too much for her to bear. Because of that fact, April kept a distance from Donnie’s lab, as witnessing Harley in that state was too disturbing for her. 

Bella and Tessa were visiting their eldest cousin, as they were still very worried for Harley. Their Uncle Donnie had to step out of his lab for a quick moment to get something to eat, something that Alex had forced her husband to do because he had been extremely busy taking care of his niece for the past couple of days. While monitoring Harley’s progress was necessary, Alex also didn’t want her husband’s self-care to dwindle. This left Tessa and Bella in the lab with Harley by themselves for a while. Usually, an adult would be there with them. However, with Donnie taking a well-deserved break and the other adults being busy with the other kids, Bella and Tessa were left by themselves in the lab with Harley. 

Bella sighed sadly, taking her unconscious cousin’s hand in hers. “Do you think that Harley is ever going to wake up?” The red-haired girl asked in a whisper, turning to her turtle cousin that stood right next to her. Bella was very clearly hurting from seeing her cousin in this state. 

Tessa’s onyx eyes glossed over for a brief moment. She kept her gaze on her older sister, seeing her chest rise and fall steadily. Tessa didn’t understand why Harley had to go through all of this. The young turtle didn’t know why her family was being put through so much pain and agony. Why did the universe decide that this was an event that the Hamato family had to experience? It didn’t make any sense to Tessa. Sure, Harley could be challenging to deal with at times, but she didn’t deserve this. Harley supported not only Tessa but so many others through their hardships. Why did this have to happen to Harley? Why did Harley have to be clinging to her life?

Blinking back her tears, the young ninja turtle turned to her older cousin. “She’ll wake up. Harley is strong and resilient. Nothing will take her out that easily.” Tessa responded with ease and determination. 

Bella looked at her younger cousin. After a few seconds, she smiled. Her smile held a sense of amusement to it, and she elicited a giggle. “You know, sometimes you remind me of Uncle Leo,” Bella commented. 

Tessa scoffed. “Oh, hush, you,” The young turtle muttered as she lightly flicked the side of Bella’s head. 

“HEY! What was that for?” Bella questioned with a smirk. She found her cousin’s reaction to her statement quite pleasing. 

“Just shut up,” Tessa said casually as she crossed her arms across her plastron. 

Bella pouted, letting out a “tch” sound. “You can be mean, you know that, right?” Bella pointed out. Although, her tone of voice had no evidence of being jaded. 

“You’re right. I can be mean when I want to.” Tessa replied nonchalantly. She had a smug grin on her face. 

Yup, Tessa is definitely Auntie Ash and Uncle Raph’s daughter. Bella thought as she rolled her black eyes playfully. Right as she was going to reply with something witty, something that would most likely annoy Tessa, the two girls heard soft groaning from beside them. Tessa and Bella immediately looked toward Harley, who started to stir. 

Bella and Tessa blinked in shock. They were both paralyzed. “What the fuck.” Tessa cursed out of shock, which caused Bella to smack her upside the head as a reprimand. Harley’s pink-green two-toned hues fluttered open. 

“Are you seeing this, Bella?”

“I sure am, Tessa,” 

Harley slowly sat up in the hospital bed. She frowned, confused as to what was happening.  Harley held her head, and she glared at her cousin and her younger sister. “Will you two shut the hell up? My head is fucking killing me.” The light brown-haired teenager complained in a groggy voice. 

Bella started breathing rapidly, tears streaming down her face. Tessa wiped the tears that were pricking her eyes. “Bella, go get Uncle Donnie,” Tessa instructed breathlessly. Tessa grinned widely, instantly running to her older sister and embracing her tightly. Bella ran to go and retrieve her father with little protest. 

Harley grunted at her sister’s affection. “Tessa, get off of me!” Harley demanded, her voice raspy and low. 

“No! I almost lost you! We almost lost you!” Tessa said with a big grin, burying her face in her neck. 

Harley realized how terrified Tessa was. She relented, hugging her baby sister in return. “It’s okay, T. I’m here,” Harley said gently, an uncommon tone of voice for her, and she pulled Tessa close to her. 

That’s when Donnie ran into the room, quickly followed by Ash, Raph, Steele, and Whitney. Everyone else stayed at the entrance until they had the clear to come closer. They also let the family have their moment with Harley. Harley was bombarded by her parents and her siblings and their affections. Raph and Ash embraced their eldest daughter as they cried, Whitney cheering happily as she hugged her older brother. 

“Big sis Harley! You’re alright!” Whitney cheered happily as she let tears fall from her eyes. 

“Harley, I’m so glad you’re awake…” Ash whispered softly, her broken sobs of relief ringing out in the room. Steele just remained silent as he hugged Whitney, blinking away the tears that wanted to flow out. 

“How ya doin’, Harley?” Raph asked his daughter, relief wavering in his voice. 

“Fucking exhausted, that’s for sure,” Harley muttered as she was being squeezed by the hugs her family was giving her. Harley looked toward Bella and Alec, rolling her eyes playfully at the affection her family was giving her. Bella and Alec snickered at their cousin’s reaction. Harley then looked back at her father, only to see him wipe away his tears. “Dad, are you crying?” Harley asked, confused. There had been very rare occasions that she’s seen her rough-and-tough father she’d tears. 

Raph ruffled his daughter’s short light caramel brown hair, which earned a small grumble of annoyance from Harley. “Ya caught me, squirt. Ya caught me.” Raph said with a chuckle, looking up at his wife with a grin. Ash grinned, as well. 

“I hate to break up the reunion, but I don’t want Harley’s stitches and sutures to bust from all of the hugging.” Donnie said. He approached the bedside as the little family dispersed to give him room to work. Donnie began taking Harley’s vitals, happiness swelling in his heart. 

“Uncle Don? Do you have any ibuprofen or Advil or some combo meds that I can take?” Harley questioned her uncle, holding her side. “My head and abdomen are fucking killing me! And my leg is sore! Shit, this isn’t fun…” 

“Well, duh, of course, you're hurting! You were stabbed pretty badly, Harls!” Little Alec voiced, oblivious to the fact that he could possibly trigger traumatic memories for Harley. Of course, he was only seven years old, so he wouldn’t know any better. 

Harley froze in her place. Her two-toned hues widened slightly. Horrid recollections came flooding back to her mind. She could see the knife being stabbed into her leg. Harley could visualize the frantic cries of her Aunt April as she was patching up her wounds the best she could in order to stop the bleeding. Harley recalled how the crimson lake stretched from her all the way to where the attacker was lying unconscious on the pavement. Harley could feel her heart pounding in her chest, and her head started pounding even harder against her skull. 

“… Harley…?” Whitney poked her eldest sister's cheek to get her attention. 

Harley blinked a couple of times. She looked down at her baby sister and gave her a reassuring smile, even though she still felt that sinking feeling in her chest. “I’m fine, Whitney! I’d gander to say that I’m pretty fucking strong. Nothing is going to take me down that easily!” Harley boasted, flipping her hair and straightening her posture. 

“Yeah, you’re right, Harley!” Whitney said with a bright smile and admiration in her eyes. 

“Well, I’m just glad this situation didn’t take a turn for the worse,” Leo said, crossing his arms across his plastron. 

“Yeah, I miss my gaming buddy!” Mikey exclaimed. 

“I miss beating you and Uncle Casey in Super Smash Bros, too, Uncle Mikey,” Harley said with a giggle. 

Mikey and Casey rolled their eyes playfully. As Harley and her other family members were talking, Donnie finished taking his niece’s vitals. “Okay, Harley, I’ve finished taking your vitals. You need all the rest that you can get.” Donnie told the fifteen-year-old, handing her a small glass of water and some medications to ease her symptoms. 

Harley nodded as she took the items in her hands. “You got it.” The brunette teenager said before taking the various medications and setting down the small glass of water on the bedside table. 

“Aww, you’re going to go back to sleep again after you’ve woken up? That’s stupid.” Alec said from the entrance of the laboratory. 

“It’s not stupid, Alec,” Alex gently explained to her son, who looked up at his mother, “Harley needs her rest so she can get better.” 

“Then, once she’s better, can she help me with my training again?” Alec questioned. 

Harley gave a thumbs up to her youngest cousin. “You betcha, Alec!” The sandy brown-haired teenager said confidently. 

“Yay!” Little Alec cheered. 

“We’ve all laid eyes on Harley. Now, she needs her rest. Let’s give her that moment to gain her strength back.” Master Splinter spoke up. 

Everyone agreed with what the elder had said, and they all said their goodbyes to Harley. Steele, however, lagged behind a bit. He looked at his eldest sister, and all he could see in Harley’s eyes was fear and anxiety. Steele stopped in his tracks, turning to face Harley. “Hey, Harls?” He said slowly, debating on whether or not he wanted to bring this up. 

“What is it, Steele?”

Steele sighed. “You’re okay, right? I could tell that when Alec mentioned how you got your injuries that you seemed off.” The young turtle ninja expressed his concerns. He figured he wasn’t going to get anything out of his sister, but it was worth a try. “I don’t want to make things too mushy because that’s not really either of our styles, but… you’ll tell me if anything gets bad… like… in your head, if you get what I’m trying to say.” Steele felt very awkward, but surprisingly, he was hiding it relatively well. 

Harley seemed quite taken aback by her brother’s concern. “Um… yeah, I would. Anyways, I’m going to try and sleep off some of this pain. Talk to ya later, Steele.” Harley answered, keeping her response brief. Steele left the laboratory, feeling unsure about his sister’s answer. He knew deep down that she wasn’t going to say anything. That’s how she was wired, much like Ashley was. Like mother, like daughter. 

Harley pulled the covers over her shoulders, trying to shield herself from the coldness of her uncle’s lab. Harley had a lot to think about. She couldn’t help but feel so much emotional and mental pain whenever her cousin mentioned the incident. Harley felt scared, helpless, and incredibly afraid to even think about leaving the lair. The thought of a blade absolutely terrified her to her core. She knew that she wasn’t going to be picking up her weapons for a good while, and she was going to be relying on her atmokinesis for the time being. Harley tried to get some sleep, but every time she closed her eyes, all she saw was the deep crimson lake that stretched across the concrete.

𝗰𝗼𝗽𝘆𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 © 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗶𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆𝗮𝘀𝗵𝗹𝗲𝘆 2022. 𝗶 𝗱𝗼𝗻’𝘁 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗽𝗼𝗶𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗺𝗲𝗱𝗶𝗮. 𝗶 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀, 𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗽𝗼𝗶𝗻𝘁𝘀, 𝗲𝘁𝗰. 𝗺𝘆 𝗰𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗳𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗼𝗽𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗮𝗹.

[officiallyashley]

TMNT-VERSE INFO— the various versions of ashley maggie singh

NOTES: i decided to give my tmnt oc, ash (whose love interest is raph btw), face claims because that's easier for me to do lol (and I can’t draw worth a shit so there’s that). it takes a weight off my shoulders, and it's easier for me to visualize. i tried with the face claims lol. anyways, i wanted to do all of the incarnations because some incarnations don’t get enough spotlight when they should and it’s a problem 😤😤 this will be a brief synopsis of the characteristics of these versions of ashley. hopefully, i made these iterations different, yet similar to each other. enjoy! i'll be doing another info page for ash and raph's kids at some point.

WARNINGS: mentions of various unhealthy coping skills like undereating and overeating, self-sabotage, negative thoughts about oneself, mentions of being self-destructive, overworking, bottling up emotions, isolation, neglecting self-care, feelings of hopelessness, refusing help from others, taking out troubles through anger, dwelling on the past, terrible spending habits, insomnia, and catastrophizing situations, mentions of anxiety. 

𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐫: 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲, 𝐰𝐚𝐲, 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐞, 𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐮𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐬, 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐞𝐝, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲!

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2012 ASH: face claim; tohru honda from fruits basket

This version of Ash is more standoffish compared to her other counterparts. She’s known for being a level-headed person, but upon first meeting her, others see her as cold and rude rather than reserved and honest. They’re quieter than most of their versions of themselves, next to 1990 Ash. She is self-destructive, but she’s very good at concealing it. Ashley tends to isolate herself from her loved ones, bury her feelings deeper inside her, and she doesn’t take care of herself like she should when something tragic happens to her. She has vulnerability and trust issues, as well, and it takes her a while to open up to others, so she often bottles up her emotions. Ash also makes humor out of the trauma that she’s experienced. She’s sarcastic, emotionally intuitive, creative, and observant. 

2018/ROTTMNT ASH: face claim; lyna from lolirock

Rise Ashley is one of the only versions that feel comfortable sharing her feelings quicker. Honestly, Rise Ash is probably the more mature version of Ash. She’s more reflective and conscious about her emotions, personality, sexuality, etc. Because of that, they view whatever situation they’re in with a more reasonable lens. ROTTMNT Ashley is flexible and tolerant, and she views the situations she or others are in in a pragmatic manner. She’s more grounded in character, and she’s less likely to take an aggressive approach. 2018 Ashley is a diplomatic person, but when something negative happens to her, she mainly feels incredibly helpless and hopeless, and she withdraws herself from others. She also doesn’t want to feel like a burden to anyone, but she’ll eventually be convinced by one of her loved ones that she should talk it all out and not bottle everything she’s experiencing up. ROTTMNT Ashley also tends to overwork herself because it’s a distraction from how she’s feeling.

2003 ASH: face claim; rogue from x-men evolution

2003 Ashley is more confident at the beginning compared to their other versions, and it definitely shows. She’s steadfast and slightly cocky, and she knows what she wants and how to get it. When dealing with trauma, Ashley is inflexible and stubborn in the sense that she won’t let anyone help her. She convinces herself that she knows what she’s doing and that everything will be cleared up in time, but she can’t see how much she really needs her loved ones’ help. They’re also committed, dependable, and matter-of-fact. They can be vulgar at times and hard-headed in their beliefs, opinions, and morals.

1990 ASH: face claim; kelly hu (i think she was in one of the x-men movies and i wanna say that she was also in one of the friday the 13th movies, as well. she also voices d'vorah in mortal kombat.)

Ashley, in the 1990 version of TMNT, is responsible and she knows what she wants. She is a little quieter and a bit more meek, but she comes out of her shell once she gets to know the other person. Her nerdy side shows more compared to her other counterparts, and she lets her cutesy side poke out a little. 1990 Ashley makes light of her trauma in humor, and she tends to overeat when she’s under stress. She dwells on and romanticizes the past. 1990 Ashley also tends to talk negatively about herself, and she bites her fingernails as a nervous habit. They’re also quirky, creative, determined, and empathetic. She also tends to catastrophize her circumstances when she’s overwhelmed and stressed. 

2014/2016/BAYVERSE ASH: face claim; olivia sui from smosh

This incarnation of Ashley is probably the more childish version of her compared to her counterparts. Even though she is slightly more childish, Ashley is very good at reading other people. She’s frank and she can be indecisive at times, and she’s very observant and intuitive. Bayverse Ashley is more rebellious and honestly more likely to get into regrettable situations. She’s also a little bit self-destructive, much like 2012 Ash, but the difference between them is that Bayverse Ashley doesn’t bother to hide it. She’s too tired to hide it and the thought of putting in that effort makes her even more unmotivated. Instead, she’s just stubborn about getting help. She also overeats when she’s stressed out and procrastinates, becoming unmotivated and nihilistic in thinking. 2014 Ashley also grows impulsive and less thoughtful in her spending habits, and she finds herself oversleeping when she’s overwhelmed by everything around her.

1987 ASH: face claim; aja leith from jem and the holograms

This Ashley is fun-loving and more lively than her other incarnations. She still has her quiet moments, but she’s more talkative. Ashley in the 1987 dimension is sassy and witty, and she’s better with and more approachable to people. She’s more optimistic than the other Ashleys, but that leads to 1987 Ashley being blinded by her optimism. This leads to extreme denial, which worsens her negative feelings, and she ignores her emotions and what her body is trying to tell her. Basically, her main unhealthy coping skill that sets her apart from the other versions of Ashley is 1987 Ash suffers from toxic positivity. 

2007 ASH: face claim; serah farron from final fantasy

2007 Ashley is a little kinder than her other counterparts. She’s less stubborn and reckless. This version of Ashley, when faced with tragedy, tends to undereat and restrict her food intake. Much like 1990 Ashley and 2012 Ashley, she tends to poke fun at her own trauma. She also minimizes her dilemmas, saying that it’s not a big deal and that she’ll be okay. She also refuses others’ aid because she doesn’t want to feel like she’s troubling them with her problems. 2007 Ashley is loyal, and can be to a fault, and she can easily make connections to events and information. She has a more optimistic outlook, very much like 1987 Ashley. She speaks more formally than her other iterations, but she still has her moments of sassiness and wittiness. She also tends to be more nervous and anxious around other people, seeming tense at times. 2007 Ashley is more prone to self-sabotage and insomnia. 

COMIC ASH: face claim; rogue from x-men

Ashley from the comics is more abrasive and brash, and she’s not as level-headed and calm as most of her other counterparts. She’s also the most vulgar and impulsive of her incarnations. She’s frank, decisive, and fiercely independent. When it comes to handling trauma, she ends up showing a side of her that’s more volatile and hostile. Her irritation presents itself in a transparent way, and she’s way less self-aware that she’s struggling compared to her other counterparts. Like Bayverse Ash, Comic Ash is more impulsive in her spending habits. They are very well-informed and well-read, and they are one of the more outspoken counterparts of Ashley Singh.  

𝗰𝗼𝗽𝘆𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 © 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗶𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆𝗮𝘀𝗵𝗹𝗲𝘆 2022. 𝗶 𝗱𝗼𝗻’𝘁 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗽𝗼𝗶𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗺𝗲𝗱𝗶𝗮. 𝗶 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀, 𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗽𝗼𝗶𝗻𝘁𝘀, 𝗲𝘁𝗰. 𝗺𝘆 𝗰𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗳𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗼𝗽𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗮𝗹.

[officiallyashley]

TMNT-VERSE INFO— the different versions of harley jade hamato

NOTES: bro, i tried my best with the 1990 & Bayverse face claims, but it was super fucking hard to find them so i went with what i had lol. harley is the eldest/first child of ash (my oc) and raph. next, are their twins, steele ace hamato and tessa cerise hamato, and then finally whitney snow hamato. for harley and whitney, i made picrew icons for them since they take after their mother, while steele and tessa are mutant turtles like raph. i'll do headcanons on my ocs at some point in the future that adds various more details to their characters.

WARNINGS: mentions of getting mugged, getting stabbed, anger issues, over-exercising, undereating, anxiety, mentions of self-destructive behavior, nihilistic thinking, overuse of social media, avoidance as a coping mechanism, mentions of pregnancy. 

𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐫: 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲, 𝐰𝐚𝐲, 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐞, 𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐮𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐬, 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐞𝐝, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲!

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2012 HARLEY:

2012 Harley looks like her mother, but she acts like her father. This version of Harley has anger issues, and while she does get triggered by others, her anger usually originates from being frustrated with herself. Harley is snappy and she has the tendency to be a little vulgar and outspoken. 2012 Harley tends to be more of a realist, like her mother, Ashley, and deeply cares for her family (even though she doesn’t always show it). She tends to think about things realistically and logically, being somewhat pragmatic about how she goes about things. Even though she has her pragmatic moments, there have been times when she is more impulsive in nature, which often gets her into trouble. When she’s upset in any way, Harley tends to immediately go to training. However, this has led her to over-exercise and undereat. Ashley found out that she was pregnant with Harley a few months after Splinter had died.

2007 HARLEY:

This version of Harley is actually pretty quiet. However, she tends to internalize her anger and that leads to her lashing out at her family a lot. 2007 Harley is sassy and witty, and she has a dry sense of humor (much like Rise Donnie does). There are moments when she can come off as dull, blunt, and uninterested. This version of Harley has bad anxiety, so she has a very hard time meeting new people. This is also the only version of Harley that has purple hair. Sometimes she’ll fully dye her hair, sometimes she will only do streaks in her hair. 2007 Harley also has a Brooklyn accent, just like her father. 2007 Harley has a particularly close relationship with her Uncle Casey and her Uncle Mikey, and she often goes to one of them if there’s something wrong. She’s also very inventive, often helping her Uncle Donnie with inventions in his lab, and she’s very attached to her electronics. 2007 Harley is two years old in the 2007 TMNT movie.

2003 HARLEY:

2003 Harley is the most egotistical and bratty of them all. Like, I love her, but holy shit is she a little shit at times. Harley has the tendency to come off as cocky and a know-it-all. However, 2003 Harley is confident and sure of herself. She tends to give so much confidence to others, supporting them in any way that she can. Even though she has a confident persona, on the inside, Harley is very anxious and on edge. That’s because of an incident that occurred when she was 15 years old where she and her Aunt April were mugged, and during that incident, Harley was stabbed and nearly lost her life. There are moments when her anxiety does show through, but she does a relatively good job of keeping her trauma concealed underneath an assertive and unperturbed demeanor. Ash and Raph found out about Harley at the end of the show, and in the TURTLES FOREVER movie, Harley is one-year-old. 

ROTTMNT/2018 HARLEY:

Overall, ROTTMNT Harley is very kind and helpful. She’s one of the only versions of Harley, next to her 1987 counterpart, that is kinder than the other Harleys. Like her mother, Ash, Harley has a sense of gracefulness about her, and she can often come off as very mysterious to others, as she is very calm and collected and she knows how to mask her feelings. I would say that ROTTMNT Harley’s character is similar to Mira’s character from Fairy Tail. She’s warm-hearted and flexible, as well as analytical and soft-hearted. Typically, Harley is peaceful and amicable, but if you piss her off, she’ll fucking blow up in your face. ROTTMNT Harley is definitely the mother out of the next generation (much like Raph is to his family). Rise Harley is a quieter version compared to others, but she has no problem speaking up when she feels like she needs to. Even though she has a hospitable persona, when Rise Harley is pissed, she’s PISSED. Similar to the 2007 version of her, this iteration of Harley is close with her Uncle Casey and her Uncle Mikey. Rise Harley was around a year-and-a-half when the Kraang invaded. 

COMIC HARLEY:

The comic version of Harley is a lot like her mother in personality and looks. She has her father’s eye color and gets her hair color from her mother’s side of the family. Harley is snarky and terse, and even though she has a cold exterior, she is extremely loyal and wants the best for everyone. She’s aggressive and loud, frank and extremely vulgar, and assertive and incredibly knowledgeable. When handling trauma, Harley tends to be more unpredictable yet very silent. Whenever Harley goes silent, everyone knows that something has happened and it’s a little alarming. This version of Harley is incredibly independent, and she often doesn’t follow the rules that are given to her. 

1987 HARLEY:

The 1987 iteration of Harley is one of the kinder versions compared to her counterparts. She’s more amiable and personable with others, but that doesn’t mean that she still won’t kick someone’s ass if they’ve wronged her or any one of her family members in any way. 1987 Harley is the most hyper iteration out of the others. She is also extroverted and loyal. She’s more optimistic— not as much as her younger sister, Whitney, though. This version of Harley is the only version with heterochromia and who dyes her hair white. 1987 Harley has ADHD, and she has a stubborn side to her. Harley is charismatic and spontaneous, as well. She tends to be in denial about stressful things, and she avoids taking actions that would trigger her, which is a big red flag for others around her. Everyone discovered that Ash was pregnant with Harley at the very end of the series. 

1990 HARLEY: face claim; arden cho

Oh, shit, is 1990 Harley Hamato super sassy and outspoken. This woman has a very sharp tongue, and she doesn’t try to hide it. 1990 Harley is more reckless than the other versions of her, and she tends to dwell on the past and everything she’s gone through. Harley makes light of her troubles through humor, and she can appear to be quite distant at times. 1990 Harley is impulsive and often the lone-wolf of the family. However, even though she isn’t the most approachable person in the world, 1990 Harley is highly empathetic towards others. Everyone found out that Ash was pregnant with Harley at the very end of the series. 

2014/2016/BAYVERSE HARLEY: face claim; erika tham

Bayverse Harley is very headstrong and intelligent. She can be defiant and rebellious at times, often not thinking ahead in situations. Outwardly, Bayverse Harley tends to act more aloof and attitudinal. Harley tends to internalize her feelings like her mother does, and she does have her childish moments. Harley is viewed as the most fearsome and aggressive of the next generation of Hamatos, and she’s also the voice of reason. Much like her 1990 counterpart, Bayverse Harley is highly empathetic. Harley is also incredibly good at reading other people, and she likes to call others out on their bullshit. This version of Harley tends to be more self-destructive and procrastinates, having a nihilistic outlook when times are rough for her. She also tends to overuse social media as a way to distract herself from stressful situations. Ashley discovered that she was pregnant with Harley during the events of the TMNT: OUT OF THE SHADOWS movie (aka the 2016 movie). 

𝗰𝗼𝗽𝘆𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 © 𝗼𝗳𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗶𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆𝗮𝘀𝗵𝗹𝗲𝘆 2022. 𝗶 𝗱𝗼𝗻’𝘁 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗽𝗼𝗶𝗻𝘁𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗺𝗲𝗱𝗶𝗮. 𝗶 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀, 𝗽𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝗽𝗼𝗶𝗻𝘁𝘀, 𝗲𝘁𝗰. 𝗺𝘆 𝗰𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗳𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗼𝗽𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗮𝗹.

[officiallyashley]

Higeki 悲劇 (. tmnt 2003 .)

SUMMARY: Tragedy strikes in the midst of a battle with Shredder. 

NOTES: I haven’t finished rewatching the TMNT 2003 show yet (I’m on season five for some context), so I’m just going to go with whatever comes into my head. You know, creative liberties. Also, heads up: I’m gonna make this darker than usual (I mean the 2003 show can get pretty dark, so, uh, there’s that.). Also, I hope that the Japanese translation of the title is correct lol 😝 Enjoy! 

WARNINGS: mentions of graphic injuries, character death scene, implications of PTSD, mentions of pregnancy.

𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐫: 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲, 𝐰𝐚𝐲, 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐞, 𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦. 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐟𝐮𝐧, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐬, 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬. 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐜𝐞𝐞𝐝, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲!

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THE SCENE WAS A BLOODBATH. 

The turtles and the kunoichis knew that this battle could be where they could take the hardest loss they may ever take. This wasn’t going to be easy, nor would anyone come out of this fight unscathed. It didn’t take very long into the fight against Shredder for the turtles and kunoichis to start to gain injuries after injuries. Even though throughout the whole fight with Shredder and his henchmen the skilled ninjas were getting beaten black and blue, they still kept up. Their sheer strength in numbers and their determination to win were what made them persist through all of the pain. 

This was guaranteed to be the most challenging fight that the Hamato family had ever been in, but they were extremely determined to end this long-time feud. 

Ashley finished up a battle with one of the Foot ninjas. She used her twin jitte to inflict a gruesome slash on the Foot ninja’s torso. Blood started to pour from the gaping wound. The Foot ninja stumbled for a bit before Ash made her move. With a small grunt, the brunette roundhouse kicked the last Foot ninja to the ground. She watched as the Foot ninja was sent flying into another Foot soldier that Raphael was fighting by how powerful her kick was. Both Foot ninjas weren’t a problem anymore. 

Ashley breathed heavily. She was covered in dirt and grime and sweat. She was covered in bruises and superficial wounds. Her shoulder-length brunette hair was frizzy and matted because of how much she was fighting. Her adrenaline rush was still at an all-time high. 

“Nice one, babe,” Raph complimented tiredly, walking over to his girlfriend. 

“Thanks, honey,” Ash said, spitting out some blood onto the ground beside her. She haphazardly wiped the blood from her mouth with her sleeve, but all it did was smear it from her chin up to her cheek, “but we’re not done yet. We still have that fucker to take care of!” 

“Then let’s meet up with the rest of the team and end this once and for all!” Raph smirked. 

Ash nodded in response. The two of them made their way back to Leo and the others. Once the couple arrived at the main battlefield, they realized that they made it just in time. “Looks like we made it at just the right time,” Ash commented. 

“Yup. Seems like it.” Raph affirmed. “Are you ready, sweetheart?” 

“Ready as I’ll ever be,” Ash responded as she loosened up her shoulders. 

Soon after Raph and Ash arrived at the main battle center, it wasn’t long before the altercation happened. Everyone was beyond nervous— how was this going to go? This was the battle of their life. If the turtles and the kunoichis were victorious today, then they would finally have peace from the Shredder and all of his evil deeds. They could put their past behind them and move on to a brighter future without the deeds of Shredder hovering over them. 

As the fighting went on, the teenagers recognized that this collision didn’t have a predictable course. One minute the turtles and kunoichis would be at the advantage, then before they knew it, Shredder would have the upper hand. It was incredibly frustrating to be so close to victory, only for that possibility to be stripped from them until they gained their favorable chance. 

“Damn!” Donnie cursed harshly, feeling the sharp stinging from the gash on his leg. The wound on his right leg was more than a cut— it was so deep it was going to leave a gnarly scar. He used his bo-staff to help him stand the best he could. 

“We’ve tried everything we could, dudes!” Mikey exclaimed. His tone of voice held immense exhaustion with an edge of desperation. 

“We can’t give up! There has to be something to get this guy down!” Alex mentioned while she felt the tiredness wash over her body. Her head was pounding mercilessly against her head, a drawback of overusing her psychic abilities. 

Ash didn’t say anything. She was too busy thinking about her strategy. She didn’t have much energy left to use a more intense and potent attack, so she hoped that simpler attacks would be just as effective. That’s what everyone had to do— hope. Hope that everything went smoothly and that events led to their desired reality. I don’t have a lot of energy left, but I think I could shock him with a strong surge of lightning and strike him from behind. Ashley thought. There was a heavy sense of dread and anxiety solidifying in the pit of her stomach. She bit her chapped and bloody lips. That’s when Ash spotted something. 

Ashley noticed that there was an open wound on Shredder’s neck thanks to a successful attack on Leonardo’s part. Ash knew that if that vulnerable part was punctured even more, then it would be a game over for the Shredder. The malicious bitch would most likely bleed out, The brunette surmised, It would be a slow and painful death for him. That’s fitting and well-deserved for an asshole like Shredder. Ashley felt her adrenaline spike up even higher if it even could spike up higher than it already was. Ashley knew that she had to take this chance. Even if Leo hadn’t given any specific orders yet, this could be the final blow. If Ash succeeded in her attack, then she, along with her family, would be able to be free from Shredder’s wrath. 

Ash gave herself a big deep breath before exhaling softly. She prepared herself for what she was about to do. Gripping the twin jittes that she received from Master Splinter, Ash closed her light lavender-grey eyes and focused as much as she could despite the strong pain of her injuries. There was the faint sound of crackling coming from the navy night sky. Ash began levitating in the air, her lavender-grey hues disappearing under a thick color of pearl white. 

All of a sudden, there was an extremely loud booming noise. Ash had let an immensely powerful and intense surge of lightning rain down on the Shredder. Shredder was paralyzed and distracted by Ash’s move. “Everyone, throw whatever you have left in you at this dick! Now’s your chance!” Ash instructed seriously, her voice distorted because of her powers. 

With that, they did what the brunette told them to. Everyone started charging at their enemy, taking whatever chance that they got to inflict any sort of damage on Shredder. Ash narrowed her white eyes, seeing her chance. Seeing that Leo and Raph had Shredder’s attention on them, Ash struck. She then, while still in the air, rushed towards the gaping and unprotected injury on the enemy’s neck. Letting out a battle cry, Ash charged at Shredder. 

Shredder heard Ash’s battle cry, and he quickly and effectively disarmed Raph and kicked him aside. While blocking Leonardo using one of his tekko-kagis, Shredder used the other, now free, arm to attack Ash before she could stab him. Ash froze. In fact, everyone on the battlefield froze. They couldn’t believe what they saw. Alex wanted to puke at the sight, and she did, having Donnie comfort her at her side. 

They saw Shredder stab Ashley in the torso with his second tekko-kagi, lifting her up in the air for all of her family to see. It didn’t take the brunette very long to feel the sharpness and stinging pains from her two stab wounds on her torso. Ash felt her grip on her twin jittes begin to weaken. The raging storm clouds in the dark night sky dissipated, and the lavender-grey color of her eyes returned. Ash jerks and spits up blood, and everyone on the battlefield is frozen at the sight.

Alex and Mikey gasped in horror, while Donnie, Leo, and Raph were looking at the scene in front of them with gaping mouths. Alex, Mikey, and Raph had tears prick their eyes. Ashley gritted her teeth at the pain, feeling her body slide down Shredder’s blades more. Ash dropped her maroon twin jittes to the ground, seeing the steam emitting off of Shredder’s skin from her lightning attack moments earlier. She even felt the blades that were protruding from her burn her. Ash threw up more blood, her blood and Shredder’s mixing together like streams of blood fell down his blades and arm, all the way to his shoulder. 

“ASHLEY!!!!” The turtles and Alex exclaimed in shock and fright. 

Ashley smirked cunningly, a small and dull glint in her eyes. 

“What are you smirking about, brat?” Shredder demanded bitterly, his gaze piercing and jagged. 

“Oh, nothing,” Ash said weakly, but confidently, “it’s just that… karma’s gonna bite ya in the ass.”

Shredder huffed in annoyance. He always thought that Ashley Singh was one of the worst thorns in his side. He grew tired and irritated at the sight of Ashley and her cocky smirk, so he tossed the brunette kunoichi to the side as if she was garbage. Ash was slung off of the blades by the sheer force of Shredder, and she crashed into the side of a brick building with a loud crack. 

“Raph! Go get her!” Leo ordered loudly, fending off Shredder’s tekko-kagis before jumping back to create distance between them. They could tell that Shredder was getting close to the end of his limits. “We’ll hold him off for you!” 

Raph scrambled to his feet, forgetting to retrieve his twin sais from the ground. Raph rushed to his girlfriend’s side, panickedly throwing bricks aside. He was seething with anger and rage, his heart heavy with anxiety and despondency. “Shit, shit, shit, shit, SHIT! S-Sweetheart…” Raph choked on his tears, carefully looking her over. Ash was knocked out, and her wounds were incredibly severe. Raph didn’t know if Ash was going to make it out of this fight alive. “Baby? Baby, please, you have to wake up…” Raph mumbled heartbroken, treating Ash as if she was glass with how wary and discreet he was when moving Ash into his embrace. Raphael Hamato had never been this petrified in his entire life. His own girl, his whole world, had just taken a landing. A very brutal, harsh landing. 

Everything was happening so fast. Raph didn’t even notice that Donnie, with the resources that he had at hand, had rushed to his brother and good friend’s side. Raph saw as Donnie tried to patch Ash up the best he could while Alex, Mikey, and Leo were finishing off the Shredder. Raph was absolutely terrified and scared. He didn’t want to feel this way. He wanted to be fighting their enemy with Ash. He wanted to hold her, touch her, kiss her, and hang out with her. They shouldn’t be fighting the Shredder. This fight shouldn’t be going the way it was going. 

Raph was snapped out of his trance-like state when he heard Ashley coughing harshly. He had tuned out everything once he witnessed the love of his life getting stabbed right in front of him and his family. “Ashley, sweetheart,” Raph’s voice trembled in fear as tears of trauma poured from his eyes, “I’m here. I’m here.” 

“Raph…” Ash muttered sorely as Donnie kept tending to her injuries, “Donnie…” 

“Ashley, we’re gonna get you home soon, okay?” Donnie spoke up in the midst of his nursing. “Stay with us, Ash. Stay with us.” 

“Yeah… you got it…” Ash weakly grinned, giving the purple-clad turtle a thumbs up. 

“Yer strong, babe, yer gonna pull through,” Raph whispered, his voice still shaking. 

“Hey, Raph…?” Donnie murmured, trying his best for Ash not to hear him. 

Raph turned towards his brother, tears streaming down his face. “Yeah, Don?” The red-clad turtle inquired tearfully. He held Ash in his arms, holding her gently. 

“I-I don’t know how to say this. I don’t want to say this… but…” Donnie exhaled a shaky breath, “I-I don’t have enough resources…” 

Raphael’s heart sank. He knew what his brother was implying. He didn’t want to believe what reality was becoming. “Donatello… please… don’t say wh-what yer about to say…” Raph whispered brokenly. 

“Raph, w-we need t-to make Ashley comfortable…” Donnie said hurtfully, tears pricking his eyes. 

Raph narrowed his eyes. More tears kept cascading down his cheeks when he heard what his brother said. “N-No! DONATELLO, YOU BETTER BE FUCKING LYING!” Raphael roared out of heartache and torture. 

“Raphael, I’m so sorry, b-but…” Donnie trailed off for a second, choking on his tears, “I don’t have the immediate resources here with me, and we don’t have enough time to get her back to the lair to operate. I’ve used up every medical equipment that we brought on Ash.” Donnie explained painfully, the tears running down his face. 

“What about Harley?! HARLEY NEEDS HER MOTHER BY HER SIDE!” Raph cried out loudly, clenching his fists, “Our little girl can’t go through life without her mother!” 

“Raph…” Donnie whispered, not knowing what else to say to his brother. 

Before Raph could say anything more, they heard footsteps coming from behind them. It was Leo, Mikey, and Alex heading over to where Ash, Raph, and Donnie were. “It’s over. Shredder is no more.” Leonardo stated seriously. 

“Yeah, Leo kicked Shredder’s ass!” Mikey exclaimed. 

“Th-That’s… good to hear…” Ash piped up, her voice fragile and cracking, “that bastard finally fucking croaked.”

“Ash!” Alex collapsed at Raph’s side, observing her best friend’s horrific state. Alexandria started to sob along with Mikey. Leo, deep in his heart, knew that Ash wasn’t going to make it. “A-Ashley… what have I told you about b-being r-reckless in battle…?!” 

“Al, I saw my chance…” Ash coughed up more blood in her lap, “and I took it…” 

Donnie put his hand on Alex’s shoulder, a sign that Alex understood. Alex got up from Raph’s side, and she took a step back to give the couple some space. Alex continued to sob in her boyfriend’s arms. Donnie embraced his girlfriend back, both of them not taking their eyes off of Ashley. Mikey hugged Leo’s arm for comfort— a comfort that he didn’t get. 

“Babe, babe, yer gonna make it! Ya have to! For me, for Harley, for us!” Raph said, his voice rising. 

“Raphie…” Ash smiled, her emotional pain showing through her smile, “I-I think Donnie’s right.”

“Stop it, woman! Yer lying! Ya always tell me that ya won’t go down without a fight, th-that ya won’t give up so easily!” Raph’s voice shattered as he felt his lover’s blood soak through her bandages and onto his legs. “Yer so strong! Ya make me so much stronger every day just knowing yer by my side! S-So don’t… don’t give in… please!” 

Ashley began to cry with her family. She began to hiccup through her speech, and she kept the same saddened smile on her face. “R-Raphael, this i-isn’t going to be easy. I don’t wanna go, either. I wanna be with you guys and our daughter for the rest of my life, but I don’t think that’s gonna happen… I’ve… I’ve lost too much blood.” Ash mumbled breathlessly, racking with sobs. 

“Ashley…” 

“I still have some things to say, Raph. Alex, never stop being the Mama Bear of the group. You’re s-so kind… and c-caring. Don’t ever lose that side of you. Donnie, you’re… incredibly intelligent and bright. That’s your strength, and with Alex by your side, I-I know that you’ll be just fine.” The brunette woman coughed harshly once again before continuing her speech, “Mikey… you’re so fun-loving, and you see the good in others. That’s something I have always admired about you because that’s incredibly hard for… me… to do myself. Never lose your spark. Leo, you’re an excellent leader. Don’t let your confidence falter. Stay calm and headstrong.” 

“I will, Ashley. I will.” Leo whispered brokenly, comforting Mikey. 

Ash smiled weakly at her leader. She turned to the love of her life, who continued to sob loudly. “Raphael, I love you so much. You’ve given me my sense of purpose in life. You gave me the opportunity to be a mother, even if it was for a short amount of time.” Ashley choked up on sobs for a minute before starting to talk again, “I’m eternally grateful for everything we’ve done together, for the best years of my life that you’ve given me…” 

“A-Ashley…” Raph muttered, his lip trembling, “save yer breath… w-we’re gonna get ya to the lair…” 

“Raphael, you and our family are the best things that have ever happened to me… Continue to stay strong for Harley, Raph, because she needs you. She needs all of you now more than ever.” Ash felt herself breathing slower and slower by the second. Her intuition told her that her time was almost up. She, with what little strength she had left in her, sat up and gave Raph a deep, passionate kiss. Raph kissed back immediately, tears running down both of their faces as they poured every ounce of emotion into their sign of affection. All of their pain and sorrow, love and endearment, gratitude and thankfulness— everything that the couple was feeling had gone into this one breathtaking kiss, this heartbreaking moment. Ash broke the kiss, wiping the tears from her lover’s cheeks. Her eyes held depression and love in their expression. “Stay strong, my hero in red. I love you…” Ash whispered softly, her eyes rolling into the back of her head. Ash exhaled for the final time in her life, her eyes closing forever. Ashley Maggie Singh had lost her life in this battle. 

Raph widened his eyes, sweating buckets. He felt his blood run ice cold. He was crying, sobbing harshly in the darkness around him. His breathing was rapid and shallow, not allowing himself a deep breath. He felt like his whole world had turned into hell. That was, until the sound of a box fan brought him back to reality, along with the sounds of giggling children outside of his door. Raph’s breathing slowed and steadied the best it could, but if anyone saw him now, they would be able to tell that something was bothering him. 

Suddenly, his bedroom door opened. Raph quickly sat up in his bed. “Harley, Steele, Tessa, go get ready for your training with your Uncle Leo. I’ll be in here for a bit to check on your father.” Ashley instructed her children gently. 

“Why do I have to? I can just train with Uncle Mikey later.” Harley objected to her mother’s orders sassily. 

Ashley sighed tiredly. She was more irritable than usual, but that was forgiven due to her hormones being out of whack thanks to her pregnancy. “Harley, I’m very tired. Don’t test me or push my buttons. You’re training with your Uncle Leo. He has specific moves he wants to show you guys.” Ash said with exhaustion. 

“But, Mama, I wanna—”

“Do what yer mother says, Harley. Don’t argue with her.” Raph spoke up groggily, pulling the covers off of him. 

One look at her husband and Ashley knew that something was wrong. She surmised that he must’ve had a nightmare about an event of the past. That wouldn’t surprise her, as both she and Raph have been having these nightmares and sleeping issues since they were dealing with everything when they were seventeen. She looked at him empathetically, smiling sympathetically. 

Harley huffed, crossing her arms across her chest. “Fine!” Harley then stormed off, taking her four-year brother and sister with her. The parents watched as the little brunette girl and the two turtles walked away to do what their mother told them to do. 

Ashley exhaled sharply, walking over and sitting down on the bed next to Raph. 

“You okay, Ash?” Raph asked quietly. 

“Yeah, I’m fine,” They responded to their husband, “I’m just tired from walking around all day. I tire out easier now that I’m 30 weeks pregnant, but I would go through this all over again in order to see our new little girl.” 

Raph smiled softly at her words, scooting closer to Ash. He began to rub Ash’s tummy gently as the brunette woman embraced him. 

“Did you have another nightmare?” Ash asked. 

Raph sighed heavily. “Yeah, I-I did…” 

Ash brought him closer to them, hugging him tighter. “Do ya wanna talk about it?” They asked carefully. 

Raph took a moment to compose himself. “We… we were fighting Shredder… you went to attack him, but he ended up stabbing ya with his tekko-kagis…” Raph trailed off, wiping a tear from his eye. “Even though Don tried his best to patch ya up, we all knew ya weren’t gonna make it. Ya ended up bleeding to death in my arms. Harley was left… without a mother…” 

“Raphael…” Ash said softly, her voice cracking as tears pricked her eyes. “I’m so sorry you had that nightmare. I’m not going anywhere. I won’t leave your side.” 

“Thanks, sweetheart,” Raph said with a smile on his face. He then heard sniffling, and he looked at his wife. “Are you crying?” 

Ash sniffled. “I’m sorry, honey, my hormones are outta whack.”

“Nah, don’t apologize, baby,” Raph said, kissing her tummy, “I love ya, buddy.” The twenty-four-year-old turtle whispered to the baby. 

Ashley giggled happily at the sight. Raph was beyond relieved to hear from and see Ashley and the rest of their family. “I can’t believe yer 30 weeks already… the little squirt’s gonna be here soon,” Raph commented. 

“Oh, yeah, it’s crazy to think I’m almost full term. Whitney Snow Hamato is going to be here before we know it, so we have a lot to look forward to!” Ashley conversed, “I’ll be by your side for all of it, love.” 

Raph kissed Ash on the lips lovingly. Ashley smiled into her kiss, pulling Raph closer to deepen the kiss. They broke the kiss, Ash smiling warmly. Just as radiant as sunshine. “Are ya feeling better, honey?” Ash questioned. 

Raph couldn’t help but smile along with his wife, too. Her smile was so angelic and beautiful to him. Ash was so angelic and beautiful to him. “Yeah, sweetheart, I am,” Raph replied softly. 

Ashley kept her smile on her face, giggling warmly. She mentioned something to Raph about what was planned for the day before she left the room so he could do his morning routine. Raphael Hamato was the luckiest guy in the universe, and he knew that. With the family he had, his brothers and their kids, his wife and his kids— Raph couldn’t ever let that go.

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