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whisperingthorns · 6 months ago

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(Yandere Ticci Toby x Reader)

Charmed by Shadows

Chapter 3: Closer Than You Think

Tags: NSFW (I did mark it so you can skip it)

Find chapter two here:

Toby believed it was punishment. The vision of his love, rotting in his arms. A punishment from you that was letting him know, subconsciously, that he wasn’t doing a good enough job.

‘Oh Angel, I’m so sorry. I’ll be better from now on, promise’

These were his thoughts as he stood just outside her house, cloaked in the shadows of the trees, watching the warm light from her window flicker as she moved about inside. His breath was shallow, his heartbeat erratic, but not from fear—no, it was excitement. The thrill of getting closer to her, to something more personal.

She was so close, yet so far.

Waiting for the perfect moment, he stayed still as the minutes dragged on, hidden in the quiet night. Eventually, the light in her window clicked off, and he heard the unmistakable sound of her balcony door that led to her room closing softly. His pulse quickened. She was asleep. Toby stayed around for another hour.

Quietly, Toby crept towards the house, eyes scanning for any signs of movement. He knew her routine well by now—how long it took for her to fall into that deep sleep, the exact hours when the house was most vulnerable.

He had studied everything.

He carefully went to her front door. He examined the space for a minute, lifting the mat and looking for a key. No dice. At least his darling was a bit smarter than most people he knew. He was picking up rocks and looking in plant pots but no key…that was when he noticed a box attached to the wall by the door. He narrowed his eyes and switched over tiny level. There was a click and the box opened to a safe code. Oh. This must be where her extra key is.

Toby clicked his tongue. What could the code be though? Thankfully it wasn’t electric. Toby hated stuff like that, most of the time he only had so many guesses before it alerted someone. Either sending a message to their phone, an alarm sounding, or something Toby just didn’t wanna deal with. Hmm…

Oh gosh. Toby just couldn’t think of what it could be. He’s already tried her birthday, the year she was born, and anything else he could think of. Alright. Time to do this the old-fashioned way.

Click. Click. Click. Click.

1111…1112…1113…1114…

⦻

‘You’ve got to be shitting me’ Toby didn’t know whether to be pissed at you, or himself. Pissed because one, the code was too easy to guess and that was dangerous. Two, he’s mad he didn’t think to guess it in the first place. Three he’s wasted all this time on this stupid lock box! The box unlocked and clicked open when he tried the code ‘4444’ Really?! Angel numbers…hm. Either way, the key was his! Yay! He could’ve just picked the lock but his angel would grow scared, and probably be able to tell it was messed with. Plus he wanted the key so he could check on her whenever he felt like it. He’ll make a copy tomorrow and return when she goes to work! Much easier than picking the lock…

Once inside, the faint scent of her perfume filled the air, and it was almost enough to make him stop in his tracks. But not yet. Not until he had a piece of her for himself.

Toby started to take a little look around, going from her entrance and into the living room. It was very sweet and cozy with plush furniture and a big TV. He noticed a game station near the bottom. She did seem to have a love for three things: Video games, Cooking, and music. All of which were Toby’s favorite things too! Ever since he met you it was anyway.

He passed the living room and entered a very large kitchen. It was beautiful and updated lots of times it seems. He opened the fridge and his face lit up at the plate of brownies sitting in the fridge. He took one, stuffing it in his mouth greedily. Almost melting. He’d been watching over her, sure. He knew she loved to cook but god why didn’t anyone tell him it was so damn good! This was the best brownie he’s ever had! He quickly started to look for other dishes in the fridge. He found a leftover container and grabbed it, popping it open to see another homemade dish and a slice of pie. “Shiiit. That’s mine now.” He said grinning. He can’t take the brownies. It looked fresh and she was gonna notice a whole plate of brownies missing. That she just baked. But Toby had watched her make this dish and pie 3 days ago. She won’t notice. Surely. She’ll just gaslight herself into thinking she ate it.

On down the hall, he found a boring guest room and a very clean bathroom. She didn’t use this one. He turned around and went up the stairs, freezing when he heard one creak loudly.

‘Stupid old house’

He continued forward. Finding another hallway, he tried the door closest to the stairs first. He raised his brow when he found what seemed to be her hobby room. A piano and other various things sat in this room, he stepped inside, noting the various sheets of music and artwork on the walls and scattered across things. Her creative space. Toby picked a page off the floor, smiling at the notes written down. Something about the stars and such. He noticed a map of the planets and stars across various papers. He appreciated the peek into her head…

He left that room, closing the door and creeping down the hall. Finally. The door was barely open and soft music was playing from her tablet. He knew she had issues sleeping without music. Though he knew she didn’t like white noise. Only music…and occasionally…theta…is that how you say it? Theta waves? Focus!

He entered the room silently, barely brushing by the door, but his foot tapped it slightly and it creaked. You groaned and rolled over.

Toby’s heart stopped beating.

He let out a small breath when he saw you remain asleep though. He went to your bed and stood over you for a moment, the moonlight from your double doors that led to the balcony shone on your sleeping form. Toby’s breath caught in his throat. You were just so beautiful. He noticed you were half out of the blanket, his gaze shifted to a folded one near the foot of your bed. He unwrapped it and shook it out, draping it over you, he stepped over to a fan you had blowing and turned it up a bit. There we go. Can’t have sweet Angel losing sleep.

He started to take a look around, not too sure what he came for, but when his eyes landed on your vanity next to your dresser, he knew exactly what he wanted. The bottle of perfume sitting there in plain sight. That was it. That’s what he came for. He needed her scent—something he could take with him, something that would keep him close to her even when he wasn’t watching.

Slowly, he picked up the bottle, inhaling deeply as the scent of vanilla and strawberries washed over him. It was intoxicating. She was intoxicating.

He pocketed the perfume, a twisted sense of satisfaction filling him. This was just the beginning. He was no longer content with watching her from afar. Now, he was inside her world. Closer than anyone else. Closer than Kai.

Maybe she would notice, but Toby didn’t care. You were his so he had a sort of…right by extension to your things.

…

Speaking of things. His gaze shifted to her dresser. He carefully opened the top drawer and was delighted to see it as your panty drawer. His face went a bit pink, his eyes widening. He took his time shifting through it when suddenly he noticed his hand was red. What? He lifted it out to see he had somehow sliced it open. Fuck. He covered it with his sleep trying to get it to stop bleeding….it looked kinda bad. He would deal with it when he got home but how did this happen? He looked in the drawer and saw something shiny reflecting in the moonlight.

He reached in and carefully picked it up. A knife with a pretty handle. Awe. How cute! Knife in the pantie drawer. He loves learning new things about his angel. He supposed she kept this for self-defense, but Toby knew from experience that if he wanted to kill her, he could get to her before she got to the knife. I mean, just look at his poor Angel. He was in the room going through her things while she slept on, oblivious. Poor baby. Toby finished his little look but didn’t close the drawer without claiming a second prize. He shoved the white laced panties in his pocket along with the perfume.

He was about to leave, when he spotted her trashcan by the door, taking a glance at her he grabbed it and took it to the hallway where it would be safer to rummage through. He looked through the discarded body sprays, cosmetics, tissue wrappers, and- hey.

A scarf. Torn at the edges, frayed like it had been well-loved, then tossed aside. Toby narrowed his eyes, tilting his head slightly.

As a proxy, you get what you can get. You didn’t get new clothes or new things. They were allowed to steal from victims' wallets though. They mostly used it for food and necessities. If there was an ATM nearby and you could figure out the pin, you can take what’s in their account too. That was rare. The proxies called those kills ‘Paydays’. Nobody used cash anymore. Masky always seemed to have stacks of it, but Toby didn’t. Which is why he’s still wearing the same gear he wore when he was seventeen. He was done growing then anyway. He learned how to sew just so he could keep patching it up. Held up well. Of course, he had other clothes but he rather not risk the newer stuff.

So running across a perfectly good scarf? What a privilege. That’s when he remembered: This was (Y/n)s scarf. Not just any scarf. Slowly, he knelt, fingers trembling with excitement as they curled around the fabric. The texture was soft under his touch, and he lifted it to his face, inhaling deeply. Faint traces of her scent still clung to it. A smile spread across his lips as he pressed the scarf against his cheek. This was hers. It didn’t matter that she thought it was worthless now—he could still feel her in it.

He dug deeper into the bin, his heart racing with every crumpled receipt and broken hair tie he found. All of it mattered. Even the smallest, most insignificant item held a piece of her.

His fingers brushed against something hard at the bottom—a small, broken bracelet. A delicate charm hung from it, shaped like a star. He picked it up, examining the crack in the chain. She must have worn it often, and when it finally snapped, she tossed it without a second thought. Toby, however, saw this as fate—a sign that he was meant to have it now, to cherish it like she never could.

‘You don’t throw away something like this, Angel…’ he thought, turning the bracelet over in his hands, his mind spinning with the twisted logic that somehow, in collecting her trash, he was becoming closer to her. More intimate.

"S-she doesn't re-realize the value these things still- still have… maybe she nev-never will. But that's oh-okay—I'll take care of them for h-her.” He mumbled to himself.

Looking down at the items he realized he couldn’t take them all, so he opted for the scarf and bracelet, hoping that would be less noticeable. He thought about how sad the objects must feel. They might wanna stay with her a little longer. But it’s okay. He’s just gonna rescue them for a while. After all, he’ll love them dearly knowing who they belong to.

With that he took a last look at her, returned her can, and kissed her forehead, turning up the music on her tablet and heading out, taking care to skip the step that creaked and grabbing the leftovers off the counter before heading out the door, making sure it was locked up tight.

⦻

TW:NSFW (continue after second line)

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Morning light shone through Toby’s boarded window. The old shack, one of the proxy's outposts was pretty worn down. It was a rickety old place, that was pretty much rotting, but it was a place to sleep, the doors locked and there was power, shown from the single hanging light bulb in the tiny kitchen. Toby’s ‘room’ door was off its hinges, but it still closed and he didn’t live with anyone so who cares?

As light flooded onto the bare mattress, a thin blanket was thrown to the side as he arched slightly. The room was filled with your perfume. Toby’s cock was wrapped in your panties, him jacking off furiously…already had come twice he was going again. “Hah! Haaah- (Y/n)!”

He could practically imagine you riding him, fully undressed, tits bouncing, as you took all his cock like a good girl. Having it be such a perfect fit. “T-Toby!” You were so innocent, cheeks dark and flushed, big (e/c) eyes watering as you look at him, before rolling up. “Haaah!”

“Feel good princess?”

“Mhm!” He watched as you lost momentum, trying hard to keep going but no longer having the strength. Whispering to him. Hoping your knight could fix it for you. Which he would. Gripping your hips and helping you ride him with ease. Moaning and gasping his name all the way. “T-TOBY!” You gasp almost ready to finish. “Harder…” Toby was almost there, he heard his phone go off but he ignored it, focusing on his daydream. “AH~” You shuddered against him, releasing juices down his cock. Toby buried his nose in your scarf as he came, imagining it was your neck, inhaling the sweet perfume.

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Gradually post nut clarity came, and he rolled over to answer the phone expecting to see his job for the day, instead received a pleasant surprise. Last night he had finally worked up the courage to text you. Claiming he had been busy and asking what you were up to. You have finally replied.

Nothing much. Making my friends go to a shitty horror movie lol. I am actually around that place we met. I’m going there to read but I wanted to ask if you wanted to hang out for a bit. It’s okay if you’re busy tho, no pressure! :)

I’m not busy. I’ll be right over hold on give me a minute to get there. It’s a bit of a walk.

Yay! 😁 see you there.

Without hesitation Toby was cleaning himself up, discarding your now sticky panties onto the bed, and stumbling to the bathroom to clean himself up.

⦻

You nervously check your phone for any updates. You knew it was a walk but he was taking a bit of time. She finally heard footsteps and she perked up. “Hey! Glad you could make it!”

"Y-yeah, n-no problem," Toby replied, his voice slightly uneven, though he forced a smile. Being this close to her always made him jittery, like he was a bundle of exposed nerves. But in a way, that thrill was what kept him going.

“So what have you been up to lately, neighbor? You haven’t been rescuing other girls from falling trees have you?” She joked.

"Uh... no. Just- just some st-stuff to ta-take care of," Toby mumbled, glancing at her hands, watching how she absentmindedly fiddled with the hem of her sleeve. He wanted to reach out, to touch her, to show her that he was there, but he stopped himself. Instead, he fidgeted with the zipper on his hoodie.

“Ooo Mr. Mysterious. Okay. I see how it is. One day I’ll get it out of you. It’s good you’re not rescuing other girls. That’s our thing, yes?”

Toby smiled sheepishly. When did he get so nervous? For god's sake, he chopped people up for a living! Toby’s heart skipped a beat. He wished he could tell her everything—the watching, the protecting, how he’d gone through her trash last night just to feel closer to her. But she wasn’t ready for that yet. He had to be patient.

"M-maybe," he said with a crooked grin, trying to play it cool. "I guess I'm just... not great at sh-sharing.”

(Y/n) smirked, leaning back against the bench. "I’ll get it out of you.” It seemed more like a statement than a suggestion. Toby liked that.

Toby couldn’t help but stare at her—she was so close, so comfortable around him. It was like she didn’t realize the effect she had on him. Or maybe she didn’t care. The way she laughed, how the wind tousled her hair, how she didn’t shy away from him. She was perfect, and she didn’t even know it.

It was quiet for a minute, (Y/n) seemed content with it though, unlike Toby where every passing second felt like an eternity. Especially with him trying not to think of the way he pictures her this morning. His eyes shifted to her body. Her curves. Her lips. Thankfully her eyes were closed and she was relaxing so she couldn’t tell he was bluntly eye fucking her.

“Hey.” She said suddenly opening an eye. Toby’s eyes looked at a random tree, pretending he hadn’t been staring at her…personality. Yeah.

“Do you ever just sit here and listen? Like…for the life? The wind in the trees and such. I don’t know, I feel like as humans we are always so busy. Nobody wants to stop and smell the roses anymore. I’m sorry I’m being like- so cringe right now I know-“

“No!” Toby said suddenly cutting her off. She blinked in surprise. “S-sorry I meant…no…I do sit and listen sometimes. I agree.”

He was lying. Toby’s head was never quiet, sometimes he hated noise but even when he was alone his mind was too preoccupied to be listening to the forest speak. He didn’t care what it had to say. It had ruined everything for him when he turned 17.

The only thing he wanted to listen to was her—her voice, her breathing, every little sound she made. The woods didn’t matter to him, but if it mattered to her, then he’d pretend it did.

“It’s nice out here. Safe. The joggers stay on the path so nobody comes to sit by the bench. None of my friends know too much about it either. It’s my safe space you know? It’s peaceful. Nobody demands anything from you…I could sit and do nothing, and the trees wouldn’t even mind. They don’t care who I am, what I’ve done, what I’ve accomplished, and what I’ve failed.”

Toby nodded, his eyes glued to her face, the way her eyes shifted, the way her lips pronounced the words. “Y-yeah…it’s quiet. S-safe.”

(Y/n) smiled at that. “Exactly. Safe.”

For a second, Toby’s throat tightened. If only she knew. She was safe because he was always watching, always making sure nothing happened to her. But she didn’t need to know that—yet.

“You seem much more calm than the last time I saw you. I guess since there are no falling trees to save me from huh?”

Toby shifted in his seat, clasping his hands together and squishing them between his knees in hopes of calming his nerves. His leg bounced nervously. "Y-yeah, I guess... it's 'cause you're here. You... make things easier.”

(Y/n)’s eyes softened. “That’s sweet, Toby. I’m glad we can hang out like this.”

His heart raced. Sweet? She thought he was sweet? He wanted to tell her that she was the reason for everything. That she made his world spin. But instead, he just swallowed it all down and smiled, nodding like it was no big deal.

Why? Why did you have to flash those pretty eyes at him? Why now of all times? After he’s killed and given himself to the slender? Now you show up? He watched you ramble on about whatever you wanted. Where were you his whole life? When his father was beating him and his sister was dying. While he was setting fires and carving into the skin with Masky and Hoodie where were you? Were you having trouble too? Were you struggling? He honestly never thought about your past, or how you came to be the person you are today. What did you do? What did you have to do to become so wonderful that even the gates of heaven were probably put to shame? Maybe she was in heaven. Maybe his angel was just a slice of the pie he would never get.

(Y/n) stood up, stretching her arms above her head. "Well, I should get going. Thanks for meeting up with me."

Toby’s pulse quickened. She was leaving already? But it was okay. They had this moment, and she had chosen him. He stood up too, not wanting the moment to end.

"S-sure. Anytime. Seriously. Just... text me." He hoped he didn’t sound too eager.

She gave him a soft smile, reaching out to lightly pat his arm. "I will, don’t worry. Take care, Toby."

The brief contact sent a jolt through him, and before he could say anything more, she turned and began walking down the trail.

He stood there for a long moment, watching her disappear into the trees. His hands were clenched into fists, trying to hold onto the feeling of her touch, the sound of her voice echoing in his mind.

Just as he was about to leave he noticed something flutter from her bag. A small piece of paper, partially hidden in the grass. Toby went over to grab it.

It was crumpled and worn as if it had been folded and unfolded many times. His pulse quickened when he recognized her handwriting. A list. A simple, mundane list—grocery items, a few reminders, and a note at the bottom that read, *"Don't forget to pick up extra flour for the cookies."*

It was a small piece of her head. Just like those star maps she liked to draw. He pressed the paper to his chest, closing his eyes and letting out a breath. He smiled. She didn’t even realize how close they were together. To her, he was a stranger.

To him, she was everything.

"Th-thank you, Angel," he whispered to the space around him. "F-for trusting me with this. I'll take care of it... just like I take care of you."

He pocketed the paper, feeling a renewed sense of purpose. This wasn’t just some meaningless scrap—it was a symbol. Proof that he was part of her world, even if she didn’t realize it yet. Also, she wasn’t just a hallucination. Toby was terrified that this was a wonderful dream, like the ones he used to have with his princess (well he guessed it was you actually,) or a lovely episode. If it was just all in his head, if he finally lost it (as if he hadn’t so long ago) then he’s okay with that. As long as he gets to keep you.

Toby walked away from the bench, the paper clutched tightly in his hand. He didn’t need her to say anything more. She had already given him everything he needed.

⦻

Toby was watching you from across the table, rambling on and on about work. The cozy cafe was warmer than the outside right now. Autumn was coming. Toby liked Autumn. What he didn’t like was his birthday was coming up. He tried his best to focus on you during this time. That and his work. What wondered what the others back home would be doing? Ben was pretty upset to learn Toby wouldn’t be around for the year. Masky celebrated. At least not in front of him but he was pretty sure he was in a better mood in the the days leading up to Toby’s departure. Hoodie couldn’t seem to care either way.

You had invited him out once again. It seemed you were determined to get closer to him. Toby wasn’t about to complain. He sipped his overly sweet-beverage. It tastes fine to him. He had gotten his coffee the same way you got yours. At least now know you like a bucket full of creamer in yours. Black like my soul? Not you. The beverage was practically milk. Toby sipped it more. Having a sweet tooth himself he didn’t mind.

“Anyway, the guy is over here asking for more frosting and I’m trying to tell his sorry ass that it’s not his cake, and if he could please back away that would be great. So he proceeds to just grab the donut display and toss it to the floor. Ugh. Entitlement. I can’t stand it.”

“Wh-where do you work…again?” Toby questioned. “My parent's bakery. I know. I know. Getting a job from my parents is lame. But I’m gonna inherit it one day and the people of Ravenwood love the place. It’s like…really popular. Tourist location.”

“A-are you e-ever…dissatisfied?” He questioned. She raised a brow. “No…why would I be…dissatisfied?” “Well you mentioned you love music so I assumed that it’s something you wanted to do.”

“Oh! Well yeah, I love music, but let’s be realistic here: I’m being handed a thriving business in my lap. The bakery never goes out of style either. It’s not like frozen yogurt shops or Boba or I dunno. Everyone wants a treat now and then. It’s a guaranteed job. With this economy, I’m just grateful to have a stable job and income.”

“Have you ever wanted…more though?” Toby’s voice for once was steady.

“Oh? I mean…yeah.” She seemed a little embarrassed. “This town…it gets a little boring. I love it! I do! In a small town though, there’s only so much you can do. My friends make it pretty fun though.”

“Your f-friends?” Toby pretended to be clueless.

“Yeah…Brook, Jaga, Moon, Kai, April. I wouldn’t give them up for anything.”

Tobias didn’t like that.

“I see.”

“When you find friends like those you don’t wanna give them up for anything….everyone always seems to…leave though.” She grips her cup and shifts uncomfortably.

“L-leave?”

(Y/n) nodded. “I’m sorry I’m being…sad. Haha!”

Toby shook his head and sipped. “T-tell me more.” As Toby twitched he noticed the stares. This is why he hated being out in public.

“I dunno. I just. Whenever I make friends they tend to leave. It’s just life you know, but I just hold on. I hold on so tight and I know it’s over but I’ll still hold on to them as tight as I can. As if that would solve the rift between our growing personalities. It’s natural you know? But I can’t stand it. I know it’s over and I still cling to them like a lifeline…Sometimes I wonder why I even bother to make human connection at all. If they’re just gonna leave me in the dust. It’s not their fault though. They just… outgrow my love you know?”

Oh, Angel…

She lets out a breath. “Sorry for making it sad. What have you been up to since you moved here? Settling in okay?” (Y/n) takes a final sip of her coffee and pats her lips with a napkin, leaving faint traces of lipstick on it. She doesn’t notice the way Toby’s eyes zero in on the napkin, his breath catching slightly.

“Uh- just…unpacking.” ‘And jacking off relentlessly into your panties while I think of the wildest fantasies of what I could do to you.’

Her phone went off and she took a look, her face falling. “Shit.”

“What is it?”

“Brooks's boyfriend just broke up with her. I never really liked the guy so I might have to go beat his ass I dunno.” She laughed making it clear it was a joke. “I’m gonna get her a coffee and head out. It’s nice to just talk, you know? Maybe next time you could come over to my place instead?" She looks up at him, smiling hopefully.

His heart races. Her place. She was inviting him into her space, into her world. "S-sure. I’d like th-that." Was it a date? Was she asking him on a date? No…surely he had not progressed that quickly with her. Maybe….

As (Y/n) stands, she casually leaves the napkin on the table, not thinking twice about it."Text me when you’re free, and we’ll plan something! Maybe we can do a movie night at my place." She throws her bag over her shoulder, still smiling. "Thanks for hanging out, Toby. I’m really glad we’re becoming friends.”

"F-friends. Yeah... me too." His words barely make it past his lips, but she hears him. She waves as she heads out the door, leaving Toby alone with the napkin. As soon as she’s out of sight, Toby’s hand darts toward the napkin, his fingers trembling as they brush against the soft fabric. He lifts it slowly, staring at the faint smudge of lipstick.

Her lips were here. She left this…for me. She had to right? She was flirting right??? Leaving her lipstick stains for me, inviting me to her place.

A movie….maybe Toby could…catch her off guard. Unveil her feelings for him? Perhaps if he played his cards right he could even get her upstairs…in the bedroom. Toby was practically drooling.

⦻

Later, back in his room, Toby lies on his bed, clutching the napkin. He presses it against his lips again and again, as though each touch connects him to her in ways she could never understand.

"You don’t even know, do you, Angel? How much do I need you? How much I want you..." His voice is barely audible, swallowed by the darkness of his room.

One day Angel, it won’t be just the things I’ll take. It’ll be you.

All of you.

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BREAKING THE ICE

Guide to Supporting Individuals Affected by Crystal Methamphetamine (Ice)

Section 1: Purpose

This guide is designed to assist parents and caregivers in identifying and addressing crystal methamphetamine (ice) use or exposure among loved ones. It aims to support effective intervention while providing practical tips and strategies for users to prioritize safety.

It is not a substitute for professional drug and alcohol support services but complements them by offering practical insights from an environmental and lived-experience perspective. The illegal nature of this trade fosters a secretive and exploitative environment that aggressively targets individuals until they are left vulnerable and depleted.

The guide seeks to highlight potential risks for new users and bridge knowledge gaps, empowering caregivers to make better use of specialized professional resources.

Section 2: How to Use This Guide

This guide does not delve into the chemical, medical, or physiological aspects of crystal methamphetamine (ice) dependence or addiction. Comprehensive technical information on these topics is available at Better Health https://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/ and Direct Line https://www.directline.org.au/ which should be incorporated into your support planning and actions.

Instead, this guide focuses on providing background information on the broader experiences your loved one may face alongside ice use. It offers insights into contextual and environmental factors, as well as an overview of strategies used by drug dealers to lure, retain, and exploit new customers. These insights are drawn from personal discussions and observations of individuals involved at various points in the ice supply chain.

Assuming no prior knowledge, this guide provides foundational information and links to more detailed professional resources. It addresses the multiple and complex factors contributing to entrenched ice use. To maintain clarity, the guide is organized into chapters that individually cover specific topics.

Note: The drug world operates with few rules but carries significant consequences. Drug dealers rarely follow a code of conduct, making the environment unpredictable, often violent, and deeply distressing. Dealers exist on a spectrum: some may appear sensible yet misguided, unaware of the harm they cause; others embody malicious intent, exploiting individuals with devastating effects. Distinguishing between these extremes is often impossible until considerable damage has already occurred.

Pictured above in Figure 1 is a common and widely available brand of glass pipe used for smoking crystal methamphetamine (ice). The legality of their sale remains unclear, yet they are readily found in numerous outlets across both city and suburban areas.

Typically, an ice pipe costs between $20 and $30. However, due to the heating and cooling of glass during use, these pipes often break. They are also prone to damage from accidental drops or contamination by impure batches of ice, necessitating frequent replacement.

While there are other styles of glass pipes—some equipped with features like water filters or coloured lights, costing hundreds of dollars—these are more commonly used by dealers than users. Discovering a child in possession of an ice pipe is a strong indication of drug use, as such pipes serve no legitimate purpose. Although sometimes marketed as 'oil lanterns,' they do not function as such. https://adf.org.au/drug-facts/

The legalities surrounding glass pipe possession are also uncertain. Reports suggest that charges can be based on trace amounts of ice residue found in used pipes. Updated legal guidance on drug possession is available through Victorian Legal Aid. https://www.legalaid.vic.gov.au/

Additionally, some users resort to repairing glass pipes with industrial propane gas or welding tools. This dangerous practice is often carried out in residential spaces near highly flammable materials, including butane gas, acetone, and the drug 'G.' Such activities significantly amplify risk factors, creating an extraordinarily hazardous environment for all involved.

Suggested Actions

Approach the topic with care and curiosity. Use a ‘curious questioning’ approach to encourage the person to open-up. Avoid arguing against denial; instead, express genuine concern.

Discovering a glass pipe may be enough to conclude the person is using. Repeatedly seeking admissions can damage your relationship and escalate conflict, which is counterproductive at this stage.

Consider whether to confiscate the pipe. This is a challenging decision with no definitive answer. Confiscation might lead to unnecessary expenses as the pipe is easily replaced or push the person toward alternative methods, like injecting. Focus on preserving a supportive relationship, regardless of your choice.

Share age-appropriate educational materials on the risks and harms of ice use, using resources linked in this document.

Encourage and support a visit to a General Practitioner (GP). If a young person refuses, respect their decision but try again after 24–48 hours. Seek professional guidance from services like Direct Line for further assistance.

Allow the person, including children and young adults to attend the GP appointment alone, offering support with transport if needed. This privacy might result in more honest disclosures to the GP, which is crucial at this stage.

Hold a brief (5–10 minute) family meeting with the young person present to foster open communication. Avoid shaming or punitive language, as other family members will also have mixed emotions. It is acceptable to express disappointment, but if they cannot offer support, encourage them to remain silent. They may later become a valuable support person after taking time to cool off and reflect.

Pictured above in Figure 2 is a butane gas jet lighter, costing approximately $50. While any flame source can be used to heat crystal methamphetamine (ice), jet lighters are often preferred due to their intense heat, which burns more of the ice quickly, delivering a larger initial dose. These lighters come in various models and styles.

Jet lighters are not commonly associated with drugs other than ice. Young people using ice may be less cautious about concealing them, as they can be explained away with plausible reasons. However, if found in their possession or belongings without a credible explanation, it may strongly indicate potential drug use. Addressing this directly and respectfully is crucial, as silence can hinder open communication. Building trust is essential for the young person to feel safe discussing their situation without fear of unreasonable reprimand or relationship breakdown.

Managing initial anger and avoiding punitive responses requires thoughtful effort. Engaging with counselling or psychological support can help caregivers navigate these emotions. If professional support is unavailable, debriefing with a trusted friend or ally is recommended.

Providing printed educational materials on the risks and harms of ice use is vital. If the young person has no reasonable need for the jet lighter, confiscating and safely disposing of it is advisable. These lighters are often cheaply made, prone to malfunction, and can pose fire or explosion risks.

Section 4: Pathway to Use and Associated Factors There are various pathways to first-time ice use, including peer pressure, curiosity, gateway drugs, thrill-seeking, or coercion. However, one common pathway involves social media dating apps, where users arrange to meet for ice use during sexual encounters, often referred to as ‘PNP.’ In this context, ice is frequently called ‘GEAR.’

Social media dating apps inherently carry risks, as they involve inviting strangers into private spaces without verifying their character or honesty. These risks include sexual and physical assault, property theft or damage, reputational harm, scams, identity theft, vulnerability to organized crime, extortion, secret recordings, home invasions, false allegations, and compromised security systems. Malicious actors, sometimes operating within larger gangs, exploit these platforms extensively.

Certain groups are particularly vulnerable, such as overseas students, closeted men, elderly individuals with wealth, people with disabilities, mental health concerns, or pre-existing substance abuse disorders. These groups are often targeted repeatedly by coordinated individuals, with criminal acts frequently going unreported.

Social media dating apps also expose users to data tracking, fake profiles (‘catfishing’), and extortion. Encounters believed to be private are sometimes recorded and used for leverage. Additionally, these apps are widely used to advertise and facilitate drug sales, including ice. Icons and hashtags make sourcing drugs alarmingly easy, with first-time users often provided ice for free during sexual encounters.

This section outlines the broader risks and adverse interactions within these environments, leading to compounded dangers when combined. A dedicated section later in this guide will address intravenous ice use, which carries additional severe risks.

Section 5: Associated Risks

This section outlines the risks associated with ice use in various environments. While not exhaustive, it highlights the dangers that may not be immediately apparent, especially when intoxicated or driven by addiction without recognizing its influence.

A major risk arises from the relationships and power imbalance between users and suppliers. To mitigate these risks, avoid using drugs with your supplier and conduct transactions in cash, limiting contact to no more than 15 minutes. Paying in cash reduces traces in your bank records and prevents ongoing access to your phone number via banking details, should you decide to block your supplier.

The combination of euphoria, heightened libido, disinhibition, impaired judgment, and intoxication often leads to high-risk sexual activity. To reduce risks, consider PrEP (pre-exposure prophylaxis), a preventive measure against HIV available at MSHC.

Drug dealers face their own pressures, including debts to their suppliers and sustaining personal addiction, often leading to exploitative practices. Risks include:

Adding harmful cutting agents like fentanyl to the drug, increasing the risk of overdose.

Fraudulent sales of inert substances like salt.

Offering larger quantities or credit to encourage dependency.

Introducing other addictive drugs like GHB, ketamine, or heroin, and prescription medications such as Xanax or Valium to assist with comedowns.

Using ice with a dealer often results in exposure to additional substances, initially offered for free. The cost of ice, ranging from $250 to $600 per gram, frequently leads to disputes between users that escalate into violence or reputational damage.

Addiction often necessitates maintaining relationships with multiple dealers to ensure supply, further increasing vulnerability. Some users may foster relationships with dealers, trading errands or favours for reliable access to drugs. This dynamic can result in:

Increased addiction and tolerance, with the dealer gaining significant control over the user.

Exploitation beyond monetary exchanges, such as identity fraud or involvement in illegal activities.

Isolation from family and non-using peers, damaging critical support networks.

Vulnerability to sexual exploitation and extortion, often facilitated by incapacitating drug combinations.

Certain groups, including overseas students, closeted individuals, and those with disabilities or mental health concerns, are particularly at risk. These individuals are often targeted by malicious actors for identity theft, extortion, or other abuses. If you have concerns for someone in this situation, seek advice from Victoria Police.

Drug dealers often lead dangerous lives and require “associates” for safety. This can result in users being exploited to pay bills, obtain rental leases, or engage in identity fraud. Such actions can entangle users in criminal networks, leading to severe consequences and difficulty extracting themselves from the environment. In environments of substance abuse, paranoia, and illegal activities, conflicts frequently occur, sometimes escalating into violence or malicious acts.

Section 6: Intravenous (Injecting) Substance Use

Injecting ice is, in my opinion, the highest-risk drug-related activity. In nearly all cases, injecting once leads to ongoing use, as the resulting high diminishes the effectiveness of smoking ice.

Most individuals initially lack the knowledge to prepare a syringe and administer a dose themselves, often relying on someone else to inject the drug. This introduces additional, complex physical and mental health risks, making professional support essential.

Injecting ice is commonly referred to as “admin,” while terms like “blast” and “slam” are used on social media to describe this practice. Needles are often called “sharps,” “fits,” or “pins.”

The risks associated with injecting ice cannot be overstated. Relying on an unqualified individual to perform a medical procedure such as injecting is inherently dangerous. The person administering the drug is committing a serious offence and may exaggerate their skills, often falsely claiming to have medical training.

Whether a dose is injected correctly or incorrectly, the risks are severe. Each use is akin to Russian roulette, as the effects of the drug and its composition are unpredictable. Every batch of ice is different, and users have no way of knowing what they are injecting. Alarmingly, some individuals are used as “test subjects” to determine the drug’s potency, with addiction driving them to volunteer in exchange for free ice.

The risks outlined earlier in this guide multiply exponentially with injecting. Users often become dependent not only on the drug but also on the person administering it, granting that individual significant control. This dynamic leaves users in a state of extreme vulnerability immediately after injection.

Injecting ice frequently leads to severe drug-induced psychosis, resembling paranoid schizophrenia. While harm minimization techniques exist, the risks associated with injecting ice are so extreme that, in my opinion, they cannot be reduced to an acceptable level, to justify the brief euphoria it provides. However, such is the addiction that it becomes impossible to function, even to remain awake without using.

Section 7: Suggestions to reduce risk

Verify Identity: Before meeting, ensure the person is who they claim to be. Video calls or mutual connections can help confirm their identity.

Limit Personal Information: Avoid sharing sensitive details like your full name, address history, workplace, or financial information. Be cautious about what is visible in your home, such as documents, devices, or valuables.

Secure Valuables: Store important items like wallets, keys, electronics, and personal documents in a locked or hidden space before the meeting.

Use a Neutral Space: If possible, meet in a neutral location (consider booking a cheap Hotel) rather than your home. This reduces the risk of theft or exploitation.

Inform a Trusted Person: Let someone you trust know about the meeting, including the time, location, and details about the person. Arrange a check-in system to ensure your safety.

Control Access: Restrict access to certain areas of your home. Keep doors to bedrooms, offices, or storage spaces locked.

Monitor Devices: Be cautious about allowing access to your Wi-Fi or devices. Change passwords afterward if necessary.

Set Boundaries: Clearly communicate your expectations and boundaries for the encounter. Trust your instincts and do not hesitate to end the meeting if you feel uncomfortable.

Avoid Excessive Intoxication: Stay in control of your faculties. Excessive intoxication can impair judgment and make you more vulnerable to exploitation.

Use Safety Tools: Consider using apps or devices designed for personal safety, such as emergency alert apps or wearable panic buttons.

Be Aware of Red Flags: Watch for signs of manipulation, coercion, or dishonesty. If something feels off, prioritize your safety.

Plan an Exit Strategy: Have a plan in place to leave or ask the person to leave if necessary. Arrange for a friend or service to assist if needed.

While these steps can help mitigate risks, it’s important to recognize that no plan is foolproof. Prioritizing your safety and well-being is paramount

How to Ask Someone to Leave Respectfully

When dealing with a rude, aggressive, or malicious intruder, it is crucial to remain calm and composed. Maintain respectful yet firm communication, as heightened emotions or aggressive behaviour on your part are likely to be mirrored by the intruder, increasing the risk of escalation into violence or aggression. Keeping a steady demeanour can help de-escalate the situation and ensure greater safety.

Stay Calm and Polite: Approach the situation calmly and avoid escalating tension. Use respectful language to maintain civility.

Express Boundaries: Communicate your request directly and assertively while emphasizing your boundaries.

Provide a Reason: If necessary, offer a neutral reason for your request to avoid confrontation.

Offer Assistance: Suggest practical solutions, such as calling a cab or arranging transport, to ease their departure.

Have Backup Support: If the individual resists, consider involving a trusted friend or neighbour to provide additional support.

Stand Firm: If resistance persists, remain firm but composed, reiterating your request without wavering.

Create a Safe Exit Strategy: If you feel unsafe, excuse yourself to a separate room and contact a support service or friend for assistance.

Involve Authorities if Necessary: If the situation escalates and your safety is at risk, do not hesitate to contact local authorities.

Taking proactive measures and maintaining composure in these situations can significantly mitigate risks.

Strategies to Avoid Adverse Outcomes

Monitor Your Guest: Upon entry, ensure your guest places all their belongings neatly in a designated area (e.g., a box). This minimizes the risk of them claiming they "can't find" an item to delay leaving or using the opportunity to search your home under the pretence of looking for something.

Set Clear Limits: When arranging a meeting, clearly communicate your expectations and specify the time you have available (e.g., 3–4 hours). This provides a pre-established reason to conclude the visit without unnecessary complications.

Be Aware of Delivery Methods: Be cautious of individuals who may inadvertently or deliberately administer substances (e.g., liquid G) in ways that could cause extreme intoxication, such as during intimate encounters. This could render you unconscious for an extended period.

Maintain Privacy and Confidentiality: Avoid discussing other individuals you have met for casual encounters. Social media platforms and blogs (e.g., Telegram) are often used for gossip, and your words may be repeated or taken out of context.

Decline Pre-Prepared Drugs: Never accept pre-prepared substances intended for intravenous use (e.g., a "prepared blast"). You cannot verify the contents or dosage, making this a significant safety risk.

Use Sealed Containers: Opt for bottled or canned drinks that you can open yourself to ensure they have not been tampered with.

Consider Security Measures: Installing visible CCTV cameras and informing guests of the areas under surveillance can deter theft. Avoid placing cameras in private areas where intimate encounters may occur unless explicitly discussed and consented to.

Protect Your Drink: Use drink protectors, such as caps or covers, to prevent tampering.

Stay Vigilant: Be alert to unusual tastes, smells, or appearances in your drinks, as these may indicate tampering.

Have a Trusted Companion: In social settings, stay close to a trusted friend who can help monitor your safety.

Final Note Professional support for addiction is not only available but has proven to be highly effective. Recovery is possible, and many people have successfully overcome addiction to lead healthier, more fulfilling lives. Seeking help is a courageous step, and there are compassionate experts and resources ready to guide and support individuals on this journey.

It is important to remember that change is achievable with the right support and commitment. Building a strong network of professional assistance, trusted relationships, and self-care strategies can create a foundation for recovery and resilience. Progress may take time, but every step forward is a victory worth celebrating.

You are not alone, and there is hope. People can and do recover, finding strength in themselves and in the encouragement of others. With the right tools and determination, brighter days are ahead.

Source: BREAKING THE ICE

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