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You know it's not lost on me that being in my 30s - everything I've done so far has been alone. I wrote this as I go to yet another movie. Alone. I don't mind of course. I hiked today. It was a beautiful warm fall day. With peak fall colors. I was alone. Sometimes I discover a beautiful new song, but I have no one to marvel at it and obsess over it with me. Because I chose this back when I decided that I wanted to go at life solo and rebuked any romantic relations (with men).
I've travelled alone. I've watched all my fav TV shows alone. I've gone through my daily affairs with no one to share it with..
I don't have any emotion attached to this. It's just stating fact.
I don't feel particularly lonely. But it is a long time to spend without a companion especially when most people have someone of significance in their life by this point. The average North American has two decades of relationships by this age. Many of my friends got married young. And at that point I certainly did not care, because I didn't care for marriage at that time. But now even my siblings are either married or I know will certainly have their own life. And your own life starts to feel a little empty..
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sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour
#bpd blog#bpd fp#bpd mood#bpd problems#bpd shit#bpd stuff#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#actually bpd#bpd#borderline pd#borderline things#borderline problems#living with borderline#borderline blog#borderline thoughts#being borderline#borderline culture is#actually borderline#borderline personality disorder#bpd feels#bpd safe#bpd culture is
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Vulcan teen on Vulcan [tiktok] saying "I have just lost track of my father in the grocery store." The camera turns to show the viewers the grocery store in which almost every single older middle-aged man has a bowlcut and long robes. Camera turns back to show the teen's face which is expressionless and yet communicates all it needs to.
#vulcans#I don't think all Vulcans dress the same and headcanon that there's a buunch of different styles on Vulcan#BUT I DO think that older middle aged men flock together regardless of species#and that it's funny that Vulcan has like The Vulcan Hair[tm] - why'd they do that to themselves HEHEHE you're lucky your dad's telepathic#I really wanna see fashion subcultures for other plaaaanets in star trek#I wanna see Klingon Goth#I wanna see fashion styles specific to that species because of that species' culture#like how we have niche niche fashion trends#the other day I thought about it being Vulcan counterculture to do your makeup as if you've been crying#popular with teens but adults do NOT like it
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good thing from jp twitter this week is queen of old man yaoi michiru sonoo discovering the term old man yaoi
update: somehow it got impossibly more wholesome
quick translation: おかえり: welcome home あ 終わった 終わった: ahhh, it's over! it's done! コーヒー? お茶?: coffee? tea? コ~ヒ~ ありがと: coffee, thank you~ ネクタイレア★★ ネクタイ取るレア★★★★: seeing him with a tie on, rarity level ★★, seeing him take a tie off, rarity level ★★★★ にあうな~: it suits him~
also please do follow: AraigumaSha: sensei's twitter account marureviere: maru, who does such valuable work highlighting bl manga for an international audience
#'this is my old man yaoi masterpiece' <3333#soooooo cute she is SO excited and pleased about it and so giddily interacting with international fans about it#and marvelling to japanese fans like: did you guys know about this??? old man yaoi \o\ \o/#psttt michiru-sensei you want to do a severance doujinshi soooo bad. please.#meanwhile foul thing from jp twitter this week is the man boasting about how he made deepfake p*rn of his girlfriend's best friend#because he couldn't stop thinking about her#and also he thought he was being such a Good Boyfriend he actually told his girlfriend about it#and he was furious she was furious#he was like women........ i'm doing this for the good of our relationship but women never understand our (men's) sacrifices#you know all those doombait articles about how japan is going to go extinct#maybe that should happen.#anyway. let old man yaoi heal you until then.#michiru sonoo#manga#yaoi#twitter#old man yaoi#queer#gay#long post#lgbt#japan#japanese
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Finally now that the comic is fully public on comicfury, I get to share it with all of you here, too <3
If you enjoyed, please consider supporting by buying a PDF of the comic on itch.io: https://tawnysoup.itch.io/home-in-the-woods
#I'd rather not clutter the caption so I'll ramble a little in the tags#HitW is short but special to me as it represents and encapsulates some hard life experiences I was going through at the time of its creatio#Ofc in a more metaphorical manner! but. I have been very much enjoying reading people's comments and speculation as its been posting#the interpretations are so meaningful and varied and i love that and really want to encourage anyone to reflect on what it means to them#for me making this comic was a way to process and move past trauma. i feel like it ends anti-climactically but i wanted to be true to#where i thought things were actually going in my life moreso than to veer towards impact. ultimately im glad i managed to finish it#and for it to finish going public right before the new year? maybe i can see this as shedding that old pain in time to become something new#so thank you for reading for supporting and for still being here. lets wake up to 2025 with wind in our sails#Home in the Woods#my art#my comics#original comic#cw guns#cw blood#cw body horror
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#It's about seeing that just because im queer does not mean i have to died like a dog on the streets#just the thought of queer people being allowed to exist long enough to grow old makes me wanna cry#gonna put my ships on blast do not judge me#kakairu#Innefable husbands#mchanzo#erasermic#wrightworth#superbat#aladarius#queer#lgbt
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Oh brother
#2024 and ppl are still clutching pearls at the thought of ppl pirating media#rambling#being anti piracy in the day and age where entire tv shows can be deleted at the drop of a hat never to be seen again… okay#weak as hell
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the steven universe hate is insane bc people are (or at least were) more upset that fictional war criminals got fictional hugs than they recognize that it singlehandedly advanced queer rep in children's media by lightyears and then straight up ate heavy retaliation for the nerve.
It does have real flaws that are worth discussing, but it also put their male protagonist in dresses and skirts and played it straight and even empowering, they aired a lesbian wedding on television, it was a genuinely queer, genuinely diverse piece of media through and through. It did a lot of real good for the real world.
But also the fictional characters caused fictional harm to other fictional characters, and didn't get an onscreen firing squad sentence. So, you know, it's basically ontologically evil in real life.
#i'll never shut up about how the last season ate a 20 episode cut because it was either that or cut the wedding#and the crewniverse stuck to their guns#of course it was rushed. They were literally punished for being queer#This is why we keep saying “you couldn't even handle steven universe” because not only was it actually good#but it did REAL WORLD good and FOUGHT for real world human rights#but because the fiction wasn't hayes code enough y'all lit the crewniverse on fire for it.#Abysmal priorities. Pathetic.#problemnyatic thoughts#steven universe
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FUCK
#game changer#game changer season 6#game changer spoilers#sam says#sam reich#lou wilson#jacob wysocki#vic michaelis#this is the worst thing I've ever seen actually#i almost cried#the sheer joy of Henry and the thought of not being allowed to see him#also sorry for the terrible quality of the video 😭#pretty sure it's lagging badly but that's all i got 🥲
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a face you'd find on the side of a milk carton
#dungeon meshi#dunmesh#kabru#mithrun#kabumisu#my art#put a lot of unnecessary thought into how unconnected to portray him & how meta vs literal to make the other entries.#all of the notes mean something <3 its not that deep but it is meant to hold up to being pored over
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i didn't have "i'm broken" teenage asexual angst i had "i'm literally being the only reasonable one about this concept and the rest of you are behaving like fucking freaks" perception issues
#oh the experience of being 13 years old and seeing all my friends talking about wanting to have sex and obsessing over it#and being like 'we are all literally WAY too young to be having sex what the actual fuck are you talking about#why are you even considering it when we have much more important things to worry about. like how much middle school sucks'#you know what though. i still stand by this. that was an entirely reasonable thought to have and i WAS being normal about it#anyway#mine#asexuality
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i don't think that as social beings we were suppose to be organized in a way where the romantic relationship is the source of all your emotional and intellectual needs. But the way we are organized today, the romantic relationship is forced to be the main source of intellectual and emotional fulfillment. Other social relations seem to weaken with time and life, when they should not. And would not if our society was organized with human beings, not capital, in mind.
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sorry i overreacted i had no idea everything would be fine
#bpd blog#bpd fp#bpd mood#bpd problems#bpd shit#bpd stuff#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#actually bpd#bpd#bpd feels#bpd culture is#bpd safe#living with borderline#being borderline#borderline culture is#actually borderline#borderline things#borderline problems#borderline blog#borderline pd#borderline thoughts#borderline personality disorder#overreacting#anxitey#anxi4ty
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theyre literally already married
#ody did not bag penelope by being charming and witty i know it#oh if any of you have thoughts abt my penelope lmk! im still working on her#19k#my artwork#the odyssey#odysseus#penelope#odypen#tagamemnon#greek mythology
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Some lovely people have tried to inform me that real hedgies can have clicky purrs and I am very much aware of that. I just think Shadow is built different.
Like, louder.
#amki draws#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#silver the hedgehog#amy rose#// i actually imagine his purr to be a lot more metallic-sounding than a hedgehog's clicky purr#// on top of being way louder#// geiger counters aren't actually that loud but i can see the rhythm of his clicking to be a lot like one#// my bad i thought about fictional hedgehogs' purrs and got rambling
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