#thoughts about liam

[savebylou]

This is me since the news, I don't think I will find it in while. I miss you so much Liam, you deserved a long and happy life, I'm so sorry you felt so alone, you didn't deserved any of this.

[lostinneverland2296]

Not good. Really not good. How do I keep going when one of the people who made me strong is gone? It's been so hard without him. When I struggle mentally I turn to 1D for comfort, and I'm struggling mentally so much right now. I was like this before he passed but now it's just worse because the comfort I once got from him is just filled with grief. I'm struggling to keep my head above water at this point.

Now that it’s been a month officially since Liam passed, how is everyone doing?

[tallykale]

[buckycap]

i think we all moved on from orym being dorian's first love too quickly and how bc dorian has been so sheltered his entire life he didn't even know what lust or love felt like until he met orym and how him not knowing those feelings was one of the reasons dorian was so hesitant to express them. i think a lot of people, me included, were really wondering why he was so hesitant to express his feelings towards orym and thinking that it was simply about it not being the right time or wanting to give orym space to mourn his husband and while i'm sure that all played a factor in it, i don't think anyone really thought that part of why it took so long was bc dorian was falling in love for the first time and was overwhelmed and unfamiliar with what he was feeling

[generichoneydew]

nuclear winters over guys. I'm only accepting nuclear spring. Bite me.

34/52

[sunshineofyourlovee]

"Harry and Louis were not next to each other because they hate each other", "Harry is in touch only with Niall", "Harry and Louis are not together anymore because we didn't have photos", "Harry hates the boys and this is why he was far away from them at the funeral".

Guys, a 31 years old boy is dead. I repeat, a 31 years old boy is dead. “Fate” wanted that this boy was in the most loved and famous band of the last twenty years and this is why today every reflector was on Harry, Louis, Niall and Zayn unfortunately. What should they have done? Should they have given us a show? Should they have done a kind of fan service? Should they have brought to life your fantasizes? Should they have acted like they were in a fucking fan-fiction? Guys, you don't understand. Liam is dead. A 31 years old boy is dead tragically and violently. And this funeral, THIS DAY, was about HIM. To celebrate his life, to remember him, to say goodbye to him, to try to find a kind of closure (as if it was possible). To me the boys acted in the most respectful way because they did nothing to seek attention. They were in the background and I think that they were commited to stay as lowkey as possible. I can't imagine how they felt, how it was to know that a bunch of paps were taking photos of their pain because they knew that every reflector would have been on them. But they tried to be invisible and gave paps the minimum and this was on purpose. I repeat, this day wasn't about One Direction. This day wasn't about Harry, Louis, Zayn and Niall and their relationship. This day wasn't a reunion. This day was for Liam and his family. And every theory and every comment can go and fuck themselves. People don't have respect.

[sophsicle]

there is something a bit horrific about living in a world determined by algorithms. because, for all our fears about the advancements of technology, it is still fundamentally crude. it lacks empathy and tact. unable to tell the difference between trends and tragedy. so that when something happens. like a death. all it knows is that people are looking. and it doesn't care why. it doesn't care how. it just doesn't want them to stop. so it drags up every photo and every video, piecing together some Frankenstein phantom. of a person who can't take things down. can't block things from view. can't die in peace. because the algorithm sees you looking. because no one ever taught it that digging up bodies is bad manners.

[bittersweet-nothingss]

Thinking about the fact that in the last ep of TW when Monroe was defeated, all the canon couples were seen together.

We saw every single one:

-Morey in the hospital

-Stydia and Scalia in the library

-even Jackson and Ethan in the locker room.

So it’s interesting to me that the directors and writers really decided to show Theo and Liam together too, when they could’ve easily shown Liam by himself talking into the radio.

Why show Theo standing behind him?

It’s just more proof that they were meant to a canon couple idc what anyone says.

[lesbiradshaw]

Something around here is triggering you.

[youmakemestrong]

i hate continuously reverting back to denial but dear fucking god i just CAN'T believe it

such an important part of my life for over 12 years and he's just gone

i was here for him when he was 17 and loved green beans and i was here for him when he was 31 and trying to get his life together and i have always loved him all the same

i'm going to be plagued by the what ifs of the rest of his life for the rest of mine

[luckthebard]

I should know better than to go on CR twitter but I just read someone in all seriousness complain about Orym “pulling the dead family card” without any seeming awareness of how callous of a thought that is

And I just desperately want some of these people to take a giant step back and try to exercise some curiosity about different explorations of life experiences and emotional truths instead of resorting to downplaying or dismissing ideas that are difficult or uncomfortable.

[savebylou]

I know it's hard for us but I can't stop thinking about the guys since yesterday because someone met Niall in London and took a photo with him, he just looks so tired and his eyes, I mean you could tell he wasn't happy. Then Zayn's sister posted something about the 1 month anniversary being hard on her brother and it's just....I wish I could offer all 4 of them some comfort like they did for me in my life.

Hi anon! Sorry for the late response. Oh I didn't know a fan took a picture with Niall, I do think that if Niall doesn't want to take a picture he will say no or at least that is my hope. But yeah I imagine this month has been so hard for them, if it was hard for me I can't imagine even a fraction of what they felt.

Yeah I saw the post of Zayn's sister. It breaks my heart that even his sister has to share a post asking for compassion because some people don't have it.

I wish the same anon, every day. We can only send them love and give them their space and time that they need.

I hope you have a lovely day/afternoon/night. Sending you a hug.

[screechingfromthevoid]

Orym is giving very "I have fallen in love again and that feels like a betrayal to my dead husband" energy.

He's also giving "I care so much about my friends and I have to protect them but the love I have for one is so strong that it's distracting me AND it's not fair to the others"

Like there is so much love contained in the Orym and also so much guilt.

[worryfornaught]

Thinking about how when Liam asked if Nott’s crush on Caleb was something Sam came up with pre-campaign, Sam responded “No, when I stared into your eyes during some of the scenes we had together, it was sort of a natural thing” like that isn’t some of the most romantic shit I’ve ever heard. ‘When I looked into your eyes I knew she was in love.’ Like fuck dude. It wasn’t part of the plan, but it happened anyways. How could it not? Falling in love with Caleb was simple, it was obvious, it was the most natural thing in the world.

[eminentzayn]

jaw on the floor, heart shattered into a million pieces.

[itsallaboutzayn]

It's been one week... And I still didn't wrap my head around it. Still feels surreal. Still hurts like hell everytime I remember him.

I haven't been able to put my thoughts or feelings into words and, right now trying to write this post, I still can't. I guess all I can put into words is that I do hope he's at peace now. He deserves it.