#thoughts about liam

[savebylou]

This is me since the news, I don't think I will find it in while. I miss you so much Liam, you deserved a long and happy life, I'm so sorry you felt so alone, you didn't deserved any of this.

[tallykale]

[buckycap]

i think we all moved on from orym being dorian's first love too quickly and how bc dorian has been so sheltered his entire life he didn't even know what lust or love felt like until he met orym and how him not knowing those feelings was one of the reasons dorian was so hesitant to express them. i think a lot of people, me included, were really wondering why he was so hesitant to express his feelings towards orym and thinking that it was simply about it not being the right time or wanting to give orym space to mourn his husband and while i'm sure that all played a factor in it, i don't think anyone really thought that part of why it took so long was bc dorian was falling in love for the first time and was overwhelmed and unfamiliar with what he was feeling

[generichoneydew]

nuclear winters over guys. I'm only accepting nuclear spring. Bite me.

34/52

[sophsicle]

there is something a bit horrific about living in a world determined by algorithms. because, for all our fears about the advancements of technology, it is still fundamentally crude. it lacks empathy and tact. unable to tell the difference between trends and tragedy. so that when something happens. like a death. all it knows is that people are looking. and it doesn't care why. it doesn't care how. it just doesn't want them to stop. so it drags up every photo and every video, piecing together some Frankenstein phantom. of a person who can't take things down. can't block things from view. can't die in peace. because the algorithm sees you looking. because no one ever taught it that digging up bodies is bad manners.

[bittersweet-nothingss]

Thinking about the fact that in the last ep of TW when Monroe was defeated, all the canon couples were seen together.

We saw every single one:

-Morey in the hospital

-Stydia and Scalia in the library

-even Jackson and Ethan in the locker room.

So it’s interesting to me that the directors and writers really decided to show Theo and Liam together too, when they could’ve easily shown Liam by himself talking into the radio.

Why show Theo standing behind him?

It’s just more proof that they were meant to a canon couple idc what anyone says.

[youmakemestrong]

i hate continuously reverting back to denial but dear fucking god i just CAN'T believe it

such an important part of my life for over 12 years and he's just gone

i was here for him when he was 17 and loved green beans and i was here for him when he was 31 and trying to get his life together and i have always loved him all the same

i'm going to be plagued by the what ifs of the rest of his life for the rest of mine

[luckthebard]

I should know better than to go on CR twitter but I just read someone in all seriousness complain about Orym “pulling the dead family card” without any seeming awareness of how callous of a thought that is

And I just desperately want some of these people to take a giant step back and try to exercise some curiosity about different explorations of life experiences and emotional truths instead of resorting to downplaying or dismissing ideas that are difficult or uncomfortable.

[lesbiradshaw]

Something around here is triggering you.

[screechingfromthevoid]

Orym is giving very "I have fallen in love again and that feels like a betrayal to my dead husband" energy.

He's also giving "I care so much about my friends and I have to protect them but the love I have for one is so strong that it's distracting me AND it's not fair to the others"

Like there is so much love contained in the Orym and also so much guilt.

[worryfornaught]

Thinking about how when Liam asked if Nott’s crush on Caleb was something Sam came up with pre-campaign, Sam responded “No, when I stared into your eyes during some of the scenes we had together, it was sort of a natural thing” like that isn’t some of the most romantic shit I’ve ever heard. ‘When I looked into your eyes I knew she was in love.’ Like fuck dude. It wasn’t part of the plan, but it happened anyways. How could it not? Falling in love with Caleb was simple, it was obvious, it was the most natural thing in the world.

[savebylou]

There is this moment when I wake up that for a second I forget that Liam is gone, in this instant he is still alive. Then i check tumblr and I remember that this nightmare is our reality. What I would give for us to wake up for this nightmare and be in a reality where he was still with us.

[itsallaboutzayn]

It's been one week... And I still didn't wrap my head around it. Still feels surreal. Still hurts like hell everytime I remember him.

I haven't been able to put my thoughts or feelings into words and, right now trying to write this post, I still can't. I guess all I can put into words is that I do hope he's at peace now. He deserves it.

[towards-toramunda]

Hey do you ever think about Orym being a self proclaimed romantic who is “super lonely all the time, especially at night” and how guilty he feels about wanting romantic connection because he still loves his husband, and sees Will’s face every night before going to bed, but he’s starting to realize his deeper attraction to Ashton as something real and realize his pining for Dorian as something he shouldn’t ignore, but he was supposed to be with Will and he’s come to terms with Will dying, but sometimes it hurts so much, and yes he wants romantic connection and he’s so lonely, but he still hasn’t gotten revenge for Will’s death, and he may die soon so why pursue anything if he’s gonna be with Will again in the afterlife, BUT he may die soon and why hold off on admitting how he feels when he knows that despite losing Will the time they had was real good and he wouldn’t trade it for anything, and what if he doesn’t die what if it all turns out okay and maybe he now really has a reason to want and hope for not just *the* future, but HIS future because that future could include Dorian or Ashton and is it bad to not want to be with Will sooner or is it better to want to live and be with someone who cares for him because thats what Will would want and he wants romantic connection and he is so lonely all the time, especially at night, and what if I started chewing the drywall huh?

[stanleyoff7th]

my official statement on today's news

[bittersweet-nothingss]

Just thinking about the fact that on the ride back from the zoo, Theo told Liam “You get angry when your afraid.”

And we witnessed Liam continually being angry while he was with Theo (very rarely when he wasn't), so couldn't the explanation for Liam's behavior be fear of his feelings for Theo, as well as maybe rejection?

Or the fact that he developed feelings for THEE Theo Raeken? Big bad Chimera of Death and all, and it scared him, so whenever he was in Theo’s presence, he didn’t know what to do but get angry. 

Does that make sense? 😭😭