#thought organizing

[risetherivermoon]

ppl dont talk about the fact that even Daisuke's characterization is affected by Jimmy's unreliable perspective. He refers to Daisuke as a spoiled rich kid who has his mommy and daddy behind him, that he's impressionable and stupid, and i do see people kinda characterizing him like that

like he has these rich parents who will dote on him and give him everything, that he's an airhead who isn't good at anything...

yet in curly's perspective we see that he's good at board games, he's trying his best, he's trying to listen to swansea and learn from him. He did get the internship from his parents but not because he wanted to, but because his parents thought he wasn't going anywhere in life, that he needed to be doing something. Daisuke is silly and a positive person but that's just for show, we see in the scene where Jimmy finds him lying on the floor drunk on mouthwash, that Daisuke isn't doing well, he's scared and feels sad about his parents. He makes jokes to cope with the horrible tension on the ship.

people characterize him as a stupid little kid too much for my liking, that's how Jimmy sees him. As a spoiled brat who came on the ship just to be an inconvenience. Even Swansea didn't see him like that, sure he complained about him but in Daisuke's final moments we see Swansea's true colors and how much he actually cares for him. He's an adult, who's putting on this happy go-lucky persona because he truly wants to succeed in life, and he's doing the internship for his mom and dad even though he doesn't want to. So he makes friends, he tries his best, he wants to be on the good side of everyone on the ship.

Jimmy just saw him as an easy target, someone too trusting and easily manipulated. A stupid kid he can use to get what he wants. He even plays with Daisuke's feelings of needing validation from Swansea, someone he looks up to. He tells Daisuke that by going in the vent, he'd make Swansea proud.

Daisuke isn't someone who has it easy or someone who's a stupid airhead. Jimmy just saw kindness and positivity as weakness.

[eternallynamelessvoid]

Eeeee - Rambling about (maybe) being a system

Long post

Okay. I’m here to organize thoughts lol.

So, I MIGHT have OSDD-a. My logic for this is that it would explain the random as hell chatter, the mood shifts (and wanting to go by a different name sometimes) and never feeling ‘fully’ myself.

Reasons I MIGHT have OSDD-1a (or have a UDD)

1) the mood-changing shit, somebody says something and suddenly my mood is way, way different. (Ex; my friend started venting and I went from content to very apathetic. This is a regular occurrence, however it could be a mood disorder but I’d have to research that first)

2) voices in my head, although relatively rare, are very very weird. (SB makes funny dirty-jokes and is a flirt, and RBN is murderous and typically talks about violence.)

3) I have amnesia, but it’s incredibly random, and is more like dissociative amnesia (where I zone-out, then I dissociate, and then 5 hours have passed when I snap back. 90% of this is in school, where I’m on auto—pilot.)

4) Body dysmorphia. It’s not always there, but sometimes looking in a mirror feels like a stab to the heart.

5) The edge between daydreams and reality is very blurred. While this wouldn’t make me an OSDD system, it could (potentially) be me being a schizo-system. It’s akin to psychosis, and typically the rule is ‘believe half of what you see, and none of what you hear.’ That quote. Aka I don’t trust my sight, hearing or smell and rely on touch.

6) Trauma. Although not enough to garner being a system, but ‘trauma is your reaction, not the event’ and that whole thing. (Which I’m trying to wrap my head around. I thought I was overly paranoid about males.)

7) I’m writing this (this isn’t an actual reason, just putting humor so I don’t fucking implode)

My argument against NOT having OSDD-1a is :

1) if I was a system, I probably would’ve noticed earlier instead of when I first started learning about them.

2) I’m very prone to thinking I have a mental disorder I do not because my brain is set on ‘being the most special’. (Aka, sometimes if I can’t fight it I self dx with no research so I can become special. Why? No fucking clue and if anybody knows how to fix it, thank you.)

3) I could be hallucinating, I do that because i feel lonely lots. (I am not an endo system. If anything this would make me a schizo-system. I got research that more actually-(I’m not strictly anti-endo, but a lot of them are in thin ice))

4) it’s so incredibly rare as a trauma response, it’s very unlikely I do not have it

5) Although I was traumatized, I highly doubt it was not that severe. (Although I cannot remember anything from the years 1-12, but this could be amnesia, memory blocking and other crap)

6) literally no. It’s so unlikely. So so unlikely.

7) I think SOMEBODY would notice, even if it was a minor thing.

[bunnieswithknives]

As much as I love angst I think it would be funny if he just didnt give af

[gerrykeay]

im not putting this post into words. beams into your mind The Parallels

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[devsgames]

Me: "hey game developers, especially AAA ones, are getting laid off en-mass and it's awful for our industry" Gamer: "well I only play INDIE games and the problem with AAA games is they are creatively bankrupt"

Me, slamming my fists on the table like a baby: "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT THIS IS ABOUT A BUSINESS PROBLEM PERPETUATED BY CAPITALISM NOT A STATEMENT ON CREATIVE DECISION MAKING"

[sakiroll]

mouthwash for rotten teeth

[qcomicsy]

I think a thing that people get wrong about Jason's anger is that it's not explosive.

It's cold. Jason isn't the type of person who storms off at every little thing or goes throwing tantrums and setting things on fire blindfully.

He's the type of person who's very practical. He keeps to himself, always. You rarely see issues where Jason's anger is reactive at the moment where the trigger happens to him. If you see his character up close, most of the time when he's triggered his reaction is calm. Even cold.

He gets triggered -> He keeps to himself → He makes a plan → And then he reacts.

Jason's anger being something explosive and out of character and out of place is actually how other people (characters) see it, because they have no idea on how it's playing out on Jason's head.

And that's a thing you can see operating since he was a child.

Where the only exceptions about this effect is either when someone he believes needs his help is involved.

See Nightwing Annual (2021)

But In Batman #411 when Jason learns the fact that Two-Face was responsible for his father's death and Bruce was keeping that from him as a secret his first reaction isn't to blow up on him.

Was to seethe.

Bruce goes up home after dealing with a Two-Face case (in my field we call that poetic irony) and asks Alfred where Jason is, Alfred's answer is that he's been sleeping all day (which is a conclusion that Alfred drew probably after going to check on Jason and seeing him in fact on his bed all day).

But when you see the next panel, even though he is on the bed, He's fully awake and both his expression and his body language shows that he's in fact angry.

This is the first time he appears again in the comics after learning that Two Face killed his dad.

Jason doesn't go towards Bruce immediately to demand an explanation or ask why he did this, or even to throw the truth on his face.

(Which could be debatable that that's something the Dick would usually do, but I'm not that literate on Dick's comics)

His reaction wasn't immediate.

His reaction was to go to his bed and stay quiet. Jason stayed calm and collected the whole trip until meeting Two Face again.

But the moment Jason as Robin has the opportunity to get his hands on Two-Face he does this

From Bruce, and maybe Alfred's perspective it could be interpreted as out of place or him storming off.

But it isn't. Jason was able to keep his cool (even though he shut off), until he was face a face to Two Face.

Does that mean he planned that to happen?

That's debatable, in any moment of this issue it is shown that Jason was actually planning to get to Two Face and do this. I my personal opinion, other and much more plausible explanation is: That he was in fact trying to keep to himself but couldn't hold back the moment that he saw his dad's murder.

You can see the same thing happening as Jason learns that Batman got another Robin in Red Hood: Lost Days.

Talia asks "You all right?" and Jason's first answer is "Sure Why Wouldn't I Be Alright?"

When he's alone he finally has the moment to break down.

(Actually both Red Hood: The lost days and Batman: Under the Red Hood are great case studies on how that usually play out on Jason's head.)

Jason is way more in control of his emotions than people ever give him credit for. The thing is that Jason holds it back until he either blows off or is capable to throw it back in someone's face.

[a-scary-lack-of-common-sense]

Lore Drop!

Thank you both so much for your submissions! I can't tell you much about Stanley all that much yet (I'm still deliberating over some details that I want to iron out before revealing!!) but I sure can tell you more about the Bill & Ford situation :] especially about Bill's death.

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Bill's death was a bit of a... fickle situation. Simply put, Bill didn't really die, but also kinda did! Let me explain:

After Bill "died", he was sent to the "In-Between".

The "In-Between" is basically a void of space sandwiched between the planes of reality/life/existence and "The After" (AKA. death and nothingness!) It can essentially be considered the digestive track of the multiverse, breaking down everything and everyone that's kicked the bucket so that they can be ready to be transferred over to "The After".

It, in a sense, "digests" everything physical about a (formerly) living creature. It decomposes it piece by piece, atom by atom; each particle paintakingly "digested" into fine stardust. The process supposedly takes a very long time, but that's okay, because Time doesn't exist in the "In-Between", since it ate it. Hunger is greedy, after all, and the "In-Between" is very hungry.

Bill, however, didn't belong there. His death was an odd case: dead within the mind of Ford, and yet still technically alive in every other sense. It didn't help that Bill wasn't as simple as a human mortal, and death was much more of a gamble for more complex beings like him. He was a paradox; an error! Usually, when the dead don't accept their death, they remain amongst the plane of existence until they come to accept it, instead of being processed through the "In-Between".

However, in Bill's case, it was the universe itself that rejected his death. So, he was tossed to the "In-Between" as a anomaly, still technically conscious and awake.

Anyways, fun stuff!! Hope you liked the lore dump :D

[breezemoonriver]

My contribution to the fandom 👍

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

got a worm nibbling my brain. can someone help me find a piece of obscure media?

webcomic/indie comic from the 2010s. basically a sci-fi short story about a young girl (with red hair?) who was being raised by scientists as part of an experiment. she receives a haircut/has her head shaved, in preparation for her annual brain scan/testing. it is revealed that while her body is human, her "brain" is artificial, made of computer implants throughout her skull and spine. at some point her biological mother (also a scientist on the same campus?) encounters her and is repulsed, viewing her as a machine who has murdered her daughter.

it was very poignant and it bruised my heart and i can NOT find it anywhere

[radiantbrilliance]

"i'll never be her."

mc remembers all her past (and future) lives.

she was angry at first. why did no one tell her?

now, she's just sad.

rafayel, xavier, and sylus aren't truly in love with her - rather, they love a version of her that doesn't exist.

zayne... well. he seems like the only person who loves her for who she truly is. but now she knows how all of his lives end in tragedy, and it's always her fault.

so, she pushes them away. she disappears, leaving a note for each of them. "i'll never be able to truly make you happy. i'll never be her."

[altruistic-meme]

i know it's been said a million times by now but Neil making the FBI agents give him a to-go container before going with them to the headquarters and then pulling it out MID INTERROGATION to continue eating is so fucking unhinged. i love him so fucking much. i fully believe that was a completely intentional power move on Neil's part i doubt he was even that hungry he just wanted to be a little bitch.

[mademaciyapi]

Happy Native American Heritage Month

admittedly, when 'Indigenous People's Day' or 'Native American Heritage Month' come around, i can't help but feel a little angry. millions of my people suffered and died at the hands of this country - and they think one month of remembrance is enough to make up for it?

but as i've gotten older, i've started to feel more appreciative of the fact that i am even here to celebrate these holidays at all. because the truth is, i'm the survivor of a genocide. i think that i should try to celebrate the fact that i am alive today, rather than only being angry about moments in history that i can't change. not everyone is as lucky as me - especially right now, on the other side of the world where such horrendous things are happening all over again to someone else..

but i can't exactly stop the anger completely (especially with current events in mind) so maybe meeting halfway would be acceptable.

I lived, bitch!! they tried to kill us, but i'm still here! and that's worth celebrating.

[jeeaark]

The End

Never had my max level 12 ass been more humbled than trying to complete that Nightmare of a Haunted House Quest during the Patch 0 days. Back when those friggin' cursed skulls were indestructible and hurt.

Every other Act 3 quest: Full-on Limitless Confidence, No strategy?Not fully rested? No worries, we're practically gods.

This Artist quest????: Put the fear of TPK back into me. What a wild Quest. I loved it. Shame they nerfed it. Truly the Ultimate DND experience.

Was the last quest I completed before the finale. Fitting to have the last reward be a painting of you. Real nice of the game to allow you to acquire a permanent physical copy of the 'old' you, just moments before becoming the 'new' you. Something real to hold onto instead of only having the memories of who you were before. A tribute to your past and a reminder of 'who are you?' in case you started to...forget. Fucked me up y'all, had to turn the bittersweet thought into something more wholesome.

[hughmunculus]

I think what a lot of people miss about Mouthwashing is that it is still, ultimately, a character study of Jimmy. A person that has been made so corrupt and destructive not simply due to his own individual actions but how those actions are fueled masculinity and the desperation bred by capitalism.

Jimmy is unable to see himself as anything but the hero of his story, and every moment in his life the temporary setback to his own self-fulfillment. Both capitalism and patriarchy make men see themselves as temporarily-embarrassed millionaires, patriarchs, romantic leads or success stories. Its why he can't reflect on his actions, and when he inevitably confronts the fact that he cannot "fix it", that there is no "good ending" he kills himself. His worldview is just fundamentally incompatible with reality.

However, this self-deception doesn't make him happy, it doesn't mean he isn't charging forward with no doubts or fears. He is miserable and pitiable. Every time he tries to trick himself into thinking he's in the right he dives headfirst into a nightmare sequence where his conscience is desperately trying to tell him he's in a hell of his own making. But every time he is confronted he chooses to go deeper and deeper into delusion to avoid the reality that he causes harm.

Not to say this patriarchal hell doesn't trap the other male characters too; Swansea is only happy in the oblivion of alcohol because the nuclear family was the only "right" way to live presented to him, and Curly utterly fails to recognize Jimmy's assault of Anya for what it is because the invasive nature of workplace abuse and rape culture exists to him as a systemic concept; but he could never fathom it happening anywhere close to him and especially not a friend.

Jimmy's actions make him both a figure of disgust and sympathy in the narrative and I think that's part of the point: desperation, fear, delusion and self-aggrandizement: that can happen to anyone. And we all currently live in a societal pressure cooker designed to bring out those worst parts of us.

We have to do the difficult task that the narrative asked us to do as we played it, and one Jimmy was fundamentally incapable of doing until the very end: empathize, reflect, choose justice and create a more compassionate world.