#those two are still bisexual disasters though

[wolveria]

In the cursed polycule, Kenneth and Dyo are the bisexual disasters, and Reid and Valens are the asexual cryptids

[midnightechoes]

Five years ago today, She-Ra and the Princesses of Power premiered on Netflix. I had seen a few preview articles about it, and liked what I saw. Those articles mostly focused on She-Ra’s, Adora’s, Glimmer’s, Bow’s, and Catra’s redesigns, and I thought they were fabulous. I loved Adora’s new red jacket and bouffant hair style. Glimmer’s entire redesign was inspired, and I loved that they made Bow black so we could have more diversity in the main cast.

It was She-Ra’s and Catra’s redesigns that caught my eyes the most, though. They made Catra an actual catgirl, and not just in the anime sense where she's just a cute girl with cat ears and maybe a cat tail. She was a full-on furry. It was a brilliant design choice. Honestly it’s no wonder that so many were instantly drawn to her.

And of course, She-Ra herself. I loved her new look, and her huge ass new Sword of Protection. In fact, I loved it so much that I drew this picture of her before the show even came out:

Then the show came out, and needless to say, I fell in love. And honestly, it changed my life.

I know, I know. That sounds very hyperbolic, and to an extent it is, but in a lot of ways, I’m absolutely serious.

Alright, I have to back up a little. Back when I was in college, and for a few years after, a couple of friends and I tried to make a webcomic called The Devil’s Gate. It was minorly successful but eventually floundered. Then I met some people and we tried to make a video game, which also failed. After those few years, I found myself on my own and trying to rework the concept of my webcomic. Making comics, creating stories, those have always been my dream, and I was desperately trying to figure out a story I could make work, something that I believed in. But it never truly got off the ground. By the end of 2015 I had given up on the comic, realizing that after working on it for years in different forms that I needed to step away from it.

I didn’t really know what to do after that. I was still doing my quick daily doodles, but I wasn’t writing, I wasn’t drawing anything of note. I felt emotionally and physically drained of my creativity. I was honestly getting to the point where I thought it might be time for me to give up on trying to be creative or making things all together.

She-Ra and the Princesses of Power came out on November 13, 2018, but despite looking forward to it, I didn’t actually watch it when it came out. It wasn’t until that weekend that I decided to check it out.

I was instantly hooked. I binged through the entire season in two days, and did plenty of crying and cheering. And then rewatched it immediately. I was in love. I was obsessed. It had been a long time since anything grabbed me like SPOP did. I loved the characters. I loved the colorful, sci-fi-fairy tale world of Etheria. I loved how unapologetically feminine it was. And most of all, I loved how queer it was.

I hadn’t done a ton of shipping before SPOP. I’ve been down bad for harlivy for what feels like my whole life, and I was angry when Mika and HG didn’t get together in Warehouse 13, but more often than not I had just been conditioned not to look for queer things in mainstream culture, and even barely in subculture.

That is to say, when I was smashed in the face with Catradora I was surprised how much I glommed onto it immediately. I was absolutely taken with Adora and Catra and their relationship. Both characters were so relatable, and despite not quite being text (although the subtext was so loud and obvious it might as well have been text), it was impossible to not read their feelings for each other as romantic.

It wasn’t just Catradora, even if that was a lot of it. Spinnerella and Netossa being canon from the start was wonderful. How much Glimmer and Bow screamed “BISEXUAL DISASTERS” from the start was adorable. Scorpia’s crush on Catra was as cute as it was sad in its one-sidedness.

I had never really been in a fandom. That is, yeah I’ve liked things, loved things even, but I never found other people to talk about it at length, never found discords just for that thing, never read or wrote fanfic, barely ever drew fanart. 

But, I watched SPOP, and then I watched it again. And then I drew Catra. And then I drew Adora. And then I drew them again. And suddenly I was on AO3, a site I never frequented, reading Catradora fics. And then I had an AO3 account. That December I participated in Catradora Week 2018 (I’d never heard of this kind of thing) and drew two pictures for it and wrote my first fanfic.

By the end of February I had drawn more in the three months since the show had premiered than I had in the previous year. I was working furiously on a long, multi-chapter fanfic, and writing more words than I had in the previous couple of years combined.

I was inspired again.

In the 18 months that SPOP ran for, I drew more than I had in years, I wrote hundreds of thousands of words. I felt so rejuvenated and happy about my creativity and free for the first time in years.

It’s hard to put into words exactly how it felt. I was so close to giving up my art and writing, which honestly, would have been giving up a part of myself. An important part of myself. It’s not overstating that SPOP saved me, or at least my creative spirit.

I also learned about the wonders of being in a fandom and fandom things like fan weeks, big bangs, zines. And I made some wonderful friends that I cherish to this day.

Even as I inevitably moved onto other hyperfixations, my love for She-Ra hasn’t diminished. Plushie Catra and Adora sit next to me on my desk every day. Catradora art still hangs on my wall.

The inspiration that SPOP ignited in me hasn’t died either. It’s carried me through a tremendous level of creativity that I’ve been riding since the premiere. It let me create a ton of fan art for SPOP, and then RWBY and then the Witch From Mercury, and I’ve written a ton of fanfics for RWBY and Supergirl. And perhaps the best, that inspiration has helped me create more OC stuff in the last couple years than I had in a long time.

I owe She-Ra and The Princesses of Power so much. I am so happy that it exists and that it happened when it did. I’ll always cherish it.

And for real, Netflix, SPOP spin-off movies WHEN?!

[thebigbadbatswife]

Beneath The Mistletoe

Pairing - Bruce Wayne x F!Reader x Selina Kyle

Summary - Selina and Bruce corner you beneath the mistletoe.

Warnings - Public Displays of Affection, Christmas Fluff, Suggestive Themes, Humour, Bisexual!Reader

Word Count - 800

Wayne Manor was cast in a golden glow from the various twinkling lights that currently decorated the place. Along with the lights were the decorations that you would expect to see in a billionaire’s home. Gold, silver, red. Nothing overly gaudy, but still screamed rich. And there was the tree in the entrance hall. Its size completely surreal and was decorated in a very orderly and traditional way. A similar one was set up within the main ballroom as well.

It was all for show. Something for the “official” Bruce Wayne Christmas party that was thrown each and every year without fail.

The real decorations were deeper within the manor. Set up in one of the lounges. A tree decorated by the boys. It was messy and chaotic and perfect. All at once. A fake pine garland along the top of the mantle of a fireplace that had a low flame flickering within it. And none of those gaudy hanging decorations are anywhere to be seen. 

The lounge wasn’t filled with strangers either. Friends and family only. This was the real Christmas party. One that wasn’t going to end up in every magazine and news website across the planet. Where everyone was made jealous of the luxury that came from a billionaire’s bank account.

There was no need to dress fancy either. Though ugly Christmas jumpers were mandatory, per Dick’s request. Which was fine by everyone, but Bruce. Who looked grumpy and kept pulling at the neck, scratching his skin, where it was irritating him. Though, in true Bruce fashion, it was a Batman themed one. He likely wasn’t hating this as much as he was making out he was.

Seeing everyone in one room together made you smile. With all the near disasters that kept almost befalling the planet and the city you called home, it was hard to get everyone in the same room.

You sipped on the eggnog in your snifter glass, humming softly. It was thicky and creamy and delicious. One of these days you were going to have to beg Alfred to tell you the recipe.

“Well, what do we have here?” Selina asked as she approached you. She was wearing a sweater that had the image of a cat tangled in christmas lights. It was very her. 

You raised an eyebrow at her. What was she on about? 

She smiled, amused at your confusion. Her eyes looked above you before returning to your own. You looked above you and chuckled when you saw it. Mistletoe. Dammit. You had been doing a good job all night avoiding it. Now Selina had you cornered. She took a step forward. You attempted to take a step backwards (it was all part of the game), but your back came into contact with a solid chest, which stopped you in your tracks. There was no need for you to turn around to see who it was. You already knew. 

Bruce. 

They were teaming up against you.

“You know, mistletoe can be deadly if you eat,” he said. Both of his hands came to rest on your hips and pulled you against him. 

She hummed and stepped into your space. “Yes, but a kiss can be even deadlier, if you mean it.”

Your cheeks felt impossible hot. They were going to be the death of you. You were sure of it. Bruce’s lips brushed against your ear, sending a shiver up your spine.

“It’s just a couple of kisses. Then we’ll let you go.”

But it never was a “couple of kisses”. Two would turn into four and four would turn into eight. Before you knew it they would have you wrapped up in the silk sheets of the custom bed Bruce had had built for the three of you. Not that you ever complained. You trusted them completely.

“Fine,” you replied, accepting your fate and surrendering yourself to your lovers.

Selina kissed your first. It was far more sensual than a kiss beneath the mistletoe should be. You sighed softly when she pulled away. Your lips weren’t left alone for long. Bruce turned your head to him and kissed you. Even going as far as to push his tongue into your mouth, caressing your tongue with his own. Your moan was barely audible. Only Selina and Bruce were able to hear it. 

“Get a room you three!” Hal called out. There were a few chuckles and laughs that followed. If it was possible for your cheeks to get even hotter, they definitely did.

And Bruce decided to make it so much worse.

“I think Hal’s right for once. Perhaps we should go up to our room.”

As soon as the words left his mouth, they were immediately followed by the sounds of Dick and Jason fake gagging and retching.

[drivingsideways]

2024 Watch List : K drama edition

Like 2023, I dropped more dramas than I finished, and I refused to watch about 90% of what's out there. Some of the big projects were absolute duds (Blood Free, anyone? ) and some dramas that seemed to have a spark at the start fizzed out pretty quickly (Frankly Speaking). I've just dropped Love Your Enemy, a rom com that stars- wait for it- Ju Ji hoon AND Jung Yu-mi- the audacity of making two such talented comedians play a script written by and for pre-teens quite takes my breath away.

Still, there were a few bright spots this year! Of the 2024 crop, it was LTNS, Love in the Big City and Jeong Nyeon : The Star is Born for me. But I've also been watching older stuff- both in movies and dramas (Asian/Western)- maybe it's just nostalgia as I get older, but I do feel that the kind of cinema or tv that I'm both familiar with and enjoy isn't out there much anymore. C'est la vie.

I've written about LTNS and The Matchmakers earlier this year, so here go the rest

Coffee Prince (2007)

This turned out to be every bit as charming and sweet as I was promised: both Gong Yoo and Yoon Eun-hye really embodied their characters in ways that I've very rarely see in this genre.

I went back and forth on how I felt about the queerness of this show- everybody is queer and nobody is- but the show itself is extremely loving and sensitive and I think it pushed the envelope on gender and sexuality- in 2007!- in ways that current shows in this genre are both unwilling and perhaps unable to do. There's a willingness to accept and celebrate that love, sexual attraction, gender and sexuality are messy and fluid ; an exploration that seems increasingly absent in our present media, where those lines are becoming increasingly rigid, much like everything else about our politics. Anyway! one of the joys of 2024 was watching a baby Gong Yoo playing a disaster bisexual and Yoon Eun-hye playing a CHAOTIC GENDER, both putting their entire hearts and souls into their characters, resulting in something that feels like a once-in-a-lifetime kind of screen magic. 

The only sour note for me was the workplace romance/ power dynamic between Han Gyeol and Eun-chan- it made the bits post the gender reveal extremely difficult for me to sit through. The writing and direction were both so sensitive on the whole, though, that I want to forgive them this.  The three most magical moments for me in this series: Eun-chan curling up to her mother on the night before she plans to tell Han-gyeol about her gender; the entire beach sequence, starting with him turning up at her gate and just- hanging there, PINING; and THE CHESTNUT TRAIL reunion after they break up over the deception/ reveal. The sub plots and the second love track weren't interesting to me at all- I ffwded through most of it. On the whole, I see why so many people hold this up as the gold standard in kdrama romance, and you know what? I think they might be right.

Queen Seondeok (2009)

I was super excited to finally be able to see this (thanks Viki and VPNs), and I binged sixty two (62) episodes in something like three weeks! Yes, it did drive me that crazy. Writer nims have really perfected the made-for-me sageuk formula, though Seondeok isn't as weighty, politcally, as Tree With Deep Roots or Six Flying Dragons. But it shares the same theatrical and political imagination and ambition, and it's so very engaging for most parts. Go hyun-jung is-not my fave, sorry- but Mi-Shil is probably one of my top ten characters of ALL time!!! What a woman!!! What a villain!!! What a hero!!! The drama tanks a bit with Mi-shil's exit- it's like without her, nothing seems important anymore- and all the other characters know it, especially Deokman. I didn't particularly care for the ending- a tad too bleak and trite-but that's not important, I think, in this story. It's just a damn good yarn.

Love in the Big City (2024)

My expectations from this drama were not very high- in fact, given the way the movie based on the same book was marketed- I was rather trepidatious about it! How lovely to be proved wrong: the drama is that rare thing in k-ent- unabashedly and explicitly queer without catering in any way to a straight audience- whether sympathetic or not. By the simple virtue of treating its queer characters seriously as whole, entire people and not unicorns, it normalizes queer life without brushing aside the joys and trials peculiar to it. This story about being young and gay in 2010s Seoul, is tender, funny, sexy, wry, poignant- cinematically shot and directed, with a career making turn from Nam Yoon su. Watch it (it's on Viki in many countries) and also read the book by Sang Young Park (Translated into English by Anton Hur)- your heart will be full.

Jeong Nyeon: The Star is Born (2024)

A miracle. That's what I keep thinking this show is- everything about its existence seems improbable. While Netflix/Disney-fication of K-drama and the general political climate has swung the pendulum far right in many ways, here is a show with a cast and main crew that is entirely female led and featuring multiple queer characters. The compromises made to get here seem obvious when you watch the show- the 12 episode speed run, for one, that left little time to sit with any emotions or character other than the lead; the less-than-fairy-tale endings to both the main lesbian love stories for another- but despite that, this show is just wonderful, start to finish. It's got a rollicking pace, beautiful cinematography and an extraordinarily talented cast. But even with a stacked cast, the true stars of the show are the art forms of pansori and gukguek. Every single performance and song moved me to tears with the sheer beauty of the poetry- delivered with real passion and skill by every actor who went above and beyond. Kim Tae ri reportedly trained in pansori for three years for this role, starting even before the show was officially off the ground- which gives you some idea of the passion that drove this improbable project to the screen. Fans of the original, beloved webtoon are probably rightfully miffed at some of the changes made, but while this show isn't perfect, it was clearly made with love and dedication, and with an eye on something other than a spreadsheet of numbers - a difference that in this day and age seems like a- sorry, but that's the only word for it- miracle.

I can't say I'm going into 2025 with any great expectations from k drama land (or indeed, most of tv) . Forgettability is feature not a bug in the 24/7 streaming "content" era- but it does not make for good art or enthuse me in the slightest. The best case scenario, I think, will be 2-3 dramas that I'll probably even consider watching - it feels like the end of a short era of my life. On the other hand, there are still a bunch of older dramas that I can get into- in fact, I'm ending this year with Secret Door (2014, 24 episodes), a sageuk on the lines of TwDR and SFD (though with far less verve and imagination so far) , featuring the irreplaceable Han Suk kyu, who's evidently been collecting Joseon kings in his filmography with the dedication and enthusiasm of an arachnologist let loose in Australia.

Anyway, here's wishing fellow k drama enthusiasts an exciting new year, and tell me in the notes/ replies what you enjoyed in 2024!

[zenless-zideblog-zero]

ZZZ sexuality headcanons

Because everyone else seems to do it.

~Phaethon Sibs~

Wise: Biromantic (slight preference for women) Pansexual, but like Theater Kid Bi/Pan. He IS LGBT+, but he's so dramatic about it the only people he ends up falling in love with are those with big dramatic reveals and backstories (Lycaon, Caesar, ETC.)

Belle: Demi on both accounts. She finds herself falling for girls more often but to be fair, an inordinate amount of the people she's around are Girls.

She has some Trans Vibes™ to me, but also just as likely to be cis.

~The Cunning Hares~

Nicole: Likes Women, and Certain men. Aromantic, but willing to be in a romantic relationship.

Anby: Sex positive Asexual, Panromantic. She only recently figured this out since she escaped her mysterious past.

Billy: Okay, him being a Robot, even a sapient one, makes the whole Sexuality/Romanticism thing weird to consider, but given the fact he has some kind of attraction to Monica that seems to be deeper than an emotional infatuation, so like. Straight? But also I reserve the right to change this in the Future.

Nekomata: Okay, as a bisexual it's hard not to make everyone like both men and woman as a form of projection, but also. Shooting her with the Bisexual Beam™.

~Belobog Heavy industries~

Koleda: Pansexual Demiromantic.

Grace & Anton: I am putting these two together because I cannot begin to fathom what is going on inside these People's heads. Should either of them have a sexual and/or romantic partner, they won't care what their partner is, in a way that is impossible to distinguish between Bi/Pan/Omni/Etc and Asexuality.

Simultaneously, I can also see them both being DEEPLY Homosexual, OR in the vein of "HRT Hit me like Freight Train" trans, but not both gay and trans.

Ben: Either the straightest man ever or the least flamboyant gay man in history, because on one hand he's a Bear (Heavyset Hairy Man) and a Bear (Furry) but also he's the accountant, which means he likely was in Business classes in college. I have never met a gay person good at math.

~Victoria Housekeeping~

Lycaon: I think he is like, pan/Omni/etc, but he's so deeply uncomfortable with being open to those he doesn't know he seems like he's demi.

Rina: Again, as a bisexual it's hard not to make everyone like both men and woman as a form of projection. But also, *Bisexuality Beam*

Corin: She really hasn't put much thought into it, but to seem 'normal' her kneejerk reaction to such a question is to claim that she's straight, even though she's still very much figuring herself out.

Sapphic, with unclear feelings towards men.

Ellen: (BisexualProjection.TXT) Sapphic, but Demi with guys, sort of like how Nicole is described.

~Criminal Investigation Special Response Team~

Zhu-Yuan: Comfortably Pan, terribly single.

Qingyi: Same thing with Billy where it's different because she doesn't have "Organic" Impulses, but also she's lesbian.

Jane Doe: She's so deep into the "Flirty Femme Fatale" Persona that she's forgotten what her actual preferences are. When is the flirting real, and when is it a ploy? If it was real would it actually be for this Guy/Girl?

She lands somewhere between Lycaon and Corin's deals in this way. I don't Think it's that clear to her, let alone to anyone else. She just needs to be allowed to be honest with others to be true to herself, and figure it out again.

Seth: Sex-Neutral Ace, Panromantic. He WILL Cuddle you after and he WILL Make you breakfast in the morning.

~Sons of Calydon~

Caesar: Bi, heavily leaning towards men because that's mostly what she can find in her romance stories.

Lucy: (BisexualProjection.TXT) As a revolution against her dad, she went HARD into being a lesbian, but the freedom and kindness provided by the Sons have let her really consider her options. She does like women a LOT, but sometimes ... she wouldn't mind a guy treating her like the princess she wants to be.

BUT TO BE CLEAR. She is a Disaster Lesbian for Caesar specifically. Caesar is basically the pinnacle of Sexual Attraction to which she bases all other potential partners against. She does not realize this and it is part of the reason she fights Caesar so much because of the Weird Feelings™ She gets.

Burnice: Literal Flaming Homosexual. The MOST Lesbian. If the bad word for gay (F**) didn't already have the hitorical context for it's existence, Burnice would be the origin of it.

Piper: Also a lesbian. She had a wife ten years ago, but they've divorced. This cannot be surprising to anyone.

Lighter: GAY GAY HOMOSEXUAL GAY-

~Misc.~

Soukaku: A Child. Do not bother.

Soldier 11: A Good Soldier's only love is for their country, and their only marriage is to the code by which they live!

The amount of Psycho-sexual issues this Woman will have if she ever uncovers her own personhood will be Deep and Troubling. and HOT.

[england-would-fall]

Secret Swiftie

Henry was terrible at loosening his tie with one hand. He always had been, and his persistent efforts to overcome the impertinent knots earned him little more than mother hen tongue clicks from Alex, which were, to be fair, far superior to the eye rolls Phillip had thrown his way for the past two decades. At this moment, Henry was, as usual, admitting defeat by the small entryway table and heading into the flat to find Alex. Maybe if he ruffled his hair and put on sad eyes before he found him, he’d get a better return than the world’s most insufferably charming put-upon sigh. Dull music floated down the hallway from their bedroom–he still couldn’t quite believe there was a “their” anything–and he blinked hard, trying to muster the appearance of Poor Henry Who Had a Tough Day But No Sweetheart Best Not to Talk About It. Quick swish of his hair against the natural part and that…what on earth was that?

“Tale as old as tiiiiiiiiiiime. It’s ME! HI! I’m the problem it’s ME!”

Oh, Christ. Henry leaned against the doorframe. Alexander Gabriel Claremont-Diaz, you have some nerve taunting me for Drag Race. Lucky I don’t video this and post it to TikTok.

“–always rooting for the anti-hero!”

Badly as Henry wanted to dox the cheeky bastard–assuming that’s what doxxing was, which, now that he thought on it, it likely wasn’t–he couldn’t. Pile of clean clothes in a basket to his left, folded articles laid out systematically on the bed, Alex was singing along as he folded laundry. In. His. Pants. And not just any pants. No, of course not. Why on earth would the world’s most notorious disaster bisexual be standing in boxer shorts when he apparently had the option of dancing to Taylor Swift in...what the hell are those even called?! Boy shorts, Bea’s voice in his brain supplied. Can’t be called boy shorts when they’re actually on a boy. Probably don’t have a name. Don’t deserve one, there’s hardly any fabric there at all.

“For the last tiiiiiiiiiiiime!”

Oh, honestly. Henry had to put a stop to their rivalry, Alex’s turkey-terror, the compulsory closeting of the British monarchy, and now this. Must I do everything. Crossing the room as silently as possible, which was hardly necessary given Alex’s apparent absorption in his crooning, he stepped up just behind a man whose avoidance of daily scandals was absolutely miraculous. Though, to be fair, so was the back of him in those shorts things.

“–and then someone screams out: She’s laughing up at us from–”

“Hello.”

“FUCK!”

-----

A/N: Shall we go for a part two?

[purble-turble]

Love potion universe but nothing to do with the love potion, how was the poly before azure nonsense? I know macaque was exclusive to wukong. Anyone not banging someone else in the poly? (ex- dbk and wukong didn't hook up, or yellowtusk and peng didn't hook up, etc) and who was romantically in love with who? Below I'm putting in my guesses. Tell me how right or wrong I am

Macaque, obvious. Azure is interested sexually in all of them and loves them in different ways but he's in love with wukong, and he thought wukong also had "some romantic interest" but was unhappy about not being his favorite/#1. Wukong also is sexually interested in all of them, but as previously established wasn't even a little bit in love with azure since in an au where he gets love potioned, he becomes obsessed. Safely assumed the only one he's in love with is macaque. Peng has a hate crush on macaque that might be only sexual but might have some romance longing. I also assume that at least sometimes when they're with wukong they pretends it's macaque, because that's really messy, and this situation is completely messy. They are attracted to everyone, but might be in love partly or a lot with azure and/or yellowtusk. Dbk, no clue. You could go the way he's in love with everyone to some degree, or could go the way ironfan was the first person he ever loved, or something in between. He does assume everyone is romantically interested in everyone though, has no clue about the messiness and favoritism going on below the surface (beyond the obvious macaque favoritism). Yellowtusk isn't attracted to anyone actually, but he sees sex as a bonding activity and a way to make his brothers feel good. Only romantically interested in azure, but he knows azure only had eyes for wukong

I love the breakdown you have here anon! Honestly I am pretty much 100% with you on almost everything there.

Especially the bit about Peng.. They definitely are in hate/love with Macaque and use their time with Wukong to sort of pretend it’s Mac too! But also yes, Yellowtusk and Azure are also their favorites.

Yellowtusk I always saw as being sort of in love with Azure, but I also really like the idea you broached here of him being somewhat aromantic as well. Being part of this big poly brotherhood is a good way for him to still be in a relationship without having to deal with the stress of being somebody’s one and only companion (which I think he would hate) which can be a lot of pressure for someone who isn’t fully invested in that sort of thing. Sharing is caring, after all~

DBK I do have some thoughts about. Since in the show, he pretty clearly falls in love at first sight with Princess Iron Fang in the middle of a battle, I think DBK assumed he was gay for most of his life, but turns out he is secretly (even to himself) a bisexual disaster 😂 He likes all the brotherhood and has had a physical relationship with all of them (except Macaque who is only with Wukong but he doesn’t mind that) and up until he met Iron Fan he probably assumed that he was in love with all of them in equal measure. And he DOES love them… sort of. Or at the very least he respects them all and enjoys their company, and that’s probably what that means, right? …Well, it’s only when he gets his world completely rocked by that gorgeous Celestial Maiden that he has an OH moment. Turns out he likes women too… well actually no. Not women. THAT woman. He wants HER. No one else will do. He must win her over- Everything and everyone else be damned.

The rest of the brotherhood is definitely surprised by this development.. DBK probably seemed the most ardent of them all that women weren’t worth his time before, but he meets this one and overnight he’s turned into #1 wife guy… no wonder Azure and those two were so hostile towards him in season 4. It probably felt pretty hurtful turn around for him to abandon them for some woman they lost a battle to all of a sudden, with absolutely no warning.

[myeyesandheartadjust]

Thoughts while listening to The Mad Ones (fully) for the first time

Disclaimer:

I've heard a smattering of songs already but keep getting distracted while trying to listen to it from beginning to end

It took two days to get through it (it's a heavy musical, y'all!)

I definitely look at this through a queer lens

Here we go!!

Starting off strong with The Girl Who Drove Away

"Leave the fear and doubt behind! Choose the road less traveled! Not the memories to real! Not to guilt that leaves you paralyzed!"

"If only i could turn the key...." This whole song is just Sam needing a hug

Hi Kelly!!! 👋 👋

"Map's are for brain deads"

Sam, you don't sound convinced about college.

"But what if she doesn't?? OH TWIST!!" KELLY 🤣🤣 Also, i was right

"Not a memory jumble" 🤣

For real though, WHY DO SAM'S MEMORY JUMBLES SOUND SO PRETTY

"I was figuring out who I was – the whole year – saying what I wanted, doing it, and one day the phone rings....." Oh, Sam :(

"What? You think it's gonna bite?"

"LET'S GOOOO!"

"She believed in listening to the highway. You start driving and keep driving. There's no stopping 'til Kelly says you're arrived."

There's queer vibes in this song, and I'm here for it!!

"Very slow, Brown." I can picture the smirk and the look Kelly's giving Sam, and it's very gay

"Freedom! Freedom! FREEDOOOOOM!"

I love how Sam's saying big things and Kelly's all like, "I want Arby's. I wanna go skinny dipping!" 😂

"Let's go! Let's go! Pick a road, pick a highway. Any road is going my way. Let's go! Live it up with no complicated philosophies!No college, no career! No kids, no fancy house! No! Let's go! ANY ROAD BUT THE ROAD WE'RE ON!"

"NO COLLEGE! NO CAREERS! NO SCREAMING KIDS! NO MORTGAGE!"

"There's something buried within here, a lesson to keep, the impulse, the life force, the diving in deep. I feel it. The chaos. I usually flee. If I hold on right here, could I learn to just BE?!" 😭

"Don't talk about it. Live it. Don't feel the loss of it. Feel it." 👀

"Trees blurring into nothing. And i am nothing. And she is nothing." Poetry! Also gay vibes!

"It's so real and so like a memory. And the sun is so bright that I'm squinting. And it feels like I've found FREEDOOOOOM!"

Kelly and Sam being rock stars is so funny, and it sounds like car rides with them would've been epic

Sam singing in Ordinary Senior Year is so sad 😪

A statistician teaching someone how to drive .... sounds like a recipe for disaster

"Sam failed her drives test...four times!" I was right 😁 Poor Sam! Half of them weren't her fault but still!!

"DRRRRIVE!!"

Top Ten is a really fun sounding song. If you heard it out of context, though, you'd be like what!

"Old age. Lame! Impossible!" 😂

Some of these are really hilarious, like the alien one, the mentos, and the poor Sting one!

"Hit by a car on the way home from the library." 👀 Ouch! Is that how she actually died?

Sam and Adam... okay??? Sam can be bi but Smple As That sounds like a friendship song (minus the makeout bit)

"For sure. He's the perfect guy for a girl like me." SUURE!! Sam

The Proposal = a song that would sound incredibly weird out of context and one that i can't take seriously

Sam, if you're this conflicted over this about wanting to have sex with him, you're probably NOT in love (or like) with Adam. Not even for pancakes! (Also, side note, but I can see Sam as ace/aro and secretly wanting a QPR with Kelly or being a closeted bisexual/lesbian)

Lyrics like "Feel your carnal urges taking hold" and "EMBRACE YOUR DESTINY," is why I can't take this song seriously

Kelly's with a TA. Okay, Kelly's either deeply repressed about her love for Sam or is bi. Or both!!

"All alone. Was I lost, or was I alive. In the space in the hole, she CREATED!"

Yeesss The Mad Ones!!

Jack Kerouac quote my love 🥰 (This song introduced me to it, and I fell in love with it)

"IF WE'RE GONNA GO, WE GOTTA GO TONIGHT!"

"Pushed to the edge, out on the ledge. Will you die out or burn, BURN?!" 🔥🔥🔥🔥

"'CAUSE THOSE GOOD OLD BOYS! THEY'VE HAD THEIR GOOD OLD DAYS. BUT NOT THEY'RE GONE, AND NOW THEIR WORLD IS OURS TO TAKE."

Here we gooo!! "We're mad to go. Mad to drive. Mad to be alive. We're chasing stars. A thousand suns. The mad, THE MAD ONES!!"

I know how this song goes, but two drunk girls making a plan to run away sounds A: gay and B: like a recipe for disaster

"STOP SAYING CAN'T! STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO!" Kelly is kinda bossy, I'll admit Sam

"It's never or now! YES! Time to take your foot off the BRAKE!"

The key change and the blended harmony is just ahhhhhh!!

The back and forth call of "WHO LET DOWN WHO?!!' So pretty yet so sad in context

"If we'd only gone that night, then I wouldn't be DEAD!!" Still an OUCH every time I get to this part

"YOU! YOU! YOU! YOU!"

"WE BREAK THE LOCK! WE KICK THE DOOR. TO REACH FOR MORE, WE MAKE THE RULES. We MAKE A VOW. TO BE MAD. GIRL, WE'RE WHAT MATTERS NOW!"

The beginning piano and strings of I know My Girl is pretty

Okay, Sam's mom, Beverly, didn't impress me at first, but I kinda like her in this song. Now I'm hungry for cookies, though :(

Miles to Go, I'm not entirely sure how it's supposed to fit in the plot, but I love it, and it would sound lovely out of context

Freedom callback!!!!! Ahhh!!

Two really pretty songs in a row and one of them Say The Word being about Sam's relationship with Adam and possible sex?? Wow

"Let me go if it's easier. But say the word, and I might have to stay!"

"I wanna love. I wanna ride. I wanna be the girl by your side!"

Moving On is fun (even though they're avoiding the obvious)

"I'M ALIVE. YOU'RE ALIVE!!"

Freedom melody callback part 2

Go Tonight = the second song I've ever heard from this show and one that got me through when I thought I almost lost a friend

"She was- She was sitting on the roof of her beat-up car, half singing, half laughing, half going too far."

"If we're gonna go, we gotta go tonight. GOOOOOOOOOO OOOO TONIGHT!!! 😭

I saw a clip from what must've been a workshop or preview that had Sam singing the words, "She was everything I loved," instead of, "She was everything I'm not...." and honestly, I think both would've worked. 🥰

"SINKING DOWN IN THIE VOID LIKE A CRATER. GETTING LOST IN A WORLD THAT I CAN'T REWIND. IT'S TOO LATE AND IT'S JUST GETTING LATER!" 😭😭

"I unravel until I REMEMBER, SITTING ON THE ROOF OF YOUR BEAT-UP CAR!" 😭😭😭😭

"What I didn't know was that time doesn't stop - prom still has a theme, the valedictorian still gives a speech on a future she knows nothing about." 😭😭😭

Run Away With Me!! That is the first song I ever remember hearing :)

"We'll be on the road like Jack Kerouac, looking back. Sam, you're ready. Let's go!"

The "I'm not trying to make you a wife here!!" isn't helping your case, pal 🙄

Please tell me you broke up with Adam after this, Sam, because Adam does NOT get to pull a Kelly, wip out a Jack Kerouac reference, and ask you to run away with him!! That was Kelly's role.

"Do you wanna die? Do you wanna fail?" OUCH, considering Kelly's dead and Sam has perfectionist issues

"DRRRRIVE!!"

"If you follow my instructions, I can free you. I can make you alive! I CAN DO IT ON MY OWN!!"

All the overlaps in Drive are pretty

"EIGHTEEN YEARS, YOU'RE MY WHOLE LIFE!"

"I don’t wanna be safe!"

The road you take should feel right…The road will tell you who you are!" 😭

Run Away With Me, and My Mom is a Statistician callbacks

What do I want? What do I need? It doesn’t matter if it’s a mistake. It doesn’t matter if I fail. I have to think big. I have to take control. Even if I disappoint everyone. Even if no one ever speaks to me again. I have to feel something!" 😭😭😭😭😭

"LISTEN TO ME!! I never dreamed of running away, but I do dream about the highway. I start driving and keep driving. I can’t stop 'til I feel alive again!" 😭

I Didn't Say Goodbye = another favorite that I've heard before and a really emotional one

"I can't do this alone." 😭😭

"You’re scared. You should be. If you’re not, you’re not doing it right. You do it now, you do it for you, and you do it alone!" 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

"Be mad, Sam. Be careless and wild and squeeze the life out of every second!" 😭😭😭😭

Kelly's crying, Sam's crying, I'm close to crying!

"And do not crash my car. I’m serious. I will like haunt you." I would laugh at that, but I'm trying not to cry

"You take the risk. You pay the cost. You drive until you're lost. And look around. See where you went. And your life will be a MONUMENT!"

"What did I always tell you? Maps are for braindeads? That's right!"😭😭

"I didn't get to say goodbye! Sometimes, you don't get to say goodbye." 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

"I really miss you. I know, it sucks right?"

"I live in what you do! In what you want to do. Now that I'm gone..... I'm moving on!" 😭

"What do you want Sam? I want the deafening sound of driving fast with the windows down! I want to reach the horizon of IMPOSSIBILITY!"

Now we're back where we began with the theme for The Girl Who Drove Away

"Remember this! The racing heart, the faded dawn. Remember this, before the moment’s gone!"

"Remember feeling like your life begins today. Try to stop and feel each second slip away. Remember this"

"REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT LED YOU HERE! Each road trip and every single tear!"

"You look back on your life. On the girl you were for eighteen years. You look back one more time. THEN YOU LET IT GO!"

Freedom callback one last time.

"Freeeedom! Freeedom! Freeedom! Freeedom! Freeedom! FREEDOOOOOM!!!"

[destieltropecollection]

DESTIEL TROPE COLLECTION 2023 | DAY 23 | Slow Burn

A Longing For Home | @shatteredafteryou

Rating: Mature Word Count: 83,745 Main Tags/Warnings: AU, single parent!Dean, Angst, Happy Ending, Internalized Homophobia, Religious Guilt, Grief, Implied/Referenced Alcoholism, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse Summary: Running late one morning, Dean Winchester bumps into the last person he expected to see: his childhood friend Castiel. Fifteen years after their fallout, things get complicated as they try to rebuild their friendship. Will Dean who is adapting to being a single father and Castiel who still struggles with his religious upbringing, be able to reconcile so many years later? There are some things better left in the past and yet, when they get dredged back up neither of them can stay away.

Fate is a Tricky Thing | @peanutbutterjelly-pie

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 109,281 Main Tags/Warnings: Canon Divergence, Different First Meeting, Fallen Angel Castiel, Bisexual Disaster Dean, Slow Burn, Falling in Love, Hurt/Comfort, Domestic Fluff, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean, Top Dean/Bottom Castiel, John Winchester A+ Parenting Summary: Dean can't allow himself the luxury of getting attached. So when he spends the best night of his life with a man who calls himself Emmanuel, he knows right away that nothing more will ever come of it. It doesn't even matter that Dean's unable to really forget the guy many weeks and months later, that is just the life. But then Sam ends up cursed on a hunt and after a long and ultimately futile search they find themselves with only one option left to save him: the healing abilities of an angel. Namely, the Fallen One. Castiel. Dean's never heard of the guy before, but if he's really capable of curing his brother, so be it. He is in for a rather big surprise, though, when he suddenly sees himself confronted with a very familiar face and soon enough his life is turned upside down in a fairly inconvenient manner. + (In which Dean realizes he slept with an angel of the freaking Lord, has a major freak-out about it, and then, to his own chagrin, can't stop thinking about doing it all over again as he and his cursed brother end up cohabiting with the angel in question.) (Great.)

On The Edge Of A Blade | @aaronthe8thdemon

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 182,838 Main Tags/Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Alternate Universe - Hockey, Autistic Castiel (Supernatural), John Winchester's A+ Parenting, Slow Burn, Angst, Internalized Homophobia, Blood and Gore, Miscommunication, Hurt/Comfort, Depressed Dean Winchester, Explicit Sexual Content, Dean Winchester Has Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Top Castiel/Bottom Dean Winchester Summary: It's the start of a new season. Castiel Shurley has been traded to the Islanders from the Rangers because Original Six teams are very picky about which players on their rosters are allowed to be gay, and assistant captains who are also autistic are too much of a liability. Dean Winchester has been named team captain against his will. He's still closeted despite starting his twelfth season in the NHL. Those are only two of the reasons that the pressure may actually kill him this time. One career Islander, one new addition to the roster, both veterans of professional hockey who instantly connect on (and off) the ice and are pushed even closer together by supportive friends, time spent both together and apart, various flavors of dysfunctional family dynamics... and, of course, the drive this year like every year to take home the Stanley Cup.

Computer Safety Verse | @debatchery

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 232,180 Main Tags/Warnings: Fake/Pretend Relationship, CIA!Cas, nerd!Dean, story in two parts Summary: NBC’s Chuck AU. Starring Dean as a computer nerd who becomes an asset against his will and Cas as a CIA operative assigned to protect him.

[stalwart-spirit]

OC Smash or Pass: Saeed Iscitan

Quick Facts

Height: 6'3" | 190cm

Age: 39.

Gender: Male

Pronouns: He/Him

Sexuality: Bisexual

Pros

Love languages are acts of service and physical touch. He will do what he can to make his partners know that he cares for them deeply.

Will cook for others and sees it as a way to bond if cooking together.

Great with kids (two of his own) and is just a family man. Natural fraternal and paternal instinct.

Happy to take the lead but willing to let his partners go at their own pace. Comfort for both parties matters the most so he'd do anything to make someone feel comfortable and confident.

Determined he isn't someone to be knocked down and stay down. Will get back up on his own two feet and carry on.

Loyal, you couldn't find a more faithful, dedicated and trusted partner.

Cons

Stubborn and reckless, to a fault. Will more than likely cause serveral instances of worry with the amount of troublesome situations he gets into.

Nosy, he really is someone that will learn a lot about someone to satiate his curiosity.

Whilst he does partake in spywork, some of his other jobs are a little less... Legal. What with being a rogue for hire and a lot of the work being thievery--

Even with most of the turmoil of home gone and settled, he still is a man with a price on his head, manhunted by those who still have deep seated grudges.

Never truly settled down, even with a home and a safehouse he and his family are rarely in one place at any given time. Hard to pin down.

Secretive and still reluctant to share much about himself. Trauma, distrust... It takes a lot for him to finally open up.

Details

Neatly kept hair, regularly maintains his undercut in perfect condition as well as upkeeping the bleached portion of his hair. Overall well kept, cleanly and smelling good.

He likes to think his charm points are his hooked nose and the gap between his front two teeth.

Ever growing connections, all of which he's rather close to. Most of them are found family back in his Resistance days, so it's certain that those he is with will be well looked after by his fellow folk.

Aformentioned two kids, twins, Polus and Leila. Sociable and open to meeting new people, but also willing to look out for their father and will question any commited partner he has (they only want the best for him!)

Avid coffee brewer, makes a wide selection of traditional Dalmascan caffinated drinks as a way to get comfy and settle down.

Hobby for weaving and embroidery, which make for really handy gifts!

Actually (mistakenly) bonded with a bunch of corvids which roosted nearby his family's home. Has amassed a collection of shiny little doodads and trinkets due to this.

Romantically: Best possible way to describe him is "disaster bi". Used to get around in his younger days, fall into bed with a mutual aggreement with whatever partners he had just to have a good time, but now has matured and wants to properly settle down with someone. Likes to think he's still got it, all that panache and suaveness from before, but honestly when becoming interested in someone or someone being intested in him... He flubs. Really honestly doesn't expect or anticipate someone showing interest in him, so it's always a pleasant shock when it happens! Once things become serious though... He's dedicated, will look after them, show them how he loves them in his own little ways. They will know they are valued, are loved and cherished, no matter what.

Sexually: As mentioned, he's very much experienced just... Out of practise, so to speak. Is open for a lot of things and has no perference with partners. Willing to experiment and try new things on mutual agreement, or purely kep things vanilla. Not so much into multiple partners in the bedroom, willing to see how a polygamous relationship could work out though! He's very laid back, as long as everyone (including himself) is happy, he's willing. In the bedroom, whilst being experimental, overall loves to take things slow, have it be a tender and special moment, loves the buildup as much as the moment so to speak. Absolutely would shower the other in physical affection before the act, wants to know that he thinks every part of his partner is beautiful. Neither dom or sub, top or bottom, he's flexible (literally and figuratively) with whatever the moment asks.

Thank you @kannedia darling for tagging me! Tagging @neriyon, @abalathia and @ashenbun for either this or the PG "Have Tea or Pass" variant! Also free for anyone else who wants to do it! <3

Rules: pretty self explanatory. Include physical descriptions or pics, and propaganda. The “other” label on the poll can be used for “sexuality misalignment” (ie: oc is femme and you’re gay, vice versa or you aren’t into smashing but a specific thing you wanna do with them like perhaps hug or study them under a microscope idc)

[fire-branded]

5 AM is clearly the best time to settle on some changes to my blog.

Until now, I've had it that my Elwin was, before his marriage to Anabella, in a secret relationship with Rodney and Hanna. I also had it that he was notably experienced when it came to intimacy, in no small part thanks to his relationship with them. I think I'm going to scrap all of that.

Yeah, my Elwin was undeniably incredibly close with those two, and probably did have romantic feelings for them -- but that's all they were, just feelings. Not something he'd ever act upon, since he was already set to marry someone, and Rodney and Hanna were promised to each-other. So he'd understand that there's no point to entertaining those feelings, even if they might be reciprocated.

Still, I have no doubts that his blatant closeness to his two dear friends would draw out rumors, and it's pretty fun to think about who of the two would most of the rumors focus on in terms of his supposed love interest.

Though I'm absolutely still keeping him as a (disaster) bisexual who loves indiscriminately anyone who loves him in return, but still has an undeniable leaning towards men.

[shinkoscribbles]

My Dragon Age custom world state, as the characters would appear during the timeline of The Veilguard. Yes, I am excited, why do you ask?

Infodumping below the cut~

Warden Commander Rollo Mahariel, dual knives ranger rogue, 25 y/o at the beginning of Origins. He was an apprentice halla-tender before becoming a warden, and still has a talent with animals of all kinds. Rollo is a bisexual disaster who had crushes on Tamlen and Alistair and was flustered more or less constantly by Zevran's flirting before finally getting together with Leliana. He absolutely lets Leliana do his hair while they exchange rogue spy gossip and commentary on the clothing choices of nobles they've had to deal with. He is the official Team Dad of the Fereldan wardens, and was gutted when he heard that Anders left. His wife may be the pope now, but with both of them being sneaky rogues, that ain't gonna stop them, ha. Rollo still has chronic health issues from contracting the blight during his origin, which are probably worsening as he draws perilously close to his calling. (If he hasn't managed to cure it, that is!) If the hero is still alive as of The Veilguard, he'll be 48-50 years old.

Champion Iosef Hawke, force mage, 23 y/o at the beginning of DA2. Bleached his hair with magic by accident as a kid, which caused people in Kirkwall to often assume he was older and wiser than he actually was. He likes to joke that at least he and Fenris match. He's been struggling with chronic depression since the events of All That Remains, and the rest of the DA2 plot really didn't help matters. Misses Fenris terribly while he's away Blue-Wraith-ing, but doesn't want to stop the elf from doing the work he believes in. If a Hawke that wasn't left in the fade is still alive as of The Veilguard, he'll be 46-48 years old, though stress and grief have aged him so he looks a lot older.

Inquisitor Belial Lavellan, knight enchanter mage with an affinity for fire magic, 37 at the start of DA:I. Sweet as syrup and actually very bad at the politics of being Inquisitor, but had enough charisma to at least be a good figurehead and the willingness to make difficult decisions. Hated the Winter Palace with a passion, ha ha. Bonded with Cass over them both being straightforward and honest about exactly who they were, and also by being a complete sap and hopeless romantic. (Which she, as we know, is into.) When offered prosthetics by Dagna and the Inquisition's mages, he simply echoed the words he'd once said to Cassandra- "Do you really think I need two arms to be dangerous?" Since we have confirmation the Inquisitor is still alive, he'll be 47-49 years old. (Ha! Didn't realize I accidentally made Belial, Iosef and Rollo so close in age.)

As for my Rook… we'll see! I'm leaning towards a dwarf or qunari since I have yet to finish a run with one of those, but everything else is up in the air. =)

Templates are by @marianchurchland and can be found here, art is mine!

[missiletoe]

very backlogged on the ao3 comments, thank u everyone for commenting <3 and will get around to answering them at some point o7 (hopefully this weekend, maybe next though)

have some more kittyuri in the meantime for the yuri shipping olympics!! i also cooked another kittyuri last night that i will formally link on tumblr at some point and i have an alien stage crack fic actor AU that is literally 99% done but i have been putting off edits for a week now so stay tuned!!

Prompt: “The two of you look cute together. I think you should go for it.” “That’s not what I meant!” “My point still stands.”

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“Q!” Kitty screams at the top of her lungs. There’s the sound of boxes falling in the distance. “IT’S AN EMERGENCY!”

Q comes barreling out of the bedroom and sticks the landing on Minho’s new shipment of Ultra-Rare-Hygienic-Made-From-Fairy-Tears-Probably skincare products. Thank god she won’t be around for the aftermath.

“Good morning, Kitty,” Q says as the afternoon sun beats down on him through the window. His pants are on backwards and he looks like he hasn’t slept in days. “To what do I owe the pleasure?”

Kitty screams because she thinks that’s the best way to express the news. Q jumps a foot in the air in response.

“Yuri asked me out!” she shrieks.

“The two of you look cute together. I think you should go for it.”

“That’s not what I meant!”

“My point still stands. Okay, slow down.” Q mimics deep breaths like they’re in a grade-school level health class. Kitty doesn’t like the sarcasm but appreciates the gesture. “Start from the beginning. Tell me what happened.”

“I-I don’t know,” she replies, rolling her wrist. “We were just talking and I think I told her she was pretty or something–I mean, she’s always pretty, it’s like saying the grass is green or the sky is blue, did you know the other day–”

“Kitty.”

“Right. Staying on track! I don’t know, it was all out of the blue and then she laughed and she looked at me and it was like one of those slo-mo shots in a romcom and she asked if I wanted to go out with her and I asked her where and then she said no, silly, do you want to be my girlfriend and then I panicked.”

Q closes his eyes slowly like he’s been slapped across the face. 

“Okay, that was a lot but that’s good! When did this happen? And where?”

Kitty glances quickly at the door. Q groans and slaps one hand over his forehead.

“Kitty, you didn’t.”

She gives a garbled noise of protest in response.

“I’m sorry, I don’t speak Ukrainian. What I’m sure you’re trying to say though is that you definitely did not slam the door in Yuri’s face after she confessed to you–especially after I had to struggle through a year of watching you hopelessly pine, right?”

“Actually, I asked her for 1-3 business days to think about it.”

“KITTY!”

“Can’t you frame it in a more positive light?” she hisses. Now that Q’s pointed out the door, she’s hyper-aware of it–or more accurately, what’s behind it.

“There is no light that can save this situation!” Q yells back. Wonderful, the whole floor’s probably heard the news by now. Kitty Song Covey is a bisexual disaster who doesn’t have a single thing right in her life–not her grades, not her understanding of her culture and definitely not her love life.

“It’s fine.” Q’s pacing now and it’s not a good pacing. It’s more of an anxious stomping that looks like it’s gonna leave dents in the carpet. “It’s fine! Yuri’s spent a year with you. She knows what you’re like and she still asked you out, which means she likes you for you and I’m sure that slamming a door in her face won’t change that.” They both stare at the dorm door that suddenly looks like it’s looming over the room. “I hope.”

“Okay, moving on. Why didn’t you say yes? You’re clearly crazy about Yuri. And Yuri’s apparently just as crazy about you.”

“I don’t know, Q.” Kitty pushes aside a notebook to make room for her to sit on the counter. It’s probably Minho’s. It makes her feel less bad about the way it falls into the sink. “It’s been a year and I still don’t know if I’m gay or bi or pan or… something else entirely!” Kitty slaps a fat stack of paper on the dining table for emphasis–a physical copy of the Lesbian Masterdoc, courtesy of one crappy KISS Academy printer. “I don’t even know if I like girls! I mean, Yuri’s the only girl that I’ve ever felt like this about… I think?”

Q sticks one hand out into the Kitty-tornado swirling around him.

“Kitty, understanding your sexuality is a process. It’s not always a static thing–sometimes things happen and you learn something new about yourself. And sometimes, the thing you discover at the end of researching all these labels is that you don’t actually like any of them! And that’s totally fine. You don’t need every detail about yourself figured out before you jump into a relationship.”

Kitty blinks up at him wordlessly.

“Kitty, do you like Yuri?” Q asks, and it’s really more of a formality than anything. Kitty nods and thinks it doesn’t even come close to expressing her affection. “Then that’s really all you need.”

“Okay,” Kitty says as she pushes herself off the counter. She’s hopping from foot-to-foot like one of those boxers warming up in the ring before the fight. Q’s in the coach’s corner, hyping her up. “Okay, I can do this!”

Kitty flings open the door to a startled Yuri, still leaning against the wall from where Kitty left her 20 minutes ago.

“Yes, I’ll marry you! Ah, wait, no I meant I’ll go out with you! Please let me be your girlfriend, I promise I won’t mess up this much!” She’s half-sobbing by the end and Yuri nearly doubles over from laughter.

“Is she always like this?” she asks Q.

“You know it.”

“I do.” Yuri looks up at her and there’s that smile again that makes the world melt away. “It’s what I like about her.”

[kelandrin]

Kelandrin

[Drow Dark Urge Paladin]

he/him | cis man | bisexual

Character Analysis [spoilers]:

Kelandrin was given the name "Mass'tyr" by the Drow woman who saw fit to raise him. He was always a disturbed child, being described by his "sisters" as unnerving. When his adoptive mother gave birth to another son, he killed the infant by suffocating it and disposed of the body (likely ate it). When he came of age and the urge awoke in him, he burned his adoptive home to the ground, killing the entire family and fleeing the Drow capital Menzoberranzan. He spent ages roaming from place to place. His MO was quiet observation and getting as much as he could from people through deception before he decided to finally kill them. While most of his killings were done with a cool head and even temper, he was not beyond bouts of fury, which were usually spurned by other Bhaalists being disobedient, disloyal, or incompetent.

While incredibly unimpressed with Orin's personality, he found her an effective enough killer, permitting her in his service. Her theatrics were annoying but he was willing to overlook them, though he would tell her plainly that she was wasting her time with her "art", preferring practicality over all else. His tolerant nature would end when she lobotomized him.

Throughout act one, Kelandrin was willing to indulge the odd urge or two but was primarily concerned with what it meant in relation to his past. The removal of the tadpole took priority, though so he let his concerns about his history sit on the back burner. Despite this, his nature still drove him to make practical decisions and he continued his method of entering a space diplomatically before deciding whether to kill everyone or not. Without his memories, however, he had no motive to isolate or distance himself from his companions and warmed to the idea of forming friendships. Astarion in particular intrigued him, both for his physicality ("pretty corpse") and for his wit and pension for violence. He accepted the vampire's advances without a second thought.

His amusement with Astarion grew more sincere. Kelandrin's innate drive to be loyal to someone was loose without his memories and it settled on Astarion as they shared bodies (both their own in the sexual sense and other peoples' in the murder sense.)

With Sceleratis Fel's appearance and the familiarity of people and locations in Act Two, Kelandrin's temper grew. He began growing aware that his memory loss was not an accident but rather an act of disobedient betrayal. He almost killed Ketheric on sight but restrained himself, prioritizing his usual methodology but swearing he would kill Ketheric by the time they were through with Moonrise. Despite this, he hesitated to kill Isobel at his mysterious father's command. He did not see the point in it as she was more useful to him alive. Naturally, this incurred Bhaal's wrath, which turned his urge on Astarion. The disaster was averted luckily, but the ordeal pushed Kelandrin's loyalty to Astarion even further, verging on the zealous love for a savior.

In Act Three, when Kel’s past was fully unveiled, his wrath became uncontrollable. To him, Orin’s disobedience and betrayal was the greatest crime one could commit and he vowed to destroy her as brutally as possible. However, he was still deeply conflicted by the prospect of taking up his birthright again. By this point, Kelandrin was fully dedicated to Astarion’s cause and whims, even prioritizing the vampire’s revenge over his own. He was not wholly unaware of what one might consider Astarion’s “toxic” qualities, like the manipulation. Rather, Kelandrin absorbed those things into his own interpretation of “love.” “Loving” Astarion meant doing what Astarion wanted, just as loving Bhaal had meant doing what Bhaal wanted. If anything, Astarion was the more affectionate god as Kelandrin trusted Astarion not to throw him away as easily as Bhaal had. Kelandrin encouraged Astarion’s ascendancy and fully submitted to him, letting him turn Kelandrin into a vampire.

Orin’s kidnapping of Yena was another act of disobedience in Kelandrin’s eyes. To Kelandrin, Yena was something that belonged to himself and Astarion, and Orin’s transgression was just another reason to kill her. Similarly, learning about Gortash’s betrayal of Karlach, who Kelandrin had developed a soft spot for, spurred Kelandrin’s rage further. Gortash and Orin had wronged him and those he favored and Kel valued loyalty above all else. His anger was so great that by the time he met Saravok, he did not have the patience for the old man’s “lessons” and he killed his fellow Bhaalspawn immediately. Then he confronted Orin, slaying her at his father’s altar. Bhaal offered Kelandrin his position as chosen. Kelandrin weighed dying versus being beholden to his father and chose the latter, creating an uneasy balance between his love for Astarion and his love for his father.

Ultimately, he did what both his father and Astarion wanted him to do and betrayed mindflayer Karlach, taking control of the Netherbrain.

Fun Facts & Trivia:

Kelandrin is a firm believer in cannibalism and the habit started well before his urge first manifested.

Kelandrin didn't give his name to Shadowheart or Lae'zel on the mindflayer ship. It was only when Astarion met him and asked for his name did Kelandrin give it. HOWEVER, Kelandrin's memory was so skewed that he simply said the first name that came to mind: Kalandrin, a drow name that means Elf Rogue. His accent made it sound like Kelandrin and he has gone by that ever since.

Kelandrin is actually quite fond of children as he considers them high potential.

Kelandrin's poor naming habits continued. He renamed the orphaned Dragonborn he offered to raise to be Astarion's spawn post-game "Zekroos" which translates directly to "Dragon child" (FIC LINK)

He hates cats. It is more that they hate him and he doesn't have the patience for that.

Kelandrin has his own “cute” nicknames for Astarion, most of which are just drow names with special meanings. His favorite is “Imd” which translates to “heart blood”.

Kelandrin might be bisexual but he also hates 90% of women. Being a misogynist isn’t his most toxic trait but it is definitely the one that will get him cancelled first.

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[kieranwritess]

COD MWII x Cyberpunk 2077 AU Brainrot

Fandom: Call of Duty

Characters: 141, LV, Graves, Laswell

Notes: cw for graves /lh, perhaps a bit of implied soapghost, bisexual soap, bisexual johnny silverhand, probably ooc but i do what i want ❤️

a/n: inspired by @yeyinde and my midnight-fueled obsession :) I'll probably make a part two to this because it's now my baby. knowledge of Cyberpunk 2077 is recommended because I reference in-universe characters. yes it's very niche, no I don't care.

- set in 2077

- they would all hate Johnny Silverhand. no exceptions.

- Soap's a little sad he shares a name with that fellow bi disaster bastard tho

- in a similar vein, they'd probably not be too fond of River; Price would envy him for his naivety and Gaz sees himself in River

- fanon Rogue and Price would 100% bond over being mother hens to a ragtag group of idiots

- Graves but Meredith Stout

- no questions asked

- the bitch would work for Militech or some other arms corp

- probably Militech because it is very American™ and he's a little yeeyee boy

- i might have Rudy's characterization wrong, but I feel like he'd have started in the NCPD like River

- poor boys only wanted to make the world better but instead Rudy became jaded and is sort of resigned to his job like Han

- Alejandro would be his buddy from Heywood who was always trying to get him to quit the force

- Ghost is probably the most like V in terms of skills and attitude

- but he's not some gonk kid who wants to make it big, he's made it big

- fixers either love him or they hate him

- one of those "going down in a blaze of glory" dudes

- would never work with Dex, though, and is especially relieved he never did after he hears about the Arasaka heist

- Price: veteran, but in a Mitch way and not a 6th street way. I feel like he had the potential to be a fixer, but wanted to try to have a quiet life after the war (Price bbg, there is no such thing as a quiet life in NC)

- is kind of like Takemura in the sense he'd love to run off and join a nomad clan (because fuck this place, honestly)

- but NC is all he knows and he has people he cares about there (read as: poor dude is attached to the 141 boys)

- Johnny (Silverhand) respects him, even if Price wants to rip him a new one every second they're around each other

- he could definitely become a mentor figure to V and would consider joining up with them if they take The Star ending

- honestly, i can still see Laswell working for the NUSA government

- but I'm not sure how we'd get a connection between her and the 141

- fuck logic, Price and Kate are still besties

- Soap and Panam get on like a house on fire

- a propensity for a little rule breaking and an affection harbored for an authority figure (i'll let you decide in what sense) brings them together

- I probably hc Gaz as younger than he actually is, but he gives off baby solo vibes

- brb thinking back to Jackie and V at the food stall outside of H10 and crying about it

- anyways

- Gaz would probably be the most like streetkid V

- bro knows his way around local fixers

- hc that Ghost and Gaz met on a job before Ghost made it big time

- and Ghost is all "I work alone >:(" but they discover that they work well together

- again thinking back to the streetkid intro, albeit Ghost is nowhere near the same as Jackie personality wise

- they probably grew apart after Ghost becomes a solo

- but Ghost is the first one to suggest Gaz when asked to put together a team for a big job (i.e. the heist but it doesn't go sideways)

- and yeah imo that's how c77!141 is put together

- Ghost knows Gaz, Gaz grew up around Price, and Price knows of Soap through the grapevine

- I guess to "convert" each of them into ttrpg factions, Soap is a techie, Ghost is a solo, Price is prolly a fixer, and Gaz might fall under lawman (as a PI or something)

- i am making less and less sense so I'm gonna stop here for now

[nathan-caruso]

Basics

Full Name: Nathan Vincent Caruso

FC: Noah Centineo

Age/DOB: 28 / April 18th, 1996

Zodiac: Aries

Occupation: Barista @ The Cozy Cup

Living Arrangements: Small studio apartment in South Hills

Sexuality: Bisexual

Secret: Smokes weed

Biography in the read more! TW: Mentions of drugs, death, alcohol addiction.

Born and raised in the South Hills of Wilmington, NC, Nathan was the oldest out of five children to a single Italian-American mother. Despite being a step-sibling to the younger kids, Nathan was basically like another parent to them. His mother worked two jobs: by morning, she worked as a receptionist at the vet’s office and by night, she did housekeeping at a local motel. Even working the two jobs, Nathan saw the struggle his mother had and decided at a young age to help her in every way he could. He made sure the other kids were fed, cleaned, taken care of, and even tried his best to keep the house looking clean and orderly. At least his mom never had to worry about the 3 bedroom trailer they called home being a disaster if nothing else. When Nathan was 8 months old, his biological father was killed in a car crash. That was how his mother ended up in North Carolina all the way from Northern Italy: to escape the memories of her great love after his death and to be with her grandmother again. His mother met Todd Andrews through the vet’s office and found out love gives second chances. They got married quickly after meeting and thought life was going to be picture perfect. Unfortunately though… Nathan’s step-father, Todd, was a rotating part of his life. He would be with the family, be a semi-decent dad for a few months, disappear for weeks, then repeat. It wasn’t until Nathan was around age 14 that he finally figured out that his step-father was an alcoholic and drug-addict. Nathan’s mother tried to make it work for years until Todd missed the birth of the youngest Andrews kid. His mom called it quits then and filed for divorce. Nathan stepped up and started working odd jobs for cash, giving the money to his mother for bills. Or sometimes he even just went ahead and purchased groceries with the money. Nathan somehow managed to barely make it through school and earned his high school diploma. Throughout high school, he worked as a bag boy part time at the local supermarket. It was once he graduated that Nathan found a full time job at the local coffee shop in Midtown Wilmington. He found using his good looks, sense of humor, and charming personality led to some good tips on the busy days. As his younger siblings got older, Nathan started saving some of his money for himself instead and finally purchased himself a car at age 21 to get him from point A to point B. Next, the young adult secured a small studio apartment in South Hills, nearby if his mother or siblings needed him. After moving out, Nathan discovered his love for weed. Despite the plant being a drug and illegal still in North Carolina, Nathan loved getting high. However, the male kept the smoking a secret from his mother for fear of being labeled a drug addict or something in that sense. The male just lived his life: working at the coffee shop, trying his best to be a good son and brother, and loving all those that crossed his path.