#this woman’s MIND y’all
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In a kinder world, Mary Hatford would never have married Nathan Wesninski.
Or, maybe she would have. Maybe in a kinder world, Nathan would have learned to be kind, too.
In the real world, Mary knew that no amount of kindness could show Nathan how to be a human. Even the kindest world could not suck the hatred out of his blood.
In a kind world, learning that she was pregnant with Nathan’s son would have been a blessing, not a curse. Giving birth to Abram would have been the happiest moment of her life. Holding her son for the first time, she would have felt nothing but joy and love, hope for the future he would have.
In the real world, Mary was terrified as she looked into her baby’s blue eyes. She knew that the road ahead of them would not be an easy one, knew that her son was not likely to live to adulthood. In the real world, Mary looked down at her son, so innocent and small and absolutely clueless to the monstrous world he’d just been born into, and she cried.
In a kind world, little Abram would never have had to learn how to wield a knife. Mary would never know what it was like to wash a man’s blood off of her eight-year-old son’s face. In a kinder world, her son was allowed to be a child.
In the real world, Abram watched a man die for the first time at five years old. At seven, Nathan bought the boy a dog and then made Abram help him slaughter it. In the real world, her son had taken a man’s life by the time he turned nine.
In a kinder world, They never would have needed to run. Abram would never be in enough danger for that. In a kind world, he would have been allowed to grow up like every other little boy. He would get to run around at the park and scrape his knees and yell as loudly as he could. He would be able to call as much attention to himself as he wanted, and he would never have to worry that death was coming for him.
In the real world, Mary woke him in the middle of the night three weeks after his tenth birthday. In the real world, she either had to take him away or watch him die. It wasn’t a hard choice to make.
In the real world, they ran and they ran and they ran. They could never stop running, not unless they wanted to stop breathing. In the real world, her son lives but he never gets to be alive.
In a kind world, Seattle is just a city. In a kind world, maybe they take a family trip there. Maybe Abram argues with another tourist over something stupid. Maybe they go out to dinner or take pictures at all of the popular sights. Maybe in a kinder world, Seattle is beautiful.
In the real world, Mary can barely remember Seattle. All she can remember is pain and fear and the need to get as much distance between Abram and Nathan as she can. In the real world, she never saw the metal pipe coming.
In a kind world, Mary lives a long life. She watches Abram graduate high school and then college, watches him play exy for years until an injury forces him to retire. She watches him fall in love with the strangest boy she’s ever met, a blond even shorter than she is who rarely smiles and loves to talk about the zombie apocalypse.
In a kind world, Mary is there when Abram gets married. She lives long enough to meet her two grandchildren and a handful of the many cats Abram and Andrew adopt. She lives a long life, and when death takes her, she isn’t afraid.
In the real world, fate isn’t so kind. In the real world, Abram still grows up. He graduates high school, then college. He plays exy for years. He even falls in love, gets married, adopts two kids and an unreasonable number of cats.
But in the real world, Mary isn’t there for any of it. In the real world, Mary doesn’t even get to see Abram turn 18.
In the real world, Mary Hatford dies at age 42, desperate and afraid on a cold stretch of California beach. In the real world, she doesn’t get a happy ending.
#aftg#tfc#all for the game#the foxhole court#neil josten#aftg textpost#mary hatford#listen guys i’m obsessed with mary#this woman’s MIND y’all#she’s so fascinating to me#this was gonna be a full length ao3 fic but i just… couldn’t make it long enough to justify posting it#so. here we are#sorry if this makes no sense#it came to me while i was stoned out of my fucking mind#splishsplash originals
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“Rhysta would work better than Feysand because Nesta has the will power to actually put Rhysand in his place and stand up to him”
Nesta facing an angry Rhys:
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Feyre facing an angry Rhys:
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Tell me again which one of them has the power to put him in his place? Tell me again which one of them he would actually listen to when upset? Oh okay.
#feyre archeron#nesta archeron#rhysand#pro feyre#feysand#high lady feyre#rhysta#rhysand x nesta#nesta x rhysand#rhys x nesta#pro feysand#feyre darling#acotar#Acomaf#acowar#acosf#feyre x rhysand#do I have to bring up how she ran out of the city when Rhys threatened her too? or when she reported to his office at dawn to get yelled at?#or when she let him in her mind when he didn’t trust her around pregnant feyre? this the woman that y’all say is holding her ground against#him?
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sorry but if you don’t want me assuming nancy isn’t straight then tell her to stop being gay
#looking at a woman with longing in her eyes#and some of y’all will be like “ah yes a heterosexual woman”#ronance#bancy#criminal minds#nancy wheeler#barbra holland#stranger things
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I’ve been seeing a lot of people shit on straight couples in shipping and in general as a "joke" lately, particularly in the Dungeon Meshi fandom. Friendly reminder that, besides the evil straights, when you mock or put down straight couples for being straight/"not queer enough", you also make bi and pan people, and trans and ace people who experience hetero attraction feel unwelcome and lesser. Negativity hurts, love is love, happy valentine’s!
#It’s not even unironic or subtle anymore. Very uncomfy ngl#I know which side of the ace discourse y’all would be on and I do not like it#A lot of people reading will have the gut instinct of “shut up straight 🙄” and if that’s you I want you to pause and think about that#Yes I understand the historical sociopolitical reasons. Can we not rise above and not be exclusionists#When did queerness start being a performance needed to belong here. When did it become synonym for morality of a ship.#Not even gonna put this post in general tags bc I’m scared but if I get backlash my point will only be made tbh. What about this is wrong#Will being an ace heteroflexible-demiromantic queer woman save me some heat? Doubtful and that’s the sad thing isn’t it#Never straight enough for the straights never gay enough for the gays.#Bi marcille and ace laios laimar <3 Not that they care tho#I love being a multishipper. Laicion and farcille and marchil and laimar and cittadol and labru having a tea party in my mind and thriving#Is it not enough to be happy and uplifting
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lesbophobia from anti separatists is bad and misogyny + biphobia from same-sex attracted separatists is bad. none of the weirdos that engage in this kind of bullying and harassment are engaging meaningfully or sincerely with the principles or values of radical feminism. can we now start interacting with each other on the basis of actual theory rather than assuming anyone who ventures to discuss or debate theory is either of these people?
#please I just want to talk theory and feminist politics with grownups#that’s literally all I fucking ask#radblr#feminism#radfem#can y’all please learn to self-regulate while we’re at it#it’s unhealthy to treat nearly every woman on here with suspicion#like I know there’s racists and misogynists and homophobes on here as they are everywhere#but I am not hunting them down I’d rather mind my business and pop the weasel when it shows it’s head#please I just want to talk feminist strategy that will liberate as many women as possible Omg#separatism
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Hum. I think I just found out my gender identity.
#🦋musings#I won’t say it yet since I don’t like people assigning stereotypes on me but uh#its more of a how I see myself kind of thing#like being a ‘woman’ is like. just what you are functionally and socially with the most experience of being#but other times I am either a little guy that doesn’t mind being feminine#like being a woman is a drag persona level stuff#or a genderless entity that is apathetic towards how I am referred to#I don’t feel extreme dysphoria but I do feel like ‘:/ not really it chief’#but I do feel a kind of euphoria when Im referred by masculine titles idk#not that I hate being a woman/im not a woman at all; I do like womanhood too#but yeah they/them for the most part lmao#was afraid to come out since a platonic ex of mine was spouting about what genders were ‘real’ and ‘fake’#‘I must use my REAL ASSIGNED GENDER PRONOUNS or I am a TRENDER!!’ + other platonic ex was already using she/her on me without asking anyway#and it always felt off/sometimes demeaning in the way that they say it#aOh and don’t get me started on how people started to treat me once I started using she/her I swear some of y’all#and the fetishy babyfied way people treated me when I used masculine titles and pronouns#ANYHOW#and even thought it didn’t fully fit with me + the misogyny felt awful I thought I was a wannabe liar for wanting to explore myself#then realized after leaving that I can in fact be all and neither because that’s only for me to decide#not that there’s anything wrong with feminine identity; I just resent how people treat you due to the simple difference of your identity#GOD the more I look into 2019 until 2021 I realize how god awful of a place I was in#yeah I’m washed up old and nobody gives a shit cause I’m not giving them free art but life is so liberating now#I HAVE NO MASTERS NOR CREEDS TO HEED TO!#fuck them bitches!!!
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it was never my life to live and he didn’t fall for the real me… he fell for an accessory and thought he could just change the label while things stayed the same
#sorry y’all I’m probably gonna be venting about this the next few weeks#still getting over the sudden ending of this SR and I’m working my way through it#wait why am I apologizing it’s my blog 😭#mine#SB chronicles#it will probably irk me for a while that he thinks I’m at fault for the way things ended when it was entirely him#and he will probably think of me as sensitive and petty and a hoe that was just after his money and he’ll be all the more bitter#towards women after this and I feel bad for whoever he picks up after me#he’s just on a cycle of rebounds…. not healthy at all#his punishment is who he is and no woman in her healed mind is going to stay with him once she realizes who he is#he will end up alone sooner or later#or keep running through women bc he eventually takes his facade off#maybe white women can handle all that emotional abuse but not me baby#I like my men respectful sweet patient and kind and good at communication#I still can’t believe I was going to date him for real and before I could get those words out#he immediately showed me why I would have regretted that decision#I somehow dodged a bullet but still experiencing pain and feeling like I was owed more good times with him#I just wanted a few more months of all the good…..#but there were a lot of things that irritated the shit out of me and I’m forgetting to remember those things#I’m romanticizing our time together#I mean it was wonderful while it was good but I hated hearing and smelling his fucking gross f*rts#that is definitely something I will never get used to tolerating from a man#or how easily distracted he was or how he didn’t like to sit inside of moments like I do#how he often gave me the illusion of choice but then we ended up doing whatever he wanted#I definitely would think ‘oh I can’t wait to never deal with _____ again’ and now I don’t have to 🤷🏾♀️#I just miss the affection attention and sex and how I felt disconnected from my sad reality when I was in his world#I just liked his world#it was rich and quiet and high quality and carefree
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I gotta be honest, I don’t engage with the Criminal Minds fandom (despite having watched all of the original show + Evolution and read up on as much of the spin-offs as I could) because I don’t like how prevalent the racism and sexism and infantilization is in the fandom. There’s just enough of all that shit upfront that I don’t want to dig any deeper than I already have. I’m good, I get enough of that shit in fandoms that I’ve been apart of for years I’m not gonna let this shit sully my love for this show anymore than it already has (especially considering the show’s writing itself is not devoid of these faults).
I’d rather just love the show and dissect it and write analysis and fanfic for it and shit on my own.
My fav characters (just cause & kind of in best to least order): Penelope Garcia (she’s literally me, I love her), Derek Morgan, Emily Prentiss, Jordan Todd, Matt Simmons, David Rossi.
#like I’ll never forget or forgive the amount of vitriol Jordan Todd got and still gets from fans despite barely lasting on the show#the hate is disproportionate and reeks of nothing but misogynoir#criminal minds#just the way I saw Ashley Seaver being talked about and how misogynistic the language being used to criticize her character was enough to#throw me off of the broader fandom— and I don’t even like her like that she was just there#criminal minds critical#then there’s how much of the larger vocal parts of the fandom shit on Derek without taking any of the nuances into account from his#character (like they do with there white favs)#and how much bad faith readings of his character are put into people’s opinion pieces of Derek#and I just don’t fuck with that#like it’s weird that all the white characters in the BAU get whole dissertations when people write hcs but the black ones (even Derek) will#get some generic ass hc that’s not even character specific#like everyone gets these well thought out ‘what they’d smell like’ hcs that’re 1-2 paragraphs long & Derek’s is one line that’s just like:#‘he smells like axe body spray because he’s a fuck boy duh’ and that was it#like just no fucking care or effort (Derek is a black man & a womanizer - he’s too refined for the ‘fuck boy’ title) y’all know he smells#like that good expensive cologne that Penelope couldn’t get enough of and that lingered in a room after he left#don’t play with me#I hate how much Reid gets babied too and while he’s not one of my fav characters I still really like him but how much he’s lowkey watered#down in fandom to be the ‘poor little skinny white boy meow meow’ is annoying as shit and undermines his character (in my opinion)#even how centered the male characters are irritates me to some extent but this fandom has more female leading ships than most#the shipping culture is also just toxic af despite that#but yeah#I could say more but I don’t feel like typing in the tags anymore#BYE HEIFERS#✨trix speaks✨
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thinking about how truly frantic scully gets when she becomes convinced that jackson is the only person who could protect or save mulder. like she spends 16 years suffering resigning herself to never even contacting her child and making sure he’s hidden and no one could find him and then like 1 dream that makes her feel like mulder needs it, and she’s like, well! guess i’m tracking him down today!
#‘i have to find our son you need him AND I NEED YOU!!!!!’#she doesn’t like. have anything else.#in the end when she knows it’s okay because the visions are from jackson ‘i don’t know how but i know he’s guiding me. and you’#yeah :(#their baby 17 with the end of the world on his shoulders and all he can do is send a woman he doesn’t remember a dream#thinking of how he describes it to his girlfriend as sharing his pain with ‘this woman maybe my birth mom i don’t know’#y’all i know that the show didn’t utilize ‘mulder and scully have a psychic kid’ properly or nearly enough but like#i don’t mind because just the fact that they established it DELIGHTS me#txf.txt#my struggle iii
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You ever see a theory video from Swifttok and your reaction to it is like good god I can’t believe people navigate their lives with so few brain cells and that much confidence.
#taylor swift#like that’s such a dangerous/deadly combination#I am not on swifttok I just sometimes see videos on other social media sites#like have y’all seen that woman who is convinced Taylor has been wearing a wig for the past decade!?? absolutely mind boggling
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good morning today i’m going to have lunch with a bunch of strangers i am apparently related to.
#ooc. o kaptain.#[so as a stereotype I have this cousin who is very active in the church is the very Greek etc etc and she also married a dude who was#ridiculously $$$$ anyway he was a dirtbag and when he died she inherited his company. so she’s a Brooklyn democrat who lives in Connecticut#and we love her. she’s also out of her mind and has been turning up every family member we’ve never heard of. my big yiayia (great grandma’s#) relatives. my aunt’s treatment was the other day hence my disappearing act and today I’m going with her to meet these weirdos just in case#she’s too tired. it’s at the fucking stanwich club I do not want to be wearing a button down at like 9 am on a Saturday. I wanna write and#I wanna go back 2 SLEEP. how y’all doing??? I love you. time to meet more Greeks. oh. hey. did I mention… that my big yiayia was like the#meanest woman alive. she loved to 98 off of nothing but spite.]
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It’s really interesting because I’ve been around tumblr since around 2011/2012, and started seeing more social justice related stuff around 2013/2014-2017 and during that time. Trying to explain how the general demonization of men on this site was harmful to multiple groups and not at all helpful to feminism would get you labeled a bad feminist at best and a hateful anti sjw alt right MRA type at worst. At that time I really only remember the anti sjw accounts being the ones to bring up the topic of how it was harmful to various groups and how yes, there are real problems that men face that people should care about, and I’ve noticed that has changed a lot in the past couple years, especially with people drawing attention to how a lot of “all men are inherently bad” posts are coming from terfs who aren’t just talking about men. I think it’s really genuinely very refreshing to see and I’ve never liked generalizing a whole group based on a thing they cannot control. A person’s actions are much more important that an aspect of themselves they were born with.
#I’m having trouble putting my thoughts into words again#like yes ‘all men are trash’ ‘kill all men’ ‘all men are born violent and dangerous’#often come from groups that consider trans women to be men#and it hurts anybody amab and trans men or really anybody masc presenting (butch lesbians being harassed in bathrooms comes to mind)#and people are even bringing up how these things contribute to dangerous stereotypes against men of color which is super important#(ever notice how those people who suspect human traffickers in target always say Hispanic or Mexican men?)#(or the white woman who called the cops because a black man told her her dog should be on a leash which is a perfectly reasonable request)#like I hate to break it to some of y’all but. men are people. all men are people.#and the actual sexist or predatory or violent men aren’t being hurt by this#not to mention how often these groups will respond to genuinely horrible things a man has done with#‘of course he did that he’s a man’ ‘all men are inherently like that’ ect#as if that’s not just ‘boys will be boys’ in another font#blaming smth on somebody’s gender doesn’t hold them accountable for the actions they personally took
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cute outfit
#martha stewart#Martha documentary#it’s a documentary kind of morning#Martha Stewart living is something else y’all#she really tried to teach white women how to make the meals their black and brown servants made them#with some razzle dazzle#being a white woman is something else she really#she condensed all of her experiences into a craft and sold it for a high price#they laughed at her for selling in Kmarts#it me#she learned a lot of real shit don’t get me wrong but she did also sell it in a blonde hair blue eyed package#cuz I’m watching this and u know who comes to mind? literally any Italian woman who went to school to do what Martha got inspired by#on vacationnnnnn like that’s wild to me#she gets these fits off tho#and she’s funny
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YOU HEARD WHAT I SAID! The majority of WHITE WOMEN gave trump the presidency! They are the VAIN OF OUR EXISTENCE!! Hews are not to be trusted.
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#I don’t trust a race who votes for a rapist over a more qualified woman#At least I was forced to say reluctantly#I chose rape because my dad#was angry at me for speaking my mind#Y’all hews voted for a rapist three times#Ww are the Bain of my existence#And if your daughter has a little baby because of rape or incest#And you get all upset#Imma be like “HEW WHO DID YOU VOTE FOR?!?”#Like you asked for them rape babies and grand babies#Welp#This is me the next 4 years#. Fuck those backstabbing people#they say that they are with us#and they vote for this 3rd grade educated unpa lumpa.#Fuck you all!#I’ll see you in 2026#I hope you suffer bad#. I’ll side eye you at the midterms#and prepare to be sick of me in 2028#There’s no protest or prayers#It’s thoughts and deportations#thoughts and consecration camps#thoughts and Gaza being the new beachfront resort#thoughts and the Palestine ppl#who’s lives you screwed#because you wanted to revenge vote#against Kamala Harris#outrage against you#Like they asked for it
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i hope this man is at least as bothered by me as i am him. but i REALLY hope he’s pissed tf off that i’m acting normal.
#laurel posts#vent post#dubiousposting#vent post I’M SO SORRY Y’ALL BUYT I HATE THIS MF#the uni may have let him get away with shit but he knows i know!!!#and he knows i only shut up because i WAS SHUT UP!!!!#i hope he dies painfully in a fire#i hope he is stabbed to death#stoned out of his mind#by a woman he startled#i hope he just. never gets a good job and gets used by people in a way as painful as he likes to use them#i hope one day he looks up at the world and realizes he’s stupid and powerless and cruel and deserves nothing#FUCK this man. fuck him and may his family be blessed by his absence one day.#i hope he brings sunglasses in the rain and an extra jacket for a heatwave#may he never have children#may any children accusred to have him as their father have friends to give them support and also legos that he may find and step on them#may the excuses he makes all come true#just as his friends realize he had been lying#may people slip his wife phone numbers for just in case and may she use them before it is too late#may his wrist be shattered and his heart clogged#may his every fingernail warp inwards#may dogs bite him and babies cry at his face and may no cat ever suffer his presence#may every person who would not hear us one day see him on the news and think ‘i could have stopped it’#again sorry i’m not usually this vitriolic but this man WILL kill someone someday#or worse#and he will do it on purpose because he likes to cause pain#he is everything wrong in churches and with masculinity#FUCK him#anyway!#i need to sleep but literally just his name makes my fcuking head throb
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[Image ID: tags written by @/angelofthemornings. They read,
#the great iggy pop #once had a photoshoot where he wore a dress (it was REALLY flattering on him)
#and he said “if there's nothing wrong with BEING a woman then there's nothing wrong with dressing like a woman”
#basically
#you don't need some intense justification to dress like a woman #unless you think there's something kind of wrong or weird or degrading about being a woman
#such that you have to apologize for looking like one
#(so I was perfectly fine with this guy when she was a crossdresser. it's not that big a deal.)
#(it's fun she's a part of our community though - | always liked him she's cute)
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ok so now that finnster's come out as genderfluid and started taking hrt can we stop trying to force people to choose labels and define their identity. everyone's always talking about support for queer people with unconventional presentations and identities but when someone's not sure about what their gender identity actually is they get criticized for it. finn said in his video that part of the reason why he took so long with coming out was because he wasn't sure what label actually applied to him (and he still isn't even sure if genderfluid feels like the right label for him) and the debate surrounding it was making him uncomfortable. which kind of sucks tbh. idk i dont like how much identity policing ive seen around them it feels like people just aren't comfortable with 'weird' gender presentation
#image id#very very happy for F1nn for figuring out her identity#I feel so bad for them having to figure it out in front of so many judgey people#like. if he had turned out to be just a cis man who liked dressing like a woman there’d be absolutely nothing wrong with that#y’all have a serious problem with being cruel to people outside of gender norms#just because you include trans people in your oppressive gender norms and binary or trinary (in cases of making non binary people a third -#- gender) doesn’t make you an okay person#in fact it means that you kind of suck and should maybe reflect on your opinions and thought processes#leave people alone#I am a firm believer in that real people cannot queerbait#you are in no way entitled to someone’s identity or labels or lack thereof#stop fucking harassing people and start minding your own business
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