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cffeelia · 4 months ago

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divine, divine | k. namjoon

“you are my pain divine, divine.”

summary: your long time boyfriend is the leader of the biggest band in the world. you’d imagine he would have some more time for you now that the group was temporarily disbanded, but he’s still busy with an album, leaving you to feel unwanted and lonely. it’s only a matter of time before he leaves for the military and all you want is to see him do anything but fall asleep in his studio.

kind of angsty but pinky promise it ends on a good note 🙏🙏

2022

bts has become apart of your life as much as it’s apart of your boyfriend’s, seeing as he’s the leader of the group. for the past 4 years, youve grown closer to the boys, growing a special relationship with each of them. from sitting backstage on tour, to placing blankets over them as they slept in their studio. you’ve seen all of their highs and lows, seeing as their moods basically determined your boyfriends.

namjoon lives vicariously through his band mates, if they were upset, so was he. 2020 was a rough patch for everyone, but namjoon took it so harshly. that was the first time you’d ever seen him sob, hands running through his bleached hair as he fell to his knees in your shared apartment.

“what am i even good for if it’s not music? and i can’t even get anything out in this time where everyone needs me. ____, why am i even here?”

all you could do was tuck his head into your chest, your mouth lightly parted as tears fell silently while he cried into your shirt. he’s never crashed this hard before, you needed to say something, anything.

you managed to calm him down after about ten minutes, the night ended with him wrapped in your arms, eyes puffed from his sobs.

thankfully, that year never repeated. you learned a lot about namjoon, his moods, how to comfort him. he wasn’t always a touchy guy, opting for words of affirmation both to you and to receive, but this year taught him how much he loved to be held by you. he would never take that for granted.

things went back to normal after about two years, and bangtan was excited to perform again for their permission to dance tour, though it wasn’t to the scale of the one they originally planned. however, the tour was successful, and definitely memorable for not just you, but your boyfriend and his band mates as well. you can still recall the night they closed off the tour, ‘mikrokosmos’ always would hold a special place in your heart, this group really loved their fans, it’s so admirable to see an artist hold that much love for people simply because they enjoy their music.

nothing good lasted forever, though.

june 14, 2022, during 2022 festa, bangtan officially announced their hiatus. you knew this news was coming since january of that year, but this wasn’t the bad part. if anything, you were excited to spend more 1-on-1 time with the love of your life, and for his close friends to get a break from the spotlight, but it wasn’t what you thought it was.

immediately after this announcement, namjoon was working like crazy on more music. their repackaged album was already out, and the busan concert went well, so why was he still calling you from his studio to tell you he wouldn’t make it for dinner again? that’s how you ended up in your car, trying not to violate traffic laws as you angrily drove to the hybe building.

“mr namjoon, someones here for you.”

the studio door opened to reveal a staff member, namjoon got up groggily from his seat, a little pissed of that his flow was interrupted.

taking the elevator to the first floor, he imagined it was probably some producer offering their beats again. why wasn’t security listening when he said he knew what he was doing for this album?

he wasn’t expecting you, hair braided out of your bare face. you wore his white tshirt and loose fitting jeans, clearly you rushed out of the house.

“hey baby. what’s up?” he slowly made his way to you.

“don’t ‘hey baby’ me, are you seriously doing this again?” you took his hand, dragging him back to his studio.

“what do you mean?” he struggled to keep up as you paced into the elevator, jamming the floor seven button

“____, hey, what’s going on? are you ok?” he cupped your face, dark circles hung along your eyes, your eyelashes poking straight out instead of their usual curled position. were you crying?

“no namjoon, im not! i thought you were done working on music, i want you to come home!” dramatically flinging your hands around, you looked longingly up to your boyfriends eyes, his hand still caressing your cheek.

“i’m sorry, i didn’t tell you. i’m preparing another album before i have to go to the military this december.” he smiled softly to you, but you didn’t return it. your face lost all emotion, turning back to the buttons on the elevator.

“i’m going home then, goodnight.”

“what? hun, what’s wrong? i’ll come home this wholeeee week. i promise, i just got a late start today babe.”

he grabbed your hand to stop your from pressing the lobby button.

“baby, look at me.” turning your head towards his smiling face, you knew you were in for it now. you planned to tell him off, and get him to come home. now you felt bad for interrupting his music process, and couldn’t keep up your angry girlfriend act any longer.

“just let me wrap up, ok? you can come with, there’s still some takeout in my office. give me thirty minutes i promise.” your eyes fell to his pinky, sticking out for you to interlock yours with and seal his promise.

you pecked his lips, looking away embarassed that he sweet talked the anger out of you.

“i love you, you’re real cute.” he whispered as he lead you into his studio.

2023

so much for the stupid fucking pinky promise, once again you were left alone in your bed. namjoon was surprisingly here tonight, but he had barely said a word, his exhaustion took him over, and he almost fell asleep in the shower if it weren’t for you coming in to brush your teeth.

now he was sleeping at your side, head skimming your shoulder as you sat, propped up on your pillows, scrolling mindlessly on your phone. it was supposed to distract you, but your for you page wanted you to remember everything that you were missing out on. you know this is a hard time for bangtan, but what about you? namjoon was overworking himself as if he didn’t have ten whole months before he would have to enlist.

you wanted to feel bad for him, it’s so selfish to tell him to abandon his work to come spend time with you. but seriously, what the fuck? you didn’t even get to kiss him on new years, he spent it with jhope, in their stupid fucking studio.

your phone flashed all colors of purple and white, the tiktok video was from an army recounting their concert memories from 2019 during the lysy tour. you remember that night, hearing thousands of english speaking armys defy the boundaries of language to sing in korean for bts. it made you cry too, but this video inflicted both frustration and sadness in you now.

you turned your phone off, tossing it to the side and climbing into your sheets, head facing namjoons as he slept. you let a tear roll silently down your cheek, you wish he could care as much as he used to. he unconsciously grabbed your arm, barely awake as he interlocked arms with you, and shuffled higher on the pillows. he basically was inviting you into his arms. hesitantly, you scooted until you were in his chest, you arms naturally reaching up to his neck.

that one tear became two, then three, then you lost count. hopefully he wouldn’t notice how soaked his shirt was, you sniffled lightly, careful not to wake him. you had almost drifted to sleep, exhausted from your heavy breathing while you let your emotions fall from your heavy lids. namjoon pulled you into his chest tighter, feeling the wet stain of your tears startled him awake.

he gasped lightly and groggily sprung up from bed

“what? what’s wrong?” you asked, flipping a lamp on, your voice hoarse as you tried to wipe your tears discreetly.

“what, what, is this you?” he pointed to the dark circle staining his loose shirt.

this only earned a sniffle from you, everything fell out all at once, snapping joon out of his sleepy trance, he listened as close as he could, extremely sleep deprived and barely even awake.

“i miss you so much joonie, it’s- it’s- like, not the same anymore!” you sniffled “all i want is to just enjoy waking up with you and going out to cute cafes again without music being behind it! please,” your hands slapped into your eyes, “please joonie can you just, just come back to me once in a while? why am i competing with your music? shouldn’t you prioritize me? i feel so unimportant.” your voice died down, namjoon wasted no time in tucking you back into bed, he let you roll onto his chest.

“hun, you should’ve spoke up. i broke our promise, i know i did, i should’ve apologized princess.” he kissed your temple. “i’m so sorry, ____, i’ll spend more time with you baby. it’s been so hard huh?” he tilted his head back to see your relaxed face, still leaking tears onto his shirt.

“yes, i just wanted you to come home, i feel like i’m loosing it, i haven’t even showered for the past three days, i didn’t wash my face joonie everything’s just a fucking task right now.” you let out another sniffle before looking back into his eyes. “when will you just be how you used to again?”

he felt himself recharge as he looks into your beautiful eyes, though half lidded. he felt like he could sleep in your eyes, they were truly heaven. so much so he forgot to reply, “i know baby. it’s ok, you’re ok, i’ll find a way to stay home more often, that sound good?”

you nodded, puckering your lips lightly, he kissed you once, then again, and again, then your cheek, ear, neck, then back to your lips.

it pained him so much to see you hurt over him, especially when he knows you’ve been innocently waiting like the perfect girl you are for him to say something to you.

after a while, the two of you fell asleep, arms crossed around each other as he caught up on some much needed rest. neither of you woke up until 2pm, joon replaced himself with a pillow, letting you sleep some more while he walked to the living room. his guitar sat in the corner of the room, where it had been collecting dust for two years now.

he rushed back into the room to quietly grab his laptop, also stealing a soft kiss on your lips, before he sat down on your shared couch. he knew what he wanted this song to sound like, he just needed lyrics and now, he finally found them.

copying your words, he began to play quietly. it took a while, but he got the premise of the song eventually, deciding to put the guitar down to cook the two of you some breakfast. he turned the stove on, getting to work making pancakes.

the smell woke you up, even though the food had been made, your boyfriend knew it could be reheated. if you weren’t ready to wake up, he wouldn’t come get you. so, he settled back down with his guitar, playing his untitled song.

it was the sound that lulled you out of bed. despite what you’d said last night, you loved to hear namjoon singing. you stumbled into the living room, sitting down beside namjoon as he continued his song, eyes skimming over you. the smile in his voice was audible. you layed your head on his shoulder, letting the vibrations of his voice relax you.

this was exactly what you missed, just quality time with the light of your life. you had never felt better than at that exact moment, it was the peak of your relationship.

just like his lyrics, it was divine, divine.

i have ideas for a part two if anyone’s interested 😽😽 lmk!!

#bts #bts x reader #kim namjoon #namjoon #namjoon x reader #rm #rap monster #rm bts #bangtan #kpop #angst #kpop x reader

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pillowbugs · 2 months ago

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idea: submas au(?) where pre-battle subway, both of them were already somewhat known on the internet, but for different reasons. maybe not super famous, but definitely notable in their various circles.

let's say emmet has a blog / vlog (iamemmet) where he and a couple friends (elesa, burgh, etc) just mess around and battle and stuff (think online / showdown battle videos on yt except they're actually irl). he does talk about trains sometimes, and is visibly excited whenever he does, but most of his fans are there to watch him battle more than anything.

meanwhile, ingo runs a train blog (Conductor I) where he posts long and detailed writeups of virtually anything to do with trains. he is known to be quite passionate, and has gotten into various extremely heated arguments with other railfans on internet forums over the merits of certain trains and railfan etiquette. maybe he collabs with other blogs covering other topics run by his friends (e.g. trains vs planes annual debate feat. highflyinggirl (skyla), starlight express review feat. spectralscribe (shauntal), etc). overall, though, he's fairly guarded regarding his personal life, and most of what people know about him, excluding his train-related opinions, is from whenever he collabs with other people.

they have collaborated with each other before, so people absolutely know they're twins. there is a running joke about how emmet's fans might actually know more about ingo than his own fans, simply because emmet is much more open with his personal life and inevitably that includes a lot of stuff involving his brother.

so one day, they both announce that they're taking an indefinite hiatus from their blogs because of a project. after almost a year of speculation - oh, look, there's a new battle facility in unova! wait, these guys look familiar... and it does happen to be a facility integrated into the subway...

so of course, their existing fans congratulate both of them on their new positions, everyone's celebrating. both of them do return to posting on their blogs after things have settled a bit more (albeit less frequently than before the hiatus, because they have a job now). however, with their newfound mainstream fame, comes a gigantic new wave of fans from the battle subway.

and this is where things get incredibly messy within the fandom. maybe less so on emmet's end - he's quite open on his blog about being a subway boss, and vice versa, and he acts more or less the same way on both accounts, so within his fanbase, the question is just "when did you find him?" because he's been the same throughout. he is emmet. that's it. though, there is of course still a bit of fan elitism from those who found him before the subway and know all the "deep lore" about him.

ingo's fanbase, however, is an absolute bloodbath. there are actual factions. the two most notorious are the subway-onlies, the ones who are most likely to be called fake fans by the rest because they're only interested in his persona as a subway boss; and the conductor purists, who only enjoy his blog and forum presence but not his irl job, and think he has gone downhill after achieving mainstream success. in fact, many of the subway-onlies don't even realise ingo has a 'personal' blog, or any social media presence besides his official account as a subway boss, while the most diehard conductor purists have disavowed the battle subway because in their minds, it's taking attention away from the blog.

a big reason for the divide is that ingo gives a very different image on his blog and as a subway boss; a passionate, friendly railfan who can be quite verbose especially in roasting people online, versus the professional, polite facility head with a serious demeanour. many fans who found him through the subway are surprised at the content of his blog, even if most of them also love seeing this side of him. a certain subset of the fandom is very insistent that the blog shows his 'real' personality, while his being a subway boss is entirely an act.

in short, big fanbase = problems. many people looking in are genuinely terrified and confused as to whatever the hell is going on in there. there is Drama. get the popcorn.

#pokemon #submas #pokemon black and white #my fic #my hcs

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moons-and-mobility-aids · 1 month ago

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Content Warnings: Adult content, mostly accurate depictions of being an onlyfans creator ( hi, I am one), reader is fem, uses a wheelchair, and has cerebral palsy. Taglist: @alohastitch0626, @jspidey5, @laceandsuch, @kneelforloki

The day begins as it often does for the three of them. James sits at the kitchen counter, scrolling through his OnlyFans messages with one hand while he nurses a steaming cup of coffee with the other. Sirius is sprawled out on the couch, still half-asleep, the faint hum of the television lulling him back towards dreams. And Remus, ever the early riser, has been awake for hours, hunched over his laptop at the dining table, editing their latest video.

Then, a new notification pops up on James's screen: a message from you. And in that moment, the ordinary morning transforms into something far more electric.

"Hey, she messaged," James announces, trying to sound nonchalant but failing miserably. There's an unmistakable edge of excitement to his voice, a giddiness that betrays just how much this means to him. He's always like this when it comes to you—eager, hopeful, almost boyish in his enthusiasm.

Sirius straightens from where he's slouched on the sofa, an eyebrow raised in intrigue. "Video?"

"No, just text." The corners of James's mouth lift into a slow smile as he reads your words, savouring the familiarity of your tone—a casual greeting that masks the depth of your connection. "Just saying hi. Checking in."

"Just checking in?" Remus echoes from behind the screen of his laptop, a sceptical note colouring his question. He knows as well as the others do that your interactions with them often carry more weight than what meets the eye.

"Yeah, just... normal stuff. Friendly, a bit flirty." With a shrug, James opens the message thread, allowing the soft glow of the screen to illuminate his face.

You: Hey, Prongs 😊 Just checking in to see how you all are! I've been back for a few days now and wanted to properly say hi. Hope everything's good. 💖

The three men exchange glances, each trying to decipher the underlying intent behind your words. It's not unusual for you to send messages like this, but today it feels different—less formal, more personal. Whether it's the fact that you're back online after your hiatus or simply the way your words seem to be reaching out, bridging the gap between fan and creator, something shifts in the air around them.

“Well, this feels... normal,” Sirius says, leaning back on his hands with a small smile playing on his lips. “Almost like we’re just chatting with a friend.”

"Perhaps that's what she wants it to be," Remus muses, always the one to seek layers beneath the surface. "We're creators like her, and while we are fans of her content, maybe she craves conversation with those who understand."

James nods, his fingers hovering over the keyboard as he considers their reply. Keep it cool, but let a hint of flirtation linger—the balance that has become their signature.

ProngsPlayground_free: We’re good! Been busy with our own stuff, but we’ve definitely missed seeing you around. How’ve you been? 💕

He hits send, leaning back and watching as the message goes through. They all fall silent, a sense of anticipation in the air. It's not that they're expecting anything grand—just the usual banter they've come to enjoy with you—but there's an undercurrent of excitement nonetheless. Every exchange is a chance to learn something more about you.

Your reply comes sooner than expected.

You: I'm okay 😊 Not completely better yet, but getting there. Sometimes life just throws things at you, you know?

Remus leans in closer, reading the message over James's shoulder. His brow furrows slightly. "That's... more than she usually says."

Sirius squints at the screen, shadows playing across his sharp features. "Yeah, she normally keeps it light. But this—this feels like she's letting us in, even if it's just a crack."

James's fingers hover over the keyboard, the usual quick wit stilled for a moment. He's always been the one to push boundaries, to toe the line between amusement and recklessness, but even he recognises the gravity of this shift. It's one thing to flirt with danger in the guise of laughter and camaraderie; it's another to tread on the fragile ground of vulnerability. Yet there's an opportunity here, an opening for connection that goes beyond the surface.

ProngsPlayground_free: Yeah, I get that. Life can be a real bitch sometimes. But we’re glad you’re feeling better! What’s been going on? Anything we can help with, even if it’s just to listen? 😉

Sirius watches James's fingers fly over the keys, an eyebrow arched in amusement. "You're not holding back, are you?" he asks, a note of respect threading through his words.

James shrugs, the corners of his mouth pulling up into a small smile. "Why should I? It's true, isn’t it? People just want someone to talk to sometimes."

"Exactly," Remus adds, giving a nod of agreement. "We're here for more than just sharing videos. We're here for each other too."

A pause hangs in the air as they wait for your response, their eyes flickering between the screen and each other. When your message finally appears, it feels like a door creaking open, the smallest invitation to step inside your world.

You: Honestly, I’m just dealing with a lot of personal stuff. Nothing too serious, just... life things. You know how it is. It’s hard to keep up sometimes, and I needed to take a step back and breathe for a bit. But I’m getting there. Thanks for asking.

James reads your message aloud, his voice steady despite the gravity of your words. The room's ambience shifts subtly; the playful banter that usually fills the space has been replaced by something more sombre, more real, and they sit in silence for a moment, absorbing the weight of your admission. It isn't much—just a few lines of text—but it's more than you've ever let on before. They've always known there was more to you than the online persona you project, but this feels like the first tangible glimpse beyond that façade.

"Seems like she's letting us in, just a bit," Sirius murmurs, his usual bravado absent from his tone.

Remus nods, thoughtful. "Yeah. Not the whole picture, but...more than before."

James takes a deep breath, fingers hovering over the keyboard. His response needs to tread carefully, acknowledging your vulnerability without prying too far or setting expectations for disclosure. With a nod to himself, he begins to type, each word chosen with deliberate care.

ProngsPlayground_free: That sounds tough. We completely understand needing a break—sometimes life just gets too much, and you need to step back and breathe. We're glad you're taking care of yourself. If you ever want to talk about anything—or nothing in particular—we're here. No pressure. 💖

There is a pause after they send the message, the three of them exchanging glances that speak volumes. This is new territory, a shift away from light-hearted teasing and shared videos. It feels less like fan and creator now, more like...people connecting.

Your reply takes longer this time, allowing them a moment of respite. When it finally comes through, there's a warmth in your words that makes them smile despite the circumstances.

You: Thanks, Prongs. 😊 I'm not used to opening up about these things, especially with subscribers. But you three have been nothing but kind. It means more than you know. Sometimes, it does feel like I'm carrying too much and it's nice to know there are people out there who get it, even if we've never met.

The corner of Sirius's mouth twitches upwards in a half-smile as he leans back into the plush cushions of the couch, running a hand through his dark hair. "That... doesn't feel half bad."

"Right?" James agrees, his attention still on the screen, fingers poised over the keyboard. He can't help but feel a sense of accomplishment, like they've managed to bridge an impossible gap. "Feels like we're getting to know her, the person behind the posts."

Remus is quieter, more reserved, but there's a subtle change in his demeanour—a lightness that suggests he's been hoping for this. "People need that sometimes," he murmurs. "Just to know someone's listening."

The corners of James's mouth twitch upward as he composes his reply, a delicate balance of camaraderie and sensitivity. His fingers dance across the keys, each word chosen to assure you that they're here for you, no distance too great, no hour too late.

ProngsPlayground_free: We're always here to listen, love. 💖 And if things get tough, you can always distract yourself with us. We've got plenty of chaos going on to keep things interesting. 😏

Sirius barks out a laugh, throwing an arm around James's shoulders. "That's putting it mildly."

Remus's lips quirk into a smile, his eyes warm behind his glasses. "He's not wrong, though. We're excellent at providing... distraction."

The response comes quicker this time, your words carrying a hint of playfulness, a spark of connection kindling in the space between.

You: That sounds perfect. Sometimes a little chaos is just what you need to get through tough times. 😉 You guys are the best.

The message sends and James leans back, feeling a sense of satisfaction that goes beyond the usual thrill of their banter. It's something deeper, more significant—a subtle shift in the dynamic. They've breached a delicate boundary today, but rather than recoil, you've leaned into the connection. You remain an enigma, yet there's a sense of texture now, layers unfolding with each exchange. It's as though they're crafting something tangible from the ether of the internet, a friendship forged in bytes and pixels.

"See?" James murmurs, the relief palpable in his voice. "She's letting us in—bit by bit. It's not just about the videos anymore."

Remus smiles, the lines around his eyes softening. "That's what makes this meaningful, isn't it? The understanding that there's depth beneath the surface."

Sirius nods, his lips tracing the ghost of a smile. "Exactly. We're earning her trust, even if it's just a fraction for now."

The three of them sit in silence, the weight of their conversation not quite settled. James is right; it's not just about the content anymore, and they all feel the shift. A connection is growing, one that stretches beyond the typical boundaries of creator and fan, and it feels right—like the next step in a dance they've only just begun.

James glances at the time, mindful of their individual schedules and the messages awaiting their attention, but he doesn't rush to break away. For now, he lingers in this moment of shared understanding, savouring the sensation of moving forward together.

"We'll take it slow," Remus suggests, his gaze moving between James and Sirius. "No need to push her."

James nods, his hand resting on the back of his neck as if to ease tension that isn't there. "Yeah. No hurry."

Their eyes meet across the table, each acknowledging the unspoken agreement. This is new territory for them, but they're ready to navigate it—to learn more about you, about the person behind the words that have captured their attention.

As the day unfolds, they return to their routines, their thoughts often drifting back to you. They wonder what else you might reveal in your messages, given time and trust. They look forward to their next interaction, eager to peel back another layer of the mystery that is you.

#Poly!marauders x reader #poly!marauders x you #Sirius black x reader #Sirius black x you #remus lupin x reader #remus lupin x you #james potter x you #james potter x reader #marauders era #marauders au #marauders fanfic #beyond the screen

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wonhes · 2 months ago

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why can’t yall just be happy for seunghan, yes sm still needs to take accountability and take legal action against those certain ot6’s but we all knew that fuckass company wasn’t going to add seunghan back to the group so let’s just be happy and support seunghan at least he’s still able to achieve some part of his dream and i say part bcs riize was his dream

also i’m not saying you’re not happy for him or wtv i’ve just seen lots of briize being disappointed in him debuting solo which i understand but there’s some saying they won’t support him u less he’s in riize which is just ???😭

hi! i think fans are unhappy for good reasons. i love seunghan and will continue to support him. however, i can’t help but feel like sm is doing this to silence the fans. it literally feels like “alright, here’s seunghan stfu!” pls remember that seunghan was unfairly put in an indefinite hiatus for so long. he was unfairly removed from riize. he was sent funeral wreaths. and sm allowed for all of that to happen. this simply just feels like they’re announcing his solo in hopes that fans will go back to supporting and they’ll forget about everything that happened

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nikist-4-n · 8 days ago

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I just have a few things I want to say in which you don’t have to agree, but the first being what did you guys get out of exposing Dodo? Why do people feel the need to expose others? Just makes room for others to bring that person down and hurt them, but because something is done to you doesn’t mean you do it back to others. Where it is wrong, all the stuff Dodo did, and no one will really know why she did it, but to say Chei did nothing isn’t possible. People don’t do things to hurt others without reason unless something was done to them. Sometimes we don’t realize we upset people, but that’s where Dodo should’ve communicated. 2: About all the hate that’s been received on here, it can easily be ignored. No one can control you; no one can do anything that would take away value from your life, so why do everyone not just ignore anons? There’s no need to announce a hiatus or threaten to go on one; just do it if you really want to. It’s only an act of looking for sympathy so that people will tell you to stay. And lastly, people love to use the term sexualizing easily when it comes to idols but never western artists. People are sexual; it’s normal to feel sexual feelings towards others. You don’t think idols fuck? You don’t think idols think about fans and other people that way too? What makes it wrong that we do it but okay they do? It’s funny no one gets mad when people talk about western artists that way. The fact of the matter is we’re human; now, to sexualize someone is to purely see them in a sexual way. But if you care about them and also feel that way, it’s normal news flash we’re created to procreate. People always make it seem like such a crime to express how you feel, which is why every interaction is on the surface because everyone’s too sensitive to go deeper. Overall you don’t expose others; you guard them. No matter what they’ve said or done, you protect one’s secrets because that goes to show your true character. Judge Dodo all you want and be mad at her for the things she’s done, but can you all honestly look at yourselves and say you’re perfect? You’re no better than her. You think because you don’t do as she does or say what she says, it makes you a saint? You’re not.

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Well this is a lot but I have disagreements

1 what did you guys get out of exposing Dodo? Why do people feel the need to expose others? Just makes room for others to bring that person down and hurt them, but because something is done to you doesn’t mean you do it back to others

I don't like the way u put it as if she wasn't bullying a friend of ours so of course we exposed her ( and we also did it so people know how she is and so she doesn't hurt others ) and people feel the need to expose others because of the reasons I explained above. It's about ur morals aswell because why must anyone be silent when someone is an objectively bad person? Ur disgusting if u think like that actually. And our objective was to not send hate to dodo, but to tell others what she did and because she lied as well. And to ur last part, what happened to dodo never happened to me so I wasn't spreading hate or anything I simply told everyone what a bad person she is.

2 Where it is wrong, all the stuff Dodo did, and no one will really know why she did it, but to say Chei did nothing isn’t possible. People don’t do things to hurt others without reason unless something was done to them. Sometimes we don’t realize we upset people, but that’s where Dodo should’ve communicated

Actually I disagree because dodo did not have a reason to be mad ( read here through pic 1-4 ) and chei did nothing because they were joking together and that was definitely not the reason dodo was mad cuz dodo joked the worst out of all of us. If dodo had a reason she should've told me instead of escalating the situation. And I agree with the last part ( first time we agree ), if she did have a reason she should've told us instead of taking whatever she felt out on chei.

3 About all the hate that’s been received on here, it can easily be ignored. No one can control you; no one can do anything that would take away value from your life, so why do everyone not just ignore anons? There’s no need to announce a hiatus or threaten to go on one; just do it if you really want to. It’s only an act of looking for sympathy so that people will tell you to stay

Firstly what the fuck. What ur saying is easier said than done cuz we all are different in the way we handle things, if u can ignore the hate doesn't mean someone else can too. Just because it didn't/did happened to u and u ignored it doesn't mean it can be the same for others. Like May, the anon was literally threatening to come to her house and saying all sorts of nasty things which is pretty hard to ignore ( even for me ) so are u invalidating her feelings? And what if the anon came to her house and hurt her? Then are u gonna tell her she should've ignored it? Ur actually disgusting. This was a very ignorant take

4 And lastly, people love to use the term sexualizing easily when it comes to idols but never western artists

I disagree because people sexualize these idols on both sides. And also unlike kpop, ( some ) pop idols use s*x appeal to sell themselves ( which does not justify anything I'm just pointing out the obvious) but kpop capitalises mostly on parasocial relationships ( like variety shows, lives, fan calls, fan meets, etc) which you rarely see pop idols doing and also cause of the fact that kpop is full of minors in groups as well. And to the adult kpop idols, it still doesn't justify u sexualizing them because sexualizing people is a form of dehumanizing people and only seeing them as s*x objects rather than people which is disgusting actually.

5 People are sexual; it’s normal to feel sexual feelings towards others. You don’t think idols fuck? You don’t think idols think about fans and other people that way too? What makes it wrong that we do it but okay they do? It’s funny no one gets mad when people talk about western artists that way

Just because people are sexual anon, doesn't mean they must act out their sexual feelings ( like calling them daddy, filming under skirt videos, etc. ) kpop idols are humans and they deserve to be respected. And why would I think that idols are fucking or them thinking about people that way, it's none of my business and it's straight up gross to even think about. S*x is a normal thing to feel and talk about, but imagining people u don't know feeling like that is weird af to me. And people don't get mad at pop idols because ( some ) pop idols talk about it in their lyrics and use it as their whole brand sometimes ( eg. Megan Thee Stallion, cardi B, Playboi Carti, Niki Minaj, Ice Spice, Glorrila, Sabrina Carpenter, etc. ) so it is weird to compare them to kpop ( idols ) which goes for a kind of opposite brand.

6 The fact of the matter is we’re human; now, to sexualize someone is to purely see them in a sexual way. But if you care about them and also feel that way, it’s normal news flash we’re created to procreate

I disagree because a lot of things can exist at the same time. U can sexualize an idol while also caring about them. It doesn't make it less bad tho cuz u still sexualizing them no matter how u put it. And that's not how sexualizing works, u don't need to be able to procreate to sexualize an idol (eg. u can be a man sexualizing a man or a woman sexualizing a woman too and etc. ) so that take is very close minded, it's 2024 wake up. Just cuz we can procreate doesn't mean we should or have to because u don't need to be able to procreate with someone to love or sexualize them

7 People always make it seem like such a crime to express how you feel, which is why every interaction is on the surface because everyone’s too sensitive to go deeper

Anon u can express ur love to an idol without sexualizing them at all, u can talk about their talent, their personality, their music or new haircut. And we're not sensitive for calling out behaviour like this for example:

( u can see it's dodo in the URL )

In conclusion

Although u made some points ( barely ), ur statements were still heavily flawed. I suggest u do some character improvement with some of these takes because they were either ignorant or close minded

#marie yapping #this was ALOT #glad im done

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elioslover · 11 months ago

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Green-Eyed Monster- Harry Styles x Reader (kiss prompt).

[Premise: Harry has been pining over his best friend's older sister for as long as he can recall. Here's some angst when the band goes on hiatus].

Prompts: "You're jealous, just admit it, you want to be the one kissing me." // “If you wanted to kiss me, all you had to do was ask.”

Word count: 2.6k.

More Grapejuice / Other Writing

🍷 the guest 🍷

There is no reason for you to feel as bent out of shape as you are in this very moment, zoned out of a conversation with an old friend because standing behind her is the man himself- leaning against the balcony with a collection of adoring guests gathering near, Harry Styles.

Harry Styles; whose boyband had just announced a hiatus. Harry Styles; is properly back in his hometown for the first time in half a decade. Acting- as you deem- far too nonchalant for someone as global as he seemed to be. He had simply slipped back into his old groove as if no time had passed at all.

But all you can think about is how much time has passed. Harry seems almost unrecognizable- hair and tattoos only increasing in length and number. It’s only when his face takes intervals to crinkle with glee- smile cheesing, eyes squinting with joy- that you see the Harry you’ve known so long it feels as if life never existed before him.

Even as his life is about to change completely- a whole new chapter challenging his past and now his future- Harry seems to have little reservation about embracing happiness. Perhaps his nonchalance is the reason your observation stirs into frustration and confusion, causing a sort of panic you were sure to have never felt prior. Who is Harry Styles now?

Then again, your sudden distaste may also be attributed to the adoring attention he has been receiving all night- particularly that of the beautiful people who were visibly blessed with the chance to praise and pet him… And they were indulgently taking advantage of the opportunity.

Harry, by the looks of it was eagerly lapping it up, happily reciprocating touches and even looking at some of them with a gaze you had once noticed when it was dedicated to yours truly.

He definitely isn't a teenager anymore, and it dawns on you how impactful and influential his introduction to stardom had been.

Where were these thoughts even coming from? Your mind never wavered to the thought of Harry unless a One Direction song came on in public or Jack dropped him in conversation.

All the questions you had never pondered were causing your brain to swell, your body stuck in a frozen frenzy of how much has changed- for all of you- starting with the obscene and sudden assessment of his features- had you ever considered him as anything other than just… Harry? Has he always been so pretty?

All of those thoughts shatter as you raise your glass for a sip and across the room, Harry’s arm wraps around an unknown auburn-headed woman’s waist- which, at the least, makes your stomach clench and at the most, has you tilting your head back to empty the glass in one desperate swallow.

Without consideration, you hastily dismiss the person still animatedly engaging in a one-sided conversation and turn your back on the oddly upsetting scene happening against the balcony railings.

Ignoring the high possibility of tripping, agitation carries you to the kitchen- abandoned and almost silent in contrast to the party vibing merely meters away- and you immediately get ahold of the nearest bottle of chilled champagne, filling your flute to the brim and have a hearty sip before finally settling, taking a deep breath, trying to untangle your thoughts- hopefully rid yourself of them for good.

A couple minutes- what sounds like the length of a song- pass before you feel grounded and sane enough to rejoin the festivities. So, with a deep breath and a final sip for good luck, your faithful docs exit the kitchen and trail into the chatty confinements of the living room.

Lo and behold, Harry Styles is everywhere you go, practically blocking your path with his body pressing up against Auburn from outside, and he looks mere moments away from engaging her in a kiss.

That silly sickly feeling threatens to return if you stay a moment longer, so your stare meets the floor and your feet pick up their pace, heading directly for the barricade that is Harry.

His eyes bore into your own with a fervour that you will never forget and for a moment he has you pondering how such a magnificent emerald forest, framed by the wispiest of lashes, could have gone unnoticed for so long- how had you granted his adoring gaze such little attention?

🍷 the host 🍷

Harry is in two minds about this evening- he can’t help but indulge in the praises and doting that showers him from each and every direction, his pulse is racing with ecstatic at the relief of finally being home again.

His fears of everything changing have long passed, leaving his worries at the door as he is embraced with excited and excessive welcomes from anyone and everyone who looks his way.

With his oldest and best friend, Jack, by his side once more, Harry feels no different than he did at that farewell party at least five years prior, enthusiastically greeting familiar faces, accepting each praise with a gracious humbleness.

But Harry can’t tell if humble is even an accurate definition anymore and it isn't long before he feels his social battery starting to stutter and it’s clearly time for a drink.

By the end of drink number two, his body is as relaxed as his mind, and Harry is now encouraging the constant vying for his attention- his supposed importance- especially when it includes an array of beautiful people stroking his extremely inflated ego.

Leaning against the balcony railing, Harry cradles a whisky in one hand and the waist of a dazzling woman in his other. He hasn't actually been listening to a word said around him, nodding every so often as the small group around him eagerly bantered on.

He’s just happy to be here and doesn't think it could get any better until he spots the only thing on earth that could permanently put him on cloud nine- his greatest dream all wrapped up in the gorgeous physical being that is yours truly- and suddenly Harry feels as if all of the happiness he currently feels is merely an appetizer to the type of joy he could be feeling if he were only across the room staring into your eyes.

Oddly enough, your eyes are already set on him, suspiciously staring him down with an unreadable gaze that fills his stomach with an odd sense of unease. You look older- the same, but older- and something about that freaks Harry out and reminds him of his own age, how different things actually are now, even if it doesn't feel that way.

And as if he were seeing you for the very first time, Harry cannot stop staring with bewildered admiration- his eyes darting from your trusty Docs to the extremely fashionable clothing you donned, sternly studying the dips and curves of your body before settling back on your grumpy, but heinously beautiful face.

He felt it unreasonable- borderline evil- how much better you seemed to get with each interaction, how the hell was he to garner your attention now when he was already hardly capable of doing so for the last decade?

After you disappear into the sanctuary of the kitchen, Harry is too antsy to keep it together any longer and he finds his legs blindly following after you.

He’s hardly in the hallway by the time his female company comes from outside- he didn’t bother learning her name. Her auburn hair was identification enough- and she caught up and captured his bicep between her cold hand.

She ascends to her tippy toes, puckered lips finding their place just below Harry’s earlobe, her breath fanning over his sharp jawline as she seductively slips sensual suggestions his way, her free hand trailing up along his torso, fingernails tapping his chest.

For a good moment, Harry truly does start to forget what he had gone on the hunt for, easily distracted by the shower of affection drizzling all along his body by the unknown woman.

But, with a sudden shock, the kitchen door violently swings open to reveal your rigid figure, eyes furrowed and lips trapped fearfully between your gritted teeth.

You are the spitting image of a deer in headlights, staring up at Harry with a look that has him stopping in his tracks, realizing that fate has struck again and he has his elusive person right where he wants you.

Except, his plan to finally confront you had not included a third party and Harry could feel his face swelling with red blotches of blushy embarrassment.

For a reason he can’t pinpoint, shame creeps its way into the pit of his stomach, fists clenched as his body turns to brick, and Auburn, still semi-latched on, is becoming so suffocating he feels like a lobster about to boil inside out.

Rudely, and far too obviously, Harry disarms himself, shrugging his body from beneath Auburn’s grip and muttering some dismissive promise of meeting up with her later on- praying that his words are muffled enough that you don’t hear them.

You aren't stupid though, and by the height your brow manages to raise in suspicion, Harry confirms that his words did not go unnoticed.

His dismissal of Auburn seems fine by her as she smiles hopefully, giving him a swift kiss on his cheek before slipping past Harry and disappearing back into the party.

Unfortunately, he isn’t surprised as you attempt to pretend this interaction was even occurring by disconnecting your shared stares, glancing your focus to the living room, and planning an escape route. But there is no choice other than to pass Harry and there is zero chance he will let you get away with it.

Harry steps and then tilts his body closer, hoping to encourage you to do the same, but you stay put and only glare up at him expectantly and impatiently. He ignores your frigidity as if it were just a farce- it is- instead his smile turns to a full-on grin, reaching his eyes and crinkling cutely at the corners, and it spreads along his features with a fondness so fierce that you find yourself working overtime to avoid your face from breaking out into the same smile.

“Avoiding me, hm?” He muses with a precious pout, “Y’know that hurts my feelings, klutz.”

“That’s not true.”

“It is. You do it every single time.”

Arms folding across your chest, face frowning with the preparation of upping your defensiveness in the name of dismissing Harry- just like old times,

“I see you enjoy lying for fun now.”

Harry nearly scoffs but it projects as a sly smirk and points it at your painful scowl,

“Y’do. Dipping in and out of patios… kitchens… Yet you always meet me in the hallway.”

The stomach-knotting realisation that this is factual- how many times had this happened before? How many times would it happen again? Have it your way, and this will be the last time,

“Meeting and cornering are not the same thing.”

“Stop tryna be smart.” Harry slightly, but softly snaps as his lips smack together.

“You’re ruder than I remember.”

All snippiness leaves as soon as it comes, Harry sinks back into a swell of adoring amusement,

“You rate?”

“Ignoring your guests is a party fowl.” Definite diversion on your part.

“Avoiding the host is a party fowl.” He counters.

Weakly attempting to walk past him, only renders your back pressed up against the red abstract wallpaper. He remains put- which, to you, is rather unnerving- and upset is racing along your prickling skin,

“I told you, I’m not avoiding you.”

“Why don’t I believe you?” He edges closer with curiosity.

“Just because you’re used to people throwing themselves at you doesn't mean I'm avoidant." You spit and suddenly, he’s so close.

“They don’t all do that.”

“Sure, Harry.”

Have you two ever been this near before? Most certainly, but you could always chalk that up to intoxicated confusion- at least on your end had it ever felt this… intense? Is there any worldly justification for the suspicious stirring of curiosity now that he has so calmly and tenderly crossed the threshold of your personal space.

Harry knows he has never felt as satisfied as he does whenever your bodies threaten to blend into one, but for perhaps the first time, he thinks you may consider this palpitating chemistry as something more than a silly game.

But, he does so fondly enjoy the game, and if he pushes even a moment longer, Harry knows your patience will wither and guide you away from him for good. He uses a tried and true tactic,

“I like your hair.” He does.

“Yours is like longer than mine.” It is.

“D’you like it?” Harry is deep within your space.

“It’s alright.” You shrug, lying through your damn teeth. And you could leave it at that, but the bitterness has clearly taken over, “I’m sure the groupies are creaming, though.”

Hell, Harry has missed the pleasure of being in your preference, how electric and alive his body expels excitement and the anticipatory flames you will surely attack him with. He loves it- hates how much he does, can’t help but prod and provoke,

“I can tell you’re agitated.”

“Does that make you feel special?”

“Can’t put my finger on why…” He ponders- Harry’s missing context, the type you are unwilling to confess- the only evidence he has is your pointed stare flickering with fury- wait, envy? “Oh.”

“Oh, what?”

“Oh, you’re jealous.”

Your throat chokes on your stomach as you croak out a spluttered, “What?” as Harry’s chest brushes your shoulder blade and his spearmint-scented breath fans across your neck,

“I think you heard me just fine.”

“You are delusional.”

Is he, though? Has jealousy been the reason for your distaste and discomfort this evening? Are you as delusional as you believe Harry to be? He seriously thinks so, skin tickling your own,

“Maybe… Still think I’m right.”

“Fuck off, Harry.”

He won’t though. Hand coming up to play with a strand of your hair, twirling it around his finger as his righteous gaze bores into your own- frozen and wide with bewilderment- and finally, his lips threaten to brush the back of your ear,

"You're jealous. Just admit it. You want to be the one kissing me."

“No-”

“Never looked at me like this before..”

You know, and you hate that he kdoes too. You should leave. Now. But with a compulsion too fierce to fight off, a culmination of fascination that ignores your conviction of moving away,

“I don’t-”

“If you wanted to kiss me, all you had to do was ask.”

Harry says it so matter-of-factly that it shocks your body, and brain, into returning to reality and those succulent tingles swirling in your stomach twist sourly, threatening to suffocate you inside out.

With disappointment that is mostly directed at yourself, your sudden enamourment switches to the act of pressing your palm to Harry’s sternum and pushing sternly until he stumbles back in surprise. You cannot risk leaving without gifting him a cruel and crushing tongue-lashing,

“You’re a frat boy in the body of a former pop star. I would never want to kiss someone like you.”

You slip past him with zero resistance, no consideration for confirming his reaction as your back turns to Harry.

Well, Harry thinks he’s glad you grant him some privacy because the guttural disappointment melting his face into a frown is shameful enough.

He doesn’t understand the sudden stinging of his tear ducts, the shrill ringing in his ears. Suddenly, Harry doesn’t quite feel like celebrating his return.

Head bows as he carries his hurt and frustration to the confinements of the kitchen. It’s about time to spiral.

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You can send me a couple numbers and a trope/dynamic to write about! (18, 26, 31, 32, 35,) em. Xo 💞

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twisted-wonderland-shenanigans · 6 days ago

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Hiatus Update

Hey everyone! I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season and is ready for the next year!

I'm really sorry that I keep falling into a hiatus status, but I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about some things.

No, this isn't an announcement of canceling my AUs or that I'm dropping Twisted Wonderland! I still love the series very much and I still have far too much in mind with the AUs to stop thinking about them so soon! I just wanted to get that out of the way since I realize my lack of content creation lately seems to have worried a few people, and I'd like to apologize to everyone for worrying you all.

That being said, that brings me to my next point, and...it's going to get serious. No TW, it's nothing like that! Just...me speaking my thoughts and realizations. TLDR at the end if you want to skip the ramble!

I've been writing for this blog for...gosh, I think about three years now? It feels less than that for me, but that's a lot of writing done over the years. So many AU ideas, so many asks, so much love for the AUs I've created that--honestly--I almost didn't even start this blog had it not been for some encouragement from a good friend. And I'm glad I did! These past few years have been some of the most creatively liberating times I've had before I ever discovered Twisted Wonderland (would you believe it was originally Leona that made me want to play it despite Malleus being the one that kept popping up in my feed to the point I had to try and figure out what his name was? XD).

Yet despite all that writing and hyper-fixating, I've come to realize and accept that I'm experiencing quite the huge burnout...and I have been for quite a while without realizing or accepting it.

It's not because of any particular wip fic or art that I've been slowing down. The burnout had been happening for a while and just boiled over, and I think as a result...I started doubting myself over time. Doubting that what I was writing was going to be good, or that I'd be able to fulfill everyone's requests or asks in a way that makes them happy or feel that I put as much effort into the writing as I do with others, feeling like I'd be letting people down if I don't make something as long or detailed as some of my other responses, or making promises of grand ideas and not being able to deliver on it. I didn't feel connected to my writing, that it wasn't meant for me to enjoy or feel like I could be part of.

To put it simply, I put far too much pressure on myself, and the lack of feedback or reactions beyond likes on some fics I spent a lot of time and effort on didn't exactly help my mind's relationship with my own writing. Because of that self-imposed pressure, I'd...forgotten what it was like to love my own writing, to enjoy the process for what it was and to feel like I can just write what I want and feel included in my own adventures. Writing consumed me to the point that most days...I'd only be able to stare at the blank screen or my notebooks, the words and scenes in my mind yet unable to string them together in tangible form and yet I felt terrible NOT sitting there trying to write.

It was a pretty vicious cycle I couldn't break until now.

Lately, I've been focusing more on self-care. Not just physical stuff like hygiene or cooking better home meals (though I am doing that), but I mean giving myself other things to enjoy on my self-care wheel.

This is what I mean by the self-care wheel (link to instagram post ). It puts it in a way that makes sense, and I hope it helps someone else as well! Here's a screenshot of the post for those who don't have Instagram.

I've been watching more anime and other shows on streaming services lately, I've been playing other games like World of Warcraft (which has become my current obsession!) among others, and just...essentially breaking up the routine I had where I did nothing but writing, so I could take a break. And honestly? I've been able to write other things again. But this time for myself.

I feel like I'm able to enjoy the process again.

I love my writing again!

But I know better than to just assume that things are okay now and I can jump back into the blog so soon. I don't want to repeat what I had been doing when I thought my burnout was gone and just silently falling into hiatus again. Healing isn't a linear process no matter what it's for, and things won't get better if I don't start being kinder to myself.

So to bring a long story short:

I'm okay. I'll be okay, I just have to remind myself to enjoy more hobbies and interests in my life to make each day more fulfilling--more rounded. And when I come back to Twisted Wonderland, I'll go at my own pace and remember to write for myself too. I'd still love to chat and ramble about it or even about other fandoms or things to try! I've spent far too long building this blog to let it and the wonderful people who have followed and commented and even sent asks and fanart go away, and I want to connect in a way I feel I hadn't been able to in ages. ;;v;;

Remember to take care of yourselves, and find other things to fill your self-care wheel! It'll take time and effort, but I promise that things will start to feel better the more you realize you've got other things to make life worthwhile. 💝

TLDR: I'm okay! I'm just going to be on hiatus for a while longer and working more on self-care to remember to enjoy life as it should be enjoyed. Writing and concept art will resume at my own pace when I feel I'm able to consistently enjoy the process of writing for the fandom again. Would love to ramble and chat about other hobbies and interests and interact with the community though!

#twisted wonderland #twst #twisted wonderland monster au #twst monster au #twisted wonderland kaiju au #twst kaiju au #twisted wonderland deity au #twst deity au #faun speaks #Sorry to get a bit serious but I had to address this for ease of mind for me and you guys #it may take time before I feel ready to write for the fandom again #but I've got so many wonderful memories here and hope to stay longer #so please bear with me while I discover my self-care wheel 💗

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fairytale-poll · 8 months ago

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WINNER ANNOUNCEMENT POST!!!!!!!

The finals are over, so it's time to announce the winners for the Little Merpoll!

As always, thank you to everyone who participated! If you submitted characters and/or propaganda, if you reblogged the polls, even if you just voted, it was a pleasure having you! I've done fairytales poll before this & hope to continue for a while after this, and it's been a pleasure having you guys along for the ride!

Now, for our 5 winners.

The first winner to announce is the winner of the Mod's Choice poll! The Mod's choice poll is the "least important" of all the polls, as it has the least amount of contestants (this one had the last of any of the previous Mod's Choice polls) and are nominated simply based on which ones I like, but it holds a special place in my heart regardless.

This time, the winner was Sayaka Miki from Puella Magi Madoka Magica, who was also notable for being the runner-up for the Loser's Bracket. While I'm not as big of a fan of Madoka Magica as I used to be, I still love Sayaka, so it was delightful for her to do so well in the Mod's Choice poll & almost win the Loser's Bracket. Congratulations Sayaka and Sayaka fans!

But while Sayaka was the runner-up for the Loser's Bracket, she was not the actual Loser's Bracket winner. That honor goes to Mira from Dimension 20: Neverafter. While I haven't ever listened to Dimension 20, I was pretty about to see her take the win. After one Dimension 20 character won Red Riding Poll, no character from it ranked at all in Cinderpoll or in the main tournament for Little Merpoll, which is why I was glad to see Dimension 20 make a comeback for this Loser's Bracket. Mira's design is pretty cool, too, I love the pirate look. Congratulations for the win!

NOW, onto the MAIN TOURNAMENT WINNERS...

For our two bronze-place winners it's The Little Mermaid from the original Hans Christian Andersen fairytale & Ariel from Disney's The Little Mermaid 1989! To my surprise, it was actually the first time both the original fairytale and the Disney adaptation ranked! Honestly, these are some pretty good ones to rank, too. The original fairytale is a great read (and super short, so if anyone hasn't read it already, you should go do so) being both beautiful and poignantly tragic. Whereas the Disney adaptation holds up surprisingly well and is a beautiful piece of animation. Congratulations to these two bronze-place winners!

For the runner-up of the tournament is Bug from Starship by Team Starkid! I know that Team Starkid is very popular in certain parts of the Internet & the Starship itself did very well, but even then it felt like Bug was an underdog going up against giants like Disney, Studio Ghibli, and the original fairytale the tournament is based on, so I have to congratulate this guy for getting so far regardless! Good job, and I hope your fans are happy for you getting the silver!

Now, finally, the moment of truth-- the winner of the Little Merpoll, the certified best Little Mermaid as voted by Tumblr--

CONGRATULATIONS TO PONYO FROM STUDIO GHIBLI'S PONYO!

I watched this movie for the first time during the course of the tournament and it is truly a breathtaking marvel of animation, one of the best visuals I've ever seen for a movie ever. I will quote the propaganda submitted for Ponyo and say this little ham-loving girl deserved the win simply for the fact that there is no force more powerful than 5-year-old girls!!!

Our next tournament will be Best/Worst Modern Fairytale Adaptations. I'll open submissions up after a short hiatus, as I am in midst finals & will be graduating soon, which will take up most of my time in the next 2 weeks. See you for the next tournament at the end of May!

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You know kudos to dan and phil actually. Their whole "healing your inner child and moving from your past" thing they've been doing in this new post hiatus TIT era has been far more successful that I realised. Im rewatching 2014/2015 era videos (currently festive ditl) and Ive realised for the first time theres no second voice in my head going "dont assume, every interaction doesnt have to mean something, dont speculate" etc. And im simply sitting here, smiling ear to ear, appreciating how much they have always loved each other and how it seeps into everything they do.

Oh this is such a lovely message! I so wholeheartedly agree; they've been so successful!

And yeah, I mean, there’s a reason we’ve been here like 👁️👄👁️ all along, and it’s because they’ve been like 🩵👃🩵 + 🤎👃🤎 all along. But it is nice to not feel like you’re accidentally reading someone’s diary or something every time you notice their loud love. I felt some complicated feelings about some of the reflecting they did in tit, esp wrt Dan’s “retraumatizing” line, but ultimately when I watch old content back now, it's even further expanded my compassion for younger-them and how hard they were trying with absolutely no blueprint while lowkey under siege for such a long time.

But also yeah, you referring to it as the “tit era” makes me think about how deliberately in concert their yt content/social media presence has been with the vibe of the tour.

Do I think their demeanor in vids post-renaissance is partially just way more natural for them and true to how they act irl? Yeah, and there’s definitely the “dan and phil don’t give a fuck” of it all, but also…. They did such a good job this past year of hooking in phannies that had drifted. phannies that were moderately engaged became hyperengaged. They started shining their own spotlight on the corners of their past that only we had been holding in the light; they started being openly sexual where there was once just innuendo; they started even more directly engaging onscreen with everything that had been happening within the fandom offscreen; they broke the fourth wall more than they ever had and kinda stopped pretending it had ever really been there. They knew that we knew that we knew that they knew etc, and now that doesn’t have to be hush hush.

I think a lot of this was preparing their audience for the show, and surely helped with ticket sales. They kicked off the themes of the show long before they even announced it, and their content has mirrored those themes. There's a chance i'm getting this turned around, and the show is reinforcing the themes that they're trying to embody irl/online. i guess i think both are true? but i just don't think we talk much about their strategy because we're busy eating up what they're feeding, creating the exact fervor i think they've been trying to generate for the past year, and relishing in this new paradigm.

I remember seeing @simplydnp's post where they mentioned the react to pinofs being a way to “defang” the whole notion of them facing their history alongside us, to ease us into laying bare a lot of what had been elephants in the room, and yeah, i feel like they've done a clever job getting us accustomed to this feeling of, idk, risk? of opennesss? Of almost almost almost? of love saturating everything they do? Which was always kind of there but more muted and rarely deliberate on their part, it was just what we picked up on because they're loud and obvious. Now they’ve normalized that and given us permission to just openly love all of it.

tldr basically i agree lol

#sorry this got reallllllly away from me. everything i say always does #thank you for the lovely ask #dan and phil #me yapping #titspoilers

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TOON HL:VRAI: RECONNECTED

Introducing: the ever-so-wacky world of Toon HL:VRAI: RECONNECTED! We hope you enjoy your stay. However: please read this post before we go any further!

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SO, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED IN 2021 ... ?!

Well, look no further, because we have all the answers to all your questions.

In 2021, KRUSH was at the top of their game. Coming off the heels of a massively successful comeback and gearing up for one of their most iconic releases yet, the girls were simply unstoppable. But there was one member who had the biggest star power of them all that year: Kaleina Jung. Her viral solo debut in January took the industry by storm, positioning her as one of BigHit's most profitable artists and the bar for the rest of KRUSH's solo debuts. However, despite Kaleina's career success, not all was well.

Privately, she was going through it. After publicly coming out during one of KRUSH's concerts just two years prior, GGBs were split straight down the middle at how they received the news. Half of them loved it, and the other half hated it. They called for BigHit to kick her out the group, wrote letters to her, burned her merch, trended #KaleinaOut and #KRUSH_Is_3, tried to delude themselves into thinking her bisexuality "wasn't real," and even boycotted the entire group. Obviously, Kaleina saw all of it.

Driven to depression and diagnosed with anxiety disorder, she was almost placed on hiatus in early 2020. That never happened, though, as Kaleina was adamant on finishing her activities with KRUSH. As the year dragged on, however, everything just got worse for her, and it all came to a head in 2021.

So, just what happened during that fateful year? Well, ask no more. All your questions will be answered right here, right now.

( TW // HOMOPHOBIA ... lots of it + BRIEF MENTION OF HYBE )

It's June 2019. KRUSH has just finished their show in Los Angeles, a small part of their massive world tour. That night, Kaleina does something rather bold for an idol of her caliber. She comes out as bisexual in front of a crowd of thousands, pulling out a flag from inside of her pocket. Despite the love from the crowd and support from her fellow members, a small part of the internet is about to tear Kaleina to shreds.

First it started with an outcry of "disappointment," but then it escalated to the letters. These are a few written by K-GGBs in 2019. One of them reads, "I cannot support an idol who thinks engaging in this type of sin is right. Kyung-ja has betrayed her fans' trust by doing such things, and as long as she's still a member of KRUSH, I will not be pouring my time and energy into them any longer. BigHit, make the right choice and remove Kyung-ja from the team. She is poisoning the rest of the girls."

One of Kaleina's largest fansites, @/LEINAISMS, shut down following Kaleina's announcement. They returned a day later to call for Chanhee's appointment as KRUSH's new leader, promising to rebrand as a Chanhee fansite... but that never happened.

As the year closed out, the "discourse" surrounding Kaleina's sexuality began to take a toll on her. In screenshots obtained from her private Instagram stories, she expresses just how sad she is at the divide revealing her sexuality has caused. And to whoever leaked these, you kind of suck, by the way.

Screenshots of the leaked stories. There was another that reportedly read "what will my fucking company think," but that was quickly deleted and the leaker wasn't able to attain a screenshot. There was also one that read "like y'all are trending HASHTAGS to get me KICKED OUT MY GROUP," but the leaker wasn't able to attain that one, either. After these screenshots began circulating, Kaleina quickly deleted her story and deactivated her private account. It was down for nearly a year.

Koreaboo later reported that a source close to Kaleina told Dispatch that she had such frequent panic attacks that she was almost unable to complete a performance or step in front of a camera, which led to her aforementioned anxiety diagnosis. She began expressing doubts surrounding her capabilities as a leader, something she had never done before, and was "very upset" that something that she was excited to share with fans was turned into something so ugly.

This report quieted things down a bit, but in no way did it satiate KRUSH's oddly homophobic fans. In fact, they only doubled down, sharing pictures of them burning Kaleina's merch and physically cutting her out of group photos. It got to the point where her own family had to respond.

The year came to an end, and publicly, Kaleina was looking fine. Everyone knew that she wasn't, though. especially considering the month long "sort of hiatus" she was put on during Test Drive promotions back in November 2019. Throughout 2020, one of KRUSH's biggest years career wise, the Kaleina hate train never truly stopped, but since it was considered "old news," it didn't get too much attention from GGBs anymore. However, that certain subsection of "fans" didn't want their message to fall on deaf ears, and they got the perfect opportunity to be as loud as possible by Kaleina's solo debut.

A video was posted to YouTube by a now deleted user in January 2021, showing Korean fans screaming "leave," "we don't need you," and "you've committed a sin" during Kaleina's performance of "Cobra." The video went viral, garnering over two million views in the three days that it was left up. After those three days, however, the video was taken down and the user who posted it was mysteriously deleted. That same day, BigHit released a statement notifying fans that they would be taking legal action against any malicious comments or actions directed at Kaleina, and that anyone involved in the "cheering" that was seen in the video would be blacklisted from any upcoming KRUSH events, which included music show broadcasts.

"Hello, this is BigHit Entertainment. It's recently come to our attention that the hate leveled against Kaleina has gotten to levels that we can no longer ignore. Since 2019, Kaleina herself has informed us that she wishes not to take legal action against malicious commenters and the individuals who spread misinformation against her. However, regarding a recent incident that occurred at KBS Music Bank, we can no longer continue to let these issues go unheeded. After discussing this with Kaleina, she has agreed to allow us to take legal action against anyone who thinks cyberbullying our artist is a good idea. Anyone who does so will be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law, and will be required to answer to the corresponding District Court. Additionally, anyone who took part in the KBS Music Bank incident will be blacklisted from any official KRUSH activities (concerts, fan meetings, showcases, broadcasts, etc.) from here on out. We, BigHit Entertainment, and Kaleina ask you for your sincere support and understanding. Thank you."

BigHit finally issuing a statement did cause the situation to briefly die down, but the timing of this video surfacing was definitely interesting considering what would happen next. Dispatch would rear its ugly head once again, and they would release an article that would change everything. So if you thought for a second that everything was over, then you are sorely mistaken. Shit would truly hit the fan now.

February 2nd, 2021. Only a few short weeks into Kaleina's promotions for "Cobra." All is (somewhat) well in KRUSH-land for a while, until Dispatch does what they always do. The second the article read around the world hit the internet, Kaleina's dating "scandal" went down as one of the most prolific ones in K-pop history.

The article was pretty cut and dry, sharing alleged photos of Kaleina and an unknown female choreographer at a restaurant together, supposedly looking closer than regular friends or colleagues would. According to the source who witnessed it, the unspecified female in question (known as Female A in the article) was placing her hand on Kaleina's waist, kissed her on the forehead, and apparently, they also held hands (oh, the horror) and kissed. On the lips. And in the split second that Kaleina forgot to put her mask back up, the anonymous source caught a picture of her. It was basically confirmed: Kaleina had a girlfriend.

But, how did said source know that it was a choreographer specifically? Well, apparently they could "tell." Verbatim, they said that, "the other woman just had that vibe to her."

...Okay.

A couple of days later, Dispatch obtained another photo, this one being of Kaleina and the choreographer boarding a private flight to Los Angeles. Allegedly, it was for a solo schedule that Kaleina was meant to attend, but oddly enough, she was going with Female A. Seeing as she was a choreographer (apparently), this made sense from a work standpoint, but as always, netizens spun it to mean something else entirely, especially since Female A and Kaleina were literally both seen together just a few days prior. The same source as before was also the one to feed this information to Dispatch, and they'd allegedly obtained Kaleina's flight information by paying airport employees. Unfortunately.

Another couple of days later, though, the initial article was updated. This time, with another batch of leaked photos. And these ones were something else.

All the photos that were leaked. The worst part? They were taken from Kaleina's iCloud, which was reportedly hacked by the leaker in question. The fact that these were the only nine they released means that they were searching, and only God knows if they could've released more. The photos (one of which—second in the middle row—was taken by Aeri and sent to Kaleina) were grainy and looked edited to hell for some reason, and no one really knew if the other woman was who they were thinking, but some eagle-eyed GGBs were certain it was.

Just a few hours later, more photos were released. At the rate that all this was happening, make no mistake that this was the story of the week. Stans were up and down Twitter wondering what was going to happen next. One half was happy for Kaleina and wanted the breaches of her privacy to stop already, the other half wanted her head on a pike.

The photos that were leaked were more Instagram stories, one from Kaleina that was accidentally uploaded to her official Instagram account, rather than a separate account (which was another private account speculated to possibly belong to her girlfriend). The other was from Sienna Yoon's official account, dating back to early 2019.

Wait... Sienna Yoon?

Apparently, Female A's identity had been revealed.

Now, the first photo apparently dated back to late 2020, which is when a lot of people think Kaleina and Sienna began dating... and the photo definitely reinforces their suspicions. The second photo, as mentioned before, dated all the way back to early 2019. Mind you, Kaleina wasn't even publicly out yet, and at the time, she and Sienna were widely known to be close friends.

However, GGBs also knew that they tended to act closer than "close friends" should.

They would be together almost all the time, with the other members of KRUSH even outwardly joking that outside of practice, they spent the most time together. Even during practice, Sienna would heap the most attention onto Kaleina, and they would get oddly touchy with each other, even while on camera. One major thing is that Sienna would frequently call Kaleina "baby girl," which... is something Sienna herself admitted that she just does. A lot of GGBs simply chalked it up to them being really close or labeled it as something south of fanservice, but within BigHit, everyone could tell. There was tension. And if you were a GGB and particularly observant (or just insane), you could tell, too.

Following these leaks and sometime in March, Kaleina sent a series of texts to her bandmate and famed best friend, Aeri Yamamoto. In them, she expressed her (understandable) frustration towards the situation, and ended the conversation by saying that if the texts were also leaked, she wouldn't be surprised.

Surprise, surprise. The texts were leaked, revealed by none other than Koreaboo. Shortly afterwards, Kaleina was seen with a new phone outside of M Countdown, as KRUSH had just made their comeback with their fourth full album, Heartbreak's Daughter. She was serious.

Now, GGBs were calling for the leaks to stop. They were trending #LeaveKaleinaAlone and #BigHitDoSomething practically non-stop for weeks. Others were calling her a crybaby and "someone who wasn't fit for fame," and even Aeri was getting dragged into it. But even with that, Kaleina's "dating scandal" was still the one thing on everyone's minds.

By now, Sienna's name was 100% attached to the so-called "scandal." However, could anyone really verify for sure that Kaleina's girlfriend was actually her? The aforementioned Instagram story was posted two years prior, and it looked like exactly what it was: a friendly outing. Maybe Sienna and Kaleina really were just friends, and the unknown girl was someone else entirely.

But you know what would change everyone's minds?

That infamous Twitter thread.

In the thread, the user @/leinanator (who, at the time, was one of Kaleina's biggest fan accounts), known commonly as Carlie, starts off by pointing out a lot of things that GGBs were already aware of. However, she then began going into things that no one even noticed, which really sealed the deal for a lot of people. For one, back in October 2020, Sienna was seen wearing Kaleina's bisexual flag bracelet that she made in July 2019 in a choreography video posted by YGX. That was definitely interesting, considering that Kaleina never let anyone wear the bracelet, not even her own bandmates.

Other pieces of evidence from around this time period included the multiple instances where they were at the same place at around the same time, Kaleina's posts showing her at the YGX dance studio, and even a few instances where Sienna would talk about Kaleina in ways that friends would not talk about their friends.

Carlie would go on to point out some of Kaleina's lyrics, dating all the way back to September-October 2020 to as recently as January 2021, when Cobra was released. During a live in September 2020, she shared a page of her notebook, where she wrote an unfinished song about an anonymous girl, describing their first meeting. In the live, Kaleina said it was a song she wrote "on a whim," and that it could "possibly be a love song." A lot of lyrics penned by her in some of KRUSH's B-sides point to Kaleina's attraction to women, with clear, often repeated details across nearly every song.

Immediately after being posted, this thread went viral. Within the first hour, GGBs were all over it, with many posting other supposed connections and others claiming that the thread was posted in bad faith. Which... was it? Well...

Apparently, Carlie was so big that she actually kind of knew Kaleina herself. She was very vocal about knowing of Kaleina since her Produce days and attending nearly every KRUSH-related schedule since their debut, and supposedly, Kaleina actually followed her shortly after the account launched all the way back in January 2016. They were nowhere near close friends, but they were at least familiar with each other, and had been for five years at that point. Which makes that thread just a little worse.

At least Carlie didn't air out any more personal information.

But it would only get even worse from here.

A month went by with nothing but pure speculation going on and a few Koreaboo articles here and there, and throughout all of it, Kaleina was still actively promoting with KRUSH, looking as unbothered as ever in public. In May, however, Deuxmoi of all websites suddenly got involved.

On May 6th, just two days after Kaleina's 21st birthday, a blind item was sent to Deuxmoi claiming that Kaleina was definitely, 100%, no speculation needed dating Sienna. However, what proof they did have weren't surface level connections. Apparently, they knew what was going on behind the scenes. They knew Kaleina and Sienna personally.

"I've known Kaleina Jung personally for a while, and everything you guys are saying about her relationship with Sienna Yoon is true. They've been dating for nearly a year now, and they've been close since early 2018, around January at least, and a month later, that was the first public mention of Sienna as KRUSH's choreographer. I prefer not to share them here, but I do have Twitter DMs between Kaleina and I discussing her relationship with Sienna dating as far back as March 2018 and as recently as late 2020. I've also spoken to Sienna before, and she's not exactly subtle regarding her feelings towards Kaleina. They're definitely dating."

'Til this day, GGBs are still trying to figure out who was the one behind the Deuxmoi blind item. However, their prime suspect has been Carlie for years. Although nearly two months passed in between her original thread and the blind item, the fact that the anon behind the latter was (allegedly) as close to Kaleina as Carlie was... it's definitely interesting.

Right after Deuxmoi posted, Carlie tweeted that Kaleina had supposedly unfollowed her. Since then, GGBs were quick to turn against her, unfollowing her en masse and bombarding her with hate. As June began, @/leinanator disappeared. Carlie had deactivated.

The aforementioned Carlie tweet. Although no one in the fandom will truly know who was behind that blind item, Carlie's reputation's as one of Kaleina's first and biggest fan accounts has forever been tainted.

Once Deuxmoi presented this as fact, it was basically over. The hatred for Kaleina reached its peak, with antis calling for her removal, shouting the most vile things known to man at her, boycotting KRUSH, and flooding her comments with hate all over again. Twitter's searches ranged from "Kaleina leave" to "Kaleina bad leader," and it even got to the point where antis were accusing her of prioritizing her relationship over her group... again.

In June, Kaleina disabled her Instagram comments. For the next six months, it was nothing but complete radio silence.

Sienna has been mentioned at least a thousand times so far, but who is she? Well, if you're an idol or at least a well-versed K-pop fan, there's a good chance that you know who she is.

Sienna Yoon (also known as Yoon Seo-yeon) was born on March 4th, 1996 in Seoul, South Korea. Although born in Korea, she was raised in San Antonio and New York City. As a child, she was placed in dance lessons by her parents in order for her to find some sort of hobby. When she entered middle school, Sienna became interested in K-pop, getting into groups such as Baby V.O.X and Wonder Girls. In 2009, she moved back to Korea with her mother, looking to join a training academy. A few months after she did, though, she was scouted by JYP Entertainment.

Sienna trained at JYP for a year and was placed into Miss A's lineup due to her dance skills. What's insane is that she actually ended up debuting with the group, but shortly after the release of "Good-bye Baby," Sienna went on hiatus due to an injury. That hiatus soon turned into her permanently leaving Miss A, and she would pretty much disappear for the rest of 2011. However, in 2012, it was revealed that she had joined CSJ Entertainment's subsidiary, Verse Creative, and was preparing for her re-debut in another girl group.

In May 2012, Sienna debuted again in the 5-member group Queen. The group's debut single, "Dancing Queen," (off of their debut EP of the same name) did well in Korea, replacing their labelmate DI-VERSE's recent single at number one on the charts for a few weeks. For a few years, Queen was almost comparable to DI-VERSE in popularity and were viewed as the former's "big sisters," (despite being their juniors) and as the group's main dancer (plus she was a former Miss A member), Sienna was among the most popular members.

However, as DI-VERSE began to vastly eclipse Queen in popularity, the group was gradually forgotten by the public. Their second to last comeback, released in late 2014, was their worst performing release. In 2015, it was announced by Verse Creative that Queen would be disbanding after releasing their final album in 2015. In April 2015, they officially disbanded. Ironically, their last release was one of their most successful.

Now, what happened to Sienna, you ask? Well, in 2016, she interestingly re-signed to JYP Entertainment. She kickstarted her highly anticipated solo debut with the single "Like that," off of her debut album, SEOYEON.

Sienna's debut did immensely well, selling over 16,000 copies within its first week and topping every chart in Korea. For the next two years, she would have pretty consistent comebacks, would start acting, and she even became somewhat of an influencer with the launch of her personal YouTube channel, SiSiSeo. However, in early 2018, it was announced that Sienna had terminated her contract with JYP and had effectively retired from music, preferring to focus on her career as a dancer. Sienna became one of the first talents signed to YGX, and she soon established her own dance team, KillaQueen. Over the next six years, Sienna became a renowned choreographer, working with artists such as Itzy, BLACKPINK, Somi, Aespa, Sunmi, NewJeans, her former labelmates DI-VERSE... and of course, KRUSH.

More recently, Sienna has choreographed dances for Katseye, BABYMONSTER, and MEOVV. In February 2023, she became one of The Black Label's creative directors, and was appointed as one of the creative directors for MEOVV in 2024.

Eventually, YGX folded in 2024, but with such a stacked roster and her years of experience, Sienna remained under The Black Label and dedicated most of her time to her dance group, and she established her own dance studio, Killa Studios. In 2023, she and KillaQueen competed on Street Woman Fighter 2, ending up in third place by the end of the show. Everyone already knew Sienna before, but everyone really knew her now.

And all of this made her dating "scandal" with Kaleina even crazier.

Throughout all of this, Kaleina is still promoting with KRUSH. She refuses to go on hiatus, but it's kind of clear that she doesn't want to interact with a lot of GGBs right now. During award show season, she's clearly fidgety and uncomfortable, a clear contrast in comparison to 2019 and prior. On stage, though, she's as "Kaleina" as ever. She gives some of her best performances of the year, but that's because that's her job. She kind of has to perform well.

Netizens are petitioning for Kaleina and even KRUSH as a whole to be blacklisted if she isn't removed from the group. They're sending letter after letter to broadcast stations, and reportedly (according to Dispatch), said stations are emailing BigHit and asking them to place Kaleina on hiatus until the entire thing blows over. Obviously, their suggestions go unheeded, and Kaleina remains with KRUSH for the rest of the year.

You're probably wondering: where was Sienna in all of this? Well, after getting dragged through the mud herself, she stopped posting earlier in the year, shortly after the situation escalated. She disabled her own Instagram comments, which was seen as some sort of "admission," but everyone already kind of... knew, and I would disable my comments too if I had a bunch of homophobes and freaks harassing me and my girlfriend and constantly trying to pry into our private lives.

However, in November, Sienna would finally break her silence in her first post in seven months. A rather lengthy statement, it read:

"Hi, everyone. Long time no see, right? First off, I want to apologize for being gone for so long. As you all probably know, it's been a tumultuous last couple of months. Although I would like to go into detail about how all of this has affected me, the purpose of this letter to you all is not to highlight me. Over the last few months, I've seen many of you wonder where I've been and why I haven't been publicly defending Kaleina. For one (and I have gotten permission to say this), she had advised me not to come out and say anything, as she feared that the harassment she'd been receiving would be directed at me. Recently, though, since she's turned off her comments and has been limiting her time online, she's allowed me to speak for her in a way. As of now, Kaleina is okay for the most part. She's been focusing mostly on promoting with the rest of KRUSH, since the girls are currently on tour, as many of you might know. However, her anxiety has also worsened since this year began, and it's become harder and harder for her to complete performances. Clearly, this is because of the relentless malice that's been directed at her over the last two years. To whoever's been participating in the hate train leveled against her, I kindly ask you to stop. Calling for her removal from KRUSH and harassing her because she is trying to be her authentic self gets you nowhere. It will not get you a better job, nor will it make you feel like a better person. Like her family, her members, and the staff at BigHit, I've seen the toll this has taken on Kaleina. It's not cute, so please, cut it out. As for me, I'm fine. I won't go into detail on my mental state since I'm clearly not the one in the public eye in comparison to Kaleina, but what I will say is that this situation has made me significantly unhappier and much more stressed out. It has also affected Kaleina and I's friendship in ways that are distressing to the both of us. I wish that I could wake up tomorrow and all of this will be over, but unfortunately, nothing's ever that easy. I want to end this very, very long letter by saying that I love you, my aegi-deul, so much. Even though I wont be posting as often for a multitude of reasons, that doesn't mean I suddenly hate any of you. Like the past few months, I just need to take a bit more time away. Plus, you can still find me on YGX's channel, so don't worry too much. This has gotten incredibly long, so I'll end it here. Like I said, I love you so much, and once again, please find it in your heart to give Kaleina some grace and leave her be. It'll be better for all of us. And to Kaleina, even though I can call you and say this, just know that I will always be here for you. Goodbye for now. - S <3"

Notably, Sienna's comments were no longer disabled, but limited, and back then, a lot of people were wondering what made her "change her mind." But that's not what's important right now. In response to Sienna's statement, GGBs got "#ThankYouSienna" to the top of the trending page, along with "#WeLoveYouKaleina." In a staggering display of love that Kaleina hadn't felt since 2019, the latter would trend practically nonstop for the next few months, and it really did look like things were actually starting to simmer down this time.

So 2021 drew to a close, and in came 2022. At the start of January, Kaleina suddenly re-enabled her comments, although like Sienna, not just anyone was allowed to camp under her Instagram. But, some progress was better than no progress.

And then, it happened.

On January 12th, 2022, BigHit released the statement that shook the industry to its core. In the big year of 2022, saying that something like this was "unprecedented" was honestly sad, but it really was. This was truly a first.

"Hello, this is BigHit Music. After careful deliberation and extensive communication with our artist, Kaleina, she has allowed us to publicly confirm her relationship with Sienna Yoon. After getting to know each other after the last few years, Kaleina and Ms. Yoon have been seeing each other romantically for a while now. We will not disclose much else on our artist's personal life, and we kindly ask you to not try and find out yourselves. Any breaches of privacy will be considered criminal, and you will be prosecuted as such. We, BigHit Music, and Kaleina sincerely ask you for your utmost respect, kindness, and understanding going forward. Thank you."

Needless to say, the reactions to this were insane. Tweet after tweet, news article after news article... this was at the forefront of every K-pop stan's mind for weeks. It had taken over Twitter timelines like the bubonic plague. But, surprisingly, unlike 2019, reactions were a lot more... tame.

Now, people were praising Kaleina and Sienna for being so open about their relationship, lauding Kaleina's choice to go public. One of the industry's biggest stars acknowledging her relationship? Crazy. Said star acknowledging her same sex relationship? Batshit.

A week later, Kaleina would take to Weverse with a statement of her own. For the first time in nearly a year, she had broken her silence. It was cause for celebration.

"Hello everyone. Kaleina here. I know, I've been sort of 'gone' for a long time. I apologize for that. It's been one terrible year, but I don't need to tell you all that for you to know. Anyways, a week ago, my company announced my relationship with Seoyeon. I've seen the reactions, and I thank God that most of them have been positive. I'll admit, During the conversations with BigHit, I was terrified. There were multiple times where I almost backed out, mainly because of the reactions I witnessed following our Los Angeles concert three years ago. But then, I realized something. The reason I came out in 2019 was because I didn't want to have to hide. People like me have been told our entire lives that our identities are things to be ashamed of. That we 'don't have to make it a big deal.' But that's exactly why we have to make it a 'big deal,' especially since I'm an idol. I don't want to put on a mask or live in a lie simply because I'm a celebrity. I want to live my authentic self to the best of my ability. I came out back then because I didn't care what others thought of me. Why should I care now? Of course, some of the reactions I saw back then nearly scared me back into submission. There was a reason I went on my brief hiatus back during our promos for Test Drive, and there's a reason why I didn't bring it up as often afterwards. But, now, since I'm three years older, I'm choosing to focus on the people that support and appreciate me. My teammates, my friends, my family, and of course, my girlfriend. If you don't like me, that's fine. But all I ask is that you respect me. But if you can't do that either, then you don't have to force yourself to support my group. One thing's for certain, though. I won't leave KRUSH because a few of our so-called fans refuse to accept me for me. I won't desert the girls I've trained for years with, I won't pretend to be someone I'm not, and I won't break up with Seoyeon. There's no changing my mind. To the GGBs who have supported me nonstop for three years, I can't even begin to express how thankful I am. You have made me feel so loved, even on days where I felt like the entire world was against me. You fought for me when I couldn't fight for myself. You tried your hardest to shield me from the hate, and for that, I am eternally grateful. I love you all so, so much. To my teammates, my family, and my friends, thank you for standing by me. Thank you for validating my identity and constantly reassuring me that what I did wasn't a mistake. Thank you for being there when I needed you and being my shoulder to cry on when this leader couldn't take it anymore. Everyone goes through tough times, but you put your struggles aside to help me get through mine. I'm crying all over again just thinking about it. And finally, to Seoyeon. To my wonderful girlfriend who I love so dearly. These last few years with you have been some of my best, even though I cried more often than I would've liked. Even though all of this made us go through a pretty rough patch, you've stood by me every step of the way, and you were there when I wanted nothing more than to just disappear. You're the greatest girlfriend I could've ever asked for, and now, you're still here while I'm staring millions in the face and telling them that I don't care anymore. You've gotten me to this point. I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. I can say it a million times, to be honest. This is getting very long and very corny, so I just want to say thank you again. You all's boundless love for me has gotten me through this mess. Don't worry, a happier, stronger Kaleina will be back soon. Happy new year, by the way. Once again, thank you and I love you. Bye for now. <3 (And, because I know you're curious, Seoyeon and I have been dating since August 2020. You all can calm down now.)"

Immediately following her statement, Kaleina took to Instagram, and surprisingly, with her comments turned back on. She would post what is probably the cutest picture ever to her story, but what was even cuter? Sienna would respond.

Sienna responded to Kaleina's story just four minutes later, pretty much softlaunching their relationship to the world. Eagle-eyed GGBs took to noticing that the picture Sienna took was from some sort of vacation, most likely the one that Kaleina mentioned a year prior. And if you looked even closer, their new profile pictures were from the same vacation.

In the days following this, antis were quick to "push back," still petitioning for Kaleina's removal from KRUSH and still saying she was prioritizing her relationship over her group. They even started protesting outside HYBE's building. However, these protests were quickly shut down, and the Twitter thinkpieces were either ignored, criticized to hell, or reported.

Antis would try to keep going, spamming hate all down Kaleina's Instagram comments and trending "#KaleinaYouBetrayedUs" for days on end. What they failed to realize is that it wasn't 2019 anymore, and with KRUSH's much larger fanbase, all of that mess was quickly drowned out by much more positive comments/trends. Even into February, "#KaleinaWeLoveYou" and "#KRUSH_Is_4" occupied the first two spots on the trending page, and her comment sections from her Twitter posts to her Instagram to her Weverse updates were spammed with red hearts. It all came to a head during a live where GGBs spammed "we love you Kaleina" and those same red hearts all down the chat. The sheer outpouring of love brought Kaleina to tears.

By February, BigHit kicked the lawsuits up a notch. The accounts that been organizing protests, camping under Kaleina's posts, or just being straight up homophobic on Twitter dot com were all hit with a lawsuit of their own, and within the next few days, they were all gone. If it wasn't clear that BigHit was serious, it was clear now. Eventually, the 3-year-long hate train finally slowed to a stop.

In July, right after the release of Juicy, Kaleina and Sienna were seen outside of Music Core holding hands. Surprisingly, the fans there were all for it, and one of them even asked them to kiss. They didn't do that (unfortunately), but it was a far cry from the mess that was 2021.

And as for those antis? Well, no one really hears from them anymore. Guess it's hard to hate on someone who refuses to respond.

So, where are we at now? Well, aside from Kaleina and Sienna's sudden breakup during the Bad News era and the former's very brief relationship with a certain someone (which is a whole other can of worms), they've never been better.

In 2023, right after they got back together, Kaleina began showing up on Sienna's YouTube channel a lot more often. That same year, she was a guest on Street Woman Fighter 2. By early 2024, Koreaboo reported that the two had bought an apartment together in Hannam, and were living with Sienna's two cats and Kaleina's dog, Kyung-ah. And just last month, they launched their very own YouTube channel together, SeoKyung. There, they look like the blissful, homey couple they've always wanted to be, rather than two celebrities that just finished going through hell. Needless to say, it was a welcome surprise for Sienna and Kaleina's fans alike.

Moral of the story? Well, being a hateful freak isn't cute. If you spend most of your time screaming and crying because someone else is living their life, you should probably go find a hobby.

I can't believe this still needs to be said (and I hope Sienna proposes).

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