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WRONG FUCKING ACCT BUT FUCK IT HELLO IM ALSO AN ATINY 😭😭😭😭
IF MY LANDLORD GETS MY FUCKING DEPOSIT BACK TO ME THERES A SLIM CHANCE I COULD SEE ATEEZ NEXT WEEK
RATTLING AT THE BARS OF MY CAGE RN I WANNA SEE THEM AGAIN SO BADDDDDDDDD
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Forever in skz hell apparently
#don’t worry I’ll keep my kpop on the side blog#just uhhh updating yall 😳#been obsessing for the past few months which meant less anime#Rach rambles#I love them so much they are occupying my brain so much 😭😭😭
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"Junho" - an exercise in willow charcoal done 4/22/2024 in about 20 minutes of Lee Junho from 2PM
#this month it will be a FULL decade since i started this blog. but we were just a few short days#of making it 10 years without my kpop obsession leaking onto this sideblog. i thought we'd make it#i thought we'd make it but we didn't#my drawing#junho#2024#2pm#lee junho#charcoal#willow charcoal#drawing exercise#i drew something else today but i'm saving it to post later#and i only wrote one poem today and it was crap. so here's an exercise#i like how most of the drawings i post to this blog are just beautiful men#it's overrepresented in my portfolio admittedly#im not exactly 'proud' of this but i do like posting my exercises now and then bc they are fun to look at#i find examining my rushed/practiced drawings to be a lot more helpful in spotting my own strengths and weaknesses#than finished drawings i put a lot of dedication in#with this one i can say that the nose is off-center and the skull doesn't go all the way around on the left#as much as it should. but since it's clearly not meant to be a fully 'good' drawing it's more forgivable#if i had slaved at this for four hours it would kill me to stare at that inaccuracy#also: this is yet another example of the 'diana likes to draw faces far more than clothes' style of portrait#it's not that i dislike drawing clothes but they are so much less fascinating to me#i could stare at faces forever. whereas fabric doesn't inspire me to craft every detail just so.#and it shouldn't. because fabric is far more forgiving than human anatomy anyway
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kpop stans really think "delulu" is...... just kpop slang? 💀
there were way more similar answers to bm's question, i just picked out the first two. the rest were variations of "delulu pills" memes 😶
i'm not on the schizophrenic spectrum myself but i experience a similar set of ableism daily so i can't just keep quiet about this.
i'm also aware it's not every kpop stan and that twitter is a spawn place for those teens who are trained to believe that performing being politically correct as not to get "cancelled" is the way nowadays. i'm talking about the phenomenon of "being an ally" by putting pronouns in their bios and thinking it's all there is to being an ally for lgtbqi+ people and other similar examples. it's not exclusive only to twt though but it's not like i take screenshots everywhere i go because it's really just exhausting talking about this.
i don't care if you're an impressionable teen, using specific symptom-related terms of stigmatized conditions to talk about anything but actual said symptoms will always be simply disgusting and ableist behavior.
delusional is a word used to describe a specific experience people on the schizophrenic spectrum experience. people that don't experience delusions shouldn't use this word to name other things that are not related to a particular everyday experience of schizo-spec people. delusions are debilitating and are a part of what makes a person disabled. using the word devoid of its original meaning only further stigmatizes schizophrenic people + people with related conditions who also experience delusions. because it normalizes only the word describing a symptom without normalizing the symptom itself since all of you keep using it in wrong context by erasing the initial meaning behind the word. the word you were searching for was a belief, not a delusion.
other examples since you're in need of more varied vocabulary to say the most usual things: far-fetched dreams, illusion, parasocial, desperate, naive etc.
#id like to rip ableism out of this society with its roots#i hate how pervasive and easy ableism is#sick how idk what else to do about this but to write posts on my little blog#irl is always easier but online nobody ever cares except disabled people#makes me sick even more seeing skz as their pfps but like whatever#ive seen so many ppl bullied off of twitter for speaking up about ableist language and abkeism in general in kpop#a couple of years back when i used to frequent twt a lot#it's honestly scary how actually non inclusive kpop fan spaces are#im lucky i was able to find such a nice and kind corner of the internet for myself#i meant *online fan spaces#kard bm#kpop#bts
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Im planning on getting a lightstick, but i cant decide if i should get 2 lightsticks for diff groups, or a lighstick and a few albums and also which lightstick oops
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for the last few nights i’ve had dreams about sinking into a marsh, a shooter, someone dying gruesomely in front of me, my mouth being glued shut, and being trapped in a burning building. i am literally afraid to go to sleep tonight 🫶🏻
#there’s too much in my head too much stress too many things changing#my pup can feel it too he’s been anxious all day just whining and wanting to be held like a baby#i know he feeds off me so i try to relax myself for his sake too but i’m just 😵💫#i need to meditate fr before bed tonight like more than just 2 minutes worth#and also i meant to make a new dreamcatcher since i got the feathers i asked for so i need to get on that too bc i can’t live like thissss#i know this isn’t my kpop blog so ppl probably won’t understand but. i was less anxious when i had channie’s room 😔#need to start rewatching old ones before bed bc he is the only guaranteed way to relax me#and i feel like i’m being genuinely traumatised by the dreams i’m having they feel so real
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remembered that i have like 50 sideblogs... i should actually do something with those
#brought on by me thinking abt making a ffxiv sideblog now that i have the full game and my bunbun#OH SHIT I MEANT TO TAKE SCREENSHOTS--- it's ok. i dont have any glamours rn anyway.#just know that he is so beautiful#what was i talking about#SIDEBLOGS#i need to add more stuff to my queue for my drama blog.... i use my kpop sideblog semi-regularly bcs i dont bother w a complicated tagging#system there lol but yexie has a complicated tagging system.....#my vkei sideblog has been abandoned and i did nothing w the fashion/aesthetic/vibes sideblog either...#and then there's the ffxiv sideblog i kinda made as a joke bcs the url ringofendlesslight was available#i should turn that into a proper sideblog....#but not at 2am max#i took my melatonin too late i'll be here a bit longer#max.txt
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Please Request 🥺🫶
Christmassy [12 days of Winter Year #8]
(Tagged as: Wintertime 3)
The group you can request for is THE BOYZ
To request; pick a prompt and a member of TBZ, and the specific reader you want it for (if not specified, I’ll make it gender neutral). And if the genre is not specified, it will be fluff.
Completed stories will be posted every odd numbered day of December!
Prompts that are strikethrough have been requested.
Please request!!!
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A festive storyteller
“You’re just what I always wanted, a Christmas delight.”
Making snowmen and failing miserably.
“Did anyone ever tell you that you look beautiful underneath Christmas lights?”
Christmas On and On! (Choose a member’s proposal from the Christmassy mv & send it in~)
“What do you say to matching pajamas, watching Christmas movies, and hot cocoa?”
First snowfall on the *car* track
“I wish you could come home for Christmas.” “Open your door.”
A Creepmas [supernatural and/or horror themed] party
“Let’s make Christmas cookies together.”
“I don’t want to get ice cream, it's freezing out! We’re going to get frostbite!” “I think it’d be fun.” “Yes, I agree, let’s do it.” (Loosely based off of the Monster House line “...I don’t wanna go inside a monster and I don’t wanna die.” “I say it’s worth a shot.” “Yes, I agree, let’s do it.”).
Make your own prompt!
#12 days of christmas#12 days of winter#kpop#kpop requests#winter prompts#christmas prompts#winter/christmas prompts#wintertime 3#12 days of winter year 8#request#please request#kpop fanfic requests#kpop christmas#prompts#winter christmas#requests?#requests open#writing requests#writing prompts#prompt list#as a preemptive measure: thank you so much for your request!!!#yesterday when i had meant to reblog this was the 8th year anniversarry of the first fic i posted here- so happy belated anniversary#it was also my first post on here too- so it's been 8yrs + 1 day on this blog bhebhbhea- time flies fast yknow? but that's a lovely thing
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TWTHH Spinoff: Written in the Stars [Teaser]
Pairing: military strategist!Mingi x royal physician!reader
AU: historical au (Joseon era)
Summary: Mingi had spent countless years searching for the angel who saved his life when he was on the verge of death. He believed god was on his side when she finally reappeared before him, but she was now so near yet so far, so unobtainable. No longer just a young medical trainee, she had become an esteemed royal physician—a woman working within the palace walls. And what did that mean? It meant she now belonged to His Majesty.
A/N: Credits to @sundaybossanova for contributing the main idea of Mingi's spinoff. I might have changed most of the proposed plot, but the MC's identity as a physician and how the two first meet remains Sunny's idea.
Main Story | Spinoff Masterlist | Part 1
"Ooh, guess who's here again," your colleague remarked, nodding toward the entrance of the royal medical hall where a certain tall, handsome military strategist strode in for what felt like the thousandth time this week. You sighed, refusing to look up from your book. "Please tell me it's not him."
She gulped, watching him approach. "Hate to break it to you, but it is your not-so-secret admirer, General Officer Song."
"Good afternoon, ladies. I, uh… I'm here today because—" his familiar deep voice rang out as he paused at a respectful distance.
Clearing your throat, you finally closed your book and turned to face him with a courteous smile, finishing his sentence for him, "Good afternoon to you too, Officer Song. Let me guess, you're here because you got hurt during training again?"
Instead of the usual sheepish nod, he shook his head and nervously fiddled with his fingers. "No, actually… I came to ask if… i-if you would like to accompany me to the royal banquet celebrating Joseon's unity with Ruhon tonight, Royal Physician Ahn?"
You froze at his question, and your colleague mirrored your reaction. The two of you exchanged bewildered glances, trying to process the fact that this fool was openly pursuing you, a woman working in the palace, someone who belonged to the King.
Does he realise what he's doing?
You're probably wondering why I'm posting this on a Wednesday (depending on where you are) but it's a public holiday here today in Malaysia, so surprise!! It's finally Princess Mingi's turn! The way y'all thought his spinoff would be the first and here he is HAHA
In case you're confused and are not sure what I mean by MC belonging to the King, please read ✨this✨
As always, I'll do my best to get the first part out as soon as I can! Let me know your thoughts on the concept! <3
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#edenesth#the way to his heart#written in the stars#twthh spinoff#ateez#ateez fanfic#ateez fanfiction#song mingi#ateez mingi#historical au#joseon era#mingi x reader#mingi x you#ateez fic
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🌸Hiii, I'm Mitz! I love writing and @hanniebaeee brings together my love for writing and this wonderful fandom together🌸
🌸I love Stray Kids and Seventeen, but I started listening to Kpop only 'coz of BTS🌸
💖Felix, Hyunjin, Jeonghan and V biased💖
💖 Lee Know is my babie✨💖
🌸But also a big supporter of all the members, because they're all amazing🌸
🌸 You can read some of my old BTS and other fiction in my other blog @craftycupcake27🌸
❌Many of my fics contain suggestive/mature content, so MINORS PLEASE DO NOT INDULGE! ❌
🚫Please don't copy, translate or repost any of my work!🚫
Smut- ❤🔥
Fluff- 🐻
Angst- 😿
Suggestive - 💘
Horror/thriller - ☠️
Fantasy - 🧚♂️
Stray kids
Bang Chan
Flicker 😿🐻💘
Unexpectedly Yours 🐻💘
Wet ❤🔥🐻
Back seat (ft Minho) ❤🔥
Baby Fever 🐻
Bite me 🐻💘
Care 🐻❤🔥
Lee Minho
Always You 🐻💘
Bittersweet 😿🐻
Wild Hearts 🐻❤🔥
Moonlit ❤🔥😿
Pierced 🐻❤🔥
Back seat (ft Bang Chan) ❤🔥
Bath ❤🔥🐻
Perfect 🐻❤🔥
Boyfriend ❤🔥
Clingy? 🐻
Seo Changbin
Tease 🐻💘
Hwang Hyunjin
Cherish ❤🔥🐻
Crazy for you ❤🔥🐻😿💘
Adore you (ft Lee Know) 😿🐻
The Deal 🐻💘🧚♂️
Jealous ❤🔥🐻
First Kiss 🐻💘
Surprise! 🐻
Don't be Shy 🐻💘
Cursed ❤🔥😿🧚♂️
My Demon 🐻❤🔥💘🧚♂️
Masterpiece 🐻❤🔥
Insatiable ❤🔥
Night Bus 🐻💘
The Ex 🐻
Welcome Home 🐻🧚♂️
Han Jisung
Break up? (ft Felix) 😿🐻💘
Comfort ❤🔥🐻
Clueless 🐻💘
Lee Felix
Butterfly ❤🔥🐻
Taste of Love 🐻
Lixie Love ❤🔥🐻
Break up? (ft Han) 😿🐻💘
A Love Like This 🐻💘
Meant to be (ft Hyunjin) 😿🐻
Yours ❤🔥🐻
Movie Night ❤🔥🐻
Lost ☠️❤🔥
Cabin in the Woods ☠️🐻
Glow in the Dark 🐻
Tempted ❤🔥
The Wedding 🐻💘
Kim Seungmin
The Honeymoon 🐻❤🔥
Teddy Bear 🐻❤🔥
One Rainy Night 🐻💘
Yang Jeongin
Rekindled 🐻
Seventeen
Yoon Jeonghan
This Man 🐻💘
Hide and Seek 🐻💘
Hannie! 🐻
#masterlist#skz masterlist#seventeen masterlist#masterpost#seventeen#stray kids#seventeen carat#skz stay#skz#svt#svt carat#stray kids masterlist#svt masterlist
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here’s a master list of (most of) my work. it’s a work in progress, but I’ll try to keep it updated! 😚
last updated on: 10.03.2024
anything with a ✮ is smut, so minors dni
currently writing for: ateez, bts, and seventeen
All kpop stories are works of fiction and are not meant to represent real events or the actual personalities of any K-pop idols mentioned. All characters and situations are purely imaginary. These stories are created for entertainment purposes only, and no harm or disrespect is intended toward the idols or their fans. Enjoy!
requests are open. please read the rules below!
do not ask for smut unless your age is in your bio. this blog is 18+ anyway!
please do not ask me to write multiple parts. i loooove writing for you guys, but i can't guarantee that i'll finish a series once i start it 😅
have fun with your requests! i love hearing about what you guys would like to read! 🫶🏾
i won't write: a/b/o, member x member, race play, step-sibling/parent, bullying
Seonghwa
sugar daddy!Seonghwa
Yunho
sugar daddy!Yunho yunho comes home earned it ✮
San
sugar daddy!San ✮ your IG story w/ foodie!San san showing love on IG idol!san and singer!reader saddle up ✮ unforgettable pt. 2 happy birthday sannie ✮
Mingi
sugar daddy!Mingi
Wooyoung
after the game ✮
OT8
bf!ateez with a shorter reader
Xu Minghao aka The8
always be my baby the birthday girl (+mingyu) ✮ after hours
Wonwoo
make a wish
Jun
poolside service ✮
Vernon
alpha!vernon blurb
Lee Chan aka Dino
untitled blurb ✮ virgin!dino ✮ kinktober blurb ✮
Kim Taehyung aka V
fantasy ✮
Luca (The Bear) x Reader
You're #1 to Me ✮ Dating Luca (Headcanon) ✮ Late Night Luca thoughts Missing You ✮ Are You In 1 ✮ 2 ✮ 3 ✮
Rafe Cameron x Reader
Spoiled ✮ Safe Place ✮ Man of the House ✮
Fezco x Reader
When he’s sick What does Ashtray think of Fezco’s girlfriend? Fezco being a 🍑 guy First Kiss Don’t Worry About Me: Part 1 2✮ 3 Christmas Shopping Caught Red Handed ✮ When Rue comes around Meeting Fezco for the first time at his store Seeing Red Like a Pillow ✮ Forbidden Love AU First Makeout Fezco the fighter
Oscar (Spooky) Diaz x Reader
Two Years Later 1 2
Steve Rogers x Reader
When the party’s over Returning home after a mission
Loki x Reader
Alone Time
M’Baku x Reader
The Argument
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hi everyone ♡ a little about where i've been and why i'm not posting....
so... it's no secret that i fell off the face of the earth when it comes to writing, and for that i just want to apologize. i know a lot of you have been waiting for the next chapter of tnt, further aurora updates, or just looking forward to some smutty kinktober one-shots...... but to be completely honest i haven't written in a little while.
i've been trying to but i keep coming up short, and i've been avoiding this blog ever since because i just feel bad for not being able to give you guys the stories you're waiting for. for that reason, i essentially took a creative break and decided not to respond to any messages about writing. i know that kind of sucks, but i know myself and i didn't want to promise "soon" when i knew that wasn't true.
i'm starting slowly to work on things again, and i really hope i'll be able to share some of that work with you soon, but genuinely i just needed space from working on fic and to be honest..... from the fandom. i love being an atiny, but there was a swell of negativity on twitter for a while and i've been feeling a little uninspired with the past year of content and endless touring and it all combined into me putting things off.
i'm also................................ much more of a multi now.... which i really never thought would happen but here we are. i have no idea if i'll actually start writing for any of those groups, but if i do, i hope some of you also enjoy those groups and you stick with me. a little blurb about my new biases and the groups i'm now following, etc. is at the bottom of this post.
as far as what's going on with my ateez work? here's a quick recap:
this night together: still in progress, i have ~4 chapters finished, but chap ten and some of the time skips have me a little stuck. once i iron that out and finish out the last 2-3 chapters after the arc that's written, i'll get back to posting. at this point i'd like to have it done so i can release it confidently and as a complete story. into the aurora: i have about half of book one edited, which will include some new scenes / cleaned up scenes, but nothing crazy. i'd like to start updating old chapters once everything is finalized. book two is.... slow going. i'm hoping a breath of fresh air will help, but it's still my goal to come back to these characters. one-shots: i have about 4-5 ateez one-shots that are half written. my plan is to finish these and release them as inspiration strikes to wrap them up.
thank you all for your patience, and all of your kind messages. so many people have checked in on me both anon and not, and even if i haven't responded it's meant so much as i work on coming back to writing. i may not be able to respond to all the messages since so many of them are in my inbox, but slowly i may chip away at them
i'll see you all very soon~
(so chai multi era.... in a whirlwind of discovering other kpop groups..... i've ended up a carat, a stay, a moa, and a hidden kard. again, no idea if i'll ever write for any of these groups, but.... my biases are below so who knows)
seventeen - s.coups (regularly wrecked by hip hop line + dino) stray kids - lee know + hyunjin txt - soobin (are we surprised tho) kard - bm + jiwoo (but also like basically ot4 let's be real here)
♡
#honeyhotteoks updates#i love you all i hope i can get my ish together soon#also if you see me start to reblog non ateez fic recs......#we're in the chai multi era#surprise???????
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Hils Watches Lovely Runner - Ep 1
Time to start a new drama and this is another one I found via gifs on @sarah-yyy's blog, which is usually a good sign of quality :D
I love starting a new drama. Is this going to ruin my life (positive) or ruin my life (negative). Only time will tell.
Wow this is the most awkward radio call ever. I have no idea how radio shows in Korea work but surely they'd do some sort of screening before having an idol call a random woman who can't walk and offering her running shoes as a prize. I don't blame her at all for being pissed off.
Also, this wasn't what I was expecting from the synopsis. I thought she was the sunshine one and he was the angsty one. Well, we'll see what happens I guess.
Oh no he's a sweetheart and I'm crying already. This does not bode well for the rest of the drama
Looks like my bedroom 😅
I realise that as someone who is also fannish I probably have a skewed view of things but I was freaking out on her behalf when I found it this belonged to her idol and people kept playing with it.
Holy shit that's nearly £2k no wonder she was freaking out
Oh, now he's the tired and angsty one. So I'm guessing since he saved her when she was ready to end it all now she's going to save him. I really feel like I've seen him in something before but there's nothing I've seen on his MDL page. Maybe it's just because he actually looks like an idol.
Oh no she's me
I love her
So the boy she had a crush on when she was in school got kicked out for fighting after her accident. I smell a love triangle...
Unrealistic because she was running late and the merch hasn't already sold out
Um...no?
Ah, so when she said she was late she meant fannish late not actual late. But come on, if that company doesn't respect your free time before you've even started working for them they def won't if you get an internship with them
So they don't value her time and they don't work in an accessible building. Fuck them, honestly.
Admittedly I've never been to a kpop concert but that can't be a thing, surely. We got stuck in the snow on the way to a hockey game once and no one cared that we showed up halfway through the game
Oh no and she lost her ticket. I mean that's on her I would be checking for it every 30 seconds, but then I have anxiety 😅 I really need to stop expecting realisim from a time travel romance drama.
Aww look she's having a good time even though she couldn't get in to see him. He made her into the sunshine one and now she's doing to do the same for him.
I wasn't expecting them to meet until after the time travel thing. But here he is to save her again. He's a good boy.
Is it going to turn out he saved her back then too. Ooh, or was it the other guy that she had a crush on. I'm sure this will turn out to be significant
Me when Seonghwa wears literally anything
I have definitely never done this *cough*
Do people just not help each other in this drama? The person who knocked her phone out of her hand and smashed it didn't even stop, and the person who crashed into her and made her lose her watch apparently is cool with letting a paralysed woman crawl around on the ground trying to get it back.
Well, shit. A significant time of death though. Right at the start of a new year. I'm sure this is magical somehow.
Wibbly wobbly timey wimey
Wait, why has she suddenly got joggers on under her skirt? Those weren't there when she ran out of the classroom to find him
Okay, the irony is not lost on me that in 2008 he was training to be on the olympic swim team and in 2022 he drowned in a pool. But also this poor kid getting glomped by a random girl he doesn't know in front of everyone
Gotta love a romance that starts with a confession the first time they meet. I mean I know it's not their first meeting for her but it is for him
Haha! She mean let's both not cross the bridge into the underworld and stay alive. He thinks this random girl wants to move in with him.
Ooh so she was talking about his depression in the future and he thought she was talking about his shoulder injury that he's hiding from everyone. This has layers! I like it!
You can tell it's the past because there's a DVD rental store
I love dramas with emotionally significant umbrellas (see also Tale of the Nine-Tailed
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Even though I work with Lord Eros and Lady Aphrodite to get love in my life, I still wonder if having a boyfriend is something meant to a girl like me.
Don't get me wrong, I fully believe in Eros and Aphrodite abilities to find love for everyone. Is just that...I have deep insecurities :(
For starter; I'm a chubby girl, I'm not fat, but I have a big tummy and my thighs are too big and I feel too big when I'm next to my girl friends because I'm taller than them (I'm not a tall person, I think I'm 162/163cm)
Then we have my religion, I live in a latam country, where the majority of people are either Christian or Catholic, paganism isn't something welcomed here, and even though there's African rooted religions, something as niche as Hellenic Paganism isn't knowledgeable.
I like girly things, but I'm not a girly person, I mostly wear pants and big kpop hoodies along anime t-shirts. I'm trying to dress up better now that I'm working on a office though, but still.
I have a very acid humor, I'm sarcastic to the point of people wondering if I'm being serious or not. But deep down I'm very insecure about how people perceive me.
I'm neurodivergent, having ADHD and I also have socialphobia. Speaking to people makes me anxious, one of my copying mechanisms is wearing headphones and looking at the floor.
I love Lord Eros and Lady Aphrodite, but at the same time, I still wonder if being loved is something meant for me. Am I loveable? Does Lady Aphrodite see me and think I'm a failure of devotee? Does Lord Eros wish he didn't had to work with me because I'm too awkward?
I love myself, but sometimes I wished I was something else, I wish to be pretty like this friend I have, or maybe charismatic like this other friend, oh oh maybe I could be skinny like this one? I love myself but at the same time I wished to not be me. Does that make sense?
This isn't a devotional post, but rather a vent one. Sorry for anyone that expected something positive, I promise that I will post something nice next time, is just that this blog is my safe space
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So uh, this wasn't supposed to be finished until later. I have a Namjoon piece in the works that I wanted to post before this but, the Hyunjin brainrot is severe. That MAMA performance has me in a chokehold. AND THE WAY HE LOOKED IN THEIR MOST RECENT GROUP LIVE? BYE. He left me with little choice unfortunately and, I had to get this out of my system. This was wayyy longer than I meant for it to be and, was supposed to be mainly pwp. I can't help myself apparently.
Heads up: Hwang Hyunjin x Fem! Reader, Fuckboy! Hyunjin, (Somewhat) Nerdy! Reader, Hyunjin is horrible at feelings, Reader is tired of his shit but thinks he's hot, Hyunjin crushes on Reader, public sex (they fuck in a dance studio), mirror sex, dirty talk, (Somewhat) Bratty! Reader, Dom! Hyunjin, super duper irresponsible unprotected piv sex, fingering (f. receiving), spanking (f. receiving), praise (f. receiving) and choking (f. receiving).
I will block you if you are minor and have no easily visible indication of your age on your blog if you interact with me in any way.
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You make your way over to the dance studio Hyunjin messaged you he was in a few minutes ago, irritation coursing through you. The two of you were supposed to head to the library immediately after your respective classes to work on your shared assignment but, the ever aggravating man forgot to tell you he had dance practice. He did suggest waiting for him, like he was doing you some kind of service, then the two of you could continue work after he was finished. Luckily, or perhaps unluckily, you had the rest of the day free so you begrudgingly made your way over.
The two of you never spoke or interacted much prior to being assigned partners for this history assignment. Your circles were moreso filled with anime fans, literature nerds and avid kpop listeners while Hyunjin's consisted more of popular dancers, jocks and people who were always the life of the party. Your paths just never really crossed. That was until history, of course. You've quickly come to realise that attempting to work with Hyunjin was a more gruelling task than the assignment itself. His constant attempts at flirtation, thinly veiled innuendos and lack of focus on work getting on every one of your nerves. However, he had a knack for toeing the line between going too far and just going far enough. He'd sit a little too close to you than necessary or let his arm rest far too comfortably on the back of your chair while the two of you worked. It was maddening.
Now, you weren't blind. Hyunjin is an attractive man. That's why he has any and everyone he could ever want tripping over themselves to get into his bed. The overly cocky attitude and overt flirtation weren't your thing personally but, to each their own. In the most private parts of your mind though, you admit that you can understand to some degree why people are so eager to hop on his dick, literally and figuratively. Regardless, you wouldn't be tempted. No matter how hard he tried.
The realisation that you'd never seen Hyunjin in his element hits you like a truck once you find te studio he was referring to. You're stunned by how gracefully and powerfully he moves through the choreography, his face laser focused. Knocking yourself out of the daze he had you under, you make your way over to one of the benches seemingly for spectators, people's possessions and whatever other uses people could find for them. Hugging your backpack to your chest, your eyes once again find Hyunjin and you're hooked. He's covered in sweat, his long, black hair sticking to his neck and forehead. Arms flexing with every moment of his body, a flimsy tank top is all he has covering his torso and sweatpants to match his overall casual attire. You know in the most rational part of your mind that there's nothing objectively obscene about the way he's moving but, you can't help the warmth and the shocking lash of desire you feel watching him dance.
Hyunjin must feel your eyes on him because he looks up and meets your gaze. A knowing smirk makes its way onto his unnecessarily attractive face and you feel your face warm in embarrassment, looking away from his bemused eyes. Trying to focus on anything but, him, it feels like hours have passed before an older dancer finally draws the practice to an end. Relief courses through you at no longer being tempted to sneak glances at him. You're more than ready to get out of this studio, already getting up and slinging on your backpack. Hyunjin makes his way over to you as if he has all the time in the world and you once again resist the urge to roll your eyes. Once he reaches you, he invades your personal space. The scent of him making your head feel murky for a moment before he speaks, "Hey, so I need to take a shower before we head out and it's my turn to lock up the studio. Sorry but, you're going to have to wait a little while longer." It takes everything in you not to audibly huff in frustration, "Fine. Okay. Whatever, just hurry it up, Hyunjin. I want to get this godforsaken assignment done," you say, gritting your teeth in frustration as you settle back onto the bench. He just stands there for a moment, hovering over you with a look you can't quite place. Your confused and annoyed expression must bring him back to Earth because he turns to leave without making any snide remarks. Which you find a little surprising. Hyunjin usually never passes up on an opportunity to have the last word.
You're the last person remaining when Hyunjin finally makes it back from what you assume are the locker rooms for the dancers. He's in a black shirt that perhaps fits him a little too well and another pair of sweatpants, his hair still a little damp. Before you can stand up to leave once again, however, Hyunjin strides over to the door and locks it shut. Turning to face you with a look that can only be described as determination.
"Why'd you lock-"
"I see the way you look at me, you know," he interrupts you, leaning against the locked door. To say you're thrown off by his words would be an understatement. "And how do I look at you?" You ask, standing up and crossing your arms in annoyance. God, he really was the worst. "Like you want me. My mouth, my fingers or my cock, I don't think you'd be particularly choosey," he remarks while making his way over to you, an aura of a self-assuredness permeating from him with each step towards you. You're stunned. While Hyunjin doesn't shy away from making suggestive comments towards you, he's never been so outright obscene before. You're even more stunned by your body's betrayal at his words, your insides clenching at his words. "I- I would never. Only in your dreams, Hyunjin," you retort once you remember yourself, making sure to maintain eye contact with him to prove your seriousness. You've become somewhat used to have the frustrating man invade your personal space but, this time feels different. The way he's looking at you now is making you squirm, the want blatant and clear as day on his face.
"Why do you resist so hard? I think I've made it pretty obvious I'd happily fuck you too. This could work out great for both of us. Wait, unless you're a virgin-"
"I'm not a virgin!" You respond a little more defensively than you intended to. There's nothing wrong with being a virgin. You're just tired of people trying to use that as some kind of dig towards you. "I "resist" because I don't want you. I don't want to have sex with you. You're arrogant, annoying, fuck anything with a pulse, and you think just because you're ridiculously attractive you can get away with any and everything and, I'm sick of it!" You yell, panting at finally letting out everything you've been thinking and feeling for weeks. Hyunjin's face is a myriad of expressions. Hurt, astonishment and amusement being the most prominent. Part of does feel terrible for laying into him like that but, before you can apologise he says, "I'm flattered that you think I'm ridiculously attractive." "Of fucking course. You know what, I'm leaving. I'll do this assignment by myself. Unlock the fucking door, Hyunjin," you say, grabbing your bag and walking past him to the door. "Wait, fuck, I'm sorry. Don't leave," he hurriedly apologises, grabbing your wrist to halt your movements. "Don't touch me," you tell him in a tone hard as ice, his hand flying from you. "I'm sorry. I just- I don't know how to do this. Every other way I've tried to make a move on you hasn't worked and, I thought being more straightforward would be the way to go but, I fucked that up too. I just think you're so smart and pretty, well really hot actually and way nicer to me than I probably deserve," he rambles, ears red as he shyly rubs his neck.
Today feels like a fever dream. Not only are reeling from his words but, you never thought you'd see the day Hwang Hyunjin got shy and flustered. "Woah Hyunjin slow down. You're talking a mile a minute. You-You like me? That's why you've been doing...all of this for the past few weeks?" You ask, still completely gobsmacked by all of this. He blushes. Hyunjin straight up blushes and nods, that seemingly all he's capable of right now. "You could've just talked to me like a normal person," you say exasperated, trying to meet his gaze. "I'm not used to that. The other ways I usually go about getting girls work 10 times out of 10 so, thought I'd try them with you," he explains with a mixture of shyness and nonchalance. This time you do roll your eyes directly in his face, "Well looks like your success rate has dropped."
"So, you don't want me?"
His question makes you take pause. You know logically lying is the best solution here but, you can't help but wonder what sex with Hyunjin entails. While he's well-known as a campus whore, that's a title that comes with high praise along with it. People recounting their escapades with him with hearts in their eyes and dreamy sighs. Is it worth it?
"I-I don't not want you," you stammer, the tables feeling turned now. The nervous Hyunjin from moments ago seemingly vanishing as he moves closer to you, mere centimetres keeping your bodies apart. "I won't do anything until you say yes," he mutters, his breath fanning over your skin and his voice deeper than it was awhile ago. "I- yes, okay. I want you, okay?" You finally relent, dropping your bag in surprise when he weaves his fingers into your hair and pulls you into a scorching kiss.
If anyone asks, you'll deny ever moaning into Hyunjin's mouth as soon as your lips met. Your hands reach up to fist his shirt while you two continue your impromptu makeout session in the studio. His other hand reaches down and grabs a generous handful of your ass over your checkered skirt. "You don't know how long I've wanted to do that. You're always tempting me in these tiny skirts," he groans against your mouth when you gasp at the contact. You can't help the way your eyes roll into the back of your head when he tugs on your hair to gain access to kiss along your neck, the pain from the sting going straight to your clit. "Oh, you like that? My my, for such a prim and proper woman, I didn't expect you to be a masochist," he says teasingly against your neck, kissing and making sure to nip at areas that gain particularly strong reactions from you. "That's y-your fault for ah assuming," you retort, your fingernails biting into his skin through his shirt. "You have quite the mouth on you. Maybe I should shut you up with my cock," he threatens, kissing his way up to your ear. The moan that flies from your mouth at his words is completely uncontrollable, arousal making your panties stick to you uncomfortably now. Hyunjin chuckles with dark amusement at your reaction, "I don't think we have time for that unfortunately. Maybe next time I'll let you choke my cock." Before you can think too deeply about his mention of a next time, his hands move to pull your shirt off of you and you let him.
"Speaking of tempting, fuck," he says, eyes lidded while takes in the sight of you in your baby pink bra. He reaches behind you to unclasp it and you're vaguely impressed that he does it with one hand. Before your bra can even hit the floor, he's on you. His hot, wet mouth sucking on your nipple while his enormous hand cups and toys with the opposite breast. At this point you couldn't keep yourself quiet even if you wanted to. Your little noises of pleasure seem to be egging Hyunjin on though because soon the hand that was toying with you slowly makes it way down to the hem of your skirt. You're not sure who moans louder when his fingers first make contact with your ruined underwear. Taking his mouth off of you with a loud pop, he leans into your saying, "You're already so soaked for me, baby. I haven't even done anything yet but, I'm flattered." I-I could say the same for you too," you respond, cupping his erection over his sweatpants. The groan he let's out at your touch almost makes you want to push him down and ride him until you both can't move but, you doubt he'd let you. Maybe next time. "You're proving to be quite the brat. Maybe some punishment is in order," he says once he remembers himself, moving your hand from touching him.
He drags you to the wall of mirrors lining the practice room, "Put your hands against the mirror and bend over for me baby," he commands in a tone that leaves little room for question. You're surprised when you first see your reflection. Your hair a mess, lips bruised from how passionately he had kissed you and your eyes thoroughly glossed over with want. Perhaps Hyunjin was worth the hype after all. Gingerly, you place your hands against the mirror and bend over, appreciating the cool reprieve the glass provides to your overheated system. In the mirror, you can see Hyunjin make his way behind you. His eyes meeting yours briefing before he removes his shirt, dropping it unceremoniously to join your clothes on the dance practice floor. Another wave of want crashes over you at the sight of him, all lean muscle. If you weren't already on thin ice with him, you'd turn around and reach for him but, you remain put. Tense in anticipation of what he's going to do next.
"If you'd been better behaved, I might've let you cum," he says, intense eyes meeting yours again as he eases your wrecked panties down to rest around your thighs. "I'll stop if you close your eyes or look away," is all the warning he gives you before sinking two of his long fingers into you. You cry out at the stretch, fingernails digging into the mirror slightly. It takes all of your willpower not to shut your eyes, thighs already quaking from just his fingers.
"Oh? Looks like you do know how to behave after all."
"Hy-Hyunjin please, harder," you beg, frustrated tears building from his lazy pace.
"You don't get to make requests here," he says simply before his unoccupied hands spanks you. Hard. A gasp flies from you, leaning against the mirror for more support. His hand rubbing your ass to ease some of the sting while his fingers begin to ever so slightly pick up the pace. This time you can't help it as your eyes shut, starting to feel overwhelmed by him and your insides gripping his fingers like a vice. "You just don't know how to listen," he admonishes with mock disappointment as his hand spanks your opposite cheek, harder than the first. Your eyes do fly open at that, fresh arousal coating his fingers and your upper thighs. "I'm s-sorry. It was just too much," you say sincerely apologetic. You think you may just lose your mind if he doesn't let you cum. His reflection shoots a mischievous grin at you before he focuses his attention on watching his fingers disappear inside of you. "God, if you weren't such a brat, you'd be stuffed full of my cock by now," he groans at the sight of you, his hand moving from your ass to apply some pressure to his clothed erection. At that you whine loudly and pathetically, pressing back into his fingers and looking at him directly over your shoulder, "Hyunjin please! I need it, I'm sorry."
His fingers still inside you for a moment as he regards you. You think you've fucked up briefly. Scared that he won't touch you at all and leave you like this: wet and empty and aching. Slowly, he pulls them out of you. Maintaining eye contact as he laps at his fingers greedily, briefly shutting his eyes from the taste of you. "Next time, I'm going to make sure I get to taste you properly," he says once he's licked his fingers clean, eyes dark with promise. His annoyingly attractive smug smirk returns when you unintentionally moan at his words, feeling more empty and touch starved than you've felt in months. Hyunjin must feel impatient too because he shoves his boxers and sweatpants down his legs hurriedly. You're surprised you're not dripping onto the floor with how wet you are and, the sight of his cock isn't helping matters.
In your most private moments, you may have thought about what his cock looked like. All you knew for certain was that it was definitely pretty and, you were absolutely correct. It's flushed red, pre-cum smearing his abs from where it smacks against him once freed. Your body moves completely without your say so, hips trying to press back into him for some kind of friction. Hyunjin simply watches you in parts amusement and parts unfiltered want. You almost sob in relief when he stands behind you once again, his cock in hand. Something like realisation washes over him for a moment before takes a step back and says, "Uh, I don't have any condoms on me. Wasn't really expecting my dance practice to end like this-" "It's fine. I'm on the pill," you impatiently interrupt him, meeting his taken aback expression with a sure one of your own. "A-Are you sure? I mean, we don't have to if you don't want to," he says, rubbing his neck in that shy awkward way of his yet again. "Hyunjin, I would've left a very long time ago if I wasn't sure," you assure him once again before adding, "but, if you don't want to you don't have-"
"I want to."
"Well, then what are you waiting for?" You goad him with another look over your shoulder, a smirk of your own on your lips.
"I can't wait to fuck the brat out of you," he mutters, aligning himself with your entrance and sinking into you slowly. His hands gripping your hips harshly as he does. "So fucking tight," he moans out, continuing to watch himself entering you. You're not fairing much better. The delicious sting of being split open by his cock makes the tears fall down your face freely, your eyes shutting from all that he's making you take. "Hyunjin," as all you can whimper out when he finally bottoms out, both of you shudder from being so intimately connected. Slowly, he begins to stroke into you. Giving you time to adjust to the way his tip kisses the deepest parts of you and, his girth stretches you. You really hope everyone has gone home because the moans and whimpers flying from your mouth border on pornographic. "You take me so well, baby," he groans, one of his hands coming up to your front and wrapping around your throat. Maybe it's the use of the pet name while he's fucking you stupid on his cock or maybe it's his massive hand around your neck but, you clench around him hard then. "Hyun-Hyunjin you feel so good. So big inside me," you gasp out, your teary eyes meeting his feral ones in the mirror. He seems to throb extra hard at the praise, tightening his grip on the sides of your neck as a reward. "Yeah? You like taking this big cock, baby?" He asks lowly against the skin of your shoulder, his other hand reaching around to slowly rub your neglected clit.
The ability to form a coherent sentence flies out the proverbial window when his skilled fingers brush against you. He seems to be feeling gracious as he picks up speed, drawing quick circles against you. Whether it's from the way you grip him so tightly he can barely move, the fucked out expression on your face, the increase in pitch of your moans or all of the above, Hyunjin can tell you're close. "Are you gonna be a good girl and cum for me? Cum all over my cock?" He asks breathlessly, his trained hips picking up speed into a brutal pace as he watches you beginning to unravel before him and, chases his own release.
If it wasn't for his arms helping to support you, you're certain you'd either collapse into a heap onto the floor or face plant into the mirror with how intensely your orgasm washes over you. Hyunjin's hand even comes up to cover your mouth at some point in an attempt to silence your apparently loud moans, fucking you through your climax all the while. Vaguely you can make out him saying words like 'good girl', 'so good' and 'so fucking hot' but, you're not too sure. You're barely able to think coherently right now. Slowly, you start to come back to yourself, still heavily leaning against the mirror for support but, atleast you're still standing somehow. Hyunjin is still thrusting into you, his pace frantic as he chases his release. You weakly moan against his hand, the other one now grabbing a handful of your ass in a bruising grip.
"Fuck. Gonna cum, baby. Fuck, fuck, fuck," he groans, throwing his head back as he finally still inside you. You watch his blissed out face in the view provided by the mirror, moans increasing in pitch from how violently he pulses inside of you and, the overwhelming amount of his cum that floods your still spasming pussy. He weakly thrusts into you during the last moments of his climax, wrapping his arms around your waist as your mingled, rapid breaths fog up the glass infront of you.
"Well, that was certainly one way to ask you out, I guess."
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do you ever feel like you don't even own your blog? Like I mean no disrespect, I've been following you for ages. Is this account meant to be your personal blog? Because it's really nice now and then seeing you post about kpop and dramas that you enjoy and when you did your big downloading project. It feels like your blog is mainly a megaphone for other people to just say things lol. I'm just curious if you feel that way about it? How do you feel about people coming to your blog to just say anything?
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From my perspective, I was kind of losing interest in tumblr. When I actually have a new fandom, I'll post about it, but mostly, I'm too busy to bother with using tumblr in the usual ways. I've barely read my dash in years.
The endless flood of asks is hilarious to me. It has certainly kept me checking tumblr more than I would otherwise.
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