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Hello!! LU requests? 👀 With your outstanding art??
Hmm (I have many ideas, choose one if you want)
1- Someone uses a lightning rod/tool and it somehow hits Sky too. His right hand and arm hurt so much he faints, the others take off his glove and roll up his sleeve and notice how it is gull of lightning scars
2- Twilight gets hit where Dink got him last time. The cut reopens, Time brings him away again but this time Twilight is human and Time can't hold the tears
3- This time it's Time that gets hit and Twilight brings him away
4- Four. Corrupted. :) Bonus if Legend fights him to prevent him from hurting the others
5- Wars gets hit by Dink (hw reference?)
so many choices! I went with #2 hehe. the ANGST
OK I KNOW I said I wasn't gonna do comics for these requests but AGH this one had a hold on me. But at the same time, this took longer than expected T3T . ALSO I LOVE those other ideas too! might come back to one of them later hehe
I hope ya like it @bluesdesk!
CW! blood
sorry yall don't get to see the other boys engaged in the battle around them, I have trouble with drawing too many characters on screen. it looks over-crowded when I do😅
OML i just realised theres a spelling mistake. Bruh
edit: fixed it.
#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu#my art#lu fanart#lu whump#digital art#comic art#art requests#lu time#lu twilight#cw whump#whump#whump art#cw blood#tw blood#angst#thank you!!#this took a day and a half *dies*#Times armor is so hard to drawwwww#twilight whump#hero of twilight#hero of time#ALSO I SUCK ASS AT DRAWING BACKGROUNDS So dont bully meeee
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Hi, Tin! I love your writing and I have a prompt for you, if you are interested) what if Tang family is too afraid of Tang Bo leaving permanently and eloping with Cheong Myeong? So they initiate marriage negotiations with Mount Hua. It can be angst (CM is socially isolated and insecure about his position) or romantic comedy (awkward situations and protective Cheong Mun), up to you). Thank you in advance!
It was a well-established fact that the Dark Saint of the Tang Family was one of their generation's best.
So it came as no surprise when an influx of marriage proposals flooded their family's estate—because rumors started flying around that the Dark Saint was in search of a partner.
The Dark Saint held a reputation for being cold and ruthless. To cultivators and martial artists, he was someone they feared making into an enemy due to his sheer battle prowess and poisonous abilities. To normal civilians, he was a genius who wielded the Tang Family's techniques with cool precision and intent; to them, he was just another mysterious cultivator that they would only ever know of through gossip and stories.
However, in recent years, something shifted. His reputation among common folk was slowly altered. It started off with a supposed battle between him and the Plum Blossom Sword Saint which turned into a sudden and unexpected friendship.
Whereas in the past the Dark Saint would only go around Sichuan and closeby villages, he was now found going around different major cities and unknown ones.
He was often in the company of Mount Hua's Plum Blossom Sword Saint, who worked with him side-by-side to eradicate groups from the Demonic Cult and the occasional bandits and thieves.
For supposed Taoists, the two visited different establishments to drink alcohol and talk cheerily. It was during one of these moments that the first rumor began its spark.
"Ahhhh," The Plum Blossom Sword Saint groans in satisfaction. "That sure hits the spot!"
The Dark Saint chuckles as he tosses back his own drink. "If only I could enjoy everyday like this. Alcohol really is the best."
"What would your future wife think?" The Plum Blossom Sword Saint jokingly and dramatically shakes his head in disappointment. "To have a husband who loves alcohol more than his own wife...!"
The Dark Saint wiggles his eyebrows suggestively. "Trust me, I would make sure that my wife knows full-well just how much I love them."
The two of them share a silent, private conversation with just their eyes alone, that none of the other restaurant's customers could decipher, before they leave a generous tip and went on their way.
It snowballs from there.
All of a sudden gossip went around about the Dark Saint's interest in finding a wife. And so several people came to the same conclusion.
The reason why the Dark Saint is travelling around more than usual is because he's looking for a prospective wife.
Clearly, the Plum Blossom Sword Saint was there to provide moral support. How truly admirable and strong their brotherhood must be!
On the other hand, the head of the Tang Family was fully aware of their Dark Saint's single-minded interest in Mount Hua's Chung Myung.
Seeing all the stacks of letters that ranged from proposing strategic alliances and general marriage offers brought the current head of the Tang Family to a very different conclusion.
Tang Bo was trying to slowly draw himself away from their family by leaving their estate. He might be on the hunt, jumping from village to village, trying to create a dowry befitting for the hand of the Plum Blossom Sword Saint and scouting out all the best locations to settle down in.
It really wouldn't be too surprising of an idea if one day a letter turns up from the man with an intent of permanently moving to Mount Hua or some backwater village.
The Tang Family head shakes the thought of losing one of their best and genius members to one of the Ten Great Sects. If he wanted to maintain their family's reputation, he'll need to strike the first move.
And so he begins to pen a decisive letter to the Sect Leader of Mount Hua.
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Chung Mun's hands tremble as reads the letter sent to him by the Tang Family.
'Who did they think they were?' He would have bit out if he had any less self-restraint. The paper crumples in his grip and he receives a questioning glance from Chung Myung who was sprawled eating mooncakes on the opposite side of his desk.
"What's got you so worked up?" The subject of the letter askswithout a care.
Chung Mun takes a deep breath. "The Tang Family wishes for you to transfer into their estate."
He refuses to say out loud the marriage proposal that came along with this request. His Chung Myung was too young! The man might be a sixty years old, but that round face, cheeks carelessly bulging with mooncakes with crumbs littered on his chin, screamed too young for marriage!
"Oh." Chung Myung nods in understanding.
Chung Mun is glad that Chung Myung agrees that this was nonsensical. To think, they thought that Chung Myung would even leave Mount Hua for—
"After the war is over, Tang Bo and I were planning to be roommates and travel the world a bit."
—?????
"Roommates?" Chung Mun's voices comes out slightly strangled.
"Yup. It's going to be great."
"No."
"'No'?"
Chung Mun tries to run through his previous conversations with Tang Bo. He knew that the man was capable of being underhanded, but he was also well-aware that Tang Bo respected him enough to not blind-side him with something like this. Especially since it concerned Chung Myung.
...
...Oh no.
"Fuck." Chung Mun says, full of feeling as he recalls Tang Bo off-handedly asking permission to live together with Chung Myung in the future.
"...Sect Leader?"
Chung Mun had thought that was a joke! He thought Tang Bo wasn't being serious! They were talking with alcohol in their systems!
The alarmed look that crosses Chung Myung's face informed Chung Mun that the way he felt his blood drain from his face was a visible, physical reaction.
"He asked for your hand in marriage." Chung Mun says faintly. "I said yes."
Chung Myung blinked at him. "Yeah? He told me?"
Okay. Tang Bo, to his credit, hasn't been leaving Chung Myung in the dark at least.
If Chung Myung knows and isn't reacting violently that means that he isn't completely against this. Even if Chung Mun was, he had to reorganize his priorties.
And his number one would be to make sure Chung Myung was happy.
((And to make sure that the Tang Family doesn't think they can step on Chung Mun and pull his little brother away.))
"I'll have to recheck the sect's budget and my own savings to make sure we have enough for the wedding preparations..." Chung Mun mutters as he begins drafting a response to the Tang Family with what he thought were better marriage agreement conditions.
But then, a flash of dread causes Chung Mun to pause writing and leave a dark ink blot on the paper. He suspected, but he really wishes that he was wrong—!
"Huh?" Chung Myung gives Chung Mun a confused look. "We already got married though?"
#cmun: you didn't invite me to your wedding??!?!?!?!?#cm: we literally just a signed a paper and kissed#cm and tb eloped because cm didn't want to stretch out mount hua's resources during a war bc of wedding prep#tb and cm are too in love and just decided to get married in the middle of a drinking session actually#they only realized what they did when they woke up the next day but then 'hm? this isn't bad tho?'#anyway cmun asks them to redo their marriage lol he def cries when cmyung bows to him in lieu during the three bows#the tang and mount hua come to an agreement that they get half a year each 👍#and if tang bo still dies in this au and cm is left a widower......jk jk but then again#»—————————–✄#sorry this took me a while 🥺🙏 irl wasn't kicking it HAHAHAHA#I'm super happy to hear you enjoy my writing and thank you so much for the prompt WAHAHAHAHA#i havent finished reading the side stories yet so sorry if I messed up canon#might come back to this prompt if I find out more info bc there's so much to explore 🙈#and i had to stop bc this was already 1.1k HAHAHAHA#tangchung#chung myung#chung mun#tang bo#rotmhs#rotbb#return of mount hua sect#return of the blossoming blade#tin writes#my ask hole#w-s-kibela
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HEY!!! Guess who just spent SEVERAL HOURS transcribing ONE part of thisisnotawebsite.com?!?
ME!!!!! Here!
https://docs.google.com/document/d/10pTg4TergcHZa_CKu8E8_ucKhwK1-YbwdRB3SyhXSqY/edit?usp=drivesdk
Major spoilers for the site and book!!!
I haven't included most codes yet (my original intention.) I didn't transcribe the notes that aren't glitched (because I don't feel they have to be.)
Anyway, technically this is just what you get from entering STAN enough times.
#did this because the actual site doesn't have warnings and includes stuff that might set off eyestrain and epilepsy.#by the way#since the site has these as images i had to do this#by#HAND#i typed this y'all#my battery almost died and it took me a half day#BUT IT WAS WORTH IT!!#gravity falls#book of bill#bill cipher#gravity falls site#thisisnotawebsitedotcom#gravity falls lore#stanley pines#the book of bill#book of bill spoilers#tbob#tbob spoilers#⛈️
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[getting so unbelievably stressed abt the last like hundred-fifty pages of book four] had to get up and take a BREAK
#jr raksura#b4 has been so weirdly paced but still/even more so packed full of GRIPPING MOMENTS#BWAGHGHGH. im obsessed w the half-fell queen and her dakti buddies i wanttttt )))): i want good things for her#song and magrim made me sad....................... delin is stressing me out....... river saving the day by pairing himself (anger issues)#w rorra (girl who makes u have anger issues) was so cool damn good for u river......................... KALAM AND MOON U_________U#REALLY GRIMLY FUNNY. hey bud sorry my friend died and ur friends died and they took ur dad. um. we gotta set some boundaries#<- FINAL STRAW I COULDNT KEEP READING. i need a BREAK. i love this lol
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#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it#my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store#and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person#dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much#for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is#trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u#treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her#dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a#god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close#my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he#feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom#which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were#saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were#a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was#distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their#relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her#expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she#grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear#in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i#saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The#Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and#unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much#unrelated
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me and the small crowd of ppl tht go 'wait dark isn't dark's real name?' anytime i bring the fact up
#*・゚⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT.#the og 'dark' is and forever will be the og niwa ancestor the first one to fuck up the hikari ritual and who first had to both#learn abt and teach and take care of the niwa family's nameless newborn curse#the ancestor whose 'love' and emotions was absorbed by the kokuyoku and the ancestor who signed his cards as 'dark' first#present-day (curse) dark is half the kokuyoku and THAT'S his 'true' name; his natal name. the name the artworks; the hikari call him.#but it's not his /preferred/ name and so it isn't true to -him.-#dark took on the name of a dead man. a phantom thief. who lived and loved and then died but had progeny who dark also woke up within#children who were also initially trained and coerced to become phantom thieves since birth until it became a legacy#and this continued on n on until it was daisuke's turn to inherent the ghost both literal and metaphorical of his ancestor; dark#in name and identity and body and destiny#daisuke is dark but even from the start dark was both nothing and something born only because of the OG dark- out of those very specific#emotions and desires and out of control magic#what he should have been what he loathes being is half the kokuyoku a broken incomplete ripped-apart wing#what he wants to be is whole with the niwa as one of them with them. the end!!!
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The First Warden: How did you survive killing the Archdemon?!
The Hero of Ferelden:
#dragon age#dao#blorboposting#'i was a warden for half a day before ostagar happened and nobody told me anything' repeated ad infinitum for years#gwyn was absolutely canny enough not to go to weisshaupt when summoned and put himself entirely in the first warden's power#'no ser i can't leave ferelden with only one warden to defend it that would be dereliction of duty :)'#he ended up getting the promotion to warden-commander by mail lmao which is why it took six months after the archdemon died
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Haven’t had power for the past day and a half (it’s back now) and I am. So. Cold.
#That’s all lol#I literally was doodling Nicky by fucking candlelight yesterday lmaooo#Honestly if it didn’t put me even more behind with school I wouldn’t have minded all that much#Ah this and the heater for my fish tank was obviously not working so I was getting nervous 😟#Took the time to plan out some fanfiction hehe#But yeah it’s below freezing out so it’s just kinda gradually been getting colder in here#My phone and laptop died very quickly aha#Which again were it not for school stress actually woulda been more of a good thing than not tbh#:( a lot of stuff in the fridge has gone bad#If you’re wondering the outage was cause we had tonnss of freezing rain which wreaked havoc#If you don’t know what freezing rain is#Consider yourself lucky!#That’s it aha just blugh weird day and a half
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on the cat post: barn cat thoughts?
i understand the rationale and practical applications, and i grind my teeth about it less if they're at least spayed/neutered and given proper, regular vet care, but if that cat is just allowed/able to wander freely it's gonna have a shitty and likely very short life, on top of the negative impact it will have on the local environment beyond the barn's pest control issue.
i'm in no way an expert, but it's hard to imagine there's not some alternative that, while it may not seem cheaper, doesn't cost a life.
#call and response#Anonymous#when the situation in my post occurred that was very much 'barn cat' country#and if you think only the non 'working' cats on our property are the ones those horrors happened to think again#on top of the actual wild dog packs and coyotes#lots of rural folks like to let their dogs wander freely and they pack up and end up functioning as halfwild dog packs as well#cars on rural roads are still gonna hit those cats#barn cat is no match for a bigass bird of prey that looks down and sees lunch#barn cat even with vet care is at far greater risk of exposure to disease and infection than any indoor cat#let me tell you about how i'm haunted by the kitten who died on my lap in a towel in the bed of the truck outside#as i felt her last rattling wheeze of breath felt her go still#so tiny and utterly overrun by respiratory illness#how about the kitten who got snake bit and his neck swelled up horrifically and he had an awful slow death#or the adult boy cat tux who lasted longer than almost any other of the boys#but came home one day with a big old spider bite on his face and seemed fine really#but suddenly began declining sharply til he was weaving in staggering circles#unable to control his bladder#the cloying smell of rot and infection as i held him towel wrapped in my arms when we took him to the vet to be eased to his end#how about the kitten i mentioned where the visual haunts me horribly still#simon my little boy who made it half grown from kittenhood almost to an age to be fixed#who i planned to take with me once i'd saved up enough to move out and make him an indoor baby#i found his siblings and cousins all over the yard and drive shaken to death by dogs#but him i found the next day but only half#half#i'm sparing you further details but i fucking broke#you think barn cats are safe from any of that? they are not#tw animal death#animal death#pet death
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well today has been a day of insane whiplash
#idk how to feel at all rn#i was at work until like 1am last night and im so glad that portion of hell is fucking over#and then at like 3am i learned that my grandpa died.#and then i did not sleep#and then i took a half day bc i have like 4 days of overtime and slept from 1-5pm#and also im going to see taylor in texas on saturday#but now i feel guilty for doing something fun?? which makes no sense#im going to the funeral monday#and now trump got indicted???#and im still so fucking exhausted. SO exhausted.#and really fucking sad#and also relieved about other things and excited about the show#idk what emotions to process right now#and im like idk what to do or think or feel#and i just want the world to stop for a bit
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growing up in a small town is like. i want to get as far away from here as humanly possible and never look back. i've been sorted into homeroom classes with at least seven of the same kids from kindergarten through graduation and i don't know that we've ever talked longer than five minutes but i'd probably die for them. this would be a nice place to live for the rest of my life, i think. you know everyone in town by their family name even if you don't actually know any of them personally. i'm tired. everyone i know is tired. i hate it here. i never want to leave. we have nothing to do here and the boredom gouges tracks in my brain. i am personally offended by anyone not from here who says there's nothing to do here. everyone here knows too much about me. i know too much about everyone here. how does it feel to start from a blank slate? i would never know. there is a quiet, hidden sort of rage that everyone plants in their gardens. the lemonade at the market tastes like five-year-old laughter, the library smells like paper and the hot chocolate they used to make for events in the basement. the local history room hadn't changed since they installed it because there's nothing else to add, nothing else to know. i am tired. they're developing things and too much is changing too quickly and this has been the same unchanging neighborhood for fifty fucking years and now it's utterly unrecognizable from the place i knew barely a decade ago. i am never sure how much this change is a good thing, how much is too much. it feels like someone is peeling back my wallpaper skin when i'm not looking, painting different shades over what i thought should be there. i'm not the only person in this place but it feels strangely like they should have asked for my permission first, like i am part of its foundation, or maybe it's part of mine. (do we ask the bricks what they want the wall to look like, too?) we all share layers of the same memories that are slowly shifting and eroding, and you can see it everywhere you look, viscerally, physically. i think it is impossible to escape this place unless you are willing to bleed, and make bleed. it would be so, so easy to just disappear. the air feels fresher here than anywhere else, simply because it is the baseline my body has learned and my lungs have loved. i am so very, very tired. i think it's this place. i think i like it. i don't know. i don't know how to be anything else. i learned from brick and mortar, from pavement, from parks; buildings that served my mother as a child, graves no one visits anymore, trees older than my family line; everything sags, the colors washed out. they are tired, too.
#idk man. just. i was talking with a coworker today��an old classmate's mom—and she asked if i knew chris smith#and i said which chris smith there's two and she said the bald one and i said well yeah and she said his wife just died#and his wife was a twin who went to school with my mom. and of course my mom knew her because twins were kind of A Thing#in their grade. and i didn't realize this co-worker even knew who my mom was. and her husband is a teacher and three other kids#in our grade had fathers who taught the same subject as him also working at our school and i think about that a lot actually#half my friends chose their colleges based solely on how far away from home they are. and they were not aiming for proximity.#every day i drive along the same roads my schoolbus took and everyday the view looks a little less like it should#i alternate between never wanting to leave this place and wishing i never knew it existed in the first place#and i was thinking back on a lot of old conversations about this and. i'm just really in my feels about small towns rn man#and the incredibly complicated relationships both with it and with everyone and everything in it that are inherent to them#ramble#dead letter office got it i think#small towns#growing up
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My chiropractor is probably going to yell at me this week for over doing it yet again but I've made progress. I have a list forming of the furniture we need to get versus what can be repurposed. I have more stuff ready to either be donated or passed on to friends. Ideas for the office are being written down so my partner can think about them without feeling pressured. I'm not sure how long this energy is going to last so I have to do as much as possible as quickly as possible.
#years of depression have made it hard to downsize as much as i needed to#i have entirely too much stuff and kept too much stuff after my family died and it's a problem#but I'm finally getting to a place where i not only can but need to get rid of things and it feels good#hard and exhausting and upsetting but good#when I'm sad or angry i can't get rid of anything but when I'm happy i can see how it will help someone else#so clothes i can't wear anymore but are practically new can benefit someone else#i need to sort through my extensive mug collection and thin it out but I'm putting that off#half of our recycle can is currently full because i ran out of room last week#brought it in as soon as they picked it up and broke down all the boxes i emptied today plus took out the two bags of papers from last week#tomorrow starts the rain again so I'm not sure how much I'll get to do#rainy days make me want to hide but i want to keep going so we'll see what ends up happening
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When I was a kid, we moved into a house that had a huge lilac tree out front. It was mostly rotten, and it needed to be taken down before it fell. It took a while, but eventually, it was gone.
Mostly. A couple years later, little lilac babies popped out of the ground in its place. My mom was determined to get rid of them, because she'd planted a beautiful flower garden there, and the lilac trees would overshadow and kill the whole garden. I insisted on saving at least a few saplings. She said fine, but I had to dig them out and put them in pots myself.
So, I did. I spent days digging little lilac bushes out of the ground and putting them into pots. Some couldn't be saved, but some could. When all was said and done, I had five brand-new lilac saplings. Seven or eight years old, and it was my absolute pride and joy.
Three died due to sun scorching, severe drought that no amount of watering could save, and perhaps just being moved from their place in the ground. But two survived, and I was awfully proud of them! I'd go out and talk to them every single day. I watered them by hand and made sure they were fertilized properly. I learned all about their favored environments, and I was determined to make sure they lived.
One of my mom's friends saw what I was doing with the lilacs. She asked if she could have one to put in her backyard, and I agreed on the condition that she take very, very good care of it.
It's now fucking enormous. I'm talking ten feet tall and bursting with beautiful purple flowers every spring. My mom still gets updates each year as they start to bloom, which she forwards to me. And all I can think is, "That's my friend! Thriving some twenty years on, there it is."
The other tree nearly died, too. It lived in a pot for far, far too long. I wanted to plant it somewhere in my parents' yard, but my mom was reluctant. Eventually, we agreed to put it in the far back garden. It grew okay for many years, despite the shade, but in all these years, it's never bloomed.
Last year, the massive tree casting massive shadows over the lilac and the garden cracked in half and fell. It tumbled into the garden, crushing part of the nearby shed and destroying a few plants beneath it.
It missed my lilac by inches.
The clean-up is long done. The rest of the tree has been cut down, and my lilac has full sunlight for the first time in fifteen years. It won't bloom this year, I know. But it's got new shoots up. It's taller than ever. I spent half an hour a few weeks ago praising it for surviving all this time, dreaming about its future and telling it how I believe it'll become the tall beauty it's always been meant to be.
I think next year, I'll see flowers.
#aese speaks#a little personal story for you all#the origin of my life-long relationship with lilacs#i've been a garden witch since i was very small! (:#green witch#garden witch#garden magic#the lilac post#hello to everyone reading the og tags on this:#it's a metaphor it's a true story it's real it's fiction it's a poem it's me rambling it's whatever you think it is#30k
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Honestly nothing is ever going to top the absolute Weirdness of putting in my 2 weeks notice, working thru one week of it, then my dad ending up in the hospital and me desperate to get my shift covered to go to him... and it was also a fucking *snow storm*, which meant an hour's drive took like. Something like 3 or 4 hours just to not fucking Crash. And then one evening at the hospital, then me staying up late chatting with a friend, so that when I got a frantic call from my dad's girlfriend at like 2 or 3 am I only got a half hour of sleep. Cue everyone in the house rushing to the hospital in the early am hours, but not TOO rushing, because it had, of course, SNOW STORMED, so the roads were still in Bad Shape.
Made it safely! Then watched my dad die. What a time.
#speculation nation#death ment/#like it was. obviously not a fun time in ANY regard. but it certainly was memorable.#the fact that i was halfway thru my 2 weeks notice for a job id worked a total of 8 years and had been considering quitting for Months...#the fact that *this day specifically* was a day with a huge snowstorm.#the fact that i got woken up with only a half hour of sleep.#but i wasnt sleepy. the addrenaline from when i realized it was my dad's girlfriend calling in the middle of the night. it was fucking wild.#ever feel like your heart is *pounding* but absolutely heavy with dread?#fingers trembling breaths coming too fast as you realize what this means. you realize it means your dad's about to die.#ive never gotten dressed so quick in my entire fucking life. didnt even brush my hair or put on a bra. it didnt matter.#the fact that this was only days after valentines day... i canceled my plans for it. me & my then-gf were gonna hang out that weekend.#the last normal day that my dad lived was on valentines day. then that night (in the early am hours) he drove himself to the hospital.#i heard about it later that day. on the 15th. we didnt think it was that serious.#early on the 16th is when it Was that serious. and thats when the fiasco with the snowstorm happened.#and then he died in the early am hours of the 17th. it took everyone by surprise. he didnt even know he was going to die.#i didnt even get to say goodbye. he was already unconscious by the time i got there.#i feel like something as big as the death of your father is going to remain in your head forever#but the fact that there were all these parts to it... the snowstorm... the job... valentines day... it's kind of crazy.#i was left reeling. my life suddenly so dramatically different. and with a newfound hatred for valentines day in my heart.#there are a lot of things i wish was different about it all. but it is what it is. and at the very least. it was memorable.#regular reminder and all to hold ur loved ones close as much as you can. because anyone can die at any time.#a central pillar to your life may die with barely a day's warning. many such cases.
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Had one of my twice-yearly horrific nightmares 😌😌😌 at least they make waking up a huge relief
#was it a bit nonsensical? yeah definitely#was it absolutely awful while within the nightmare? yeah absolutely#i was driving w someone i went to (grade) school with and they just. fucking died in my passenger seat??#then i took their body and seat out and put it in a fridge to deal with later or something#then 2 days later i had to get them back out but i woke up before i got back to the fridge#it was ..... so much worse than it sounds#I'm pretty sure i half-woke-up at some point. realized it wasn't real then went back to sleep only for it to continue#well im sure awake now. what the fuck was that#I don't get nightmares often but when i do. they're fucking awful
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Not main tagging this cause it's rude I think but I am so close to muting the S.BG tag. I love that comic with all my heart, I love the fanart, the memes, the fics, everything, but y a l l
I like when fandoms grow because more people discover the media! But despite being thriller S.BG has drawn a younger audience. This ain't a bad thing I am technically "younger audience" but it is painfully clear that lots of us are very new to fandom. Y'all have GOT to learn to BLOCK AND MOVE ON. I cannot browse the tag without seeing people arguing over a WEBTOON and tagging people and hating on other users. Block and move on. Please. It is always better to block and move on
#Learned from experience took me a year and a half to be able to cut off people after an environment like that#Please do not make it a toxic corner of the internet it will backfire on yall so badly it does NOT EVER END WELL.#Rambles#May make a main tag post about it again#Already did months ago and lots of yall agreed with it and drama died out as others brought it to light#But the fandom has exploded#ATP may be unfollowing the tag#I don't want to unfollow people I love this fandom but why is there s.bg middle school drama on my page#I SHOULD BE STUDYING FOR THE EXAM IN LIKE AN HOUR OR WORKING ON OTHER POST#BUT FANDOM ETIQUETTE RAMBLE IN NOTES IT IS#I've been a rambling mood for two days now hence the horrifically long reblog rambles in linguistics tag o7
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