#this sucks but I needed to get it out of my system

[blueskiestarot]

💜 Update 💜

Hi, friends. Sorry I haven't been very active on here the last few days. I know I have asks and messages to answer. I'll be getting to those shortly and I have a new PAC reading I'm going to be uploading soon. I also have a few paid orders left to complete. I'll get those sent out within the next couple of days. I just want to thank everyone for being so patient with me!

I just want to apologize ahead of time if I'm a bit slower with uploads or replies this week. I'm going to try to stay on track as much as possible but my energy is kind of all over the place right now. I've been on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster the last few days.

(You totally don't have to read this if you don't want to since it's just an update about what's going on in my personal life. I put it under a "read more" tab in case you want to skip. 💜)

I got some pretty bad news on Friday. I took my dog to the vet and found out that his heart is enlarged and is now failing him. Thankfully, the vet said it's in the early stages and he thinks it will respond well to treatment. So, he's on meds and he's already showing improvement. However, this diagnosis means that this is the last stage of his life. He's pretty much on doggy hospice now. So, the meds are just to manage his symptoms and keep him comfortable. Because of that, it's hard to know how long I have left with him. It could be 6 months or a few years. I'm hopeful just because of how well he's responding to his meds already but I'm still worried sick about him and the anticipatory grief freaking sucks. It's just been a lot to process. So, I do thank you all for being patient with me.

Please send us any love, prayers, or good vibes you can! We definitely need them! I appreciate you all so so much! Y'all may not know it but you are such a huge support system for me. Your messages make my day and I love interacting with you all. I truly do consider you my friends. So, please keep reaching out whether it's to suggest new PACs, ask for advice, or just to simply tell me about your day. I may not answer right away but I always love connecting with you all and I will answer as soon as I can! I hope everyone has a good rest of their week! 💛 Love, Tara

[gretagator]

"This condition... To me, it's as real as that chair. It's as real as this house. It's as real as you. But what if it's not? What if it's all in my head? And if that's true, if it's not real... Then what have I done?"

[joestarbuckss]

“ahh ikura yuutahhh~”

[gayvampyr]

i hate the idea/trope that poor kids who do well in school don’t need any support when it comes to college, or that they all get full-ride scholarships. i don’t do well in school now that i’m in uni but i was a straight-A student throughout all of middle & high school and i got 1 (one) scholarship for $500/semester, which is less than 5% of my tuition. i didn’t have the opportunities or knowledge a lot of the other wealthier kids had, whose parents and grandparents and siblings had gone to college too. like we don’t all end up getting exactly the help we need, and i know the poor kids who weren’t straight-A students had an even harder time getting into college, if they did at all. it’s rough out here for all of us. the only sure-fire way a kid could get guaranteed financial assistance was if they had knowledge of the system and the time and money to pursue them. it sucks

[fisheito]

snakes have something called a jacobson's organ that allows them to smell. they stick out their tongue, and then when it enters their mouth again, the jacobson's organ processes what they just smelled with their tongue. i say this to propose that, after yakumo licks eiden's dick for a good 10 minutes, he closes his mouth and processes it all like O_____O

when i TELL YOU that this message left me bracing the wall like

(overwhelmed with positive affect)

[liquidstar]

Oh fuck tomorrow I'm going to be a little birthday boy I keep almost forgetting

[pochapal]

did some digging and i THINK what actually is causing this new kidney decline is that back in may at my appointment they doubled the dose of one of my blood pressure meds that can really fuck up your kidneys if taken at high doses for a long time and lo and behold a month and a half later there's Problems

[gummy-sharks666]

[laneaconite]

Treatment

“Take this pill,” They say.

Take this pill and it should work

 In a month,

                    Three months,

                                            Six.

Take this pill,

And it will make you tired.

                                        They all make you tired,

Because they act on the brain, 

                                                  You see.

Take this pill,

“We’re sorry the others didn’t work.”

We will smile

                    Sympathetically.

                                                 We do care.

Take this

            Pill.

                  It will make you dizzy.

Take this

            Injection.

                           Since it is treatment resistant

Now.

It will hurt,

                 It will make you itch.

You can still keep taking the old ones,

                                                         In case they end up working

                                                                                                          Too.

Take this pill,

                      It should work in one month,

                                                                    Three months,

Six.

No, we don’t know

                               Why this is happening.

We don’t know

                     How to fix it.

Your blood screening was

                                           Normal.

Your CT scan was

                                Normal.

Take this pill.

-Lane Aconite,

March 5th, 2023

[deus-and-the-machina]

ffxiv garlemald discourse is so funny because people will go "ugh people just cant stand it when things aren't black and white" and then you look at how the empire are portrayed in stormblood and shadowbringers and its like hm. that seems like a pretty intense and accurate display of violent imperialism to me! Wow I wonder why people in this day and age may find it hard to feel sympathy for them or even hate them on principal. god its such a mystery.

the games like 50/50 to me on how it tackles these themes because I actually like the garlemald arc in EW, I think it has a lot of horrific and powerful scenes depicting how self destructive fascist propaganda and beliefs are, but I also think it doesn't go far enough on some fronts. the garleans' xenophobia is most notably and obstacle to getting them to accept the contingent's help, which is what they're there to do,

but there's never an admission of harm from any garleans on the uuuuuuuuh massive amount of war crimes the nations around them are still suffering from they're just kind of like "we misjudged you...but you actually wanted to help us all along" like yeah thats great now can we get you all some deprogramming because you keep talking about returning to your prime and glory days and I think we need to unpack some stuff you really SHOULDNT return to. im not even really talking about EW proper but the patches where things are a bit more chilled out and people are recovering.

It feels like they wanted to have their critique of imperialism and also have things end with the beauty of human connection and reaching out and these things just don't mesh well because hey a lot of your modern day audience is not gonna like having to treat people yelling xenophobic things at the cast and your character with kid gloves after you showed them hours and hours of the awful things these people's beliefs have done. especially in the present day hoo boy.

[naamahdarling]

Can't wait to see what the consistently uncooperative nurse who answers my GP's messages has to say, if she messages me back. I bet you twenty bucks right now her reply makes it obvious that she didn't even glance at the rest of the thread.

Lady, you have way more going on than me. I know you're busy. I also know I am annoying. I'll stop bothering you if you tell me what you need from me so I can move on to the next step because until you do, I can't. Stop wasting your own time.

[vaguely-annoyed]

taking medicine sucks. i will still do it but damn

[haven-of-dusk]

Buddie x Caswen snippet

(Was thinking about a story to bring the four together and didn't feel like making the whole thing yet, but felt like writing this bit from the middle of it.

Eddie watched quietly from the hospital bench as the newcomer arrived, a young man -- a boy, practically -- in a heather gray t-shirt and faded jeans, with messy brown hair and scruff, rushing through the hospital hallway with a fervor. He entered Ricky's room, and an agonizing few minutes passed. Eddie wasn't sure why he was waiting, but something was pushing him to. Eventually the boy emerged, looking like he was trying hard to avoid crying. Boy was Eddie used to that look. He saw it often enough on others, much less in the mirror...

"They're telling me that you're the reason he'll probably still be able to walk..."

"It wasn't just me, it was my team. I...I just did my part," Eddie interrupted. Desperate to change the subject, he managed, "have we...met somewhere? You seem weirdly familiar."

The boy let out a slow sigh. "You're almost definitely thinking of Ca-my dad. Cash Caswell is my...dad," he stammered a bit.

"The lawyer and business mogul? That Cash? And you're his--"

"Son. Sort of. I mean I'm still his blood and all but he's basically disowned me at this point. EJ," the boy stuck out his hand, which Eddie shook, still a bit confused.

"So was Ricky..."

"The reason for my dad's whole disowning me? No. Though he may have been one of the final straws. Hell of a nail though, isn't he?" Eddie nearly spat out his coffee.

"Pardon?"

"Nail, in the coffin. Sorry, let my metaphor get ahead of me for a sec there. You okay?" EJ's brow furrowed with concern.

"Yeah just...long shift," Eddie murmured, "how long have you and--"

"Ricky been together? Ah...about three years now. Since the end of high school. At this rate it doesn't seem like it'll be long before one of us pops the question."

Eddie's mind flashed elsewhere for a moment, prom, the meeting of girlfriend and mom, the pregnancy test, a scared nineteen year old meeting him at the altar...

"You're not worried about being...too young?" Eddie asked cautiously.

"A little, but with all we've been through, all we've suffered together, I just...I don't think I can ever trust anyone the same way I trust him. And there's no one I can think of that I'd ever want to spend time with, no one else I'd want to have my back or be by my side when things get bad again, I just...there's no one else like him, you know?"

Eddie's eyes drifted towards the waiting room, where Buck and Chimney were strolling through, on the way back to the rig. Buck stopped upon seeing Eddie, his face spreading into a grin and he waved cheerfully. Eddie smiled back, "Yeah...yeah I think I might."

[imhavingdifficulties]

MEOW MEOW MEOW EMOWW RMEOWWW RAWWRR MRRRRRRRRR

[blupengu]

Y’all is Hollow Knight hard or do I just suck because oh my god??

[littletrumpetcat]

how the fuck does anyone afford anything. please let me know. i haven't gotten my hair cut in two years. i've never paid to get my nails done. i rarely ever buy alcohol. i haven't eaten out this summer. it's those god damn student loans i fear