#this subject NEEDS to be addressed
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okay question.
what’s considered a child-like reader to you in fan fiction? not hate
to be honest, most of this fandom’s problem is the blurred lines between an “innocent” reader, and a “childish” reader, because there’s a huge difference between somebody being “innocent,” and making them act or think/perceive like a baby/child. children don’t know what sex is, how sex works, what cumming is, etc. but regardless of if they’ve had sex or not, a grown adult would know the basic concept. a “childlike” reader to me is precisely that: someone who thinks or behaves the way a child would, especially in a sexual encounter. there’s no reason a grown, adult reader, shouldn’t know how intercourse works, what cumming is, where their “hole” is. there’s no reason you should be using baby talk on a grown, adult reader, if you can’t see yourself speaking to anyone this way in real life (unless, of course, they are a baby/child). words/phrases like “cunny,” or “private/princess parts” are simply absurd. and there is no reason your main character should have to explain to the reader, again, how sex works, what cumming is, etc. it’s absolutely repulsive, and in my opinion, perverse.
i don’t think people realize that the “innocent” reader trope can exist alongside a reader who is obviously an adult, and doesn’t think/act like a child. children haven’t had sex ed classes yet, because they’re not of age to do so. in my opinion, this is where the lines blur, and they shouldn’t. if you’re not making your reader “childlike”, your reader should know what sex is, and how it works, even if they haven’t had it because of their “innocence.” they’ll have taken sex ed classes, and should understand the basic concept. you can very well be a virgin and comprehend sex’s core fundamentals, regardless of if you’ve had it or not.
bottom line, to reiterate, there is a huge difference between making a reader “innocent,” and making them behave, think, and act like a child, the latter of which is not okay, and shouldn’t be posted about as casually as it is on tumblr.
#not an attack on this anon at all i just#this subject NEEDS to be addressed#kitlyn’s anons ♡#abby anderson#abby anderson x reader#abby anderson smut#ellie williams#ellie williams x reader#ellie williams smut#the last of us#the last of us smut#tlou#tlou2
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I need to share this with you. Today I woke up thinking about König with a severe mommy kink that he doesn't realize. He just cannot understand why he goes absolutely feral for reader when she scolds him about missing lunch, when she has to sit him down while she cooks something for him. Poor König just has to endure watching reader moving around the kitchen in her cute apron, humming to herself while he stares with wide eyes at her discheveled hair and flushed cheeks, and gulps.
Reader is also just so touchy, playing with his hair, stroking his face, giving him little kisses all over his face and nose, cooing at him and talking in her soft, gentle voice about how her baby is just so hardworking, how he needs to take care to himself and eat all his protein and veggies, how she just worries for her sweetheart so much while he exhausts his body at work, and all poor König can do is sit there and take it, a flush covering his entire torso, neck and face, and a leaky, purple cock resting against his pelvis.
Reader is just so soft and warm and maternal, she offers to ride him because she wants him to relax for once, and he agrees, tail wagging and tears gathering at the corners of his eyes as her gentle, pliable and soft body moves on top of his cock, only to flip her on her tummy because he just cannot let her see him crying and panting for her. Cheeky minx almost got him to call her Mommy, what a scandal? Now he has to show her who's boss, sadly he doesn't get to last long enough because she starts praising him and calling him her Big Boy, and all of a sudden his cock is shooting thick ropes of hot cum. König with mommy issues...
Anon… You’re officially to blame for sending me into cardiac arrest……..
König is completely blind to his mommy issues and mommy kink, has never even heard the term. Or if he has, he thinks it has something to do with breasts... And he likes breasts just as much as any other guy: it doesn’t make him a freak!
Lowkey he’s so mad about it, is she doing this on purpose?? No one calls their man ‘big boy’, he asked around one time and now everyone’s teasing him about it :(
Meanwhile reader is oblivious to why König is acting so weird. She just wants to ease his stress, looks like she must double her attempts! She rubs his scalp and gives him a little massage, she tries to make the tension go away by stroking his cock that’s beet red from the tip and already leaking profusely. The same color is on his cheeks as he huffs along with the strokes, then squeezes his mouth shut when she starts to pet his head as well. This guy really should relax and allow himself to go with the flow, just let her take care of it 💕
#König trying to “show who’s the boss” is a concept so very dear to me#please anon i need to know your name and address and also if you’ll write a book about this subject
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genuinely worries me that some of you think the biggest threat to feminism in 2024 is trans men having words to talk about their lived experience
#smells like a scapegoat#trans#transphobia#feminism#if you cannot see that cis men have privilege over cis women#but trans men do not access the same privilege EVEN IF THEY ARE STEALTH (which is a conditional privilege discounting medical discriminatio#that would vanish as soon as anyone KnewTM)#and that the vast majority of trans men are NOT stealth and many are non-passing#and are thus subjected to DOUBLE persecution#by cis men for not being 'man' enough AND women - cis and trans! - for not being 'woman' enough#or worse yet being 'failed' women/wlw or 'traitors'#just as much as trans women are discrimated against by cis and trans men and cis women alike#and nonbinary people are discriminated against on all sides and by binary trans people#and you think that transmasc people TALKING about these experiences is a genuine threat to feminism#rather than an important aspect of it that has been overlooked for too long#I think you need to sort out your priorities and address your internal transandrophobia.#morning thoughts#anyway any attempt to divide the community is in fact an attempt to conquer
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#correct me if i’m wrong but i think this is the first time someone directly addresses will on this subject#um also#will is still crazy bc why does he go to her for therapy#hannibal#hannibal series#nbc hannibal#will graham#nbc hannigram#hannigram#oh shit not related exactly but i need to watch the hannibal movie
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The fact I have to boot up totk AGAIN, honest to God yall after I make this one fuckass post it is au only I am not doing zelda discourse no more
#watching my own mutuals have bad faith takes on people who w#fucking agree with them and the way people are teying to pick out wording on something SO STUPID AND TRIVIAL is gonna dive me nute#NUTS ANYWAYS like the fact you have people trying to act like ezlo and navi are stupid and wrong and “didnt address eveything” is fucking#insane an obtoose like this is coming from bitches who have SEEN THEIR POSTS ON SIMILAR SUBJECTS BEFORE#like this all boils down to rynling was changing the plot to tp multiple diffrent times and calling people stupid for not subscribing to he#fanfic on what LITERALLY HAPPENED IN THE GAME#like i will adress all the shit around it IN DETAIL because i need it to go out as a HEY to my moots but like PLEASE GUYS I LOVE YALL WHAT#IS THIS#like sorry i said “we” when i should of said RYNLING#i didnt wanna be mean and tbh i do not care if i burn a bridge or piss them off#at this point but its crazy hoe many of you have shit talked her to me and then act like she didnt have a bad faith and like fucking insane#reading of what and i say again LITERALLY HAPPENED IN TWILIGHT PRINCESS#Something stupid big and im very tired of the vauge posting coming from people i like very much#like full on this shit js ridiculos and this is my final straw when it comes to zelda discussion. do not @ me#and ive hated direct comfrontation and shit and discorrse to begin with cuz it was usually some dumbfuck zelinker being RACIST#but apprently its now picking words apart. i will be as careful in my wording as possible but make no mistake this was about rynlings post#first and foremost and just getting things wrong about when the histoy of light and shadow line and just MIDNA in general#and its been conisistantly wrong since 2019 and mf yes im tag talking i aint taking up a dashboard#can you tell im very frustrated? im helping ezlo argue with white leftists who will ask you if you hate waffles when you say i like pancakes
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Is it true that there's no animosity between you and... you know, you know who. You never talk about her in any way. I guess I'm curious. You guys seemed like really close friends and then just weren't friends at all. And there was some stuff she said that seemed very targeted at you...
I don't know if she feels any animosity toward me or not any more. Our mutual friends have said she doesn't and I take them on their word in that regard, assuming that if they have an answer for me it's because they're aware how she feels. I wouldn't know and it's not my place to put words in her mouth.
I haven't spoken to her/about her in a long time and the only time she even crosses my mind is when people bring her up to me. As for me feeling any animosity? I'll admit my feelings on her these days are complicated and way too nuance-core for people who aren't my friends to hear about but I wouldn't call them animosity in any way. I inherently want people my friends care about to live well because I care about my friends, and anyone my friends care about by proxy and I still share friends with her. I would never wish ill on people my friends care about so animosity doesn't fit into that by definition. I'd say I'm hurt more than anything and even then I've worked through a lot of it with trusted friends who have helped me deal with my emotions in a healthy way.
(Besides, my own life struggles keep me from even being able to invest time into animosity. I have to expend that energy loving my family, doing my best to support them during our struggles. And I've never been a hateful person it isn't in me. I would rather play 'Hot To Go' by Chappell Roan and teach my dad how to do the hand gestures to help him strengthen his muscles again than focus on hating anyone...)
I try not to think about her because it hurts. I often think that people forget that I'm a real person outside of her sphere, and that I wouldn't want to talk about what happened because I truly did consider her a friend for a long time. And when someone I consider a friend appears to not regard me with care any more suddenly and I don't even have closure on that... well... it hurts... A lot. Of course I never talk about it.
And I'm not stupid, I have seen some stuff she's said that I've gathered was about me. I remind myself that she has a right to vent in her own spaces and I truly mean that... it's just a shame that her own spaces have people who then have taken these things to me to show me (after all, I wouldn't have even seen these things myself if not for third-party anons going 'this u?') saying it is my own fault because I was a terribly cruel friend or my own fault for not listening to warnings about her when I had the chance and that makes me a stupid gullible bitch. You lot haven't seen some of the awful shit about me from some of her more ravenous fans and haters I've seen over the years that I've had to let roll off my back in the fear it would bring backlash - not even to me, to her. I don't want to be the cause of any hatred going to anyone.
Also I'm just not going to ever talk about the details of our fallen friendship or our fallen relationship. That's private. She might be a public person to some extent but I never was, even if I do gain some measure of small fandom for my work one day I'm just private about personal matters especially raw ones. I almost deleted this ask entirely but Idk I never stated that it bothers me when people talk to me about her from my own mouth, so I guess that's what this ramble is.
If you send me anything about Lily Orchard it will not be addressed. I am not a part of her life not even through our mutual friends. I do not know or care what's going on with her public/personal life. I haven't kept up. I will never keep up. Don't treat me as an extension of the situation because I am not in the situation. In the most plainly stated sense of the word: Leave me the Hell alone. (...pretty please.)
All I've wanted this entire time was to be left alone to process everything in a healthy, peaceful way. I'm workin' on it.
#not art#I don't think I need a tag for asks of this nature since I'm never going to be speaking to any of this again#but it doesn't fit in with my normal asks so:#Mad as a Bag of Cats#There that's a specific tag to blacklist even though I'm not a personal drama ask answerer very often...#let's not even get into the slurs I received or the insulting things about my mother people have asked me about or the -#insulting and nasty insults about how I deserved to lose her as a friend or deserved to be hurt because I didn't listen#because if I vented how fucking shitty people who don't know me have treated me since the day I met her we'd be here all day#and let me be clear whatever else: Lily is not responsible for ANYONE being this way whether they defend or condemn her you all decided to#send those things and you know who you are - I've also seen people on both sides say to leave me alone#and genuinely for just that thank you this is genuinely some of the most distressing online experiences I've ever had#so please leave me alone.#about this subject I mean - if you wanna be nice and talk about my art or me I'm happy to engage#if you're nice to me this isn't for you#edit: even to the nice people who tried to send me well wishes now - If you send me anything about Lily Orchard it will not be addressed.#it just feeds the whole thing if I answer those too#you can send if you want to be nice I get that impulse but I won't be answering them
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considering the amount of questions i get about it, i want to clarify my interpretation and stance on hawks and endeavor's relationship, specifically on hawks supporting endeavor even after it becomes public of how badly endeavor treated his family, as i think it's very important to my portrayal of the birb.
both of hawks' parents were abusive: physically, mentally and verbally. his father was a murderer on the run and his mother harbored him. hawks' conception was unintentional and happened while both of them were under extreme stress of hiding from the authorities all the time. this manifests into them projecting their irritation, anger, and even hatred of each other and is directed at hawks instead. his dad hated his guts until endeavor put the trash in jail and hawks' mother basically sold him to the hero commission and later on, again, sold out his son's personal information to dabi and left like a coward. couldn't even apologize to his face either, just left a "goodbye" note.
hawks admires endeavor, not just because he was saved by him but because endeavor realizes that his abusive actions were wrong, apologizes to his family to their faces, admits it in public to everyone, and instead of running away, faces the consequences of his actions head on. endeavor isn't asking for forgiveness, he is trying to make amends, fully accepting that he doesn't deserve any. he is taking responsibility to make up for the damage he's caused. period. he's not running away like hawks' mother did. he realized his wrongs unlike hawks' father who never even got to the point of even realizing what he had done was wrong. that, to hawks, is inspiring and instills a lot of hope in him.
while he doesn't know exactly what the todoroki family went through, hawks has a good idea. he lived under that too. but endeavor - despite how flawed and terrible he was - came to. that realization point is what hawks finds amazing because his parents will never get to that point and therefore, he knows that it's not easy to get there. hawks wants to support that. he is not condoning or supporting abuse.
#hawks is not an abuser apologist i hate seeing that#i know endeavor angers a lot of people and rightfully so#and for that reason i think endeavor is a well written character and brings a lot of good discussion on topics like domestic abuse#i think hori handled it well considering the subject matter#and hawks makes it pretty clear that he will continue supporting endeavor who is clearly trying. the trying part matters to hawks#who had parents who didn't try. at all.#i think hawks overcompensates for the fact that he had no support by supporting others and that in turn feeds his optimism#i know this is an uncomfortable topic for a lot of people#but i don't want to shy away from hard topics#i hope this ramble makes sense but it's coming up in plotting often#and considering that hawks is one of my more popular muses on par with gojo i think i needed to address it :)#* ⟢ HAWKS ( headcanons )#// tw: abuse
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welcome to elysium part 2: trial time...
Kuya asks question 1: I'm. I'm stressed for olivine. I can feel my chest tighte ning. I ma sweat.ib
Kuya asks question 2: YIKES😬. AND a HaLf i. I have to leave
(minimises the app and lies on the floor for a solid minute)
ok. Ok let's keept his goin. It's ok It's ok olivine confronting his truths is ok he will be better after airing it all out IT WILL BE FINE deepbreathsdeepbreaths
*coughschokes and falls flat back onto the floor*
(....)
(Regains consciousness a few moments later)
Phew, ok,,, we're safe, olivine is facing it head-on and kuya is-
What THE EVERLIVING FR$* ISTHA*passes out again*
#dragQUeen STORYTI-- I MEAN. evil wife OLD FOX STORYTIME WITH THE CHILDREN AT THE LIBRARY!!!!!!#kuya smiling without malice? in an event? where people can see?????#oli calling kuya out on his existential dread?????#from one mother to another. i can see the ennui in ur eyes#eiden's voice piercing thru the veil of self-doubt and general wallowing...#oli and kuya being surprisingly civil toward each other#despite oli's first comment upon their introduction that kuya's personality is a trial from god 😄#master of elysium was all LET ME TIE UP THIS PRIEST WITH A RIBBON AND PRESENT IT TO MASTER KUYA#and kuya's like naaahhh i bet he's more amusing when he's free roaming and independent#(subjects him to an extremely stressful game of truth or dare)#the girls (kuyoli) are turning slumber party games into Saw movies :(...... :)?#part of me wonders whether kuya actually gave that dude what he wanted#actual infinite sweet dream coma or...? plot twist i'm actually gonna torture you forever#i think he got the sweet dream but i just wanna know what happened at his old trial#i am not clever when it comes to these things. somebody needs to stand there and blast me with exposition#paragraph style. all written out.#he dodged the question... but he didn't get stung...? and .... uh whu? or he jus t lied? but he thought his lies were the truth?#furrows brow. idon't know. and i mean. i guess he got what he wanted in the end#what he THINK he wanted in the end?#*shrugs* oh well. i guess it's just . kuya and oli finish their very special episode of uhhhhh#addressing your actual problems before turning to drugs? no. use responsibly and safely if you must?.. uh.....#don't force drugs onto people? ...and... never bring children into a den of desire?#sure! let's go with that!#welcome to elysium
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I think a lot about your analysis about Aoi and nene and also can't help but think that Nene is not really the kind of friend Aoi need (They are adorable together don't get me wrong)
(For context: Aoi and Nene empty friendship)
I feel the same, I am glad my feeling was communicated there :D
Their interactions can be very cute, adorable truly, but I cannot see it being good for Aoi in the long run. At all. Which is very sad since they value each other so much.
#I think the two being adorable is the root of... a really big problem I didn't address in that analysis but that is connected#I was going to explain it here about how most of their relationship is in nene's pov and other things that seems small but that#pile up and slowly paints a depressing image. But I realized halfway through writing my paragraphs that I don't really want to?#cause it would be a long analysis that involves hunting aidairo's twitter arts and a lot of panel collages on a subject I am not hyped for#I currently don't like aoi and nene's relationship. At all. Is not something I want to spend hours talking about like my other analysis#I don't know when I would be in the mood to talk about them or if you even want my personal issues with it?? since you already agreed#that nene ain't the kind of friend Aoi need. So I decided to keep it short instead of not replying for idk how long#still... sorry for rambling in the tags T-T and thank you for leaving me an ask!#I love when my analysis makes others gain a new perspective on something!#tbhk
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Can I ask for a preference for the DCA boys? Sun/Moon/ Eclipse. And if there is a specific AU version you fancy?
Oh, sure!
For the preferences I'm uh. Between Sun/Moon I refuse to choose? I see them as a set, Do Not Separate, and it feels unfair to choose between them. I'm very enthusiastic about healthy sleep, and own unholy amounts of glitter glue and other craft supplies, so it really just works out for a match. I love Eclipse too! Though I see him as separate*, not as intrinsically linked into the set, and given that Sun and Moon are the "originals" they win out over Eclipse**!
*Depends on the interpretation, of course, but if left to my own devices
**This, too, depends on the interpretation, as I've been known to simp for the Police Chief and perhaps a teeny tiny bit the Bounty Hunter in @naffeclipse's Syzygy in Dedication/ Sleuth Jesters
In regards to AU preferences that's already one point then, though uh. I've kind of made half a brand out of being entirely insane over also Naff's Cryptid Sightings Sun/Moon/Eclipse - all three just one being in this one, and big dangerous cryptid soft for one human is simply too much of a weakness.
Them being caretakers is always a plus, because I love the trope of caretaker confronted with being taken care of, does not compute (literally, in their case) and also just. Animatronic existence and the conflict it creates (not necessarily fighting, but the surrounding circumstances in the world, misunderstandings, getting to know each other and growing closer while exploring and appreciating differences as well as similarities, and how these intertwine) is my favorite, though as long as it's human and non human interaction I'm going to be fascinated tbh. As a queer neurodiverse person accepting and cherishing differences, and taking the time to truly understand the other is simply my bread and butter
I suppose I should also say I like my own AU boys too? I mean, obviously, I created them! Though honestly, there are so many versions and interpretations of the boys and I'll eat them all up, I'm really bad at choosing, so I suppose the bottom line of all this is...
#answer let luce#eiffelfeller#my issue is I am slow to read and also easily get overwhelmed#so I am eternally distraught over the fact that I will never get to see/ read everything that would bring me joy#I am more hesitant to approach human/ humanized aus#and. dirty secret. vampire aus somehow do not get me. something about animatronic vamps just makes brain go ? and thats it#WHICH DOES NOT MEAN I THINK EITHER CATEGORY IS BAD AUS#these are very subjective; obviously; they're my preferences!#I'm not dunking on anyone or any specific au#just what I noticed towards what I gravitate#I don't even want that in the main post because I don't want anyone to feel personally addressed#can you see how I'm an anxious mess?#<- refuses to choose between two fictional characters because that would be unfair to one of them#moon is my icon simply because im the sleep wizard#but just because my brand isn't crafts doesnt mean i cant also relate to sun#im rambling. lets post this because i need to get lunch gfhdjs
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It’s Thursday! 💚
#v’s song of the day#my high school bf sent this to me and i still think it’s so sweet to this day#we stayed in touch for a long time after high school#but he ran into some issues a few years after graduating#and last I spoke with him he was in a really bad place#and I told him I’d help him however I could but he needed like… proper help#and then I suspect his shitty manipulative abusive girlfriend made him stop talking to me#like gg honey I’m sure abusing the shit out of him will get him to stop doing drugs#never mind addressing the horrifying traumas he was subjected to as a child lol#I still worry about him and I hope he’s doing okay 💚#Spotify
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hate when i see a youtube video that's like 'analyzing why [thing] is bad!' and you watch the video and they just say nothing for twenty minutes
#random thoughts#watched a video on why a specific character was poor representation for survivors of assault#and it was such a nothing burger of a video#'this character is bad because children might see them and think their behavior is okay' okay?#i learned how to block out memories from finn adventure time but that doesn't mean memory suppression shouldn't be addressed in media#plus hazbin hotel. i'm talking about angel dust btw if that wasn't blaringly obvious. is an adult cartoon. for adults#adult cartoons shouldn't have to restrict their subject matter because kids could see it#and angel dust being a male queer SA victim using hypersexuality as a coping mechanism could be good!#and the fact he hits on other people despite it making them uncomfortable isn't exactly a problem a la his character?#it could be a control thing. i used to do something similar (pushing other people's boundaries and complaining when they pushed back)#because it made me feel some kind of control over my life#it could start off as a really shitty joke and then grow into 'oh god is that why he does that??'#but anyway their second main point was that the songs were bad? and that poison being an upbeat song makes it bad#like despite listing many other songs which are upbeat with heavy lyrics. but somehow poison is the exception because it's a cartoon?#like again that could be a character thing. angel dust using obfuscation as a coping mechanism to distract himself from his shitty life.#。・゚゚・the lyrics are upbeat to distract you from how dead i feel inside・゚゚・。#and their reading of the second song seemed really mean-spirited?#like as 'everyone has problems so you're not special because you're a whiny baby' rather than 'you're not as alone as you think you are'#and like if op wanted to just complain about a show they watched then yeah go off i do that all the time#but don't parade it as character analysis???#and they say 'oh reading it as a feelgood you're not alone message doesn't work because these characters' struggles are not equal'#but like. sometimes rape needs to feel like it's not some special trauma. it's not unique and you're not uniquely fucked up for it#two characters' traumas don't need to be directly comparable for them to bond!!!#and im not like. defending hazbin hotel btw. never seen it not going to see it no thanks#i'm just complaining about a mediocre youtube video that i'm going to forget about in a week#god i hate that brand of youtube video. where they just complain about things without going into depth about why they're bad#especially if their complaints are shallow and don't have to do with like. the actual structure of a character or story#like it's so easy to say 'this character is bad because theyre a predatory stereotype' but like. go into some depth at least#i think i hate these videos so much because they're fueled purely by hate. no love for the source material or even a desire to learn#or a love for storytelling even
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Zero Day Director commentary - With actor Andre Keuck
#movies#film#cinema#Damn I wish Cal was here#Andre and Ben are really interesting to listen to#This movie is one of those movies where it needs like 3 commentaries#It needs one with just Ben Coccio by himself#then one with Cal and Andre by themselves#then another with all 3 of them#Not all movies do that but I love when studios/filmmakers have multiple commentaries to create a sense of thorough intimacy#due to the nature of how commentaries are set up they can be quite restrictive/pressing/limited with no pauses or rewinds.#so I find cast/crew don't have enough time or able to present how they would like to if they could edit/rewind or pause for fluent presenta#So I love when they have director commentaries and actor commentaries or composer commentaries#Platoon's dvd extras are so dope they got multiple commentaries and one with military adviser Dale Dye who was a RL vietnam vet#Or Hostel's commentaries where one is just Eli Roth and another is Tarantino and Eli Roth with Scott Spiegal#idk if Zero Day ever got a blu-ray release but I think it should but the DV technology of the camera is kinda at it's limit of resolution#but an AI upscaling with 20 years later retrospective with Ben Cal and Andre would be sooo dope along with updated commentaries#Every few years I always rewatch Zero Day so that time has come that last few days lol#Ever since Columbine as a lil kid I have always been into spree-murders and active shooter incidents#I remember reading a peer-reviewed paper called Pseudo-Commandos#And Eric and Dylan and Andre and Cal would be dubbed Pseudo-Commandos where they dress up in a semi-military fashion#and have a delusion of superiority mixed with perceived sense of persecution whether it's true or not#it went into the Postal shooter from the 80s as well and what he went through along#plus I read another book called Going Postal which also went into postal shootings along with school shootings#I want to make a film about spree murders or an active shooter/s but I remember just getting so tired of the subject matter#because every 3 weeks there was some new shooter in the headlines and I found myself not wanting to be exploitative#When I write/direct my film I'd like it to address and study the character of such an individual but not try to be too political#or exploitative and focus on the ambiguities that are left behind when someone does this#as a society I noticed we stopped asking the questions on why and stopped having constructive conversations#it feels like as a coping mechanism we've started treating them like tornados or natural disasters
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If I made a video essay covering every episode arc and the overall storyline and themes of Darker than Black would that be too self indulgent?
#ra speaks#personal#darker than black#dtb#tag rambling#yes I’m making it for me ™ but it’s also an absolutely massive project like#the video introduction I’ve drafted is 2.5 pages font size 11 1.5 spaced. it’s a lot of text.#and reading it out loud definitely takes longer than 20 minutes#and that’s without getting into the actual arcs and episodes of the show that’s just me rambling abt my personal discovery and interest init#but my real reason is that the wikia has some glaring inconsistencies/shortcomings in terms of its summaries and descriptions plus a lot of#subjective interpretations posited as canonical fact#which y’know I could remake the wikia piece by piece in a doc.wiki format#but to do that I’ll need a thorough rewatch with notes on all canonical events and circumstances as portrayed through the media itself#instead of through a personal lense#sorry I looked up video essays for dtb on YouTube and one of the first literally criticizes the show for something that’s#explicitly addressed in episode 9 like sir did you even fucking WATCH the show how is this the most popular video on the show
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jury trulystill out on whether in stars and time made me worse or better. Arguably, reasonably, in the long run the answer is better. But I have felt like so much shit since finishing that game oh my god. Siffrin. Siffrin why are you like that. This is awful
#tide of consciousness#isat#This post is half a joke bc the answer is firmly better#But better in the sense that it made me aware of so many issues and now I'm suffering#The only viable outlet for calling it worse is siffrin introduced new fun ways to be mentally ill to my brain#Gee thanks for the mental ammo there#I know I said I wanted to start a second playthrough but admittedly I was high off the ending#And now I'm like. Wow. If I ever play that game again I need to be like 10 steps away from where I am currently#As a game. Fun. I want to explore it more. I rushed through it and missed fun side content#As an experience. If I subject myself to that again before fully addressing all of this that might qualify as self harm#Which I should clarify. Does not mean it's a bad game or experience.#It's way too good at the story it's trying to tell . And I am the exact audience it was supposed to reach.#Isat is immediately top 5 games of all time I've played ever. It's GOOD. it's just also horrible and awful and gut wrenching.
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had the most draining morning of my entire education so far (don’t worry though it will get worse) and now you’re telling me I have to pull myself together and STUDY???? bullshit
#doing a group project#and it’s actually good. like. everyone in the group is so engaged and it’s an interesting subject#HOWEVER. the subject is also HEAVY. and touches upon feelings of mine i haven’t really addressed and processed properly#not even the being a lesbian feelings!!!! entirely DIFFERENT feelings!!!!!#However the being a lesbian feelings probably played into it because opening the floodgates for That also probably opened the floodgates for#All My Other feelings#which is like. ok good i guess!! I’m feeling things!! go me!!!#BUT WHYYYYY DOES IT HAVE TO BE. UNPLEASANT#the world feels realer than it has in prrrobably years though I will say#when I realised reality was a little off and not quite there for me uh. two years ago. i was like shit this has been going on for a full#year already.#PROBABLY ALSO SOMETHING TO BRING UP WITH MY PSYCHOLOGIST BECAUSE THAT ACTUALLY COINCIDES WIRH#DISTRESSING EVENTS IN MY PERSONAL LIFE#WHICH PROBABLY MAYBE NEED TO BE ADDRESSED ACTUALLY#z talks#not horse game
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