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God I want to draw so bad I have no time. Ughhhhhhhhhh
#this semester is gonna kill me#student teaching is so fuckin stressful#I take over the classroom this week on Thursday for basically the next month :| which is not how this was supposed to work#I’m so nervous I hate this
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crawls out of a suspiciously grave shaped pit and throws this at u
#this semester is gonna kill me#clumzycrowz craftz#not creepypasta#sally face#sally face fanart#sal fisher#sal fisher fanart#posca pens
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I just got mine and have like zero classes with my best friend😞
i got my school schedule and its so ass omg what if i die rn
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we're all going to the world's fair FUCKED ME UP especially after spending the day with my family and feeling vaguely evil and fucked up the whole time with no apparent reason
#cant even be my fucking period because that was last week... killing myself#probably the mold poisoning#was literally having a laugh to myself (coping) this morning like damn i was so fucked up spring semester 2024!#i was so depressed and like visibly self destructive so much so that my friend called a wellness check on me!#never gonna be like that again!#but every so often the badness comes back.
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me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects
#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar#no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new#but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me'#i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term#so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now#so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but#it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out#that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance#so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial#but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal#although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive#i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary#ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness#which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days#and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself#im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles#but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy#and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me#i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this#i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself#im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body#im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up#and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe!#so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please#and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching#between numbness and overwhelming agony#what the fuck am i talking about
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juist submitted my last final project for the semester
#trousled dumb#its only now hitting me that this image is probably more widely used for expressions of anguish and despair#idc tho. to me this is an image of rabid freedom. like sometimes you just gotta rip that shit off and yell really loud and its good#anyway . can somebody tell me who decided final projects are Less Stressful than normal ass exams so that i can kill them with hammers#if i have to write one more essay its all over i will drop out im so . look fellas i wrote 7 essays this semester and i missed four#thats more than my roommate had assigned as a fucking creative writing major. i never want to see words again#just give me a fucking bubble sheet man im begging you i dont want to write 20000 more words about whastever the hell#sigh. im glad to be done with this semester can you tell#anyway im gonna rest a bit still andd hopefully get back to ebonyposting soon 😌 since i have TIME NOW !!!!!!!!!!!!
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MY EGO IS NEVER GOING DOWN GRRRAAAAAAA
#me when ^-^-^-^-^-^#cant take ap classes though and its gonna kill me <- literally will be in college#think im gonna switch ceramics to sculpture next semester i live sculpting too much to leave it...#rambles
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Why the fuck did i have to become art blocked when i need money the most
#clu finally speaks#just found out the stupid piece of shit agency that my parents signed up with to put aside college money cant give me the money unless#i go fulltime#i literally fucking cant do that lmao!!!!! fall semester is the last half of my part time i literally have no other classes to take asides#from the 3 i have to take this semester#i also cant do that bc anything more than 5 classes (what the college considers full-time) is a garunteed flunk#im going to fucking kill myself!!!@!@!!! ontop of the fact im going to pay out of my own pocket to get to and from school bc these piece of#shit college institutions basically considers us part timers second class citizens that can go fuck themselves#i also have to figure out how the fuck am i going to have enough money left over to pay off the debt#theres no way my useless piece of shit ass is going to find any work in time before the debt snowballs into something thats basically going#to be with me forever#tbh i highly doubt art comms was gonna work either considering my art skills are mid and i havent posted publiclly and consistently for ppl#to even know me#but thats fucking SOMETHING. and now its gone.
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guys i am SPEEDRUNNING this chapter because i was busy moving all day yesterday and i have a work meeting tonight and my drugs class starting tomorrow but i am SPEEDRUNNING!!!
#my schedule this semester is fucked lol BUT I WILL GET A CHAPTER OUT ONCE A WEEK IF IT KILLS ME!!!#(i am lying. probably gonna be every other week if my eugenics class goes the way i'm expecting it to)
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rich ppl are so annoying like i cannot believe im forced to read the sentence "my familys not rich my dad only makes 200k a year" with my own two eyes
#never gonna forget that time i was in college#and this girl from my high school was trying to get me to join her sorority#and i was like yea i cant afford to do that i cant even afford my college tuition im probably dropping out next semester bc of it#and she said to me and i quote#oh our sorority is one of the cheapest on campus! it's only an extra 4000 dollars a semester:)#LIKE what if i strangled you? what if i killed you with my bear hands?#bare hands? bear hands? i like bear hands more it implies i have big bear paws for hands. which i do.
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#i mean in the nicest way possible#but like when you're in med school you truly have to have your priorities straight#bc otherwise you're going to end up doing just mediocre#and like#who wants a mediocre doctor to help them#there's some shit you have to sacrifice sometimes#sometimes its spending time doing things you like sometimes its asking for help with your responsibilities#sometimes its knowing you're gonna get an hour or two of sleep bc you have to finish doing everything you have to do#and if you're not gonna learn how to prioritize and be responsible idk if there's a point 😭#like im sorry#ik mental health is incredibly important more than anyone else#but we're training to be people who will literally have to save someones from dying at one point#us being late or us not studying or us not knowing something can literally kill someone#i just#ugh#it pisses me off how some actual friends dont take this seriously#and like oh im sleepy bc ive been doing other stuff all day im not gonna study i think#LIKE BROTHER IN CHRIST#and the worst part is like#i feel so bad saying this but we should be taking 5 classes each semester so we can get to intern year#this person is taking only 3#like bro we've literally had exam after exam every day this week#we're exhausted too#we just gotta suck it up
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One of my hcs for Vulcans is that they all really love learning (not that they would admit to hobbies), just because I really like thinking about like a worker explaining something to a small Vulcan child and then they look up and see a whole group of adult Vulcans watching the interaction intently, suddenly they’re a tour guide!
#it’s just fun for me#self indulgent hours#this semester is killing me it’s just gonna be hella self indulgent till my stress is down#Star Trek#Vulcans#vulcan headcanons
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I kinda feel like I'm falling apart
#woke up to get shouted at over dishes#and now im kinda having a crisis#i guess this is left overs from the other night#idk what im going to do#this last month or so ive been in a constant state of overwhelm#it feels like so much is happening always#and i can't relax#towards the beginning of last month i was having financial issues with school#i decided to work extra hours at work to pay for it#i eventually got those bills paid#but now im being expected to maintain that schedule on top of my schoolwork#every time i try to redo my schedule to where i get a fucking day off from school and work#i get fucking guilt tripped into just doing the same thing#which leaves me with very little energy to work with for my schoolwork#im barely scrapping by with my two classes#im terrified to find out what this next semester is gonna be#i have 5 classes in the fall#i may have to see if i can afford to quit my job to focus on school#otherwise it feels like i might just fucking die#i dont think my mom realizes the strain this shit puts on me on a daily basis#or maybe she does#and she just doesn't give a shit#idk#im pissed and im fucking scared#i dont know what im doing#and i don't know what im going to do#all i know is that im gonna have to start cutting things out of my schedule#otherwise it feels like this is going to kill me#personal#rant
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i love art school
#got an 80 on my final movement piece from last semester which i am totally cool with#this semester is gonna kill me though in performance#(circus music starts)
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cant wait to receive my very expensive piece of paper so that i can photocopy it and then Eat It
#i recognize that on some level i would be distraught if i were to immediately destroy my degree#however. the only way we’re overcoming this academic trauma is by Eating It#and thats why we have printers.#there will be no graduation ceremony#its just gonna be me standing in a field tearing a piece of paper apart with my teeth#saturn eating his son. tobias j whimsicmimic eating their sociology degree.#all of this is to say: started thinking about how the semester ends in just over Two Weeks#and the thought got me so stressed that my tummy started hurting :(#which is NONSENSE because ive already Done the Big Project Of Kill Yourself for the end of the semester#but. whatcha gonna do. whatcha gonna do.#maybe i should get someone to record me eating the photocopy of my degree. im dead fucking serious about that.#when i get my hands on that fucker im Eating It. gastrointestinal issues be damned.
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