#this might be because of the tism

[lunariasilver]

I just finished the magnus archives like, 2 days ago and now I'm wondering if I should just- start over again from season 1.

Because

Uh

I need it

[frostedpuffs]

does anyone else ever feel like they never Fit In fandom spaces like. sure i create stuff SOMETIMES but i feel like such an outsider in the fandom and idk why asdkfsakdf

[hourlyeternaldiva]

[c0smiccom3t]

Coco, my best friend,, coco my comfort character,, baby me would've loved you !!

[autisticlee]

sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.

but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.

I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.

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[adhbabey]

Me and my best friend were talking about this, but I'm wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience. She told me it was an autistic experience, so if anyone else can confirm or give a name to this, it would be good.

I've found myself experiencing quite a bit of shyness when it comes to media other people would like me to try, and media that either of us would want others to try. And I've noticed this particularly when I change my mind on something.

Like not wanting to watch something until seeing something I like, and going back on "never wanting to watch" that thing. And I feel a lot of shame and shyness when that happens.

And I think it might be associated with rigid thinking, and/or being unable to move outside of our comfort zones. And just feeling like I'm unable to enjoy things unless I choose to.

And I haven't really found a particular word or symptom name to correlate this experience. So if you've experienced intense shame and embarrassment when trying new things like a show, series or game, reblog this post and talk about your experiences. I hope one of you at least has a word for this.

[llyfrenfys]

Good evening to everyone except the guy who tried to argue with me today in Tesco over the proximity of my phone to the PED device while I was trying to load my clubcard. Sir, how can my phone load up a digital wallet by being too close to the PED if I don't have a digital wallet? Also I've worked retail before this is not how that works.

[lupismaris]

One of the most uncomfortable experiences of autistic adulthood in my experience truly has been- either relationships/friendships, and the process of building them, need to be easier to navigate or I need to want them less because this no man's land is a special kind of lonely.

And it's not a vague post or pity post, it's just an observation re community building in a local sense. We're told it's harder when you're older, harder when you're sober, harder when you're xyz. But that doesn't take away the need for community or help with navigating the process of building it.

[star-bear-art]

Eating isn't nearly so seductive without fangs

[non-un-topo]

This is your permission to take advantage of some ridiculously harsh sunlight for the specific purpose of posting low-quality cringe

[red-shepherds]

Posting these lines from my WIP cuz I'm pretty happy with them. might reblog with the sketch of my FIRST go round at this piece that never got finished

[thediktatortot]

Unpopular opinion but I don't care:

The slang term Tism feels a whole lot like a slur when people use it for other people or for fictional characters because nine out of ten times it's followed up by something severely stereotypical & downright ablest sounding.

[georgespaniel]

i am sorry if you ever spoken to me and i've been very awkward i struggle with social interaction a lot </3

[welcometogrouchland]

Strategizing my silly show rewatches to see what will produce The Most Emotion in me. And then soundly debating on whether or not that's actually a good idea

[barnbridges]

not to sexualize that dead autistic man but... the undertone of sex in bunny corcoran is very clearly maladapative and dysfunctional (methinks intentionally so) but not in the "is hiding in plain sight" sort of way, in the "is so fucking detached off reality that he has no idea what real people talk and behave like during relationships" (see: autism)

[bi-panic-at-the-disco]

i like that my therapist and I went through both anxiety and adhd in the dsm 5 for an hour (I 100 percented those suckers lol) and we were going to look through the autism and ocd parts and she said that we will definitely need more than five minutes to talk about autism