#this isn't something he'll do

[kimarisgundam]

Last night we had a mini session to earn some side eddies and our party had a meeting at a diner to dicuss what we should do next

Our Exec was telling everyone how we must avoid my bro (only Exec knows he's my bro) at all cost now cos we will NEVER live down that confrontation

Exec was giving Nomad an objective profile of my bro (eg. His cyberware, his reputation etc)...

And our Rockerboy had to start talking crap 😑. He added nonsense to what the Exec was saying and I'm annoyed cos how dare he diss my bro

Eventually I was like "If you don't know anything, stop opening your mouth and contributing to noise pollution"

He dared to say he knows my big bro is a "friendless and hobby-less ass who gets no girls" cos he's a suit >:T

And I'm like you don't know that, you are pulling nonsense out of your butt. Maybe he likes watching soap operas and his hobby is knitting (these are facts)

" No, his hobby is playing wack a mole with people's fingers, or putting gonks in front of mirrors and making them guess which body part he's gonna pull off next

I know cos I was the gonk in front of the mirror"

^ I think I was making this face when her Rockerboy said that... cos our DM was sitting directly opposite me at Starbucks and she said " *Netrunner's name* looks uneasy" 😭

Her Rockerboy apologised cos he thought my Netrunner was stunned cos she didn't know the injuries were from an interrogation, like no 😭

I know my character's bro interrogated him, I just didn't know it was that bad 😭

A mirror??? Wtf who even does that??? Like bro, you didn't need to go that far?? We weren't ordered to kill 😭

Omg this is just Cyberpunk, but the guilt is eating me up 😭. I'm the one who made the decision to rat him out to my bro 😭

My character technically did it, but I'm the player 😭. I'm the one who made the call 🥲

I can't wait to take a break while our DM writes the new plot... I need to take a mental vacation from all the bad things I did 🥲

[untitledgoosegay]

re last reblog I do see fanfic culture pushing/replicating a certain model of "what trauma looks like," "how trauma works"

this is a problem across all areas of society obviously, but transformative works are, well, transformative. they're about crafting and modifying narratives where the fan-creator sees a flaw or a lack -- often for the better! don't get me wrong, I've done my fair share of "I take a hammer and I fix the canon," it's the main thing that gets my creative gears spinning -- but what happens when that "flaw" is simply a narrative not conforming to popular expectations?

some people just don't get PTSD from events that sound obviously traumatic. they're not masking, and they're not coping; they just straight-up didn't get the permanently-locked stress-response that defines PTSD. they walk away from a horrible experience going "well, that sucked, but it's over now." some people do get PTSD from events most people wouldn't find traumatic. we don't really know why some people get PTSD and others don't. but fandom has an idea of events that must be traumatizing, of a "correct" way to portray trauma. you see the problems with this lack of understanding in e.g. fans pressuring the devs of Baldur's Gate 3 to add dialogue where the player character badgers Halsin about his own feelings on his abuse -- because he must be traumatized, and his trauma must fit a certain mold and presentation of sexual trauma, under the mistaken impression that anything outside that narrow window is somehow "wrong" and disrespectful or even harmful to survivors.

take, for another example, the very common trope of a traumatized character who hates touch or sex "learning" to like touch or sex as a part of their healing process. certainly that can be healing for some people; other people will never like, or want, touch or sex, because of trauma or because they just don't. the assumption that someone who doesn't want sex or doesn't like to be touched must be traumatized, must be suffering from this perceived lack, is seriously harmful -- to asexual people, to people with sensory issues around touch, and to people for whom healing from trauma means freedom to refuse sex or touch.

and there's a secondary trope, one that's slightly more thoughtful but ultimately repeats the problem -- that once someone has learned that their boundaries will be respected, they'll feel it's safe to soften those boundaries. once they feel safe refusing touch or sex, they'll feel comfortable allowing it on their own terms. but many people don't, and many people won't! many people will simply never want to be touched, and never want sex, and they are not suffering or broken or lacking because of it. the idea that proving you'll respect someone's boundaries entitles you to test those boundaries -- the paradox is obvious, and yet this is something i've seen hurt (re-traumatize) people i care for.

people are imperfect victims. people don't heal in the ways you expect. many people have positive memories of their abuse, of their abusers. many people hurt others in the course of their trauma, in ways that can't easily be unpacked in a 5k oneshot. very few narratives of trauma and recovery actually fit the ones put forward by popular children's media and romance novels -- which are the ones I most see replicated in fandom spaces, because they provide the clearest narrative and easiest catharsis, and so they're easy and soothing to reach for.

that's not necessarily a bad thing! i am not immune to goopy romance tropes. i am not immune to teary catharsis. not every fic has to grapple with ugly realities. but there's a problem when these narratives become predominant, when people think they're accurate and realistic depictions of trauma, when the truth of trauma is unpleasant and uncomfortable, and doesn't fit any single narrative, let alone one of comforting catharsis

[starwarjotta]

Day 5 - caf since my scribbles can be totally illegible, here’s a transcript Obi-Wan: Here you go, Cody Cody: Oh, thanks, sir Cody: this... it’s caf? Obi-Wan: Ah, yes! I’ve noticed my teas are not really to your tastes, so I stocked up some caf for you instead! I hope it’s okay Cody: ... oh Cody: ...thank you.

[potionbarrel]

science team-tober day 24: xen

prompt list | science team-tober sideblog

[justabunchofdragons]

they were so insane for having house play "hugh laurie's cuddy's serenade" bookending "you can't always get what you want" as cuddy held her party with everyone else and their mother attending AND having her open the door only to drop her smile when it wasn't house. she really said "i DON'T want you there" and got upset when he didn't come. they drive me insane

[lialox]

Can you imagine if the side stories end, and the ending is just like... Lee Hakhyun starts a tumblr or various accounts on social media trying to spread his story?

Because it's all happening in his dream? And in spreading it his characters live forever?

[royalarchivist]

Roier: [The Spanish streamers] haven't connected because of La Velada [a big Spanish event]. Well, I know that Luzu has been training and that's why he hasn't been able to enter. I think that when they return, they will return when La Velada is over, I think. I think. Or maybe they won't come back, who knows, who knows. We'll see, we'll see, hopefully, hopefully. And if they don't enter, keep your mouth shut because they can log on whenever they decide they want to.

This isn't a perfect translation, but I know a lot of people are curious about where the Spanish QSMP streamers have been, so here's Roier's commentary on it.

TLDR: a lot of things are happening in the Spanish community right now, which is why some players haven't been logging on, but others dealt with a lot of overbearing fans / members of the community early on in the series, which is why Roier reminds people not to harass anyone. If the other Spanish streamers decide not to come back, don't pester them, but if they do decide to log onto QSMP, welcome them back with lots of love!

[hydrachea]

It's my headcanon as well as @followerofmercy's that the state of Blade's hands makes it difficult to type and text. And so, I present to you, Silver Wolf's solution: pre-written short messages.

[thermodynamic-comedian]

thing is i don't really feel bad for any tma character. i get disappointed when a character i like dies, but i can't observe the series from an "i feel bad for these people" perspective, because it's so damn fascinating to observe it from a thought exercise perspective instead. not "would i feel bad if this bad thing happened to this person", but rather "would this person be bad if they did this thing?" or "if a bad thing happened to a bad person, would they deserve it? is pain something you can deserve?"

which is why malevolent is fucking destroying me because it's not a thought exercise or a philosophical ramble, it's a story. and i'm viewing it from the perspective of "this is a story that i am being told about awful things happening to people".

all of this to say, i feel genuinely bad for arthur lester and i don't know how to deal with that

[sunnylolli]

Got another Oxford Symphony Orchestea tiktok and genuinely I cannot imagine anything but that Arthur would rock out to classical music and be part of the mosh pit that formed during "Hall of the mountain king"

Arthur can rock out to everything, he loves music, some more than some else, but he'll listen to damn near everything if it's put on, even if it's just on principle

[the-acid-pear]

Y'know I really feel like Harry and Dave's relationship goes highly unexplored which is a shame because there IS quite a bit to explore, ESPECIALLY if you care about shipping. But as the game stands I mean, they must be aware of each other. Harry in fact definitely knows about Dave. I don't think he'd tell the fucking weird rotten bunny his terrible boss brought in IS the number one threat against Freddy's since day 1 but even so. Dave I don't think would see Harry as much more than A Phoney™ though, which is always more of an obstacle and way less of a person. Which is usually opposite of how Jack sees his often sole employee. Like, you get what I mean? It's almost similar to 2 with the main opposing routes being Peter and Dave except the stakes are arguably way lower now.

[invinciblerodent]

i think in my dragon age excitement, i full-on forgot just how stinking handsome this asshole is

(also, help, i think i accidentally made him cuter than he has any right to be, and not only in the appearance department)

[kazunarei]

The fact that there's only one technically kills me

Where are the EiReiDan stories?????

I need to see Dante try and fail to deal with bratty/sassy/whiny/demanding Eiden and Rei.

I need to see Dante's soul get sucked ouut his dick by EiRei.

The end of the event where EiRei teased Dante lingers in the back of my head.

The fact that they will egg the other on when teasing kills me. If Rei starts something Eiden is right there making it worse.

Where are they . . . I need them . . . . . . ( ＿ ＿)ノ｜

[mc-critical]

1.10 / 1.09

[forcebookish]

it hurts me deeply that gun has never been in the closet but is still ashamed of being gay like his mom did such a number on him that he internalizes everything, assumes he makes everyone uncomfortable or they regard him with disgust, and just lets his employees make homophobic comments and baselessly accuse him of sexual harassment

[fizzyghosts]

Hywel is inspired by a mix of my issues with stories with nonhuman protagonist/about nonhumans becoming human AND vet posts ive seen warning people about the dangers of anthropomorphisizing animals. Its fine to joke about your pets doing things out of spite or other human emotions, it does put you at risk of not being able to read their body language correctly. Cats dont cry out of sadness, a cat crying, with actual tears streaming down its face, is a sign of a medical issue. A dog smiling isn't doing it bc its happy, it means its nervous. Not being able to spot these is bad, and sometimes even dangerous, for you and the animal.

If you never get past Hywel's human appearance and treat him like one its like getting a reactive dog, doing zero research or training, and then taking it to a dog park. If Hywel mauls someone in town then its on you.