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Out of curiosity, how long did it take you guys to beat isat?
I ask because I've heard that the playtime is around 30 hours but........
I feel like that's severly underestimating my dedicaction to dilly-dallying
#in my defense i do have a bad habit of leaving games idling whilst i go and do other stuff like cook dinner#i feel like this is kinda taking the cake tho#and i know for a fact this game has 6 acts#isat liveblog#isat#this is why i cant do speedrunning
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two very different experiences were had
#hollow knight#z talks#neither less enjoyable than the other <3#1 is my very first save where ive done Everything. except for like radiant bosses (and absrad on ascended lmao i just cant do itâŚ)#and like. when i bought this game i Sucked at it. HOURS learning every boss. when i first beat thk (no voidheart) i was already at like#60 or 70 hours#and then obviously the fucking Pantheon Grind#i cannot tell you how many fucking hours ive sunk into p5. and its all on that save#and then the second is the save i started like. 3 days ago#after several failed steel soul saves lmaoo#i was intending to get the steel soul + steel soul 100% + speed 100% in one go#but then started this one to Just get the speed 100% one#and as i was approaching 10 hours i was already basically 100%ed. so i was like. why not go for 112 then. and that i did <3#finished it off with a good ol dream no more just for the finality of it#i am now Emotionally Drained#god this game#it was by no means a speedrun but it Was like. semi routed#and by that i mean i sat down beforehand and made a map on my ipad of all the things i needed and wouldnt necessarily Remember#(including stuff like relics for money)#oh yea and i also ended up grinding coloseum 2 for unbreakable strength. that probably took up an hour or two
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i love being such a subhuman freak i scare my mom so bad she nearly throws up
#cicadas vent tag#hi.#just had a level 4 catastrophic meltdown it was GREAT#(it was not)#my mom was just telling me all the things i tell myself about like. loneliness and friends and shit#yall know the michi lore i wont rehash it#and i got really pissed and we screamed at each other#it got so bad i ended up telling her about my suicidal ideation#and she said i was ungrateful and should go in a psych ward so like. if i disappear u know why now i guess#i als grabbed her by the shoulders and shook her which i know i shouldnt have done because she IS a good mom#but idk#i just couldnt help myself#maybe i am just like the cicaderations... nothing but a wild animal#man#ugh#and i cant even have proper suicidal ideation about it because that's part of the problem#part of why im an ungrateful ingrate#and she eneded up crying in my arms about how much i scared her which#yeah didnt impact me at all thanks mom#do love hr tho#idk#god i wish i was better#OH AND IT WAS IN PUBLIC TO#AT THE POOL I WORK AT#im speedrunning getting fired bro#and im probably never gonna get better either..... hashtag lol#ill stay lonely and friendless forever probably#FUCK!!!!!
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forcing myself to look in the mirror and forcing myself to remember it was in fact me who decided i wanted to reread this even though i knew exactly what was waiting for me at the end of this book
#honestly. the thing is that this plot twist is very good in itself like i cant name any other ya series#that would have the balls to pull off a genuinely sickening twist like this. like yeah it's very upsetting thats the POINT!!#however i think the darkness and tone of this plotline doesnt fit the rest of the story and thats why its misinterpreted so often#like it's literally jace's lifelong abuser gaslighting him to keep him under his control. that's literally it#it's not fetishised or portrayed as smth desirable at all in fact jace like immediately becomes suicidal bc of it lmfao#however. bc of the way jace and clary are portrayed as characters its too easy to read it in that weird almost romanticising way i think#and i have to say sometimes this woman does write the worst freakish things imaginable! she does have to be put on a watch list she does!!!#but i do think most of the criticism for the plotline is kind of inaccurate. i think the core issue isnt the plotline#it's that the writing wasn't good enough to pull it off as intended#anyway. time to read that lovers to siblings speedrun in coa and then regret typing all of this#vic reads tmi
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its cute kondo and hijikata both have fireball attacks but i wanna know why the fuck tokugawa has a whole fucking flamethrower
#ishin spoilers#spoilers#i cant remember if nagakura has electricity only or fireballs also#but anyway its cute cause its like 'aw theyre so in sync they even have the same ki attack'#but also Why Do They Have Ki Attack WHY DOES TOKUGAWA HAVE THE KAMEHAMEHA#or like. idfk there's no red lasers in dragonball you ever realize that#like the galick gun's purple but i refuse to attribute anyting ve6eta related to daigo#but back on topic like everyone else having elemental attacks can make sense since tennen rishin is like. A Sacred Art or whatever so fine#so why the shogun got it bro đ#the tokugawa fight was actually so funny i love it genuinely#i wanna play it again but 1.) im not there yet in my replay/speedrun#2.) i told my bro he could steal my account for the week so he could play#3.) i should prepare for my exam tomorrow morning đ its just economics tho so
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Pressure is such a good game, but good lord what the hell have they done to Roblox.
#why cant i see all the games within a section instead of just the trending ones???#also they took away the original songs on speedrun 4- i know its cause of copyright but cmon its not the same đ#why does majority of the items cause robux now?? i know it's cause greed but like even the classic cost 2-7 that shit should be free#hell some of the items i have as a kid now cost like- 500 to 700 robux like the hell?#<- coming from someone who never spent a dime on this game#also- marketplace??? why are they trying to be like tf2 or something i dunno that many games with marketplaces#might just being a grouchy adult tho- although they definitely do need more free items
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losing my mind this yearâs tntduo wine stream is most likely going to happen at 11pm PST (10am my time) ⌠thats in the middle of my fucking chem final đđ
#WHY IS IT SO LATEEE#i get that they had to cram it in there after wilâs concert bc quackity is going to the game awards tonight#and wilbur needs to keep traveling for his tour#and they cant do it earlier because i dont think wilbur would perform the biggest venue of his life#while white girl wasted on red wine#but omfg#rambles of a mad man#im going to speedrun my exam to watch it on time idc idc (((((/j))))
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#this is why i cant do speedruns this stuff always happens to me!! lmao!!#flashing#flashing lights#pulsing lights
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Today on Elden Ring bs
I wanted to go grab some more Runes AND do so fighting Fortisax which I havenât done yet
yeah anyway i just lost 160k runes because i did something else since Fia wouldnt go to sleep even though I took every step listed and restarted the game 3 times and not even Dâs brother shows up to murder her so nothing is happening there and now Iâm poor
i just decided not to go all Frenzied Flame and save that for the next run of âkill everything and everyoneâ but i am feeling very much âchaos reignsâ right now thanks fia
#txts#lady just SLEEP PLEASE#well now it wont work anyway and its a next time but but dear fucking gods above and below why#i wanted to go do millicents quests some more and still have to kill the putrid spirit rot shit up in the tree#yeah the lil pests just ganked me w/ their threads twice because they are rly fond of that ability apparently#and it took like 90%of my health after one round which.....sir how the fuck did that happen i put on some actually decent armor here for onc#anyway salt is real and i may never level up again#am i overlevel? yes#i wanna use everything at some point thank you#i do wanna keep a file for a ng+ run for when the dlc comes#so i dont have to redo everything#but so i also dont have some super insane boss scaling#so i guess i'll speedrun the frenzy flame bits in a new base game#yes yes i am slow i still havent done it shush i dont want things to be over and also#many games can be played within the same time v-v#or...cant as seen here lol#anyhow rip me and now back to it#i got nothing to lose anymore after all (:
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I have two (2) of the most unbearable tasks known to man kind (putting away laundry and packing for a trip) that i have to rn
#i dont want to do anything đ#why cant i just sleeOH MY GOD ITS 10:42???#im so tired. maybe i can speedrun this in 20 min#soup spills
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seeing a speedrun of botw all dungeons and even like that .... its so strange how soulless totk feels to me when botw didnt, allthough it feels much flatter to me now since i know there wasnt any thought put into the things i thought were meaningful and that it will go nowhere in the end
and yet still it feels like its got soul that totk just hasnt; botw is far from perfect, like everything really, but totk to me really feels like a clunky grind game with no trust in the player at all, be it puzzles or 'story', and a fundamental missunderstanding of why botws world design and structure worked well as a whole in the end
i honestly still cant quite understand how on earth botw got totk as its 'sequel', all the things that needed work in botw where neglected or made worse totk while it also failed to follow up on literally anything in a meaningful way- when i still think the changes it needed where so OBVIOUS and the directions to follow up and expand on things to enhance not just the sequel but also botw in retrospect where so plenty and ready for the taking, it hurts me still even to think about it not being done and everything really being actively thrown away for NOTHING or things that make it AND botw WORSE in retrospect instead
i wont ever be able to forgive that, and some part of me hopes that this is the worst that they will ever do so at least we will get better games again in the future
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#ganondoodles rants#ALSO totk has such a weird vibe of ... virality(??) to it#like some things really do feel like it was primarily made bc a few people would built fucked up shit in it that would go viral#like free marketing#like clickbait or fake closing x symbols in mobile gacha game ads#also the story sucks so bad in totk....... if you can even call it that#flyers of the same few sentence of made up story of divine right of kings propaganda stuck on every wall suddendly simulator#that ends in nothing#literally everythings the same except for we made the princess doubting her divine right kingdom believe in it again woohoo#hhhh seeing botw and it just made me mad about totk again#whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy#you could have been so much yet you chose to be nothing instead
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sitting here thinking about the last decade and how tonight really is End Of An Era... esp for those who's character deeply cares about Solas (either friendship, or romance, or rivalry, or hatred or whatever else!) because like. We are FINALLY going to find out. We waited basically the same length of time that is being skipped in-universe to Find Out. Anyone who asks "why would your character still care that much after 10 years, don't you think that's unrealistic" well buddy its been the SAME DECADE for me on the outside and here i am still just as obsessed with this miserable elf.
but anyone who plays the games after this point ISN'T GOING TO HAVE TO WAIT... not ten years not 1 year not even a week if they don't want. they're gonna be able to load up DA:V right after they finish Trespasser if they wish. what the fuck???? insane. i think actually we should make them wait AT LEAST a month to go wild on speculation as a speedrun of what we have been Enduring on our own...
anyway im feelin some kinda Way i guess.... thank u everyone who has been following this blog for any amount of the almost-decade i've had it up... i started it after it became clear my Solas and Dragon Age obsession was eclipsing every other single thing on my main blog (which is @songofsaraneth hi that username is me when it likes/comments on your stuff) and HERE WE ARE. damn. its been an honor. i cant actually do the saluting emoji here bc i am using an iOS from like 2018 still but imagine i have inserted it
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yknow now that i think about it, if mystic messenger wasn't so loyal to traditional gender roles it would not have the issue of "female character does emotional labor for the male characters and puts up with their bs"
if only mc was not stuck in a traditional role of "soft nurturer girl" and able to be a lot more proactive and take on the "protector" role instead
i read an amazing honkai star rail analysis on gender identity in aventurine's story and loved that it basically reverses the roles ; which is, as the author of that analysis said, probably one of reasons why he is a popular character amongst ladies . why cant cheritz do the same ? i honestly think it could really benefit the narrative!
cheritz needs to realize that by liberating our fem mc from traditional gender roles it will give her more power and make the issue i began this post with almost nonexistent. y'all alrdy have two canonically queer characters, you might as well stop with the archaic gender normsđits okay for her to be the knight instead of the damsel in distress
it's especially frustrating when its with characters like saeyoung, who, in my opinion, require protection more than actually being the protector lol . (hes also one of the two before mentioned queer characters so this gender norm issue is especially confusing in his route)
this is one of the reasons why i like hana from the webtoon !! shes more proactive and bold, which also leads to her basically speedrunning seven's whole "im too dangerous for you go away" shenanigans
and again we circle back to "if only mystic messenger mc was non-binary" 𼲠.... these issues would be nonexistent
#mysme#mystic messenger#luciel choi#707#saeyoung choi#mysme 707#mystic messenger 707#mysme saeyoung#fandom
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hello everyone welcome to i talk about benrey for a minute here
as someone whoâs watched the entirety of hlvrai at least 6 times, the full vods at least 3, and the cast commentary hovering somewhere around 10, i consider myself to be pretty well-versed in the series. i also kin benrey. this is probably important to my perception of him.
the series is about self-aware AI.  its in the title! so it seems obvious enough to me that Benrey was programmed to be the final boss. he was SUPPOSED to be a silly character that antagonizes the protag and throws off the group dynamic, and then itâs a big reveal and you get to beat up this guy that was mean to you!
but he doesnt wanna. hes self aware.
Of all the characters, i think Bubby and Tommy are the most âpowerfulâ in that they were able to break their characters the most. Tommy is a bit of a wild card because he doesnât usually act like an AI. I view him as the âcharacter youâre supposed to protectâ in the party, but somewhere along the way he, too, became self-aware and figured out how to handle his own. I think thatâs where the age thing comes in. He was programmed to be a 5-year-old that youâre trying to get out of this dangerous facility! but he didnât want to be a 5-year-old, heâs smarter than that, heâs capable! so he changed it. Him being the son of Gman also probably helped with him being able to just do that.
I take Bubby and Dr. Coomer as both being tutorial characters. Dr. Coomer is a bit broken, but he still does his best to teach you about things. I think heâs the tutorial NPC that goes âwatch out for [x]â and âwe can use ropes to cross big pits!â and âwe should call them Peeper Puppies!â while Bubby was supposed to be the âhereâs how you shoot a gunâ
Like, Dr. Coomer does the knowledge about the world, and Bubby does the action. for the video game. And Bubby is supposed to be kinda cold to you, because the action-tutorial NPCs tend to be. Like âwhat you cant even hold your own? tch, guess ill have to teach you.â But Bubby doesnât do that. He doesnât WANT to play the game, he wants to go back home. He liked it before the game was switched on. So he doesnât teach Gordon shit and just tries to speedrun so the player will leave and he can go back home.
one little scene that stood out to me so much was when the crew is sitting around in a circle with the pigeons. not outside, the other scene with them sitting in a circle and thereâs pigeons. why are there 2 of those.
anyways, Benrey is just staring at this pigeon behind Gordon, and singing to it, calmly. And then thereâs a loud beep that sounds like the vox, and definitely doesnt come from Benrey. and he suddenly gets up and shoots the pigeon. That reads SO HARD like he was being too soft with the game world, so it pushed him to do something evil randomly. Like a little villain reboot.
Almost everything he does to antagonize Gordon can be read as genuine confusion. He kills random NPCs because he knows theyre not important, and that they canât feel anything, and that theyâll only slow the teamâs progress. And what makes Gordon so mad at him is how often Benrey says Gordon shouldnt be allowed in here. I take that as a similar stance to Bubby. Benrey doesnât want to be the villain. He doesnât want the player to progress and make him. That gets more obvious the closer we get to the end, and most people tend to notice it in the last scenes before Xen, where heâs suggesting they go all the way back, and basically begging the player to stop here, at least for a little while.
its really sad, honestly. but i take the cast commentary bits as canon. Which makes it adorable when Benrey comes back into the movie theatre with Gordon and we get
âI wonder what will happen. I bet you know what happens!â
âI win!!!â
He did win. He got to get past being the final boss. He got to join the epilogue. I think, he probably wasnât supposed to be able to. But these guys broke the game enough that he could. Isnât that sweet? Isnât that a nice ending for him? I think he deserves it.
Wayne says he acts like âhe isnât aware unless heâs being spoken toâ and I think that fits really well. Like, sometimes his actions are coded into his behavior, so he does them without realizing. And then the player interacting with him (which is the premise of the self-awareness) forces him to actually look at what he did, and sometimes he has no idea how to explain it. Leading to his âhuh?â
listen to me. are you listening. i need you to hear this. i need more people to understand benrey. and how much i love him. hes trapped in the narrative, doomed by it to be the villain. but he doesnât want to be. he clearly cares about the crew in his own silly goofy way. he doesnât want to fight them. i wrote down everything he said in the finale, and he only says 5 outright malicious lines, all of which are directly after an unnatural pause, like heâs being rebooted again. Some important lines: âI knew this was gonna happen,â
âStop shooting at me, I have to shoot back, I donât wanna do that,â
âI didnât have a big plan, I was supposed to be nice, but you forced me to be BAD so Iâm gonna be BAD⌠friend.â the small, quiet âfriendâ there gets me every time. even after everything, even after his nature is revealed, he wants to believe theyre still friends.
âDonât go in there, please⌠I donât like that room." The amount of times he sounds so genuinely sad when asking them to stop, or even just saying âbro..â like heâs mourning the friendship they couldâve had. The amount of times he sounds genuinely pained when heâs glitching out and stretching across the screen.
And his last words, said childishly of course, but,
âThis isnât fair.â
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maybe if i play y7 ill be normal <- played y7 four times this weekend, a decidedly not normal thing
#snap chats#'snap how many times can you play y7 in a week before youre tired of it' do you wanna find out together#i had a horrible night last night. ok not a WHOLLY horrible night but something trash did happen and i woke up still groggy bout it#i dont like sulking about the past but sometimes i cant help it and it aint fair to myself to act like i can help it. sometimes.#i gotta be candid just for my sake last night i got real upset with my friend because when i say she tests me She Really Does#and i hate getting angry cause then i just feel like my mom and at that point i figure itd be better if i slipped on ice and broke my spine#generally im good at controlling my temper but everything just testing me and i broke down and it was embarrassing as hell â ď¸â ď¸#so yeah thats gonna bother me for a few days LMAO#'snap it aint that deep' it AINT and thats why its so annoyin cause i KNOW it aint that deep yet i still cant argue away how i feel#all i can do is try to ignore it... like plying y7 for the 11th time.....#i cant ply it now tho i told myself id work on a commission a bit so. maybe later...#i already started another file yesterday- or was it two days ago ???? idk i just know im up to chap 5 in it#chap 5 always give me a damn headache its so LONG at the very least the benefit to having my friend over and raising my blood pressure#is that i start to remember things to do from a y7 speedrun. like i dont hound her on what to do obvi i just let her play#its just lil notes to myself. tho she does tell me to give her tips and exploits when i can LMAO#anyways.. im gonna go work ig and try to feel like crummy bye bye#i wanna stream.. maybe i will this evening before my evening class.. lol.. we'll see but probably not
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Bruh I have been working on one school project for last 2weeks. So I wanna do little self insert and do y/n whos overworking and need a break (yautja one is funny)
Sfw May be read as platonic or romantic, theres some dialogue pronouns they/them Request open
Slashers with overworking y/n
Myers Micheal
Our nonverbal king is going to pick up y/n and put them in beb
No mor funny Sience for today young lady
If they dont stop after he will steal their books or keyboard
"Micheal can you help me reach my notebook? For SOME reason its on highest shelf in KITCHEN?" (I wonder how that happen) đ§ââď¸
He wont help btw
Billy Lenz
He needs atention!!!!aaaaa!!!!
Doesnt like the whole 'project' or 'study' he litteraly lived in atticc of dorm he is over all this learning bsđ
Yeah big suprise billy doenst like schools and overall smart people
Will cuddle her till she falls asleep! They deserve sleep
If y/n refuses to get some rest he will sit in backround just starin at their soul
Asa Emory (Collector)
Asa has sience degree(canon btw, he is an entomologist) so he had to learn a lot of stuff in his youth
But like cmon hon u cant sit there 24/7 and have only bathroom breakesđ
"Asa where is my book? I swear I put it somewhere here-" *Asa death stare* "đ¨oki imma go bed nowđ"
Yeah they better go to bedđ btw if y/n is learning subject like biology or chemistry he will read it to sleep. He loovees chemistry trust him its just a hobbyđ
Asa is an icon he will study stuff y/n is trying to pass rn and will test them later
Yautja
"Mate why you looking at this peace of paper for few hours now? Youre eyes wanna go bad?" "Its a book it helps me learn" "mmm no i dont think so. Go outside"
Man really did use 'go touch grass' technique on them
Will try to get their attention by stealing their stuff
Will make them go lay down and do anything else but studing/working
They basicly have to tell their co-workers that their big cat(obviously they cant say that they have huge alien in home) needs to be taken care of cuz its sick atm
Also somone commented(on previous fic) that Yautja saying 'Mate' sounds british and now I cant stop thinking about british yautja
Brahms Heelshie
"Do you really have to pass that exam/this project?"
Look he loves them, but their work wont stop them from doing chores!! It cant noo!!! (Brahms will evaporate if they forgor like half of chore)
He misses spending free time with them (especially cooking. I recomend my other hc where brahms eats raw potato, i love self advertaisment)
So please speedrun ur work or he will commit crying in corner
#slasher x reader#slasher headcanons#billy lenz#billy lenz x reader#micheal myers#brahms heelsire#brahms x reader#micheal myers headcanons#micheal myers x you#micheal myers x reader#asa emory x reader#asa emory#collector x reader#the collector x reader#brahms headcanons#brahms heelsire x reader#billy lenz x y/n
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