#this is where I go full fandom brain
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love this. I seem to remember in Buffy or Angel, maybe when talking about hell dimensions, they say that there is not just one, but loads of them, and I always figured something similar for heaven dimensions. the Buffyverse in general is kind of frustrating when it comes to religion (after Tara dies and Buffy talks about justice and cosmic rules in vague and frustrating surety; why do crosses do that to vampires though; most of the Powers That Be and especially how they act up in Angel), but the idea that there might be thousands of dimensions a human could stumble into and mistake for a heaven or a hell depending on who they are is a really juicy idea (dimension where everything is shrimp, anyone? definitely hell).
like you said, Buffy remembers that in "heaven" she knew everyone was safe, but... that is definitely false. so I think either 1) Buffy was being lied to and the "heaven" she was in was telling her what she wanted to hear, 2) she felt like everyone was safe/fine because she had fully detached from mortality/reality (like the way an unfeeling god would say life and death are just two states of blah blah blah, like everything will be "fine" because she sees all suffering as small and temporary) or 3) she is, after the fact, adding that idea to her memory, either consciously or unconsciously, to alleviate the guilt that she wasn't thinking about her friends anymore, at all (she is trying to express that she was content and realizes, guiltily, that she should not have been relaxed, even upon death, because she feels so obligated to save people. yikes.) I think all of these ideas are terrifying, especially being presented as heaven, as the most perfect reward Buffy can imagine for herself.
I think it just speaks to how traumatized and tired and kind of numb Buffy is at this point. anything in contrast to Sunnydale was going to feel like heaven to her because she lives in hell. maybe it was just the cessation of pain - after so many years of constant fear and bruises and broken bones, maybe just being nothing at all felt like heaven, and that's what she's trying to express
I really like After Life (and, specifically, that scene of Buffy admitting to Spike she wasn't trapped in a hell dimension that I just reblogged). I think I would probably put it somewhere in my top five episodes of Season 6 (along with Dead Things, Bargaining and [somewhat lower down the list] Tabula Rasa and Doublemeat Palace).
And yet, as I've said before, I really don't like the way that some fans take it as canon that Buffy literally was in heaven (and that, in particular, something like the popular Christian notion of heaven exists in the Buffyverse despite everything else the show has ever said or will say about it; or that Buffy would go there by virtue of being a virtuous person despite her very explicitly not being at all religious ["note to self: religion, freaky" in Season 2, or telling Holden Webster in Season 7 that there was "nothing solid" to suggest God exists].
I really like the metaphorical reading of this part of Season 6, in which The Gift ended with Buffy making an (ultimately unsuccessful) suicide attempt, and in which she resents her friends for not letting her die, and in which she considers her life in Sunnydale to be a (metaphorical) hell which she compares unfavourably to some nebulous feeling of being 'complete' and 'finished' which she experienced after The Gift. But I just don't think the show is better if you start adding things like a literal heaven to the world's lore. something that nobody had ever even suggested as existing before this season. (I kind of loathe the whole concept of The Powers That Be on Angel for much the same reason; it just doesn't feel like it belongs in the setting the show had previously established).
The thing is, I think Buffy's speech in After Life works just as well -- arguably, even better -- if you don't assume she's right about actually being in heaven. I mean, we know she's wrong to have thought that "everyone [she] cared about was all right". We've just watched Bargaining, after all. Not only is everyone in Sunnydale in very real physical danger without a Slayer to protect them, all of Buffy's surviving friends and her kid sister and her Watcher are all manifestly miserable without her. Plus they'd still have had to deal with the Trio and (almost certainly) Willow's growing reliance on magic [even without the big resurrection spell, are you seriously suggesting Willow wouldn't keep using magic more and more if she lived on a Hellmouth with no Slayer?]. And all the money problems Buffy will find out about later would still have been an issue without her coming back to life! Were they going to send the Buffybot to work a second job to pay the bills? Were they going to send Dawn? And that's not even mentioning Angel, or asking about the people Buffy loved who have already died [are they in heaven too?]. I actually think it's more accurate to say that nobody Buffy cares about was all right while she was gone.
But After Life works because, to Buffy, none of that is relevant in the moment. She convinced herself that the people she loved would be better off without her when she jumped in The Gift, and now -- freshly emerged from her own grave, having been cheated by her best friends of her one chance to quit being The Slayer, told that she can't just pass on the impossibly hard task of living in the world to her sister -- of course she's going to keep believing it. Of course she's going to try to believe it for as long as she can. Because the alternative is admitting that she herself is still needed, and that she can't give up on the world just yet. And she really, really doesn't want to have to do that. Arguably she won't do it until Grave at the end of the season.
The important part of After Life isn't that Buffy thinks she was in heaven; it's that she's convinced the world around her is hell.
#btvs#buffy#buffy the vampire slayer#buffyverse#text#I ship buffy x suffering#this is where I go full fandom brain
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You know the brain rot is bad because I just watched Klaus (2019) and my immediate thought was to search AO3 for fics when I was done. Jesper is so whumpable, you don’t understand.
#I know it’s still spooky season#but I kept seeing clips of it on TikTok#so I gave in and watched it#fandom#fanfiction#ao3 fanfic#klaus#klaus 2019#Jesper#there were two specific scenes where my brain lit on fire and was like#this would be perfect for whump#1: when they two warring groups were working together and the lady was like#we need to make him pay#like what a great whump opportunity to have them beat him up#2: when he holds onto the sleigh to prevent it from going over the edge bc he thinks it’s full of the toys#like can you imagine if he actually went over#anyway#yes I’m insane#thanks for asking#the brainrot is real
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“I have this scene in my head for my fic that I really love but i don’t feel like writing all of the other stuff to get to it.”
I see this comment like 5 times a day in fic writing spaces lol
a scene that you don’t want to write is a scene you don’t want to read. don’t write stuff you don’t want to read.
me, personally: wait until the scenes that get you to that first initial scene you were excited about are just as interesting as that scene too. it won’t be the first, second, or third thing you think of. if u have a scene you really want to write, write that, and keep writing only those exciting scenes that come to you. eventually you have a million interesting scenes for your fic and they become puzzle pieces for you to arrange and then eventually the strings come together and you realize you really do have an interesting way to get to that original scene, and you’re just as excited to write it, if you haven’t already written it when you were brainstorming other scenes earlier in the writing process that you didn’t even realize could carry your story like that.
#My process is 1) write the initial scene — the first one I thought of that inspired the fic#2) daydream (preferably to a custom playlist) and write ONLY THE DIALOGUE that I like from my daydreams#3) discover common threads while daydreaming and thus discover a theme#4) now that I have my theme; my favorite dialogue lines; and my inspiration scene I begin drafting#Drafting includes writing around the dialogue and filling in the gaps with action#I find that dialogue drives my plot usually but I’m trying to get better at throwing chaotic events at my characters#and forcing them to respond to circumstances beyond their control/beyond the consequences of their choices#Drafting is also the point where I start writing only the exciting stuff and stringing it all together like a lunatic#5) once you have enough scenes to string together and you’ve put the puzzle together: reread and revise#6) put it down and don’t touch it dont think about it don’t do anything to it for like at least 3 days to 1 week#7) reread with fresh eyes and revise again#8) repeat steps 6 and 7 until you have desired fic#Sometimes if I really don’t like the way a story is working though I’ll play around with scenes#like “what if I remove this scene? How does that affect things? Is this a loadbearing scene in the story or is it superfluous?”#“What if I delete chapters 5-15 and just totally rewrite everything in that space”#that one is a rough one to go through and is the reason why I have some fics that have never seen the light of day 😂#this is all coming from pre-2021 ghostlycod#back when I was in the marvel fandom and writing 100k self insert OC fanfics#14-18 year old me wrote like an Ancient Greek poet#pure genius masterpieces with masterclass articulation#and idk what happened but it’s like at 25 I’ve suddenly gone brain dead#I envy 14 year old me so much when I’m writing now#That girl was just humming along to Lorde on repeat creating multiple full length novels at the same time all written with English Premium
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At all times I am thinking about “person surrounded by robots who inexplicably look like them, so no one believes them when they say they’re not a robot”
Currently it’s taking the form of a person (A) stumbling into a part of the galaxy where there’s a line of robots that coincidentally look almost identical to them, and this person gets snatched up by a group who wants them to use that to go undercover against the group’s opposing enemies
Rn really focusing on one of the opposing group’s leaders (B) really liking the “robot” (even if it makes them feel skeevy for liking a robot of all things so much) and when it comes out that A is actually working with B’s enemies, B is still not aware that A is actually an actual person, instead thinking that the group must have reprogrammed A at some point, and they want them back
It’s about to be a very awkward negotiation meeting for A
#trying to avoid using ‘villains’ and ‘heroes’#cause in this scenario there isn’t a clear divide of right and wrong#both groups have good things to fight for#and both groups are full of kinda asshole-ish people#it’s a fun thought#but I also have to keep fighting my brain because this is the kind of scenario#where it can easily go from humor to horror in so so *so* many ways#no fandom#robots#humans#well. sorta.#humanish people in fantasy space
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See. In addition to my last post with the "many thoughts.. perhaps too many thoughts" one of those thoughts is I'm now sort of experiencing the 'downfall' of letting myself get into so many different fixations is that I am getting hit with the urge to watch or rewatch several things at once! Which. When I say it like that it doesn't sound that bad at all. Actually. I guess having a marathon day of just Indulging probably wouldn't be that bad at all because I'd essentially just be smothering myself in good feelings. But the thing stopping me is I also have the idea implanted in my mind that I probbbabbbllyyy shouldn't spend like eight hours or however long just staring at TV. And while that's probably not a Bad Idea to follow, having just one little marathon day probably won't be Bad. And it's not like I'm getting grossly fixated on a new media where it Might Be Bad cause I might start.. ahem.. neglecting some things over Indulging In Fixation. It's just gonna be me paying some revisits.....
#truthfully I probably wont even. stick it all into one day. my brain already spins around so many different blorbos at once sometimes.#I dont know. it entirely depends on how i feel in the moment with what i do or dont want to watch.#I've also been thinking a lot about D.octor Who again and. Think I mightve regenerated the strength to perhaps watch another-#-episode or two..................#And I had some crazy wacky slightly scary dream last night where to chill out I ended up going to N.ight at The Museum and so like.#That's got me wanting to go and rewatch that a bit. At Least the first movie.#And I already mentioned C.ars in the last post but I don't think C.ars needs to be mentioned at all anyway#At least I'm safe from S.trangwglove. i say as if he wasnt first soothing thought after wacky slightly spooky dream.#Man I've been having weird spooky dreams lately(i say entirely knowing why. abnormally obtusely stressed.)#uhm. I am not tagging this. NO I just listed like three or four different blorbo fandoms I'm not also going to be going througg-#-The S.tanley Parable all over again. I already occasionally have Narrator uhm. Narrating.#and I'm not even going to let myself think about G.ood Omens at the moment.#Blorbo Backlog of Thoughts due to. recent unforseen catastrophic events and circumstances.#yeah my head is full but. so is my heart...m so it's okay. smiley face emoji.#i am. i am not tagging this. this is literally just Everything Ever except maybe one Blorbo Show.#And im sure that will cycle around in its own time.#Picture me in candy store oogling at all the different candy and wanting to grab and eat it all at once.#But also understanding that eating all the candy at once probably wont. taste good. but i still want it.#one. one piece at a time. i say untrustworthily. im not sure if that's a word but that's okay we know what it means anyway.#long post. long tags. long list of blorbos. this post mightve made the blorbo circulation worse. rattles my head.#jingles bell in front of my face so I can at least maybe pick one thing to give the forefront of my attention to again.
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How does one get assigned as sam coded / dean coded ? Do I need a doctors note ? A psych evaluation perhaps ?
#i keep going back and forth on it#bc i used to identify with dean for the longest time bc i was so repressed and emotionally closed off (+older sister)#and at that point id spent my youth very purposefully protecting my younger sibling from our dad#and i guess in my brain i paralleled that with dean staying behind with john while sam took off for stanford#and dean protecting sam from knowing too much abt the supernatural#BUT having grown up ive now become the one resentful and angry at our father while my sister protects him#and our fights remind me a lot of scenes from the show where im obviously identifying a lot stronger with sam#plus the whole thing abt being the families designated academic or whatever#while also feeling cursed from the minute i was born and crushing at the guilt of everything wrong with me#and trying to be a good person and saving others to make for the fact that i feel an intrinsic evilness about myself#so like... yeah sam is very very relatable too in that sense#bc he also has that hope in him- the belief in god. in angels. in goodness. and i have that too !#im just also a miserable cynic at the same time :)#so ????#i havent been in the fandom for long enough to know the full requirements of being a sam or dean girl#(and by that i mean i havent been in the fandom for long AFTER i rejoined from my 10 year hiatus)#i literally would love to read someones page long explanation of what sam coded vs dean coded entails#someone with a spn hyperfixation or special interest needs to provide me with the goods fr 😭#spn
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If there’s one thing I noticed in recent times when it comes to fan engagement with art and artists (TV shows, books, movies [franchises], etc.) is that a big factor in the downward spiral in media literacy and critically analyzing what we engage with is that a lot of people… feel sort of obligated to getting defensive for the specific things they like. And they assume any critique or criticism is a form of ill will or malice towards the piece.
Which I think is SUCH a terrible mindset to have when engaging with any piece of art or media, especially in a time where there’s this general push for dumber downed media for the masses to consume and likewise less critical thinking. I notice a pattern where there are people that will give a million disclaimers about how much they love the media they’re about to critique because they know the average fan will dogpile on them and assume it’s someone who doesn’t like the art that’s critiquing it. Or I notice when a subsection of fans of a media start critiquing it, there’s another crowd in the fandom that say “if you don’t like it so much, then why are you watching it 😒” even though that’s not the case, the critiques come from a place of love. That’s not right, it’s not good to have this general consensus that to love something means to ignore or outright accept glaring problems in relation to it.
We as audience members, we as fans of a certain thing, need to be able to be ok with the fact that the shows, movies, books, etc. we enjoy might have some negative elements to it that we HAVE to be critical of. Sometimes the thing we dislike is something as small as a trope we’re tired of seeing. Sometimes the thing we dislike is a LOT bigger, though, such as questionable messaging subconsciously implemented due to the writers’ internalized bias.
And honestly THAT is what matters most to me when it comes to this type of thing.
Because EVERYONE is susceptible to the subliminal propaganda in a piece. You, me, your neighbors, your parents, kids, the elderly, everyone. And even moreso when we choose not to question or challenge the things in the media or art being fed to us.
Why? Because to just accept any glaring problems in (with the example I’m typically using right now in this rant) a specific narrative purely because as a whole you like the story means that you are allowing that narrative—and likewise other narratives you’re bound to consume and internalize—make the decision on your thoughts and the decision on your principles and moral compass.
To combat that you have to do as I stated above: challenge those attributes of the story or art or whatever that are relaying questionable messages. Even if you, generally speaking, really like it.
QUESTION why that creator will depict women, or POC, or disabled ppl, or queer ppl, or another marginalized identity in the certain way that they do. QUESTION why a creator’s art relays a certain commentary on the systems of fascism, or capitalism, or the patriarchy, or police brutality, or any other oppressive system. Especially because this art and these stories we engage with don’t exist in a vacuum: what came before it to lay the foundations was experiences of the creator, what was there alongside its creation was the creator’s personal principles and ideals, and what comes after it is the impact it will leave on minds and ideologies it will spread.
I dunno, I say this because I enjoy critically analyzing the stories and the art that I love. I will watch a TV show or read a book and I will connect with a lot of aspects of it, I will love it, I will recommend it to others. However, I will also have long conversations with fellow fans (usually friends) about the pitfalls, I will take note of certain aspects of the story that were questionable choices, and I will view it with a critical eye. And maybe it’s just because I’m a writer myself, but I feel like being that nuanced and careful with how you view the art that you love, to praise AND critique it, is in itself a form of love or passion for the art.
And I really wish more people understood that? Especially when it comes to art, things aren’t black and white. They are allowed to be good and bad at the same time. Characters are allowed to be likable but also horrible people. And I feel that having this mindset of “I like it therefore I see it as perfect” is a very, VERY dangerous one to harbor.
#I don’t even know if this rant makes sense#but it’s been on my mind#I fear for the society we would be if ppl genuinely start turning off their brains to stuff like this#if you’re the type of person who tends to have a knee jerk reaction when you see others give (VALID OFC) criticism of a media you love#I implore you to not act on that reaction but instead sit in those feelings & consider the argument presented to you#art can control the masses#but only if we let it#it’s dangerous to think we’re above propaganda#and it’s dangerous to not deconstruct the propaganda even in the things we love#yes this includes your fun little escapist fantasy book#and yes it includes your little anime full of magic twinks#I could make whole essays on this topic tbh but like#it’s 2 in the morning rn AJDJFNAND#ik where I’d start tho for sure#but anywho I hope this made sense I just have SUCH a strong gripe when I see this stuff yk???#fandom#fandom spaces#I guess???? that would be the appropriate tag for this to get where I want it to go???
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mhmhm I gave someone a heartknot to someone but now when you go on a date you and the other character hold hands automatically if you're standing close enough/idle and my brain was just like ehhhhhh >:'D
I just mainly wanna see what else the character has to say/unlock and then after idk might undo/break up we'll see
edit: okay the date itself is fine/the character's responses that I picked are really fucking funny/sweet >:'D I just don't like the hand holding thing
#my time at sandrock#rambles#not quite crwling out of my skin but my brain did go OH D:#muffled laughing#'m at the point of story where I'm just like ?? wait is this actually gonna happen whAT#was resisting to go full in on fanfics till story was done but been reading here an dthere#and I love how fanfics give me this ambiguous like I think I kinda know what's happening(??) esp/ if you're not in the fandom haHA#like the elephant in the room that nobody talks about but if you know the fandom/thing then you know#and if you don't then you kinda just get a bunch of context clues/mentions that you sorta piece together haha#anyways
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What do you think about the lack of importance Edenia have in the last (and probably in the upcoming too) games?
Seriously, it makes me really Sad. Edenia was so important in the first timeline. What the hell happened? Only a few characteres mention this realm in MKX
It sucks. Big time
If you'll note, basically none of the realms matter anymore, aside from Earthrealm and Outworld.
Sure, the Netherrealm exists, but that's pretty much it. Dreamrealm is of dubious canonicity (introduced to explain Freddy Krueger as a guest fighter, then used to explain Tremor's glow up. Given he isn't shown in the storyline and arcade endings aren't canon in that game, I don't feel comfortable saying "yeah. That's important to the story"), and means nothing to the plot.
Chaosrealm and Orderrealm also don't show up despite being neat concepts.
What I'm getting at is that it makes the MK universe feel small. Edenia is only part of the problem, but I think it's a good example. Mortal Kombat feels more focused on nostalgia bait, Realistic Graphics, and more grisly Kombat than being, y'know, Mortal Kombat. None of that is necessarily Bad, but it's making it feel a little generic to me.
Maybe it's my bias and nostalgia, but that's just wrong. I'm not saying they need to bloat the worldbuilding, that would suck too. I'm just saying that they have these fun concepts, could they PLEASE do something with them???
Not to be the "they changed it, and now it sucks" guy, but I really love the original timeline's absurd worldbuilding. That's a major draw for me. Not only is it absurd, but it was constantly rolling and acquiring new and interesting bullshit. To me, that gave it a personality.
The original timeline feels like you took Enter the Dragon, the Matrix, Magic the Gathering, and classic slasher films, mixed it all up, then used it to bread and batter the gameplay. Deepfry that sonuvabitch until golden brown and serve it hot. Its the fried fish and hush puppies of gaming. I wouldn't say that it's Good For Me, but it's fucking delicious.
Its also not widely palatable and, just as Long John Silver's isn't exactly a big name restaurant, MK was kinda in a slump for a while, profit wise.
I think what happened is they cut back the weirder shit in order to make the games more popular. Its a chicken tender now. Not bad, but it's more of a "I'll take it if there's nothing better/nothing else I feel comfy eating" dish. Still not Good For Me, but often dressed up to seem healthier. By which I mean "able to be taken seriously by more people." The worldbuilding is more Serious ™️, so is the Gameplay. Don't get me started on the State Of The art Graphics.
Its all done this way for profit reasons. I don't doubt that folks on the team are still passionate about the games, but you can't forget that NRS is owned by a bigger company than Midway was. There's more executive meddling, so we see less of the more niche worldbuilding elements like Edenia
#gopher rambles#mortal kombat#To be clear; of the NRS games I've only played MKX. I have 11 but a few things#(game design; character design changes; plot stuff I know about through the fandom) have put me off it.#So just be aware that I'm not working with full knowledge of the whole sitch#also im very tired and this is more of a brain dump answer than anything. sorry dude#if you want me to clarify any of my thoughts let me know. im sure some of this is word salad.#long post#oof. damn sory for the rant. i just. have a lot of feelings about this whole deal. asking me about how i feel about an aspect#of the original timeline is a surefire way to make me ramble about shit i miss. I MISS THE WEIRDNESS. WEIRD SHIT WHERE FID YOU DO I MISS YOU#BABY COME BACK. EDENIA. CHAOSREALM. KENSHIS STUPID BABOON ASS AND RED CROTCH COMBO.#YOU WERE ALL SO SILLY WHAT HAPPENED#*fukin sobs* where did the time go?#im so sleepy. voodnight
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Honestly, knowing this event is (presumably) ending on my birthday is already the best gift I could ever get
#negative#from a viewer perspective it’s been a mixed bag#the lines between rp abd cc’s just goofing around feel really weird a lot of the time tho#which is more a me issue ig- idk- I still don’t know how I feel about this all and conflicts and stuff- I’ll have to wait and see#just rly wish it didn’t happen in the middle of so many big personal arcs#the streams have mostly been fun- cuz I the streamers are making it fun#from a fandom perspective it’s been hell and I want to go back to how things were before this badly-#not even in a ‘annoying fans’ way but a ‘wow everyone seems upset all the time’ way#anyone remember Halloween? Halloween was fun….#im just tired and nervous that this is gonna be a Doomsday level event where everything’s gonna be miserable for awhile fandom wise#but like……. I am The Worrier so- lol-#idk……. might try to force myself to take a break tomorrow- just not feeling it rn#can’t even like indulge in hyperfixes or pre-purgatory lore stuff cuz my brain feels weird/bad about it#( not anyone’s fault- my brain is just like that lol )#idk……….. maybe I’ll feel better after I get a full nights rest after tomorrow#vent#at least the fanart is great
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Being awake cancelled, my thoughts going "Man, isn't it crazy how rarely Rand had to get physical with Asmodean? It really was only the Rhuidean fight and then the first push of boundaries with the floating over wineglass (and trying to overjustify it of course. Especially funny with how the wise ones despite all their humiliation and tactics don't have a grip on Egwene. Or all the Aes Sedai "teachings" via switching and whatnot but well-"
My brain: "Man isn't it crazy how Rand has literally been less physical and overall abusive to a Forsaken-his sworn enemy- than your own mother has been to you?
brain is cancelled-this could have just been some fun thinking about both the style of writing/storytelling and also just how Rand deals with things (for now) while acknowleding the wildley different dynamics going on, but no, had to go for my own throat here hUH
#txts#for obvious reasons this isnt going in the fandom tag bc it doesnt rly fit there#i am more just#AGHAST at my own thoughts rn#like yes hi hello where the FUCK did THAT come from?#and yes it is crazy actually#pls also acknowledge the 'for now' bc i know Rand gets.....dark but we love him anyway#he gets better...he's fiiiiiiiine dw about it#fucking parents tho#i have been moved out for like...5 or 6 years and am in a wholeass other state#but apparently the brain remembers and is not fond of letting go#fair enough neither am I but that's still a wild correlation to make here and just leave me with#connecting it to the actual irl stuff that makes logical sense#i say being awake cancelled full well knowing i'll keep being awake#bc i....have not been tired for a bit so....just gotta exist for a while for now#anyway how are y'all doing?#adding onto this that yes rand is literally THE chosen one so even him being harsh is a threat implied#so fear and respect can become muddy even in general#but even with that my thoughts still stand bc *I* was already respecting my mother before hating her#fear prob was somewhere between that but i dont even remember it bc the hate part is just very all consuming there-lest i forget i guess lo#so even with the bag of negative emotions and connotations-overall#still doing better than me irl#the bar....it's so low
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Sometimes I feel like us as the bat family fandom forget how starry eyed people get about Nightwing canonically.
Because with the exception of early era Tim most of the Batkids are like. lol that’s my loser older brother or some variation of yeah…he’s some guy I guess? He helps me with homework?
And Nightwing is the canonically a center of multiversal light.
When Heroes meet Nightwing they do the vigorous handshake and the “it’s an honor to meet you sir, I have heard so much about you oh my god”
There are so many character where they are literally shown giggling and kicking their feet whenever Nightwing talks to them.
Even the people who don’t have the celebrity level worship of him respect the hell out of him and call him as soon as they need help.
From raven to Starfire to Superman to Superboy to all or the flashes there is so much respect and awe given to this one dude.
And it is deserved
But imagine you are Damian Wayne and you’ve been working with what 90% of the people you’ve met (all bats) have been calling an embarrassment to your father’s legacy.
Your mother hates him and your Grandfather doesn’t feel that strongly about him.
The red hood calls him an embarrassment and a coward and he couldn’t even keep Red Robin from running away.
Your father tells him that he never should have been Batman
And you’ve worked with him and you know what you think everyone is full of shit about him and you and him the new Batman and Robin are the best no matter what anyone says.
And fuck it the fact he keeps going in a suit that everyone tells him he’s not good enough for is scratching something in your brain that you’re refusing to acknowledge because why would you feel that way? You are the circus freak have nothing in common (shut up)
And then you meet the justice league and all the extended teams.
And people are falling over themselves to listen to a word out of your brothers, your Batman’s mouth. They wait for a nod or headshake and dictate decades worth of planning on it.
Both Drake and Todd’s hero teams ask him for advice with or without their designated bats presence.
The man of steel asks for child rearing advice and wonder woman cracks a joke about a spar
Newer heroes whisper about him in the halls
He’s literally your favorite hero’s favorite hero
And it’s breaking Damian’s Brain
Because well… he kinda gets slapped around in Gotham. He’s the butt of half the jokes the other Batkids make and Dick just smiles and takes it.
The rogues have a bounty on nightwings ass and he gets leered at by goons, rogues, civilians and anti-hero’s alike and he doesn’t say anything.
He lets oracle crack jokes about a pretty face and having to do everything herself
Let’s Jason run the alley despite the fact that apparently he knows how to take it back
Apparently he’s had 12 people tailing Drake since Paris and despite being the man Ra’s Al Ghul calls detective has yet to notice. (Because you can’t tell me Dick was just magically at the right place to catch Tim falling to his death on coincidence)
And necessary to peace talks because he’s the best they have at deescalation
Like imagine you are a child who was raised to believe power is this obvious, all consuming thing. That the ones who control the board are visibly larger than life figures who fought their way to the top and cling to power by even the thinnest hangnail if they had to.
People who ignore simpler morals or an overall greater goal or good
And then you’re taken in by the man who whispers the correct answers into the larger than life figures ear.
Like I feel like that would have such an impact because Dick didn’t take power from anyone to reach his goals, it’s why his siblings don’t really defer to him unless in crisis.
Dick didn’t take power, no people just looked at him and decided he was the best option to give it to.
Everyone basically looked at this kid and went, yeah you’re the future of all heroism.
And if that dude can’t even get Bruce Wayne’s respect what chance does Damian Wayne have
#dick grayson#nightwing#batman#batfam#damian wayne#Bruce inside his head: wow I love you I’m so proud of your achievements#Bruce externally: hmmm you were sloppy#tim drake#jason todd#batfamily#comics#bruce wayne#manipulative dick grayson#nightwing is your favorite hero’s favorite hero#don’t try me
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Fandom can do a little gatekeeping. As a treat.
So I finally decided to archive-lock my fics on AO3 last night. I’ve been considering it since the AI scrape last year, but the tipping point was this whole lore.fm debacle, coupled with some thoughts I’ve been thinking regarding Fandom These Days in general and Fandom As A Community in particular. So I wanna explain why I waited so long, why I locked my stuff up now, and why I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m a-okay with making it harder for people to see my stories.
Lurkers really are great, tho
I’m a chronic lurker, and have been since I started hanging out on the internet as a teen in the 00s. These days it’s just cuz I don’t feel a need to socialize very often, but back then it was because I was shy and knew I was socially awkward. Even if I made an account, I’d spend months lurking on message boards or forums or Livejournals, watching other people interact and getting a feel for that particular community’s culture and etiquette before I finally started interacting myself. And y’know, that approach saved me a lot of embarrassment. Over the course of my lurking on any site, there was always some other person who’d clearly joined up five minutes after learning the place existed, barged in without a care for their behavior, and committed so many social faux pas that all the other users were immediately annoyed with them at best. I learned a lot observing those incidents. Lurk More is Rule 33 of the internet for very good reason.
Lurking isn’t bad or weird or creepy. It’s perfectly normal. I love lurking. It’s hard for me to not lurk - socializing takes a lot of energy out of me, even via text. (Heck it took 12 hours for me to write this post, I wish I was kidding--) Occasionally I’ll manage longer bouts of interaction - a few weeks posting here, almost a year chatting in a discord there - but I’m always gonna end up going radio silent for months at some point. I used to feel bad about it, but I’ve long since made peace with the fact that it’s just the way my brain works. I’m a chronic lurker, and in the long term nothing is going to change that.
The thing with being a chronic lurker is that you have to accept that you are not actually seen as part of the community you are lurking in. That’s not to say that lurkers are unimportant - lurkers actually are important, and they make up a large proportion of any online community - but it’s simple cause and effect. You may think of it as “your community”, but if you’ve never said a word, how is the community supposed to know you exist? If I lurked on someone’s LJ, and then that person suddenly friendslocked their blog, I knew that I had two choices: Either accept that I would never be able to read their posts again, or reach out to them and ask if I could be added to their friends list with the full understanding that I was a rando they might not decide to trust. I usually went with the first option, because my invisibility as a lurker was more important to me than talking to strangers on the internet.
Lurking is like sitting on a park bench, quietly people-watching and eavesdropping on the conversations other people are having around you. You’re in the park, but you’re not actively participating in anything happening there. You can see and hear things that you become very interested in! But if you don’t introduce yourself and become part of the conversation, you won’t be able to keep listening to it when those people walk away. When fandom migrated away from Livejournal, people moved to new platforms alongside their friends, but lurkers were often left behind. No one knew they existed, so they weren’t told where everyone else was going. To be seen as part of a fandom community, you need to submit to the mortifying ordeal of being known, etc. etc.
There’s nothing wrong with lurking. There can actually be benefits to lurking, both for the lurkers and the communities they lurk in. It’s just another way to be in a fandom. But if that is how you exist in fandom--and remember, I say this as someone who often does exist that way in fandom--you need to remember that you’re on the outside looking in, and the curtains can always close.
I’ve always been super sympathetic to lurkers, because I am one. I know there’s a lot of people like me who just don’t socialize often. I know there’s plenty of reasons why someone might not make an account on the internet - maybe they’re nervous, maybe they’re young and their parents don’t allow them to, maybe they’re in a bad situation where someone is monitoring their activity, maybe they can only access the internet from public computer terminals. Heck, I’ve never even logged into AO3 on my phone--if I’m away from my computer I just read what’s publicly available.
I know I have people lurking on my fics. I know my fics probably mean a lot to someone I don’t even know exists. I know this because there are plenty of fics I love whose writers don’t know I exist.
I love my commenters personally; I love my lurkers as an abstract concept. I know they’re there and I wish them well, and if they ever de-lurk I love them all the more.
So up until last year I never considered archive-locking my fic, because I get it. The AI scraping was upsetting, but I still hesitated because I was thinking of lurkers and guests and remembering what it felt like to be 15 and wondering if it’d be worth letting a stranger on the internet know I existed and asking to be added to their friends list just so I could reread a funny post they made once.
But the internet has changed a lot since the 00s, and fandom has changed with it. I’ve read some things and been doing some thinking about fandom-as-community over the last few years, and reading through the lore.fm drama made me decide that it’s time for me to set some boundaries.
I still love my lurkers, and I feel bad about leaving any guest commenters behind, especially if they’re in a situation where they can’t make an account for some reason. But from here on out, even my lurkers are going to have to do the bare minimum to read my fics--make an AO3 account.
Should we gatekeep fandom?
I’ve seen a few people ask this question, usually rhetorically, sometimes as a joke, always with a bit of seriousness. And I think…yeah, maybe we should. Except wait, no, not like that--
A decade ago, when people talked about fandom gatekeeping and why it was bad to do, it intersected with a lot of other things, mainly feminism and classism. The prevalent image of fandom gatekeeping was, like, a man learning that a woman likes Star Wars and haughtily demanding, “Oh, yeah? Well if you’re REALLY a fan, name ten EU novels” to belittle and dismiss her, expecting that a “real fan” would have the money and time to be familiar with the EU, and ignoring the fact that male movie-only fans were still considered fans. The thing being gatekept was the very definition of “being a fan” and people’s right to describe themselves as one.
That’s not what I mean when I say maybe fandom should gatekeep more. Anyone can call themselves a fan if they like something, that’s fine. But when it comes to the ability to enjoy the fanworks produced by the fandom community…that might be something worth gatekeeping.
See, back in the 00s, it was perfectly common for people to just…not go on the internet. Surfing the web was a thing, but it was just, like, a fun pastime. Not everyone did it. It wasn’t until the rise of social media that going online became a thing everyone and their grandmother did every day. Back then, going on the internet was just…a hobby.
So one of the first gates online fandom ever had was the simple fact that the entire world wasn’t here yet.
The entire world is here now. That gate has been demolished.
And it’s a lot easier to find us now. Even scattered across platforms, fandom is so centralized these days. It isn’t a network of dedicated webshrines and forums that you can only find via webrings anymore, it’s right there on all the big social media sites. AO3 didn’t set out to be the main fanfic website, but that’s definitely what it’s become. It’s easy for people to find us--and that includes people who don’t care about the community, and just want “content.”
Transformative fandom doesn’t like it when people see our fanworks as “content”. “Content” is a pretty broad term, but when fandom uses it we’re usually referring to creative works that are churned out by content creators to be consumed by an audience as quickly as possible as often as possible so that the content creator can generate revenue. This not-so-new normal has caused a massive shift in how people who are new to fandom view fanworks--instead of seeing fic or art as something a fellow fan made and shared with you, they see fanworks as products to be consumed.
Transformative fandom has, in general, always been a gift economy. We put time and effort into creating fanworks that we share with our fellow fans for free. We do this so we don’t get sued, but fandom as a whole actually gets a lot out of the gift economy. Offer your community a story, and in return you can get comments, build friendships, or inspire other people to write things that you might want to read. Readers are given the gift of free stories to read and enjoy, and while lurking is fine, they have the choice to engage with the writer and other readers by leaving comments or making reclists to help build the community.
And look, don’t get me wrong. People have never engaged with fanfic as much as fan writers wish they would. There has always been “no one comments anymore” wank. There have always been people who only comment to say “MORE!” or otherwise demand or guilt trip writers into posting the next chapter. But fandom has always agreed that those commenters are rude and annoying, and as those commenters navigate fandom they have the chance to learn proper community etiquette.
However, now it seems that a lot of the people who are consuming fanworks aren’t actually in the community.
I won’t say “they aren’t real fans” because that’s silly; there’s lots of ways to be a fan. But there seem to be a lot of fans now who have no interest in fandom as a community, or in adhering to community etiquette, or in respecting the gift economy. They consume our fics, but they don’t appreciate fan labor. They want our “content”, but they don’t respect our control over our creations.
And even worse--they see us as a resource. We share our work for free, as a gift, but all they see is an open-source content farm waiting to be tapped into. We shared it for free, so clearly they can do whatever they want with it. Why should we care if they feed our work into AI training datasets, or copy/paste our unfinished stories into ChatGPT to get an ending, or charge people for an unnecessary third-party AO3 app, or sell fanbindings on etsy for a profit without the author’s permission, or turn our stories into poor imitations of podfics to be posted on other platforms without giving us credit or asking our consent, while also using it to lure in people they can datascrape for their Forbes 30 Under 30 company?
And sure, people have been doing shady things with other people’s fanworks since forever. Art theft and reposting has always been a big problem. Fanfic is harder to flat-out repost, but I’ve heard of unauthorized fic translations getting posted without crediting the original author. Once in…I think the 2010s? I read a post by a woman who had gone to some sort of local bookselling event, only to find that the man selling “his” novel had actually self-published her fanfic. (Wish I could find that one again, I don’t even remember where I read it.)
But aside from that third example, the thing is…as awful as fanart/writing theft is, back in the day, the main thing a thief would gain from it was clout. Clout that should rightfully go to the creators who gifted their work in the first place, yeah, but still. Just clout. People will do a lot of hurtful things for clout, but fandom clout means nothing outside of fandom. Fandom clout is not enough to incentivize the sort of wide-scale pillaging we’re seeing from community outsiders today.
Money, on the other hand… Well, fandom’s just a giant, untapped content farm, isn’t it? Think of how much revenue all that content could generate.
Lurkers are a normal and even beneficial part of any online community. Maybe one day they’ll de-lurk and easily slide into place beside their fellow fans because they already know the etiquette. Maybe they’re active in another community, and they can spread information from the community they lurk in to the community they’re active in. At the very least, they silently observe, and even if they’re not active community members, they understand the community.
Fans who see fanworks as “content” don’t belong in the same category as lurkers. They’re tourists.
While reading through the initial Reddit thread on the lore.fm situation, I found this comment:
[ID: Reddit User Cabbitowo says: ... So in anime fandoms we have a word called tourist and essentially it means a fan of a few anime and doesn't care about anime tropes and actively criticizes them. This is kind of how fandoms on tiktok feel. They're touring fanfics and fanart and actively criticizes tropes that have been in the fandom since the 60s. They want to be in a fandom but they don't want to engage in fandom
OP totallymandy responds: Just entered back into Reddit after a long day to see this most recent reply. And as a fellow anime fan this making me laugh so much since it’s true! But it sorta hurts too when the reality sets in. Modern fandom is so entitled and bratty and you’d think it’s the minors only but that’s not even true, my age-mates and older seem to be like that. They want to eat their cake and complain all whilst bringing nothing to the potluck… :/ END ID]
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“Tourist” is an apt name for this sort of fan. They don’t want to be part of our community, and they don’t have to be in order to come into our spaces and consume our work. Even if they don’t steal our work themselves, they feel so entitled to it that they’re fine with ignoring our wishes and letting other people take it to make AI “podfics” for them to listen to (there are a lot of comments on lore.fm’s shutdown announcement video from people telling them to just ignore the writers and do it anyway). They’ll use AI to generate an ending to an unfinished fic because they don’t care about seeing “the ending this writer would have given to the story they were telling”, they just want “an ending”. For these tourist fans, the ends justify the means, and their end goal is content for them to consume, with no care for the community that created it for them in the first place.
I don’t think this is confined to a specific age group. This isn’t “13-year-olds on Wattpad” or “Zoomers on TikTok” or whatever pointless generation war we’re in now. This is coming from people who are new to fandom, whose main experience with creative works on the internet is this new content culture and who don’t understand fandom as a community. That description can be true of someone from any age group.
It’s so easy to find fandom these days. It is, in fact, too easy. Newcomers face no hurdles or challenges that would encourage them to lurk and observe a bit before engaging, and it’s easy for people who would otherwise move on and leave us alone to start making trouble. From tourist fans to content entrepreneurs to random people who just want to gawk, it’s so easy for people who don’t care about the fandom community to reap all of its fruits.
So when I say maybe fandom should start gatekeeping a bit, I’m referring to the fact that we barely even have a gate anymore. Everyone is on the internet now; the entire world can find us, and they don’t need to bother learning community etiquette when they do. Before, we were protected by the fact that fandom was considered weird and most people didn’t look at it twice. Now, fandom is pretty mainstream. People who never would’ve bothered with it before are now comfortable strolling in like they own the place. They have no regard for the fandom community, they don’t understand it, and they don’t want to. They want to treat it just like the rest of the content they consume online.
And then they’re surprised when those of us who understand fandom culture get upset. Fanworks have existed far longer than the algorithmic internet’s content. Fanworks existed long before the internet. We’ve lived like this for ages and we like it.
So if someone can’t be bothered to respect fandom as a community, I don’t see why I should give them easy access to my fics.
Think of it like a garden gate
When I interact with commenters on my fic, I have this sense of hospitality.
The comment section is my front porch. The fic is my garden. I created my garden because I really wanted to, and I’m proud of it, and I’m happy to share it with other people.
Lots of people enjoy looking at my garden. Many walk through without saying anything. Some stop to leave kudos. Some recommend my garden to their friends. And some people take the time to stop by my front porch and let me know what a beautiful garden it is and how much they’ve enjoyed it.
Any fic writer can tell you that getting comments is an incredible feeling. I always try to answer all my comments. I don’t always manage it, but my fics’ comment sections are the one place that I manage to consistently socialize in fandom. When I respond to a comment, it feels like I’m pouring out a glass of lemonade to share with this lovely commenter on my front porch, a thank you for their thank you. We take a moment to admire my garden together, and then I see them out. The next time they drop by, I recognize them and am happy to pour another glass of lemonade.
My garden has always been open and easy to access. No fences, no walls. You just have to know where to find it. Fandom in general was once protected by its own obscurity, an out-of-the-way town that showed up on maps but was usually ignored.
But now there’s a highway that makes it easy to get to, and we have all these out-of-towner tourists coming in to gawk and steal our lawn ornaments and wonder if they can use the place to make themselves some money.
I don’t care to have those types trampling over my garden and eating all my vegetables and digging up my flowers to repot and sell, so I’ve put up a wall. It has a gate that visitors can get through if they just take the time to open it.
Admittedly, it’s a small obstacle. But when I share my fics, I share them as a gift with my fellow fans, the ones who understand that fandom is a community, even if they’re lurkers. As for tourist fans and entrepreneurs who see fic as content, who have no qualms ignoring the writer’s wishes, who refuse to respect or understand the fandom community…well, they’re not the people I mean to share my fic with, so I have no issues locking them out. If they want access to my stories, they’ll have to do the bare minimum to become a community member and join the AO3 invite queue.
And y’know, I’ve said a lot about fandom and community here, and I just want to say, I hope it’s not intimidating. When I was younger, talk about The Fandom Community made me feel insecure, and I didn’t think I’d ever manage to be active enough in fandom spaces to be counted as A Member Of The Community. But you don’t have to be a social butterfly to participate in fandom. I’ll always and forever be a chronic lurker, I reblog more than I post, I rarely manage to comment on fic, and I go radio silent for months at a time--but I write and post fanfiction. That’s my contribution.
Do you write, draw, vid, gif, or otherwise create? Congrats, you're a community member.
Do you leave comments? Congrats, you're a community member.
Do you curate reclists? Congrats, you're a community member.
Do you maintain a fandom blog or fuckyeah blog? Congrats, you're a community member.
Do you provide a space for other fans to convene in? Congrats, you're a community member.
Do you regularly send asks (off anon so people know who you are)? Congrats, you're a community member.
Do you have fandom friends who you interact with? Congrats, you're a community member.
There’s lots of ways to be a fan. Just make sure to respect and appreciate your fellow fans and the work they put in for you to enjoy and the gift economy fandom culture that keeps this community going.
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no thoughts just silco fucking u while smoking a cigar in his office
Took all of my brain power to write this, thinking of it was too much.
Pairing: Silco x Fem!Reader
Tags: nsfw, smut, office sex, dirty talk, name calling, praise, degradation, smoking, kissing, shotgun smoking, dick riding, neck kisses, cock milking, encouragement
Ko-Fi | Rules | Fandoms and Characters
A/N: He was so damn hot, such a shame we only had him for one season and like 5 minutes in the second season.
Silco's office was a place where many dreaded to go, the fear of the man himself, the power he had in Zaun, the people he surrounded himself with were all more than enough to strike fear into anyone. That's why when he said not to be disturbed no one ever dreamed of barging to his office.
Meaning that you had no fear of being interrupted and absolutely no problem as settled into his lap and let him pound his cock into you.
"No shame in your body is there, darling? Not in moments like these anyway. Lift that dress, I want a nice view." Your smirk matched his as you lifted your dress a bit over your bare tits and let him watch his cock, wet and hard, go in and out of your tight hole.
Silco leaned back and exhaled, a thick cloud of sweet smelling smoke vanishing in the air.
"I know you preferer these." He explained before putting the cigar back to his lips.
"How generous of you, sir. Going out of your way to accommodate me. Admit it, you have a bit of a soft spot for me." You teased and leaned in close to him, your hips bucking against his and putting a bit more pressure on his full balls.
Silco scoffed and slowly blew the smoke in your face, the sweet scent making you dizzy and causing your body, and pussy, to tense up.
"Sorry to disappoint but you're no different than any other whore I pay to take my cock. A bit more agreeable maybe, you don't ask questions, you get things done." When he saw how you smirked and began kissing his neck he groaned, a little annoyed that you saw a crack in his armor. "Enough. I have a meeting soon." Silco inhaled once more before he threw the cigar away and grabbed you by the back of your neck and crashed his mouth against yours in a bruising kiss.
You didn't know if it was the pleasure of his cock fucking you with brute force, or the warm smoke that filled your lungs, but you felt yourself go almost limp on top of him. "It's safe today." You whimpered against his lips.
Silco hummed, a small smile playing on the corner of his lips before he pushed you all the way down on his pulsing dick and held you close as your pussy took every drop of his cum. Jet after jet of thick seed filled you and dripped to the floor beneath you.
"Hmh. If we had more time I'd order you to lick that up. Right now I need you to... hey, are you awake?" Silco shook you a little but you were passed out, the combination of whatever he smoked and the orgasm knocking you out on top of him. "Oh great." You didn't know he cleaned you up, dressed you back up, and carried you to a small spare room with a couch. "It's a good think I like you."
#arcane x reader#silco x reader#arcane imagine#silco imagine#arcane headcanon#silco headcanons#arcane smut#silco smut#arcane x you#silco x you#arcane x female reader#silco x female reader#league of legends x reader#league of legends imagine#league of legends headcanons#league of legends smut#league of legends x you#league of legends x female reader#x female reader
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Aftershock
Main masterlist | The Rookie masterlist
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3
Tim Bradford x younger!reader
Fandom: The Rookie
Summary: You’re a bold, confident civil engineering student, used to taking control on construction sites. But when an earthquake hits while you're in charge of your father’s site, you meet LAPD Sergeant Tim Bradford. You clash, you work together, and slowly, something deeper begins to spark.
A/N: I have the second part almost ready so it'll be here soon!! Also is you have some ideas for this mini series, feel free to drop it in my box! Feedback is always appreciated!! I hope you like it! Lots of love, bubs! Stay safe! 🫶🏻🫶🏻
Warnings: Earthquake/emergency scenario, mild injury, panic attack (comfort follows), age gap, not proofread
Word Count: 4k+
It starts like a whisper—barely-there tremors under your steel-toes as you walk the perimeter of the new mixed-use high-rise downtown. You've spent the last half-hour barking into your phone, coordinating crane placement and checking load-bearing support numbers. You’re dusty, focused, and completely in your element.
Until the earth moves for real.
You don’t hear it before you feel it. The tremor roars upward through your boots like a live wire. The scaffolding groans. A metallic shriek pierces the air. Then it happens.
The world shudders. A cacophony of screams. Cement rains down. You drop to your knees and roll, instincts kicking in, sheltering beneath a shipping container propped on steel beams.
Earthquake.
It only lasts seconds—long ones—but the aftermath feels like a war zone. You crawl out coughing, your lungs filling with grit and fear, but your brain is firing on pure adrenaline. You're not just some student or supervisor. You’re the boss’s daughter. And he’s out of town, which makes this your site.
Your chest heaves, but your eyes are already scanning. Where's the crew? Who’s accounted for?
“Luis!” you shout, dodging fallen equipment. “Jen! Mateo!”
Two workers emerge from a cloud of dust, one limping, another coughing blood into his glove. You guide them to the open lot beyond the scaffolding, mentally mapping the layout. Six missing. Maybe more.
And then, over the scream of sirens, two figures cut through the dust—uniformed.
The man in front moves like he was born in boots. Tall, broad shoulders, determined jaw. There’s something sharp and no-nonsense about him, like he’s the human equivalent of a battering ram. Behind him, a quick-footed brunette surveys the site with wide, alert eyes.
“LAPD!” the man shouts. “Is anyone hurt?”
“I’m fine!” you yell back over the noise. “There are still people inside!”
He reaches you in seconds. “You need to move—this whole site could still collapse.”
“I’m not going anywhere,” you snap. “This is my father’s project. He’s out of town. I’m responsible for everyone here.”
“Name?”
“Y/n Y/l/n. Civil engineering student. Site lead for the day.”
“Sergeant Tim Bradford,” he grunts, scanning you. “This is Officer Lucy Chen.”
Chen gives a small nod and immediately moves to triage the injured worker. Bradford, however, keeps his full attention on you.
You don’t miss the way his eyes rake over you—not in a creepy way. He’s taking stock. Assessing damage. Dirt on your face, small gash on your arm. His brows tighten.
“You were inside?”
“Under that scaffolding.”
“You shouldn’t be standing.”
You fold your arms. “Well, I am.”
“You need to let us handle this.”
“No. I know this site better than anyone. I helped design the layout. There’s a crawlspace beneath the west scaffolding that no one else knows about. If anyone’s still in there—”
“You’re not trained for rescue ops.”
“I’m trained to know what’s safe and what’s about to fall on your head.”
His jaw ticks. “I don’t have time to babysit you.”
“Then don’t. Keep up.”
You step past him, and for a beat, he just stares.
“Unbelievable,” he mutters. “You’re like if a Barbie Doll had a death wish.”
You toss him a grin over your shoulder. “Grumpy and unoriginal. Cute.”
He follows, grumbling something under his breath about stubborn civilians and lawsuits.
The two of you reach the compromised scaffold, and you crouch beside the twisted beams. Bradford stops behind you, way closer than necessary.
“Let me go first,” he says, voice low, eyes scanning overhead.
“I’ll fit through easier. You’re built like a linebacker.”
You feel his breath on the back of your neck as he leans down.
“And you think I’m letting you crawl into a death trap alone?”
You glance at him, only inches away. “So you do care.”
He doesn’t move.
“Protocol,” he says stiffly. “And… you’re bleeding.”
You look down at the gash on your forearm—dirt-caked but shallow.
“Didn’t notice.”
“I did.”
He steps forward and gently takes your wrist. His touch is unexpectedly careful—rough hands, but soft grip. He pulls a cloth from his vest and dabs at the wound. You watch his face as he works. He’s so serious. So guarded.
“I’m going in first,” he says, not giving you a chance to argue.
You don’t push it this time. He’s trying. In his own way.
You both drop into the crawlspace, the air thick with dust and heat. Your shoulder brushes his arm as you squeeze through. Close. Too close.
You hear it before you see it—a cough. Faint, raspy.
“There,” you whisper. “Under that beam.”
Bradford nods. “Stay low.”
The man’s pinned, conscious but trapped under a slab of drywall and steel piping. You approach carefully, testing for weight, and give Tim a look.
“If we shift the load here, I can drag him out.”
“You sure?”
“Yes.”
His hand grazes your back as he shifts to position. Again, he’s close. Protective. Your skin sparks where his fingers press.
He moves the slab, and you reach under, tugging the worker free with all your strength. It takes effort. You grunt, digging your heels into the ground. Bradford leans forward, adds his strength behind yours. The worker slides out.
You sit back, panting.
“You okay?” Tim asks, wiping sweat from his temple.
You nod, heart pounding—not just from the rescue. From him. From the way his hand didn’t quite leave your lower back.
“Yeah,” you say softly. “Thanks.”
He meets your eyes. For a second, everything around you disappears.
And then his radio crackles. “Bradford, update?”
“We got one out,” he replies. “Sending location for medical. Continuing sweep.”
As you crawl back out, he places a steadying hand at your waist, guiding you up the incline. You feel the heat of it even through your shirt. It lingers. He doesn’t rush the touch. Neither do you.
Once you’re out, the EMTs swarm. The worker is taken. Chen updates the map with accounted-for crew.
You press your hands to your thighs, catching your breath.
“How many are left?” Tim asks.
You scan your clipboard. “Two. Maybe three. Could be hiding in the south exit shaft.”
“Is it stable?”
You pause. “Barely. But I can get us in.”
His eyes narrow. “You’re not invincible, Barbie.”
“And you’re not my boss, Grinch.”
He exhales hard. “Fine. But I go first this time. You stay on my six.”
“Yes, sir.”
He gives you a look. You wink.
You both make your way through the wreckage, ducking twisted rebar and beams. At one point, you trip on a loose plank. His arm shoots out, wraps around your waist.
You freeze.
So does he.
You’re chest to chest, his hand splayed across your back, your fingers gripping his vest.
“You okay?” he asks, voice a touch lower now.
Your throat’s dry. “Yeah. You?”
He doesn’t answer. Just watches you for a moment, then slowly lets you go.
You keep moving, but now every time your fingers graze or your arms brush, it feels intentional. Loaded.
You find the last two workers behind a jammed gate. Tim breaks the lock with a metal pipe, and you help the shaken men out. One thanks you. The other looks at you like you’re a superhero.
But the adrenaline has started to fade.
The full weight of it all—the noise, the near-deaths, the responsibility—presses down.
When you step away from the others, your legs buckle just a little. Bradford is there instantly.
“Sit,” he says, catching you by the arm.
You nod slowly, dropping onto a low wall.
He crouches beside you, reading your face. “It’s catching up to you.”
You swallow. “Yeah.”
“You held it together. You did everything right.”
Your breath hitches. “I didn’t… I didn’t think. I just moved. But what if I missed someone? What if—”
“Stop.”
His voice is gentle but firm. He places his hand on your knee. You flinch—but not from fear. From how it grounds you.
“Look at me.”
You do.
“You saved people. You helped us. You didn’t hide. You ran toward the danger.”
Your lip quivers.
His hand slides to your shoulder. His thumb strokes your collarbone, just once.
“You’re allowed to feel it now.”
And that’s all it takes. The panic hits like a wave—hard and fast. Your chest clenches, eyes burning.
Tim doesn’t hesitate. He pulls you into his chest, wrapping both arms around you. You bury your face in his shoulder, fists curling in his vest.
“It’s over,” he murmurs, voice barely above a whisper. “You’re safe.”
His hand slides into your hair, combing gently through it. The motion is soothing. Familiar. Like he’s done it before. Or maybe just dreamed of it.
“You don’t have to be strong right now.”
You tremble in his hold. He doesn’t pull away.
“I’ve got you,” he adds. “Okay?”
You nod against him. When you finally look up, his hand lingers on your cheek.
“Didn’t think you’d be the nurturing type." you say, voice hoarse.
He chuckles, voice rumbling in his chest. “Don’t tell anyone. It’ll ruin my brand.”
You lean back just enough to see his face.
And something shifts between you.
A quiet moment in the eye of the storm.
“I still think ‘Grinch’ suits you,” you whisper.
“And I still think you’re high-maintenance.”
“Excuse me?”
“Only a Barbie Doll would coordinate a rescue effort and sass a cop in the same breath.”
You smirk. “Maybe I’m both.”
The moment stretches. You’re both still, holding onto something neither of you fully understands yet.
Then a shout breaks the spell.
“Y/n!”
You turn. “Dad!”
Your father is running across the rubble-strewn pavement, suit jacket flapping, eyes wild.
You stand, and he pulls you into a crushing hug.
“I’m fine,” you gasp. “We’re all fine.”
He cups your face. “I got the alert mid-meeting and left immediately.”
You hug him tighter. “I had to take charge.”
“And you did,” he whispers. “I’m proud of you.”
You feel a shift behind you. Turning, you find Tim standing quietly, watching the scene with a measured expression. Your dad notices him too.
“You,” he says, crossing over. “You pulled her out.”
“Sergeant Bradford,” Tim replies, shaking his hand firmly. “Just doing my job, sir.”
Bradford looks at you. And he gets it.
You’re not just another young woman on-site. You’re his daughter. His pride. His heart. And you’re damn good at what you do.
Daddy’s princess—with steel in your spine.
He watches you hug your dad again, whisper something that makes the older man smile. And Tim’s jaw tightens, just slightly.
Lucy appears beside him, sipping water.
“She’s a powerhouse,” she says.
“Yeah,” Tim replies, watching you like he can’t look away. “She is.”
“You gonna ask for her number?”
He snorts. “She’d probably write it on an OSHA citation and tell me to lighten up.”
“You could use someone who challenges you.” his rookie shrugs.
Tim glances back at you—still in that vest, still a little scraped up, but glowing with that post-adrenaline shine.
Maybe he could.
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I went digging and couldn't turn up anything, substantial or otherwise, about Matt Moylan. I need to know how low to place my expectations for my second favorite mega men, because it sounds like "pretty damn low"
Matt Moylan is the Director of Publishing over at Udon. He's been there for ages. He's also a total reactionary.
To give full context, this is gonna get a little long.
Moylan is perhaps best known for the Transformers fancomic Lil Formers, which was popular in the '00s. This isn't super important here, but allow me to go on a tangent because it's where a lot of people know the guy from, and it's mildly more entertaining than just screencapping his tweets. The comic was basically just an excuse for him to draw a bunch of chibi Transformers that people would then use in forum signatures and whatnot. Sometimes he would attach his cranky old geewunner opinions and complain about art style changes or new female characters in the dialogue, if he wasn't just making a generic joke about Wheelie being annoying or Seaspray having a silly voice or whatever.

Comedy gold, I know.
Lil Formers was well known within the fandom. Geewunners and kids who didn't know any better and just liked the chibi Transformers (guilty) loved it. Other fans grew more annoyed by Moylan's schtick. As far back as 2009 TFWiki contributor David Willis mocked it in a strip from his own webcomic, Shortpacked:
His wiki page on TFWiki also recounts a bizarre old bit of fandom drama. Moylan had previously worked for the defunct comic publisher Dreamwave, who published the Transformers comics in the early '00s, and in 2006 he went on popular Transformers forum TFW2005 to make several claims about behind the scenes conflicts and unfulfilled story plans. Most bizarre was a claim that Autobot Sunstreaker was supposed to be gay in the Dreamwave comics, which was written off as a childish attempt to rile up the fandom. His claims were all vehemently disputed by the Dreamwave writers he was shit talking, who would also accuse Moylan of anonymously slandering them and sending them threatening emails. Swell guy!
Anyway, hopefully this isn't surprising to literally anyone who's been on a forum in the last decade, but this nerd who won't shut up about the Good Ol' Days of the '80s is now a reactionary conservative who complains about how they're making everything "woke." And unfortunately he's no longer just some guy drawing dumb little one-panel comics about Transformers, he's now overseeing all of the output at Capcom's go-to comic and art book publisher in North America.
Here's some of his tweets to illustrate what he's like these days.
Yes, that's a reply to Mark "Grummz" Kern. He's also chatted up accounts like Libs of Tiktok and Comicsgate ringleader Ethan Van Sciver. Also note the reply in which he tries to tell Greg Weisman himself that Gargoyles had "not an ounce of woke." This guy's brain is fucking cooked.
Here's a take he posted about The Boys, too, just because it's really fucking funny to me:
After I and several other people posted about his behavior over on Bluesky and expressed disinterest in buying anything from Udon (such as the new Mega Man comics), he deleted his Twitter for like a week. He's since restored it, the tweets in question now long gone. Clearly it wasn't a good look for him to be making statements about his employer's values like this, sometimes in the same breath as announcements about new comics. That being said, he's issued no actual apology for his statements, and Udon hasn't acknowledged it at all. There's no reason to believe he's had a change of heart. They're just gonna pretend he never said any of this. And as of a few days ago, he's been announced as the writer for the one-shot Mega Man ZX comic that Udon is putting out later this year. Yaaaayyyy
I know there are a lot of cool people working on stuff for Udon, but Moylan being in a position of power there means I have zero interest in giving that company money. When your Director of Publishing is over on Twitter trying to court an audience of reactionary nerds and proudly proclaiming that Udon is "anti-woke, anti-DEI," and then you go to their website and the first image you see is this...
...Look, I love huge boobs as much as the next bisexual furry pervert, but this particular image in conjunction with his tweets paints a pretty clear picture of what sort of values Moylan is pushing at Udon. He wants to cater to nerds who will buy softcore Street Fighter hentai thinking it'll own the libs.
So hey, if he doesn't want my dirty woke money, fine by me. I'm not touching anything Udon publishes as long as Matt Moylan still works there.
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