#this is the only irl friend i consider to have

[astral-from-afar]

Feel like I should stop overthinking my friendships but

[dykedvonte]

I think it’s so ironic that the Pony Express escapes a lot if not all blame in discussion. I can’t even say I am excused from it but it’s just how hard people circle back to the characters alone without considering the environment they were made to be in.

Why would they design a ship where only two of the rooms lock? Not the bathroom? Not the sleeping quarters? We assume that all the companies in the universe are this shallow and careless to their workers but we explicitly know the Pony Express in extra vile. They are fed processed slop pack they can’t even really cook and the ration of those pack is meager at best. They hired and made people with a plethora of conflicting demeanors and beliefs work together on a mission where cohesion is important if not an outright necessity and punish them for not being happy about it. There’s no social protocols, not chain of command other than Captain’s word/choice and the only way to enforce that is with a literal firearm. They don’t allow them to celebrate freely and even took away leisure activities that would make them less stir crazy. They are only allowed a few hours of sleep despite their being no other real responsibilities or work on the ship, no matter the position or its importance. With any crew, with any level of synergy, this was a powder keg waiting for a spark.

I’m not saying characters that made mistakes didn’t make huge ones, but I think part of the horror is that at least for some (this is targeting Jimathan) those mistakes are partly made by a force of the hand. There’s a running theme of lack of choice and being forced into something and the very nature of how The Pony Express expected them to function plays a big part.

[saaski]

Something I read in Dr. Laura Anderson's book "When Religion Hurts You" is that healing - from any kind of trauma - involves returning to a felt sense of safety.

I don't know how return to a felt sense of safety when we're in the 5th year of a pandemic, witnessing multiple genocides, living under capitalism and colonialism, as the planet is burning.

I keep reading posts about how the solution to despair is organizing and getting in community, but I don't feel safe in my community. How could I feel safe when the virus that disabled me with ME/CFS is still spreading unchecked, I have a suppressed immune system, most people's vaccines aren't up to date, and almost no one is masking anymore?

"Build community." As a traumatized autistic person, who has lost my community multiple times before? As an immunocompromised person, who is at risk in all public spaces? As a chronically ill person, who can barely do anything most days?

How do you build community when people ignore your access needs? How do you build community when people don't like or understand the way you communicate? How do you build community when no one around you shares your values, and you find it nearly impossible to maintain online connections?

My whole life has been me trying to reach out and build community, fucking it up or getting hurt, and winding up alone again and again.

[call-me-copycat]

i'm so sorry about what you're going through!! i know what it's like to be a "gifted" kid and suddenly not be able to pass everything so easily, it's a pretty terrible feeling (◞‸◟；)

i sincerely hope you get through this, i have no doubt it will all work out in the end, so please take care!! <2

Thank you for your support, definitely need it right now (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠)

It's not technically the worst case scenario since I still have some time before the semester ends, but I still definitely need to learn how to cope with so much more to handle (and also how to deal with failure/rejection)

I'm going to try to discuss with a professor or advisor, but I can only go from there >⁠.⁠<

Thanks again for being here :⁠-⁠)

[simpotat]

Tell me I'm not insane for thinking that's risky

(Context: bud invited me to new server he made. There's a "meet up" channel, explained suchly. Public to the entire server of course)

[squeakadeeks]

sometimes it's fun to talk about what you're watching/into, but there's a small handful of series that i like but will literally never say a word about them or give any indication that i like them online. i promise it's not anything problematic, there's just something refreshing about having an interest that the internet knows fuckall about. like babygirl i am consuming media in the dark recesses of my apartment that will forever remain unbenounced to the watchful eye of the online masses.

[derpinette]

there should be a poke feature here like there used to be on facebook

[theultracharmingladynoire]

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[epicwafflepie]

God send help I think I developed a crush on my childhood best friend

[mukuharakazui]

bg3 is crazy for being a massive $70 larian + wotc collab game whose accessibility menu features subtitles that are present for less than half of all idle character dialogue and almost zero battle dialogue

[padfootastic]

yeah so it’s not like my codependent james & sirius don’t love or care for other people. it’s that, when it comes down to it, their default is the other and sorry if u don’t think that’s different but it is.

they’re not putting the people in their life on a twisted graded hierarchy, they’re just?? each others?? most important person?? like bro why is it that the most common tropes on fucking earth are a problem when it’s prongsfoot????

[flippedorbit]

i’m gonna be so for real, if things don’t start changing for me in good ways i will be disappearing off the face of the earth

[digitalgate02]

i'm just upset about people simply assuming malice every single time there's something new in the Advverse.

turns out ▽ was not made out of malice, it was just incompetency.

Kizuna & 02TB had legit care about the lore, so i'm comfortable more with them.

my sensitivity is that i'm tired of clout and mockery in this fanbase. it's OK to dislike things, but i'd like to be able to agree to the disagree and call it a day.

i'd like if we could just be optimistic at least ONCE. (me included, yes.)

[caffeinatedopossum]

I suffer from feeling unloved despite being surrounded by people who love me loudly and only having been told by one person (internet stranger) that they hate me in the last 3 years

[bloodyke]

idk im just generally very pissed off that most people in my life dismiss and ignore my disabilities even when i bring it up like i do struggle every day and its frustrating that im only taken seriously when i reach my breaking point and start sobbing in front of them

[undecidingfate]

I think I made a new friend on roblox how the heck am I supposed to act 😭