#this is so stupid I’m gonna delete this later

[emeraldcitynerdfighter]

Rockford Peaches as spambot girlies (part 1?)

Carson🧢Catcher 🥧 Wife🍕 Lake👩🏼‍❤️‍💋‍👩🏼Valley📚

Greta 💋First ⚾️Base😉New 💇🏻‍♀️York

Lupe🚬pitcher⚾️Hermano🍻Texas🖕🏻

Jess🦫Moosejaw👖Shortstop💅🏻 Hermano🇨🇦

(Part 2)

[fordobsessed]

tried not to talk about this but anyway I was ford for Halloween and part of me was really worried someone would make a stupid b/frd related comment and lo and behold. Someone made a dumbass saving the town joke. The way my heart dropped is unreal. Whole new kind of instant stress response related to this. I can’t block people irl what is this shit. I hate 90% of this fandom sm . there was a lot of people who loved my cosplay though and made perfectly normal comments so I just need to focus on that :) just had one bad moment but it’s nagging on me

[gamdaughter]

Nabu Malikata once bled into the barren earth, greenery springing forth from her feet.

Now her descendants do the same.

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

sorta ? happy rant but still a rant below.

I’m so happy it happened and I don’t feel good about how much happier I feel but I feel so much happier ! and healthy ngl and it’s taking time and there are good parts and bad parts but overall I’m so glad we’re over because it was so unhealthy I couldn’t see it and I feel better now. And I know not all of it is good for me and I need to find more people to connect with and be friends with irl but cutting off the bad ones helps that so much I think. I’ve noticed I go weeks without thinking about them sometimes and it’s so good ? I feel good healing. Is that bad to say?

[comfymoth]

y’know what should have happened cquackity should have killed cdream last spring instead of just torturing him. 1) it would have gotten rid of cdream solving all my problems and 2) the conflicting guilt and righteous fury would have made quackity even sexier. him and sam could write it off as an ‘accident’ and bond over this fucked up secret only they know about it would be just like h—

[traceofgay]

one of the things i find most frustrating about democrats is that they constantly try and reach out to the “moderate” voters (which only really exist within the context of how far right america actually is, the american “moderate” is just lite fascist) which actively makes them less appealing to progressive voters, part of the reason we have low voter turnout (other than the active voter suppression) is that people don’t feel motivated to vote for someone who is at best marginally better than the opposition, especially when as soon as they’re in office their “allies” stop supporting their causes because the “good guys” are in charge and that’s all it takes, if the democrats actually wanted votes and not just funding they’d court the progressives and actually make people feel represented

[iceicewifey]

idk why i even bother trying to draw things that have a time limit, i should know i’ll never be able to do it by now.

holidays, mermay, pride month, doesn’t matter, i can’t do it.

[sapphicdib]

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[e77y]

Long but relatively unserious vent/rant below the cut (sorry I added this in bc I realized how long this post is oops)

Being at the center of some kind of internet witchhunt (which ik is kind of buzzwordy but) is literally my biggest fear ohhh my god. Even a small scale one… I think I would Die. Maybe it’s because I had a similar thing happen with my friend group in high school where one of them convinced the others I was like evil and spread all these rumors about me… 😭 He was splitting on me but still. That’s an explanation, not an excuse. And it basically confirmed all of my intrusive thoughts about myself, and my personality completely self-destructed and changed, and I haven’t interacted with any of those people the same way since. I isolated from them for MONTHS and just loathed myself. Bleh

The reason it’s on my mind is bc I’ve seen this happen to friends and mutuals and even just people I’ve followed in small fandoms, where the whole fandom hates them bc of this little drama and like. I KNOW that fandom drama is not the end of the world, but truly I think that would destroy me for months. And I would never be able to set foot in those spaces again :’) Getting a handful of rude comments about a fucking transfem hc I had at like 14 made me stop writing fanfic for YEARS 😭😭😭 sigh. Just bc they said it was ‘out of character for him to want to be a girl’ 🙄 (<- character who canonically felt confident when dressed as a woman btw. initially for a disguise but then she grew to love it. BUT I DIGRESS KNSHFJW)

All this to say I think that’s why I tiptoe around everything I say online… I am SO scared of ruffling feathers, but I know that fandoms are places for like! Having fun! And it’s not a big deal! And it doesn’t affect my real life! But like idk.. I just hate the idea of being hated by anyone. I’m sure that I ANNOY some people, and that’s whatever; I talk a lot and make overly personal posts sometimes (like this lol) but I don’t wanna be HATED yk? And idek if it’s better to be hated and ostracized publicly or resented in secret by people who still interact with you… :( Agh. If you ever have an issue with me, please DM me instead of letting it build up into something worse!

ANYWAY LIKE.. with fandom stuff. Idk. I want to have fun! I want to write and post things on Tumblr and AO3 etc but I am just very scared of peoples’ opinions, especially now that I have a decently popular/well-liked longfic in DnDads. For some reason I have convinced myself that writing bad or self-indulgent NSFW will make everyone hate me lmao. Like girl the POINT of fanfic is to be self-indulgent……….. sigh I need to get out more

^ light-hearted… but also kinda true haha. I stay at home a lot just bc I don’t have many reasons to go out atm and only a handful of close friends to go out with. Hopefully that will change when I move next semester lol. And whenever I get interests, they’re VERY strong and long-lasting, and fanfic writing is one of my main hobbies, so I get REALLY into online communities. And rn that is kind of my little niche fandom Tumblr bubble… which is embarrassing and probably unhealthy but whatever. I just inevitably get a lot of anxiety about things that are important/fun to me (bc OCD), especially bc I’ve never really had mutuals/‘friends’ in a fandom before this, excluding my irls

Anyway this got longer and more vent-y than I intended so I will tag accordingly, and sorry to whoever is reading this lol; I just wanted to get my thoughts written down in a public forum bc idk… Makes me feel less insane when ik other people can see it, too. Helps me not take it too seriously and spiral lol.

[deklo]

um 🧍

[savventeen]

i am so tired today friends. just, so exhausted for no reason.

sending u all whatever good/loving vibes i can spare

[taketheringtolohac]

things that are driving me insane when my stupid gay crush pulls up and reads my stupid blb tweets right next to me I’m gonna bite him it’s sweet that they want to make stupid silly little jokes on my tweets but I am going to fall in love at this rate

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

Liz is my favorite person ever

[okcoolthanks]

How to stop feeling like an awful person after accidentally crossing someone’s boundary even though you talked to them about it and apologized and know you won’t do it again and they understood it was an accident and it’s fine and you two are still on good terms

[st0rmyseas]

…venting in the tags bc I’m very annoyed rn ^.^

[lumiilys]

Me trying to remain positive in the notes of that wang/xian vs black/bonnet poll cause I genuinely respect wang/xian but man the notes are annoying as hell. People making fun of that person who didn’t know wang/xian is canon just rlly rubs me the wrong way idk idk, that person was corrected and then genuinely apologised but people are still being weird about it??? Not every misunderstanding needs to be met with aggression guys jfc sometimes you just need to calmly explain and then everything will be okay