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what if someday, Javis constant girls do get a bit much for neighbour readers feelings and heart and she actually thinks about moving and looks in the newspaper for new places (even though she knows she never actually could because being away from Javi feels impossible) and Javi randomly sees the circled ads on her kitchen table and he just absolutely panics and freaks out. And in typical Javi way, does it in a way thatâs probably rude lmao
we are back on our neighbor!javi flow, yâall! i mixed these two amazing prompts together so thank you to my anons for sending them in đ€ i hate these two (i don't) hehe
âWhatâs this?â
You freeze mid-step, a stack of extra blankets and a pillow nearly slipping from your grip as Javier holds up a newspaper, the pages marked with listings of different apartment complexes and houses.
His eyes are narrowed, mouth pressed into a firm line, and your heart stutters as you see the storm of emotions there.
Youâd tried to keep it together, to swallow the ache every time you heard him bring someone home, convincing yourself that it shouldnât bother you.
But then you started seeing and hearing the same womanâs laughter drift through the walls, night after night, and that finally broke something inside you.
Heâd found someoneâsomeone who wasnât just a casual fling, someone he wanted to talk with, someone to hold at night. And while youâd long accepted that youâd never have that kind of intimacy with him, the reality of him finding it with someone else made your heart burn in ways you werenât prepared for.
So, determined to protect yourself, you began looking for a way out.
âIâve just been looking aroundââ you start, trying to keep your tone casual.
âWhy?â he cuts you off. You watch as he sets down the paper heâd been holding, but he doesnât step back, his body tensed as if heâs bracing himself.
âBecause this place is crappy.â You straighten your shoulders, gesturing with a faint, forced smile to keep this from spiraling.
Itâs not a lie, but itâs also not the full truth.
âThey canât even get someone out to fix the plumbing on time, and youâre about to be crashing on my couch because of it. My lease is up in two months, so⊠it just makes sense.â The words tumble out easily enough, but you canât ignore how his gaze searches yours, like heâs looking for deeper meaningâand itâs there, but he doesnât know what exactly it is.
âSo⊠what, you were just going to leave without telling me?â His voice dips, the tension almost palpable as he stands there, arms crossed, jaw set in that way that makes his frustration obvious.
You cross your own arms, matching his stance. âI havenât even toured any places yet. Why are you making such a big deal out of this?â Itâs not like youâre moving back to the States, even though that thought has crossed your mind.
His eyes bore into yours, and the weight of all the unspoken things between you lingers, tightening your chest. Javier is wrestling with his words, unsure of what to say since heâs doing that thing where he lets his anger take the reins before thinking shit through.
"Besides, I can barely afford anything around here." You let out a short laugh, but it's strained, revealing just how much this uncertainty has been weighing on you. "Iâve been⊠Iâve been looking for other jobs too." You clear your throat, wondering how heâs going to take it. "No luck, though.â
Javierâs face shifts, his eyes darkening with a flash of something almost akin to guilt.
First, you're talking about moving away from him, and now, even your job isnât enough to keep you around him.
Panic prickles under his calm exterior as he watches you, piecing together the unspoken reasons behind your restlessness.
Is this because of him? Is he selfish for thinking this way?
He canât help but think back to every little misstep heâs taken with you.
Had he finally pushed you too far? Sure, he knew he got a little too possessive when you were bringing Mateo around⊠or maybe he was too obvious with his flirting over those shared dinners.
Every moment he spent lingering in your presenceâsitting a little too close at the courtyard on embassy grounds during his smoke breaks, or holding your gaze longer than necessaryâflashes through his mind.
Itâs one thing to flirt and tease, to keep his feelings in check for your sake, but the last thing he ever wanted to do was make you feel cornered, like he was crowding you.
"Heâs not making you do any of this, is he?" Javierâs voice has an edge, wary and somehow accusatory.
You blink in surprise, a flicker of irritation igniting inside. Really? Does he actually think your short-lived thing with the guy from the bank has you wanting to carelessly pack up your life?
The assumption pisses you off, but you hold backâafter all, heâll be crashing on your couch for the next few days, and arguing right now could make things awkward.
But then again, maybe he'd find solace with that woman you hear coming around nearly every night.
âYouâre joking, right?â You shake your head, feeling the urge to pinch the bridge of your nose. âNo, Javier, no oneâs making me do this but me. If anything, Iâm just a little tired of having to plug my ears at night to avoid hearing you screw your girlfriend into oblivion.â
The words spill out, laced with a bitter edge you didnât mean to reveal, but after how he barged in on your date with Mateo, maybe he deserves a to feel some heat about it, too.
His eyes narrow sharply. âGirlfriend?â
You wave him off, âJust forget I said anything.â
But of course, heâs not going to let it go that easily. âWhat the hell are you talking about?â
âI donât know, Javi," you sigh, feeling exposed and frustrated. "I just know the walls are paper thin, and I can hear everythingâjust like you can. Itâs grating sometimes, but I do my best to ignore it and not storm over there to embarrass the both of you by blowing up."
Suddenly, every late-night hookup heâs had since you moved in projects like a kaleidoscope in his memory.
None of it meant anything to himâthey were just distractions, shallow ways to escape the brutality of his job and maybe even the tender, unspoken feelings he harbors for you.
Yet, in his careless distraction, he hadnât considered how it could affect you, make you uncomfortable in your own home. For someone who claims to care deeply about you, he realizes heâs done a lousy job of showing it.
âFuck, Iâm sorry, cariño.â He deflates, and your heart skips because you just melt when he calls you that, âI didnât think⊠well, fuck, I never think.â He bites back the urge ramble, to tell you how much he despises the idea of you leaving, how much he wishes he could be the reason you stay and that he hates himself for making you listen to him lose himself in different women. âIâll be better about that.â
You nod, feeling whiplash from this weird ass conversation slash argument you just indulged in.
âJust be courteous. Isnât that what you told Mateo?â
He steadies himself, masking the ache in his chest with a small, tight smile. âYeah, guess I did say that.â
And itâs not like youâre actually going to follow through with leaving. Youâll just resign your lease and hope that Javier sticks to his word about keeping his love affairs quiet.
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tged webtoon ep 161 spoilers with thoughts below the cut u know the drill
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THIS IS MY FAVORITE PANEL OF JAVIER EVER. IN THE ENTIRE MANHWA IM LOSING MY MIND HAHAHAHAHAHA
HE JUST LOOKS SO FUCKING UNHINGED I DIDNT EXPECT IT AT ALL HHAHAHAHAHAAAA
anywayy back to the top
honestly maybe i shouldve seen the fact that his own singing would fuck him up coming LMAO
their matching dazed expressions when they both realize PLEASSEE LOL
raphael also calls the start of his singing demonic sounding lmao
and then they start fighting again and JESUS holy shit they're so overpowered this is so cool to watch and also as i was reading i was VERY scared for javier
genuinely i really really love whenever they draw action scenes they look very cool while also not being terribly hard to follow i like that
like oh my god?? he's swinging that hammer around like its nothing its very very terrifying, esp cause its been a while since javier has fought something thats his match yknow, or at least it feels that way
AND THEN. THE LEADUP INTO THE NEXT SCENE IM LOSING MY MIND JAVIER YOU SCHEMER
the feigning being down and then the peek and the slow getting up im giggling so so bad AND THEN
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA JAVIER YOU CLEVER ASSHOLE I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH
like i knew that line raphael said about how the halo would continue protecting him so long as he's pure and just or whatever would come into play BUT I DIDNT THINK JAVIER WOULD BE THE ONE TO DO IT SO DIRECTLY TOO HAHAHAHAAA he's learned so much from lloyd <3 LOL
i also think its interesting that the halo keeps track of this with like points or smth, not much to say about it i just think its an interesting gear; the ultimate defensive tech but it's based on how "good" you are thats just really interesting to me hehe
ALSO ALSO i think it's really really silly funny that raphael was this very intimidating and menacing figure that was super scary right up until the moment javier played dirty and then the moment that happened that image/vibe immediately crumbled WAHHAHA he's just a silly guy and the halo does the work i like him a lot
i really like these panels of them being evenly matched, raphael is still holding his own even with a penalty like that, their expressions here are really good too its so tense,,,
AND THEN LLOYD BEGGING THEM TO STOPP AAHHH
AGHHGHGHHGHGH AAAHH JAVIER STARING WIDE-EYED AT LLOYD IM CURLING AND SHRIVELED ON THE FLOOR
like okay i know lloyd is scheming or whatever. but my heart wants to believe that some part of this was very real okay . let me cope let me believe this . one cannot act/lie effectively without some of it being real. RIGHT???
AND THEN WHEN THE POPUPS APPEARED I STARTED SHOUTING OH MY GOD I FORGOT ABT THE RP SYSTEM IM SO. LLOYD YOU BRILLIANT MOTHERFUCKER YOUUU
HE CAN JUST SKIP THE PROCESS AND THEN BECOME A SWORDMASTER HE HASNT DONE THAT IN A LONG TIME OHHHH MY GOD
also. everyone else's bonus RP was +10. but only javier's bonus RP was +45. which could mean nothing.
WHAT DO I EVEN SAY ABOUT THAT LIKE. JAVIER WHAT YOU. WHAT. YOUUU im gonna lose it im gonna LOSE IT
top ten photos taken moments before disaster HE LOOKS SO EVIL THE ART HERE IS SO GOOD HAHAHAHA OHH MY GOD
and how he says "YEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS" ohhh lloyd you asshole you i love you so much
THIS PANEL TOO LIKE WOW THE FUCKING EFFECTS THIS IS INSANE HE LOOKS SO FUCKING MENACING THE VIOLENT LINEART HES POWERING UP HIS SINGING OH MY GODDD HAHAHA
when i saw these panels i immediately thought of that one song from princess and the frog god i wish i could like tween or something itd be so cool to see This drawn to That
thats all i LOVED this ep i had so much fun RAPHAEL JAVIER LLOYD FIGHT PART THREE NEXT WEEK HERE WE GO
#tged#the greatest estate developer#tged spoilers#lloyd frontera#raphael#javier asrahan#apologies if u saw these thoughts already on twitter#i jump the gun a lot . as you may be able to tell#im much more disorganized and full of caps lock on twitter though so pick your poison i guess HAHA#i mean. not that my tumblr is free of caps lock either. uh.#no seriously genuinely i long to see this animated this is so so so fucking cool#animation with this art style would go CRAZY HARD ID LOVE IT#i love the art so so so so much its so extreme its so extra im spinning around
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I'm so glad to have encountered a fellow Cecil stan. I freaking love coming up with headcanons for Cecil, platonic or romantic, because he's such an interesting character. For real though feel free to dump any Cecil headcanons (platonic or romantic) on me anytime.
AWAAAA!! YES HAII OTHER CECIL AFICIONADO !!! im so glad theres more of us sprouting out here. my wife is so underappreciated, you have no idea how much he means to me. i'd love to req n swap headcanons anytime !! I have so many thoughts on that morally ambiguous gilf.
[messy, disorganized surface level autism rambling ahead. this will be just random scenes and characteristics i like of him]
BUT YES .. cecil's character is just so interesting to analyze. he does unethical, necessary things. But he doesn't subscribe to idealistic notions of "the greater good" or justifying his actions to make himself sleep better at night. He knows the harsh reality that someone has to make the difficult decisions, no matter how unethical. The psychological toll it takes to calculate how many civilian lives can be spared, and how many are inevitably lost in order to achieve the optimal outcome. He doesn't celebrate after victories like the other heroes do. After the dust settles, his mind is already racing - calculating, strategizing how to prevent future catastrophes. How to minimize casualties next time.
his methods are...questionable,, as ive said,, but there's a hint of nobility to it that just makes you respect him, A SHADY GOVERNMENT CHAR that does the dirty work and takes in all the heat for it so no one else has to? SIGN ME TF UP! i love exploring his character and all the little glimpses of humanity we get to see from him,, especially with debbie, SO SOFT FOR HER, there's so much depth there. that old fuck would MOVE mountains for her if he could,, TRUST. EVEN though he doesnt deserve her .. <<
LETS CONTINUE TO CIRCLE BACK TO S1 with his confrontation w Nolan in the desert, the way he entrusted his survival to the skills of his team operating that teleporter watch (I'm aware he can control it himself, I think this was just my interpretation of it since the employees seemed directly involved here). The margin for error was nonexistent. One miscalculation, one millisecond too slow, and Cecil would have been reduced to a red smear across miles of sand. MY WIFE HAS BALLS ON HIM. (also love walton goggins breathy lil giggles here .. hwaghffhh)
All this, All the whilst Nolan could have ended him with a casual backhand, as easily as swatting a fly. And for what? For humanity's (mostly his) right to know the truth. For Debbie's right to understand what she had truly married because Cecil respects her that fucking much for her to have a part in all of this, and what fate may lay in store for her son.
AND what I particularly liked about that scene is that unlike most SHADY GOV CHARS âą.. Cecil isn't afraid to regularly place himself in life-threatening situations, and for that im just.. FKING obsessed. finally. a hyper competent gov char that gets shit done and occasionally by his own hands instead of always puppeteering in the shadows. Love u .. love u honey snooch, please stop putting yourself in danger for your crazy alien side-hoes .
but ahem ... back to s2.. and some flaws of his that i'm not afraid to point out. the way he's been treating mark is killing me. manipulating my son by comparing him to his dad then keeping him on lock by saying he's not like him??? The breadcrumming definitely didn't work out at all, cuz Mark is too damn stubborn to continue to be swindled by fear tactics he does not give a shit for anymore (homegirl DEBBIE taught him better) hes not gonna listen to a cranky skullet-having side bitch of nolans who clearly has been tryna manipulate him since s1. i HATED how he went "ur broke tyrannical bitch father felt the same way" in the last minute when mark tried to leave earth and yet i still lobve ceci cause ough,,.. my bastard wife knew something was probably up.
Him wanting to keep a short leash on MARKY could be summed up after all that has happened in s1. i'm not going to justify his scummy manipulations or paranoia,, especially after all the shit mark has done and endured to prove himself over and over again that he's not like his father BUT its somewhat understandable for cecil 2 be wary if you look from it in his perspective.
moving on from that, lets dive back into ep 2 ..
Debbie was semi-right in her deduction in s2 ep2, that this is what it's really all about for Cecil - being in control. Not of any situation, but of Mark. To ensure history does not repeat itself in the form of Mark becoming another Nolan. imo He likely doesnât actually view Mark as his father, Not saying the possibility of it being a part of Cecil's subconsciousness is out of the equation but the way I see it? He was just exploiting that one weakness, that one insecurity Mark has - the fear of becoming like Nolan. And itâs a fear Cecil seemed to prey upon to keep Mark under his thumb and in the fucking GAME.
awaaaa :3 !!!! psychologically damaging teens by comparing them to their abhorrently shitty fathers !! FUCK YOJ STEDMAN (love you snookums..)
,,,,I'd also like to think in my warped deluded perception (aka hcs) that he sees Debbie in Mark, so he can't help but care for the kid too. IVE ALWAYS seen a lot of comparisons between Mark and his dad, plus the whole motif of this new season hasn't helped it allay. But Debbie and Mark share so many similar characteristics as well and i wish that was talked a bit more often < 3 (I will go in depth about it at a later post.)
n umm like ...,,, bck to cici in gen. I guess the safety of earth is one of Cecil's redeeming qualities along with his compassion for side characters like Debbie. His pragmatism and utilitarianism define him. He lacks normal morals but has his own code that cultivates to his character. this ramble could not do justice to him ughfglg..,, what a compelling jezebel.. how can u captivate me so !!
My inbox is always open to discuss this multi-faceted rat man. here's to more cecil content in s2..,... hopefully with more of his dynamic with Debbie because I LIVE for that shit. though its unlikely their interactions could range to anything positive now since they may be hinting to cecil becoming an antagonist and/or taking extreme measures w/ mark. soo.. i dont think debbie's scolding was enough for that slut 2 take in ..
in the mean time i'll be catching up on the comics/re-reading them, look up more of his backstory and hopefully create 10 novels worth of google docs of analysis' of his character < 3 cuz .. he means .. that much 2 me.. and i want to prod at every crevice n brain matter he has inside that megamind head of his .
((hwaghhhhhh << hoping that one day the discord moots ive been keeping in my basement and most invincible fans fall victim to cecil stedman propoganda.. no one should be immune to my girlboss and his awful skullet.))
#invincible#invincible season 2#cecil stedman#omni man#invincible spoilers#debbie grayson#mark grayson#longest paragraph of me saying i want to fuck an old man but rewording it in a semi-melodramatic way ..#SORRY FOR USING THIS AS AN EXCUSE TO RAMBLE !! please go check out superbangelhearts blog; cecil stans . i love their yan headcanons alot .#this was SOOO messy n disorganized#milkyasks#milkyrambles#i think he should be fucked by every adult char in the show#i love him so much .. he has been infesting my fking brain.#I think alot of people confuse his ends justify the means for actual justification n self righteousness . but THERES no indication of that#IN THE SHOW.#hes self aware to a considerable extent over what he does#wrote this at 4am plsss give me a break ...#i would swallow a gallon of acid for him .#so much msgs in my inbox .. i apologize for not being able 2 answer them quickly :( this is still very new 2 me#im like a boomer getting used 2 smartphones... typing w my pinky finger as we speak..#slobbers n chews on his gnarled knuckles#idkfkk whts WONG W ME ! HELP ! MY PSSYS GONE CRAZYY !!! /ref#this was mainly just pinpointing random parts i liked ab cecil not really an analysis
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Casual new 3 plush comish from half a year ago. I'm only a little behind on posting things. XD
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I always regret ranting because I always wish I spent more time to be coherent. So if you ever read my unhinged Fyodor ranting please understand when I use the word "sin" and "sinful" that I don't mean "something bad" and that is it. I mean it in the "actions that cause us separation from God and thus cause human suffering" vain. That is why I think he is actually empathetic. Because his belief is that he is ridding the world of something that is in his eyes causing immense suffering for humanity. Yes he is egotistical and thinks everyone else is stupid and just can't see it, and that he has to be the one save them from this they just don't understand. But still.
#im not even adding it on to the original reply it was so long and disorganized#also high key apology for not tagging this because i dont want it in the main tags since my reblog reply wouldnt be it would show up out of#context. not the norm no worries#i straight up only have like 5 non bsd mutuals left at this point im pretty sure and like 10 non bsd followers max so hopefully you lovely#ppl just miss this#or ignore me
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#hhhhh đ« gotta love when instead of doing literally anything im stuck anxiously vibrating for hours#like if u just did things. things would get done! thats how this works! wtf r u doing???#2 manuscripts that r supposed to be done now and 2 applications left to complete#my mum thinks i should let my boss kno thst my brain is collapsing in on itself and like yea i prob should bc i should apologize for being#all weird and disorganized. my brain feels so weird. like it takes so so much processing power for me to remember wtf i was doing and what#i have to do next but like if i tell her it wont really change anything bc its like i have to meet these deadlines either way#also i have to b careful bc i dont wanna say yea i got horrifically burned out taking measurements but like im sure itll be fine that i#have to go back to taking measurements in January. like no prob. weve only been building up to it all year#and i kno if i say im burned out she'll be like u gotta relax more! i told u to relax so we wouldnt b here!#and then i have to be like no u dont fucking understand that i cant relax. i never relax. my life is a series of tasks and thinking abt#tasks and worrying forever. if u tell me to relax i will agony spiral for hours not relaxing and not being productive đ#i just need my brain to allow me to focus long enough to get these fucking manuscripts done#but no my brain is like if u wanna do thing u gotta find the perfect audio but also i cant focus as well with audio but also i cant even#find the right thing to listen to anyway. and my brain is like u need one device playing media and 1 playing music#and like no stop. just fucking focus and stop falling apart#time time time not enough and far too much#its so weird bc i think im pretty level headed and self aware despite how my brain is sometimes. but it keeps doing this thing where#like everything gets so distorted and im like jesus its a good thing otherwise pretty grounded#blah tomorrow well see whst comes outta my mouth when i tslk to my boss#ugh im so tired whyyyyyyyyy#i cant even make proper time to draw#unrelated
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{{ dfghfskdhk i need to sleep--
I will TRY to do longer paragraph replies soon, sorry for anyone i'm keeing waiting! }}
#i am honestly so disorganized right now so i apologize if i do things in a weird order hhh#â â { o.o.c. } â°â°
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Was scrolling through TikTok and came across this set of screenshots that was very concerning!
Now, no one is saying that you have to stop using ao3, but for the love of God DO NOT DONATE. Yes, that could definitely result in the site getting shut down, but the simple solution to that is downloading your favorite fics.
I would highly recommend looking at the original thread though, as there should be more details about this there.
I don't care how much you need your "silly bedtime stories", do not fucking donate. The lives of the innocent Palestinians are more important than your fanfictions.
#important#i know just how much Tumblr loves the silly lil fanfiction site. so. yeah.#also yea I know this post seems a bit disorganized and i apologize for that#the main focus is the screenshots though. and PLEASE go look at the actual thread before you come after me I'm begging
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#trying to make my fic rec more organized#so I apologize for all the sporadic fic recs and posts in the near future#all part of my disorganized process lmao
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What do you think gay men are attracted to in men that they canât be attracted to in women?
It canât be anything about femininity or masculinity obviously. Thatâs both sexist, and cultural so canât be what drives men-only attraction.
It canât be anything about stated identity because someone could lie just as easily as they could tell the truth in such a statement, and it makes no sense because homosexuality and heterosexuality exists in other species with no stated identities. Itâs not like other animals without gender are all pan.
Saying idk itâs the vibes or some indescribable trait men have that women canât but âI canât explainâ is a nonanswer.
Soooooooo what is it? Or do you think any sexuality but bi/pan is just cultural performance or an identity rather than an inborn orientation?
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this feels like bait but damn you sure are making a lot of assumptions about incredibly large groups of people with any number of unique experiences here.
"it cant be anything about feminity or masculinity"/"it cant be anything about stated identity" yes it can. because different people are going to have different reasons and explanations for why they are attracted to who they are. some people ARE attracted based on how feminine/masculine someone is. some people ARE attracted based on stated identity. by saying that it cant be these things youre making a huge generalization. just because You Personally do or dont experience these factors doesnt mean that its the same for every other individual.
youre absolutely right that attraction based on masculinity/feminity is culture based! so are many many other factors of romantic and sexual attraction (cultural expectations, societal opinions, views on monogamy vs polygamy, cultures where arranged marriages are standard, etc.) that might influence someones attraction to a potential partner. so i dont know why youre acknowledging that there is a cultural difference in some cases and then writing off any possible case of attraction to gender presentation (conformity or non-conformity) as impossible. not to mention that it isnt necessarily sexist to have those preferences at all. i for one, am a butch lesbian who is (primarily) attracted to other butches. that isnt me saying that a partner needs to act and perform in one particular way or another on the basis of discrimination, thats just me saying what i find attractive personally. just like i can say i prefer orange juice over apple juice. i dont think its Wrong to like apple juice, and i dont think people who do prefer to drink it are wrong or bad, i just dont like it personally. there have been subgroups in the queer community for literal decades that came together over attraction to very specific gender presentations (butches, femmes, twinks, bears, etc.). not to mention, when it comes to meeting a potential partner (at least in person) visual appearance tends to be one of- if not the first- things you notice about them. of course thats going to have some sort of influence on how you view them.
sure, people absolutely can lie about their stated identity. theres plenty of cases where people will attest that someone lied about their gender to get into their pants (and that sucks when it happens!). but that doesnt mean that its always true that someone will lie nor does it make it common to do so. fun fact, but if your partner is attracted to something that you Know You Arent, it tends to be a pretty unfulfilling relationship and lies like that are difficult to keep up.
and for some people, it literally is just Based On Vibes! some people do not have the words to describe what they find attractive, some people just know that theyre attracted to men and not women, and absolutely No One is obligated to explain it to a stranger (and much less an anonymous one). im putting in the time to type this all out because some of the things you said bothered me, but you dropping this on a random stranger is fuckin weird yknow?
the way you worded this last part is weird. no, i dont think that. its the same as any other attraction to one gender. do you think that being straight is just an identity or cultural performance? and if youre trying to say that it isnt the same on account of biological compatibility when it comes to having children, what about straight couples where one partner is trans? or straight couples where one is infertile? youre coming at this from the angle that being gay is the only form of single-gender attraction.
and alllll of that put aside to say that i dont know why you sent me this. im literally just a random person on the internet, i am not an expert in attraction in any manner. i can only speak as far as my own experiences and observations.
not to mention
i am not a gay man
#discourse#???#anon what exactly did i post that compelled you to send this to me#i am quite literally not the target audience of your question#i tried to word this the best i could#but i saw this Literally first thing in the morning and im a bit preoccupied studying for an exam i have later today#so apologies if its a bit scatterbrained or disorganized#if anyone else wants to contribute to this question feel free but like. dont expect me to continue talking about it#i am busy and discourse gets on my nerves real fast#long post#sorry i shouldve put that there to begin with. slipped my mind
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#the vIBES today#they are off#I got a lot done on nabs but not on here and i apologize#I know i owe a bunch of stuff i'm so disorganized this week asl;dfkjsd#but if anyone has any gerudo culture/history questions#i would be v v v down to answer#eyes emoji
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The night cook.
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Summary: Insomnia has struck one of the crew and Sanji is willing to find out. Meanwhile, you try to deal with your fear as best you can.
Warnings: I don't know, mention of clowns maybe (yes, exactly what you're thinking).
Word count: 1.4k
Pairing: OPLA!Sanji x F!Reader.
A/N: I have a new obsession and I need to write more and more. I watched the series in one day and now I'm racing against time to catch up with the anime (and soon move on to the manga). It has not been proofread so I apologize for possible errors.
Part 2 here
Sanji was starting to get stressed.
Despite the short time he had been part of the crew, he already knew where he belonged: the kitchen. He could spend hours there and felt comfortable. But something bothered him. Every morning, some fruit always appeared cut, food scraps in the trash, his knives disorganized. He wouldn't look for trouble right away, but he was aware of every move.
Your steps dragged to the kitchen, after another bad night's sleep. The dark circles under his eyes were visible from afar, as was his bad mood.
"Good morning madame! Glad you joined us today for coffee." Sanji caught your attention, placing your plate in front of you.
"Good morning sunshine, your mood seems to brighten the day." Zoro teased you, only earning an eye roll.
You stared at the food in front of you. They looked appetizing, but hunger seemed to be nowhere in your body. You rolled them from one side to the other, without removing any pieces, while heard the others talking in the distance.
"Everything is fine?" The cook's voice caught your attention, a quick glance was enough to realize that the others had already eaten their meals. "Sorry to say ma'am, but you look tired."
"It's okay Ji. I'm just discouraged." You stand up, handing the plate back to him. "They look delicious, but I'm out of food, I'm sorry."
"Nothing to apologize for, my sweet. I heard that if you eat with a full stomach, or in your case without hunger, you can't enjoy the food and the last thing I want is for you to not like one of my dishes ." He leaned on the table, watching you.
"That's impossible. I could eat anything you make, as long as it's you making it."
It had been a while since the two of you exchanged small gestures, small flirtations. Unlike most other women, you weren't bothered by what he said. You felt seen, admired like never before, even though you knew he would say that to a thousand others. Plus, it was fun to see him shy with your answers.
"So... What can I do special for you today. Choose and I'll do it."
"Surprise me!"
You left it in the kitchen and if you looked back, you could see it lost in your image. None of the other beauties would be like that beauty, her beauty. Even though he was still lost, Sanji tried to regain his thoughts, thinking about the perfect lunch.
You got caught up in the tasks on the boat, all to keep the tiredness out of your body. Despite having heard the call for lunch you decided to postpone it, as well as dinner.
When you returned to bathe, you could see that everyone had retired to their rooms. Even with the most comfortable clothes, the coziest sheet and the cool sea breeze coming through the window, it only took a few minutes of sleep for you to wake up sweating, scared.
You were tired of it would be another wasted night. You got up and went towards the kitchen, since sleep didn't decide to appear that night, hunger had already taken its place and a salad would go well at that moment.
You gathered some radishes to cut and a few slices later, you felt the knife against your skin and was scared.
"So you're the cook for the night!" Sanji spoke suddenly.
Before you could curse him for his fright you had to hold back a scream due to the inconvenience of the pain.
"Shit, let me see." in a matter of seconds, he was already in front of you , holding your injured hand.
"It was nothing, you can rest."
"That, young lady, I will decide later." he gently placed a cloth in your hand, pressing it. "What are you doing up at this hour?"
"I couldn't sleep, I decided to prepare something."
"Honey, what's been going on?" He took your hand again, removing the cloth. "Okay, I have the solution to mine and your problem."
He took you by the hand to the bench, placing you in a sitting position, returned to the kitchen, placing a small container to heat and disappeared from sight for a few seconds, returning with a small box in his hands. It brought everything in front of you, allowing you to see what it was really about. A small box with bandage and a small plate with lasagna.
"I saved it from lunch for you, I think you'll like it."
"You know you're my favorite. Shit!" you immediately regretted trying to use your injured hand to eat.
"Now, we'll fix this." The cut was small but uncomfortable and felt a little deep.
You watched him bend down to your height and tend to the small wound like something precious while you ate. The silence between you didn't last long, against your will.
"When are you going to tell me what's been going on? You know, we're friends." Sanji charged, finishing applying the last strip. "Something is wrong with you and I can't figure it out. Besides, you've been destroying my onions in your nightly escapes."
"I'm having some trouble sleeping..." you tried to leave the explanation superficial, but the look in his eyes made it very clear that he wouldn't just buy that.
"You could have told me, you could have made me some tea or something that would help."
"It's not that." You pushed the plate away and straightened up, trying to look away from Sanji. Shame already dominated your body at that time. "It's a stupid thing."
"No mon amour, it's not. I'm here, talk to me."
"There's only one thing in the world that I'm afraid of: clowns. Be they the cute ones or the psychopaths alike..."
"Buggy. Has he been a problem?" Sanji tried to understand, although it didn't make sense since the crew hadn't seen him in days.
"First we were trapped in his circus and it was horrible. Then we had his head on board and I was sure that at any moment he was going to appear. Now, I can't stop having vivid nightmares about it." you confessed, feeling your face burn with embarrassment. "I can't sleep, so I come here at night and I always cook something. I usually watch you cook and it seems like something so relaxing, so good. It hasn't helped me much with my sleep, but at least I've been eating some of the inedible things I make ."
"I bet they're as good as the ones I make and if you don't mind, I'd love to cook with you one of these nights." he winked, eliciting a smile from you. "But for tonight, we need to sleep, finish your plate and I'll be right back with something."
A few minutes and mouthfuls later, Sanji appeared with two mugs, with some hot liquid inside them.
"Herbal tea. It'll help you fall asleep."
"I have my doubts, butâŠ" you took a sip of the sweet drink. "It doesn't hurt to try. Are you sleep deprived too?"
"Not really, I just couldn't leave a lady drinking alone."
"If this works, I promise to buy you the next drink at a bar."
"Wait. This a date?" he asked and if it were possible, you would see hearts instead of his eyes.
"We have the drink." you pointed to the two mugs. "We had dinner." You pointed to the lasagna. "Sounds like a date."
"That miserable clown at least did one good thing"
"Don't ruin the moment, Ji."
The two of you finished your drinks in silence, a few glances exchanged were enough to get comfortable together. Sanji picked up the dishes on the table and you followed him with slower steps.
"Thank you for helping me."
"Who said our date is over?" he turned around, grasping his arm for you to intertwine. "I would never let a lady go alone to her chambers."
"You are a gentleman."
"Only for you amour." He stopped in front of your door. "It's delivered and safe."
You stood on your toes, giving him a quick kiss on the cheek. "Thank you, really." You opened the door and before you could enter, you turned around. "Can I ask you one more thing?"
"Whatever madam wants."
"You can stay here for a while, just until I sleep."
"Of course sweetheart" He walked you into the room.
You straightened the bed and lay down on one end, watching him just stare at you, waiting for some sign that he could sit down.
"Please be my guest."
He lay down and almost automatically gave way for you to snuggle against his chest. Your laughter was suppressed when you saw him smiling widely at the contact.
"A few drinks, a dinner..."
"And you ended up in my bed." your voice was already sleepy. Maybe because of the tea, but something said it was more because of the company.
"And I ended up in the perfect place." reciprocating your gesture just now, in the little conscience you had left, you felt his lips touch your forehead. "Sleep missus. I promise not to let any harm come."
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Kinktober - Day 13 - Fuck Or Die
Kinktober 2024 Masterlist
A/N : Since I am a messy, disorganized and irresponsible writer⊠here is the episode for Kinktober Day 13. The prompt is « Fuck or Die ». I had lots of fun writing it. đ I hope you guys enjoy it just as much đ
CW : Use of viagra and aphrodisiacs - Mentions of infidelity - Marshall Mathers being kind of an asshole đ
PSA : fooling with Viagra and aphrodisiacs is a bad idea. Also, Iâm not a doctor so⊠thereâs nothing medically accurate here, you know ?
« Yo, have you seen Paul ? » Marshall asked as he entered your office. He seemed in a hurry and, frankly, he didnât look well. He always arborer an unreadable expression but now, he looked a little bothered, which was quite unusual. « He left about an hour ago » you informed him. As soon as the words left your lips, you could see the panic take over his expression. « Whatâs wrong ? » you asked with concern. « Nothing » he replied too quickly for it not to be suspicious.
You stared at him and he avoided your gaze. Embarrassment. You raised an eyebrow and decided to give him another opportunity. « What did you do ? » you asked calmly. « Wha- Why do you think I did something ? » he barked. You let out a chuckle and crossed your arms as you leaned back in your chair. « Not only have I been your assistant for the last ten years, Iâve also had the displeasure of being your girlfriend for two of them. Which means I know you too well. » you playfully commented. « Thank God you have someone else to annoy now » he replied curtly. You scoffed and stared at the picture of your fiancĂ© on your phone wallpaper. Thank God, Greg was everything that Marshall wasnât.
« Seriously, tell me. Iâm sure itâs nothing I canât help you with. » you pressed as you turned back to him. « Itâs personal. » he said. « Good thing Iâm your personal assistant, then, dumbass » you chuckled. « Now is not the time, Y/N » he warned. « Itâs Kayla, isnât it ? Marshall, I donât mind. You can tell me about your⊠whatever she is. » you said as you gestured vaguely. « I need Paul » he insisted as his expression grew more uneasy. You sighed and tried to call his manager but it went straight to voicemail. Not surprising knowing how busy the man always was. You looked at Marshall apologetically. He was visibly frustrated. « Fuck » he muttered. He almost looked in pain, which was concerning. You got up and placed a caring hand on his shoulder. « You donât look well » you remarked. He seemed to wince at the contact and took a step back. « Iâm sorry. I didnât mean to hurt you » you immediately apologized, thinking youâd hurt him. « Do you need a doctor ? » you asked carefully.
He looked at you with a look full of shame and regret. « I hope not » he mumbled. « Marsh, whatâs wrong ? » you questioned for what seemed like the thousandth time. « Promise not to laugh ? » he asked. « Of course. You know me. » you said reassuringly. He immediately raised his eyebrow. « Yeah I know you. Thatâs why Iâm asking you to promise » he said sternly. « I promise. Now tell me what you did. » you sighed. « I think I took too much viagra » he almost whispered.
You had just promised not to laugh but you couldnât help but let out a squeal. There was something special about your boss turned ex looking really stupid and ridiculous. The two of you had ended on amicable terms but the shameful look on his face definitely gave you the revenge you never knew you needed. « Fuck you, Y/N » he groaned and you immediately apologized. « Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry⊠itâs just⊠you took viagra ?! ». He sighed and nodded. Having spent two years with him, you could point out a lot of flaws in this man but lack of libido was not one of them. Well, maybe his latest sidepiece wasnât up to the challenge. « I had an incident the other day and Kayla⊠well, she suggested- you know. And, uh, I was supposed to see her tonight but⊠she bailed and now I canât get rid of the damn thing » he explained. You hummed empathetically. He seemed annoyed and distressed and, knowing his pride, you knew he wasnât having a good time confessing all of that to you. « How long has it been ? » you asked. « Three months. Why ? » he asked. « Your blood flow is really going down there, huh ? I meant how long has it been since you⊠you know. Since you took the pill. » you corrected with an amused look. « Two hours » he sighed. « Is it painful ? » you asked. « Itâs⊠really uncomfortable. I asked the Google and they say I should take a cold shower but I canât drive home like this » he continued. You let out a chuckle at the mention of « the Google ». If the technophobe boomer you called your boss had actually gone on the internet, you knew he must be really distressed. « Have you tried solving the problem manually ? » you asked carefully. He looked at you with an aggravated look, clearly losing patience. « Of course Iâve tried ! It doesnât work ! » he snapped. You crossed your arms defensively. You were trying to be nice and you didnât need him lashing out at you. As soon as he saw the frown on your face, he calmed down a little. « Iâm sorry⊠I just⊠i donât know what to do » he mumbled. You nodded with understanding and placed your hand on his arm, trying to be supportive. « Please donât » he almost whined. « Well I just touched your arm, dude » you said with your eyebrows furrowed. « I know but I also took that other pill. Like itâs made of plants or something and my senses are all heightened and- I swear to God, if you touch me again Iâll bend you over your desk. ». You looked at him with wide eyes, almost shocked by his bluntness. You held out your hand, pointing at your engagement ring. « This ship has sailed, man » you recalled. « Look, maybe we should call a doctor- hey ! My eyes are up there, Marshall ! » you scolded.
He looked, half-apologetic. However, you knew him too well for your liking and you could see the wheels turning. « donât even think about it » you warned. « Come on, weâre friends, right ? You can help me out » he pleaded. « Youâre not seriously asking me to do something about this. Not when weâve been broken up for three years. » you said in disbelief. « Iâm engaged, Marshall ! Iâm getting married to another man ! » you reminded him. « You smell so fucking good. And oh god, you look stunning » he said breathily. « Youâre losing your mind » you scoffed. He pinched the bridge of his nose and lost his balance for a second. You immediately grabbed his forearm and had him sit on the small sofa in your office. He was sweating bullets and looked hazy. « Fuck, thereâs this thing in my chest » he groaned. You placed a hand on his heart. The beating seemed steady. You could see him wince at the proximity and he closed his eyes, inhaling your scent. Before you could pull away, he placed a hand on your hip and brought you closer. « Marshall » you scolded. « Sorry » he whispered - though you didnât believe for a second that he was sorry. « Can I do something ? I mean, anything that doesnât involve cheating ? » you asked. He looked at you and stayed silent for a second. « Do you think you could stay here while IâŠ? » he asked. You stared at him, flabbergasted, unable to say anything. He couldnât be serious. « I just need you near. I wonât touch you. » he promised. « I just canât stand it. Itâs hell. » he pleaded. Maybe it was the proximity and the fact that you still shared chemistry. Maybe it was the ovulation. Maybe you were just stupid for thinking you could actually help him in a friendly way. But you found yourself nodding. « No touching » you repeated. He nodded and undid his jeans. It wasnât visible before, but now that his cock was springing free, you understood what was so uncomfortable. That thing was massive. Of course, you knew his size. But it was something else. It seemed girthier, more veiny. « Oh good God » you whispered. He started stroking his length, letting out a groan. « Come closer » he instructed. You inched a little closer to him and he inhaled your scent. He kept on pumping himself, staring at your cleavage. You could see the relief in his expression. « Are you ok ? » you asked awkwardly. « Iâm- getting there. » he nodded. « Could you open your blouse a little ? ».
You stared at him, scolding him with your eyes. This man was going to be the death of you. But at the same time, you didnât really say no. You undid a few buttons of your blouse, enough to let your lacy bustier peak through. « Like this ? » you asked. « A little more ? » he suggested innocently. He knew he was pushing his luck. And you knew that he knew. Still, you did. Maybe it would be over sooner. He took a good look at your boobs and bit his lip. « Youâre hot. Do you know that ? » he asked. « As a matter of fact, I do » you said with a chuckle. « Now get to it. We donât have all night. » you instructed. He kept on stroking himself, still staring at your breasts. He had always had a thing for tits and beautiful lingerie so you didnât doubt that he was enjoying it at least a little, no matter how uncomfortable he must be. You tried to look elsewhere and think about something else, to distract yourself from the fact that your ex was literally touching himself to you. He kept at it for a little while and let out a grunt. You open your eyes, thinking he had gotten it over with but you could see the frustration on his face. « Theyâre gonna have to cut it off » he complained. « Iâm so close but- » he whined. « You can do it » you said reassuringly. And before you could even fully comprehend the consequences of what you were doing, you were freeing one of your boobs, revealing a pierced nipple. « Does that help ? » you asked innocently. He stared at you, almost shocked. « Holy fuck. Is that new ? » he asked as he referred to the piercing. You nodded, forgetting that you had it done a while after breaking up with him. « Thatâs⊠fucking hot. » he commented. « Yeah ? You like it ? » you asked teasingly. He nodded, not taking his eyes away from the small piece of metal as he pumped himself a little more energetically. By the looks of it, it was sort of working for him. You were staring at him innocently, though you were beginning to find the whole thing oddly titillating. You liked seeing the desire in his eyes. it didnât help that youâd been feeling a little neglected by your fiancĂ©, lately. And even if you knew Marshallâs desire was merely the consequence of chemicals, it still felt satisfying. The lust in his eyes was giving you the attention youâd been craving for a few weeks now. Enough for your inner demon to get all horny. You stared at him, biting your lip and gently pinched your nipple, playing with the piercing. « Fuck » he whispered. « Better ? » you asked breathily as he nodded. « Now, do you think you could come ? » you continued teasingly. He swallowed dryly and nodded. « How about you tell me what you want ? » you suggested. « Huh ? » he whimpered. « Talk to me. No touching. Just talking. » you encouraged him. He stared at you, a mixture of shock and amazement in his gaze. « Thatâs what friends do, right ? » you whispered. « Yeah » he replied breathily. « I-I could use your hands. » he said hesitatingly. « Oh yeah ? Youâd like me to give you a hand ? » you teased as he nodded. « Or you could get on your knees » he hummed as he kept going. « You always loved me on my knees, didnât you ? » you asked playfully. « Fuck yeah » he moaned. You hummed appreciatively and got up. He looked at you in confusion but before he could say anything, you were kneeling between his legs, sensually staring at him. « like that ? » you asked as he nodded frantically. You could feel that he was on the edge. You freed your other boob from the cup of your bustier and gently pinched your nipple. « Oh shit » he moaned. You nodded in encouragement. « You know⊠I still remember your taste. » you said innocently. His eyes met yours as you playfully licked your lips. You could see his pupils dilating, his lips parting, before he let out a throaty moan as he came, lifting his tee-shirt just in time.
He didnât move for about a minute after that, panting and catching his breath. His face was relaxed, though. You silently got up and adjusted your clothes, as if nothing had just happened. You turned your back to him, closing your eyes as you tried to convince yourself that everything was ok, and that it wasnât actually cheating. After all, he hadnât touched you, right ? Right ? You were taken out of your zone by Marshallâs voice. « Do you, uh, have a tissue ? » he asked. You mumbled something and tossed a box of tissues at him so that heâd clean himself. After he was done, he adjusted himself and placed a hand on your shoulder. « I⊠thanks. » he said awkwardly. You nodded, still refusing to look at him. « That stays between us, right ? » you asked nervously. « Of course » he hummed. You nodded and stared at him as you but your lower lip. The usual stoic demeanor was back. As if nothing gad happened. Or maybe he wasnât that phased by it. Maybe he had no qualms about touching himself to his ex. After all, he wasnât especially known for his scruples. Before none of you could utter any more words, you heard a knock and the door opened. Greg. « what are you doing here ? » you asked as your eyes opened wide. « I finished earlier so I thought Iâd pick you up » he said with a warm smile. « Is it a bad time ? Are you guys busy ? » he asked as he stared at Marshall. « No ! I was just telling Y/N what a good job sheâs done. » he said calmly. « Sheâs the best, right ? » Greg beamed. « She really is », your ex replied with a shit-eating grin that made you want to kill him. « By the way, man, we got your RSVP but you didnât specify if you were bringing a date », your fiancĂ© said. « Oh. My bad. Yeah, Iâll be coming on my own. », Marshall hummed. « Oh thatâs too bad. I thought Y/N mentioned you were dating ».
You felt as if you were about to faint. Greg was obviously clueless, just trying his best to be friendly, while Marshall was staring at him with an all-knowing smile. « Not anymore, Iâm afraid. » he simply replied. « Thatâs too bad. Hey, maybe youâll meet someone at the wedding. Iâll make sure youâre seated by some attractive single » Greg offered. Your ex gave him a grin and shook his hand. « Thanks, man. You know, Iâm really looking forward to it. I look at you guys and I tell myself⊠I really want what you have » he hummed before giving you his signature asshole smirk.
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feat. Caelus x GN!Reader | wc. 1.6K
sum. fireflies are fleeting creatures, and so were his feelings for you. . . or so you thought
cw. 2.0 spoilers, some intended lore inaccuracies but nothing major
note. no firefly slander in here, just some angsty thoughts I got after finishing 2.0 before bed
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Ambiguous relationships are unstable, often leads to misunderstandings. The balance that had been barely maintained by not invading each other's territory and not interfering with each other's business had begun to shake. With the appearance of a variable called Firefly. Disorganized thoughts strewn like scratches in your head.
"Caelus, how can you be certain she's trustworthy if she's hiding something from you?"
"I never said she was, she has her reasons if she doesn't want to tell me, but I'm inclined to help her now that she's in danger."
He never spared you a glance as he stalked to his room.
I was in danger once yet you never came to my aid. What's so special about her? Was your bitter thought.
There were so many questions you want to ask him. If you had tried to count them, you would have run out of fingers and toes. But when you opened your mouth, what came out was utter nonsensical question.
"What makes you so inclined to help her?"
He finally stopped and gaze over his shoulder. "She's important to me."
. . . And I'm not?
You're shakened, but his golden eyes were utterly calm. It would be absurd to tell this man to forget her and stay by your side. The idea of fleeing was anathema to him.
You don't even know the girl, but based on his descriptions prior she's exactly the type of girl he would go for and it's enough to add salt on your unrequited love.
It's obvious you two like each other that even March was able to pick up the tension, but you both remained on the neutral ground and never fessed up.
Meanwhile, Black Swan's knowing gaze traversed on your distraught ones as you follow the Trailblazer on his way back to the Dreamscape. She knows the moment she looked, conflicting feelings who are yet to be acknowledged are now catching up.
Once Caelus entered his room, the Memokeeper turned to you.
"One with a sincere heart prevails, young one. He's yet to be aware of your burgeoning feelings, having the initiative might help you with your current predicament." She advised.
You barely glanced at her as you downcast your eyes. "And endure the plausible rejection now that he has her? I'd rather be colored in green."
She chuckled. "Green with envy doesn't suit anyone. It's strange to me how certain you are with your prediction."
Sighing, you turned to meet up with the special guest whom he invited you to have a chat.
"I'll head first. Take care of him, although he can do most part of it, it wouldn't hurt to have another shield."
Black Swan merely smiled as she watched you walk away with a heavy heart. Ah young ones, always so blindsided with things that hinder them to confess.
"Apologies for the delay, your friend told me about their plans to meet with the IPC ambassador before going in the Dreamscape."
Caelus, who was about to dive in, halted at his steps and his shoulders stiffened. For a brief moment, the Memokeeper witnessed the renowned Intergalactic Baseballer summoning his grey bat.
"Aventurine? Why would they meet up with him?" Was his immediate response with furrowed eyebrows and clenched fists.
"That, I do not know. You can wait and ask them once we're done with the mission."
Who ever said he's a patient guy?!
"Well, my friend. What do you say?"
You groaned upon gracing your eyes with reality and a peacock suddenly greeted you by the tub. No wait, it's just the IPC representative.
"I-I must discuss the details with the others first before making a decision." You clutched the rim the of the tub to balance yourself from that disgruntling experience.
Transition sucks the most.
"Don't worry, I can wait but try not to make it long."
Honestly, you don't even know the reason why he's seeking you out for this. It was Caelus at first and now he's interested in doing business with you.
You're tempted to ask him but it might lead to a longer conversation and you want nothing more than to relax for a moment without sleeping.
You heard Aventurine bid his temporary farewell, but you failed to notice him stopping right at the exit before shaking his head. You were too focused on alleviating the dizziness that you failed to focus the shadow framing you
"What did he want with you?" Your blood froze right there and then
"Shouldn't that be my question? What are you doing here, in my room?" You couldn't look up at him and can only look on his knees which are the same level as your eyes.
Look up and you would see every emotion to exist on his face.
It came by a blur, you were sitting in the tub and the next you heard the water splashing followed by being engulfed by someone warm and sturdy.
He's hugging you.
You blinked once and twice.
Caelus' hugging you.
If you can even call it a hug when you feel your bones cracking.
It's not a foreign act, you've hugged once in awhile but it's usually with the four of you; Dan Heng, March and him. You've never exclusively hugged before so this notion surprised you.
"Caelus?" You softly called out as he buried his face in your hair.
"Nothing remains with me. My memories and past companies, I couldn't grasp them. Now I'm graced with so many friends, I'm always afraid everything will slip away once more and I'll be an empty shell you met in the Space Station." His voice is unusually mellowed, it reminds you of a child complaining about school.
You let yourself relaxed and surround him with your warmth as well and right at that moment you feel him abandoning his weight.
He wants to say more, however the recent events seemed to have an invisible force squeezing his heart and preventing him from talking, but it doesn't stop his tears from flowing.
I don't want to lose you, too.
He wants to say those to you, but his heavy heart and parched throat reign supreme. So he bared himself and cried to you, letting himself vulnerable in front of you, hoping that would be the bridge to convey his feelings that words cannot express at the moment.
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âiâve got my eye on you.â
characters: xiao, kazuha, tighnari, cyno, heizou, albedo, wanderer/scaramouche, venti, gorou
style: fluff, but very fluffy & comfy
song inspo: yes to heaven by lana del ray
an: dear diary, tonight iâve found out that iâm insane for writing all of the short men. or at least write them in a semi-acceptable way. AND I REACHED THE 10 LIMIT PICTURE BULLSHIT SO I HAD TO MESS UP MY USUAL FORMATTING MY APOLOGIES IF THINGS LOOK DISORGANIZED AAA
notes: not proofread, gender neutral reader, some crack, lowercase intended, most likely ooc in some parts, genuinely did not know what i was doing when iâve written this, reader being a lil sassy in xiaoâs portion, petnames: love, dearest, dove, muse, darling
xiao
âyou couldâve gotten killed. why didnât you call me sooner?â
âxiao, it was just a group of hilichurls.â
âitâs a group against one. theyâd corner you and one of them will try to hurt you. the rest would follow suit.â
âwell, what you said doesnât matter anymore now that theyâre all brutally slaughtered by you. they didnât get the chance to do that.â
ââŠyou really confuse me.â
xiao would lose it if someone or something laid one tiny little scratch on you. if itâs a serious injury bro will go ballistic.
if itâs a strong enemy, heâll end their bloodline. if itâs a mere pigeon, get ready to have fowl for dinner.
him coming to you even though you didnât call out his name was just pure coincidence.
he heard the sound of hilichurls so he followed the noises and there you were, getting surrounded by the hilichurls. his adrenaline kicked in.
he teleported to you and killed every single one of them swiftly.
heâs just worried about you, a little too worried for his own good. he canât stand losing someone else, especially his partner.
so expect him to watch you from afar more often, to make sure youâre okay. he doesnât have the intention of being creepy, heâs just your protector in the shadows.
he may not have experience in relationships, but heâs more than willing to learn by just being with you
kazuha
âmy dove, you ought to be more mindful of your surroundings.â
âi know, i know, i was spacing out and i didnât think iâd walk into someone. i was that clumsy.â
âit was just an accident, and iâm sure the recipient understands. itâs a common accident, so you donât need to think about it often as itâll be forgotten afterwards. now then, i believe itâs time you need some rest. allow me to carry you to our room.â
even though he acts so chill on the outside, deep down heâs actually more worried about you.
that someone you bumped into was actually a fatui agent.
you and kazuha were casually strolling the streets of liyue until you started spacing out and bumped into the fatui agent. effectively making you fall on your ass and a little dizzy from the impact.
the agent wasnât too happy about it, so they tried to attack you. kazuha didnât let that happen though, as he predicted that attack years ago and blocked them with his sword.
you heard weapons clashing for a few seconds until there was pure silence. you rubbed your eyes and looked up at a solemn-looking kazuha with his hand reaching out to you. (when you asked what happened he passed it off as nothing, he didnât want to concern you)
kazuha kept note to always accompany you in your travels no matter where you choose to go.
tighnari
âyou know you shouldnât put your nose into things that are unfamiliar to you. especially items that may harm you. it astounds me how youâre thisâŠ.â
âstupid? yeahâ
âwhat? no, youâre not stupid.â
âthen what?â
âyou were unaware of the contents on the table and youâve let your curiosity got the best of you. next time, let me know before you touch anything here, okay?â
tighnari would never and i mean never call you anything that would hurt you. sure, he can playfully tease you and be sassy with you, but not go as far to insult you. especially your knowledge.
heâs aware youâre smart in your own way, so he would never dream of insulting that. if someone were to insult you though, oh, he isnât holding back.
about the item that you had the misfortune of peeking into, it was a sort of poison.
his ears flicker as he heard you coughing, and he rushes to you. dropping whatever he was doing at the moment to see you. it was a good thing he had an antidote on him for that poison, so he used it on you.
after you got back to your senses, he softly scolded you about âtouching things that arenât yours blah blah blahâ
he didnât leave your side that day and left his duties for collei to handle. nothing wrong with spending the rest of the day with your love, right?
cyno
âsorry you had to go out of your way to save me againâŠfor the fifth time this week. it must be getting annoying.â
âno, itâs never annoying to protect someone you cherish. it doesnât matter if the issue at hand was unimportant or severe. your safety is my priority. on the plus side, these eremites were the ones i was originally going after. so thanks to you, i can rest easy. now that youâre safe and the eremites had been dealt with.â
âhm, actually i was wondering, out of those five attempts, how do you always manage to find me in a pinch? itâs almost as if you always know whether or not iâm in trouble or something.â
ââŠ.iâm afraid that is a secret, my love.â
much like xiao, he too is a protector in the shadows.
every time heâa gotten word youâre taking a trip to the desert for errands or anything along those lines, he will watch you like a hawk
he just wants to be absolutely sure youâre safe, because youâre on the top of his list of priorities.
if by chance he sees you in trouble, heâll quite literally pounce from the shadows to pursue justice on the perpetrators.
itâs a double win in his favor. (would most likely joke about that to you too)
heizou
âhey, are you alright?â
*you just waking up, regaining consciousness* âum, what happened?â
âoh, thank the archons, i thought you were a goner!â
âWHAT?â
âah! right, let me explain. while we were out on a case to investigate on together, you got knocked out by some random treasurer! i for one am not in it for violence, but for your sake, i have beaten him up to a pulp and then called in someone to turn him in on our behalf. so now, youâve just woken up.â
ââŠ.i did not understand a single thing youâve just said.â
âhah, i believe it may be better that way.â
âwhy is that?â
âoh itâs nothing, itâs just a small occurrence that needed to be dealt with accordingly. anyways, now that you seem to be awake and well, shall we continue with our case, partner?
oh
my boy got away with murder /j
yes, he doesnât like to resort to violence unless it had to come down to that.
but then again, for you? heâd fight the world with his bear fists
you guys are like partners in crime, so yes heâd go batshit crazy and panic if something were to happen to his beloved partner
would back out on a case thatâs assigned to you both if itâs deemed to dangerous for you
even if you insist itâs fine, he wouldnât buy that. because he loves you and doesnât want to see you get injured, much like that encounter
most definitely flirts with you and input some pickup lines he has saved in his noggin. this may be irrelevant to the topic, but heâll do this just to hide his worry for you
albedo
âdearest, please donât go running out in the cold again without having any winter-appropriate gear. i donât wish to have you catching a cold.â
âbedoâ, iâm alright! look, iâm feeling just fine!â (you sniff your nose)
â*sigh* come inside, iâll cook you some warm soup.â
âwhat about that experiment you told me you were working on for the past few weeks?â
âthatâs the least of my worries. right now, iâm more focused on your health. that i will prioritize first before my experiment.â
albedo is willing to pause his week-long experiment to look after you, what a lad.
would postpone it for as long as it takes for you to recover from your cold
he probably studies your face
itâs all for good intentions btw (for science)
gives you everything you need. more blankets? more soup? him?
oh yes he will definitely give himself to you (in terms of attention)
if he is needed for meetings or anything heâd have sucrose stand in for him, because heâd rather spend time on you than a meaningless meeting
wanderer/scaramouche
âdid you just-â
âended them? sure as hell did.â
âyou know you didnât have to resort to extreme measures, right.â
âthey had the audacity to belittle you in front of me. so i returned the gesture, tenfold.â
âokay but-â
âstop complaining, idiot. i did you a favor. next time, if you happen to find yourself in a situation like that again which i am certain itâll happen, you should take notes from me.â
âwow, thanks for the advice.â
âmy pleasure.â
love this asshat.
despite that rough exterior of his, thatâs just his way of caring for you
spare him, heâs trying
heâs doing everything he can to show you he loves you despite it being a little challenging because heâs never experienced anything that involves being very close to humans
all his life heâs been resentful towards humans, but youâre the only one that stayed by his side.
which earned you a soft spot from him yippee!
he doesnât admit it though, but that doesnât stop him from loving you
venti
âoh dear, you look a little worse for wear. say, have you finished yet another round of errands for people again?â
âventi, itâs normal for me. and it was only a few! you have nothing to worry about.â (passes out from exhaustion but venti catches you)
âah, itâs usually me you need to carry around should i have a little too much to drink. but alas, itâs my turn to return the favor.â
(whispers and runs his fingers through the strands of your hair) âyou should lay off on that habit of yours, my muse..â
yes i find it canon that youâll always carry him around whenever heâs haggard
heâs definitely clingy, i know this has been said about him multiple times but it seems we all mutually agree on this statement
the type to play you calming melodies with his lyre as your resting face relaxes.
as youâre snoozing the night away, venti is right next to you, playing soft and soothing melodies on his lyre to sooth your slumber.
never leaves the room, holds your hand while youâre asleep. he doesnât want to leave your touch for the night.
gorou
âgorou.. whatâs going on?â
âgood morning, my love! i know youâve just woken up from a good sleep but you must stay put in your bed for the day, because you need more time to revitalize yourself.â
âokay..wait. what about our comrades? the battle!? how long was i got knocked out for!?
âah!- darling, shhâŠdonât worry! we had to retreat because we were clearly outnumbered and i was the one that called it. because after you got knocked out, and how the odds were against us at the time, i didnât want you to get harmed in such a vulnerable state.â
âawww so even though you always long for victory, you called it quits just for me?â
âum- thatâs!- oh fine, iâll admit it. i was very worried about you during that battle, so i had to drop everything to carry you to one of our emergency shelters we have. and for that.. i chose to stick with you until you regain consciousness. her excellency allowed me to stay by your side, so itâs fine.â
âthatâs⊠really sweet of you, it almost brings a tear to my eyeâ
âoh nonono donât cry!!â
gorou, much like the rest of the workaholic smartasses here, would drop everything to spend time with you should you feel under the weather.
during your recovery, heâll let you pet his ears and tail if itâll entertain you/make you feel better
hear me out. when he tries to look after you during the night youâre resting, he flat out passes out next to you because of his exhaustion with his duties
which you can hear him snoring lightly, so you opened your eyes a little and pet his head with a smile on your face
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What's good is coming next?
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pile 1: hii pile number 1! all good? a moment of stagnation will be transformed. We see here movement in some area that was previously at a standstill, for your good, for your prosperity in an area. other people can also benefit positively from your prosperity, it could be your family, your friends, your partner, your community; with community work or something like that. We see here a movement towards your own prosperity, to fill your own cup, but it also seems that what comes next will also be very beneficial to others. How intriguing, isn't it? It may be your joy that radiates, because you will return to movement in something that was previously in stagnation, which may even leave you in distress previously, or with internal conflict. This joy that you radiate will be good for you and others around you. Amazing! Another case too, this area that was at a standstill, could actually have something in common with serving others too, it could be about spiritual gifts, working in care, treating people with love and kindness, etc.
In short, something will change, a positive movement in something, a snap, an inspiration, a change perhaps in your well-being, in your energy, which will become more positive. Therefore, you will be able to move something in your situation, in your environment and/or in your life that will be very, very beneficial. both for yourself and for others. Congratulations on this great news, pile number 1! Take good care of yourself, stay hydrated, get a good sleep, ask for help if necessary and you feel like it. thank you! đ·đ
Cards: I forgot to write them, I apologize my pile number 1.
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pile 2 - woah! pile 2! you probably went through a tower moment, something changed internally and/or externally. We see here that it is a positive change. With the Lovers Card and the 7 of Cups, you will have many options that will sharpen your eyes! I think there are a lot of love opportunities here, perhaps you are or will be arousing interest in several people and soon you will be able to choose. đ hmm, interesting.
Cards: the tower, the lovers, 7 of cups.
Anything else? Furthermore, your ideas and mind will be sharper during this period. allowing you more clarity and good ideas, good projects and also providing you with willpower, inner inspiration. Cards: page of wands, king of cups.
Advice: 10 of pentacles, wheel of fortune. truly accept past events in your life, past cycles. With the work of acceptance, your personal prosperity will flourish greatly. So, accepting and letting go really isn't easy, it can take time, practice - but it's something that can be learned, isn't it? Don't give up, good luck on your healing journey. Seek help and inspiration whenever you want. thank you! take care of yourself, pile number twoo. â€đ·
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pile 3 - the sun! oh, finally. some weight will be left behind, recentness, hurt, something you've been waiting a long time to release. It's as if things finally fall into place with ease and a weight is lifted from your shoulders.
In the past, you may have had to choose between two things, with the two of pentacles. Your intuition guided you a lot on this path. I wanted to talk more about the positive things, but I was called to attention. Maybe it would be good for you to reflect on something, write about your feelings, your points that led you to the decision you are making/or made at that moment, if it's your case.
The oracle cards tell you:
love surrounds you. The Spirit is there for you.
There is also more advice from oracles, among them, avoid disorganization; If you feel that you are not capable of something or a mindset, improve yourself little by little and believe that part of you is already like that, the way you want to achieve it - and/or "fake it until you make it" kind of thinking if that is healthy for you and do you good in your situation.
Cheers, pile number 3! âââ now is the time to feel loved, free, light and supported by the Universe. "Got your back!" âđŒđ±
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