#this is really just for me

[denkryn]

(reneé rapp, bruises, 2023)

[corruptlight]

Oh, My Love - A SWTOR Story

In which the Commander gets stabbed on Nathema instead of Theron Shan.

Its me back on my bullshit instead of sleeping (help) and I've been in SWTOR brainrot for a long while now and I keep thinking and creating stories based off my silly little swtor characters.

This isn't edited by the way

"I love you Theron, please, come home." Lana shuts off the holo and Sylvi begins to leave the room. Not saying a word as Lana watches sadly, knowing it was better not to say anything.

"I'm going for a walk in the woods, clear my mind." Was all she said before leaving, and not even going towards the woods. Sylvi heads for a secret shared apartment that no one knew off except her, Theron, and C2-N2.

It was for her to stop Theron being a workaholic and sleep and for her to get away from the alliance and being its commander. She lazily opens the door, before walking towards the lounge and slumping onto it. Too lost in her mind, the only thing keeping her going had ceased to exist and she finally tumbled down into a dark abyss of depression, shame, and self-loathing.

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"I swear when I get my hands on him-" Trygve starts while Ingrid and Víðarr stand with him in the field where the former Cipher Nines ship resides.

"Trygve..." Víðarr starts but Trygve swirls to face him with a firm finger pointed at him.

"HE WILL FEEL EVERY AGONY, EVERY FORM OF TORTURE POSSIBLE FOR WHAT HE DID. I WILL SEE HIM BREAK FOR WHAT HE DID TO HER!" Trygve yells, making Ingrid flinch to hide behind Víðarr making the male twin sigh and calm himself slightly at her behavior.

"Brother, we will find him. I promise you, and we will make him pay," Víðarr assures, "But, you cannot deny something about this is off."

Ingrid moves from her position slightly behind the Sith, opening her mouth to say something before her comlink goes off.

"Ingrid here," She says while answering it.

"Its Hylo, we've found the pirate that keeps raiding the transports." Hylo Viz explains before disconnecting, making Ingrid close her eyes.

"I'll go, I sense something about this that's... familiar." Ingrid says to the brothers.

"Sense what?" Trygve quizzes, making Ingrid smile slightly.

"I sense someone that I'll love until the stars go cold." The Zabrak then turns on her heel and walks away with haste.

"Andronikos revel." Víðarr whispers with a small smirk.

"That pirate that helped her recover Tulak Hord's artifact on Tatooine?" Trygve asks.

"How do you-- another time. Lets go find Lana and figure our next move to find Theron."

"Vaylin! You have too stop her!"

"It is a tainted world."

"The Force is... wrong here."

"There are things in there even I cannot protect you from."

Sylvi shoots up in a sweat, another nightmare plaguing her sleep, however, this time it felt like a warning from the Force.

"Nathema..." She whispers before springing to her feet, half consciously, half on auto-pilot.

She needed to leave Odessen, without anyone knowing, following or finding her. Suddenly feeling like she was in a jail, she checked her armor before clipping her dualsaber to her belt. She walks to her wardrobe and finds a black cloak, heaving it over herself she pulls her hood up and leaves the apartment.

She blocks off all her bonds and shrouds her force signature, suppressing it from the force users all over the planet. She knew she had to take a ship without a tracker on it, or land then use the auto-pilot to send it adrift in the galaxy.

'That would throw them off my scent.' Sylvi realizes before maneuvering to the hanger. It was midnight and no sane person would be up unless they were on patrol.

The raven haired Jedi peeks around the corner, seeing an officer on patrol. Though she hated it, Sylvi forces them into a sleep before gently having them fall to the ground and running across to the fighters. She looks around before force leaping onto a fighter, once she does she hears voices coming towards the hanger before they notice her sleeping soldier.

"Over there!" Admiral Aygo calls out before getting onto the comms and shouting orders for flight control. Because the group couldn't identify Sylvi, they figured her to be a spy, saboteur, or assassin and that was a means for capture at any cost.

"Sithspit." Sylvi curses under her breathe before getting the ship fired up and getting ready to fly out.

In her quarters, Ingrid stirs feeling a heavy and firm arm around her waist. The Zabrak hears her comm beeping and uses the force to bring it to her.

"This better be important." Ingrid hisses.

"Ingrid! We have a situation in the hanger with an unknown assailant attempting to flee in a fighter. Their intent is unknown and they appear to be a force user!" Aygo explains making her groan, feeling the person behind her start to wake.

"I might not be able to get there in time." Ingrid replies, while attempting to move but the arm around her waist keep her flush to the persons chest.

"Understood, we will attempt to detain them." Aygo tells her before she turns off her commlink.

"Andronikos..." Ingrid starts but the pirate wasn't letting her go.

"Forget them, they've got it handled." He tells her lazily, planting kisses on her shoulders and gently taking the commlink and throwing it somewhere.

"This is important."

"So? You've skipped out on dark council meeting for less." Andronikos argues, not letting her go after getting her back. The pirate moves towards the Zabraks neck slowly, knowing it would help his argument for her to stay.

"Yes... I... I know this, but..." She keeps trailing off, finding it difficult to speak, and Andronikos smirks knowingly.

"But, Sith?"

Sylvi gets the fighter moving and knows Aygo and attempting to comm her, but she left it in the staging area so he wasn't getting an answer. She watches as he sends men to go find her in what most assumed were her private quarters.

Once she finds the opportunity she flies out of the hanger and into the atmosphere while getting the hyperdrive ready and finding the tracker at the same time.

Eventually, finds two wires she remembers her brothers telling her were for the tracker and weapons.

"Blast, which one was it." Sylvi asks herself before deciding to pull them both out.

What could go wrong?

As she pulls the wires an alarm start blaring to tell her weapons were disabled. She groans before glancing to see if she was clear to jump.

"Flying is for droids." She grumbles before entering hyperspace.

Leaving her with only her thoughts and the stars.

[theupstairskid]

WeeWoo Show Speculation Post Pt 1

I'm just throwing all of my season 8 WeeWoo Show (9-1-1) speculation/questions in this post so I can get it out of my brain and try to be a normal, productive, person (press X to doubt). I hit the character limit with this so I'll have to make another part. It's really just for me but if anyone comes across this and gets something out of it, great!

Since Buck and Eddie are my favorite characters I imagine most of this will be about them. It is what it is. These are gonna get looooong.

I'm curious from a character perspective, not a shipping one, how Gerrard will affect Buck and Tommy's relationship. Because while Tommy is no longer under the thumb of Gerrard, Buck now is. And this will be Buck's first time experiencing Gerrard for himself and not just in the stories other people have told. And we know a lot about how Gerrard runs his stations based off of "Hen Begins" and "Chimney Begins." Let's be honest, Buck (and possibly Eddie but I'll get to that) will have it the easiest with Gerrard. Buck is a white man and can easily hide his bisexuality. In fact it would be very easy to throw a little biphobia in there if they wanted to (NOT SAYING THAT THEY WILL, honestly I hope not). Perhaps Tommy telling Buck something like, "You're bi, you still like girls. Just don't mention that you also like boys." And this is possible because yes, Gerrard saw them at the award ceremony, but we don't actually know if he explicitly found out the relationship between Buck and Tommy. Because, based on what Tommy said at the end of season 7, I think there's a chance Tommy's advice to Buck will just be to keep his head down and let others take Gerrard's ire. Which is basically what he did when he was at the 118. I'm not condemning it, I think-- for what we know of Tommy's character-- it's a logical thing to do. Especially when just by being who he is on the outside (white, male) and tucking away parts of him on the inside (gay) it was easier to deal with a shitty situation with a shitty person. But here's the thing, Hen and Chim can't hide parts of themselves to make them more palatable for Gerrard. Chim already tried for one, and even with him married to a white woman, I don't think it will make much difference considering the shade he threw at Gerrard during the awards ceremony. Hen will get it the worst (again). Hen can't hide that she's Black and that she's a woman. Even if Gerrard forgets that's she's a lesbian, her gender and her skin color are two major targets on her back. Plus there's no way Gerrard has forgotten WHO essentially got him removed from the 118. I think Tommy possibly telling Buck to keep his head down and not say anything will be a point of contention and a possible strain on their relationship. Tommy might even tell Buck to transfer to another station if getting Gerrard out of the 118 seems impossibly hopeless. Tommy only had a casual relationship with these people during his time at the 118, and even with his relationship with Buck and friendship with Eddie (and even Chim during the episode with Red) keeping him connected or bringing him back into the orbit of the 118, it's not a strong enough bond. Hen and Chim (and Bobby, and Eddie, and Ravi) are Buck's FAMILY. Family is everything to Buck, especially his chosen family (also Chim is his literal brother-in-law so we're also talking his actual family, not counting his relationship with Bobby) I think Buck is going to have a very hard time sitting on his hands and biting his tongue and NOT saying anything about how Hen and Chim are being treated. I think there's a possibility depending on how this plays out, that Tommy's history/response to Gerrard could negatively impact their relationship. Will it end in a breakup, I have no idea. Personally, based on what I've seen in official interviews, I don't think Gerrard will be what breaks them up but it will cause strain if they decide to go this route.

In another example of Eddie/Buck/Tommy triangle-ness, I think it would be really interesting if Eddie, who is Buck's BFF and also now experiencing Gerrard, is a counter-point to Tommy. I think Eddie (this is also depending on where he is mentally after Christopher's absence and if he's not taking time away to get his head right) would also have an easier time under Gerrard's rule. Maybe not as easy as Buck because he still is half Mexican, but ethnicity aside, he's still male, seemingly straight, a father, and an Army vet. It's a little harder for Gerrard to be awful to Eddie (I don't think he would want to touch the backlash that "harassing a decorated Army vet" would get him with a ten-foot pole, ESPECIALLY in the world of first responders. It would be career suicide and if he does have any involvement with the councilwoman that'd be even worse for him), so I think he'd probably go the route of ignoring Eddie altogether (I do think he would possibly take some potshots at him about the Chris situation but nothing that would jeopardize his position). I think where Tommy might possibly tell Buck to keep quiet, keep his head down, don't make it worse for yourself; Eddie would perhaps do the opposite. I think there's a good chance that Eddie would tell Buck to stand up for those being targeted by Gerrard and would perhaps throw himself right in there with him. They're not immune to Gerrard but might have a better chance of pushing back without major repercussions. Eddie knows how important family is to Buck, he's had 7 years to get to know him, and I think he would know that sitting idly by isn't something that Buck can do especially when he can protect his family. There's so many examples of when people thing Buck is being "reckless" what they're actually seeing is Buck being "protective." Going up on that crane and making himself a target for the sniper comes to mind. Buck isn't someone who does things by halves. I think Eddie might choose to stand with Buck or at least tell him to do what he thinks is right and that he'll support whatever decision he makes.

There's no real solid evidence to support this in canon, more of a personal observation but I feel like Tommy's just a more closed off, reserved person. I think he chooses to distance himself or withdraw when there's conflict and he's someone that always keeps a level head and never really let's anyone know how he's really feeling. Compared to Buck "heart on my sleeve" Buckly, I think Tommy being more reserved and less willing to "step in it with him" may come up at some point/cause strain on the relationship. Tommy doesn't feel like someone who shows himself fully and wouldn't give all of himself to someone else and I think that's going to feel strange to Buck. Not saying it's bad or criticizing, because I get it I can be very similar, but I think the level of commitment each side is giving and not being on the same page will come up.

I think commitment will actually come up a lot in s8. Especially committing when the chips are down and things seem impossible. Hen and Karen, Maddie and Chim committing to bringing Mara back to her family even when the odds are stacked against them. Eddie committing to Chris and being patient and waiting for Chris to come back instead of rushing to go get him. Eddie knows that now that Chris is in his parents hands, they could easily not give Chris back or could convince Chris to never come back to LA and live with them in El Paso permanently. Eddie will hopefully commit to himself and prioritize himself and his needs and wants. Commit to figuring out who Eddie is when everything else is stripped away. Bobby and Athena will commit to each other and commit to starting over again, picking up where they left off and committing to be stronger, a bond forged in fire.

Whether it leads to Buddie or not, I do hope we get queer Eddie in s8. I think it makes logical sense especially given Eddie's past issues with his relationships, the Catholic guilt, the repression. If this season is about Eddie figuring out who he is when he's just Eddie and no one else: not dad, not boyfriend, not son, not friend (if what was said in interviews about Eddie isolating himself is true) then I think it's a very logical place to go.

I think we've gotten confirmation that Gavin is coming back as Chris next season so I imagine we won't get Chris coming back until the midseason finale. Either in the last episode before the break or the first episode back. I can 100% see them making Chris' return dramatic and some kind of emergency but to be honest, I kind of hope that there's no issues with Eddie and Chris' reunion and that Eddie's parents don't complicate things

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The colors are inspired by my associations with rockstars, as well as smoke and cigarettes

No Suggested Pronouns

[aggressivedinonuggies]

Say it with me folks…

THE BEST WAY WE CURRENTLY HAVE TO ACCURATELY VIEWING OURSELVES IS THROUGH PICTURES

NOT. MIRRORS.

LOOK AT PHOTOS OF YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS

NOT. IN. THE. MIRROR.

THE LONGER YOU STARE THE MORE TIME YOUR GIVE YOUR BRAIN TO FUCK THE IMAGE UP

YOU. DONT. LOOK. LIKE. THAT.

DONT BE A LOOKING GLASS

Thank you.

Could recommend some great academic studies for further reading if you wish :)

[puppppppppy]

filipina miku!! my mom helped me with her outfit ^_^

[inkskinned]

it's extremely critical that you see the photo of the perp walk for luigi mangione as being propaganda. i've seen so many people wave it off and instead fawn over his looks. and trust me, i know it ended up being kind of pathetic and weird - but please don't brush it off as a "modelling opportunity" for him. it's a fucking terrifying message the police are sending.

i want to make a few comparisons here, in case you're not from the US or familiar with why the perp walk thing is something to pay attention to. just to set the groundwork for why this is a purposeful, unusual, and cruel act by the nyc police - for why this is not a common occurrence and for why that matters.

the prosecution alleges the show of force is due to the charge of "terrorism." for comparison, in june 2015, tsarnaev was found guilty for the boston marathon bombing, which killed 3 people and injured hundreds. his actions are considered to be an act of domestic terrorism. i have spent the last hour looking through google for pictures of similar to mangione's perp walk - and so far, i have found zero. i also just do not personally remember a moment like that, despite living in boston at the time.

they allege that luigi is a stone-cold killer who carried out a longterm plan, making him particularly dangerous. again for comparison: in nyc, recently cory martin was found guilty of the killing of brandy odom. the murder was planned and premeditated to steal insurance money. and yet no staged perp walk. why didn't her life matter enough for a "show of force"?

but mangione gets paraded by a veritable army of police officers as if he is a rabid animal. for a single citizen who allegedly killed one other single citizen, the "largest perp walk ever" occurs.

so what is the "strong message" that the mayor and the police were trying to send here? the mayor speaks as if mangione is already convicted of terrorism. there is a very thin number of people who feel threatened by the CEO's death. none of us felt like mangione needs to be under massive armed guard.

the message is that you shouldn't resist. they are trying to "make an example" of him - that if you behave badly and kill a single rich person, you'll be treated as if you killed hundreds of people. you will be treated worse than a man who was found guilty of terrorism. you will be considered guilty without trial. the message is that the rich are a protected class, and you cannot touch them without massive punishment. they are trying to prevent a revolution by showing dominance and force against you.

the message is that the police are a puppet of the wealthy and that the law is not equally applied across class disparity. it is "some are more equal than others." it is "one life is more precious than another."

the show of force wasn't for luigi. it was for us. it was a warning. they are trying to remind us who is really in control.

[theautumnaldemon]

does anyone else have a favorite tv character where whenever they’re on screen you just

[yardsards]

everything in this life is temporary. except that fandom hyperfixation from when you were 14. that thang will be with you forever there's no escaping.

[lgbtlunaverse]

The world exists in such a baffling state of simultaneous sex-aversion and sex-hegemony. Every social platform on the internet is trying to banish sex workers to the shadow realm but I can't post a tweet without at least two bots replying P U S S Y I N B I O. People are self-censoring sex to seggs and $3× but every other ad you see is still filled with half-naked women. Rightwingers want queer people arrested for so much as existing in the same postal code as a child and are also drumming up a moral panic about how teenage boys aren't getting laid enough. I feel like I'm losing my mind.

[churroach]

Full of Desires

[inganikki]

First tweet: “I saw a piece of fabric? on the floor of my room so I went to pick it up but it was actually the moonlight that entered through the window lmao”

Quote RT: “1000 years ago this would have been a poem, not a tweet”

[beepboopappreciation]

Is this anything

[napping-sapphic]

take your clothes off and get on the bed what no we aren’t having sex right now we’re cuddling and pressing every inch of skin together as close as possible for the next six hours

[hansoeii]

It was affection.

[i-will-write]

reading my own fics as a reference for a new wip and squinting at it like "how the hell did I do that"