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TIMELINE (WIP)
LOCKUP: CANNIBAL ECLIPSE AU
MAIN YEAR: 2034
Current time (as of creation- before most progression and asks): August 19 2034 (11:35 AM)
Lunar and BM1/BM2’s friendship: July 12 2034 (hours unknown)
BM1 and Moon’s friendship: July 17 2034 (hours unknown)
Family/friends photo taken: July 23 2034 (hours unknown-estimated 12:05 AM)
Lunar gifting Moon his necklace: July 30 2034 (hours unknown-estimated 1:15 PM)
Beginning of Eclipse’s spree: August 5 (hours unknown) 2034
Lunar’s death: August 6 2034 (18:40 PM)
First attack (On Sun and Moon by Eclipse): August 6 2034 (18:42 PM)
Dazzle’s death: August 8 2034 (14:29 PM)
Second attack (On Sun and Moon by Eclipse): August 8 2034 (14:30 PM)
Shelter creation (first day of building): August 11 2034 (around 23 PM)
BM1’s death: August 13 2034 (estimated to be around 7 AM)
Recruiting/saving BM2: August 13 2034 (estimated to be around 7:30 AM)
Third attack (On Sun by Eclipse): August 15 2034 (3:54 AM)
Fourth attack (On Sun by Eclipse: August 17 2034 (23:48 PM)
Earth’s death: August 18 2034 (1:01 AM)
Making Earth’s burial: August 18 2034 (1:47 AM)
#timeline#this is pain to keep track of#also kinda spoilers#spoilers to WIP fanart#wip#WIP ⚠️#cannibal!eclipse#cannibal eclipse#LOCKUP AU
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Just remember this idea I had for a fic where Steve’s dad worked in marketing and made jiggles for commercials so they had a full music studio in their house.
The local music store had a section where local artists can sell cassettes. It’s mostly poorly recorded country music from The Hideout’s open mic night, but Corroded Coffin is there too. Eddie practically stalks the shelf to see if anyone buys their music. No one ever does (except for Gareth’s mom).
Then one day, Eddie goes into the shop after work to see if any of CC’s stock is gone, and sees a new tape there. No artist name. No song titles. Just a slip of paper stuck into the case with a hand drawn rose on it.
Eddie buys it and even though it’s not his typical type of music, falls absolutely in love with the voice on the tape. He loves the music. The production quality. The way sadness seeps into every corner of side A and B.
He goes back to the record shop and asks who left the tape, but the employee has no idea. They think someone just stuck it there without permission and have no idea who they’re supposed to pay for the sale.
Two more tapes show up over the next month with a different drawn flower on it, each sadder than the last. The artist is clearly going through something. Eddie still has no idea who they are and is now stalking the shelf not just to see if his own music is selling (it’s not).
He’s in full investigation mode and it’s annoying all of his friends. He needs to know who this person is because he’s a little in love with them and also a little worried about them. It’s really sad music.
Meanwhile, Steve is just trying to process the end of his relationship with Nancy in the only way he can think of.
#if anyone likes this and wants to write you have full permission#Steve doesn’t want to keep the music because it feels like he’s keeping the pain#but he doesn’t want to throw it in the trash because that feels wrong so he sticks it on the shelf and forgets about it#Meanwhile Eddie is going insane because who in Hawkins can produce music of this quality and also has a voice of an Angel#and is just keeping that to themselves??!?#also for me Steve is playing every instrument on the track#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie#stranger things
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Unexpected but fair.
How long were we disconnected?
#uhmm if it looks weird or ugly thats a you issue. Sorry not sorry im trying not to burn out by doing overcomplicated animation every time!!!#teehee#hes a pain in the ass dude gooooodddddd this took longer than i'd hope itd take...#but the background looks pretty fuckin cool i think it was worth it#theres so much to do in this environment#also lmfao i had to change the palette bc of damn color theory. so. he may be sickly green. maybe.#hngrfthhhhh its done thank god now we can move on#i have an 11 day deadline to get where i need to be LETS GO LETS GO#he doesn’t usually keep track of time btw :-)#[you've got mail!]#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#deltarune chapter 2#uhhh if he looks weird blame.. uhm.. blame him because his ass was believe it or not TOO TALL for the canvas#youre telling me this short little shithead was too tall???#fgrtrggffghhhhhh
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if you're still taking requests, please please please draw some bitlomo (bitters/palomo)!!! if you're not up for it it's okay, i'm just obsessing suuuper hard over them lately x3c
"Shut up, Palomo," "Is this about the sniper rifle thing? Because I feel like it's about the sniper rifle thing," "Oh my god," "Cause if it is the sniper rifle thing-" "CHARLIE. SHUT UP!" ... "I shtill feel 'ike you're mad 'bou'he shniper rihful thing," "For fuck's sake"
#rvb#red vs blue#rvb bitters#rvb palomo#my art#batsy art#palomo is the kind of guy who tries to keep talking when youre holding his jaw... cant take a fuckin hint can he#mr oblivious#lil sad that bitters' angry eyebrow got kinda lost in his hair! but i enjoy his bangs too much to do anything about it#chorus blorbos go brrr#when i tell you this sent me on a wildly off the tracks train of thought about the lts in general.... lmao#also do you have any idea how hard it is to talk while someone is holding your face like that. its a pain in the ass. dedication to the yap#palomo is doing raptor hands i just didnt feel like doing his whole arm bc a lot of it wouldve just meandered off the edge of my canvas so#disembodied hand for him its fine
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Kark if I can remember who I've sent return "boops" to.
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Do you think knights radiant who formerly had chronic pain of some sort still experience phantom versions of that pain bc they're so used to being in pain, even tho being radiant seemingly permanently heals conditions like that
#jasper rambles#i just. its so strange to think about a world where my pain could magically be fixed when ive become so used to it#the stormlight archive#knights radiant#stormlight archive#what else do i tag this as id love to hear peoples thoughts abt this#i have a hard time keeping track of radiant abilities too so im a lil shaky on the lore
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Doodles yay
#ren won't shut up#oc#persona#aighh#i kinda like drawing everything one layer likr this but it can be a pain#BUT! only one layer to keep track of!
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How did you manage to handle not one, but FOUR separate accounts in fl? I recently made the account for my HD little guy but having to do the tutorial again just seems miserable
there's... weirdly several answers to that question, actually??
a HUGE part of it is due to the way FL is structured. the 10-minute action timer is a core part of the game on a fundamental level, and the fact that i can very easily run out of stuff to do on one character and thus have an excuse to quickly and easily swap to another is just... convenient? satisfying? i'm not entirely sure how to explain it. the fact that i can make progress even while i am fundamentally simultaneously Not Making Progress is like pure dopamine for my freak insane awful little brain. there's just something really pleasing about spending all of my actions pursuing The Goal Of The Day™ on one account before casually swapping to another and doing the same without feeling like i'm wasting time or acting to the first account's explicit detriment. the downtime helps! the recharge time helps! the structure really really works!!
i'm technically only actively playing three, maybe two accounts minimum. the only reason the fourth (the one that'll be my future BaL playthrough) currently exists at all is so i can get his earlygame completely out of the way now and not have to waste time running through it all later, when what i actually want to do is play the ambition i've made myself wait a full year to play. and also getting free goodies as seasonal stuff happens,, something something surprise tools to help us later. the only two accounts i'd say i'm really "actively playing" at the moment are caeru and lark- and of the two, lark takes the most priority, since his ambition is the one i'm currently pursuing in earnest. for a couple months now- despite being My Main FL Character- the scoundrel has actually been pretty inactive on a gameplay front outside of the occasional progression in TLC and discordance content. purely by virtue of having Very little left to do outside of Very long-term grinds and vanities. they're in their "now what?" "now you can start playing the game" era. they've graduated to previous protagonist background cameo in a sequel anime series. they're like the yin FLPC equivalent of red at the top of mount silver. they're Literally just vibing rn. i only keep posting about them regardless because i'm insane and i will never ever ever ever ever let that bat go. but yeah, big TLDR, outside of doing the bare minimum to keep making waves/notability up every week, i'm not actually spending that much time on accounts i'm not currently actively interested in playing. and that accounts for way more gaming spoons than you might think.
i have a virtually lifelong history of playing MMOs, especially and specifically world of warcraft. i was born in the endless grind for useless video game pixel vanities and/or bragging rights. molded by it. you all have merely adapted to doing the same piece of content a pointlessly excessive amount of times for literally no reason besides whimsy and folly. me? i've done my time. i've served my sentence. i've spent weeks doing the original burning crusade netherwing dailies. i've devoted days to running praetorium over and over and over again, back-to-back, nonstop, long before square enix cut it in half and made it NOT take at minimum an hour and a half per run. i've perfected my silverwastes + auric basin goldfarming strategies. i've (almost) crafted dragonwrath tarecgosa's rest. i've killed the sha of anger so many times its dying scream of agony is embedded into the very fabric of my being. ""only"" doing making your name content four times over? that is nothing to me. it means nothing to me. it is so infinitesimal i can do the persuasive seduction quests in my sleep. it's not a matter of handling misery, or having the capacity, or even sighing as i remember the brass embassy raid segment of the watchful questline seriously i don't know why i keep forgetting that exists or what even is my problem with it i just am so consistently mildly inconvenienced by it and its highly specific resource requirements and it is the worst thing ever. maybe i'm just so used to the scoundrel's near-infinite money and troves of disposable items that i've completely forgotten what being poor is like. despite having done that step 3 fucking times now. ahem. anyway. i have transcended the feeble mortal bindings of my resistant-to-grinding flesh and ascended to a higher plane of enlightenment, they may call me insane but they will be the ones left laughing when they see what that "insanity" has wrought, i've usurped them, i've usurped them all-
hacks and coughs and awkwardly clears my throat. i mean. uh. um. Ahem.
the empress' court artistry + tales of the university nerfs helped too.
#and yes#before you ask#i have forgotten which account has which items/has done which content many a time#i think the most painful incident was forgetting to keep up the scoundrel's making waves while i was still playing nemesis with caeru#given that im trying to build it up to 12 and reset their specialization... that was uniquely painful#then again they have like 40 BDR so it wasnt actually that inconveniencing lmao#fallen london#ask#long post#sorry for the infodump + sudden villain monologue.#all jokes and personal accounts aside i totally get the apprehension abt doing that stuff again#it's not for everyone. not by a long shot.#im only doing this because im genuinely invested and in love with this silly little browser game#and way back when i started i made a (only half metaphorical) solemn oath to experience all of its ''main stories''#and truly see everything it has to offer#(bc i like. physically cant do hyperfixations by halves. i need to consume Everything abt the thing or i'll explode)#(and even then i'll probably explode anyway. it's either completely drop it or go All In until it stops taking up so much space in my brain#(and. given the track record. that is not happening with FL for a while yet)#but like. that isnt actually normal behavior. just. just to clarify.#from what ive seen a VAST majority of people do not go out of their way to play literally every ambition#and that is so valid. it is so overwhelming. you have to juggle so much.#you have to play the earlygame So Many Goddamn Times.#(as i said. served my time. did my sentence. i am my scars. etc etc)#the best advice i can give as someone who's so completely desensitized to that repetition it doesnt even phase me anymore?#the same advice i can stress to all FL players. legitimately just take ur time with it. play when you want to.#dont when you dont.#sometimes you have to grit your teeth and bear things. and when it comes to alts you Will have to grit your teeth and bear it all again#but the beauty of this being a game that one plays for fun is that unlike. say. crushing deadlines or annoying coworkers in real life#you are completely within your power to decide when where and if you want to grit and bear it all#..wow this is ADVANCED yin rambling holy shit. i actually reached the tag limit. i think this ask should be put on some kind of list
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i hope eramis finds athrys eventually :,(
I do too :,( it's what she deserves, she's gone through so much already and what I think would be the best for her road to recovery is being granted the grace to settle down with her wife and children in some semblance of safety and dignity to try to heal- I'm really hoping that she'll be able to get that, maybe with Eido and the YW's help, maybe just by herself
I was hoping that we'd see Athrys and the kids in game at least once but I don't have too many hopes about that happening, mostly bc I came to the realization that they'd have to put a name and number on all of them if they did so. I came to this realization when trying to write Eramis fic where I MYSELF was trying desperately to juggle not naming and numbering Eramis and Athrys's 'many hatchlings', however, so I don't exactly blame them for copping out of this one
#trying to keep track of feanor's 7 sons was painful enough as is when reading the silmarillion#and he had only 7!! thats like one big eliksni litter!!#how many is 'many' to a species that has their young in clutches?#anon#reply#destiny 2#eramis#athrys
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yayyyy happy seattle night 1 and happy haim night 1!!! it’s time to play the surprise song game :) to clarify this is ONLY for the surprise song set so guesses of nbnc won’t be counted if it’s a setlist addition. if you think it’ll be a one night only surprise song thing then feel free to guess it but it would be way to much for me to keep track of everyone’s guesses otherwise. but anyway as per usual just drop your guesses in the tags or replies and i will give you a shoutout if you’re right 🩷
my guesses are right where you left me (i know) and the outside
#almost went invisible but i have a weird feeling that she already played it (even though i don’t ACTUALLY think she did?)#ITS GETTING SO HARD TO KEEP TRACK#mine#surprise song game#taylor swift#i’m currently experiencing massive pain thanks to unlucky like us#so i feel like tonight taylor is just gonna pile it on
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#succession#tw: csa#like the constant CONSTANT jokes about the topic where he's the victim#the sudden bedwetting before he was just sent away to school#the feelings of responsibility for keeping his family happy and together and Good we're all Good#his self-loathing around sex and intimacy#the way his siblings refer to his physical abuse in a pretty blase way but everything around When He Went Off To School is vague#the show spends a ton of time showing that his actual memories of his childhood are on two tracks: what his siblings saw and what he felt#his father convinced that there's something wrong with him#some fatal crack that can't be fixed - and roman agrees#and PARTICULARLY in the most recent episode when he reveals he couldn't breathe normally around logan#and shiv goes to ask frank and karl 'how bad was dad'#like I don't think logan was the one who did this specifically to roman#but it was clearly someone logan knew#shiv the girl with the selective memory but the girl who knew not to be around those men#being moved enough by her brother's pain to confront the panicked sliver of a question: did dad do this? and if not - did he know?#logan didn't like women but he loved his little girl#shiv was safe#roman? not so much#'why bastard? why base?' why indeed roman
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Read in January and February
Austenland, Shannon Hale (reread)
Warrior Heir, Wizard Heir, Dragon Heir, Cinda Williams Chima (reread)
The Lives of Christopher Chant, Diana Wynne Jones
The Tainted Cup, Robert Jackson Bennett
A Gentleman in Moscow, Amor Towles
Endless Night, Agatha Christie
#want to get back into keeping track of the books I read (because I AM reading again!!!)#so I’m back on wordpress ladies and gents#reviews will be shorter probably than they have been#and less regimented#don’t know if I’m going to keep up on Instagram…I should but the pain and bother of taking pictures really can’t be overstated#cate reads
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my mind is a machine that turns superpowers into chronic illnesses
#chronic illness#spoonie#disabled#chronic pain#autism#superpowers#look.#telepaths have chronic overstimulation#the shapeshifter has hypermobility#the oracle can’t keep track of where she is in time#the one that can see ghosts also has schizophrenia and can’t tell the difference#the blood hunter might have hemophilia#power is a draining force and if they can’t control it they’ll all destroy themselves#can you tell i’m chronically ill
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list of games i really want to play but i Knoww i will be bad at:
omori
LISA (painful/joyful)
fear and hunger (1&2)
#its specifically party turn based games like those that im bad att.#im already bad at keeping track of one character and you want me to keep track of three more ??!#i own both painful and joyful and it has been Staring at me . and i feel so guilty that i havent played it at all LOL
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omg I don't think I actually made a post about this but the best thing happened to me almost a week ago
I GOT A WHEELCHAIR!!!!
It's just a standard hospital wheelchair BUT IT FITS SO WELL and it was ONLY $79 FOR SECOND HAND
I'll have to update y'all with my process once I'm done customising it but so far I've made wheel covers
Any suggestions are greatly appreciated!! Its an Aspire Assist 2 for reference but it didn't come with foot rests so I just crocheted myself a strap
I am looking for some help with the strap though, it's weak and digs into my feet if I'm not wearing shoes and when I am wearing shoes it just flops around and its not great so if anyone has any ideas how to improve its stability that would be great

a terrible image of my wheelchair tbh lol
#disability#cripple punk#disabled#cpunk#chronic pain#cripplepunk#actually disabled#wheelchair#moony talks#moony wheels#starting a new tag for myself to keep track of what i've posted lol#undescribed
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Stage one of dental/jaw treatment cost £410 today 🧍🧍 If any of you would like to help me out you can paypal me and I'd really appreciate it.
If you're unfamiliar, I'm disabled and medically signed off work with ongoing chronic/incurable conditions like fibro/EDS/ME etc. I don't like asking for help but I'm looking down the barrel of a very long, frankly horrifying gun in terms of this specific problem. @krokaxe for srb purposes.
#krok.exe#I really hate to ask here but. I'm at a loss#Entering the PIP fight is coming soon and my fellow disabled peeps know Exactly what that's about to entail#(suffering)#The £410 is for a guard to stop me cracking/grinding my teeth; bite force is cracking and chipping my teeth lmao (grimace)#The bruxism/misalignment is fucking up my jaw joints and all the ligaments and connective tissue in there#The muscles in my face are in a state of constant tension and I have TMD of the joints. I have a constant headache or migraine#I won't be able to do anything about my misaligned jaw until I've done something about All This :')#And it's driving me Insane#Like fr I'm in pain 24/7 as it is but the TMD flares are so intense that I genuinely go out of my mind with pain and *nothing* makes it sto#And all of that is made worse by the fibro etc grinning thumbs up emoji here#So if you help me out know that I'll appreciate it#With every fibre of my being#and I'm sorry I can't offer you anything for it on the grounds I am ... fucked tbh#I'll keep track on this post if you guys do help me out#No pressure though ok#I know we're all in the actual pits
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