U know the funny thing abt celes is that she is a normal person, but for reasons god only knows chose to develop the most questionable yet intriguing fake speech pattern of all time, and I imagine that after years of existing in that persona the language is undeniably interwoven w her regular voice and thoughts, but the amt of it thats present at any given moment depends on the situation her emotional state her age who she is surrounded by etc like. Lots to consider and is half of that incorporated into my fics in any meaningful way?? Prob not I just get to go insane abt it why is she Like that
indexer’s temperament moment but. obviously i am guy who wishes more ancient texts survived (villa of the papyri pspspsps) but. i do also love how there is so little of everything that it is possible to have really specific comprehensive indexes
my lil bro: *literally LEAPS out of bed at EIGHT in the morning, gets ready at the speed of LIGHT, and proceeds to spend the rest of the day studying and playing chess before turning on the TV to watch videos ABOUT chess*
me: *wakes up at ELEVEN and eats breakfast at ONE before spending the rest of the day playing the piano, writing FANFICTION, and laughing at stupid THOMAS THE TRAIN MEMES on PINTEREST*
this is the SILLIEST creature in the whole world. I wish i could keep him somehow but alas. Eddie really does look nothing like a rooster at 20 weeks and I was sure his odd squawking crow or two was just a fluke. But Eddie is definitely a cockerel and was very displeased and threatened by this extremely threatening looking creature existing nearby his ladies. Matildo's s in the dog crate in the house for the night and then going back home tomorrow.
Me, needing to make a character for a new dnd campaign: You Don't Need To Play Another Rogue. You Don't Need To Play Another Rogue. You Don't Need To Play--
maaaan it's a weird vibe when a youtuber with the conceit that they're a licensed clinical therapist actively talks about how they don't accept sponsorships they don't put their full backing behind, and then that same youtuber accepts a supplement sponsorship repackaged as "bedtime hot chocolate"
Like. I need more of the Lottie-Van-Taissa dynamic. I need it so badly. Because Van is acting as fulcrum to the two girls arguably MOST supernaturally linked to the Wilderness. She is Tai’s anchor and Lottie’s acolyte. She believes in them both without pause. She is accepting of the rituals presented: Lottie’s bone necklace and Taissa’s rope tether, Lottie’s meditation and Taissa’s nighttime travels. She is trying so hard to articulate to Tai why she should talk to Lottie, why that might help her. And Lottie is so easy, out of the two, because she is so accepting of what’s happening to and around her. But it’s Tai. Tai, Van’s love. Tai, Van’s purpose. From Taissa’s perspective, she’s the sanity, the logic center of this new world they’re in, but from Van’s perspective: she’s the soul to Lottie’s spirit. They are matched. They are one coin, and they could be so strong if they would just work together. Van knows this. Lottie would know this. But it runs in direct opposition to how Tai sees herself, who she needs to be, so she flatly refuses. It is such an excellent trifecta of a dynamic. Lottie as leader. Tai refusing to follow. Van stretched in both directions. You can’t guard the whole net at once. You have to be able to move. So how on earth will that play out?
"#bc they are my own and not canon. and i don’t want people to think i’m wildly misunderstanding the character#bc i more than understand and am also invested in the boundaries of canon. but i also like doing what i want#and deconstructing and reconstructing narrative and characterization#and i feel like people won’t know that but i also feel so silly putting a disclaimer over everything i draw of being like#‘oh this is my own thing actually’ LOL"
I relate to that so hard with soooo many of my stories. Like I brought up my own version of The Boys™ but genuinely I feel this with so many of my interests. Like, Undertale most of them because it genuinely has a super deep complex story a lot of people tend to misunderstand or not care about or not get the themes, and I love talking about The Themes and How Cool The Game Is and Common Misconceptions
Then I make a fanfiction that's like. Nothing like canon even a little bit. Genuine it is sometimes the fucking opposite of the Point Of The Game and like if someone ever pointed that out to me I would shake them and go I KNOW I KNOW I CARE ABOUT IT WAY MORE THAN YOU DO LET ME EXPLAIN IN DETAIL JUST DON'T INSULT ME OVER IT I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING
YEAA U GET IT HAHA! i don’t feel that way about every series bc i like to think im pretty decent with Media Literacy and like to respect authors wishes whatnot but like.. in particular stuff that’s both extremely oversaturated to the public and/or purposefully vague enough in either character or plot so it has room for exploration (like pokemon and undertale) by its Very Nature people are gonna take it and run with it! that’s why so many of those undertale aus got crazy popular, people just like pondering the “what ifs” and i think that’s wonderful. on the other side i know how frustrating as it is to see people obviously misunderstand smth in a piece of work you hold dear but in the end i don’t think it’s very productive to be mad about esp if you don’t have Ownership over that work. for better or for worse putting things out there for an audience people will always engage with it differently and it’s fine tbh. in the end if u aren’t hurting anyone then who cares!
ON A SIDE NOTE thank u for the extremely nice tags and comments 😭😭 it’s smth that i get so easily self conscious about even if i know it doesn’t really matter but its always so kind to hear that you enjoy my stuff and can relate to my plights haha