#this is my 5th read through
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so im annotating my copy of my heart is a chainsaw. its just highlights. Purple. The anotation is Autism. No further explination.
#actually autistic#autistic characters#my heart is a chainsaw#jade daniels#stephen graham jones#im down to share some of the highlights#i also dont think shes canonically autistic but theres a ton of evidence#ive read this book so many god damn times#like 4#this is my 5th read through#my copys a lil fucked up but that can be said of all my books#imma be real honest i love my books but i am HARD on them they get warped and manhandled & it does not bother me#books are for reading. the way i read is verociously in questionable transitions of location#sometimes u melt a gummy on the edges of ur book cuz it was in ur bag thats all im saying
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My books and manga. I'm aiming to expand it this year!


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Also Makoami bonus cause I'm normal about them

#i dont read a lot#even manga#slowly reading through dunmeshi rn#soo good!#the old man and the sea and glass castle are the mandatory hs reads yes#glass castle was still p good#the old man and the sea is boring af im srry#kitchen by Banana yoshimoto is a masterpiece and more people should know about it#i've read it like 4 times#on my 5th rn
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I’m on the 7th chapter and I’m not ready for it to end. I can’t. I can’t do it. It’s so so good.
It’s 2 am I gotta sleep but I just had to say something.
Go read it if you like pain and fun and silly and sweet speedingbullet. I cannot describe it well enough but it’s just fantastic
#sniper’s notebook#i love sniper#tf2 sniper#tf2#tf2 scout#speedingbullet#sniperscout#aussiebookworm#going through the motions#you might see my comments too (I only made like two closer to the 5th or 6th. probably the latest-ish ones since I read them recently
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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hey guys so I just started reading Flatland by Edwin A. Abbott and OMG AHSBNSBSBSNSNBSHZHSHDBFHGGHFHGRJ2KSHSBSNSK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THE RELATIVITY BETWEEN DIMENSIONS!!!!!!
#probably the nerdiest thing i will ever read in my entire life but I AM SO HAPPY#Its the unabridged and corrected 1992 republication btw. if you wanna get specific#the only book in which i have actually decided to read the introductory notes and i do NOT regret it because the editor's one IMMEDIATELY#brought up the “oh but surely the second dimension has thickness how else would flatlanders see anything” AND GAVE A REALLY GOOD ANSWER.#which i cannot tell you here. bc it is several paragraphs long and idk how i would shorten it. i would hit tag limit. if thats a thing.#anyways. I'm only a little bit into the first part which basically explains how Flatland works as a society so i haven't even gotten to the#sphere yet but OH MAN I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO EXCITED ABOUT A ROUND OBJECT IN MY LIFE#IM LOSING IT OVER THIS BOOK AAAA :D#me: im so glad i dont have a math class during my senior year! now i dont have to learn anything math-related!#also me: but what if i started studying a complex and almost entirely theoretical part of geometry#bc YEAH i didn't just buy this book bc of gravity falls. I BOUGHT IT BC IVE BEEN RESEARCHING THE 4TH DIMENSION WOOOOOOO!!!!!#one thing i will say i dont like. introductory note suggests the the 4th dimension might be time. this is ok tho bc its followed up with#also saying that time is not a spatial dimension and exist across the 0 1st 2nd and 3rd dimensions which. that epuld mean we live in 4d#already. so. i was worried for a second but THANK YOU THANK YOU OH MY GOD PEOPLE TRYING TO SAY “OH THE 4TH DIMENSION IS TIME” I HATE THAT SO#MUCH AAAAGGHHHH AT LEAST RECOGNIZE ITS NOT SPATIAL!!! TIME IS NOT A SPATIAL DIMENSION!!!!!!! IF IT WAS THEN 4D TRAVEL AND TIME TRAVEL WPULD#BE FHE SAME THING AND DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY MUCH COOLER POSSIBILITIES WPULD BE THROWN AWAY IF THAT WAS THAT CASE!!!!! AND. AND. IF THE 4TH#DIMENSION IS TIME. THEN WHATS THE 5TH?? 6TH?? YPU CANT KEEP GOINF ON FOREVER LIKE THAT. YPURE JUST MAKEING MORE 3D WORLSS WITH STUFF IN#ADDITION TO TIME. INTERESTING BUT THAY IS NOT ABOHT HIGHRER DIEMSBSJSNSBAKAJSHDHDHHDHDHDJ#sorry for the rant. jsut. agh i want a spatial 4th dimension. i dont think tesseracts exist through time that would just be an aged cube#anyways yeahhh i love the 4th dimension. new hyperfixation or new special interest? ill have to wait and see. anyways i have done it i have#an oc whos 4 dimensional now and she is the coolest ever i love her#but yeah this book is sosososo good i am literally gonna bring it to school to read instead of draw bc i would lose it if i didn't#10/10 would recommend to anyone who wants to Think
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A bit old but after the mikan and rei comparison I should probably keep picking through KK since most of yall dont even know that it exists
#I didn't realize any of this and this is like my 5th read through of it#scarposts#Like the theory that Takumi is Sparkling Justice but that's a known theory#So much shit in this fucking manga ugh#Btw that Sparkling Justice theory does hold alot of weight#If true I just love how full circle everything gets in this fucking book#yasuke matsuda#Matsushima
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Sorry, I can’t, I’m just too cute today 💕 (Patreon)
#Doodles#DDoodles#I have had a very good day today :D Lots of laughing and reading and playing and to top it off I look and feel extra cute :D#My favourite hoodie and a tank top underneath - realized recently it's a killer combo hehe#And a rainbow heart bandana my brother got my for Christmas <3#I have been wearing it and the other one he got me camp-counselor neck-scarf style for what I think are obvious reasons (Handplates)#And technically ''normal'' pants but they're a very shiny material lol#They're not leather or squeaky or anything they're this nice sleek and heavy material#Very nice to the touch :) Just very shiny!#I've always love the look of bare shoulders and everything else covered and yup! Looks cute on me too! Haha ♪#So since I was feeling so cute I decided to make it my warmup :) Which ironically lasted longer than my intended art of the day lol#Didn't feel like it tho! :0 I felt slow the whole way through both lol practice leaves me so quickly haha#Still tho :D Rather pleased with both!#A good expression of my good day hehe ♪#First digital of 2024 off to a good start ♫#[First uploaded Jan 5th] Lol
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i'm going to finish my reread of aftg today
#my post#i started it a while ago and got through like 1/3 of trk but it's time to lock in#this'll be the 4th time i've read the main trilogy and the 5th time i've read tsc
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I met 5 out of the 6 students on my Kindergarten self contained autistic support class and I gotta say I think I legitimately have been blessed with the best, sweetest, and MOSE ENTHUSIASTIC class ever!
#unusual thing to say on tumblr ik but im actually so unbelievably excited#only behavior I witnessed is a kid taking my letter cards out of a pocket chart to say the sounds which is freaking ideal lol#I may be overly optimistic but I may be able to push all of them into their typical Kindergarten classrooms full time by January#and nobody is giving red flags for any aggression? OR property destruction?#I got beat up and had my room torn apart nearly every day last year this may actually be too good to be true#AND they all have nice responsive fun knowledgeable and supportive families?!?!?!#three of them have a behavior tech to support them through their parents health insurance?!?!#and I only have Kinder so I don’t have to work around multiple grade level schedules and multiple curriculums#I had to plan completely different lessons for my Kindergartners and first graders for both reading and math last year#so I literally only have to do half of the planning I did last year#and I have two brilliant paraprofessionals who I know and like and who also like me#this is actually a dream come true#we’re going to make so much progress while having more fun than anyone else in the entire school#the kids were already getting along so well at the open house#this is my 5th year teaching and the first time I actually feel ready and excited for the first day
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Guys once I finish rereading the Harry Potter books and going into major deep dives of the marauders fandom, I’m gonna write for some of the characters
#hiro talks! ♡#like I never got passed the 5th book#but I keep going through the marauders fandom bit by bit because of TikTok#and I’ve become obsessed#I think a funny part of when I stopped reading the 5th book#was after the chapter where Harry goes into shapes memory and sees what a dickhead his dad was#like when Snape called Lily a mudblood#I can’t remember what chapter it was#but the last page of that chapter was page 600#which is insane cause how the fuck is someone gonna wrote a 800 pages book??#I’m rambling but I like rambling#🫶🫶🫶#but yeah#I really do like the marauders era from what I’ve seen#I haven’t read any of the big fanfics in the fandom like all the young dudes and crimson rivers#but I probably will eventually#like after I read Harry Potter#I have so many books to read and I wanna read them all but I need to wait till my birthday cause one of the books I’m getting#Is in the middle of the series (the tyrants tomb from toa) and I have legit every other book#I buy things in really random order 😓😓
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rereading the first paragraph of my work and seeing a grammatical error literally made me feel like i just got ran over by a truck oh my GOD
#u don’t get the gasp i was holding back from gusping#FROM THE 5TH SENTENCE???#i literally proof read my work how did this happen i can’t#worst feeling a writer could ever go through#— stella can’t stfu (•̀ ᴖ •́)❗️
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why does this stupid two issue manga that was released in 2004 have such a fucking grip over my life god dammit
#it’s all ive thought about since i first read it in 5th grade all those years ago#ive carried it with me through every fandom#it owns my fucking life and always will#sulley speaks#if you have to ask which manga then i envy you
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"Lan Zhan, it took me years to get a single look from you. It took me years to earn your trust. It was always me - making the first step, confessing, telling you that I love you. It was always me planning all the trips and dinners and anniversaries. It was me getting these cushions and those plates, Lan Zhan."
wow so he's always fucking sucked
#that's not the real lwj.....wwx needs to get out of there and like. find him#I know in my heart the real lwj loves planning shit and buying household items. I know it is. he loves to cook also#again the housewification of wwx in this fic#we are like 1/5th through too this is a CLOSE read#ficblogging
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do you have any ideas about why so many students are struggling with literacy now? I know that illiteracy and reading comprehension have been issues for years and most americans read at like a 5th grade reading level but I’m curious why it seems to be worse now (pandemic? no child left behind?)
It is everything. There’s not one answer. I could talk about this forever so instead I set a five minute timer on my phone and wrote a list of as many of the many things that are causing this on a systemic level that I could think of:
It’s parents not reading with their kids (a privilege, but some parents have that privilege to be able to do this and don’t.)
It’s youtube from birth and never being bored.
It’s phasing out phonics for sight words (memorizing without understanding sounds or meaning) in elementary schools in the early aughts.
It’s defunding public libraries that do all the community and youth outreach.
It’s NCLB and mandating standardized tests which center reading short passages as opposed to longform texts so students don’t build up the endurance or comprehension skills.
It’s NCLB preventing schools from holding students back if they lack the literacy skills to move onto the next grade because they can’t be left behind so they’re passed on.
It’s the chronic underfunding of ESL and Special Ed programs for students who need extra literacy support.
It’s the cultural devaluing of the humanities in favor of stem and business because those make more money which leads to a lot of students to completely disregard reading and writing.
It’s the learning loss from covid.
It’s covid trauma manifesting in a lot of students as learned helplessness, or an inability to “figure things out” or push through adversity to complete challenging tasks independently, especially reading difficult texts.
It’s covid normalizing cheating and copying.
It’s increasing phone use.
It’s damage to attention span exacerbated by increased phone use that leaves you without an ability to sit and be bored ever without 2-3 forms of constant stimulation.
It’s shortform video becoming the predominant form of social media content as opposed to anything text-based.
It’s starting to also be generative AI.
It’s the book bans.
what did I miss.
#i’m not immune to any of this. I’m trying to read more. it’s good for me#I think that the literacy crisis is a manufactured result of a lot of different policy choices because it creates an exploitable underclass
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実況中継 | RADWIMPS from 『 RADWIMPS GRAND PRIX 2014 実況生中継 (会心の一撃編 / パーフェクトドリーマーズ編) 』
#実況中継#jikkyochukei#radwimps#音楽#gif#my gifs#we interrupt your irregularly scheduled kenshi yonezu programming to bring you this latest radwimps gifset#for their 23rd anniversary :)#the beginning of the grand prix 2014 実況生中継 tour also fell on the 5th according to 今日は何の日#which i must reiterate is tearing me asunder emotionally but in the best way#as is the 20th anniversary website !#i didn't even get a chance to look at it until i got to work this morning#but i spent my entire lunch break going through the history tabs & ohhhhhhh 🥹#how is it possible to feel so at peace but also so hyped??#there's months of vinyl record releases to look forward to#(since i pre-ordered them already 😈)#also ! after reading the cute little blurbs at the bottom i realized these aren't re-pressings !#it's their 1st time !#everything about this is truly so special#you can really tell how much planning & consideration went into all of it#i can't wait to see how the rest of the year unfolds :')
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Would like to impart to people how thoroughly we are Not taught anything in american school systems; they'd just Say Things and never provide any surrounding context like where something happened on a map which led me, as a smaller kiddo, to think the renaissance entirely took place in what I thought was the middle of europe (about where czechia is) and I'm also realizing we never got shown where the Galapagos islands were, for all the talk there was about them
(obviously I know all of this now and that was entirely through my own effort, just know the way we're taught is very much anti thought and understanding)
#da#all my good learning legitimately happened through pbs#idk if I'd've given a care about learning if I hadn't grown up on pbs#oh and let's not forget like 80% of my graduating class essentially never getting above a 5th grade reading level#I was also in Appalachia this whole time to give people some idea of how it was#I really do love appalachia though it's so so beautiful here even if I've never seen beyond the foothills+ ripples they're still magnificent#there's no fucking money or opportunities here thoughh :)))))#no money to leave never enough to stay it is awesome#the reason so many people are ~stuck in ohio~ is because of economic oppression full stop
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