#this is just a vent post if anything
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I hate to be the person complaining about fanfics, but reading Leopika fics can be a bit difficult when you kin Kurapika more so than the other characters lol.
I feel like there’s barely any emphasis on the fact that he’s grappling with the literal genocide of his people. It’s not one person or some members of his family, it’s literally everyone. Everyone and everything he’s ever known, completely gone yet simultaneously haunting him as parts of them can’t be laid to rest properly (the eyes) and sold as some exotic commodity, completely dehumanizing their bodies even in death--I also wager it is part of their culture to be buried "whole."
He’s carrying that guilt and the fear it’ll happen again to the people he loves and who love him. He’s carrying the legacy of every Kurta clan member on his shoulders. He’s grappling with the disappearance of their culture, sans himself attempting to keep it alive amidst revenge and a quest that may very well kill him. He doesn't want to do the things he's done, but rather views it as a necessity to achieve his goal (to catch a monster, you become one, essentially).*
If this was One Piece, I’d somewhat understand the vitriol in majority of the fics—how frustrating it is that Kura doesn’t open up to his friends, since One Piece begs the characters to trust their friends wholeheartedly (thinking about Nico Robin and Trafalgar Law in relation to Kurapika). But Hunter x Hunter is entirely different in its approach to trauma and interpersonal relationships in general.
I know it doesn’t excuse how Kurapika’s coping mechanisms affect the people who love him; if anything I appreciate how fic writers explore the pain of watching someone you love trying to fight alone and fighting in self-destructive ways. This aforementioned aspect in fics is not what I'm usually picky of, but more so how his trauma is constantly overlooked or underplayed.
The comparison to Gon is something I also don't mind in terms of how hard-headed and self-centered they can be when it comes to their goals (tunnel vision). However, it is not a 1-1 comparison. It always goes back to the fact Kurapika is carrying a genocide on his back vs. Gon carrying the loss of one person. Above everything else, grief is absolutely valid. But I do think there's such a thing as someone grappling with a person's death vs. an entire society and subsequently their culture.
(Much is similar when it comes to aforementioned OP characters, especially Trafalgar Law, when their loss is often compared to other characters but it doesn't quite amount to the same level psychologically and physically. For example, his loss to Blackbeard is often compared to the Strawhats losing to Kuma, when it is entirely different given the context of both characters and crews' backstories and world connections).
Killing the Phantom Troupe is one thing I don't necessarily mind when other characters urge him to let go, since killing them won't bring his clan back. What vexes me boils down to the mission of laying his clan to rest being treated as something easy to give up, I feel like it loses sentimentality. Especially when the fics, and occasionally metas, usually entail every single character shitting on Kurapika for essentially not giving that up.
If there’s any character who hates Kurapika with a passion, is Kurapika. No other character needs to do that for him because he does it plenty for himself, given both his survivor’s guilt and the guilt of hurting the people he cares for.
Anyway, I rarely complain publicly like this, nor do I like to. Following etiquette, I don’t keep reading the stories that aren't for me, and choose to work on my personal WIPs, of course. This is a vent, if anything. It’s just hard when the fandom at large seem to mischaracterize the your favorite blorbo 😅
*Disclaimer. I wouldn't even bother putting this here if I didn't see people arguing Kurapika is willfully enabling the upper class' oppression just because he works for rich folk, plus claiming he himself subscribes to capitalist and oligarchical ideologies compared to Leorio, when that's not true at all lmaooo. Kurapika came from a clan that has deep connection to nature, they were far removed from society at large and lived through deep communal relationships and "trade," they used what was available to them; I wouldn't be surprised if there was little to no monetary system in place. His notion of what is honorable and what isn't has nothing to do with capitalism, it boiled down to doing what is right at the cost of yourself, that's why he is literally sacrificing himself to avenge his clan. Him disagreeing with Leorio on reasons why to become a hunter and having to work for the Nostrade are not AT ALL congruent with agreeing to a capitalist and oligarchical view, what are you people on?
#this is in no way discouraging people from writing#I understand people may have different interpretations#this is just a vent post if anything#idk why i still try but some discussions on ttk also have ppl acting like kura doesn’t care about anyone#‘he would’ve let gon and killua die’#are we watching the same show#???????#anyway#maybe i’m just being picky 😅#kurapika#kurapika kurta#leopika#hxh#hunter x hunter#one piece#straw hat pirates#trafalgar law#briefly#might delete later#I don’t like to apply personal feelings when it’s like literary lens#but I’m doing it since fanfic is inherently personal#if I went thru something similar yeah idk if I would abandon the goal Kura has#at least when it comes to recovering the eyes#vent post
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"why does fanon love making Jason care about his goons when he kills them in canon" I'm sorry to tell you that Jason's Robin run is a significant work for his characterization. And that Willis Todd was in fact a goon. Like, that's a significant thing that happened.
(jaybin fans exist not every Jason fan is a hardcore UTH fan who thinks everything about Winick's writing is pure and just and the right way)
#look i get liking Winick's jason and he's a super important jason writer and wrote two of his foundational works#but there is a third one and it's called Jason's robin run#and asking jaybin fans to accept anything especially classist/psychophobic depictions#just because winick wrote it#even when it contradicts important elements of Jason's story and origins#is unfair#i don't think he should have been a crime-lord in general a killer yes but not a crime-lord#but if he did become a crime-lord I can see the appeal of him doing it in a way that gathers community#also: “why do people like making AUs where things are more fun” idk maybe it's because it's fun#sorry for the vague post but#sometimes i get annoyed at people using one writer for a character to diss people's AU#while disregarding other aspects/important runs of these characters#vagueposting#vent post#jason todd#dc#red hood#dc comics#robin ii#jaybin#fandom discourse
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When your identity issues collide with your feelings of being unwanted ;p
Oops! Loops angst /personal vent!
Only doodle cuz. eepy.
#no sketch#straight from brain to paper#cuz eepy#in stars and time#isat#isat loop#isat siffrin#isat two hats#it's more-so implied than anything buuuut. kinda important for context imo??#cuz y'know. Not Their family#they already have a Siffrin so there's no need for Them#yk yk#id tag the rest of the party but like.... i barely drew thems......... idk idk i feel like there's not enough of them to tag em yk???#i was originally gonna color this and shit tbh i just. ugh. tired mann i don't wanna do all thatt#maybe i will in the future. probably not but. maybe.#vent#vent art#vent post#my art#art tag
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early years

and more stuff down here


just doodles, and a very stressed out me. thought this was a perfect time to post since i’m actually going back to school tomorrow for my last semester of high school lol. happy late new years btw (oh and brony headcanon i got from @bonkerbuster69 . you are cooooollll)
#markvid#cotc#elders of the creek#elder mark#elder david#my art#back on my shit. even though i haven’t really been off it#actually vent a bit cause tags make me comfortable for some reason#nothing serious but i get MASSIVE anxiety whenever i post literally anything on this site. because eyeballs are staring at it judging#like fresh meat#and iddkkkk eeeeuuggh it’s scaaarrryyyy#and that’s why i haven’t been posting jack shit but anyways. that is the life of a young adult on the internet for you ig#i talked about it to my therapist and woh is me and no surprise or anyone. i am afraid of the unknown#that unknown includes not knowing what people think of me and my art#so yeah gang i think i legit just have mad anxiety issues lmao#oh fuck i see a typo#whateverrr#anyways bye again. i must become a cog in the education system once more
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Okay I'm so sleep deprived so pardon whatever this is but something that's got me FUCKED up about ai generated pictures songs writing is that it just fucking kills the ability to analyse for me because there's no fucking INTENTION behind it. Like why was this decision made why were these colours used what does that say about the work NOTHING because a bunch of programming took work that DID have intent and theme and purposeful choices and turned it into SLOP. Like I COULD analyse this but it doesn't MEAN anything it's EMPTY I want to EXPLODEEE
#Like you can. You can technically analyse ai work for theme and visual literary etc motif but it's all fucking slop to me man#It's making me so cynical about like. Art. I guess. Given the state of corporations and capitalism and the endless stream of#MAKE MONEY BY ANY MEANS. FOR EVERY SECOND THE LINE DOESN'T GO UP WE EXECUTE A HOSTAGE#Like FUCK#I saw that fucking coca cola ad on tv and I wanna get violent man. Like the ad as a representation of all of. This#I know an ad isn't the same kinda thing it's just on my mind#Like nothing means anything anymore it's all gotta be slop it's all gotta be easy corporate slop to appease the market. Every fuckin thing#Ai generated shit is just an endless meaningless hole of malicious thieving garbage and I want to commit a crime#Sorry hi I've been back on that doing art professionally (kinda) grind and I haven't slept in a solid three days it's kinda wearing on me#Gonna be real lads#Oh also that's another thing this is my fucking. Like career path. I do art. And I have to monetize my one great passion. In order to eat#And pay for the constantly exploding rent prices. And now corporations are like hmmmmm#What if we didn't even pay you for that#What if. Hear me out. We stole people's work and made a computer do it#AND THE STUFF THE COMPUTER IS DOING IS GARBAGE#MEANINGLESSNESS SHIT ON TOP OF MEANINGLESS SHIT. FOR PROFIT#Uh anyways I'm going to bed now I have to get up in 3 hours I hope everyone has a better night than this and gets some rest!!#ai mention#vent post
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"You make me sick. The you who has everything. I hate all of you."
"You've been staring for hours."
#spot the trauma challenge! (easy mode)#does it count as vent art if it's a fictional blue turtle#I hid so many fun details in this piece#who knew that feeling a bit upsetti would cure my art block#Tw: battlescars#self loathing#trauma#my shayla#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#artists on tumblr#rottmnt leo#rise leo#art#my art#krill_enjoyer#artwork#hatred#can be read as a vent post but im lowkey just too mentally exhausted to make anything brimming with whimsy#ive been playing cookie run kingdom for 14 hours.#rottmnt leonardo#Leonardo has a bad time (TMNT)#tag on ao3#can also be read as a disassociation episode which wasn't exactly what I was going for but i can see it now that im done
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It’s been 4 days since I drew any of my self ships.

#like yeah I drew a few f/os and fankids#even drew some stuff with my original characters#but nothing with my f/o(s) and my self inserts together#and trust me I’ve been trying for days!!#I keep thinking that maybe I’ll get new crushes since I been rewatching old childhood shows and that it’ll get my creative juices flowing#but I keep stressing myself out about it#that I keep jumping around too much#like I keep disappearing offline lately and then every time I return some drama is going on in the self ship community#and then I’m just confused as hell because no one really tells me anything#I’m just left in the dark#and maybe folks just assume I already know when this shit is happening but no#and then I feel kinda left out#which then I feel like I’m not close enough with people to know what’s happening in the community#which I guess I mostly blame myself that I don’t interact with others much because I’ll post something and then disappear out of nervousnes#and I’m always too scared to interact with any fandom to try to make friends with others who are into the same things#fearing I’ll be looked at like a freak for self shipping#hence why I usually only interact first with other self shippers compaired to those who don’t#well self ship#I didn’t mean for this to turn into a vent#it’s like 4am I should be sleeping#but I mostly feel just… numb#where I wouldn’t say it’s my depression acting up again (it was at first)#but I do feel like I’ve been on autopilot lately#💬 chy chatter 💬#ventish#vent
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girl who is so understanding but treated like she's impossible to understand
#no this isn't a vent or anything. i've never really been bothered by this#just thought i would mention it here bc it's kinda weird and Not Really Fair if you think about it#but it's not a big deal to me at the end of the day#girlblogging#this is what makes us girls#just girly things#this is a girlblog#just girly thoughts#just girly posts#girlhood#i'm just a girl#hyper feminine#girly things#pinterest girl#it girl#dream girl#femcore#femcel#the female gaze#girl blogger#gaslight gatekeep girlboss
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I come on this platform mostly to just have silly fun, but seeing queer, and especially trans infighting on my dash is so frustrating.
Friendly reminder that if you don't support all queer identities you can fuck off. Building a community requires supporting eachother, but don't think I will keep people in my community who care only about kicking down others, that's crab bucket behaviour.
Support transmascs. support transfems. support intersex people. support non-binary identities. support trans men. support trans women. support bi people. support pan people. Support Ace people. Support Aro people. support lesbians. support gay men. Especially fucking support black queer people. Especially fucking support indigenous queer people. Especially fucking support asian queer people. Especially fucking support SWANA queer people. Especially fucking support Jewish queer people. And any intersections of the above, and likely the many I've missed.
No one else's identity is lesser just because it is different,
#Kind of a vent post#probably shouldn't post like this tbh#cuz it might invite bad faith actors tbh#But I'm so damn tired about people pretending transandrophobia doesn't exist#speaking as a transfem myself#I don't care about what the specific term is or how “clunky” it sounds#Transmascs have a right to discuss their own oppression#just as us Transfems do#And a proper queer community sees us support eachother#Transfems that do not make space for transmascs in their life are not my allies#Same goes for any other queer identity#Some INDIVIDUALS are truly shitty and are not part of my community true#but we don't abandon those in our community for speaking up for themselves#Transandrophobia#transmisoginy#To be clear I am upset with people bashing transmascs and blocking those on sight#transmascs venting/talking about their oppression or the harrassment they face are not doing anything wrong#Wether they receive said harrassment from transfems or not. does not matter#Also anyone trying to argue “those don't count as queer though” about any group of queer people is a ghoul and not an ally
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Someone in the discord of my old college's trans club posted a poster for an upcoming talk on transmisogynoir, but said alongside it "v important white t boys learn this stuff" and like, fine, yes. White trans guys need to learn this stuff, as they can perpetrate it, knowingly or unknowingly, causing harm to black trans femmes.
But it the continued villainization of trans men that frustrated me to no end. The language of their post was just so condescending and unnecessarily snide with their use of "t boys" as if college students are "boys" who don't know any better.
But like, also why single us out. Anyone who is not trans femme and black at the same time has the capability of perpetuating transmisogynoir. White trans men do have an axis of privilege not gained by black trans men, but on the flip side, you're assuming white trans men have an axis of privilege over white trans women, which we really just....don't.
This goes into much more transandrophobia theory and trans feminist theory. Other people have better posts than this one just trying to rant about an attitude within trans spaces that is disheartening.
Trans men are not privileged on the basis of gender. Every privilege that we may gain is incomplete and conditional. Trans male is a marginalized gender.
#transandrophobia#too lazy to tag anything else#this was mostly just a vent post#not any substantial theory posting
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“jinx is just as bad as caitlyn! the double standards with zaunite characters is crazy!” yeah maybe so??? caitlyn, born to a politician of a privileged city, using said citys resources to unjustly attack an entire nation with unnecessary force and police brutality because she’s upset with some of the people that live there holds so much more weight than what jinx does. if caitlyn specifically started targeting JUST jinx with cruelty it’d maybe be different but she’s attacking a whole city of innocent people. and if your knee jerk reaction to that is “they weren’t all innocent” i’m going to need you to sit with yourself and contemplate wether you seriously think attacking a bunch of people simply because there’s a CHANCE one of them might be guilty of something is reasonable. where a character in arcane is from is important to every and i mean EVERY action they take. “it isnt that deep” oh but it is!! the sociopolitical conflict between zaun and piltover is literally one of the pillars the show is built off of!
#arcane critical#fandom critical#anti caitlyn kiramman#just in case#i wouldn’t say i’m ‘anti’ anything bc i find its use on the internet to be kinda stupid#but i don’t want to throw this in someone’s space that is trying to just enjoy the character#i know how exhausting it is as a silco fan to see the tenth million post that’s like#‘erm am i the only one that thinks-‘#NO you aren’t <3 hope that helps#you can make the post and vent about the character that’s literally what i’m doing just be cautious of your space#and if you’re seeing this and you’re tired of critical posts against your faves hi <3 filter the tags girl it’ll help you so much
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"just like old times, eh, cucho?"
#my scribbles#vypersketches#valorant#valorant fan art#brimstone#valorant brimstone#tejo#valorant tejo#digital art#i worked so hard on this and (like usual) not very satisfied with the end result but i am trying to be more proud of my work#and be braver ion doing more big pieces with backgrounds and then posting then#sketches my comfort zone...#i used to be able to paint and then i stopped for so long and digitial painting is so hard to me#every time i watch a tutorial im like yeah duh of course and then i start and i just start taking tick damage#it takes so looonngggggggggggg#and then i always dont like the end result#i know to improve i need to practise but boyyyyyyy#i want to be able to paint so bad!!!!! i love paintings!!!!! i used to love the process!!!!#but now to me it is eternally in the ugly stage and i cannot get the balance between line work (my fave and often called my strong point)#and nice shapes and juciy colours#colours are a whole different thing#traditonally i use whacky colours and i love it#and as soon as i go digital its like i get petrified of using anything other than the original colours with no lighting and no adjustments#oh god this ended up as a vent#anyway enjoy i have tejbrim on the brain
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The fans: Ugh Sonic was just so preachy. I mean obviously he's supposed to be the good guy, so any uncomfortableness I feel here and any way I feel like Sonic's choices are framed as being why some other people have shitty lives is just bad writing because he is obviously supposed to be right always, but this characterization makes no sense. Isn't he right for the things he did?
Ian Flynn, using Kitsunami to say the (barely even at this point) quiet part even louder: Hey it's almost like ever since the Mr. Tinker event we've been purposely running with the critique of Sonic as being more selfish than he appears. Sonic is upholding a system of Eggman v Sonic that currently benefits him and shuts down talk of how to improve the current system because he likes his own personal enjoyment and he's attached enough to Eggman that he'd rather Eggman pretend to be a good person than be stuck in prison for life. He doesn't even quite practice what he preaches. We are trying to show that the current hero v villain system and Sonic's recklessness currently affects some people poorly and that Sonic isn't a perfect hero.
#fandom wank#sonic the hedgehog#idw sonic comics#idw sonic 2024 annual#2024 sonic annual spoilers#idw somic comic spoilers#idw sonic spoilers#idw 2024 sonic annual spoilers#i just be ramblin#god one of these days I need to commit to the sonic character essay#because you HAVE to be able to see Sonic as a multifaceted character that is surprisingly selfish and a bit self centered despite his image#as a good hero who is always right to understand what the writers for Sonic Prime and Idw Sonic are trying to do#The point is not that Sonic is secretly a bad guy or anything#the point is that we're already primed to assume that anything Sonic does is a good thing because he's a hero and protagonist of what is#considered a 'children's media'#And people who can see those moments in different games or properties times where Sonic isn't being so good as him actually not being so#good of a person are primed to explain it away as flaws of the writing or the genre at that time *because* Sonic's behavior is not said to#be bad or punished in those games#And become we're already primed to assume that Sonic is already the good guy who's making the best choices no matter what‚ it's supposed to#be shocking when the narrative takes a step back and gives a critique of this status quo by showing us the effects of it#But instead of having some sort of eye opening event or being willing to meet the narrative where it's at#99% of the people who post here got uncomfortable and just doubled down‚ saying that because these things are being pointed out and some of#Sonic's actions (that aren't even alien to the games)#are being framed in a not so good light‚ then it must not be purposeful. That it must be bad writing through and through and just bad#Sonic characterization#because for people who claim they want Sonic as a series to be deeper and more thought out they sure start to pearl clutch when they feel#like a property isn't being as shallow as the very same games they think kinda suck#anyways anyways sorry about the rant I'll get back to regularly scheduled posting after this#vent post
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please don’t be sad little sprout, you are loved 🌱 🖤
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#🌱Thank you<33🌱#I guess my latest vent art post made some of you guys worried. I'm sorry ;;n;; )#but I'm alright. well.. kind of? Like I haven't done anything to myself kind of alright?#maybe I should explain bit about my situation but at the same time I don't feel comfortable to open up too much#but simply said it's about doing art as a job and mental health#Things haven't been going well but I am getting help for my mental health#This is all what I will say for now about my situation#I apologize again that I made you guys worried#but I do warn that I might post more vent art if I get enough energy to draw#this is just one way how I deal with my emotions#but if you don't like vent art I suggest to block the words vent and vent art#I remember tumblr has this option somewhere??#and uhh.. I don't really know how to end this post but thank you everyone who has been sending support<33#I might not know how to reply to them but I have read them all and I'm very thankful for all the support what you guys have given me🌱#Thank you🌱#ask#anon#me talking
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social convention things i genuinely didn't know i was supposed to do on tumblr until recently
reblog saying something in the tags when you take part in someone else's ask game
respond to people who rb + leave tags + reply to your fics (i thought i might come off as overwhelming if i did it but it turns out it's expected)
tag your stuff liberally (so people can filter certain stuff etc)
check your followers regularly and follow back people who are also writers (so sorry to the people that followed me 2021-2024 because i genuinely never checked anything ever ohmygod)
there's probably more but yes i fear i have committed lots of faux pas and i apologize dearly for the people i did not do this for genuinely i had 0 idea
#also the whole thing about like if someone doesn't follow you back ur supposed to like understand they don't like you or something?#i don't understand that still or how i would know so if someone could clarify that for me that would be great#cora vent#<- not actually but just in case#so sorry if you thought i was tactless or that i was mean bc i didnt do these things i genuinely like . i just don't know things...#i fear i don't know anything sometimes#cora talking#oh and you're supposed to respond to other people's selfship posts and fics w something as well when you rb... i rbed without saying#anything for so long bc i didn't wanna come off as like being the weirdo in your tags screaming but apparently that is like . normal and#welcomed as well. yeah i know i'm just a lil dumb#also if someone could clarify what you're supposed to do if someone interacts w u a lot but doesn't follow u that would be great too thanks#like apparently that means i'm supposed to interact back or follow first or smth like it's a hint???
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