#this is definitely not a mitski reference /s

[sleepy-vix]

ok who let dorian listen to brand new city??

[nightcolorz]

loveee the armand music discussions i feel the need to talk about some of my most armand songs of all time (no mitski this time as we’ve already discussed that ^^)

- notre dame by Paris Paloma (literally any paris paloma song tbh esp the fruits and labour but notre dame isn’t appreciated nearly enough) Very very religious guilt armand, angel symbolism heavy, also very cult era armand in paris. I would put lyrics here but oh its the whole song. its the entire song.

- Abstract (Psychopomp) by Hozier. again impossible to put specific lyrics but the song being about painful memories, getting past traumas with new loves, and heavy symbolism of a hurt animal in the road and the singer feeling kinship with it is just so SO armand imo its impossible to explain. i always think of a deer being the “poor thing in the road” in the song though it is left to interpretation, and armand’s doe eyes very much come to mind with that.

- Spellbound by Siouxsie and the Banshees (Following the footsteps of a rag doll dance, we are entranced, spellbound) Both these lyrics and the intense sound of the song bring to mind Armand’s heavy use of and skill with the spell gift, especially in TVL (for books) and s2ep5 (the show) You do feel entranced by his spells even if you don’t realise it and this song captures it perfectly (also i think S&TB are very armand overall so honourable mentions to Cities in Dust, Arabian Knights and Melt which are all sooo armand as well i just didn’t want to make this so Siouxsie-centric)

- Devils Don’t Fly by Natalia Kills (Angels were never meant to fall, and you were the loveliest of all) This song reminds me so much of 2018 YouTube but oh the lyrics are so very armand. Always called an angel, even referred to it as shorthand, but so torn religiously that he could never be holy, never be more than a demon with what he is and has been through. But being made so young and so beautiful, its very fallen angel of him.

- speaking of angels, Not Strong Enough by boygenuis (Always an angel, never a God, I don’t know why I am the way I am) I don’t feel like i need to explain this one it just Is

- Teen Idle by Marina (I want back my virginity so I can feel infinity, I want to drink until I ache, I want to make a big mistake, I want blood guts and angel cake) & (Adolescence didn’t make sense, a little loss of innocence, the ugly years of being a fool, ain’t youth meant to be beautiful?) Just something about Armand finding his worth through his beauty and physical desire, not to mention the utter horror of having to be a teenager forever, seen as that same sort of obscene beauty forever. The line about drinking and making mistakes feels very Venice-era as well, with Amadeo’s main coping mechanisms being getting blackout drunk on the daily and sleeping with people he knows he shouldn’t because he doesn’t feel like he’s good for anything else or even able to do anything else (which of course also leads to his death eventually)

- Jolene by Dolly Parton (Your beauty is beyond compare, with flaming locks of auburn hair) Definitely sillier but reminds me a lot about how people in the books (especially lestat) wax poetic about how beautiful Armand is and fear it somewhat in a mix of jealousy and insecurity.

- Dominion / Mother Russia by Sisters of Mercy. this one is much more vibe based that lyrical but there is the detail of armand being described as russian in the books and also the lyrics being very repetitive and prayer like (as well as the ‘some say prayers’ line) very much remind me of his repetitive prayers both when young and in the cult

- Swan Upon Leda by Hozier (One more sweet boy to be butchered by men, But the gateway to the world is still outside the reach of them, Would never belong to angels, Had never belonged to men) This song is overall about sexual violence and reproductive rights, but these lyrics deeply remind me of Amadeo’s abuse as a child and young man, and of men feeling a right to him and his body because they found him beautiful, angelic.

I have about a million more but I won’t go on too much. Hope you like my choices and give them a listen if you’re unfamiliar with any (to anyone reading this <3)

AHHHHHHH THANK U FOR THIS IM OBSESSED!!!! GONNA ADD THE ONES THAT ARENT ALREADY ON MY PLAYLIST RNN!!! (I already have got not strong enough, Jolene, devils don’t fly, teen idle, and Notre Dame, we r the same person). U get Armand like no one else mutual kittenbradensgf. Devils don’t fly made me laugh because it’s also on my Armand playlist because 2018 AMV YouTube songs r always so Armand to me 😭 !!! Ur so right the lyrics r so him. angel of darkness is on mine and I can’t stay it’s entirely ironic, lmao. Ugh this is my favorite I’m gonna run in a room and listen to these forever, ur analysis is so good

[cannedbeefaroni]

Real Men (Burt Fabelman x Fem!Reader) (Angst)

Update: here’s part two. It contains smut btw

Summary: An artist breaks down from burnout in a park. A passerby takes notice and shows her sympathy.  Content: DEPRESSION, HOPELESSNESS, DADDY ISSUES, HURT/COMFORT, PINING, COULD BE ONE-SIDED, NOTHING OUTRIGHT ROMANTIC HAPPENS

Reader is referred to as she/her, and is an art major in college. She is in her mid 20′s. 

(this fic is inspired by the song Real Men by Mitski. is it still cringe to name fanfics after songs?)

Though honestly sir, all I wanna do

Is get naked in front of you

So you can look me up and down

And tell me “well done girl, you’re looking good”

She ripped the pages from her pad one by one, crumbling each one into balls before tossing each one into the trash next to the park bench she sat on. Some went in, and others rolled onto the floor. Her hot, flushed face ran with cold tears. The spring breeze sent chills to her face, reminding her of how exposed this pathetic expression was to the public. Hunching over, she buried her face in her hands, wishing she were home instead. 

Unknown to her, a passerby took notice of her distress, but once she heard approaching footsteps, her body froze. She knew the person would just carry on, not saying a word, but the fact that they were close enough to see every moment of her breakdown made her feel so much worse. The footsteps came to a stop, as she heard the cracking of bones of a person bending over, and the crumbling of paper next to her. To her horror, she looked up and saw a man unfolding one of her drawings, observing her work. 

“It’s beautiful… Why did you throw it out?” The man said, glancing back and forth between the page and her. 

She froze, wanting to just disappear. She dreaded the judgment of older figures, and this man looked as if he could be one of her stone cold professors. Between the white button-up, glasses, and demanding presence of a man with experience, she felt like she was about to get drilled into 

“I messed it up… I’m really bad at drawing landscapes.” She admitted sorrowfully. She was unfamiliar with being approached by polite strangers; she felt backed up against a wall. She dreaded awaiting the man’s response. 

“Aw, don’t say that. You’re clearly a talented artist. You shouldn’t be that hard on yourself.” He sat on the opposite end of the bench, leaving a large gap between the two. She became tense, knowing he was going to engage in more conversation with her. “So, why are you drawing in the park?” 

“I have to draw from life, it's for an assignment,” she answered sheepishly, staring down at her lap. 

“Is it a high school art class?”

“What?! I’m in college! I go to an art school,” she blurted out, her stomach churning at being mistaken for a teenager. 

“Oh, I’m sorry! I just never have met anyone who’s gone to school for art… but I suppose the world needs professional artists as well…” he seemed to have trouble understanding the idea of an art school. 

“I’m trying to get into the industry, and a fine arts degree will make that easier for me.”

“I’ve never been to a school like that myself, but I imagine it’s just as stressful as any other college,” he tried to relate.

She wondered how long ago he graduated college. It was hard to tell his age, but he definitely looked old enough to have a wife and kids. Well, technically she was also, but she had only just reached the age where marriage was on her mind. On the other hand, he seemed to be at the age where his life is figured out, and he’s already created the family he’s always wanted. The way he acted reminded her of a kind and caring father; similar to the type she’d meet while visiting a friend’s house as a child. His demeanor made her smile, and she couldn’t help but trust him already. Ironically, that fact made her also feel wary of him, being unsure if people that nice can actually be genuine. 

“So, you don’t do landscapes; I wonder what kind of artist you are?” he hummed inquisitively to break the silence. Strangely enough, he did seem interested in her art. Her eyes lit up at the question, excited to discuss her interests with him. 

“I love to draw people, as in portraits and studying human anatomy. I want to be an illustrator, but in order to do that I need to improve my background art. That’s why I had to take this landscape class… It’s just so frustrating. It’s just so boring to me,” she rambled to him, flailing her hands around as she spoke to emphasize her points. He nodded along as she spoke, grinning as he looked at her with sincere eyes. 

She felt flustered every time her eyes met his, and she took notice of his expression. She wondered if he looked at her this lovingly even though she was just a stranger, then she couldn’t imagine how much love he gave his wife and kids. The thought wouldn’t leave her mind, and she felt embarrassed for wondering about his personal life so much. She didn’t know a thing about it. Perhaps he didn’t have a family at all, but that was hard to believe when he was so nurturing by nature. 

“I’d love to see your other drawings, if that's okay.” He looked back down at the drawing she threw out, tracing his fingers along the paper as he admired her work. 

She winced at the question, knowing exactly how this would go. She recalled all the times her family, teachers, and classmates would laugh in shock at her anatomical drawings. She worried he’d get the wrong idea about her, and assume she’s some kind of pervert. Or maybe he’d get the wrong idea and start seeing her sexually, as most men tend to do. She spiraled in split seconds as her trust in him dwindled in these hypothetical situations. What if he thought the nude female models she’d drawn were her? 

“I draw naked people,” she sternly blurted out, trying to set the record straight before facing embarrassment. “I have to draw naked models from life in school. I don’t want you getting grossed out by it-” 

“Hey, hey, don’t worry. I already know that. I’ve been to museums; I’ve seen my fair share of nude art,” he cut her off, trying to ease her worries. “Of course, you don’t have to show me. I’d just love to see you in your element.” 

Silently, she passed her sketch pad into his hands. He carefully grabbed it, and began flipping through the pages delicately, as if it were fragile. He spent a considerate amount of time on each page. His eyebrows raised and his eyes widened as he whispered “wow” at the still life’s and figure drawings. He took everything in wholeheartedly. He reached a page with self portrait studies, and paused on it for a little bit.

“Are these of you?” He asked.

“Yeah.”

“They’re gorgeous… and they really look just like you!” he praised. 

She wanted to gasp at that comment. He just indirectly called her gorgeous, and that little bit of praise made her want to explode. Her face grew even hotter than it was when she was crying earlier, and she worried that he could somehow feel the heat emitting from her. She continued to speak, but it was difficult to concentrate as he stared at her so damn innocently.

“I have to draw portraits pretty often. I don’t know anybody who’s willing to let me draw them, so I end up having to draw myself a lot. Sometimes I’m required to draw other people, so when that happens I get stuck.” She rambled until her voice trailed off, trying not to talk too much. 

“Your friends don’t let you draw them?” He raised an eyebrow. . 

“I-I don’t really have any friends, actually. But not because no one likes me; I just… keep to myself too much. I’m fine with it. I don’t really mind being alone,” she nervously laughed as she spoke, trying to seem like what she was saying was actually the truth. 

“I’m sorry. That must be lonely…” He frowned in an almost perfect inverted smile. “I hope you know it’s perfectly normal for girls your age to be shy; but I find you charismatic.” 

“I’m not as young as you think I am… I’m in my mid twenties,” she stated as politely as possible, trying to assert herself.

“You’re still very young, but you carry yourself as a mature young woman. I’m sorry if I made you feel like a child. Just shows my age, I guess,” he laughed nervously. 

“You can’t be that much older than me. I thought you were in your early thirties.” 

“Oh, I wish” he chuckled loudly at the assumption. 

Her heart sank as she realized he was probably old enough to be her father. Her head dropped in embarrassment. 

“Though, I was going to say that if you need someone to draw, I’d gladly be your model,” he grinned. 

“That’d be really helpful, actually… Thank you.” She lifted her head, almost beaming. Despite how shy of a person she was, drawing random strangers was second nature to her. He passed back her sketch pad, and she readied her pencils. 

“So, what pose should I do?” He asked giddily, clearly excited about being drawn. 

“Um, just lean your arm against the bench and rest your head against your hand.” 

She reached over, guiding his arms into position. After doing so, she realized that had moved closer to him, and even touched him. The fact that such a simple thing stuck with her made her mad at herself. Brushing it off, she sat back and began sketching. Starting with round shapes to build the body, she took in just how soft and round everything about his man was. His head shape, body, eyes, and smile were all so pleasantly round. She avoided drawing his face, so she wouldn’t have to make direct eye contact with him. Eventually, she finished rendering the folds on his shirt, the strands of hair, and even the shadows on his skin. 

She looked at him to see him staring back at her. It only just hit her that he was watching her draw this entire time. The way he stared with such a gentle expression was mesmerizing. To her, it felt like his gaze was one of yearning. She wondered if he thought she was beautiful, just like she thought of him. Her heart raced as her desire to capture his expression on paper intensified, but no matter how much she rendered, every stroke felt incorrect. She wasn’t doing his beauty justice, and her thoughts beat her up over it. Eventually she was basically finished, and she held the drawing back to observe from afar. She wished she could’ve tore it up and started over, but she didn’t want to waste his time. 

“Can I see?” He asked eagerly, leaning over to get a glance at the page. 

She looked up at him with worried eyes, and darted them back at the page as she continued to observe her work. “It’s a little rushed…”

“Come on, let me see!” 

She turned the sketch pad around, showing him the portrait. He took it into his hands slowly, staring at it in pure awe. As he occupied his vision, she stared intensely at him. He was wonderstruck. 

“There’s no way you drew this so fast,” he laughed in shock. “This is so… indescribable! I’d buy this off you if it weren’t for your assignment.”

“Thank you,” she replied blankly. 

Staring at the ground, she tried to hide her embarrassment from his overwhelming praise. It felt almost patronizing, but then she realized she hadn’t been praised for her work in so long. Usually, people don��t bat an eye at adult artists, and she only felt like a prodigy up until age eighteen, when she graduated high school. It was strange being appreciated at all, especially by someone she just met. 

“Am I really that handsome? You made me look so flattering.”

“All I did was draw what I saw.” She wondered if she portrayed him more idealized than he actually was, like a schoolgirl doodling her crush.

“Well, it must be a given, since all of your art is so beautiful. The way you view the world must be so… unique.”

“You’re probably… the kindest man I’ve ever met. I hope that doesn’t sound weird.”

“No, not at all,” he smiled sincerely, looking directly at her. “I like to appreciate talent when I see it, and you, my girl, have it.”

That was it. That was the final straw. Her heart was practically threatening to be spat from her throat. The tears from earlier had returned, but the feeling was different. She wasn’t convulsing; she just sat there with tears pouring like a faucet. Foolishly, she looked up at him, eyes wide open. He saw the droplets dripping down her chin and staining her top. She choked out the words “thank you,” trying to somehow salvage the conversation. 

“Oh, poor thing… what’s wrong?” reacting instantly, he placed her pad on the side of the bench, and slid over to sit closer to her. He leaned toward her slightly. 

“No, it’s nothing. I’m being silly,” she dragged her palm across her face, smearing the tears away. 

“But I saw you crying earlier too… are you okay, doll?” 

She sniffed and wiped her nose with the side of her hand before throwing her head back, leaning against the back of the bench and staring at the sky. “I don’t know what I’m going to do.” 

Patiently, he waited for her to continue speaking. 

“I don’t know… if I’ll get anywhere with this.”

“With what specifically?”

“I don’t know. In art. In life. In every way.” She sighed deeply. 

He watched the tears roll down her face as her head was leaned back. There wasn’t much he could do besides watch, as he didn’t want to encroach on her space. “It’s too early to say that. You have so much to look forward to.”

“It feels like… like every time I try I fail. I don’t know if I’ll be able to make a career for myself at all. My only talent is art. If I can’t do that…” she didn’t finish her thought. 

“But you’re doing it. You’re in college.”

“What comes after that?” 

He shifted closer to her, leaning over. “You’ll figure it out. Don’t talk yourself out of your own happiness… just because you’re scared.” 

“If I can’t make a living for myself, I’ll have no one to rely on. I don’t think I’m the kind of girl who can get married. Then my family… is a whole different story.” 

“Wait, what do you mean ‘not the kind of girl?’” 

She stuttered, embarrassed. “I’ve been rejected too many times to count.” 

“That doesn’t mean there's something wrong with you. You just haven’t found the right one yet.” He scoffed at her statement in disbelief that she believed she was unlovable. 

She pulled her head down and hunched over. “I just want to be happy, but it’s so hard,” she started sobbing. 

He felt horrible sitting there, watching her fall apart. So desperately he wanted to do anything that could change her mind. “Do you need a hug?”

She nodded as she leaned into him to rest her face on his shoulder. His arms rested around the back of her shoulders as she weakly wrapped hers around him. He gave her reassuring pats on the back. Even though the hug was from an awkward distance, she couldn’t recall ever feeling so happy to be hugged by someone. She felt like she was sinking deeply into his warmth and softness. She wanted to never let go. In fact, the thought of letting go made her cry even more. 

“You’re gonna be okay…” he tried to let go, but she pulled him back in. He reacted with a shocked grunt. “God, you’re gonna kill me,” he laughed hoarsely. 

She quickly let go and wiped her face. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have-“ 

“No, it’s completely fine. Things are really tough for you.” 

The two of them sat silently at a distance from each other again. She sniffed and wiped her nose with the side of her hand, feeling embarrassed of how gross she felt. 

“Hey, I was wondering,” he broke the silence. “If I’m ever in need of an artist, for whatever reason, I’d want to get in touch with you.” 

“You’d want to commission me?” 

“Yes! I’d love to have a piece of art by you on my wall. Your style is beautiful.” Every word he said hit deeply. She couldn’t understand why he was so genuinely captivated by her. 

She wrote her phone number on a sheet of paper, ripped it out of the pad, and handed it to him. He neatly folded it and placed it into his shirt pocket. 

“If you want, I could give you mine as well. You deserve to have someone you can talk to. Although, It’s fine if you don’t want to. I am just some old fart you met at the park, after all.” He laughed as he looked at her with squinted eyes. 

“I think you’re a nice old fart, at least,” she sputtered through laughter. She passed her sketch pad and a pencil over to him, allowing him to write on it. 

“Oh, all this time, I didn’t even think to ask your name. I’m sorry, how rude of me,” he said bashfully. 

“It’s (Y/N),” she said. 

“Mine is Burt. It’s been a pleasure meeting you”

[lundenloves]

i have no clue what your flavour of music is but i present you with mY mix of music, good luck lunden, i love u no matter what

pussy pop:

Chappell Roan's pink pony club, good luck babe, naked in manhattan... all bops, all FUCKING BOPS. anything by her. BOP. she is the definition of girly pop slay queen ok i am SORRY

When I Rule The World by Liz saw it on a bimbo playlist that's it, sold. slap it on the fridge. frame it. telling my mother about it.

Please Please Please by Sabrina Carptenderein in honour of u meeting Sabrinas bf. smash.

Fuck it, Celine Dion. take it OR LEAVE IT.

i like the way you kiss me by artemas

I am depressed today:

WILDFLOWER by Billie Eyelash

Picture You by Chappell Roan (i am actively writing ghost wanking it during sad boy hours to this song, its great... for me not him)

tolerate it by taylor swift, i am not a swiftie but this song slaps so hard it got me crying in the club on numerous occasions

i want to be a middle aged father who wears leather studded vests:

literally only made this section so i could tell u to listen to Sabaton. Preferably their song The Last Stand. Its metal. Its gothic. Itssssssss i am edgy but would like to understand the lyrics and would not like to die from screamo music.

i want to live in rural america and stare into the mountainside as my partner drives me through winding roads while i feel a glimpse of nostalgia even though i grew up in the city:

Noah Kahan. Dial Drunk.

man, i just cant stop being despressed:

ur so pretty by wasia project

two by sleeping at last

MITSKI AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Nothing's new by rio romeo

pussy popped 2 hard and now i am just in a fucking musical phase, ok JUST LET ME BE!:

No Longer You by EPIC. Similiar vein all of it. its poppy, its up and coming. it was all i listened to for a week straight.

Vioila by Barbara Pravi (i love eurovision)

World by Zeph (its only like a minute long ok, but it s'cute)

Je te laisserai des mots. fkn french. FUCK.

#holy fuck im drunk #anyway # enjoy #or dont # but if you dont #i will #CRY #thanks # THANKS.

how do i sign this off.

FUCKING FUCK love L! <3

dude. i severely love my anons so much, you people actually bring me through the deeeeeeepest bouts of depression sometimes and make me laugh everyday 🫂

in honour of music sharing under this format you have sent me (which is 100999% interesting i fucking LOVE seeing what other people listen to) i will share my own thoughts on music 141 style.

for reference i am a midwest emo, folk punk, screamo, metal, country music, grime rap, 60’s floorfillers and beatles vs stones, tøp hello tumblr, oasis v blur and britpop, green day mosh pits and everything else other than opera enjoyer ALAS i have my favourites.

ahem.

- i’m making a different post about this 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥😭😭😭😭

i’ll link it here once i’m done

[rosietrace]

But then he walked in

Event: Rosie's valentines special 💌❣️

Ocs featured: Lancelot Novellion, Maria Alarik(@windbornearchon)

Ocs mentioned: Davis Novellion, Victoria Shard

Ship: Lancelot Novellion x Maria Alarik

Summary: When Maria has a moment of doubt, Lance is the one to hold her close. Even though their relationship had a bit of a rocky start.

Warning(s): Maria's insecurities being put to light, Lance being somewhat oblivious to feelings, Davis /j, based on lyrics from "Me and my husband" by Mitski

{ Apologies for any out of character moments }

[ Reblogs are recommended/encouraged ]

Maria felt ridiculous. Humiliated, even. Even when she was isolated in her room, she felt ridiculous and judged.

She grunted, shrinking in on herself."I just don't get how they can see me in such a negative light…" she muttered to herself.

But she sighed right after."Then again," she continued, "I also can't blame them."

She didn't like the way people perceived her. Her and her confidence, it was both inspiring yet annoying to certain people.

And she hated it. Hated the way people perceived her in such a negative light, and only tried to see the bad in her.

Maria hated the way people could hate her, but put people like a prince and a pop star on such an unnaturally high pedestal. It wasn't fair.

Just as she was going to continue brooding, she received a text from her boyfriend. Lancelot Novellion. Or Lance, for short.

Maria felt somewhat awkward before she replied, especially because of how new the relationship was between her and Lance.

I'm at NRC.

That was it. That was the text. Maria didn't have any other response, and she already felt awkward around Lance as it is.

She liked him, most definitely without a doubt. But at the end of the day, new relationships can startle even the most confident of people.

And Maria happened to be one of those people.

"I should probably answer before I go…." Her voice was anything but a whisper, "I don't want to seem rude…"

Her only response was, [ I'm on my way. ]

And then she went out.

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Lance, suddenly seeing Maria walk up to him, bowed in respect.

"It's good to see you again, Alarik."

Ah, right. He doesn't have a nickname for me yet. Maria thought to herself before nodding her head in acknowledgment.

"Good to see you too, Lance." She crossed her arms with a devious grin, feigning confidence as if she wasn't in an almost depressive state moments earlier.

Lance sighed, already aware that clearly, something happened for Maria to be feigning confidence in such a way. And so, in response, in an attempt to push her buttons, Lance gently moved Maria's hair to kiss her forehead.

Maria stiffened, unsure of how to respond to such a random and uncharacteristic display of affection. At least at first.

But her feigned confidence made its way back for her to smirk deviously."Well damn, Lance, what's the sudden affection for?" She inquired.

Lance didn't hesitate to answer her inquiry."Is it wrong to show how much I adore you, Alarik?" He said that, and yet he didn't even refer to her by her first name. It didn't help that he said it with a completely straight face.

Maria chuckled, but she didn't know if it was genuine by that point."Whatever you say, Lance."

Taking her hand, Lance's expression never wavered."Shall we fetch for some refreshments before we make our way to the training arena?" He asked gently.

Maria's eyebrows raised a little, surprised by how gentle his tone felt. And then a small smile, a less devious one, formed.

"The answer you'll receive is yes. I'm just going to sit down and wonder how long you'll last on the chessboard."

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The thing about Maria and Lance's relationship was that although it was rather rocky, that wouldn't be enough to prove they weren't attracted to each other.

Maria showed clear interest in Lance, as he did her. And it was only natural for a relationship to blossom. Their only problem resided in natural communication.

Maria sat down on one of the nearby benches, watching Lance, wearing but a tank top, hard at work to strengthen his resolve.

She couldn't help but whistle flirtatiously as she eyed the way he looked at that moment. His hair was a disheveled mess, his eyes narrowed with so much drive.

The way his arms looked- Wait, what? Maria blinked before shaking her head, trying to wipe that thought out of her mind. Lance may be her boyfriend, but she didn't need to constantly thirst over him.

But then she heard the whispers. Of people, who adored Lance, and likely felt a great disdain that he was with her of all people.

"How could he just get with her?"

"Lance is out of her league…."

"I mean, compared to Davis, Lance is somewhat subpar. But even then, that bitch shouldn't even be near him."

"I heard that she seduced him into getting into a relationship with him in exchange for blood."

"Davis is already too good for her. She shouldn't even be near his younger brother."

"I would've thought that the Novellions wouldn't have approved of someone like her…"

"Who knows, they might break up at some point. And if anything, anyone has a better chance at getting with Lance compared to Maria…"

"Pffft- If that isn't the truest thing you've ever said…"

Maria looked down at her lap, utterly expressionless. She couldn't stop them from saying those things about her, so she didn't.

And she thought that maybe, they were right.

And as her thoughts loomed over to the weight of self-doubt….

A shadow loomed over her.

"Maria, are you okay?"

She flinched, realizing it was Lance who said that and looked up."You…. Said my first name." She said suddenly.

Lance's eyes widened, and his lips pursed. The expression on his face was nothing Maria had ever seen on him.

He looked sad. Regretful, even.

He gently helped her up, holding her hand with one hand and the other holding his blazer over his shoulder.

".... Let's go."

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When they left, Lance took them to a secluded area in the NRC campus, and sat down on the ground next to Maria, leaning against the hard concrete walls.

"You…. You appeared shocked when I called you by your first name."

Maria sighed. Deeply, at that."Can you blame me, Lance?.... You barely talk to me, affection is practically non-existent, and…. You don't even call me by my first name."

At that realization, Lance's eyes softened, his lips slightly parting."Oh, Maria…." The pain in the tone of his voice sent her over the edge.

Suddenly, Maria felt Lance's calloused hands on her face as his lips touched her own.

She flinched at the sudden display of affection, and yet she couldn't resist leaning into the kiss, prolonging it until they pulled away.

Breathless.

Maria panted, breathing in and out, one at a time, in continuous two-second breaths."Why… Why did-"

"Do I have to do it again for you to understand?"

"Understand that you don't love me?"

"What, why would-"

"Face it, Lance. I know I'm out of your league. And I know that you probably only dated me out of pity."

Lance fell silent, eyes wider than saucers. He didn't- He never would've thought that Maria would see him in such a way.

And he felt awful for it. For her to think that he didn't love her was what made him feel all the more awful and aggravated about his actions.

Unexpectedly, Maria was held close. Lance wrapped himself around her, holding her close with enough gentleness to consider it pure bliss.

She was hesitant, almost scared. Uncharacteristic for someone like Maria, yet Lance was not at all bothered by it.

When she finally leaned against him, relishing in his touch, Lance couldn't help but quietly chuckle. And he kissed the top of her head.

"I'm sorry I made you think that way…."

She almost couldn't believe that Lance, doing the bare minimum of apologizing, would've made her say what she was going to say next.

"It's okay, Lance….. We can make this work."

Lance smiled, kissing the top of her head again.

"Then I'll ensure that I won't ever make you believe that I would never, ever, fight tooth and nail for you. Not anymore. Not ever..... My ethereal crimson lady."

Taglist: [ I would like to hear your thoughts, if possible! ]

@starry-night-rose @authoruio @celiica @geminiiviolets @fumikomiyasaki @sakuramidnight15 @nem0-nee @twsted-princess @oseathepebble

For: @windbornearchon

Hi Jas! I hope you enjoyed this oneshot. It's definitely a lot longer than what I'm used to(That's what she said), but I had a lot of fun writing this!

I really hope I did justice to Maria's character. I'm actually a bit afraid I didn't do justice to the beautiful crimson lady :')

But either way, I hope you enjoyed this oneshot!

[thinkingnot]

introducing the great thinker -> me <-

Welcome to the Great Apartment

we are now flat m8s

pronouns: he/him (giggling and twirling my hair)

super cool with any terms to be referred as king, queen, idk hoodie, beez, mister landlord anythin really im cool and love

pseudos: Hoodie/Beez/Fern

mains: Yu Wo (author), Trevor Noah, Priest (author), Rood Chrishi & Kielnode Chrishi & Lanoste & Yujeria (characters from Black Haze the manhwa) and a bit of everyone else (just a dash, a pinch)

(colored means i think about them 24/7 :))

ask, spam notis, message, pop off. i like interactions (not very good at responding might be awkward sorry)

tags list:

#nsfw <- any post/rb that contains explicit implications via wordings, imagery, etc..

#hoodie’s ask <- send asks!!! me answer!!!! :D

#tenant <- for anonymous asks!! :]

#hoodie’s real <- hoodie irl related

#hoodie’s day ratings <- also irl related but im rating it >:)

#correct watcher entertainment quotes <- watcher entertainment hyperfixitation brrrr

batfam fic rec <- yall were right i shouldve got onto the bat train a long time ago dammit (includes: copious danny phantom and spiderman crossover)

#orv correct quotes <- omniscient reader’s viewpoint quotes yoooo

#vomit <- ??? idk ive just realized i talk about vomit way too much might as well as warn ya (i do include a warning tag, the #tw vomit)

#hoodie’s doodles <- it is what it iss

#hoodie reads

#hoodie travels

#thinkingaboutmusic <- where i think abkut music and mostly fangirl over wilbur soot, nf, imagine dragons, mitski & more

#hoodie’s definitions <- i define things for fun

#banish the baddies <- self care, for when you get not nice thoughts and maybe a little bit sad or a lot. i got some little things for you to do or maybe just a distraction. you can reply/rb to these and i will see them or maybe you can do the things in private if you want!!

#fic events things <- i join fic events

#live-fic-react <- haha so im an avid fic reader

#not sponsored but promo for cool shits <- i see good stuffs, i share good stuffs :D

#confession slash jay <- usually accompanied with #or is it cuz i make them when i am in silly goofy mood /lh /hj to all of em’

#correct mcyt quotes <- quotes that are from streams vids or idk any social medias and is canon/real - i will add the source

#fics recs <- uhhhh fics recs :D (me read, they’re good, me recs, they’re probably-definitely all tommyinnit-centric)

#gender <- when i am feeling gender :)

#ranble <- when i randomly ramble

#personal <- ehhhhhh it’s like when i’m bored imma say shit that’s well personal and nobody asked 😎

#hoodie’s art <- when i doodle on the paper and decided to bring it to show and tell

#hoodie’s achievements <- i’ve done things! hooray!! no matter what those things are (ie: felonies, awards, how lonely i am, aged,.etc..)

#hoodie’s lil siblings <- self explanatory

#hoodie’s mc skins <- i made mc skins!

so back on 23rd April my account was bleh

@thinkingaboutaus

@thinkingaboutirlstreams

o7, you’ll be missed

i literally don’t even know how all my blogs just got wiped off i didn’t even do anything

ps: if u recognize me pls tell i forgot all my moots urls ;-;

thanks m8’s

update:

im back babyyyyy

but im too lazy to re-login rn so….. actually….

idk imma just use two accounts from now (probably one on the computer and one on the fone) <- i in fact is still too lazy

[plutouran]

hi could i get a matchup for aot and bnha?

sexuality: gay

pronouns: He/him

zodiac: scorpio intp 4w3

hogwarts house: slytherin

personality: down to earth, pretty relaxed. attentive and compassionate to people i like and distant to people I’m not close to. i have a rbf but I’m goofy sometimes.

hobbies: procrastinating, walks of fresh air, sightseeing, being lazy.

likes: sleeping in, oversleeping, cold tea, and my bed.

dislikes: bugs, children, sweets/overly sweet stuff.

favorite artists: cigarettes after s3x, mitski.

a/n: YOUR MUSIC TASTE UHM SIR

you have been paired up with…

— tamaki amajiki and levi ackerman!

your song with tamaki: from eden by hozier (i dare u to listen to hozier bc i love this man)

your song with levi: wait a minute by willow

tamaki!

(ok so this was so fun to match! originally i went with todoroki but let’s go.)

ok so i usually just put a song that matches the vibe of the character but this time - i can’t stress this enough - i can totally see your relationship with him as that hozier song!

this relationship would be really rough at the beginning but once you give him some time, he‘ll eventually become comfortable around you.

naturally that’s really gonna take him some time. so i can totally see the trope „friends to lovers.“

also, people often refer to tamaki‘s s/o as bubbly and outgoing but i think that’s not really necessary as long as the person isn’t as anxious as him.

(i mean i have social anxiety as well and if i were to meet someone like mirio, i’d be so annoyed ngllll)

anyway!! tamaki will be amazed by how down to earth you are. you are chill and seem to not judge people. he will like that!

once you get closer to him, you‘ll have to deal with his socially awkward ass but i’m sure you can manage. i matched you two because i’m sure of it.

he‘ll love how attentive you become in this relationship. he didn’t expect it and it’s like a breath of fresh air!

once you do goof around, he‘ll be so flustered. he‘d go like „are u ok?..“ until he realises it’s just fun. (pls teach him how to have fun)

dates will obviously be simple: watching movies, listening to music together or chilling but maybe you can persuade him to go out, get a coffee or smth.

tamaki probably needs someone that is relaxed. someone that doesnt make a big deal out of everything and who loves him just a little bit. (give him a hug)

levi!

(uhm this man is fine! hope ur ok with his age. i don’t mind re-writing.)

he definitely has a problem with how you drink your tea — like cold tea? that’s not ok (jk it is)

he‘ll like it how relaxed you are. like seriously. everyone around him is somewhat too energetic so that’s something new to him.

will show you his admiration through respect. nothing cheesy obviously.

this relationship is absolutely chill. really. and i have a feeling your trope is strangers to lovers.

wants to spend more time with you and has a habit of looking for you first in a crowd.

that’s when he realises something is off. what is this feeling? he will have a hard time adjusting his feelings towards you. levi? in love? it couldn’t be.

he is also not the type to ask you out. it just happens and will show you how much he adores you through subtle acts of service.

this man rarely sleeps in. actually he never does but he loves watching you sleep when he gets up. it relaxes him a lot.

maybe he can even sleep better knowing you are around.

he won’t let you be lazy all the time though and make sure you are spending your time productively. but don’t worry, in the end he just wants you to be happy!

definitely long walks outside and once he gets comfortable, he‘ll talk a lot about basically anything. it’s conforming!

[ectoplasmer]

AYYYYE ASK GAMES 👀

❤️♦️♠️💭‼️

WOOOOOO

— @amys-cringe-cabinet 💙

^^!!! okay so the thing about my music tastes is that it’s very inconsistent and constantly jumping between genres and/or tone, so if we go from some obscure indie artist to the most main stream thing ever do not be concerned that is just how my brain works- so!! here we go!!

♥️: Describes your F/O

oooh, describes… this’ll be fun to try and figure out…. I think for Marik specifically, when it comes to “describing”, I Am by Foot Ox comes to mind. A few lines specifically make me think of him, but most of this is association with the whole mind-controlling-the-ghouls thing.

Life Itself by Glass Animals is a song that instantly makes me think of Ryou; it was either this or Season 2 Episode 3, but I feel like the former describes Ryou better while the latter is more what I associate with his and Bakura’s interactions.

I was so tempted to say Bremen by PigPen Theatre Co. but…. Mask of My Own Face by Lemon Demon is definitely a Bakura song, no doubt. Bremen is probably more of a Thief King song.

Chop Suey! by System of a Down. No further commentary. (jk it’s just that everytime I hear that latter half I think of Melvin and Marik and it’s become a bad habit so of course it finds it’s way here)

♦️: Describes your S/I

okay so guilty confession I have an s/i playlist set up BUT it was originally for my homestuck s/i, so I haven't updated it since like... september. Howeverrrr, scrolling through my songs for a bit, I suppose the song Slumber by Sløtface is fitting enough for Ghostie!! I think she's a bit too much of an NPC as of now for me to completely be sure, but the little movie references and descriptions throughout the song are fitting enough for her I believe. also that chorus gets me feeling some way so she gets just a pinch of angst to her. just as a treat </3

♠️: Describes your relationship

was very very tempted just to say their tag names because those songs are the ones I’m all stupid and mushy over (With You I Feel Alive and Spooky Ghosts by SNCKPCK) but that felt too easy…. so these two get an extra song!!

Muddy Knees by Dayz N Daze was a second response to this prompt for Marik, because the attitude of the song and upbeat-quick-pace tune reminds me a lot of him. Coffee Breath by Sofia Mills is already a song I associate with Ryou a considerable amount, so I thought it’d fit here nicely.

Jelly Bones by The Unicorns because let me think for a second that Bakura would be even slightly as soft for me as I am for him u.u (and i could totally see him being overdramatic over the fact he’s in love… the dork >-<)

Mainly based more off the tune and build up if that makes sense?? But Rawnald Gregory Erickson the Second by STRFKR for Melvin because *shakes song around in the container of a brain I have*

💭: You like to daydream about the two of you to

Crave You by Flight Facilities and Giselle just applying to everyone because it is my go-to yearning song- but for individually:

Something by The Beatles.

Like or Like Like by Miniature Tigers (rolls around on the floor like an idiot this one specific song. I swear-).

Midnight, The Stars and You by Al Bowlly, Ray Noble & His Orchestra (yes this is just because it’s from The Shining).

And, lastly, Valentine, Texas by Mitski.

‼️: Reminds you of when you first found your F/O

I was into Detroit: Become Human in the following weeks before I picked up Yu-Gi-Oh! again, so looking through a character playlist I made during that short lived interest, I believe I listened to Who Are You Really? by Mikky Ekko a ton before and after getting into the show, so I think that could count as a catchall for when I first “met them”. I also listened to a handful of Jack Stauber’s shorter songs, so I think those could fit in here too. Nothing really comes to mind of when I really met them, since most of my experience watching this show were through half awake late night phone screens and beading kandi cuffs while paying legit no attention :P. Buuuut…. Specific Jack Stauber songs that make me think of when I first started this show are Get Ahold of Yourself, Love and Co., Just Take My Wallet and Mr Backwards !!!

[not-delicious-milk]

@adhdyuuji​ tagged me to do this ask game thingy so i guess it’s time for you all to know too much information about me

name/nickname: lara, though apparently my nickname is “milky” or straight up “milk”. my favorite kind of milk is extra creamy planet oat, my second favorite is banana

gender: the pile of clothes that you think might be a person in the middle of the night (she/they)

star sign: cap sun, leo moon, gemini rising. roast me if you like, i’ve already heard it all

height: 5′8 and 3/4! i like to mention the 3/4 nowadays

birthday: just happened a couple days ago, january 8

fav band: fuck uhhh *checks my spotify* i’m terrible at picking between things but thankfully most of what i listen to are solo artists so i’ll just say probably mother mother. though i’m partial to supertramp, metallica, and dream theater. and lemon demon (does that count as a band?) and also muse is good though i don’t know that many of their songs oh and babymetal is good. 

fav solo artist: *instantly dies* so i can’t fucking pick one but i’ll rattle off the ones i like. mitski, phoebe bridgers, eve, ricky montgomery, sir chloe, poppy, the japanese house (does that count as a solo artist?)... and also i listen to a lot of classical music for obvious reasons so my favorite composers are shostakovich, ravel, debussy, dvorak, philip glass, rachmaninoff, and bach. and my favorite classical musicans are julius baker, jasmine choi, hilary hahn, and evgeny kissin. claire chase is also pretty cool, and i’ve actually met her during a juilliard summer thing, though it was over zoom

song stuck in my head: i’ve made approximately seven thousand posts about it but this track from the saiki k soundtrack

last movie: exactly 2 minutes of castle in the sky before i got bored and left. my mom only watches dub and i hate dubbed studio ghibli films. in general i don’t watch a whole lot of movies, my attention span isn’t long enough. that doesn’t stop me from watching like 8 hours worth of anime though

last show: saiki k (rewatch)

when i created this blog: who fucken knows. is that on tumblr somewhere? i think it was last summer, but i changed my theme like twice. i’ve been on tumblr, like in general, way longer than that, but i deleted my last blog and made a new one so here i am

last search: so i’m gonna ignore the ones that are related to my most recent post, because they’re mostly about formatting and just finer definitions. “japanese morse code translator”. i was really sure that there was morse code in akechi touma’s theme but i’m pretty sure it’s just gibberish. that or i can’t identify morse code for shit

other blogs: nope! i still don’t get how that system works at all

do i get asks: well i got a fuck ton of anon asks until i turned that off so people would behave and now it’s pretty quiet. i like getting asks! please ask me things! 

following: 132

why i chose this url: this was originally a cottagecore blog and then i changed it to a mp100 blog and then i changed it to a jjk blog. but when it was a mp100 blog it was a reference to an omake in chapter... 7

average hours asleep: somewhere between 4 and 8? i’m trying to sleep more lately

lucky number(s): i like 12!

instruments: i play the flute and i intend on becoming a professional musician! so i’m pretty serious about it. 

what i'm wearing: hoodie and sweatpants. i haven’t changed out of my pjs yet

dream trip: vienna would be nice. i’d like to visit the opera house. anywhere in france would be nice too, i’ve been there once before and i’d like to go back

favorite food: so here’s the thing, i can’t pick favorites. i like whipped cream (does that even count as food?), tempura sweet potato rolls, red lentil soup, salt and vinegar potato chips, vegetable pad see ew, lemon and sugar crepes, and pickles. i don’t know what that says about me.

favorite song: sorry can’t pick one. savior complex by phoebe bridgers, you seemed so happy by the japanese house, redesign your logo by lemon demon, maskarade-suite mvmt 1: waltz by khachaturian, the rite of spring by stravinsky, bluebeard’s castle by bartok (is that cheating? those are a ballet and an opera respectively), schehezerade by rimsky-korsakov, and uhhh dirty town by mother mother

top 3 fictional universes: jujutsu kaisen, percy jackson, one punch man. done. not gonna think of any more nope nope nope

i have no clue who to tag here bc i feel like these are vaguely personal questions and i’m not really a very chatty mutual with anyone else so.... consider yourself tagged if you want to do it!

[zuzuslastbraincell]

sorry to mitski reference but me & my husband definitely *is* a fair amount of the ursa/ozai dynamic in lady noriko, especially the verses

I steal a few breaths from the world for a minute And then I'll be nothing forever And all of my memories And all of the things I have seen will be gone With my eyes, with my body, with me

[chorus]

And I'm the idiot with the painted face In the corner, taking up space But when he walks in, I am loved, I am loved

like. that’s it. that’s really it. that absolutely debilitating lack of self-esteem, the sense of taking up space/being nothing, except when your husband is around. that’s all you’re reduced to. ____’s wife.

[mikeshanlon]

Happy Pride! .... Like... more than halfway through the month lmao sorry, better late than never ig! I’ve compiled a list of some of my fave LGBT+ books, as well as a few I’m planning to read for pride/in the near future. Please feel free to reblog and add some of your own recs, especially for the sexual and gender identities that are lacking in my list!!!!!

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz: This beautiful, wholesome coming of age novel is pretty popular on tumblr and with good reason! It’s set in the 1980′s and follows Aristotle, aka "Ari”, as he grows up an tackles with his identity-- he feels like his story is written by someone else, that his path is not up to his control. Whether this is due to his complex relationship with his family, or societal expectations/stereotypes of Latinx men, or the fact that maybe his friendship with Dante might be more than that, and that kinda terrifies him. (Rep: Gay, Latinx, (I believe this is own voices) Warnings: it’s been a minute since i’ve read this but i believe some racism, internalized homophobia, and an instance of violent transphobia)

Red, White, and Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston: LGKNLKNGRG okay this is truly one of my favorite books of the year so far and part of the whole reason i wanted to make this. This is a New Adult Contemporary romance set in sort of a like... parallel America where a woman won the presidential election. We follow The First Son, Alex Claremont-Diaz, who’s charming, smart ass, genius icon. Him, his sister June, and their best friend Nora are easily marketable and loved by the public for the most part, but when Alex and his rival Prince Henry of England get into a public spat at a Royal Wedding, Alex and Henry must pretend to be friends to patch up relations and public image for his mother’s re-election campaign. Eventually their fake friendship turns real, and then becomes more as they get to know each other, Alex and Henry begin a secret romance that we follow over the course of the re-election year. This book is fucking HILARIOUS (like I have so many tabs for funny moments and i was trying to be restrained), but it’s just so. Like full of love and hope and it’s so beautiful???? It’s definitely political escapism from our current situation in America but still deals with current issues such as racism and homopboia, etc, but gives the reader hope for future progress. Alex and Henry’s relationship is so fun, and sexy, and beautiful and the friendships are so iconic and Alex’s journey with sexuality is... chefs kiss. Also like. Casey McQuiston mentioned that she listened to Texas Reznikoff by Mitski a lot while writing this in the acknowledgments so. what more do you need... (Rep: Bisexual (Own Voices), Gay, Biracial-- Mexican/White (Own Voices), Warnings: Racism, homophobia, mentions of a past sexual harrassment/assault. Since this is a New Adult, there are smut scenes. I wouldn’t say it’s like. Super explicit or anything but there is sex, though it’s often during Important Moments of their relationships so it doesn’t feel like p*rn-- again the sex is happening but its not in hella explicit detail or anything or for the same goal as say an erotica. P much proceed with caution if it’s not ur thing but it’s not too wild!)

Blanca y Roja by Anna-Marie McLemore: This is sort of a Snow White/Rose Red and Ugly Duckling retelling following two sisters, Blanca and Roja, who’s family curse destines that one of the sisters will be trapped into a swan’s body, never to be seen again. (So this is magical realism lmao). We also follow two boys, Page and Yearling, who were wrapped up in the magic of the nearby woods, but have returned to society. Page is a gender queer trans male, and his whole arc that was so beautiful and made me cry, but in a good way (also warning that I’m cis so like. I would love to hear what gender queer trans individuals think about the rep in this book bc I cannot really attest to it.) This book is really about sisterly love and love in general, with all the complexities that come with it. (also wlw grandma’s who grow apple’s it’s p iconic) (Rep: Latinx-- colorism plays a huge role in the story as well (Own Voices), Gender Queer Trans, Queer (Own Voices) Warnings: Some transphobia, racism, and abuse). (I believe most of Anna-Marie McLemore’s books are magical realism and have some Latinx and queer elements to them as well)

The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller: god..... This (gay ass) novelization of The Illiad is just so tragically romantic and beautiful... We follow Achilles and Patroclus as they grow up and grow closer, and eventually fight the Trojan War. There are so many beautiful quotes and scenes but like. You will most likely cry so keep that in mind eklrgerg. (Rep: Gay Warnings: Violence, there’s like..... a weird r*pe/homophobic scene)

Girls of Paper and Fire by Natasha Ngan: YA Fantasy set in a world where there are three castes: Moon-- the highest caste, demons with animalistic features in a humanoid form, Steel-- humans with part demon physical features and abilities, and Paper-- fully human, the lowest caste. We follow our protaganist Lei, who despite being a Paper caste, has beautiful golden glowing eyes that end up garnering attention from the Demon King. She’s stolen from her home and forced to join The Paper Girls-- a group of paper caste concubines in training at the palace. As she tries to find a way to escape, she ends up falling for one of the other paper girls, Wren, who might be just the key to freedom. I love Lei and Wren’s relationship and I’m excited to see it play out in the sequel! (which i believe ngan said will introduce more LGBT characters) (Rep: Asian (Own Voices), WLW (I believe this is Own Voices as well). Warnings: As their role as concubines suggest, a large part of this book revolves around the patriarchy using women for power and sexual assualt/rape. There are no explicit rape scenes-- though they do occur ‘off screen’, however there are a couple attempted sexual assault scenes that I believe could be p triggering. This book is also largely about the Paper Girls taking back their power, and I don’t believe these scenes are done for shock value, however please proceed with caution. Subsequently, sexist and patriarchial views are present within the authority, though shunned by Lei, however there’s a lot of internalized sexism and objectification among some of the other Paper Girls.)

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell: I probably don’t have to talk about this one much since it’s super popular, but in what is like essentially Harry Potter but like gay and wholesome, we follow Simon Snow, the Chosen One who’s actually not that good at magic, his best friend Penelope, and his roommate and arch nemesis that’s totally a vampire but won’t admit it, Baz. (Except Baz is, like, totally in love with Simon and Simon’s just too dumb and wrapped up in his own shit to realize it). Truly just,... an iconic enemies to friends to lovers story that unfolds as the three of them try to uncover a mystery surrounding Baz’s late mother. Ik some people have found it confusing bc it’s sort of like starting the Harry Potter story off at book 7 and only getting some background info along the way but honestly I really enjoyed that lmao. Also there’s a sequel coming out this fall, Wayward Son. (Rep: Gay, Some POC rep. Warnings: not rlly any i dont think??? There’s  like. some Homophobia lmao bc we can’t have a gay book without it.)

Her Royal Highness by Rachel Hawkins: This is a cute YA contemporary following Millie Quint who, post being cheated on by her best friend and wanting to have a fresh start, flies to Scotland to finish off her senior year at her Dream prestigous boarding school, joining a handful of other girls as the first female class in the institution’s history. Plus like. Cool Rocks and Scotland. Only problem is that her roomate is sort of a bitch and also the Princess of Scotland who she totally just told off. So yeah yet another royal gay enemies to friends to lovers with a dash of and they were roomates LMAO. This book could be like.... a bit cheesy and rushed but overall it was cute and like...... The Cover.... (Rep: Bisexual, Lesbian, Warnings: Some homophobia. Also this is a companion novel to Prince Charming but you don’t have to read that first, there’s just some references to the couple in that book as the Prince is well.... The Princess’ brother and where they end up so if you don’t wanna be spoiled read that first ig!)

The Devouring Gray by Christine Lynn Herman: I talked about this some in this post, but I feel like I did kinda a shitty job so. A YA fantasy/paranormal series about the descendant’s of the town’s four founding families-- Violet Saunders, Justin Hawthorne, Harper Carlisle, and Isaac Sullivan (the most iconic one). The latter three have lived in Four Paths their whole lives, protecting the town from The Gray-- p much the Upside Down from Stranger Things lmao, using powers specific to each of their families. Violet and her mother move back after Violet’s sister died in a car accident, and she’s thrust into helping save the town as the Gray grows more restless and having to uncover the secrets of her family as well as all the history brewing between the other three. The Stranger Things and Riverdale comparisons are p valid, (but like. Riverdale in the sense of small town secrets and a bunch of tense history that the kids don’t really understand and must uncover, and some like love triangle but..... not Rlly Love triangles just a mess of ppl being like oh shit i like this person and this person.... Bisexual Chaos if u will... not like. The I’m cuckoo bananas for u let’s go get high and play dungeons and dragons and smash in a bunker LRGKJRLKGJ), the Raven Cycle comparison’s are kind of a stretch, I can see the abstract comparison’s if i squint but like. Don’t go into this expecting TRC lmao. I really enjoyed the theme of grief throughout this book and seeing the powers unfold (and one of the dynamics a lot) and while not perfect the series has a lot of potential and like. Bisexuals. So. (Rep: Bisexual (two mc’s are bi and say the word!!!!!!!! As well as some secondary characters), Disabled (one of the mc’s is missing one arm from the elbow down). Warnings: Grief, Violence)

The Gentlemen’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee: Also talked about this in this post and did a better job there, but to sum it up it’s essentially a friends to lovers, bed sharing, road trip au with a dash of magic but set in the 1700′s! There’s also a sequel/companion, The Lady’s Guide to Petticoats and Piracy that I have yet to read but it follows Monty’s sister, Felicity, and I believe goes more in depth with her identity. (Rep: Gay, Black, Disabled, Aromantic, Asexual, Warnings: Period typical homophobia/biphobia, racism, ableism, sexism)

Simon vs. The Homosapien’s Agenda by Becky Albertalli: Like. I don’t think i really have to explain this one LRKGJJRG but added it just in case. YA contemporary following Simon as he e-mails another gay student at his school and falls in love. (Rep: Gay, Black, Jewish, Warnings: Homophobia)

All For the Game Trilogy (The Foxhole Court, The Raven King, The King’s Men) by Nora Sakavic: If y’all have been on my blog at all you know i’m back in aftg hyperfixation mode after another reread lmao. Is it a lil messy is it a lil dramatic... yes. but i love it!!! We follow our protagonist Neil Josten, who’s been on the run from his crime lord father, The Butcher of Baltimore, since he was young. After his mother dies on the run, Neil finds a new place and adopts yet another identity, and ends up playing high school exy (a made up sport but like we’re barely here for the sports lmao), something he used to play as a child. Despite playing a new position, he attracts the attention of the PSU Foxes, who’s coach David Wymack specifically recruits players with a troubled past to give them a second chance. Neil really shouldn’t sign-- it goes against everything his mother told him, it puts him at risk of being in the spotlight for his father’s men to find him, and puts him on the same team as Kevin Day, someone from his past that knows his true identity. Still, something draws Neil to joining the team, to finally try to live instead of just survive. UGHHHH like truly this book just makes u fall in love with all the characters and the beautiful and broken found family that develops over three books and one of the most iconic and amazing (ha....) slowburn relationships ever.... Also if i recall they’re super cheap on iBooks (at least when i bought them, the first book was free and the other two were $1.99). (Rep: Gay, Demisexual, POC, Warnings: MAJOR trigger warnings for like. everything bc all the foxes have fucked up pasts. But the biggest ones are probably rape, abuse/torture, and substance abuse)

Six of Crows Duology (Six of Crows, Crooked Kingdom) by Leigh Bardugo: Idk how much I really have to talk about this bc it’s popular but I am physically unably not to reccomend this duology bc its just. So. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. The most barebones summary is that this is a YA Fantasy about six people coming together to perform an impossible heist. This is truly like...... a masterclass in developing characters and has one of the best m/f ships i’ve ever read... But also since it’s on here there is some gay shit going on, 3/6 mains are Not Straight and there’s a cute m/m couple! Also you don’t have to read the Grisha Trilogy to read this but u can if u want (I have yet to). (Rep: Bisexual, Gay, Disabled, POC, Warnings: Again these ppl have fucked up pasts, biggest are PTSD, past sexual abuse)

The Raven Cycle Series (The Raven Boys, The Dream Theives, Blue Lily Lily Blue, The Raven King) by Maggie Steifvater: Again i don’t think I really have to explain this one but like. In case you haven’t read this series it’s truly iconic..... Idk even how to explain this LKGJLJRG just like magical realism wonderfulness and found family and amazing relationships and shit.... (Rep: Gay, Bisexual, Disabled, Warnings: Abuse)

The following are books I plan to read for pride/in the near future. I can’t wholeheartedly reccomend them obviously, or fully detail all the rep/warnings, but I’ve heard some great things about these books and a lot of them have representation that the first part of the list is lacking, so I figured I would add them! (Also if I use ‘queer’ that’s because that’s the only label I have been given by the authors or reviewers, or the characters identify as queer)

Radio Silence by Alice Oseman: To my knowledge this is a really emotional YA coming of age/college story that has to do with like. A podcast? Idk a lot of people love it and side note I’ll be suing B&N bc they NEVER have it relkj (Rep: Bisexual, Demisexual, I belive Latinx.)

Sawkill Girls by Claire Legrand: I believe this is a YA horror-ish novel where there’s a monster stealing girls on and island. (Rep: I believe all three main girls are queer Warnings: Since this is horror im assuming. Horror stuff LMAO)

I Wish You all The Best by Mason Deaver: A YA contemporary romance about Ben who comes out as non-binary to their parents and gets kicked out, and moves in with their estranged sister. They soon are taken under the wing of a senior named Nathan Allan and begin to fall. (Rep: Non-Binary (Own Voices), MLM/Queer, Black (im assuming from the gorgeous cover lmao. Warnings: Misgendering, homophobia, anxiety, depression)

Summer of Salt by Katrina Leno: YA Magical Realism about Georgina, who has yet to inherit the magical powers that have been passed down her family, including her twin sister Mary who, unlike Georgina, is coming into her powers. (Rep: Lesbian, Queer, Aro/Ace, Warnings: Rape and sexual assault, underage drinking, animal death, drug use.)

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a wangxian playlist no one asked for

These are track notes for a wangxian playlist no one asked for, because CQL / mdzs fandom ate my life and I somehow needed to make a super dramatic 28 song playlist that follows wangxian’s love in (extremely loose) chronological order, from their first meeting as cute battle teens all the way through the depths of angst and eventually to becoming cultivation partners and (I’m positive) really great co-parenting dads. 

Because I’m like that ™ , you can find notes for each and every song below. Any weird song choices are entirely my fault. Spoiler alert: Frank Ocean.

This is a real long playlist and you could definitely break it into shorter stretches by mood. For the happiest and most in love vibes, hit the first 6 songs and the last 6 songs. Dramatic Burial Mounds vibes are from 7 to 13. It may be very satisfying to go from the depths of sadness and grief (~16) through to the end. 

1.  Don’t Know What to Do | BLACKPINK

Inspired, of course, by WYB and XZ’s demonstrated love of Blackpink in the CQL BTS videos. For a little while Stay was on this list instead, but I kept coming back to this song because to me it gets at that excited “everything is new and I’m young and so in love” feeling. Two people could certainly have a playful duel under the moonlight to this song, if they wished.

2.  A Loving Feeling | Mitski

Something about Mitski’s melancholy, slightly maudlin and self-deprecating vibe in this song is just peak “I wasn’t flirting… unless…?”

3.  Self Control | Frank Ocean

Somehow this playlist ended up structured around two overlapping arcs carried by Frank Ocean and Lykke Li, respectively, which makes no sense in theory but maybe kind of works? Idk, let me know if it works. If it does, maybe it’s because so many Frank Ocean songs are incredibly raw love songs about loss and the work that memory does to keep your love alive, and so many Lykke Li songs are about trying to slog through all the pain and bullshit without losing sight of that kernel of untarnished brightness, whatever it was that made you want to love in the first place.

I love this song for many reasons, but in no small part for the sorry-not-sorry vibe of apologizing for making someone lose their self control.

4.  Look After Me | Cub Sport

This song is real honest and tender about people taking care of each other and it messes me up. 

“There's something in the way you look at me

Like I've never done wrong

There's something in the way you look at me

When I was wrong all along.”

5.  We Could Run | Beth Ditto

Ok, imagine this playing in the background during LWJ and WWX’s first meeting with Xiao Xingchen and Song Lan. A good song to play as you run into the sunset holding hands with your cultivation partner, is what I’m saying. 

6.  Unconditional Love | 椎名林檎 (Shiina Ringo)

This is just a super sweet and painfully dramatic love song, the kind of song that plays for a man who makes grand unsung gestures like composing magical love songs and secretly adopting your child after you’ve died. This is before the latter part of that, though.

7.  Bad Religion | Frank Ocean

This is the first turning point on the list, the fading of youthful optimism and the start of choices that there’s no going back from. This is when you start to realize that you really can’t please everyone, and you can’t do what you believe is right without someone hating you for it. It’s also the point at which your neuroses and blind spots start to go from being quirky and cute to a cage of your own making. You have to deal with the bad shit you inherited from your parents eventually. If you don’t you’ll either make the same mistakes they did or make different mistakes because you’re fighting so hard to keep your head above water. 

I really like the part when Frank Ocean asks his taxi driver to outrun the demons. Feels like something a modern AU WWX might say. 

8.  Silent My Song | Lykke Li

I didn’t want to go full angst here because this playlist is about *cue Westley bellowing in the Princess Bride* TRUE LOVE and so I didn’t go as hard as I could here, but this is the start of the golden core +  first Burial Mounds arc. 

9.  Figure 8 | FKA twigs

I can hear the resentful energy swirling in this one. This is probably the most abstract choice on the list but to me something in it evokes the curdled rage and seething of an unquiet spirit. 

10.  Fantasmas | Ambar Lucid

This is a song about living with ghosts: of a failed relationship, and the mistakes that it took to get there. 

11.  Green Grass | Cibelle

I love this song because it’s a little sweet and a little scary at the same time. It’s gentle and haunting and the lyrics are as unforgettable as poetry. 

Is this a love song that a corpse is singing to someone visiting their grave? I like to think so. 

12.  I Bet on Losing Dogs | Mitski

In spite of the dog reference (lol) this whole song is a super WWX trying to live with the Wens in the Burial Mounds mood in my opinion. It has turnip energy. Trampled yet undefeated lotus energy, if you will.

13.  Godspeed | Frank Ocean

This song is the essence of heartbreak and knowing that you have to finally let go of someone. Am I imagining LWJ and WWX singing this back and forth to each other at the Burial Mounds, depending on which line it is? Am I crying about it a little? Maybe.

“I let go of my claim on you.”

“There will be mountains you can’t move.”

14.  I Know Places | Lykke Li

This is the “Come back to Gusu with me” song, even though it’s coming later in the timeline than it should. (I sort of compressed all the Burial Mounds-set songs together for a better flow). Anyway I feel like this captures all of those unspoken desires, that frustrated feeling of caring about and believing in someone so much without being able to protect them from all the people and powers that want to hurt them. But you have to try.

15.  Deeper Than Love | Antony and the Johnsons

This song is almost. Too dramatic. This is meant to be at Nightless City / WWX’s fall. I originally had 2 completely different songs here but I ended up liking the arc of this song and where it ends up. The two songs I originally had here were a much more bitter feeling, but I like that this song is tragic and painful and is still a kind of love song at the same time. I really wanted this playlist to be all love songs, some very different from each other, some more about pain and loss and regret than the good parts of love, but still love songs.

“And I have tried to shine in the darkness

Entertaining vanities in vain…

Hold on

And hold on

And let go

Let go

And fall deeper

Even than love.”

16.  Days of Candy | Beach House

To me this song is very evocative of the mingled feelings of grief in the immediate aftermath of a loss. Grief is never a pure, singular feeling, but a sticky amalgam of missing and wanting and sweet memories and a deep pit of pain. The sort of slow, half-asleep sadness full of watery light that this song evokes really takes me there, to the place where the grief is real but the loss is still almost unreal, where the feeling of that person still hasn’t left, your senses are still full of them, you just heard their voice yesterday, they might come into the room at any moment. It’s the almost— joyful?? part of grief that you don’t realize has any joy in it yet because you haven’t yet started to forget. You can’t imagine being able to forget, and you have no idea how much worse it will be when you can’t immediately evoke their presence anymore to comfort yourself. When you can’t pretend anymore that you’ll be able to see them again.

17.  Last Song | Gackt

Idk why exactly but Gackt is very yearning LWJ vibes in this song. Is it the earnestness? The intensity? The incredibly romantic lyrics? The deep, smooth voice?.. All of the above?

Anyway, if the previous song was nonverbal grief, this song is the start of the solidifying of grief, moving past rage and disbelief and self-destructive denial and gradually into a crystallization, a narrative of what the loss meant. Instead of a great crushing thing that blots out the sky and swallows your entire life, the grief becomes just another part of you— a defining part, maybe, but still part of a greater whole. And you move on. Or you try to. 

18.  Sleeping Alone | Lykke Li

This is 13 years of going where the chaos is, searching and playing Inquiry and never giving up, resigned to sleeping alone in strange places but still just never ever giving up. 

“Now was not our time, no, I let you down. 

Someday, somehow, somewhere down the line… we’ll meet again.”

19.  Busby Berkeley Dreams | The Magnetic Fields

Does every deep-voiced man singing a dramatic love song remind me of LWJ now? Maybe. At least I refrained from filling the entire playlist with Stephin Merritt songs. 

“I should have forgotten you long ago, but you’re in every song I know” is just… the most Wangxian sentiment. 

This is a bit of a modern AU LWJ, one who would definitely cry into his True Romance magazines. I do still think that this song very much captures how he must have felt hearing the song he wrote played on a terrible flute after 13 years, though. It definitely doesn’t have a flute solo in it, either.

20.  Ivy | Frank Ocean

This song is peak WWX in a mask, trying to hide from LWJ and his own emotions at the same time. But also, maybe, the start of some emotional awareness and genuine communication. Thanks to Frank Ocean for this entire playlist, practically.

21.  Fireworks | Mitski

Another song about memories and dealing with the past even when it comes back to stab you in the side. (s/o to Jin Ling, low key my favorite character, never afraid to cry in any situation) 

“I will be married to silence

The gentleman won't say a word

But you know, oh you know in the quiet he holds

Runs a river that'll never find home.”

22.  Hell | Waxahatchee

This is a song about apologizing to someone for putting them through hell. To me it’s a very adults-in-love song, and there’s a sort of gentleness to acknowledging the pain and mistakes of the past while still having hope that maybe love is really worth it after all— especially if you’re “one of those who canonize a love so true it never dies.”

23.  A letter to my younger self | Ambar Lucid

I have to admit that the title of this song makes me think of yiqie’s truly excellent time travel fic that is very heartbreaking and very beautiful. I don’t want to spoil it if you haven’t read it (go read it), but it’s safe to tell you that it grapples with and transcends all the reasons I usually avoid time travel fics, like the idea of helplessness in the face of fate, and how much control we really have over our own decisions, and what it means to let people make their own mistakes. 

24.  Let’s Pretend We’re Bunny Rabbits | The Magnetic Fields

This one really speaks for itself. 

Besides, “Let’s pretend we’re bunny rabbits until we pass away” is just a cuter way of saying “Everyday,” right?

25.  ”愛してる”からはじめよう  (“Let’s start from ‘I love you’”) | Miyavi

I personally feel that Miyavi has big sunshine WWX energy. This is just. A very cute and soft love song. Feels like napping in some tall grass in the summertime. Waking up next to your lifelong crush and remembering how lucky you are. Wandering from town to town with your true love and your donkey. That type of energy.

26.  Angels | The xx

The last three songs on this list never fail to give me Big Dramatic Feelings. 

I think what this song captures well is the feeling of just drifting along, lost in your thoughts, showing up somewhere— and suddenly seeing the person you know to be the love of your life at an unexpected time or place, and being struck all over again with… all of it. Your heart stutters, everything slows down, and for a second you forget to breathe. Like: Oh yeah. Oh shit. I remember why I love you. I remember how it felt when I was first falling in love with you. And I never want it to stop. 

“And with words unspoken, a silent devotion. I know you know what I mean.”

27.  Love Me Like I’m Not Made of Stone | Lykke Li

I think of this as the quintessential WWX love song, from the title to the sentiment of the lyrics to the moody burning joy of the sound of it. It’s demanding and soft and confident and raw all at once. 

Props to Lykke Li for the redemption arc of this playlist.

28.  Good to Love | FKA twigs

MAKE MY BODY COME ALIVE. This is the song that really says the most to me about the pain and beauty and the vulnerability and intimacy of being in love. What I love about all of FKA twigs’ music is how beautifully she merges and intertwines the messy physical and spiritual aspects of love. Her music is a sexy secular prayer to Eros imo and I’m here for it. 

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Oh and for the ask meme, all of them

...Oh dear. Well, anyway, here they are, I suppose?

I (Where did you hide the body?): In plain sight.

II (Favorite rock?): Chalcedony, most likely, partially because hhh cool rock, partially because of Elizabeth Bear’s story “Tideline,” and partially because the name just sounds cool.

III (Worst dream you ever had?): The first one I could think of was one in which I was trying to hide from something or other and ended up trapped in my backyard; also spiders had begun emerging from my hands.

IV (Answer this with a lyric from the first song that comes to your mind.): I want a love that falls as fast as a body from a balcony; I want a kiss like my heart is hitting the ground (from “Townie” by Mitski).

V (Does blood make you uncomfortable?): It honestly depends on the context, but not just seeing it.

VI (Even numbers or odd numbers?): Odd numbers, I’d have to say.

VII (Something you hate that you love?): Homestuck.

VIII (The first initial of someone you hate?): B.

IX (Make up an acrostic for the word “exsanguinate.”): (Based on the TMA episode “Blood Bag” because it seemed fitting and I didn’t have any other ideas)

Entomology led me here, to my likely e-

Xit from this room within the

Stomachs of thousands of mosquitoes,

And

Nothing seems to

Go right; go right—it’s the fastest way out, and

Underneath ceiling panels,

I am bled dry, and

No one else is

Around;

They’re already out there, and

Entomology led me here.

X (Do you enjoy corndogs?): Not really?

XI (Favorite movie from the year 2005?): I suppose I’d have to choose “Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire.”

XII (Least favorite music genre?): Most modern country music.

XIII (Have any terrible restaurant experiences?) Yes, if by “terrible restaurant experiences,” you mean “the result of other unrelated turmoil unfolding within the confines of a restaurant.”

XIV (Three things that you would never want to come near you?):

i) The sun, or any other star, for that matter.

ii) The remaining smallpox viruses still in containment.

iii) The supermassive black hole at the center of our galaxy.

XV (What is the worst way for you to die? [In your opinion]): Buckle up, kids, this is going to get detailed. So, let’s say that I’ve uncovered something significant that could right some wrongs and provide information that a lot of people need.

Before I can release my findings, though, or prepare for my likely neutralization, I’m abducted and recognize some of my captors as acquaintances or loved ones. After days of coercion, I make up information on the whereabouts of several important figures and/or my friends. My abductors know that none of this is true, and they tell me.

I am violated repeatedly, shot, then set alight. Somehow, my death is covered up or framed as suicide. None of my discoveries ever reach their intended audience.

XVI (Any unusual habits?): I tend to flap my hands when I’m excited or stressed?

XVII (One emoji that you probably have never used?): 📟; I’m not quite sure what it’s meant to be.

XVIII (Write a three-sentence horror story about a Gatorade bottle.): My mother told me never to leave food in my tent while camping. Tonight, however, I kept a bottle of Gatorade half-closed next to my sleeping bag. I woke to a decaying hand shredding the side of my tent and a long, hollow-eyed face softly groaning above my own.

XIX (Do you know what Old Bay is?): Do you?

XX (Can you dance?): I’m a fairly good dancer.

XXI (What first comes to mind when you see rope?): The figure-eight follow-through knot, for some reason.

XXII (Make an obscure reference.): What happened in Piedmont will hopefully stay in Piedmont or eventually mutate into a non-virulent form.

XXIII (What is your favorite color for a balloon?): Yellow or teal, most likely.

XXIV (If you were to ever go to court, would you more likely be guilty or innocent?): Depends on the crime, my guy.

XXV (Are you hungry?): No.

XXVI (Do you have an unlucky number?): 7.

XXVII (What does “JMD” stand for?): The Oxford Dictionary says it’s “Jamaican Dollars.”

XXVIII (Random inside joke?): This vanity’s real picturesque.

XXIX (What sends chills up your spine?): Whenever I stand in this one spot outside my house, I just kind of reflexively shudder for some reason.

XXX (How many questions are currently in your inbox?): 2.

XXXI (Someone real who scares you?): This might not technically be someone, but the fact that Disney has the influence that it has?

XXXII (Run or hide?): Hiding, most likely, because you can hide indefinitely, with any luck.

XXXIII (Who is the last person who mad you angry?): Jeff Bezos.

XXXIV (What’s going on in your head?): ...I don’t know; I just work here.

XXXV (One little thing that makes you smile?): Moss.

XXXVI (Are you a decisive person?): Not really, but I’m working on it.

XXXVII (Would people describe you as a paranoid person?): A year ago, definitely, but not so much now.

XXXVIII (What store would you be the least likely to be found in?): I have been many places, but I’ve never once seen a Sam’s Club, no matter how many signs I see for them, and I have no real interest in seeking one out.

XXXIX (Do you like hats? If so, what’s your favorite type?): Yes; I don’t know what my favorite type of hat would be, but my favorite hat is this massive orange sun-hat that makes me feel like some kind of reclusive artist/former socialite.

XL (Bowties or ties?): Ties.

XLI (Who?): The friends we made along the way.

XLII (What?): Oh, you know,,, ;)

XLIII (Where?): The Taco Bell parking lot.

XLIV (When?): The witching hour.

XLV (Why?): For love and for spite.

XLVI (How?): Duct tape and a fire within.

XLVII (Do you collect anything?): Tiny containers.

XLVIII (What time is it?): As I type this, 12:04 p.m.

XLIX (Favorite mode of transportation?): Bus, walking, or “Castle in The Sky”-type airship.

L (Would you ever kill someone to save someone else?): It depends.

LI (Make a joke.): Contrary to popular belief, magic actually does abide by mathematical principles—hexponents.

LII (.esrever ni gnihtemos etirW): Rats live on no evil star.

LIII (Would your dash be considered SFW?): Yes, for the most part.

LIV (Do you like to cuddle?): Heck yeah, my dude.

LV (What makes you angry?): Late-stage capitalism and the texture of Jell-O.

LVI (How many voices are in your head?): I don’t think in auditory words, exactly; it’s more a Strange Cloud Of Ideas and at least one song playing the background.

LVII (Do you consider yourself mentally stable?): Honestly, I’m not sure. I’ve been doing better than I have been in a while, but it’s still some kind of time.

LVIII (Are you easily offended?): If the comment or whatever it is is directed at me exclusively, no, but if it’s meant to target other people as well, then I suppose so.

LIX (What’s wrong with taking the backstreets?): You’ll never know if you don’t go.

LX (Any questions you want people to ask you?): Be needlessly ominous. Ask me to write short horror stories. Confess your feelings for me. That kind of stuff.

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I was tagged by @startrek-antagonist !

Rules: answer 21 questions and tag 21 people you want to get to know better!

I can’t think of 21 people so uhh.. anyone who wants to do this, you can say I tagged you

Nick Names? None tbh.

Zodiac Sign? Virgo!

Hogwarts House? Slytherin, definitely.

Last Thing I Googled? I was trying to find reference pictures of ballroom dance poses for a thing I’m drawing

Favorite Musician(s)? Nick Cave, Siouxsie Sioux, Mitski, Hozier,...

Last Movie I Saw? Sherlock Holmes: The Game of Shadows

Song In My Head? Pretty Lavinia by American Murder Song

Following? 400

Followers? 162

Do I Get Asks? Sometimes If I reblog a prompt!

Amount Of Sleep I Get? About 8h on average but like, actually ranging anywhere from 2h to 12h

Lucky Number? 8

What I’m Wearing? Blue-gray t-shirt and blue jeans. My socks have pictures of wasps on them.

Dream Job? I just want a (1) phd..

Dream Trip? I’d love to go to St. Petersburg

Favorite Food? Mushroom carbonara with either beer or black coffee

Instruments I Can Play? Guitar kinda??

Known Languages? Finnish, English, Swedish, and a tiny bit of Spanish and Russian

Favorite Songs? In The Woods Somewhere by Hozier and Henry Lee by Nick Cave and P.J. Harvey at least currently

Random Fact? I haven’t had my ears pierced (yet)

Aesthetic? Goth-y folk punk with major dad vibes.

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All They Say Is Na Na Na’s Best of 2016 - Top 150 Singles

150 Kaitlyn Aurelia Smith - "Arthropoda" 149 LUH - "I&I" 148 VIOLENCE - "Psycud" 147 Julianna Barwick - "Nebula" 146 Ariana Grande feat. Nicki Minaj - "Side to Side" 145 Ian William Craig - "Contain (Astoria Version)" 144 Róisín Murphy - "Whatever" 143 That Poppy - "Money" 142 Flume feat. Tove Lo - "Say It" 141 CC Dust - "Never Going to Die" 140 Lipgloss Twins - "Doodle" 139 The Range - "Florida" 138 Powell feat. Jonny - "Jonny" 137 Sia - "Cheap Thrills" 136 Olga Bell - "ATA" 135 Kaytranada - "Lite Spots" 134 The Body - "The Fall and the Guilt" 133 Amnesia Scanner - "AS Crust" 132 Mark Pritchard feat. Thom Yorke - "Beautiful People" 131 Sleigh Bells - "It's Just Us Now" 130 NV - "Kata" 129 Factory Floor - "Ya" 128 Emmsjé Gauti - "Strákarnir" 127 GAIKA - "Glad We Found It" 126 ANOHNI - "Crisis" 125 María Usbeck - "Moai y Yo" 124 Britney Spears feat. Tinashe - "Slumber Party" 123 Babyfather feat. Arca & Lil Yachty - "Meditation" 122 Santigold - "Banshee" 121 Tanya Tagaq - "Retribution" 120 cupcakKe - "Juicy Coochie" 119 Death Grips - "Giving Bad People Good Ideas" 118 The 1975 - "Somebody Else" 117 Beyoncé - "Hold Up" 116 Samaris - "Wanted 2 Say" 115 Calvin Harris feat. Rihanna - "This Is What You Came For" 114 Tim Hecker - "Castrati Stack" 113 Grimes - "California" 112 Skepta - "Man" 111 AlunaGeorge feat. Leikeli47 & Dreezy - "Mean What I Mean" 110 KDA feat. Tinashe - "Just Say" 109 The Weeknd feat. Daft Punk - "Starboy" 108 Primal Scream & Sky Ferreira - "Where the Light Gets In" 107 NAO - "Fool to Love" 106 felicita - "Heads Will Roll/I Will Devour You" 105 Motion Graphics - "Airdrop" 104 Lapsley feat. DJ Koze - "Operator" 103 Tove Lo - "Cool Girl" 102 clipping. - "Baby Don't Sleep" 101 Baauer feat. M.I.A. & G-Dragon - "Temple"

100 MO - "Drum" 99 Phantogram - "You Don't Get Me High Anymore" 98 Triángulo de Amor Bizarro - "Baila Sumeria" 97 D.R.A.M feat. Lil Yachty - "Broccoli" 96 Mykki Blanco feat. Jean Deaux - "Loner" 95 Austra - "Utopia" 94 Moderat - "Running" 93 Xenia Rubinos - "Mexican Chef" 92 Bon Iver - "10 d E A T h b R E a s T ⚄ ⚄" 91 Zara Larsson - "Lush Life" 90 Chairlift - "Crying in Public" 89 Carla Dal Forno - "Fast Moving Cars" 88 Allie X - "Old Habits, Die Hard" 87 serpentwithfeet - "four ethers" 86 Kero Kero Bonito - "Break" 85 Lafawndah - "Tan" 84 Arca - "Sin Rumbo" 83 Santigold - "Chasing Shadows" 82 AlunaGeorge - "I Remember" 81 Ariana Grande - "Dangerous Woman" 80 cupcakKe - "Picking Cotton" 79 Clarence Clarity - "Vapid Feels Are Vapid" 78 Rae Sremmurd feat. Gucci Mane - "Black Beatles" 77 Hannah Diamond - "Fade Away" 76 M.I.A. - "Go Off" 75 Snakehips feat. Tinashe & Chance the Rapper - "All My Friends" 74 Tim Hecker - "Black Phase" 73 NAO - "Girlfriend" 72 Shura - "What's It Gonna Be?" 71 Porches - "Be Apart" 70 Danny L Harle feat. Caroline Polachek - "Ashes of Love" 69 Lust for Youth - "Sudden Ambitions" 68 Katie Gately - "Lift" 67 Jefre Cantu-Ledesma - "Love's Refrain" 66 Flume feat. Kai - "Never Be Like You" 65 Dua Lipa - "Hotter Than Hell" 64 Katy B feat. Chris Lorenzo - "I Wanna Be" 63 Beyoncé - "Sorry" 62 ABRA - "CRYBABY" 61 Kanye West feat. Ty Dolla $ign & Post Malone - "Fade" 60 Preoccupations - "Anxiety" 59 Junior Boys - "Big Black Coat" 58 Róisín Murphy - "Ten Miles High" 57 Kaytranada feat. Syd - "You're the One" 56 Motion Graphics - "Houzzfunction" 55 Moderat - "Reminder" 54 Tegan and Sara - "Boyfriend" 53 Charli XCX feat. Lil Yachty - "After the Afterparty" 52 Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds - "Jesus Alone" 51 Gwenno - "Fratolish Hiang Perpeshki" 50 BANKS - "Gemini Feed" 49 Chairlift - "Romeo" 48 Christine and the Queens - "Tilted" 47 Solange feat. Sampha - "Don't Touch My Hair" 46 Sleigh Bells - "I Can Only Stare" 45 Death Grips - "Eh" 44 Beyoncé - "Formation" 43 Angel Olsen - "Shut Up Kiss Me" 42 María Usbeck - "Uno De Tus Ojos" 41 Oneohtrix Point Never - "Animals" 40 James Blake feat. Bon Iver - "I Need a Forest Fire" 39 felicita - "A New Family" 38 Danny Brown - "Pneumonia" 37 Deakin - "Just Am" 36 Shura - "Touch" 35 The Avalanches - "Subways" 34 Jessy Lanza - "Oh No" 33 MO - "Final Song" 32 CHVRCHES - "Clearest Blue" 31 ANOHNI - "Drone Bomb Me" 30 The xx - "On Hold" 29 Jenny Hval - "Female Vampire" 28 Mitski - "Your Best American Girl" 27 Rihanna feat. Drake - "Work" 26 David Bowie - "I Can't Give Everything Away" 25 Bridgit Mendler feat. Kaiydo - "Atlantis" 24 Angel Olsen - "Intern" 23 FKA twigs - "Good to Love" 22 Frank Ocean - "Nikes" 21 Radiohead - "Burn the Witch" 20 Carly Rae Jepsen - "Boy Problems" 19 Blood Orange - "Augustine" 18 Amnesia Scanner - "AS Chingy" 17 Kero Kero Bonito - "Trampoline" 16 Charli XCX - "Vroom Vroom" 15 Rihanna - "Needed Me" 14 Mitski - "Happy" 13 Olga Bell - "Randomness" 12 Beyoncé - "All Night" 11 Grimes - "Kill V. Maim"

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10 Xiu Xiu - "Falling"

"Falling" by Julee Cruise, the theme song of Twin Peaks is actually one of my favorite songs of all time. But I wouldn't feel like it's a stretch to say that Xiu Xiu's version is nearly as good. It sounds more rock-influenced, louder, but also darker and sinister (like their best songs). Personally, I love it when artists make song covers that sound so creative and unique. 

9 Danny L Harle feat. Carly Rae Jepsen - "Super Natural"

I feel like this is the song that positions PC Music properly inside the pop world. Sure, SOPHIE has had their collaborations with Madonna and Charli XCX, but in terms of accessibility, this is their poppiest song. And it's without a doubt one of their best for that same reason. Also Carly does her thing as great she always does. 

8 Danny Brown - "When It Rain"

There's just so much going on here. The production is so dense, I love the ringtone-like sounds over the heavy, glitchy footwork/ghettotech-meets-industrial instrumental, and Danny Brown's delivery here is probably one of his most aggressive performances to date. It's like Death Grips... except that this is 1000 times more punk for real. Also the video fits perfectly with the song! 

7 Ariana Grande - "Into You"

I don't think anybody expected a track like "Into You" from Ariana. I don't exactly know what makes this song so good, but the combination of her excellent vocals, the catchy hook, the (silly but) fun lyrics about love and sex and the bombastic production makes this probably one of the greatest pop songs since "Run Away With Me". 

6 Jenny Hval - "Conceptual Romance"

In a way, this is Jenny’s most “pop” track to date – unlike the songs from 'Apocalypse, girl.’ and her previous albums, this has a definite hook and a relatively normal structure. But her lyrics deal with usual themes for her, such as identity, conceptual art, sexuality, and it has a more atmospheric, darker vibe than the previous single from 'Blood Bitch'. And it's also one of her best songs to date too, so there's that. 

5 Radiohead - "Daydreaming"

“Daydreaming” is kind of the opposite to "Burn the Witch" – as an ambient-pop track and everything, but they do share some similarities, like the usage of strings and electronics, but lyrically is very interesting as well, possibly referring to Yorke’s divorce, after spending 23 years with his wife (literally “half of his life”, as its said backwards at the end of the song), giving it a very personal edge, which is one of the reasons this is now one of my favorite Radiohead songs ever.

4 Solange - "Cranes in the Sky"

“Cranes in the Sky” was written about eight years ago with soul icon Raphael Saadiq, it’s a slow, dreamy song that mentions all the ways she tried to get over her depression – by drinking, reading, having sex, dancing, none of which were successful. This song is gorgeous, probably one of my favorites of hers ever and without a doubt one of the best singles of the year. 

3 Jessy Lanza - "It Means I Love You"

I don't know exactly why, but I always found this song so fascinating. It probably isn't the track from her record that it's you in the most immediate way (that would be "VV Violence"), but the shangaan electro sample and the whole footwork-meets-Björk vibe of the track is just excellent. I'm also surprised to see how much love this song got, but it's totally deserved. 

2 David Bowie - "Lazarus"

“Lazarus” is probably the song where the references to death are the most obvious. First, its title, is a reference to the biblical figure of Lazarus, the man who died, but was brought back to life by Jesus himself, and is often a synonym of resurrection. In the video, we have him literally on his deathbed, fighting against his demons, but still creating art. But, the most important thing, the lyrics, are probably the most direct, poignant on the entirety of the record, with the soulcrashing opening lines “Look up here / I’m in heaven / I got scars that can’t be seen”, and its wonderful (but choatic) instrumental ending.

1 Rihanna - "Kiss It Better"

Her best vocal performance (the harmonies!). Her best lyrics in the topic of sex (shout-out to Natalia Kills by the way!). Probably one of her best instrumentals too. Overall, one of her best songs ever, and I feel like giving her the #1. is totally justified and deserved. This is the "Run Away With Me" of 2016, because honestly I still don't get why this wasn't a #1. smash. But anyways, talent won regardless.