#this is about that one give away account on twt

[culxiaa-fn]

I don't usually let public view influence my love for a character because most of the time, the characters that I love are always fandom's least favorite. So i am quite immune to public influence. But god... Kavetham shippers are so close to make me dislike Kaveh💀💀 im so scared that they actually successfully make me dislike Kaveh

[gigidragonbbxxx]

regarding mental diet

discipline. consistency. THIS IS HOW YOU MANIFEST.

it is the discipline and consistency in acknowledging the things in your 3D that you want and ignoring the stuff that you do not identify with.

Yes Gigi, we know that why are you saying something EVERYONE says?

bc dear reader and loass community, i'm gonna say something that might be known but I don't see stated enough:

To be a master manifester, you break your old realities and create new ones - AND A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE A HARD TIME GETTING ON THIS LEVEL BECAUSE THEY ARE UNWILLING TO LET GO OF HABITS THAT DO NOT SERVE THEM.

AKA = YOU MUST BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO BE DIFFERENT.

You hear me???

YOU MUST BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO BE DIFFERENT.

AND THIS IS WHAT MENTAL DIET IS: NOT GIVING IN TO EVERY TREND, EVERY LIL SONG, EVERY TV SHOW, ETC. IF IT DOES NOT HELP YOUR MIND BE SATURATED WITH BEING IN YOUR FAVOR.

I'll cite an example many of us go through: a friend who doesn't know the law and only wants to talk about how horrible men are. This friend is also addicted to complaining. What have so many loass practicing people have said? They've either 1) told that friend they don't want to talk about that stuff or 2) spent less time with that friend.

it's an experience so many in the community go through and many benefit from limiting their exposure to that type of person. because what is the point of spending time affirming lies like "life has to be hard" "life is unfair" "I always get treated like shit by men" "I'm never first choice" like EW!? guys, learn to get the ICK from this type of talk!!! there is no benefit from this energy.

YOU GET TO DECIDE WHAT YOU WANT TO EXPOSE YOURSELF TO. SO STOP MINGLING WITH ENERGY THAT DOES NOT SERVE YOU. IF YOU HAVE TIME TO THINK BADLY, YOU HAVE TIME TO THINK POSITIVELY!!!

Be willing to WALK AWAY. Be willing to be the one to say "This is not for me" if a convo is full of limited beliefs. Be willing to not participate in trends like making tiktoks about self deprecating jokes or tweet about toxic things. Be willing to say "Oh i never say those things about myself."

Let me explain what prompted me to write this:

I saw THE CUTEST lil key chains or cases made by a small business. I love to reblog cute things on my main account on twt (not my loass burner) and tbh I've manifested getting some of those cute things by making a lil placebo that whatever I retweet is mine/fact.

The first case/keychain thing was "Tummy Ache Survivor" which I thought was hilarious as I have a lot of Virgo energy in my life but the second image showcased another that said something along the lines of "Daily Dose of Dumb Baby Juice".

Guys.

Please.

Does a master manifester drink dumb baby juice? Or is she the operant power full of knowledge and wisdom leading a fulfilling life?

Now, I'm not a limiting typa gal okay? You can totally be "baby". You can totally live a soft live. Be a baby. Hell, I love being baby in a relationship. What I'm saying is even seemingly "harmless" things like that phrase...you have to have discernment in what could be unfavorable influences in your life.

Again, Gigi isn't telling you how to live your life. If you wanna declare "fuck off Gigi! I'm a dumb baby AND I manifest!" go ahead. If you wanna declare "fuck off Gigi! I can consume ANY CONTENT I want and manifest!" GO AHEAD.

BUT LETS DISCUSS SOME OBSERVATIONS IVE MADE ABOUT THE BIGGEST LOA COACHES/ACCOUNTS WITH THE MOST SUCCESS:

all of them. 100% of them. are careful about what they expose themselves to/say about themselves.

BECAUSE DOMINANT BELIEFS ARE WHAT MANIFESTS. SO WHY WASTE TIME CONSUMING CONTENT THAT GOES AGAINST WHAT YOU WANT YOUR DOMINANT THOUGHT PATTERN TO BE? MAKE IT MAKE SENSE!!!

and I get the resistance to cut off things you mightve enjoyed. But i said it before and I'll repeat it again.

YOU MUST BE BRAVE ENOUGH TO BE DIFFERENT.

things gigi had to cut off:

sad songs on daily playlists

reality tv glorifying toxicity in relationships

accounts on twt that leaned heavily on "men are trash" mindset

conversations that were self-deprecating

and more but those are a few examples.

and you know what I have more time to do now, reader?

I have more time to affirm, to listen to subs, to write on this blog.

Because Manifestion is a Lifestyle. It's not a quick fix bc the outcome depends on the SOLIDITY of your BELIEF to enact CHANGE on the 3D.

so pls don't drink dumb baby juice. drink pretty girl juice. drink intelligent master manifester juice. drink "in my favor" juice.

with laughs and love, xx, gigi

p.s. I do not believe that this is an excuse to remain ignorant about world events and news. I encourage you to remain informed, intelligent people who do not lack awareness and instead are fully immersed in the nuance of balancing high self-esteem and understanding the political climate.

[jiraisupportgroup]

why do you get to sit in your heated home with daddy’s money and tell everyone who can and can’t wear jirai kei?

I don’t usually respond to stuff like this, especially because I’m fairly certain this was just ripped from a popular j-fashion creators video, but:

I feel like I make it quite clear that when I talk about jirai kei it’s just my opinions. I openly state that I’m likely a dumbass and you should take my word with a grain of salt considering I’m not a spokesperson for the Jirai Kei community, I’m not an expert on Jirai Kei, I also don’t speak Japanese so I can’t rly access a lot of “OG” jirai kei content that launched the community.

Additionally: I’ve never stated that anyone can’t wear anything. The closest I’ve gotten to that is when I state that I don’t generally believe “jirai kei” is the appropriate term for the fashion (therefore you can’t rly “wear it” if we want to be super technical) or when I said that “fashion jirais” who complain about the community can fuck off.

Never at any point in that did I say that anyone can’t wear anything. If you want to wear girly kei or dark girly or larme or ryousangata or whatever the fuck you want to wear - by all means please do. My main point is if you don’t like the jirai kei community, don’t interact with it. You can post coords and find friends and have a lot of fun with the clothing if that’s want you want to do. You can buy Liz Lisa & MCM bags and generally live your best ryousangata life. You don’t have to interact with the jirai kei community to do that. Block the people you find annoying. Block tags, block accounts, block whatever you don’t want to see. No one is going to be mad at you for not wanting to interact with the “dark side” of jirai kei (as people love to call it for some reason) UNLESS you’re adamantly saying “the dark side is wrong” and then using a shitload of jirai-related tags. Other tags for these clothes exist. Separate the two if you want, I don’t give a fuck; jirai kei doesn’t own the clothing.

I’m not going to sit here and outright defend people in the jirai kei community posting people’s coords and bullying them, I’m not gunna sit here and defend the fatphobic or racist things that have been said on jirai kei twt. I will point out that those posts are not actually super common in the jirai kei community, and the people that post them generally aren’t very well liked by other landmines either, they also tend to be very young. It’s a really big community. There are going to be “bad apples” especially because it’s a community based around mental health issues. You can’t look at that handful of posts and say “the entire community is toxic and awful”. Venting & the like are very common, but it’s pretty rare that I see people actively posting hate like that, and there is a huge difference between the two. Most of the landmines I see are too scared to even make vague callout posts. Maybe that’s just Tumblr, idk, but honestly the amount of hate I see in this community is rather small.

Secondarily to your point; my house is not fucking heated. I can barely afford to run the AC in the summer or the heat in the winter - typically I turn it on when my BF is here and turn it off when he leaves to save money. I have my own apartment. I work for my own apartment. I can barely fucking afford it. I make about $2700 a month and my bills add up to be about $2400 a month (and it’s not like an expensive or nice apartment it’s literally full of roaches and my oven doesn’t work). I usually end up spending about $100 of the leftover on cat food, and then have $200 left over for gas to get to work AND food AND toiletries for the MONTH.

I don’t have “daddy’s money”. I live by myself about 8 hours away from my family; they don’t have shit to send me. My dad died 3 years ago and left us with 50k in debt because he decided paying taxes was optional. When that happened - I was making 17.50 an hour and I had the HIGHEST WAGE out of anyone in my family. I was trying to finish college which I was attending on a scholarship bc I couldn’t fucking afford it, I was working overtime, trying to organize my dad’s funeral bc no one else in my family could do it, and paying tax payments. “Daddy’s money” was a negative sum. I frequently send leftover cash to my family if there is any just to help them in any way I can.

The cute and nice things I can afford are typically bought either because I pick up overnight shifts at my secondary serving job or from sugar daddies. Although I stopped sugaring about 3 years ago.

I started working when I was 15. I started SW when I was 17 to help my family pay rent. I did SW from about 17 years old to 21 and stopped shortly after my father died because I didn’t have the time anymore. And I fucking hated it but it made money.

Don’t fucking come at me saying I’ve got a nice house and daddy’s money when I’m sitting in a roach-infested apartment that I work myself to the fucking bone for & I spent multiple years trying to pay off my dad’s debt.

Fuck right off with that dude.

[writers-ex]

her

ceo!chaeryeong x secretary!reader

word count: 1.3

warnings: jealous, mastubating, fingering, mentions of distrust/cheating, angry chae and sub!reader, being called a brat, mommy kink, nipple/boob play, cumming multiple times, angst(?)/misunderstanding to fluff

a/n: this is by no means any hate to chaewon i was talking with someone about her and just put her in the fic without thinking, i love le sserafim and am a yunjin stan myself TwT chaewon my little cub im sorry TT again I’m so sorry 😭😭

it was another regular day in the office-the staff said their greetings, emails were sent, and copies were made. yet, chaeryeong couldn't help but feel a tight knot in her stomach every time she saw you with chaewon from accounting. after agreeing to date in secret you both had the thrill of being ceo and secretary lovers always finding excuses to see each other. you were always needed in the office so it was natural for chaeryeong to see you talk and be friendly with others but there was just something about chaewon that didn't sit right with her. you reassured her that the accountant had nothing on your sexy lover but chaeryeong couldn't stop the small voice in her head telling her that you were about to be taken away by the other. 

one particular afternoon after having lunch separately chaeryeong walks into the entrance of the building and finds you and chaewon kissing in front of a crowd. you pull away and look at her shocked while she shrugs and starts talking to someone in the crowd that makes the publicity of the event die down leaving you alone with a confused look. as you turn around you turn pale and see your ceo girlfriend with the angriest glare you've ever seen her give someone staring right back at you. 

"my office." 

not needing to be told twice you follow her up the elevator in silence. as you get closer to her office you try to assess the situation and her level of anger, watching her chest rise and fall you get distracted with how tight her shirt is. eyes going down lower you didn't realize how fitted her slacks were on her body nor did you notice that there was no panty line either meaning someone didn't wear any underwear today. the whole floor felt the mood shift as chaeryeong stepped out of the elevator quietly walking toward her office.

"inside." with your head bowed to the floor you enter without a word. "seeing that its friday why don't you all head home early for the weekend? i still need to discuss things with my secretary." you shudder at her change of tone as everyone begins packing up and leaving downstairs with light chatter. once the last person wishes chaeryeong goodbye she grabs your hand and takes you to chaewon's space in the cubicles around the office. taking off her blazer she rolls up her sleeves and crosses her arms indicating that she wants you to speak. 

"she-she wanted to make her ex back off so she grabbed the first person she saw which was me and kissed me but-"

"doesn't she have a girlfriend?"

"...yes..."

"and why wasn't she there to help with her ex?"

"...because she went to the bathroom when the ex came up to her."

"oh how convenient of her. sit." pointing at the desk chaeryeong's face remains like stone as you move her things aside to sit on the desk. with your legs closed chaeryeong puts one hand between your thighs and holds the wall of the cubicle with the other. moving her hand closer to your core she sighs and rolls her eyes as you gasp feeling her fingertips hover so close yet not exactly touching you.

"so you're certain it was all just for show? that there were no underlying feelings between ... both parties?" you nod slightly, chaeryeong moves her fingers farther away from you making you scoot closer to chase after them. she chuckles and moves her other hand against your chest to stop you. "someone seems eager for mommy's touch~ shame you were such a bad girl."

"but mommy i wasn't!!" you whine loudly as her hand moves toward your stomach to pull your shirt off. helping her by lifting your arms up chaeryeong's smiles turns upside down as she sees you're not wearing a bra. noticing her change you raise your hands up to justify yourself. "i-i can explain!! i wanted to surprise mommy after work in her car but-"

"-so you're telling me that these gorgeous breasts were pressed up against that girl while everyone was watching you two suck face?"

"NO MOMMY WE DIDN'T EVEN-" chaeryeong's hand spreads open your thighs before going up to your lips silencing your pleads. the tears fall down your face as you bite your lips trying hard to stay quiet, disappointment all over your girlfriend's face you wait for what feels like forever before she speaks.

"you're going to have to prove to me that you have no feelings for this girl by showing me." taking a seat on chaewon's office chair chaeryeong props herself back looking almost relaxed."if you can cover her entire desk full of cum i'll forget this ever happened, the catch? you have to get off yourself, mommy isn't helping you."

"but mommy i need you." whining you give chaeryeong that look that you know she can't resist-

"i know what you're think and no i won't brat. i'm not doing anything but watching." as if she read your intentions you both gaze into each other's eyes trying to read the other when you see that your girlfriend really is serious this time. unsure of what to do you stand up and take off your skirt and panties leaving you naked while she sits fully clothed ready for you to prove your love. 

sitting on her desk you think of what to do your boobs start to ache for her hands. so you start with the most sensitive part of your body at the moment- your tits. slowly twisting and pulling at them your eyes roll back as you lean against her computer and start moaning quietly. feeling your pussy get wet your voice gets louder as your hand movements get faster and rougher. 

"chae oooh your hands feel so good mommy." as you feel your heart race and stomach knot you tug harder and harder until you cum all over her planner. panting you look down at your mess and blush as chaeryeong stays unfazed.

"that's just one part, keep going." sighing you lift your legs up and open them as wide as you can letting chaeryeong get a good view of your pussy.

"look mommy its so wet already are you sure you don't want a taste?" shaking her head you pout and sigh. "fine then guess i'll have to make you want it." copying what she had done to the past week on her desk you slide two fingers in and start off slow. "l-look mommy just like you~" picking up your pace you go in deeper and moan chaeryeong's name making goosebumps go down to her legs.

seeing your fingers disappear in you she scoots a bit closer to watch but you fail to notice as your eyes stay closed imagining it was her fingers instead of yours. mumbling how good she makes you feel your body shakes as your other hand rubs your clit in a side-to-side motion. before you could continue your back arches and you squirt cream all over her keyboard and paperwork gasping loudly. pulling out you look at your white fingers and then at your girlfriend and feel your heart leap with joy as her cold face as turned to one of pride and adoration. seeing chaewon's desk half covered in you and the other half pushed all over the place chaeryeong gets up and walks closer to you. your legs wrap around her waist as she grabs your ass and plays with it, moving her lips to your neck she starts sucking and kissing every patch of skin she could find. 

"you were- fuck so amazing...mommy is so proud princess." she stops for a minute and cups your face with her free hand. "i'm sorry for my behavior. i trust you, i was just jealous and hurt by what chaewon did. you must've been so confused my love, i promise to make it up to you at home with the softest lovemaking ever. how does that sound?" giggling you kiss her lips and nod as chaeryeong gives you the brightest smile. rubbing your noses together she helps you get dressed and hurryingly takes you down to the garage for a quick makeout before heading home for some well-deserved couple time.

bonus: after coming back from a long weekend a confused but adorable accountant finds herself with an empty, spotless desk that the ceo paid a very discreet but thorough company to come and clean the entire floor as a precaution, and papers that say she's been transferred to the same department as her girlfriend along with a brand new desk and supplies as a 'thank you for all her hard work'

[whakkicat]

i am leaving

i made a post on my twt about this, but i should make it here as well.

this is my last text post before i archive this account and start elsewhere. video about what’s been happening at some point.

this post will be a personal note to friends, mutuals, communities, etc, and what will happen from here.

brief warning for mentions of abuse

1. i want to start with a word towards the rain world community. first off, i want to thank rain world for giving me a home. for starting me off as an artist. i had never actively participated in a fandom before this, and it was a wonderful experience.

the game brought me and so many of my friends together, i met a lot of amazing artists, some of which i’m still shocked they’re my mutuals, and rain world itself changed my life for the better, i believe. it gave me hope and something to live for when nothing else did.

i’ve always been quite afraid of voicing myself, as i had never participated actively in a fandom before, therefore had never gotten used to talking in one. but to those who’ve stuck around, who have enjoyed my content, thank you.

2. to the people who have been there for me during the worst, who have let me know i am not alone in my suffering, it means so much to me. i really hope that i can still keep contact with many of the people i have met on here.

there have been so many kind people on this platform and it’s been a joy talking to you all. if this is goodbye, to some, i wish you all the best. it’s only what you deserve.

3. i will be reaching out to the main people who i owe art to, regardless of cmms or not. it is unprofessional of me not to keep track of myself and keep everyone waiting. my ADHD has not made it very easy for me. i apologize.

4. this point will mention abuse, so cw dealing and getting out of abuse this year was extremely hard for me, and is still taking its toll on me. it’s part of the reason i can’t stay, because i feel they still have power over me, even if they’re not actively in my life anymore.

as i move on, i don’t want to completely abandon my past, and everything that came out of that abuse in the first place. i am not abandoning myself, or forgetting what i went through. i want to grieve my younger, naive self as i go forward as an artist.

this doesn’t mean i’ve let them win and break me down. i won’t give up on myself. i need to be kinder to myself and heal, so being away from this will help. this also goes out to anyone else trapped in their friendships, relationships. you will be okay. talk to

please do not silence yourself for the sake of other people. your own feelings are just as valid and important as anyone else’s. don’t let people make you feel bad for feeling your own feelings.

5. to mutuals who’d like to stay in contact, i have a priv account on twitter i will mainly be using from now on. it won’t be used as much as it used to, considering this is a hiatus, but it will be where i will reside. you’re free to ask me in dms.

6. i’ve already begun starting over, i won’t be gone completely. if you happen to recognize me in the near future, please do not pester me about it. simply accept that i have restarted, as a brand, as an artist, and i’d like to start over from square one.

7. this account will also be public for the remainder of its existence, however i may clean it up for archival purposes. i don’t want to simply vanish, i am proud of some of the work i have published, and i don’t want it to be forgotten.

it’s a bit odd, considering most of my art is composed of doodles, non-serious jokes, and mostly fanart. hopefully i can make self indulgent art in the future. i’ve always wanted people to know my characters, but was always too afraid to actually talk to people.

closing point i’m sorry if my absence upsets anyone, if you are disappointed in me. i can’t stress enough that this year has been hard enough on me, and being here is hard enough. i want a fresh start. i want to be okay.

i love my fellow artists, my friends, everyone. there’s so many talented people i’ve met and i don’t ever want to forget them. my last post will be my video talking about my experiences this year, previous years, because i feel it’s important for me to come out about it.

this is a goodbye. i will miss many of you. here’s to hoping the rest of the year will be good for everyone! until our paths meet again. good luck out there

[mcytblrconfessions]

One of my special interests is like. Family and stuff.

So I would make fankids for all my favorite ships and happily imagine them in the sweetest domestic scenarios and pregnancy scenarios.

And this was all fine and dandy. Easy enough to make a Toriel and Sans fankid, a Jesse and Lukas fankid. Or hell even a Filbo Fiddlepie and Beffica Wigglesnoot fankid. And I'd roleplay cute little plots and write fun little fics.

Then I joined MCYTblr/twt.

How the fuck am I supposed to make a fankid for these guys.

Like. For awhile it was okay, because I could just use Michael and Shroud and Yoghurt. But now I feel intense embarrassment for even liking DSMP and I get really weirded out at the idea of anyone knowing.

Like? And if I wanted to give them siblings huh???? What then???

How am I supposed to make a. Idfk?? A fankid for Tommy and Tubbo??? Or even Wilbur Soot and Slimecicle??? What. This is a horrible fandom for me to be in BUT THE HYPERFIXATION WONT GO AWAY???? Everyday I inch closer to leaving but NOOOOO autism says I have to stay. I feel like God is torturing me for liking Soothouse is 2017. That's what this feels like. Or actually more accurately liking Sapnap back in 2020 and wanting to go back.

Anyway fuck man. I just wanna make fankids but no. I'm stuck in this fandom where someone will beat me with a bat if I dare even mention wanting Philza Minecraft nested with Missa and Forevers eggs, and I'm not talking about the QSMP eggs. No I'm talking about fankid eggs. I want Tallulah to have siblings/aunts/uncles and Cheyenne and Wilbur to have siblings. I want Philza Minecraft to awkwardly explain that Forever and Missa raw-dogged him and now he has more eggs. I'm going insane. This is a cry for help.

It's also impossible to find an RP partner that will do this with me on an account that isn't connected to my main in anyway shape or form.

ok well anyways look at my schlonnor fankid my friend wiiwarechronicles drew her for me

[minipisi-is-dumb]

I’ve been looking a lot into giftedness recently and noticed your blog has a lot of really helpful information on it. I was was wondering if you have any examples of symptoms for giftedness, since I have a hard time understanding what people mean when they just write “you have x symptom which means y” in their articles TwT I need to actually read examples or else I don’t get it, and you seem to be pretty knowledgeable

okay. I've had this ask for I kid you not. months. and you will find extremely ironic how the fact that I've been pushing it away for long is an example of giftedness symptoms!!! lemme explain

I first got this ask and the first thing I did was think "oh shit, how am I supposed to do THAT, this question is too broad, there's no specific goal, I don't know the way you learn so I can't really predict the best way to explain it so it's easier to digest, and how do I try to explain giftedness without seeming tokenizing or coming off as giftie embassador when I'm just a guy" mind you I found all these variables on information right after reading it. like a few seconds only after reading it. like all the wrong lightbulbs turned on at the same time except that it was telling me a thousand variables on how to approach a problem that seemed to have no end

so, I pushed it away because, as it turns out, this is an "open task"(referring to intellectual tasks in this whole post btw)

open tasks are a very interesting symptom I don't think I've ever talked about here so let me see if it makes sense

for giftie people, we have this little thing called "latent inhibition deficit" which is basically "hierarchy on sensory processing is not there" all sounds, lights, colors, movements, breezes, textures, smells... they're all important and interesting, so you pay attention to everything. we see the big picture first for better or for worse, because we connect it all together automatically

this is not just in a sensory perception level, but also a cognitive/intellectual one!!! which means that ALL knowledge is connected, all knowledge is important and it must all be taken into account at all times

an open task is asking someone who sees a whole ecosystem working at the same time to "talk about ants"

what part of ants? they biology? social interactions? contribution to other species? what species do they harm? what SPECIES of ants are we even talking about? are we referring to a specific anthill or ALL the anthills of the entire ecosystem? the list goes on and on, you begin connecting ants with their behaviors and jump to mention anteaters predation tendencies, only to jump against to talk about which trees and plants usually feed off of anteaters when they die, or what fungi could invade decomposing bodies that could eventually turn into a pest on the ecosystem, congrats! in ten minutes you talk about the dangers of deforestation and lack of biodiversity on pest control

you were just asking about ants for a 2 sentence answer on a homework

in fact, I JUST did it!!! I started to talk about giftedness for a metaphor and ended up talking about climate change!

so you can already tell that this question is, at best, impossible for me to truly answer, because it's an open task.

you're giving me a blank page to work on with no specific limits, too many variables to count on and wait for a response that i Can't Really Give, because how can I know im telling you what you need to know to understand it? the only option left is to tell you every single point from every single view from every single possibility until it is insufferably long. just to see if my point comes across

so, giftedness is very characterized by too many connections too quickly too intensely in just one person's head organ, and open tasks where a non giftie might find a "long enough" point rather intuitively, it becomes overwhelming at best for us

think about it like autistic/adhd infodumping, but for EVERYTHING, EVERYWHERE, ALL THE TIME

wanting to go deeper onto every detail while showing how everything is connected and moving and unstoppable and forever expanding in knowledge. that's fun! but impractical on the long run

so if an open task is fun but extremely overwhelming, is there a way to counter it? OF COURSE!!!!! THAT'S A CLOSED TASK!!!!

closed tasks that have the benefit of limits!! They feel nice because they are more clear, concrete and manageable!!!

go back to ants. don't ask me to just talk about ants, ask me about what is my favorite thing about red fire ants, or what benefits there are for ant mimicry in animals like jumping spiders!!!

woah, that's a relief, I can focus on one thing that doesn't feel overwhelming, stressful and impossible to explain or even BEGIN, and those around me aren't tired or confused by my attempts at doing so

for this question I had to spend however many months has this been in my inbox overwhelmed because every time I read it I thought "that's TOO much" until I remembered about open and closed tasks and thought how ironic it was that I am in this exact situation about not being able to explain my giftedness BECAUSE of my giftedness.

so I had to make my own closed task to answer to this, and as you can see, the closed task is talking about open and closed tasks!!!!!!!

I'd call this a fun three birds with one stone because not only I got to finally answer this in a way that reflects personal experience and I got to talk about something I haven't before, but ALSO I learned that maybe !!!! I can make my own closed tasks!!!!!! which is hard because I'm learning, but it helps me manage these types of situations instead of.... mental breakdowns and 5 minutes of explaining to my teachers why their two sentence homework couldn't be done because it had too many variables

so em, thanks for asking!!!! and sorry for taking so long !!!!!!!!!!

I have all my info posts about giftedness tagged so if u need more info I hope it helps !!!! again this is very specific considering all the research done on different sides of our experiences, but I hope it's a good start :)

[miradelletarot]

If you feel like you have to walk on eggshells around your friends or else they'll abandon you, those aren't your friends, that's just toxic. I do my best to curate pockets of the fandom that are mature and drama free. Fandom is meant to be an escape from life and a source of joy and community. You absolutely deserve that experience and I hate that people are taking that away from you when you need it most. Don't be afraid to drop what isn't serving you, and take a break if you need. But if you ever want a place to talk bg3 stress free, I'll be starting a discord server for naughtybg3confessions soon and you're certainly invited. I've always been fond of your blog, and I feel like the fandom would be missing out without you in it. Not to guilt trip if you really need a break, ofc, do whatever you feel is right. But know that there are people here who care and accept you no matter what! And it sounds like you're going through a lot, so if you ever need to vent or just want a distraction, hit me up any time.

I do hope it's ok to answer this publicly. Bc truly, it means the world to get messages like these.

I've actively taken these last few days to weed out the people that were causing me stress, and removing myself from the more toxic spaces. It's helped me realize that the "problems" are focused on certain social media sites (we all know which ones...) and any spillover onto Tumblr basically gets ignored. Which is hilarious. Everyone on here just gives the ol' thumbs up, and moves on bc we don't want or care about the drama. Frankly, that's fantastic. Since I've taken out the trash as it were, I'm doing so much better. 😊

I've decided I'm just gonna live on Tumblr for fandom things (and the occasional irl nonsense lol). I'll save my main Twt account just for Twitch streaming stuff. ✌️

Also, I'll HAPPILY take an invite to the discord when you're ready! It sounds like it'll be a fun time! 🎉

Again, seriously, thank you. You and so many others on here have truly been so supportive and caring. I'm glad my blog brings you joy, and it really warms my heart that y'all see this as a nice space to visit 🥰💖

[hello-naptiime]

Hi gang

I see were talking about Jonathan Piss ass ToiletJon again

And as someone who was fucking THERE, WORKING FOR HIM WHEN EVERYTHING DROPPED

Oh my FUCKING GOD AM I SO PISSED OFF.

Welcome to my rant/vent

Mutuals look away Im sorry

Tw// for grooming and manipulation. General gross things in that area

Also Jinbop.

First of all Ashlie and Jon did was gross, but where Jon failed at literally everything Ashlie succeeded.

When the news dropped of what happened in 2017 Jon made a fucking video of him crying like a little man child, and then pressed charges (also doxxed himself like an idiot) WHICH IS INSANE BEHAVIOR. Even in his written respone he was only making excuses.

At that time I was in very close connection with him, I was on his build team, I played multiple games with him. He would come into vc and hang out with us for several hours, you could consider us friend maybe! I wouldnt.

But I was at the very least in a lot of personal servers.

So when things dropped I knew almost all of the behind the scenes BULLSHIT that was happening. How everyone waited for it to blow over and stuck by him. (I got kicked out of servers too cause people knew i was against him but I was still told everything by friends who were still in there)

Then February happened. And so much more, much worse things got exposed. From only his end. I won't mention who was involved, out of privacy reasons and because I dont want to drag them into this. But holy shit dude everyone left him after that. It was over, his gross behavior with minors (included me now that i think about, sir why are you calling me and my friends cute we are 15-) His awful and manipulative behavior with people he finds useful, how he treats his teams

. He never credited anything, I made his goddamn Dimensions s2 designs, Eddie made the skins. Only Eddie was mentioned, once on a stream.

Eddie also made designs and skins for Rosethorn, and got credited in video no less.

Its not that hard and yet!

The main point is

He was still acting in 2020, the incident was in 2017. And he was acting like this, in late 2020. Into 2021.

I wanted him to get better. I really did, I had been hyperfixated on this group of people for years it hurt a lot.

But its been almost three years and he infact has stayed the same!

He is a grown ass man acting like a toddler on a public twitter account, what makes this man some one to respect in any sort of way.

Theres so much more shit I know about this man, that I can't fucking say because of the people involved not giving me permission too. And I respect that. Thats their story to tell.

Now ashlie on the other hand.

Ashlie made a concise apology and owned up to her actions, shit she made sure not to happen again. She went to fucking therapy, she broke off that relationship first and has made so much effort to distance herself from that and apologize everyday of her life.

She went to therapy after breaking things off, and she went again after the callout just to double fucking check she wasnt a horrible person.

She initially handled everything that happened in 2017 in private, like youre supposed to do. Not have a public twitter meltdown. And in late 2020 still handled mostly everything privately. She wrote out a full explanation and apology that is still very visible on her yt channel, not her twt her full 100k subscriber yt channel

I THINK, THATS GROWTH and she should be respected for that. She's actively changed as a person from the 20yr that made mistakes

And what's crazy is that Max and Ross still make youtube videos with her.

Max and Ross, YKNOW. The people who made sure fucking Jinbop got arrested and stomp Sky's name into the fucking ground for the shit that Sky did. I 100% trust those two to make a decision about a person in their circle when theyre doing some FUCKED SHIT.

IN FACT, THEY DID DROP ASHLIE WHEN THE ALLEGATIONS CAME OUT. SHE WAS IMMEDIATELY KICKED OUT OF EVERYTHING INVOLVING THEM

And they came back. They came back and started making new things and videos with her, Ross is an active participant in almost all of her videos.

I think that speaks wonders about her.

Don't drag her name through the ground I respect that woman and all of her endeavors in the future, she has more than made up for the fact.

Jon is still an awful person, and I dont think he will ever change. He's had more than ample time to and acts like whinny child on Twitter. Actively tries to pull nostalgia bait on his dying yt channel and mocks his ex "friends'" work. I want him gone from the youtube sphere and to get an actual life.

[blkkizzat]

hi im shy so i haven't interacted b4 but i luv your fics! i like that you write stories & just don't post smau or twt porn links.

Hey nonny! TY for liking my work, its appreciated!! I do encourage you to interact though, even if its just a comment or continued anon msgs cause they do encourage me to write. I also really like receiving them <33 so I hope you or anyone else feels comfy to interact with me. *i dont bite i promiseeeee*

However, I honestly don't think theres anything wrong with smaus or twt porn links.

I incorporated smaus into my fics before. I adore writing or reading a good crack fic/post so I definitely think they have their place too and they are funny! I just personally struggle when it comes to writing shorter content so not something in my wheelhouse to do. (lol anything i write under 1k words i automatically think is dogshit. lol someone teach me to write short stuff i beg.)

Also I be EATING UP those twt porn links!! I don't post any of my own as my twitter is a stan account and I don't follow/like/retwt porn on there cause I don't want to mess up my algorithm. But I do be bookmarking them HEAVY! They are good reference material for my smut fics tbh.

Also I try to stay out of the mess/discourse cause I feel like people should be able to enjoy what they like without writing lame dissertations in defense/debating about it. But since we are on the topic already I'll add I haven't really understood the hate for them in particular, especially those saying people who like/post them have porn addictions because what!? Like we are not all on here to write/read smut?? pot---meet--->kettle. Anyway I guess I can understand the frustration some have when they assume they are stealing attention away from fics, but idk tumblr is huge and there is a place/audience for everyone is my belief. I've seen many long 6k+ fics breaking 20k+ so I think theres interest in long fics as well (one of my 7k+ fic has 18k+ notes). But I work in marketing, am getting my MBA right now and have worked in the middle of business and creative my entire career (at one point i worked for Twitch directly with streamers/influencers) so I can say when it comes to anything content/creative driven its honestly it's less about the quality of the individual work and more about regularly finding, interacting and catering to your audience if you really care about notes that much . I think its far more important though to do it for fun. Especially since we are not getting paid and doing this for free-99! So much creativity gets stifled when its too much about the business/results/notes side and you are working to please others/for clout. Thats a whole ass job in itself lmfao! I used to write on ff.net back in the day (years ago omfg) and stressed myself out so much from all the reviews/requests that I ended up abandoning it and was scared to write fanfics for years because of the anxiety of 'letting ppl down' until I got back into it last fall and decided to stop giving a fuck LOL.

Ahhh but I could ramble on about that for hours so let me stop I'm doing what I said I didn't want to do cause this is def now a mini dissertation from me going down the rabbit hole on this LMFAO! (im long-winded af lol)

But ty for the ask nonny I hope you come back soon <3

[unohanabbygirl]

So from what i gathered litathesissy called corviids out over plagiarism in fanart (one of luke holding his oc kid) and a fic (a one shot of hers included a scene similar to another where Lucemond son goes into a rut and Aemond pulls him away from Lucerys who says "I'm his mother" to which he replies "And I'm your uncle"). Corviids responded by saying they remember reading the fic but it wasn't intentional though they could add it as inspiration if the authors reaches out (the author being grimsoul) and that not mentioning the original work the Luke art was based on was a mistake but that it was a forgotten piece that she posted randomly.

In the middle of this the acid rain author came out to say "now that lita is exposed as a bully, she said I'm a groomer but I've never given the minor smut scenes to beta and I didn't know they were a minor + lita says i write anon comments on her works except she blocked me on ao3 and i have her on mute" got flamed by many on twitter bc of saying that the grooming allegations are false and that it's "over a mistake of 2 days", others are saying the author knew and ignored warnings.

Also gybtm author apparently replied to the lita tweet to say "yeah corviids should've said it's inspired by grimsoul" and got OUTED then stepped back and said they haven't read the works of either sides after privating the fic for a bit (+ lita seemed to have other twt accs for drama and said to someone who told her you bullied people "and I'd do it again!") Lita and middle_c also deleted their entire accounts.

Anyways monkkeyslut posted an update on "All I had to give" saying she won't write anymore and is very much done with the fandom. The chapter has comments about the drama flaming corviids for how they're not exempt from dragging and it's all just??? Chill?

Ntbiutb author has an ask also summarising what happened and seems vindicated over lita but is very much mocking the "protecting the children" narrative against the acid rain author considering Elliot's face is often dragged into inappropriate conversations by Lucemonders.

Twitter is a dumpster fire, people are deactivating left and right, the fandom is imploding for the 8295th time this month, hope you're okay.

Oh my… that’s a lot.

I have to say that I’ve never been more happy with the decision to remain in my own little bubble. It also helps that i’m way lesser known among all the lucemond authors so there’s no pressure on my shoulders 😭

I just hope everything can come to a resolve soon. I’m not new to fandom so fighting amongst everyone isn’t new, but it never fails to make me a bit sad. This should be a fun/safe space for us, you know? But we’re all people with different views and personalities behind the screens so it makes sense for drama to go down sooner or later

Anyways, I’m more than fine anon! Thankfully no mean comments have been directed at me so I’m incredibly thankful to everyone here for being such sweethearts 🩷

[leqclerc]

Is there any "number 1" driver at any other team that's as disrespected as charles is by his own team??

I know the answer is no, because they won't even admit he's the number one despite him being miles clear of his teammate.

Like imagine any of the other teams posting about a race that their driver called the worst race ever for them and then changing the story to make it seem like it was the drivers fault for not being smart like their teammate and think of "the risky gamble" themselves and not the teams fault for fucking up.

Imagine any other team refusing to acknowledge any of their drivers great driving or overtaking at a race that the win was LITERALLY TAKEN AWAY FROM HIM and to this day have not mentioned it. If one of the merc drivers or mclaren or any other team managed that copse overtake that charles did, you'd best believe they'd have posted it multiple times. But nope, according to scuderia Ferrari, Charles leclerc did not partake in Silverstone 2022.

Imagine any other driver achieving one of the most prestigious accolades in f1, a grand slam, the first for your team in 12 years. The driver thats from your academy, one of your own, and you can't even acknowledge that with a measly post. Any other team would've rolled out the red carpet to post about an achievement like that.

It pisses me off so much that charles fans are called sensitive when we count social media posts, but how can we not be when we see the way he's constantly left out to dry on track, and disregarded off track (except of course when it comes to ice bath content) Like they could post carlos' Monaco p2 despite it being such a controversial outcome for the team, but they couldn't make a post about charles australia win. I won't even get into all the interviews by binnoto and Mekies last year when they couldn't even defend their driver after they fucked up. Poor boy really is taken for granted

Ferrari social media admin when it's time to post about Charles's achievements: I sleep

Ferrari social media admin when it's time to post Charles ice bath content: Real shit

Not sure what the social media "strategy" is and at this point I'm too afraid to ask 💀 By wanting to be as vague and uncontroversial and fair as possible, they actually create more discord between fan groups... If they decided that posting throwbacks to achievements from previous seasons is going to be a thing they do, they should execute it better. Because so far what they post vs what they don't has been incredibly arbitrary (not to mention polarizing). A grand slam weekend probably carries more significance and "value" than a P2 finish, but you get a post about the latter and not a word about the former. That was certainly a choice 🤔And then of course the quote Tweets which are just............. Lord give me strength 😭🙄

Idk, honestly, I'm so tired of their "How do you do, fellow kids?" memetastic #relatable Swiftie approach to social media that I mostly just elect to ignore them and not engage with most of the posts in that vein. 🤷🏻‍♀️ It's giving Ryanair Twt account energy where instead of addressing very real complaints they choose to ratio their own passengers in the most obnoxious way possible...

[poppy-metal]

my two cents as a pansexual enby is they're an asshole. never once have I ever felt weird about something you've posted and I've been following you for a while so 🤷🏻‍♀️ also I feel like they're saying that a fem presenting person isn't allowed to use a strap on?? maybe I'm misunderstanding but that's what I'm getting from it and that's some of the most transphobic shit I've ever heard.

poppy, my love, I don't think you've done literally anything wrong. especially because for as much as you say you want (fem character) to dick you down with their strap, you also talk about tribbing soooooo it's not like you're only attracted to that character IF they have a dick/strap on

I'm sorry people are being horrible to you, you really don't deserve it <3

yeah, it all stared because this group of people on twt don't think you can be feminine and be sexually dominant and empowered without that meaning something masculine. they basically had one person stalk my nsfw account and then make a post about me saying how im transph*bic because i write jordan as dominant. then alot of people who DONT follow me or even know me hopped on and started snowballing and alot of the things they were saying read as biphobic to me as a woman because they were basically saying it was weird that i wanted to be sexually submissive and that wanting to be pegged meant i didn't see jordan as a woman. it spiraled and made me very upset and anxious but I've calmed down and come to realize people on twt - on any platform really - will find a narrative they want and go with it and it doesn't matter if its true or not.

it just rubbed me the wrong way, because jordan is a character who identifies as both a man and a woman, wants to be recognized and seen as both, but generally has a more masc!leaning personality. doesn't take away from their femininity because there are plenty of people out there who happily identify as a woman and present themselves a certain way. i hesitate to call it masc! be things like the stuff you wear or the things that intrest you shouldn't inherently be labled as masculine or feminine. i write them domming because of how they present themselves in personality, not because i prefer men. i have to laugh because im honestly more attracted to women, so like. it was all just very silly when i took a step back.

im sorry jordan gives off such big strap energy thats literally not my fault.

[outrunningthedark]

joined the 911 fandom few months back and…has it always been this annoying or did something shift recently. someone on twt said maybe mehta coming back doesnt have anything to do w buddie at all and now they are getting cooked for “raining on people’s parade and being a negative nancy for no reason” …. this whole cycle of setting expectations and bullying people for not having the same enthusiasm then getting annoyed that the tv show isnt delivering the same expectation you set is just so annoying??? glad that your blog exists and you exist because this fandom is in heavy NEED of rational minded people 😭🫶🏽

I've been actively involved in fandom since the start of s4 (was a lurker in s3) and from my perspective...things get worse as the seasons continue! In s4, there was *some* hope for canon!Buddie, but Ana came back into the picture and TayKay soon followed so expectations were lowered (because we didn't know how long they'd stick around). Thennn...the shooting happened. Plus the change in guardianship. People were on board again AND we were introduced to even more new fans who couldn't believe "the gay firefighters" weren't together yet. Season five? Eddie breaks up with Ana, Buck breaks up with TayKay..."If Buddie not canon then why did they break up with their girlfriends?" And now season six is about how "all signs point to canon Buddie" no matter what happens. (ie They were convinced Eddie would be a big part of Buck in the coma to hint at feelings and when he wasn't they changed their theories to "explain" why his absence was a good thing; same with the sperm donor arc - all that non-communication was going to pay off once Eddie confronted Buck about a decision he didn't think through and now the lack of 6A content is going unmentioned because Oliver has (twice) emphasized that there's nothing for Buck to come to grips with, he knew what he was doing when he said yes.) I think the fandom just really, really wants to be right about this one thing for two reasons: 1. It would be a game-changer. How many fans of a queer ship can say that they got the endgame they wanted? Furthermore, how many can say their canon ship started out with two straight characters who fell in love over time because a show thought that made the better story? (Not the SPN fandom, that's for sure. They're some of the biggest naysayers you'll find around here because "I've been where you are." Mind you, most us are old af and remember a time when queer ships stayed in fandom spaces because TV shows wouldn't dare take the risk of alienating audiences.) 2. Having Buddie go canon is an opportunity to get back at any and everyone who doesn't believe it'll happen; the ultimate "I told you so!" victory lap.

I do agree with the fandom when it comes to keeping opinions out of other people's inboxes unless they're open to reading it (obviously me :P), but expressing an opinion on your own page (whether that be twitter or tumblr) is what having a social media account in a fandom is for. You don't have to agree with the person. You don't even have to read it. But you can't stop them from feeling how they feel. And quite frankly, while having hope is nice to see (I do, too!), some people could use a reality check. We're not in the writers' room. We don't know what the writing staff is really thinking when they come up with stuff. Even when Kristen makes comments and Oliver gives his perspective, the fandom calls them "liars" or twists their words to fit a narrative that makes for (what they think is) a better outcome. They'll also advise people not to read the articles, but...nobody actually lies in those because they don't give away all that much information, and the information they do give is to tell fandom when things aren't about Buddie, lmao. Kristen said the coma arc was about Bobby and Chim and there fandom was hyping up Eddie's importance only to realize she meant what she said. Oliver says Eddie going after Buck in 6x10 isn't hinting at anything and they're envisioning feelings realizations at Buck's bedside, which never came. They're TELLING fandom to not get its hopes up right now and the speculation has only gone deeper into "this can't be about anything other than Buddie" because everyone is too invested to turn back now.

As for Captain Mehta - I have my own theories about this. Could his presence bring about a mention of the shooting? Yep. Could his presence inspire another conversation? Yep. But *why* him and *why* he finally has a first name? 1. Is everyone at that table supposed to call him Captain Mehta or just Mehta? Nobody knows him on a personal level? 2. Is it possible that throwing some third no-name/relatively unknown firefighter into the scene (along with Capt. Williams and possibly Julie) does nothing to gauge the audience's interest? At least the audience will remember Mehta and there's a connection between him and both halves of Buddie whereas we've seen Julie in limited quantities (and not even as one of their friends off the job) and Miranda Williams was last seen in early s4.

I'm not saying him being back can't be the precursor to important things, but people also thought the Buckleys were coming back after two years so their kids could yell at them some more and they would decline to be with their son in the hospital (why else would they have returned right then, duh!) and we all saw how that turned out. This fandom loves to say "Bestie, you're watching a FOX procedural" on the ~discourse~ days while routinely ignoring the fact that we're watching a FOX procedural. Sometimes what you see really is what you get when the show runners are (currently) pandering to an audience that includes everyone but us.

[taehyungfirst]

I’m gonna start this by saying I don’t like that woman, but this is an obvious smear campaign by Hybe, they’ve had employees, some of them in high positions, defraud them, impersonate artists, sell artists’ info and they’ve always been presented in the media as Mr. A, it has never been like this.

I don’t even care about her, but this is exactly what they did with Tae, but they couldn’t go as hard because they still had to think of BTS as a group. But thinking back the worst of the shit against Tae started around April-May and that’s around the time they filmed Festa and it was clear they wanted to do solo stuff. And boom we had the smoking pic, the car pic, trying to make him seem rude by ignoring the media when he came back from Paris, and that’s when stuff on twitter also started getting much worse, cause before it was the usual akgae fights, but after there were full on ot6 talking shit about him, and then from august onwards it was a complete chaos of his name being dragged in the media and Hybe not doing anything, and we know they can suppress this shit quick, they did it for JK within one day.

They will do much worse the next time, I need y’all to think about the fact that Hybe has 10+ years of content of these men, they can edit anything to make him look bad. I dunno if anyone remembers akgaes trying to make it seem like Tae pushed that radio employee, well imagine a repeat of that, but coming from his own company. I need people, or at least people who like Tae to stop defending Hybe about absolutely anything, they are vile, and nothing MHJ has done even comes close, not even the shaman thing which turned out to be just her asking “hey, are these men enlisting?”, which I promise you every single CEO was wondering and/or asking around about. Like fuck her, but I need Bang Pd and his entire posee strung up and far away from Tae.

Not to mention the fact that big army accounts simply aren’t using borahae anymore, has anyone else noticed that? Like Joon posted that purple poster and big accounts didn’t even translate that it said borahae, they left that out and used apobangpo. Isn’t that werid to people that these big accounts are all moving in unison to exclude borahae after Hybe failed to trademark it? And the only thing Hybe needs to do is include Tae’s name in the request, like they did for JK’s logo, but they aren’t.

Everyone come around, the TEA is served!

Defending Hybe is the least useful thing people could do right now, because even if Taehyung is the unfortunate one who’s used as a scapegoat, who gives you all the reassurance that they won’t switch to someone else? They think they’re innocent and working hard in the background, but when it comes to defend Tae they take years or just not resolve the whole thing at all. They don’t take articles down, they don’t sue this or that, they let medias speculate and leave up videos on stan twt (Yea, some other members videos were removed). So yes, they’re both certified freaks but Bang Pd will do ANYTHING for money, and that includes throwing bts under the bus. Like he did. Multiple times already.

So much for a “father figure”.

[st4rswrld]

Anonymous asked:

yess i totally understand i dont want any drama either i was just telling you so you would know and bc i like you (and everyone whos logical about this and supports palestine) so i thought you should know who to keep an eye out on thats all! im considering dming you but omg i feel like such a mean person for bringing this up i just got thrown off everytime *redacted* etc.

i think its unnecessady drama if you dm them tbh just give a heads up to some people privately and dont really interact with them or drift away bc these people almost always get defensive and start lashing out (like sturniolo fans on tiktok and some on twt they fr defending the boys and genocide and some even bragged about continuing to eat from mcdonalds😭) but yeah this is absolitely no hate! i still love and support the triplets im just disappointed in them and want to hold them accountable thank you for being understanding. 🍀

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to ☘️ anon

i appreciate you telling me everything and giving me a heads up and ill for sure take your advice! and please dm me I would love to continue this conversation but i understand if you don't want to. also your not mean at all for bringing this up 100% trust me. and yea ive seen the tiktoks of people proudly stating they eat mcdonalds or they don't care at that they support a genocide and some other bs. I just remind myself that some of these fans are like brainless children who haven't reached puberty and the other ones are just brainless. and as for the triplets I also just want them to take accountability and i still love them too. and i like you too 🫶🏾.