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MODERN AU ACESAN !!!! first impressions with a guy who barely passes the No Shoes No Shirt No Service rule
#acesan#one piece#portgas d ace#sanji#monkey d luffy#comic#ive been meaning to make this comic for like a year Btw. and it got stunted for 6 months cuz I couldn't get past a part that was like#Slightly too ooc for my liking without fuckin up the whole thing even tho its already stupid as is ANYWAY. SOLVED IT OBVIOUSLY so yaaay#i spent so long on it and it still had mistakes. but gues what I Fucking Ball#also initially posting this on twitter was such a headache because the alt text limit is so Small so i was like ok Fuck My Life i guess#anyway. blow s a kiss to the crowd. Enjoy my insanity
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tarpit site.
#personal#delete later#for context a tweet i made in the middle of the night blew the fuck up and brought the attention of anime fans who've been#harassing and hassling me about my big factual blunder for an entire day straight#“ok i'll apologize” “bro it's not that serious.”#“you're right it's not that serious“ ”why won't you just admit that you're wrong and apologize!“#i'm not going crazy right. i feel like i'm getting manipulated into thinking i must've been wrong#it's crazy how twitter hate will trick you into believing saying something someone else disagrees with is a moral failing#sorry i haven't seen frieren i guess but what's it to you. i wasn't making a claim or statement#also because nobody has gotten this in the original post i wasn't talking about the quality of animation i'm talking about solid drawing#which is a very specific principle of animation. dandandan has really good solid drawing wherein all the characters are animated#with realistic and proportional 3d depth. newsflash but trigger doesn't prioritize solid drawing in their animation and that's fine#it's an aesthetic choice and has ties to production limits. none of this is a big deal. this is all so stupid lol#i've dealt with worse and more annoying weebs though it's fine i'll put on my clown nose twitter needs their stupid guy for the day#oh btw at the end of the day this doesn't matter. it'll be over by tomorrow. all that's happening is petty angry emotions.#so please don't involve yourself by jumping into the argument and prolonging this shit#i'm about to go on a date with tulli after being apart for a month this is the furtherest thing from my mind rn
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btw For the record posts and likes have Always had a daily limit. it's just that they're high enough that you won't hit them ever under normal circumstances. this means that TUNGLES GOLDS is selling a solution to like, a total non-issue
#post limit has p much only affected people reblogging the same thing 2185391518469 times it seems#as for likes. i didn't even know those were limited it's so unlikely that you'll hit the cap#btw Dont give this website money if it hasnt been made clear already
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Requests from Twitter 💯
#this isnt all of them btw#i hit the image limit 🫡#ill post the rest in a reblog#homestuck#nepeta leijon#caliborn#caliborn hs#calliope#calliope hs#equius zahhak#eridan ampora#karkat vantas#dave strider#jake english#gamzee makara#feferi peixes#fantroll#fefnep#equikat#meowrails#gamquius#gamfef#davejake#equidan#erinep
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heeeeyyy guyyys i need your cooperation for a fun thing
whenever I need to calm down I like to try "counting sheep" but more as trying come up with as many unique sheeps as I can (so like blue sheep, tiny sheep, sheep with really cool shoes)
anyway i thought it would be cool to see what the internet would come up with!! pleaseee make some sheep variations !! you can use this template!
have funnn !!!!
#please make sheep designs!!#this is not limited to artists btw i just really want to see some silly sheeps#you can also just name/describe them if you want!!#i also dont know how to tag this post so it probably wont reach many people#so you 5 people who see this and are bored - you are my only hope#sheep
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The Heart of a Jedi
It is a common belief in the galaxy that the Jedi are not permitted to love. Silently, some people mourn the children given to the Jedi, believing they will be brainwashed to hide their emotions and be unable to love. Disdainfully, some parents who don't wish to give their children to the Order claim that their children will never know love if they are taken in by the Order.
But love is a word with many connotations. How can a Jedi affirm or deny such accusations when they may be working with widely different definitions of the same word? When beings can mean any number of disparate emotions, many compatible with their way or life and many others contradictions of their code, values and vows?
The Jedi do not claim love is forbidden to them. How could they, with what love means to them? Saying love is allowed is misleading, and saying it's encouraged severely understates how important love is to them.
Love is essential, central to a Jedi's life. One cannot be a Jedi if they are devoid of love.
The Jedi do not claim that love is forbidden to them, as they share an ideal of kindness and compassion for all forms of life.
How could they strive towards this without love, as they understand it? Not affection, necessarily, for a Jedi must be compassionate even towards those they dislike. Rather, a deep respect for life, an attempt to understand it and its connections, and an endless drive to reduce suffering where they can.
That, to a Jedi, is love.
A Jedi must love everybody. They love the starving, the abused and the slaves of the galaxy, because they need their help. They love pirates, slavers, and corrupt politicians, when they dislike and want to stop them.
They even love the Sith.

But for many beings in the galaxy, that is not enough. For many beings in the galaxy, that is not love. And as long as the Jedi reject the cruel thing the galaxy calls love, that grasps and steals and demands to own, long as the Jedi accept the inevitability of death, the futility of holding on to what is not meant to be held, there will be those that call the Jedi loveless.
How sad, a Jedi would say, to be unable to conceive love without cruelty.
#jedi appreciation#jedi code#love vs attachment#love without attachment#attachment isn't love#pro jedi#pro jedi order#jedi and clone troopers#jedi can and in fact SHOULD love#people just don't get love without possessiveness#and the Jedi aren't wrong in practicing non-attachment#If we define attachment like Star Wars does then I'd argue we all should let our attachments go#If my blog's name and the nature of the post and the previous tags didn't give you a clue…#i am completely and shamelessly pro jedi#and I will tolerate exactly zero anti jedi sentiments in my corner of the internet#the pictures were chosen deliberately btw#the Jedi are being kind and compassionate towards clones and droids (aka the least valued members of GFFA society)#I have more pictures where those came from but unfortunately this is supposed to be a short post and I've reached the picture limit#jedi positivity#in defense of the jedi#if the Jedi have no fans then I'm dead#star wars
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characterization hc notes
also an excuse to shade sketches more. i don't yet totally comprehend cell shading, as opposed to blending colors until they look right, but never too late to try i suppose
[Image description in ALT, text transcribed under cut]
Text from the image as putting them in alt seems like murder for screenreaders (with some typos corrected):
Off the clock:
Facial expressions more natural
Verbally less strained but can still be a bit dramatic/morbid
Casual but not outright impolite
Can be much more of a troll
In-game / On the clock:
Professional
Speaks relatively tersely, can be somewhat dramatic
More or less calm/collected, but can come off as trollish
Does their best to appear relatively nonthreatening but just appears scarier for it
bonus point: seems to care for humans/players but it's unclear if it's simply pity for their inevitable mortality/fragility or genuine empathy for the position they put themselves in for the cash. one way or another their death in the game's context is simply business
#buckshot roulette#dealer buckshot roulette#the dealer#doodle post#wow! a solution for text heavy images that DOESN'T involve maxing out image description limit?? i saw someone do this on cohost and im#amazed i didn't do this sooner#anyway this is based on a set of doodles i made at work.#i was pinged in a recent fanart made by one of the artists that plunged me into this pit and brain went ACTUALLY I HAVE MORE THOUGHTS#btw I can't ever get the in-game scowl quite right. the smile makes sense but the scowl has to be simplified a bit
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smallidarity highschool au
came up with this au like actually 2 years ago where it's mainly empires 2 smallidarity centric, with Jimmy as a student council member and Joel as an honours student who doesn't like the way Jimmy runs things around the school.
As payback for the regulations Jimmy put up that Joel thought was stupid, Joel does these elaborate 'The Office' style pranks on Jimmy (specifically) while Jimmy retaliates by trying his best to dig up dirt on Joel. This banter goes on for a while— however Joel ends up doing the pranks less as a statement, and instead more just to see how Jimmy would react... with his comical, cartoony villain yells, and... weirdly cute face....? (YAOI YAOI YAOI YAOI)
very very old au drawings below:
from July 2023

😭😭 joel does NOT look like a highschooler here 😭😭😭😭 (i also wanted to draw angst in the first two ig idk a year later it's pretty cringe [i am still cringe]) (also partially inspired by when I read "Go for it, Nakamura!" and the mc reminded me of joel for no actual reason. or maybe i was just thinking about that manga while drawing smallidarity. idk)
from November 2022:
I think these doodles were genuinely the first instance of me converting from being against mcyt shipping to for shipping LMAOO
#smallidarity#my art#empiresshipping#finally writing out this au GOSH it's been in my head for so long#despite that I'm still not very sure about the au plot-wise ? 😭#like idk if i want canary curse limited life angst or not#(eg. Grian is the occult club president and Grian warns Joel about Jimmy's forboding demise#or to keep this au romance drama? without any fantasy stuff yk?#this was my first time making an au idk how else it goes lmao 😭#anyways hopefully day 2 of posting daily ✌️#smallidarity highschool au#<- I POSTED OTHER STUFF ON THIS AU BEFORE PLS CHECK IT OUT MAYBE#also btw this is separate from that highschool isekai harem anime posting i drew a few months ago#extra thoughts: 'solidarity' and 'smallishbeans' are nicknames they got for themselved#'Solidarity' (probably) comes from Jimmy's campaigning for Student Council President (which he's tried for and failed many times)#and 'Smallishbeans' comes from a running gag between Joel Lizzie and Oli from a bit he did when they where kids#where he would act like a 2010's millenial tumblr girl and call himself a 'smol bean'#smallidarity daily#day 2
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i feel like a fish swimming against the current in a river of angst enjoyers as someone who wants to make those characters happy for once
#i think. fandoms are allergic to happiness#ahem.#gravity falls#ahem….#everybody: doomed toxic yaoi#me: yeah but what if they’re happy in the end#what then huh#gonna be honest guys this is about 2 ships specifically and they’re both fiddlefordcentric#fiddlestan#fiddauthor#😇😇#both can have their happy endings btw#i love happy-in-the-end fiddlestan where they start working on the portal together then like. kind of literally grow old together#& i love happy fiddauthor where they go through their angst but end up fixing things between them in the end#also college fiddauthor hi#uhhhhm yeahg#this post can be about. whatever characters u want though this isn’t limited to gravity falls#this’s a common occurrence
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Hi if you see this post please bully me in the notes about doing my gosh darn holiday knitting. Bc why am I on my phone when I have sugar honey iced tea to do
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Hiiiiii for that pre king wish au. Is Loop going to deal with the repercussions of Siffrin always drifting and never finding an anchor? He was just a traveller, moving forward day by day, with nothing new or exciting to live for... until he met the family :3 BUT NOT WITHOUT THE KING-
OK SO. i have Many Thoughts about this, so bare with me here.
Loop, having gone through the Same Two Days for so long they've lost count of time, has a complicated relation with predictability and stagnation. On one hand, if nothing changes, then they can just follow the script, and they'll know what to expect. On the other hand, they'd rather die than be stuck repeating the same lines over and over again, not after finally being freed. And now, by a twist of fate, they're face to face with the past version of the monster they were fighting so hard to defeat.
I think, at first, they stick around as a helpful "guiding figure" while they sort through their own feelings and decide if they're gonna kill this guy or not. After much deliberation and one failed murder attempt, they decide to let him be. Unfortunately for them, in this time they've grown attached to the sobbing wet cat of a man they were stuck with (the King is actually very similar to Siffrin in this AU, so he probably hits a soft spot within Loop, that remembers the horrible feeling of confusion when they first landed in Vaugarde).
After the emotional tumult settles, I think that King intends to go to Corbeaux as per cannon, and Loop (without any better things to do), follows. On the way there, though, they pass by Bambouche, and Loop is hit by the Dread as they watch a slightly younger Bonnie with their sister run by them without giving them a second glance (well, they do look their way, but with confusion and curiosity instead of recognition). That's when it hits Loop that no one in their family is ever going to meet each other because the disaster they bonded over never happens.
I'm still mulling over how I'm gonna make this happen, but I want Loop to put the gang back together with the King's help (maybe on the pretense of finding more about the forgotten nation?). Loop clings to this purpose like a goddamn lifeline, because otherwise, as you mentioned, they would just go back to wandering aimlessly, stumbling around in a land that is not theirs. They want their happy ending because, after All of This? They deserve it.
(On an addendum, there is also a Siffrin in this AU, back when they still kept his hair dyed black.)
(On a second note, I'm currently making those in-game character profiles for the ones who don't have them yet - Loop, King and Nille - so. Uh. There is more to come 👍)
#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#two hats spoilers#isat au#it never happens au#oh ye btw#you know those art advice posts#that say that the best way to get better at art quickly is to get obsessed with one (1) character?#yeah i have to agree with them#drawing the sillies has made me surprisingly competent at copying the game's artstyle#and a lot better at working with a limited color palette#ANYWAYS! character portraits Soon (in like a few days maybe)
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Updates for the people who don’t use Twitter (super long thread so stick with me y’all, rest of the thread in rebloggs):
(Note: Please take all of this lightheartedly this is lore and for content purposes only they don’t actually hate each other please don’t send hate to kab or red!)
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#lifesteal smp#lifestealer’s tweets#kaboodle#reddoons#this is all lore btw#idk how to position images so if it looks weird please tell me#I also included the video that kab posted#please be respectful and do not send hate to ccs#also I’m trying to keep up but they keep adding on#kab is wild now bruh#this is some crazy beef right here#uh tumblr image limit so I’ll reblogg the rest of the thread :)
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>Inverse Theory<
The theory that the entire life series is being viewed in reverse.
The games end when Grian finally wins that which he created in 3rd Life, freeing the players.
Ok. So hear me out. There is alot of it that doesn't make sense, mostly character wise, but let's put all of that to the side for one moment to entertain this.
-Cleo and Etho have a divorce arc in limited life. Funny, but they barely interacted in double life. Now, at the time of this writing, they have a wonderful duo going on in secret life.... hmm. Interesting
-Martyn has said his canon reasoning behind Lizzie and Mumbo not being in double life was because the previous season was too traumatic for them and they needed more time to recover. If we apply this logic going from Last life to 3rd, the logic still applies.
-This also would mean Skizz wasn't in double because limited life was painful for him... yeah. Ouch.
-Now I haven't seen Lizzie's last life pov all the way through, but she was a fairy queen, correct? And Ren was her bodyguard. Her second in command. I like the idea of Ren becoming a king in 3rd because of that.
-This also makes Pearl's descent into madness in double life a bit sadder, but with a happy ending of her and Scott teaming next season (last life)
-Bdubs kills Impulse the one time he forgets to give him a clock.... oof
-There is also very funny things with this theory, like Grian throwing an axe into Scar's back and then waking up as his soulmate. (Which would also explain why he didn't want to team with him in last life)
Ok that's all in my brain rn, don't take this too seriously as it's not a theory I think is canon or should be, but its a fun idea to spin around I think. Feel free to add stuff !
#trafficblr#third life#last life#double life#limited life#secret life#inverse theory#this entire theory was my brothers idea btw so all credits go to him <3#he asked me to post it here haha#3rd life#traffic series#traffic smp#watcher lore#what do i even tag this#lore theory
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the corner of 1st and 9th
summary: you've given a little too much information to your favorite barista... not that it matters, when he already knows.
word count: 3k
-> warnings: stalking . he is unwell guys
-> gn reader (you/yours) is a hot drink enjoyer . mb
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reasons to NOT think that he is stalking you:
you tap your pen on the corner of your paper, eyes glancing between your writing and the clock. there’s no sound but the intermittent ac and the chatter of voices from the common room, a group of your dormmate’s friends that you’re not keen on interacting with. it’s a reminder of the fact that you’re assuredly spending too much time locked up in your room thinking about this, but you can’t stop. you haven’t been able to stop thinking about it, about him.
thoma was a normal barista at an innocuous cafe. and he was definitely, assuredly not stalking you… right?
you go there fairly often
the estate was a dimly unpopular cafe set right near your dorms, perfectly on the way to most of your classes and not too far out of the way if you wanted a quick bite. despite clearly being a family business, it had managed to partner with the university, and accepted the meal plan you were forced to buy. given its proximity to you and the fact that the other options got rather repetitive, you frequented the small shop. it was never too crowded, so it wasn’t impossible to assume that you were one of the few regulars.
there were exactly two consistent baristas that worked there, with the occasional new face only ever showing for a few days. there was no set uniform, as far as you could tell. one was a young girl, likely another student, who constantly yawned and always had to push up her sleeves to work the register. she didn’t talk much; the one time you had complimented her sweater, she looked at you like you were a raccoon that had waltzed in and tried to pay with cash.
the other was the object of your paranoia: thoma, a chatty redhead who always seemed to drag out the conversation longer than he had to. he didn’t wear a name tag, but did introduce himself after you gave your name for your order, like you were meeting as friends and not in a mercantile exchange. when he handed you your receipt, there was a doodle of a dog in a suit at the bottom wishing you a good day.
your schedule was rather uneven, what with waxing and waning stress and assignments and the various misaligned tests you had to take. but still, you had credits to burn and their menu was solid, so you came back whenever you wanted.
2. he’s just being nice
thoma was an occasionally odd guy, but not overtly strange. he smiled and said hello and goodbye in the regular tone someone in customer service would, provided they were either really enthusiastic about their job or desperately trying not to get fired. he wore a plain black tee and jeans and despite the silver tags around his neck, never really screamed ex-military. he seemed rather young to be deployed anyway…
regardless, he was still just a normal guy. it was normal to memorize someone’s order if they came back so often, right? normal. it was normal to ask why you looked tired, or what had happened if you were in a better mood, or to wish you luck if you were about to head to class.
he was a normal, nice guy. he never made a big deal if you came in near closing time—in your defense, their hours seemed to shift from week to week—and still recited your usual back to you in case it had changed.
it never did. his smile was proud whenever you said so.
he was forgiving, from what you could see. whenever another staff member made a mistake, or if a customer dropped something, or if a funny looking bird flew by the window and he spilled whatever he was holding, he was quick to laugh it off. he laughed a lot, actually. rarely was any visit when he was working devoid of it, whether loud and excited or quietly amused. when he wasn’t, he wore an easygoing grin, the kind that implicitly forgave you for tripping over your words or the rug by the front door. he worked quickly and quietly and sometimes you’d find you were given a discount “just because.”
3. you’re probably overthinking things.
the problem had started around the same time midterms did.
the attendees at the tables grew sparser, busy studying or sleeping or praying. there were days when you’d walk in and be the only one there, aside from whoever was at the counter that day. when you walked in, you had just enough time to see the deep frown etched on thoma’s face before it slipped away, customer service smile back on his face.
you debated over whether to ask the entire time you waited. it was the polite thing to do, wasn’t it? it wasn’t as if you were friends, but still. if someone’s sad, you ask why. that’s the normal thing to do..
he still called your name, despite you being the only one there. how did this place stay afloat? surely there was some bigger chain willing to pay the rent. the middle of a college campus was the best spot for a place selling caffeine..
now that you thought about it, why was this place so quiet?
you shook it off and went to pick up your drink, finding a small pastry there instead. you blinked, looking up to correct him, but he was already looking at you with the same smile as always.
“they’re going to go out of date soon,” he explained, “and we over-ordered, anyway. take as many as you want!”
…odd. this didn’t look like a new building. did they not know business slowed around this time?
but not too far out of order. you took the freebie, waited a few minutes longer for your drink, and went on your day.
reasons TO think he is stalking you:
he knows where you are
you, like everyone else, had assignments due, and tests to get to. your free time dwindled to a select few naps, and your, like everyone else’s, trips to the cafe slowed to a stop.
and yet, the next time you visited, he knew.
he knew.
you dragged yourself through the doors on a spur of whim, determined to reward yourself for making it through the past few weeks. god, you were tired. you blinked the exhaustion from your eyes long enough to find the barista on shift; thoma, as usual, greeted you with a smile.
“welcome back! same as usual?”
you nodded, digging through your wallet, but instead of punching in your order as usual, he reached behind him, setting down a to-go cup in front of you.
it was still steaming.
you froze, the sight settling into your exhausted mind, unable to even force your hands to pay.
why the fuck did thoma know you were coming back today?
you didn’t even know you were coming. this was an impulse, an idea you barely thought through.
after what you can only assume is too long, he lets out a laugh. not nervous, or uncomfortable, but the same casual laugh as when he spills something while someone’s watching. your eyes find his, easygoing and bright.
“i hope you’re not too surprised,” he starts, like you’re not keenly aware of every beat of your heart. “i just figured you should get some rest as soon as possible.”
is it worse, you wonder, if he just made the same drink every day until you came back and simply got lucky? that’s the only answer that doesn’t involve you calling student services, but even that makes your skin crawl. you pay as fast as you can and grab the drink, rushing the rest of the trip back to your dorm.
it went cold on your desk, too unnerving to ever take a sip of.
2. he knows your schedule
it took… a lot of mental energy to force yourself back to the estate. you didn’t even want to go, not really, but the other options nearby either didn’t take school credits or simply tasted worse. you didn’t know what it was, but it was always off. too strong, too weak, with an odd aftertaste. it was a different problem every time, one that wore down your resistance.
nothing was better than a (technically not) free pick-me-up. you had all these credits anyway, you might as well use them on something you actually liked, right?
it’s not like you were known for making good decisions, okay? maybe… maybe it was just a fluke? maybe you could ask him about it. there’s even a chance that it’s not him working the counter!
…yeah, not a chance. a quick glance inside shows the same bright copper hair as always… though the girl is at the register this time, and he’s in the back. there’s only a handful of other people inside, so you’re probably fine.
you walked in, the bell ringing, a few patrons looking up on instinct. the girl at the register does the same right as thoma abandoned the order he was working on, tapping her on the shoulder. “sayu, let me handle this one, okay?”
great. sayu, apparently, looks at you with what you can only describe as pity, shrugging and returning to the back counter. you stood a bit further from the counter than normal, but thoma still continued to smile.
“hey there! your usual?”
he looked so normal. you couldn’t ignore how pleasant his smile was, how easily he waved like he wasn’t the reason you stayed up until the sun rose, unable to look away from the cup on your desk. it almost annoyed you, knowing he probably didn’t even think about it. so you grabbed that irritation, twisted it into words, and pushed it through your teeth; “how did you know when i was going to come here?”
for a moment, his smile faltered. his laugh was quieter, nervous, nothing like before. he shrugged, pushing up the bandana around his forehead, green eyes avoiding yours. “ah, lucky guess?”
you’re a lot of things. stupid is.. probably on that list, given your presence here, but you’re not stupid enough to believe him about that. to his credit, he seems to recognize that, shoulders slumping with a sigh.
“okay, that’s a lie. i’m sorry.” he shakes his head, as if chiding himself for trying. “one of my friends happened to see you, and he said you looked upset. i thought you might appreciate the thought…?”
yeah, you might, if that wasn’t a fucking insane thing to do.
he looks sheepish enough, or as much as one can when it’s clear he doesn’t actually feel bad for what he did.
“…don’t do it again. it’s weird.”
it’s comical, how much he brightens, standing straighter like a flower finally put in the sun. “of course! if you don’t mind the wait, then i’m not complaining.”
that should have been it. you paid, you waited, and though sayu is the one that makes your drink it’s thoma that called you up to the counter. it’s a constant, at this point, same as your order and the chipper grin as he handed you your drink instead of leaving it there, a wax bag in his other hand.
“take this as an apology,” he explains, “i really didn’t mean to unnerve you.”
sure. you’re willing to believe that, if only for the sake of normalcy. you took both, the warmth easing your tense hands.
he lingered. he always did. he stood, and waited, and when he had enough of your staring, he spoke. “if there’s anything else i can do, just let me know. i could even give you my notes to study, if you want! i know you’ve got a test coming up.”
you’re learning to hate his smile. it’s so easy, his words soft and fluid with a genuine curiosity that sent chills across your skin.
there’s the possibility that he just also attends school. you’re aware of that. you swallowed your fear and managed the breath to ask what you really, really didn’t want to know. “do you also have ms yae?”
if you had access to a time machine… well, you’d stop yourself from ever stepping foot in the estate to begin with. but if you couldn’t do that, you’d come back to that instant, and keep yourself from ever asking such a stupid question.
some things were better unsaid. never did you understand that more than when thoma replied, eyes as sharp as a blade of grass.
“of course not. but you do, don’t you?”
you put your pen down, the ink from your anxious tapping now covering most of the upper corner of the page.
you hate it. you hate it. you hate that you wrote his name willingly, you hate that you’re so shaken by something you could have easily avoided, you hate that your life has taken such a turn.
you should have just stayed gone. you’ve stopped now, but now he knew you were stuck here for this semester. leaving mid-term would wreak havoc on your transcript, let alone your grades or schedule or however you were supposed to find another college to attend on such short notice.
you refocus on your list. objectively speaking, there’s more reasons to think this is normal, but the downside of lists like this is that they failed to fully capture the way your heart had dropped that day.
it was a month ago. a month, and you haven’t been able to stop looking over your shoulder whenever you went outside. you should really just call someone…
would student services be open at this hour?
you dig through the school’s website for a bit, but only find an address and a phone number for the department head. what “department” this falls under, you’re not sure, and you’re not keen on making a call less than an hour before midnight, so you don’t ask either. no dice. not for a few hours, at least. it’s just you, not really alone in your dorm, both because of the phantoms in your periphery and the fact that the walls are thin, letting you hear the cheers and disappointment of whatever game they’re playing in the common room.
it’s a bit of an anchor. the world is still going to turn, after all, and you need to be ready to meet it; you need to rest. being on edge for so long is wearing you down, and the weight on your shoulders will only grow if you keep sitting here. after a moment to consider the paper, you rip the list of your worries into short shreds, dumping the remains into the trash. you stand, stretch, and begin to tidy up, plugging in your phone and reaching for your water bottle, only to find it empty. you must have forgotten to refill it in your panic.. you look to the door, mentally weighing the benefits of going out and refilling it. there’s people in the common room, and you’re not too keen on being looked at right now, but it’s not as if they’re the ones plaguing you. it’s a common room for a reason, and filling it now will reduce the number of things to do tomorrow morning.
in search of a blessing for your future self, you unlock and open your door, the voices getting louder. some are familiar, but you shelve the memories. you have a mission. you unscrew the cap as you walk, aiming for the small kitchenette against the wall. archons willing, you won’t even have to interact with anybody. you walk, avoiding their eyes and even doing a rather good job at it, in your opinion. you fill your bottle, lingering just long enough to get the cap on without spilling anything, and turn to leave.
in a moment of weakness, you glance at the tv. there’s some sort of pvp game going on, with both players and bystanders crowded around the lone couch, most watching the ebb and flow of victory in earnest.
most, except one. on the floor, hands neatly in his lap, is the last person you want to see. he’s missing his bandana, but he still has that same smile, one gloved hand raised in a familiar wave.
you don’t think about what he’s said or done. you don’t think about the fact that you definitely should have told your roommates not to let him in. no, all you can think about is the fact that he now knows where you live, right down to the suite number.
it takes a lot of effort to drag your eyes away, pulling your feet into the dorm. you don’t want to think about how much effort it will take to leave tomorrow.
you don’t want to think about what could be waiting for you.
#genshin#genshin impact#genshin x reader#gender neutral reader#thoma#genshin thoma#thoma x reader#x reader#genshin impact x gender neutral reader#genshin x you#yandere genshin impact#yandere thoma#<- is that not a popular tag#guys. i'm disappointed in you#yan thoma . the potential . do you not Get him . guys#yandere#oh i gotta uhhh#tw stalking#stay safe out there kids . please god call 911 if this ever happens to you holy shit#fun fact this post is like 8hrs late bc i was busy being homo abt . god so many people guh#kamisato ayato the man that you are holy#btw . it was initially written that you dorm w a kamisato twin but w the Gender stuff involved there it would have been really clunky;#and their personalities are so different that would have been awkward too so . this is a secret for you tag readers out there. thumbs up .#stupid fucking tag character limit let me YAP . freak ass website#this is such a lukewarm post im sorry . in my defense . i dont have one mb#what is it abt the kamisato estate that makes everyone inside it insane and also so edible#i need to crunch him like glass
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You know this scene?
And how it was played as a funny jab at Aku's starvation for approval?
Well, I think it portrays more condescension on Dazai's part than it seems...
Because Dazai touching Akutagawa might have been the reason he even fainted.
Akutagawa clearly agrees with Dazai when he points out his exhaustion, responding to his "You're at your limit, now, aren't you?" With "It doesn't matter".
Rashōmon could have been the only thing keeping Akutagawa standing at that moment.
Dazai could have been totally aware that that was the case.
And what he does? Nullify his ability right then and there. Seep what's left of his strength away. Before, and not after, he provides him the praise he oh-so-needs after so, so long.
I'm half certain Dazai wouldn't have given that compliment if he wasn't sure he'd turn his protege off that way. Never having to deal with the reaction, never having to handle the emotions that would result and stem because of him. Easier that way, isn't it?
And you know what? I don't even think Akutagawa heard him at that moment, else why would he still be adamant to win Dazai's approval after this scene?
#Dazai you pos I'm onto you#“You're at you limit? Lol”#“Lemme turn you off before I give you what you need most rq”#“Whoops” Yeah whoops on you for nullifying the only thing holding him up RIGHT AFTER acknowledging his deteriorated state#btw I'm not a Dazai hater at all but he just pisses me off in each Aku interaction he has 😭😭#maybe im reading too much into this but I also don't think Dazai does anything without a motive behind it#touching aku might seem like a nice gesture tho wasn't at all necessary#idk this is 3am me talking perhaps my views will change in the morning dhdjdj#bsd#dazai osamu#akutagawa ryuunosuke#bsd dazai#bsd akutagawa#bsd analysis#J's Writing ✍🏽#J's post#bsd hc#bsd headcanon
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Look at this, new content!! We get a "Scary stories to tell in the dark" type of book and Jonathan is the narrator!! What a great idea for a book!
5 Scarier Stories for a Dark Night || Scanned at 300dpi
#Jonathan Crane#Scarecrow#The Scarecrow#Children's Books#Chapter Books#5 Scarier Stories#My Scans#DC#DC Comics#Batman#Arkham Asylum#I will be posting more of this in the next few days#lotta new jon art#but limited spoilers for the book btw
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