#this healing journey is hard af

[sugusearrings]

so drained from talking with my mom about some serious shit and crying.

but on the other hand, my ex-situationship tried calling me miserable yet he waits till after aot to hit me back up when he hasn't hit me up in months.

[itsabouttimex2]

Hahahah! The little healer stall sign says

itty-bitty-healing-comittee!

Here to heal you today!

Little Healer Headcanons

Sun Wukong, MK, and Mei

(That is so damn cute to think about- lil’ Y/N all dressed up like a mage/nurse behind their stall, but only their eyes peek over the rim cause they’re short af)

The Great Sage personally “finances” your little (probably unlicensed and illegal) stand by scaring off any cop or Karen who wanders by to try and cause trouble. He’s your number-one supporter at any given time, always on standby with a snack or hug to cheer you up.

It’s not uncommon for a client to lean over the side of your stall for a better look at what’s inside, just to find Ol’ Sun Wukong lounging on the ground.

When the king isn’t busy scaring people away by “accidentally” getting into their faces and pushing them around with a strength beyond their comprehension, he’s babying you.

Trying to, at least.

You work so very hard at your little repurposed stall, a handmade banner strung across the top, red crosses and flowers painted on the sides. It’s clear to Wukong that all you really want to do is help as many people as you can, however you can…

“But you can’t do that if you don’t take care of yourself,” he’ll remind, using legitimately good advice as an excuse to drag you off for mid-day snuggles.

The Great Sage will gently force you to practice basic self-care, even if it means dragging you back to Flower Fruit Mountain on his cloud for a hot bath and a cozy nap. Expect him to extend your “vacation” afterwards by asking for help with a few of his monkeys.

He is so, so good to you, in the worst way. A part of him knows that it’s wrong to load you with junk food and soda, but when he sees you all worn out and shaky on that wooden stool you have to stand on to see over the stall, his self-control fizzes out and the Great Sage is bolting off to “buy” you a horribly unhealthy combo meal from the nearest fast food place. (He steals it.)

And when you’re all tuckered out from a day of hard work and a belly full of sugar and grease and deep-fried fat…

Sun Wukong scoops you into his arms and starts the journey home, right back to where you belong.

Oh, how this kid loves you. MK is always lounging around the corner of your wooden street stall whenever he gets the chance, kicking back with a copy of some Monkey King sponsored magazine or playing Monkey Mech on his phone- it’s a great chance to just lounge around and genuinely relax.

And sure, there’s some concern from his friends and family about how MK seems to suddenly be prioritizing protecting a blatantly illegal street stall over his job and work as a hero…

“Saving the city can wait! Y/N needs me to find a rare herb so they can make an antidote!”

Yeah, you definitely come very close to first in this hero’s heart. He doesn’t outright abandon the city, nor will he put you miles above his desire to protect it- but you are extremely close to being the most important thing in his world.

Just… a cute itty-bitty “sibling” that MK can’t help but to cherish. At first.

As the seasons go by, though… you start being a strange sort of living coping mechanism. An emotional crutch. As his anguish compounds and stacks higher by the day, MK starts using you as an impromptu and unlicensed therapist, trauma-dumping whenever you aren’t tending to a customer.

Being too young and naive to shut down these conversations, you can do little more than fidget and squirm while you try to soothe the worst of MK’s sorrows.

And he misinterprets these awkward consolations as genuine care on your part, which leads him to repeat the process again and again and again.

As MK slowly builds himself up, he in turn breaks you down- entirely on accident.

If he knew that the constant barrage of fears and worries were grinding you down, MK would absolutely turn the valve and shut himself off. He’d go right back to closing himself off and shutting up about everything that’s torn a hole in his heart.

But he doesn’t. You don’t know how to tell him.

So on and on he goes with these traumas, head in your lap during a slow day, right when you finally crack and start to cry.

Good thing you’ve got a hero on standby to cuddle your tears away.

Each and every day starts with Mei prepping you for a long day at your “job”, and damn if the dragon girl can’t dote.

Special attention is given to your hair, little jeweled pins clipped into place just to give your outfit a bit of (expensive) sparkle- the motorcyclist believes with all her heart that you’ve earned it.

All your clothes are custom-made in whites and greens so that the two of you match, displaying to everyone around the bond she shares with you. Since your hands are so important to the work you do, Mei avoids giving you rings (and loose necklaces, just in case they get caught) and instead settles for thick golden bracelets (with trackers hidden inside) as a “gift”.

She tends to see you as more frail than you really are, so motorcycle rides are uncommon and uncharacteristically slow because Mei doesn’t want to rattle you.

Expect her to loudly and proudly proclaim “This is my little sibling!” whenever she gets the chance- and Mei will actively try to make this heartfelt delusion of hers a reality.

If you’re got a good home life, Mei imposes herself as an “honorary big sister” to justify all the time spent with you, painting herself as the sort of person who genuinely just wants the best for her community by looking out for everyone’s favorite healer.

But the moment she finds something solid against your guardians, this dragon girl blasts it all across social media to justify dragging you away from them- even if puts you in an awful and precarious headspace.

If you’re an orphan or stuck in a very bad home situation, Mei might just get her parents to adopt you- having a hardworking and adorable mage is not only good for the family’s reputation, but offers them a chance to expand their reach by having you lend a hand to influential and powerful individuals in their time of need.

And sometimes it feels almost like you’re being used, but they bring you back home after the work is done and allow you to rest and recuperate in front of their fireplace with a warm blanket (her mother wraps you up extra tight and kisses your forehead) and a cup of tea (her father pushes it into your hands and smoothes out your hair) before they dim the lights and bolt their lavish doors.

Really, you’re just part of the family now.

[natalchartnurtures]

PAC: How can you wear your "Big Boy" pants right now?

Sometimes we need reminders that we can in fact, be "big boys" in our lives and take responsibility to change what we don't like about our lives. Happy reading!

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Pile 1:

There's a lot you CAN do. In fact, you have been doing a lot by yourself, weathering proverbial storms all on your own. Unfortunately, you haven't been conscious enough to acknowledge all the effort you've been putting in to simply push through. Let me be the one to give you the kudos you deserve, Pile 1. You've been doing way more than you think, albeit these are mostly internal efforts (like maintaining a headstrong attitude in the face of a challenge). You currently feel challenged to take active steps in your external life, though. You might find it hard to apply things you learn to your life or simply lack the discipline to see your (quite excellent) plans through. You need to be reminded that you do have the free will to choose to make all your plans come to life :) You have what it takes, sweetie; you really do.

Bonus - How do you need to go about it? One thing that can EASILY help you execute your plans is to bring in help (trigger warning though). You all seem Independent AF, and I get it, sweets. With everything you've been doing, of course, you can handle anything, but you definitely need some support too right now. Especially if you struggle with something like discipline (or whatever challenge you're facing right now). Bringing in even just ONE person (or multiple) to help hold you accountable to your plans, with compassion, would help you a lot (that person/people don't have to be real too; you could bring in a bot from an app or AI, I don't care) as long as you feel like you have a buddy, you know? Somebody who makes you feel like your plans matter. It's an excellent way to pour into yourself right now and show yourself some TLC ✨️ You deserve to make your plans a reality and have a bit of fun on your path towards it.

Love, light, and hugs!

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Pile 2:

Doing things your way and rejecting convention might be a BIG step for you, to be honest, but it's well worth it, Pile 2. Celebrate yourself, basically. Slow down and enjoy yourselves a little bit. Maybe you've been living your life BY THE BOOK so far, and now you're going to put your big boy pants on by letting loose and doing things differently for once. You're not abandoning yourself and your needs nearly as much anymore, and so you're quite stable in your own skin as a result. That's really impressive, Pile 2! You have lived in fear (possibly a fear of failure), and I'm sensing some mommy wounds maybe? This is where your fear stems from, and this fear has kept you from really truly living. You might identify as a workaholic too. Maybe you prefer to keep yourself busy as a coping mechanism to ward off any feelings of anxiety. This has a direct correlation to childhood wounds of yours. So put your big boy pants on and put an end to conforming to standards that don't respect you and what you stand for, Pile 2.

Bonus - How do you need to go about it? I feel like this pile needs extra guidance on how to exactly wear their big boy pants. Start by acknowledging that you do have wounds from childhood, specifically those from female (motherly) figures, if not your mother herself. Take a radical approach to your healing journey right now. Look into the concept of mothering yourself and come up with customized ways to do just that. You got this, Pile 2 :)

Love, light, and hugs!

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Pile 3:

It seems like you've already been wearing your big boy pants, Pile 3. Good job! Looks like you've been on a healing journey, and you're now at a point in life where you can reap the benefits of all the inner work you've done. You've reached a level of mastery over the mind, and now it's time to make room to tend to your heart. You need something that your authority figures couldn't give you readily, and that's unconditional compassion. Show yourself kindness even when things don't go as you'd like them to. Hold yourself through the thick and thin of life, as you would a child. This should open up a brand new way of living and viewing life that you never thought possible. It has always been waiting for you and your attention. Nurture yourself on a whole new level and be ready to receive 10X from the universe. You're going to feel so spoiled, I love it, haha! 😄

Love, light, and hugs!

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[lostgirlinthewoods]

We bearly got him back at he's leaving. It's been 10 months of waiting. 10 MONTHS AND NOW HE'S GONE AGAIN 😭 AND FOR GOOD. I'm actually tearing up and it hurts sm. I'll definitely miss Seunghan so much and I hope whatever he has in future goes well for him. 🧡🧡

Ooo, I just needed to let this out. Also FUCK SM AND OT6 STANS

That's all. Have a nice day/night 🙂 thanks for having the inbox open for this because jeez😭✋🏽

sending hugs to you, sweetie 🥺

here's my thought about all of this (quite long because im still mad af):

10-11 months of nonstop supports from ot7 briize. the airship project, various banners and led ads billboard. hongjjangus were willing to give their full support financially for an ot7 comeback, promising they're gonna give it their all once seunghan is back

the news about him coming back was so heart warming. the header literally said "too briize who loved riize" and it was him coming home.

the sudden rise in streaming numbers, social media followings, non-fans tuning in, fans coming back to the fandom, and the boycotters who promised they're gonna catch up with streams are really doing so. the support seunghan had, and riize in general, for coming back literally outweights the protest trucks, funeral wreaths and all those crazy fans camping outside sm. like his return was BIG big!! everybody was waiting for it! everyone was willing to support, especially the intl side!

the members fighting for him were highlighted during the announcement, seunghan himself saying the members wanted him back, wonbin standing up for him even though he knew he'll get lashings from it.

all of those went down the drain just because sm is spineless. this decision is so dangerous as they literally just told these fans they can do whatever they want and the company will agree regardless whether the members themselves are against it or not. most of the intl support is leaving right now, it's like mass exodus on my x account. some were literally wishing riize to disband or to flop. the fandom is more divided than ever. and some fansites who can't fucking read the room are posting airport previews of the members who clearly looks like they're having a hard time. all of these happened because that incompetent company cannot fucking lift a finger to protect their own artist/s.

however, if this is really seunghan's decisions (and is not influenced by sm which i highly doubt), i have no choice but to respect and support that!! i hope nothing but happiness to him because god knows he needs it. i hope he's only surrounded by the people who truly love him and cared for him from now on.

hoping seunghan and the other 6 nembers have the support system they need and that they're going to heal from all of this

seunghan's journey in riize may have ended but i believe this is not the end for us. we can still show him our support in our own ways

[deadpooly]

really gave up makeup AND reading fanfiction for the foreseeable future

cant believe i did this to myself

[lullabyalikpoptarot]

TXT Dynamics (Taehyun's Perspective)

Alright, now on to the maknae line for the dynamics, let's see Taehyun's perspective here. Remember, this is the energy now, it can always change.

Yeonjun (Capricorn/The Star/8 of Swords) Interesting set of cards here. He gave me two, so I went with it. He sees Yeonjun as very ambitious and cautious when it comes to his career. He is hard-working and fastitious, yup, had to look that up lol It means someone who pays attention to detail, or concerned about it. He is a Virgo, so makes sense. They may both be highly concerned about their career. It seems their dynamic is career focused at the moment. He sees Yeonjun as a star, and he has healing energy, or he thrives on the attention of others. He does seem to trap himself mentally though. He may dim himself a bit. I swear this is more about Yeonjun, than the dynamic. He always does that in these readings. He sees his potential, but he may sometimes trap himself from reaching it. I do like what he has to say, because I agree he may do this.

Soobin (House 6/Judgment) Hmm, is he critical about how he cares for himself? Taehyun I mean. House 6 is about practical details, health, mundane things in life. It is like he might want him to work on that. To grow as a person a bit more, to learn from past mistakes. It is like he wants him to be more stable. It is like he wants him to release his past self, or bits of it and move forward. I don't really get anything else from this.

Beomgyu (North Node/10 of Swords) This is confusing af. I see this as someone who is destined for hurt and pain, like he puts himself in difficult situations, does he see him as someone who victimizing himself. He may see the worst of things and think doom and gloom of things. Maybe he sees him as someone who faces their mental struggles. He might want him to work on his mental clutter. North node is about journeying towards, moving towards, maybe moving towards releasing all the negative thoughts that may consume him. Honestly pretty confusing. I am not sure what he wants to say here lol

Hueningkai (South Node/Knight of Wands) He sees him as someone very passionate. Someone always on to the next thing. A very adventurous and fun person with lots of energy. He doesn't seem like the type to hold on to things and releases things that don't serve him. He follows his passion and goes with the flow. He is exuberant and a joy to be around. They may have a lot of fun together or he likes his energy. This was a bit easier to get lol He is a curious person, but also has a bit of naivety to him, but he is willing to take on a challenge if need be. Not sure they work out together, but I am getting that they burn out or release, maybe negative energy or pent-up frustration with exercise or something like that. I see them exercising. Weird message but going with it.

Okay, I swear their dynamics confuse me at times. He gave me a lot for Yeonjun and Hueningkai, confused me with Beomgyu and not much for Soobin, but once again, he prefers to share his thoughts on them. But I always go with what they give me. I don't go further.

[darthxvenus]

Random Astrology Thoughts #Foe

Contrary to popular belief, Venus in Gemini people can commit to one person and not cheat. It just has to be a hyper stimulating, spontaneous, overactive, and borderline cracked out relationship but it could definitely work. Venus Gemini’s partners have to understand their need for sharing ideas, strong communication, great experiences, and again SPONTANEITY. You can’t bore them, or shall I say “us” hehe 🤭, with doing the same repetitive things everyday. They need to constantly be intrigued by you, learn something from you, share new experiences with you. If you are the type of person who does the same old mundane shit all the time, *cough,cough* earth Venuses, heavy earth or Saturn. Then Venus Gemini people may not be right for you. In fact they’ll probably just piss you off. In a similar sense, Gemini is not an emotionally charged sign. It’s ruler is Mercury: the mind. It will be a relationship grounded in logic first. Gemini is mutable air, air cannot be contained or controlled. You have to give the Gemini the room and freedom to breathe, to air out. Therefore water Venuses or heavy water energy may not be so suitable either with them wanting to hold their partner close and jealously and shit. *cough,cough* Scorpio, Cancer. Fire and air Venuses or people with more of those energies get it, and make a perfect unhinged match for the Venus in Gemini native.

Mars in first house people can be so incredibly childish. Especially the guys, only they are assholes about it. Even as they age, there remains an air of immaturity somewhere. I don’t think there’s a planetary placement more me, me, me then Mars in the first. Sign placements matter, but even still there is an obnoxious quality about them. Place it in a fire sign and OMG 😑.

Let’s talk about the Sagittarian laziness. Sure they can be the traveling, adventurers, seeking good times and fun experiences but usually they don’t feel like doing jack shit. They could honestly stay in their homes for days and be hermits and feel perfectly fine. They may mentally travel some place, be on some spiritual journey, or think about planning a trip all on the comfort of their couch. Oh and have you seen the inside of a Sag’s car? Filled with shit, usually useful shit…but some of it can be just plain junk. It’s the Jupiterian “everything in abundance” that can make them wasteful. Saggy’s do like to get out and do everything BIG and in excess when they do, but they can be just as overindulgent in doing absolutely nothing.

Capricorn Moons are sensitive. They won’t let you know this unless they really trust you, but they are sensitive AF. I’m liable to say more so then Cancer Moons. They’re cry in the corner of a dark closet kind of sensitive. They don’t like to express emotions because they simply fear them. They think hard work, and achievement will heal them when in fact it’s a distraction from their real problems. Ultimately placing one of those little round band-aids on a gushing wound. It’s important they confront their real issues, usually related to their mother, primary care takers, or living situations as a child. Though if you get a Cap Moon to open up to you or just cry and express their deepest self to you they really fucks with you…and you should feel honored.

The 8th House is the house of the inevitables and the unknown. Taxes, death, inheritance, other peoples money and resources, secrets, mysticism, crisis. People with heavy 8th house placements no it doesn’t mean your gonna die young or some horrible death but usually they venture into careers or are very interested in things relating to the finances of others, death, psychology, magic. Heavy 8th house makes therapist, morticians, stock brokers, investors, psychiatrists, mediums, psychics, astrologers. The 8th house though contrary to beliefs has very little if anything to do with your sexual proclivities. On a basic level that would be the 5th house and where-ever your Mars is and sign placement in your chart.

The 6th House is everything that you gotta do before you can enter the 7th House. Hence you have to handle 6th house bullshit before you can enter a successful partnership with anyone. The 6th house is daily duties, daily routines, work life, physical health and to an extent with it being the direct opposite of the 12th…your mental health. How are you gonna have a good relationship with your spouse and your mental health is fucked up? How are you gonna be able to run around in the yard with your kids and your physical health is fucked up? How are you gonna have time for the people who love you when your daily routine and schedule is fucked up? Gotta handle those before seeking anyone else out and waisting their time and yours.

[wannaeatramyeon]

Honey I've seen how you write for taehoon and I must say that you're really good at doing his characterization.

I personally think that, because he's someone who has quite a hard time expressing himself and with relationships, he would actually not put that much efforts in his relationship with reader. Like not trying to respect others' boundaries and working for the relationship to work, because for him of reader knows he like them and they like him why do anything else ? It'd be a waste of time. That is until reader is fed up because he's doing the bare minimum and wants to break up. As soon as reader says this, he feels something beating and throbbing in his chest. He's scared. In a way he didn't feel since a while. He can't lose them right ? He can do better! He just got to show them! So when reader let him a second and last chance, he becomes the best partner. So much that it's not easy to believe he didn't put any works at first. But it's weird because it actually doesn't really bother him. When he see how reader smile when he just sit next to same and enjoy each other's presence. Did they always smile so brightly ? Now that he've seen how a relationship work he's gonna do his best to not let reader down again.

Hey anon, thanks for reading! It's always pretty fun to see people's differing opinion of the characters so ty for a chance to discuss! I think everyone's Taehoon HC varies a little and my Taehoon probably is a bit more mature and a little less wild.

Some more Seong Taehoon x Reader hc below...

I build a lot of his maturity based on the trauma of losing Dowoon. In my hc, I cannot overstate the impact this has had on him. He's healed somewhat, but it's an ongoing journey and he has learnt a lot from it.

With Taehoon losing someone so close to him (and seems like the only friend he had), he makes the effort to be a little bit kinder to you if you manage to get close.

Kinder is subjective though.

But he's had the experience of pushing someone away, and then it resulting in the worst possible outcome so he's not likely going to repeat that mistake again.

Of course he is an asshole to everyone, you included but he tries.

He's not a complete robot. He's smart and perceptive af. Taehoon knows how other people sees him, the effect he has on people, he just doesn't care.

In a relationship though, he would show he cares. In his own way. He gives you a little bit more leeway, does a bit more for you, tries to make himself a better partner for you.

Note - partner, not person. He's not going to fundamentally change who he is, but he will learn to read you a bit better and if there's something he does that genuinely upsets you and doesn't clash with his morals/principles then he will give it a go.

Honestly, I think if he's doing the bare minimum with you then your relationship is on the way out. He's not going to put in the effort if he doesn't want to be with you.

Then again, Taehoon imo is the kind of person that would just straight up tell you that. He doesn't mince his words.

[random-twst-things]

do u know what level crafter gauntlet open? I did searching yet find nothing like literally so i kinda clueless here

I hate how unclear some of the instruction are smh, I wish they make the tut much more detailed cus Im dumb and slow af

also please do share some tips for beginner I literally crying screaming throwing up ripping my hairs off over here cause I didnt understand a single shi

thxxxx and have a nice day btw🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻😘😘😘💕💕💕

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The Crafter Gauntlet is unlocked at Room Rank 3!!!

I totally understand what you mean though, I had so much trouble trying to understand the game mechanics as a beginner 😭😭

I researched a bit and added a few of my own tips for beginners, hope this helps! 🩷✨

Some tips I can share for beginners would be:

Send and accept friend requests: When going into battle you're able to use their cards. Some of those friends could have some really useful cards to use. I've had many instances where a card from a friend that I needed really helped.

Do not skip events: Many events can give you valuable resources and materials. These events may not give SSR Rank cards but they will give you an R Rank or SR Rank card if you participate in them. They give gems, thaumark and keys and other useful materials.

Save your gems: The game is playable in f2p and gives a normal amount of gems to do so, but do save your gems and don't waste them unless you really want or need a card. When it comes to Sam's shop there is a set that comes with 10 magical keys and is only 250 gems though it's only available once a month. By buying this set, it does save you a few gems. A normal 10 pull is 309 gems.

Team: When it comes to forming your team I recommend teaming them up based on the cards Duo Magic and Buddy Level. Train the cards that you would like, level them up and team them up based on Duo Magic/Buddy Level. The Characters give each other important boosts during battles based on their buddy level and could be a great help.

Lesson's: History lessons grant EXP that contributes to the cards level. The additional rewards are "Blooming Honey". Flight lessons grant EXP that contributes to the cards vignette level. The additional rewards are "Snacks". Alchemy lessons help increase the Buddy Level of cards, additional rewards are "Alchemy Tokens" and spell upgrades.

Card Ranks: Three different types of Rank cards. A R Rank card has a max level of 40 that can be extended to 60. A SR Rank card has a max level of 60 that can be extended to 80. A SSR Rank card has a max level of 80 that can be extended to 100.

When TWST allows you to pick a card to start the game, these are some beginner cards lots of people and I recommend (their info in there as well):

Riddle Dorm uniform – Highest ATK.

Leona Dorm Uniform – Highest HP.

Trey Dorm Uniform – High DEF and great healing.

Cater Ceremonial – His power boost is very good during the early game.

Rook Labwear – Decent HP and attack which helps beginners.

Malleus Ceremonial Robes – Gives power boost.

Card's: I recommend leveling and upgrading your cards one at a time. You want to upgrade all the cards or at least a few cards in each element. By doing this you can have a pretty big upper hand when doing battles because elementary bonuses play a pretty role in the game.

Tests: You should do these and try them as much as you do with the lessons. Unfortunately for me, I didn't know how much of a help doing these would have and didn't do them. Doing tests can give you interesting and good things when you get good results. They also help train your cards faster.

I really hope this can help you on your gameplay and journey for Twisted Wonderland!! ✨🍬

I can always go into more detail or add more things if they still seem a bit hard to understand 🫶🏽✨

[sitp-recs]

Happy happy birthday @cavendishbutterfly! I still remember the excitement and blissful joy of finding your writing through Bridges, which remains one of my favorite Drarry oneshots to this day! I’m so happy to share this space with someone as talented and cheerful as you. Your fics have brought me comfort and warm, fuzzy feelings when I needed the most, and I love your supportive and positive energy towards fandom and your friends. Here’s a humble Cav reclist to celebrate your birthday and spread some love for my favourite gems. Check out that range with so many comfort tropes and ratings, plus the sexy healing and evocative atmosphere we deserve. From short shorts with beautiful prose to an 80k 8th year epic, this list has everything you need to get through one more week. And btw, Cav was incredibly prolific last year and I think everyone should go check their full catalogue right away. Then join me to add your own favorites 🎉🎉🎉

Windy City (T, 1.6k) - one of my earliest faves, such gorgeous prose and a sharp sense of place, the melancholy urban atmosphere is breathtaking. And journalist Harry as a treat!

Harry works hard at this whole journalism thing, even when they send him abroad to do his investigating. He'd just rather be home.

In The Wings (T, 1.6k) - this short is so gentle and healing I could cry, I’m enchanted by Draco’s soft pov and those vivid ballet descriptions, so very dreamy!

Ballet has been a path to healing for Draco after the war. Now, it's his final performance in the starring role, and his boyfriend is in the audience for the first time.

To Make A Way (E, 5.4k) - the fuck buddies cinema AU you didn’t know you needed! Sexy af mixing casual and sweet, organic slow burn and a gorgeous contemplative tone underneath. It’s about the aching!

When Harry finds Draco in the back row of the cinema, he doesn't mean to accidentally befriend him. Or fuck him. Or catch feelings. The thing is, Draco only does casual.

Glowing (T, 9.7k) - the softest vampire cottagecore domesticity you’ll read today, this made my heart melt. So darling and intimate, it felt like I was right there beside them. Flatmates by Cav just hits differently, I’m telling you!

Harry's lived alone and vampiric in his cottage for ages, until a long-lived Draco Malfoy suddenly shows up to answer an advertisement Harry had practically forgotten he'd put in the Prophet. Cue soft blood drinking, quiet nights of reading and crocheting, and Harry thinking that maybe--just maybe--he might not be so alone anymore.

Bridges (E, 16k) - ultimate comfort read with travel roommates exploring Budapest, Harry exploring his sexuality, soft contemplation and poignant conversations. I love how easily this fic flows and the atmosphere is 👨‍🍳💋

Harry and Draco are on a trip to Budapest to help with Kingsley's re-election, but that's the boring bit. More interesting: Harry Potter is changing his Tinder preferences to include men.

The Hardest Hue To Hold (M, 17k) - another incredible love story set outside the UK with a charming academic background and fascinating characters. I love how Cav included different mythology references, and the honest, delicate take on Harry’s trans journey.

Harry needs to get the hell out of England. So he sets up a teaching assistantship in America, hops on a plane, and heads off to a fresh start. Except there’s a familiar face among the university faculty, and it’s really not the familiar face that Harry wanted. Or at least, it’s not who Harry wanted at first.

Inertia (E, 83k) - almost 100k of delicious 8th year enemies to friends to lovers, I live for the angsty slow burn and the exquisite coming of age vibes. Soft and healing and full of hope!

It’s three months after the war. Harry has already mucked up all his plans. Draco is no longer the prince of Slytherin house. And they sure as hell didn’t both mean to go back to Hogwarts at the same time. Cue snarking, long conversations…and unexpected snogging.

[authoroftwwm]

AAAAAAAAAAAAA BRO I NEED IT

tl;dr is that Professor layton helped w trauma, listed is the journey through the games and future hype for PLWoS

So, I recently got into professor layton (a year ago, to be specific) and I must say, It has helped me SO FUCKIN MUCH WITH SO MUCH TRAUMA--

I have schizoeffective disorder. I have severe PTSD from years of mental and physical abuse from my parents. I have ADHD and may also be autistic, getting tested at 25 years is difficult.

When I started Professor Layton, I decided to play in release order--"I want to experience what long time fans experienced." I felt it would be more genuine. So, I downloaded an emulator (yeah i know, bad Vero) and started to play. I wrote down my reactions to each game after i beat them:

PLCB: THIS MAN GOT CHASED BY A FERRIS WHEEL!!!! THATS COOL AF! It was a really fun game, cool story with neat puzzles tHaT wErE hArD aF (i was kind of nonchalant about the games, just getting into them)

PLPB: ayo he got a box OH WAIT HE DED--i enjoyed the gameplay and watching the bad guy be the bad guy. interesting sequel, hopefully luke stays with the professor a long time lol (I jinxed it lol, also felt a bit more connected to Luke as a character and his admiration for Hershel)

(I took a long break after this one due to college lol but now i just play after my homework is done)

PLLF: I didnt write anything after this one. i just sat in silence for about a week, and I didnt eat for a few days. This was when my foster dad died, and i felt strangely as if i had healed a lot. After that week. I guess I just kinda took the time to process the loss of someone who i consider my true father. It was at this point I realized that playing the games had helped. I also didnt mentally process that luke left the professor lol until i watched someones playthrough of the last part of the game again

PLSC: BRO ITS LUKE AGAIN BUT HES YOUNGER AND HAS TRUST ISSUES WTF ITS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE except luke didnt go through massive trauma (unless you count the ghost stuff and the witch stuff and the house stuff as trauma) yeah i like it very good

PLMM: RANDALL IS WAY TOO FUCKIN HOT FOR MY LIKING I JUST NNNNNGGGUHHUHUHUH also SIBLING BINDING WOOOOOOOOOOO

I am currently playing through Azran Legacy, and I must say it lives up to the hype. Havent reached the ending tho so im trying to not run into spoilers. also I know descole is sycamore im not dumb THEY LITERALLY LOOK ALIKE AND THE BUTLER IS THE SAME WTF if theyre not the same person im gonna spazzzzzzzz

All in all, I plan on figuring out how to a b s o r b all the content from the spin offs (in order to do this i also want to play all the phoenix wright games, wish me luck lol) and will eventually get the Katrielle game.

I have a lot to do in preparation for New World of Steam! I hope im able to do it in time, and also that its just as good as the previous games. I know Quizknock will do a good job, its just whether i will enjoy it or not.

Thank you for reading, sorry for the long post; i have no potatoes to offer but nevertheless have a good day~!

-Vero

[herogers]

Top 5 fics you’ve read this year?

I was meant to answer this forever ago and now that ao3 is back I will celebrate by finally answering (ik you sent me this at the end of last year but forgive me I finally have a laptop now and getting the hang of links!) Also my dumbass has only recently started bookmarking and I was late af making an account so I'm in the trenches trying to find these rn, some ik by memory because brainrot anyway..

Endgame, Not Checkmate by @geekymoviemom I could write an essay on how much I LOVE this fic, this was a gift for moi for the 'a second chance' mini exchange and this fic is all I could've dreamed of I highly recommend, its beautiful well written my heart does flips just thinking of it, absolute FAV, this is my canon now, the healing I needed, God is real I know because this fic exists. Read this it's for your own good, ok?

this charming man by @imperialstark THIS FIC consumed my entire brain and everytime it gets updated it ramps it up again and I get mega stony brainrot, one might say I'm obsessed ANYWAY, its still being updated and its the highlight of my day week whatever when it does, very much recommend if you love a bratty young Tony Stark, hot as fuck, 90's, and just ugh the exploration of Steve's emotions, just the way both of them are written is chefs kiss dude just read it, this definitely tugs at my heart and is also a lot of fun chefs kiss 10/10 already, author makes me feel all the feelings.

this love came back to me by meidui a lot of feelings for this one as it was one of the first stony fics I read and probably the first one I truly fell in love with, massive soft spot for this one and ugh I just love it, they're so soft and AGH, big big sucker for the canon divergence endgame because yes this is just how it should've gone and yes this is how it did ok! Just beautiful I love them, I love THIS! READ IT

Love Bites by @cowboyhorsegirl oooooo I love this one, also a massive sucker for biting :)) ok sounded very vampiric of me anyway this is just beautifully written and aaaa I'm reading this again and its making me feral all of it just ALL OF IT its gorgeous intimate beautiful just fucking read it okay I am terrible at these summaries and if you've made it this far you already know but yeah, this is all the feelings i love packaged nicely in a fic 10/10 nice B)

choke on me by @imperialstark yes this author has ruined my life(in the best way) anyway last but definitely not least ho ly shit do I love this fic, again one of the first fics that made me fall in love with stony fics and here I am now! Writing is just magnificent I can FEEL these characters feelings man this is just so good, still being updated so more to come guys please just fucking read it its so beautiful, it gets me in my feelings so hard, Steve and Tony are written so well, this fic absolutely captivates me!! The dialogue, the BEAUTIFUL writing the gorgeousness of it all AGH PLEASE read this my silly summary gives absolutely no justice I swear this is one of the best things I've read chefs fucking kiss 1000/10 highly recommend

ok ik you only said 5 but I found some more favs on my journey of finding the fics I love so v quickly i recommend

Paradise Blue in 1872 by @cowboyhorsegirl beautifully written, love love, love. Religious symbolism and pining and ugh short sweet and beautiful. Brilliant relationship study! GOD I'm in my feels again.

speak novels like beat poetry by meidui MASSIVE MASSIVE sucker for Steve's brooklyn accent in fics holy shit yesyesyes and this is just perfect I'm in love, very sweet very AAAAA i love

This is my first reclist I hope I didn't fuck it up bc its so late here right now and- oh shit the sun's just come up, check out all these authors they are so talented and yes there is pattern here I love to be absolutely crushed knocked down and swaddled nicely, I love fics that make me feel so hard man and these writers are amazing, makes me love this fandom youre all very talented dude it inspires me sm

don't let my dumbass rambly summaries fool you these fics are genuine works of art pls I am so in love

[ventbyellzz]

Trying to heal your relationship with food is hard af. Ngl, I've failed so many times. But those failures are part of the journey. The key is to never give up. I'm sure some of you also went through the same thing as me. I just want to assure you, that it's okay to fail. Take your time, and continue the journey when you feel ready.

[nasskg]

My mood is up and down, going hard like a roller-coaster. Yes, I am still trying to embrace my healing journey. However, it's so fucking hard to remain consistent with your healing responsibilities and whatever comes with them: coping mechanisms, therapy, medication, everyday life, job, social life, dating, hobbies, duties, exercise and so on.

Even just by typing them down I get anxious af. I am practising gratitude but at the same time, I need to take a fucking breath and go even slower. I understand I need to combat my perfectionism and my black-n-white way of thinking - it's just that all of these are still hard to maintain and keep up with.

I am 28 years old and I feel like time is running out for some reason, like I'm wasting it. And this is influenced by comparing myself to others which, of course, I know is a harmful and toxic attitude towards me.

I know I'm rumbling right now, and perhaps it's because I had a weird day and interaction with colleagues at work (again). I have to stop letting people get to me: despite the fact that I'm an ultra sensitive person, I must learn not to allow people's words and opinions bring me down.

I have to learn to love me, to live for me, to be me.

[lotuflowerpetals]

Well, to be perfectly honest. I had every intention of coming here to write more but work has definitely gotten in the way. I've been very busy and also very tired and I'm trying to shift some things around right now.

This new therapy interval kind of sucks and although the cost has gone up, I feel as if this experience has not shaped out with any change or improvement. I will not blame every thing on my therapist; I feel like I have a hard time participating anymore which kind of tells me it is time to change this journey-- this is really just in regards to therapy as this isn't the first time I've ever done it.

The last few times I spoke with my therapist, she seemed to be very self involved and I have always kind of recognized that but always assumed it was her way of relating to me. However, the last 2 times we've spoken to one another, she has taken up at least 10 of my minutes to go into detail about her life shit.

These sessions are expensive af right now and I told myself that I was going to truly invest in my mental health this year but I'm finding I can no longer keep that promise to myself in this way.

I'm considering taking a break or quitting therapy altogether. I am truly considering the ladder because of cost and reminding myself I can heal in other ways.

If anything, this is really pushing me back into my spiritual practices.

I am going to do more on my yoga mat because that's what helps me feel close to myself and grounded. I'm digging out all of my books and planning on going on a reading bender this weekend to cut out the noise to remember what my spirits needs to fill its cup.

I'm also done feeling hyper focused on relationships (for now). This is the wound I need to heal the most whether it be romantically or platonically but I think the pressure on myself and others is just exacerbating my fixation of it all and I'm officially dropping it all where it is for now.

It can wait while I sift through the spaces within myself. Again.

[chunchunnie]

2 Months and a Week (?) : Healing Journey

hey. so i forgot to write last week. i am just really burnt out. i still remember that i write here but i also cram this BRUH

anyways 2 months ? i am losing my sense of time but yeah its been 2 months and i'm still not graduate. academically and of her. maybe because i keep gaslighting or convincing myself that i am over them OR i just miss the feeling of having someone . IDK

so less than a year left before college . i'm still not decided what course i'm gonna take. THE ANXIETY KEEPS GETTING ME . so right now, i have so many option for what course should i take.

a) film or fine arts

b) comsci or com eng or it

c) behavioral sci

d) psych

i don't want to settle for another safe course just like what i did before (settling to humss because it was my safe strand) . i hope this interest in computer related shit last long because i don't want to think of shifting courses in the middle of semester just because it's not for me. PLS PLS

anyways back to everyday life, relapse happens often again. by relapse, i mean that heavy feeling, chest pain, heart ache, feeling back to zero. sometimes i also feel like craving for some care but at the same time i do not want to talk to anyone atm . IDK ITS NOT THAT ITS NOT HER well technically its true but the urge to talk to someone only happens at night . i don't want to hurt another person so :/

i am getting confusing af . this year i'll try to focus on myself . gonna bring back the academic achiever in me again. i am getting left behind hahaha. college is pressuring me might as well do my best this school year. not for someone to be proud of me, but to be proud of myself again. i focus on other people too much that i lost myself so i'll redeem myself this time.

idk what to add . ummmm RIGHT there's someone who told me they're serious about me and pursuing me But again . I AM NOT READY . but i kind of remember, all of the people i dated (just two), i was the one who pursued them first. NOT THAT IT MATTERS BUT yeah ... being a masc is hard, people expect you to be the one who PURSUES not the latter . idk i dont give a shit about it anymore.

anyways, that's all i guess ? see u again tumblr if i have the time . fuck school !