#this has gotten out of hand sorry

[mother-of-houseplants-2]

i don’t wish i was catholic but i wish i knew more about catholicism/christianity for the sole purpose of being slightly more insane about lapsed-catholic gallaghers

[salt-n-salt]

yes I am STILL thinking abt haley’s winter fit

[abyssalhuntersnerd]

It's that time of the year again where I put the fish and Amiya in the washing machine...

[obeymeow]

nightbringer lesson 14 FUCKED ME UP in several ways but primarily I've spent the last 48 hours making myself sad over the solomon backstory we got. specifically I have, for no reason, latched onto that one chapter in the Kids event where baby solomon cried because he felt so guilty over being responsible for that spell. and that just feels a touch more depressing in context

[saucerfulofsins]

My roommate is upset with me for not disclosing my psychiatric diagnosis and things I struggle with when we interviewed potential new roommates.

[hatterladz]

I love Cuphead from IM but if I sit to talk about that man it's gonna be like 5 different long posts, minimum

[thirdsonofeve]

I am a "Lalo was an important part of his cousins' childhoods"-beliver you cannot stop me. He read Marco and Leonel goodnight stories when they were toddlers, he carried little Tuco up the stairs to his room when he was sick, he got them "gay rich uncle cousin" -amounts of toys for their birthdays, he took them all to local sports events when they were a little older, he played games with them, he fell asleep with Tuco curled up into his side and a book on his stomach and he watched them grow up and he loves them more than anything. And he had to watch the twins be beaten into submission by Hector, had to watch Tuco rot his brain on drugs, had to watch the family he loves so much break itself apart until all that was left was the money. And there is more humanity left in him, although skewed and messy, than in them and he blames himself for not making them better, not making them good enough. If he had done things right Hector wouldn't have had to hurt them, if he hadn't been so soft on them they would have learned earlier and maybe, maybe they would have been okay.

[feroluce]

smth smth yingfeng paralleling farcille

(magically inclined long lived partner tries to defy death by bringing their short lived partner back to life/have immortality but they come out Wrong(tm) instead)

just. the parallels <3

RIGHT? Like oh my god I love the idea of it: a mortal and immortal character falling in love, and the immortal one doing something horribly taboo for them to be together forever. But maybe they fuck something up, or maybe it's just their punishment for playing god, but their now-immortal lover Comes Back Wrong.

I'm actually not caught up on dunmeshi (I get the gist of farcille from socmed, though) but I really like an Inuyasha/Kikiyo flavor to it- Mortal lover is full of rage and hatred, immortal one can't not love them, and then they romantically and dramatically die together murder-suicide style and drag each other to hell. You know, the good shit. ☆

It is one of my ideal dynamics for a bad end pairing. And I do like necromancy shenanigans with a happier/good end, like farcille style too! Just...I don't like either situation for yingyue.

I don't think there's anything wrong with playing with them that way as long as you don't pass it off as canon, like I say all of this with no judgment. But I'm picky and I like to follow canon more closely so I can't really see them in that kind of scenario haha.

It's just! Yingxing's whole deal is that he's a haughty, spiteful, arrogant asshole of a man whose life mission is to be such a damn good craftsman that he can tell all the Xianzhou Natives who looked down on him to suck his short life species dick and flip them the bird. Him being made immortal takes all the fun out of it for me and kinda removes a central part of his character. I LOVE him being petty and full of himself. He should do it more!

And I am so so dearly enamored with the relationship between him and Baiheng. I can't write her out of the whole equation, especially considering she and Yingxing both Came Back Wrong from this incident, and she was the actual intended target.

Like. He loved her. Yingxing loved her. Baiheng was so, so important to him. She's referred to as "the beloved" in Blade's character stories. He called her his bosom friend. He handmade a jade flask just for her.

Not a weapon,

not something she needed,

not something he was doing to show off,

just a flask.

Something pretty, and just for her, something that she would like and use everyday. Not a need, but a want. He did it simply because he wanted to give her a present.

She was the first person to really encourage and believe in him. She helped him come out of his shell (so all that arrogance is her fault BSMZJMS). That animated short where they went up in her star skiff together and she called him cute fucking killed me. They make me chew concrete.

And she was really important to Dan Feng too! He wouldn't have tried to bring her back, otherwise! She died saving him. And he knew what he was doing when he chose to try to bring her back as a Vidyadhara. He had to have. There's no way he couldn't have known that his life was forfeit after this. They don't let you get away with purposely breaking one of the Ten Unpardonable Sins like that.

And he chose to do it anyway. He still chose her life over his own. Dan Feng loved her, too.

He and Yingxing both worked together to try to bring her back because she was someone neither of them could bear to lose.

So if anything, I feel like yingyue is more like larcille bringing back their beloved Falin haha

But no matter who is romantically involved with who, like. It's the love between all three of them that's important.

That's the secret ingredient that makes the triumph of Falin's rebirth and the horrific tragedy of the Sedition of Imbibitor Lunae so emotional. Because these were things that could not have happened unless they all loved each other.

[eisenkrahe]

My love - Leswamp - Horror Express (1972) [Archive of Our Own]

No porn today, only feelings.

[trentcrimminallybeautiful]

your superhero AU has broken my heart 💔💔💔 protective Ted is so important to me

thank you!! ive been enjoying playing with it. and yeah!! like. i just. protective, pining ted and trent's like i am NOT a damsel!! (<- in this instance, is, in fact, a damsel. he will make an exception for one (1) person)

and like more seriously just. the trust it's about the trust!!! trent doesn't rely on anyone and he gets himself out of bad situations and he's lowkey terrified of this hero who's got him cornered and he's been in this horrible situation for so long but then it's ted and he immediately relaxes. and ted--you know ted realized they had trent and immediately panicked and was ready to just bust in there and it was only beard holding him back and making him be practical about it that didnt have him just bursting through the walls ten minutes after realizing. and him realizing trent trusts him.... holding him and being like oh. i can protect him this way and i can comfort him this way and it's working... augh

anyway im glad you like it 😩

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

something I find very intriguing about lonan & harrison is that in moth work/feeding habits, harrison thinks about/reflects on/worries about lonan SO much, and when he does, it’s constantly about the past, what they’ve already been to each other, etc (often romanticized). the same could be said in body back. this is kind of his fatal flaw!!! ON THE OTHER HAND lonan barely refers to harrison AT ALL in in MW/FH and now also in hallowed bodies, but when he does, it’s typically about their future together (which obviously doesn’t exist because they’re broken up). anywayyy very intriguing to me. 👀

[izzy-b-hands]

I have my shot drawn up (managed to stab my fuckin' finger with the back of the lid of the sharps container trying to open it in preparation, which is just stupid funny to me after being initially extremely irritating lmao. Ain't got the damn shot done yet, but still made myself bleed. What a talent I am lol)

I have about half of the cjizzy smut fic written (and my god im. i just love writing smut for these two so much. They're so much fucking fun, bc they both always find rest and safety and stability with each other in these moments, in between the cutest lil silly things and jokes and. These two!!!! also. also. trans izzy for this one bc I can)

It's gonna be three AM soon. I should sleep once shot and fic are done.

HOwever. However. I just remembered the idea I had for a smut fic involving modern au Ed and Izzy, the application of T gel (Ed applying it for Izzy), and then the dorks purposefully taking the drying/waiting period post gel application to start teasing each other until they can fuck (technically it isn't a super long period, but I remember when I was using it it was like. pls do try and not get it on other stuff/ppl/let it dry if possible before covering that area w/clothes, and try not to sweat a whole lot right away if you can help it. So like, in this fic, they've specifically carved out this time to do the application like this so that they can do this little routine: apply, tease, maybe cockwarm a little, then finally fuck once gel is dry and they've given it some time to sit/Izzy should be able to sweat safely lol)

So what if I just keep staying up and write that also. I'm tired, but every time I try to stop, my brain throws Additional Thoughts About Everything at me and uhhhh. That will prevent me from sleeping so like. What if I just do this and sleep later.

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

You bite your nails for the exact same reason I do. QUIT BEING THE HOT GIRL VERSION OF ME! Stop it! You're making me yearn!

Well if it makes you feel any better, I'm only a girl on a part-time contractual basis

[marsbotz]

rewatching nature i dont want to make one billion posts abt it so heres alllllll my nature thoughts as we go lets go wheeeeeee

[d1anna]

sorry i haven’t been online i’ve been hyperfixating on bolstering my dynasty in ck3

[grandparomeaskblog]

At times I cross people who say "Why are you ALWAYS so negative?" And it just blows my mind some people are so blinded by their dayly happy meaningless but ohh so aesthetic reels that they can't see it's the other way around.

I'm really positive by nature. I might be the most positive person you'll meet and you can't see it. Sucks to be you, dude. I face my troubles with an open visor and many people don't like that?

I guess it's the trauma, but I'm really real about shit. I hate double standards and hidden agenda's so freaking much. I just can't lie for shit, even if it would safe my ass or job or relationship.

In a perfect world we wouldn't exchange the words "negative" and "realistic" so carelessly.

Also feeling uncomfortable at times is not the end of the world. Having open and real talks about difficult topics you 'hate' having are chances for growth.

Don't cherry pick your 'group of people' you exclusively talk with either. Don't make your own 'us' and 'them'. When you surround yourself exclusively with people who never make you feel uncomfortable, with people who can't adress difficult stuff at all, you will find yourself fighting the hardships in life by yourself in silence too. They will abandon you when you need them most. Because they can't handle to be uncomfortable and they won't change for you.

Life can get pretty uncomfortable and the weird thing is that is one of it's most unmeasurable beauty of it! A make belief world is nice in hobbies or fandom spaces at times taken. But do find yourself a friend, or a spouse, a mentor, a relative, a teacher, who is REAL about things. The most priced people are not the most attractable people at first glance I found. Sometimes they even make you angry at first. But they are the ones that have your back and call you out when you are stupid.

You need more people in your life calling you out when you are stupid. You need more hard truths in your life.

Please Do that thing you hate doing today and take your meds. This is your reminder.