#this had me doing happy arm flappy stims

[oreo-creampie]

i love your works so much !! they always get me so excited and have my feet so swinging in the air 😣!

Thankyou! 🤩 Thankyou! 🤩 Thankyou! 🤩 I keep reading this over! Thank you darling for your kind words of support! 🥹🥹 I’m always so nervous when I post a fic and almost chickened out of posting the last one. 😅 So grateful I didn’t!

I hope you stick around for more content. Hopefully from here on out I should be back and full swing with something coming out on a more weekly basis.

fanfics, fandom and tumblr has been such a special place for me for so long. I’m happy I’m able to contribute in a positive and enjoyable way to make you smile!

Take care of yourself darling, i hope your week goes well 😄

[minimujina]

the stimmies and the shimmies !

hi i wrote a self-indulgent drabble about kuni (wanderer) where u do some happy stimming and he wants to know why!!

ᴄᴡ. written with a neurodivergent reader in mind, but anyone can read and relate as stimming is not at all exclusive to neurodivergency :] i do not at all wish to encourage harmful stereotypes or put this behavior on a pedestal—this is simply a silly happy drabble building from my own personal experiences and i wanted to share it for anyone to enjoy!!

ᴀ/ɴ. happy flappy happy flappy flip flop flappy pap :D also this actually turned out to be really cute and doesnt only have to do with stimming—its very fluffy and funny and i really like the dialogue!! not super proofread and im very proud of myself for not hoarding this in my drafts for months!! im really happy that it only took me an evening to write this!! WEEEE

“…why are you flapping your hands?”

you stopped moving abruptly, staring at the wanderer with a blank face, expression unreadable.

it took you a moment to get the words out (because he was staring at you expectantly with his arms crossed, and that was rather intimidating), but you managed to squeak them by after some self-encouragement.

“well… im happy.”

kunikuzushi seemed to scrutinize you for a moment, and you were afraid that this had only given him another reason to dislike you. “happy? why would you be happy? i hate happy people.”

(…that’s what you imagined he would say.)

though, you obviously didn’t know him perfectly well, because what he said next was far from the venomous reply you’d feared.

he simply hummed, gaze softening a bit. “alright then.”

alright then.

you had finished your happy flapping due to the interruption, no longer feeling the urge to happy flap, but you still felt calm and content, and maybe even more so thanks to his almost… sweet response. sweet for him, at least.

the expression on his face made you feel a bit warm all of a sudden—he wouldn’t stop looking at you. it wasn’t hard to tell that his eyes were boring into your own even if you weren’t meeting them yourself. you felt like a little pot of boiling water under his gaze. a little soup. a soup of happy and confused feelings. happy soup.

what was it that had made you so very happy, kunikuzushi wondered? he kept replaying the past couple minutes in his head, trying to remember what had occurred just before this, but the only pictures in his head were of you, all bouncy and flappy and so very pleased.

perhaps he should’ve just asked you, he mused.

perhaps he would just ask you.

“what made you so happy?” he inquired, as blunt and flat as ever. but you knew him just enough to know that he would never ask such a thing if he didn’t really care—and the tone of his voice was irrelevant. he always sounded rather uninterested with anything.

you grinned, meeting his gaze. it looked as though you were holding yourself back, buzzing with a chained excitement again.

“kuni, i was happy because of you!”

a most incredulous expression crossed the wanderer’s face.

“me?”

what could kunikuzushi have done to make anyone so happy?

he studied your smile, your hands, your eyes—and he could not figure out how he could possibly be a reason that all of those lovely features of yours contained such absolute joy.

you nodded confidently. “do you want me to explain?” you could tell from kuni’s horrified expression that, firstly, he did not really believe you. and secondly, he held a deep-seated loathing for himself, which was why he could not believe you. he could not accept that there was anything good about himself.

“knock yourself out,” he murmured, still seeming dazed.

you motioned for him to sit next to you, looking like you would start jumping up and down at any second. seriously, why were you so happy?

“i was just thinking about how far you’ve come, kuni,” you began. you already looked like you were in the middle of one of your long spiels that the wanderer was so often obliged to listen to. “and it makes me really happy.”

he had to hold himself back from scoffing—not because he thought anything bad about you, but because he thought badly about himself.

“remember when nahida first made you come work with me in the nursery?” you grinned. “you were so mad. it was hilarious.”

kunikuzushi averted his gaze to the ground with a grumble, suddenly finding his shoes very interesting.

“okay, i was not mad.”

“yes, yes you were! oh my archons, you were so grumpy, kuni! you-”

“no, you are so delusional,” he retorted. “i was just-”

“grumpy?”

“no.”

“ooohhh, yes, kuni was feeling a bit grumpy, i think. you were a little grumper.”

the wanderer opened his mouth to retaliate—but he faltered, a new hint of amusement smothering his gaze.

“…you are incredibly annoying, did you know that?”

in any other situation you would’ve taken that very literally, but the faintest of smiles itched at his lips, and you knew for certain that that was his way of conceding.

you probably should’ve stopped there, but something inside you just couldn’t continue in life without saying this one last thing.

you feigned pity with a pout, widening your eyes and clasping your hands.

“...did nahida forget to give you a juicebox that day?”

kunikuzushi thrust his hat onto your head, shoving you and your hysterical laughter aside. if you could’ve seen from under the big ass hat, his glowing cheeks and sheepish grin likely would have sent you into a fit, and the wanderer just couldn’t have that.

“i am so funny,” you cackled, very obviously pleased with yourself (but you were still trapped under his hat, so your voice was very muffled, and it was much more difficult for him to take you seriously this way).

“yeah, yeah. whatever helps you sleep at night, flappy.”

“flappy?” you knocked off the hat with one sweep, an incredulous smile dancing on your lips. “you jerk!”

“yes, i know.”

“oh, you are so mean,” you grumbled, though your expression said the exact opposite.

“i’m well aware, flappy.”

“you just make me wanna—wanna—oh, why i oughta-”

“oh, please, do tell!” kunikuzushi drawled, resting his chin in his palm.

when you couldn’t seem to say anything at all, mouth agape, he closed it for you—pushing your jaw up with his pointer finger—grinning smugly like he always did.

“as auntie nahida says,” the wanderer murmured, “if you have nothing nice to say…don’t say anything at all.”

and with that, he grabbed his hat from the floor, exiting the nearly empty nursery with a dramatic flourish that was so characteristic of him. you were left sitting there for a few minutes, aghast at what had just happened, until you came to your senses.

you did a bit of happy flapping after that.

thank you for reading :)

[rangerstark25]

Here’s the full set, as promised :)

I drew these for a school project, for which I won’t explain the parameters because I’m not sure I understood them correctly myself! I chose to draw 5 canonically (with 1 exception) autistic characters, each representing a trait associated with ASD :D

First up is Quinni Gallagher-Jones, from Heartbreak High (the 2023 reboot)! I love her so much, and the actor who plays her (Chloe Hayden!) is autistic herself too! Quinni is the only one of these characters to actively state she is autistic. She’s also shown wearing noise-cancelling headphones to help with audio-related sensory issues, as in my drawing of her :)

Number two is Huey Duck from the Ducktales reboot! This is the character that isn’t exactly canonically autistic, but he is shown stimming several times, which we affectionately refer to as his Happy Flappies! I think Astro-Boyd was discussed as being autistic, but just because he might be doesn’t mean Huey can’t be (it feels canon to me so much that I was about halfway through this before I realised Huey wasn’t canonically autistic actually). Also Dewey and Louie definitely have both different presentations of ADHD (this isn’t canon either but come up, hyperactive Dewey and inattentive Louie are right there)

Next up is Entrapta from the She-Ra reboot (wow that’s 3 for 3 on reboots!) I love Entrapta, although I do wish her character was treated a little better. One of my favourite things about her is the detail that she will only eat food if it’s tiny (and seems to only like fizzy drinks), which is what I depicted here!

For number four we have my current hyperfixation, Donatello from Rise of the TMNT! It took me too long to start watching this show, I was already hyperfixated after just seeing a few clips. I haven’t seen any other TMNT series (sorry) (I did watch bayverse after seeing ROTTMNT) but I already know I like the Rise artstyle most (in addition to my favourite character being canonically autistic). I kinda failed to show what I wanted to with this drawing (Donnie’s special interest in tech, I had SHELLDON with him in the sketch) but I’m still happy with how it turned out overall. Please dismiss the fact that I drew the spider-shell arms while he’s wearing the hover-shell. My favourite thing about this one has got to be how well I feel like I managed to mimic the Rise artstyle!

And finally we have Abed Nadir from Community! He’s the oldest character of the bunch (in the sense that Community is from 2008) and yet he’s one of the best autistic characters in media to date! In the drawing I tried to show the way he communicates through use of movie and TV references.

I spent way too long on all of these, but I do think they turned out well. Unsurprisingly to most, each of these characters are my favourites from their respective shows (some are tied with other characters, but I still think it counts)! I do think it’s funny that two of these characters are played by Dani Pudi. It was also surprisingly difficult to choose what outfits to draw the live action characters in. The temptation to add headcanoned pride-flag stickers or pins next to the neurodiversity symbols on these was high, but I resisted for the sake of canon! The headcanons will live on in my head rent-free anyways.

Anywhizzle, I’ve been rambling on for long enough, so enjoy the post, I’mma head out (feel free to ask any questions you may have in the notes or my ask box or whatever, I’ll probably answer :))

~ Madelyn

[this-has-returned]

When I first heard about the whole autism "flappy-arm" stim, I was like "huh, I don't do that. How non-standard of me, I guess."

But when I tell you the EUPHORIA since I first gave that stim a try. It's a regular thing I do now. Literally did not understand how much pent-up energy I had bottled within me that was wrecking my shit, even when I am super happy.

Like, I get bursts of excitement so intense that it'll hurt if I don't shake my arms, too. I didn't realize those intense feelings required some sort of vent mechanism to regulate. I just thought all emotions were inherently painful, and I would sometimes hurt myself intentionally to "snap out of it" or suppress any kind of emotion as much as possible, because all of it was overwhelming and every emotion carried different consequences.

If I had learned self-regulation and stimming earlier, I might not be as emotionally-deaf to myself now. I have a lot of progress to make up for, now!

Wild, huh?

Now every time I'm happy I gotta dance or shake my arms, and when I'm sad I gotta run my hands together and/or tense up my muscles. I gotta collect stims for other emotions, too, once I figure them out!

[rebsrebsrebsrebs]

Obey Me! Characters and.... stims!

You know this emoji from the game?

(Thanks @sailormango​ for grabbing the picture for me!)

That’s a happy stim my friends!! Flappy arms of love!! @katattacktime​ and I both read the emoji as a stim and talked about how it made us feel like the Obey Me characters would be comfortable with us stimming. Then we put our gigantic neurodivergent brains together to come up with stims for them because of course we did!!! It’s our headcanon and we make the rules! tbh we barely had to even converse about it because we were so on the same page.

Let’s check out those stims!!

Lucifer pushes his hair back and runs fingers through his bangs when he's hyperfocused. It keeps his bangs out of the way and the motion helps him think and prioritize. Being so on top of things isn’t easy after all.

Mammon hums when he's doing things that don't require a lot of concentration, like showering, getting dressed, or doing chores - pretty much any time. He hums when he’s on cooking duty. When he thinks hard or is looking for something, he clicks the tip of his tongue against the roof of his mouth (it makes him easy to find when he's snooping for treasure unfortunately). Also he reflexively squawks at crows whenever he sees them. the crows squawk back. They are friends. Do not separate them.

Leviathan has a lot of physical stims, especially when he’s excited or thinking. Leg bounces! So many leg bounces. He’s self conscious about it but since he does online school it doesn’t bother anyone and that helps a lot. Anything that makes him excited (new anime season announcement, winning idol concert tickets, etc) means happy flaps!! Just like the emoji. He becomes that emoji hearts and all. He also has a variety of fidget cubes; he likes the joystick and button gadgets the most.

Satan pulls and twirls that one strand of hair at the front of his head while he's reading or studying, which is pretty much all the time. That's why it sticks out.

Asmo!!! Best quality: his wiggles. He balls his fists and shakes them in front of his chest when he’s excited. He also bounces on the balls of his feet if standing, or sometimes switches his weight between feet rhythmically. Like he’s always got a little bit of a beat!

Beel of course is a chewer. He’ll chew gum, pens, pencils - but he also has chewlery! It’s rubber jewelry meant for chewing - check out this doodle from @otomeman​ showing just this. (I have one that’s a big lego brick and i love it). He can also twirl things between his fingers. Pens. Coins. It's effortless. Boy is dextrous af. If he’s stressed he repeatedly tenses/relaxes different muscles in a set order. It's repetitive and gets a little endorphins goin’ which is good for relaxing.

Belphie gently pulls at his bangs when he's thinking or trying to stay awake. that’s why they’re long and also so in front of his face. Occasionally he rocks a foot side to side if he has a hard time sleeping, which admittedly is not often.

Diavolo loves texture stims!! He plays with the pin in his tie a lot, but also touches things that feel nice at the palace: velvet curtains, engravings in various wood furnishings, the crown jewels, If it feels good to touch he wants to touch it. Barbatos has to keep him from shoving his hand in the kitchen’s stockpile of rice. He has only failed once.

Speaking of Barbatos, he quietly clicks his teeth in rhythmic patterns. It’s quiet and can be done hands free so it doesn't detract from his work.

Solomon taps his writing implements. It’s pretty quiet when he’s using a quill (which he does sometimes because old wizard aesthetic) but can be louder. Sometimes he forgets that he does it and chooses a fountain pen and uh. Let’s just say all his clothes are mostly black for a reason. You can’t see black ink stains on a black shirt.

Simeon is prone to daydreaming! The whole TSL series probably started as a daydream. He also repeats the same words or phrases over and over in his head. It feels good to him to think like that. It also means he’s more likely to remember poetic lines when he comes up with them while not able to write them down.

Luke is a doodler! All his class notes have shapes and drawings in the margins. He’s more fond of soft and round shapes like bubble clusters, waves, clouds, and spirals. Sometimes he will do little doodles of his classmates! But never those icky demons okay maybe sometimes.

[that-was-anticlimactic]

reki with tourette’s headcanons

[ID: it’s reki from sk8 the infinity wearing a yellow sweatshirt with his hands on his hips. he’s wearing a red bracelet on his right wrist and he’s smiling. behind him is a touette’s syndrome awareness flag. end ID.]

so. @zukkaclawthorne got me hooked on reki with ts and now imma post headcanons i wrote oops

okay so first—that little skateboard he plays with??? stim toy, actually.

he likes the sound the wheels make—that whirrrrrr sound. it makes his arms flappy :)

he also finds the rolling motion soothing and relaxing and it always calms him down—it takes his mind to a happy place

he rocks back and forth and shakes his legs a lot. that also contributed to why he was terrible at skateboarding the first few times he tried—because his body would be like “time to rock back and forth!” and it would mess him up

neck twitches for days :)

no but for real—neck twitching is one of his worst tics because sometimes—if he’s in a bad mood or if he’s sad or anxious—it gets harsh and violent and really strains his neck.

so, langa gives him neck / upper back neck massages to help with the pain

he went through this phase for a couple of months where whenever his neck would twitch, he would snap his fingers two times.

he has a lot of hand tics which can be stressful when he makes skateboards because sometimes he’ll be in the groove and then suddenly he’ll mess something up

speaking of messing things up, he has a tendency to dig the bottom of his palm into his forehead whenever he feels like he does something stupid—he doesn’t even realize it until someone points it out.

he feels like even more of a failure of a skater because of his tics because they can hold him back and make the course more dangerous.

if his blinking tic resurfaces, sometimes the blinking gets so intense that he literally cannot see for anywhere between five seconds and a minute depending on how bad it is. that is how he got some of his worst scars.

or sometimes he’ll make a really aggressive hand motion and it throws him off balance on the skateboard due to the intensity

anyways back to hand tics: he points a lot and does symbols like the “rock on” sign or certain numbers (for some reason, the most common number for reki to throw up is four—though sometimes he throws up whatever number he hears) he also grunts a lot as a tic so he sounds angry even when he is’t.

sometimes, his hand tics really hurt and his hands become shaky and his fingers start to feel the way his heart feels when he’s anxious. langa helps in different ways—he holds reki’s hand, he gives him something to fidget with to try to distract him (sometimes it’s his own fingers—he’ll just set them in reki’s palm and be like “let me carry some of the pain”—no, reki didn’t totally cry when he said that what)

sometimes, reki sticks pencils in his ears. his teachers have been trying to stop it since he was young, but he always did it anyways—he couldn’t help it.

his hair is also long enough for him to chew on. yes, he chews on the tips of his hair because i say so. sometimes, to stop him from doing that (and from swallowing his own hair), langa will try to make him laugh so it falls out of his mouth and then he’ll scoot close and tuck the hair behind reki’s ears… once they start dating, he kisses him too. but also that’s one reason why he wears the headband—to try to keep his hair out of his face so he doesn’t chew on it.

reki’s favorite form of stimming (other than his skateboard toy, that is) is stress balls. he’s got a couple of stress balls in his room or backpack—even one with string attached so he can carry it around his wrist. he just really likes the texture of them.

after his second race against adam, cherry and joe were so proud of him and also impressed and worried dads that they bought reki a big stress ball, like, the size of a stuffed animal. it was a blue cat. he uses it all the time.

speaking of fricking adam, we all know he would so use reki’s tics against him during a race. like, when he grabbed his wrist and “danced” with him, he would mock reki’s tics or say creepy things about how his verbal tics are music and his motor tics are him dancing along and it makes him so uncomfortable and like even more shaken

oh and adam purposely does things to trigger his tics, like when i mentioned that number tic??? yeah, adam will purposefully say numbers to make reki do the hand gestures

one time, reki wanted to tell langa that he loved him but got nervous so he signed it in sign language instead. but, since reki’s tics are occasionally hand gestures, langa thought that it was just a tic and mentally was like “i wish that was for me…” and reki is like “i wish he knew it was real…” and joe, cherry, shadow, and miya are all facepalming and groaning at their obliviousness

reki prefers taking hand written notes to electronic notes because he draws / doodles to stim and he can’t really doodle well on a laptop. so, he’ll doodle in class all of the time

sometimes, his pictures / notes turn out pretty bad / illegible depending on how bad his tics are, but that doesn’t phase reki. it used to when he was younger, but it doesn’t bother him at all anymore. in fact, he thinks it adds personality

during class, he’ll draw pictures for langa and slid them on his desk. they’re usually really random things like the teacher or the back of someone’s head or squiggly lines or whatever he sees outside. more often than not, it’s abstract art. langa loves these drawings and he keeps them all on his desk in his room.

reki also started drawing pictures for the rest of the sk8 crew and gives it to them during races. when he gave everyone their first doodle, he was like “i’m not the best artist ever and sometimes my tics mess up the doodle, but i thought of you while i drew it so i want you to have it”

(shadow didn’t shed a couple of unwilling dad tears when he got home that night what)

anyways, they all keep them. every single one. miya puts them in their school binder so they don’t feel as alone / isolated at school.

although shadow and miya give reki a lot of crap / teasing about not being as good as everyone else, the second they hear anyone comment about “the weird red head that makes noises” and comments on his ts in a negative way, oh, they will stop you.

sometimes, reki whispers words he hears under his breath as a tic (echolalia, baby~) and when he overhears people saying stuff about “that redhead that always follows snow around” or about him not being good enough or how he’s an idiot to face adam, he ends up muttering that too. and it’s not a one and done kind of thing—like. he does it for days. it makes him so upset (and i already hc him, with depression so it just makes it worse)

having tics while having injuries is not a good combination—especially if it’s with a broken arm. the crew made sure to keep an eye of reki’s comfort / pain level after adam broke his arm and literally tried to kill him in their final race. joe let reki squeeze his hand whenever he felt the urge to tic and cherry would ask him how much pain he was in after he ticced and depending on how bad it would be, would make joe or shadow fetch a heating pad or an icepack for reki.

joe also taught reki about the magical thing called physical therapy tape and helped him put it on his shoulders, neck, and back one time. it was his idea to use the tape on reki’s fingers when he was injured to make him feel better (because it literally makes my fingers feel better)

also langa kisses each of reki’s fingers and knuckles, slowly and tenderly, soft so he doesn’t hurt him or trigger a tic. a way of showing that he loves him not despite his tics, but even with his tics and that he loves him and his tics.

cherry isn’t always the best at showing he cares, so he’ll wear a ts ribbon sometimes in a way to show support (and it makes reki beam)

shadow once gave reki a flower shaped stress ball because there were “extra at work” (not true—he went looking for one)

miya didn’t really know much about ts at first and asked why reki made those noises and made weird movements all the time and langa explained so then that night when miya got home, they did research on ts so they could understand it better. later, they told reki that whenever they called him a slime, they meant it purely about skateboarding and it had nothing to do with his tics—even that his tics didn’t make him less of a skater

all his life, reki had been the different one: the one no one wanted on the team because sometimes his tics messed him up, the one who was asked to leave classes during tests because his tics were too distracting and made him take the test in the hall, when sometimes he’d get too overwhelmed by how close people were in the halls or at races and would have panic attacks, how he rocked in his chair and adjusted his position seventeen times an hour and sat on his feet while the other kids didn’t, how he shook his legs more aggressively than others, how he couldn’t skate as well as everyone else because of his tics and because he wasn’t good enough

which is probably part of the depression that weighs on his shoulders

the first time reki had a panic attack during a race due to closeness and overstimulating noises (and this is the first one after the sk8 crew happened) langa was racing and wasn’t there to help, so shadow kind of panicked and like picked him up under the armpits and carried him away from the crowd since reki could barely process anything other than panic and the sound and feeling of static and they sat in shadow’s car for the rest of the race and once he felt better, he gave shadow a huge hug and shadow returned it.

one time it happened and cherry was nearby and he saw the signs before it got bad (remembered from the previous time / his own experiences) and helped talk reki down before it got bad (he has a soothing voice)

usually, though, when / if it happens (because reki usually feels safe there), langa is the one who helps

but it got so much worse after skating against adam the first time because he no longer felt safe and suddenly everyone cheering adam’s name even after witnessing what he did to reki was too much but langa was racing adam so langa wasn’t there and this time it was joe who kneeled in front of him and started talking just loud enough for reki to hear and he was like “you’re safe—we won’t let anyone hurt you. we won’t let him hurt langa. you’re safe. i’m here and so is cherry and shadow and miya and langa will be waiting for you at the end of the race…”

it happens again at the next race he goes to—and this time it’s miya who notices and they tug on langa’s sleeve and is like “i think you need to take reki somewhere else” and langa does :)

okay i’ll end on a positive ts note or two—langa asks reki to add the ts ribbon to the design on his skateboard

shadow finds chewelry at the store one day when he’s shopping and buys it for reki (and gets a matching one for langa!)

once reki came back after his mental health break, the first thing joe said to him was, and this is nonnegotiable “reki! i missed you and your tics!”

miya once overheard reki muttering to himself about his annoying tics were, so they intervened and was like “your tics aren’t annoying. they’re you and anyone who think s they’re annoying is an idiot”

and for the first time in his life, reki doesn’t feel alone and isolated and so different from everyone (at least, he’s working on that last one) and he’s finally found a group of people who want him on their team and a boyfriend who always supports him and makes him feel less isolated, tics and all <3

i uhh I have a lot of feelings,,,

[concerningwolves]

on stimming

i've had an article on stimming floating around my head for a while, sort of just lurking in the far depths of my thoughts, but i can never get anything coherent together. i still can't, but i'm in the aftermath of a meltdown right now so the topic is very prevalent in my thoughts.

in many ways i am very happy and proud of my stims (just last night i was on here writing about happy stims because of jaskier!), but i think i tend to steer clear of the whole stimming positivity stuff because stimming is about regulating emotions, and not all emotions are pleasant to experience.

stims feel different for me depending on the emotion that drives them. happy or enthusiastic stims come from the stomach, which goes all warm and fuzzy, and that warm-fuzzy feeling builds and builds until i need to move to regulate it. these stims usually manifest as flapping (the stereotypical "happy flappy hands" that most people think of when the word stimming comes up), waving my arms, and/or hugging myself while rapidly moving my upper body from side to side. it's a very good feeling!

but too much of this supposedly "good" emotion can still leave me feeling drained and exhausted afterwards, once i'm back down at an emotional level. this is why being between hyperfixations or special interest peaks is so depressing: that good feeling is so large, so all-encompassing, that i have to process it with my entire body. happy stims put me in contact with - and anchor me in - my body, which i typically feel fairly disconnected from. when it's all over, i end up adrift again.

on the flip side, there's stimming related to anxiety, sensory overload and meltdowns. this seems to get left out of pro-stimming conversations, i guess because it's pretty frightening to watch. it's pretty frightening to experience, too. meltdown-stims happen because i feel Too Much All At Once, until i don't know if i'm angry, frustrated, anxious, overwhelmed or all of the above. all i know is that it feels like this horrible, pent-up energy under my skin that builds in the extremities. it's strongest in my hands, making me want to hit hard surfaces, and if i don't do that, my hands end up feeling all trembly and weak. i want to kick things, bash myself against things, anything to alleviate the pressure. and then when it's over i just feel... empty, and dirty, like i'm something violent and dangerous and irrational. it connects me to my body in a bad way.

and between all that there's the completely neutral everyday stims, like rubbing the seam of a jacket sleeve during a conversation, or fiddling with my hair, or tapping my foot. stuff that i Just Do, and have always done, as a coping mechanism to the point where i don't even associate a negative or positive state with them. should i feel positive about, or proud of, these? i don't know.

[vegalocity]

Autistic hcs blz, but to start small do it with your top three favs

Okay so My top three ‘this character is The Autism and you can’t change my Mind’ right now is

Usagi Tsukino

So Usagi is both my Top Pick and my Oldest of the headcanons, And like everything in the classic anime backs me up, her hyperempathy leading to so many of her final villains getting redeemed or at least allowed to repent;

She’s canonically a flappy stimmer, the 90s cartoon gave us a bunch of moments where she’d get excited and start pumping her arms in circular motions

She’s probably got an SI in the romance genre, like... lbr even long after she knows what its like to actually BE in a relationship those romance overtures are things she’s SO invested in that it’s the quickest way to get her all starry eyed.

and, oh yeah considering the school stuff, the jokes are often about Usagi being lazy, but when she does try for her grades it’s openly shown that she honestly does have problems with who the lessons are taught as well as her lack of interest int he subject manner, her grades don’t start improving until Ami starts really tutoring her and likely changing up HOW to explain the lessons to the poor girl.

Usagi is hyperempathetic yes, but she also has a very difficult time in reading people, usually unable to see if she’s pushing a line until someone’s hurt over it, and then doing everything she can to make it better.

Marinette Dupain-Cheng

Ya girl Marinette is a Bounce Stimmer, all the time she bouncing up and down in canon so hell yeah that's her Stim. She’s got an SI in fashion because yes of course, And the lateral thinking that leads in to is in part why her plans are so... macguyver for lack of a better word.

She’s hyperemathetic which is why she’s so forgiving with people despite at certain points they may not actually deserve it. And is probably so used to the idea that she’s not understood that she is more likely to apologize for something that’s not her fault

Red Son

So Red Son’s my newest of the headcanons (for obvious reasons) but because I‘M SI-ing super hard onto Monkie Kid it means i’m doing a lot of projecting onto the boy.

And unlike Marinette or Usagi he doesn’t get the luxury of being in a stable enough household that he got to be ‘the weird kid’ and thus be allowed to just do his own thing. and as we all know disability only exists in the context of its evironment so it’s likely it wasn’t even seen as odd until the context around him began to change.

I mean there were probably SOME things that were always evident. his parents probably found any stims he’d end up with odd, I personally see him as a rocking type. I think i’ve also mentioned flapping in a couple of fics, as an exclusively happy stim (cuz who doesn’t love Happy Flapping?) and its possible he’s bee into machinery and robots basically since machinery and robotics existed as concepts lol

So he’s had centuries for that SI to expand to everything he can expand it to. His skills in inventing and tinkering, probably a splinter interest in science fiction because it’s the best place to get new ideas for projects (Try and tell me his ‘vehicles with ridiculous transformations’ weren’t because he watched transformers when the 80s rolled around and was like ‘i can make that bUT BETTER’) Most likely another splinter interest in practical effects in movies because that was where a lot of cutting edge for the era animatronics ended up, and every new idea and concept would then get recycled into his own projects.

And then that lead to ‘try to use science on magic and see what happens’ and bing bang boom inciting incident of the series

[zosonils]

surely post some autistic ferb things for us all,,,,,,

hell yeah anon!! here’s an absolute hell dump of Ferb Autism Indulgence Things because i have really been wanting to get my grubby little autistic hands all over him lately

his special interests are engineering and tetris [which is the game he’s internationally ranked in!]

he stims vocally by humming or repeating other vocalisations, but rarely with actual words

if he’s too nervous to vocalise/just not in the mood he goes for small hand movements to stim like clicking pens or tapping his fingers

he does flappy hands/arms when he has a lot of excitement to release! otherwise he prefers to stick to smaller/more subtle motions for a variety of reasons

he only repeats actual words as echolalia, almost always off of either phineas or perry! that thing they do where perry chatters and the boys mimic it and they all just loop off each other for a while is absolutely an echolalia loop for all of them [yes even the platypus]

a very epic headcanon i have is that owca agents are typically labelled as having therapy animal training to give them some more wiggle room with showing intelligence, so perry is officially a therapy platypus for the flynn-fletcher kids, especially the boys. ferb does the aforementioned echolalia chatter thing with perry and also just generally finds him extremely comforting to hold. of course perry’s figured out all of ferb and his siblings’ needs by observation and makes sure to subtly be as comforting as possible for his kids, especially if they’re having a meltdown and need to hold someone who won’t try to talk to them

ferb genuinely dislikes communicating verbally, due to a combination of general social anxiety, struggling to translate his thoughts into words, and finding it physically uncomfortable to talk. it’s not serious enough to prevent him from cracking a joke or vocalising his thoughts every once in a while, but he prefers to be nonverbal as much as possible and communicate through gestures and body language

throughout the series he only ever speaks on his own terms and as much as he’s comfortable with, so it comes out without issue, but if he’s forced to talk when he doesn’t want to or while he’s under stress he struggles to string sentences together and stutters really badly. fortunately he’s got nice friends and a great family so this issue rarely presents itself, although it comes up sometimes during the school year in battles with pissy neurotypical teachers over oral presentations

over time he starts to work past the discomfort [genuinely, it’s on his own terms as opposed to masking to get allistics off his back] so that by the time he’s an adult he can hold an entirely verbal conversation for a decent while before it drains him, but he still tends to avoid speaking if he can

phineas instinctively understands ferb’s silent emotional cues, a lot better than he understands most people’s [but that’s a whole other infodump lmao], and unless ferb actively indicates that he wants to talk for himself phineas usually speaks for both of them and translates any of ferb’s less neurotypically obvious signals

phineas and ferb made The Ultimate Fidget Cube as one of their daily projects [they were being mass produced for an hour or two and then something or other happened, there was a mobile phone and an avalanche of instant noodles, long story short only the handful they made for themselves and their friends are left now] and neither of them go anywhere without it

ferb doesn’t have any specific comfort/security objects but he feels significantly more at ease if he’s got some kind of tool in his hand or within reach [or, failing an actual building-stuff tool, anything he can hold and Do Something with, like a pen or his fidget cube or a video game controller], and is a lot more stimmy with his hands and generally anxious if he isn’t holding something

perry performs the task of comfort item better than any inanimate objects but platypi aren’t allowed to come to school even if they’re very polite :(

believe me the brothers have tested this numerous times

school is stressful for ferb because it fires up his sensory overload and is usually where he’s forced to do some neurotypical shit that upsets him, but his friends always have his back and linda and lawrence are definitely super involved in making sure their kids’ needs are met and respected by their teachers, so he manages pretty well unless something really bad happens to set him off

he’s susceptible to sensory overload, mostly with bright lights, sudden noises, and being touched. the light and sound involved in many of his and phineas’ projects is alright because he usually designed them and knows exactly when they’ll come on and what it’ll be like, but if he doesn’t have that prediction available he freaks out easily. being touched [especially without warning] is the absolute fucking worst and he almost invariably flips out if someone unfamiliar tries to touch him or he’s hit with an unexpected sensation he doesn’t like

he only rarely has meltdowns because he’s good at self-regulating when he needs to and his friends and family know what does and doesn’t fly with him, but when he does they’re often triggered by either sensory overload or being forced to talk

when ferb starts entering meltdown territory his verbal skills are the first thing to shut off, and if it gets worse he usually stops communicating altogether and enters a really bad dissociative state that he won’t come out of until he feels safe again and can be carefully brought back to his senses

standard procedure for ferb meltdowns is to get him a weighted blanket and some tea and a perry if you can find the slippery little bugger, let him snap back to reality at his own pace, and once he can communicate his needs again pay extra close attention to them until he calms down enough that he can properly self-regulate again

his favourite sensations are weight/pressure, the funky bumpy shit perry’s tail has going on, and anything soft!

most of his clothes [including his usual outfit in the show] are tight-fitting but made out of soft fabric for maximum comfy

the blanket on his bed is a weighted one, but if he’s too far from his room or it’s too hot to be comfortable under a blanket sometimes he’ll just find the tightest spot he can wedge himself into without getting hurt or stuck and squish himself in there to calm down a bit

his favourite food texture is crunchy stuff, and he samefoods with particular cereals and sandwich combos that rotate every few months when he finally gets tired of the exact same breakfast and lunch every day and wants slightly different identical meals

while he’s fine with variation from day to day, he’s very firmly attached to the summer/weekend formula of wake up > cereal > big idea > where’s perry > [building montage] > mom holy fuck > sandwich > [having fun montage] > our fuckoff massive contraption has vanished somehow > oh there you are perry > snacks > nondescript vibing > dinner > bed time, and if this schedule gets significantly thrown off it really bothers him

ferb shows his emotions more subtly than neurotypicals, which can make him seem hard to read, but his external emotional range is still extremely distinct - he just expresses it in atypical ways sometimes!

one of his most notable atypical emotional cues is that thing he does when he’s startled and he pulls his hands up - he does this in we call it maze when candace falls over on her skates in the beginning, split personality when busting candace scares him, lost in danville when he’s worried another capsule might fall on him or phineas, and the phineas and ferb effect during how do i do it when milo’s exercise bike crashes, just to name a few instances! this boy has Unique Emotional Cues and i love him for it so much

he’s better at reading emotions than phineas [as low as that bar is], but sometimes misses more subtle cues and doesn’t quite trust his ability to read anyone aside from phineas, candace, and his closest friends

he’s been aware that he’s neurodivergent ever since he was diagnosed as a little kid [he was first diagnosed with autism when he was extremely baby, not even three years old, and had it continually reconfirmed as he got older] and he’s been entirely happy with being autistic for as long as he’s known what that even means, with this only being reinforced as he found siblings and made friends with other autistic kids :)

good lord this is such an infodump i’m sorry i just love my son so very much and have been feeling particularly self indulgent today ;<;

[ichayalovesyou]

Hey so from your blog I understand you are neurodivergent? Correct me if I'm wrong. If you are, sometimes I wonder if I have Asperger's Syndrome. When I look back on my childhood there are some questionable aspects that I got over, I think, but with a lot of effort. For example I used to watch the same movie over and over again till I had big chunks of it memorized and I played it in my head when I went to sleep? And I was obsessed with puzzles, I did and redid them many times. And lots of repetitive things. Also I don't know if I was just being sensitive or something, but I always cried at the tiniest disapproval of adults.

I'm sorry if this comes off as stereotypical, but those are things my peers found weird and not actually "normal" and it was pretty hard for me to get over them.

Lol I don't even know where this is going, I guess I'd like to see some insights from a neurodivergent person, because I've never had the chance to interact with one. How did you figure out you were neurodivergent? Can a person on the autism spectrum learn to communicate effectively with other people on their own? (because I think I can do that, but it's not always a pleasure haha).

Feel free not to respond to this, I don't want to bother, but you seem..... Approachable😂. I'm not one of those people who self-diagnose through an internet quiz and try to make themselves appear special....You know the ones. I'm genuinely curious haha. I'm probably fine, it would still be interesting to see your response. Thanks.

I’m going to be perfectly real with you

I do not have an official diagnosis for anything aside from “generalized anxiety” but I only got the chance (until very recently) to get therapy for a year.

But I do feel like there’s a difference between wanting to feel “special” and going into self-diagnosis territory half-cocked. And looking at your life, tallying up the evidence, making an educated guess, and then making an effort on finding out whether or not you’re guess is correct from a professional.

For instance, in my case (I’m about to get into “tragic” backstory stuff just to give a clear picture):

I come from an emotionally abusive situation in which, even when I had teachers, pediatricians or other moms suggest I (at the very least) had ADHD my mother got offended, denied it and insisted I was fine. In fact, the only way in which she has treated my as any sort of neurodivergent is the “generalized anxiety” diagnosis I got from the six months of therapy I got 7 years ago. Even then she uses it as a tool to invalidate my feelings. She never considered it may be a symptom rather than a source until my baby brother got diagnosed with autism.

My family has a loooooong history of autism/adhd and other mental illnesses, all of my siblings and cousins above the age of 3 have one or both, I also wouldn’t be surprised if my father has autism and my mother has ADHD even if they went undiagnosed from the same stigma that kept my mother from getting me help (and only getting my younger sibling help when essentially forced by the school system.)

It was only really when my brother exhibited behaviors and got an autism diagnosis (and my mother and I started reading up on the topic) that I realized just how many of my behaviors were associated with textbook autism. I looked at my baby brother and I saw myself, the biggest difference between us is that I was hyper verbal (talking a bit before 18 months) and he was totally nonverbal until he was almost three (both of which, are symptoms of autism) that I really considered the possibility. Even my mother suggested I may be right, better late then never I guess.

I exhibit many of the exact behaviors you describe that are associated with both adhd and autism, I lined up toys, I drew the same picture on one sheet over and over. I take comfort in compulsively watching movies and shows over and over, I (for lack of a better words) stim sing and use movie quotes and references as eccholalia as stress relievers (especially in new social situations). I cried at the drop of a hat, when I was angry I’d repeatedly hurt myself by banging my head and arms against the myself or walls. I also do the “happy flappy arms” when I’m excited or nervous, I have a special interest in writing and making music (I have a hard time thinking about pretty much anything else). I had lots of trouble socially until about high school and none of my friends are neurotypical (or straight lol). So, I think it’s safe to say that I am either on the spectrum, have ADHD (which exhibits a lot of similar symptoms).

When I found this out, I started treating myself like I had these things instead of beating myself up for being “weird” and my mental health improved significantly. Mind you, it’s still not great because I am not (yet) in therapy and live in an overcrowded, emotionally abusive household, but I am making concerted efforts to remedy both. I’ve got my first therapy session in almost a decade arranged for next week and plan on moving in with another, less crowded, less abusive parent.

The best thing I can suggest is, read up on what you think you may have, look at the symptoms, compare them to you’re own, write it down, write how you feel about it. But more importantly read other people’s experiences with autism and ADHD, while medical professionals can help you get access to diagnosis and (if you need it) medication, sometimes the personal aspects get lost in the machine. At the same time of course be careful who you listen to, there are a lot of organizations and people out there who want to “help” by trying to force us to act “normal”, acting neurotypical does NOT equal living to enjoying your life to its fullest potential. On the flipside there of course people out there with and without diagnosis that will promote unhealthy thinking patterns and coping mechanisms, you’ve got to think critically and decide what is best for you.

Not all of us can get therapy, not all of us will get diagnosed even if we do, especially if you’re AFAB and have autism, or if you’re “well behaved” (ie pass as neurotypical) we slip through the cracks all the time. Try to get therapy anyway, a diagnosis can be really helpful (but in the case of autism it can also be detrimental because of the sheer amount of ableism around it, again, read other people’s experiences).

It’s okay to act on the idea that something is wrong, you know when something isn’t right with you, not even your parents can define that for you (I learned that the hard way). As long as you don’t wallow in it, operating under the assumption you have autism and/or adhd, using the tried and true coping mechanisms, being gentle with yourself, can be very, very helpful.

Hope this helped <3 💚🖖🏻💚

[iconsumeheadcanons]

persona characters autism headcanons!

hi im autistic and i started my day with sun so now im !!!!!!!!! some of these headcanons are from elsewhere on tumbr, but i dont know where :(((  so i am hoping someone out there knows that n that everybody knows that i love them <3

(also go check out mollypaup and i think hypeswap if you havent already! they post some good stuff autism+adhd hc too!!! i think.. oh! and thieves-in-the-palace!!!)

P5

Joker

there was some artwork from someone on tublr..where they pointed out that he doesnt really talk outside the metaverse so--hes hyperverbal as joker and just near nonverbal as akiren

he stims ALL THE TIME. that phone thing, the pencil thing, the little tappy tap of his foot, pulling at his bangs when hes embarrassed/smug. someone get him a fidget spinner. he’ll prob learn to do tricks with it

he probably sucks at focusing in class, like i know its just the game design but hes always surprised out of his daily “star out the window at the nearby office building” when his teachers ask him questions

mona mentions when the pt is at Wilton for the first time (after they run into shido) that joker eats like shit, and that could have multiple causes at the start of the story of course, but when i first played i thought that joker was a picky eater and that the variety (and amount of food) at the buffet would be an Ordeal...

tho mona makes that comment bc joker looked pale after having a little ptsd moment from shidos voice, but i didnt know that the first time i played

maybe when joker makes a face at ryuji putting so much ginger in his gyudon? joker probably does not like pickled ginger lol

his favortive foods are all spicy, which is why the curry he makes for his friends is always ‘overly spicy’, and why kasumi makes him a curry bento and joker kept going “...?” .... “....?!”

overly reflective glasses have been a great plus for him bc now he never has to make real eye contact every again!

mona Soft. play with Ann hair. maybe Braid. nice

puns (Gorou the Goroumet)

he has so many options to be straight up rude sometimes in game. he probably no clue on his own, which is why he defaults to Not Talking. people probably mention his constant scary face, which is just him being nonexpressive, squinting at all the fucking bright lights, and Tired

executive function who? we do everything last minute folks

high pain tolerance, which is why he was the kid that was always climbing trees in elementary school to get basketballs unstuck from the branches

his sixth sense lets him see treasure and possible places to climb/crawl bc 1. Shiny? Steal it. Steal it Now. and 2. Could i fit in that? Time to Find Out

probalby a bit of a klepto too oops. he’ll return it tho!! but he has to do it dramatically or he’ll die

cant sit properly to save his life

smells and touch are Great, they can keep him grounded when his brain goes off to police or dead rivals or guilt or

if a friend hung out with him and gave him total reigns of the agenda, he would choose to nap on the floor while his friend does something off to the side quietly

hyperfocuses on handy tasks (i.e. lockpicks, coffee brewing, cleaning, his part time jobs) and some things like movies and books. everything else is a tossup

his (normal) navigation app is his most used app bc he still doesnt know where hes going, even though he only goes to the same few places in the city

hates being sweaty, literally cannot stand it. probably double exhausted during the summer

but Needs Compression so hes often Struggling

Futaba

paraphrase from p5d “i have no motor skills so i cant play rhythm games :(” need i say more? (i will regardless)

echolalia all the time, from anime, memes, the PT

those headphones she wears all the time? noise cancelling ear protectors babey

only talks about her interests, “normal” talking is Not Easy, but she is still communicative w others despite her worries. shes not “hard to understand” at all but she feels the anxiety nonetheless

only talks informally, cannot talk ‘politely’ with out imitating someone around her

shes had meltdowns and anxiety attacks in game :( i relate so hard

Technology. thats it

def had an egypt phase that pops up every few months. probably came from yu-gi-oh

has Immune to Bright Lights buff.  joker is very jealous

“Time to make like a tree and leave!” and 30 other iterations

video game metaphors are the only ones that makes sense to her

probably relates hard to robot characters in anime for their general androgyny and confusion about human emotions and connections

probably gets told that shes “too smart to be on the spectrum” by teachers >:( she fails their classes on purpose

wakaba’s autistic too that just how it is

the Connection that she establishes with Joker is so Warm. my life goals include adopting an older brother like futaba has lsdkfjslkfj

also eater of 5 foods only, i mean, she brings cup ramen to the beach. i just really admire her...

hides in small spaces for comfort

doesnt she have like uhhhhh hyperthymesia or something like that?

Yusuke

art

his entire social link is learning how humans work, which i relate

talks seriously all the time

“sarcasm? who is that? are you saying I was sarcastic?...how?”

cant remember to take care of his body, and madarame did not help with that either

lot of uncomfortable staring, hes overdoing the eye contact thingy

infodumps all the time, doesnt know hes doing it

needs a lot of support even if he doesnt think he deserves it. no one ever complains about helping him out tho

visual stims my friends

he didnt know that you could look up pictures on the internet but he does know you can stream live videos of waterfalls and fluffy animales!!

I am certainly in the mood

for something salty today.

he and joker are scared of math. numbers do not interact

Yusuke, futaba, and akiren are a trio and i know this bc their first day of non-thievery interacts is Akiren clearing Futabas room w/o permission, futaba hyperfocusing on destroying medjed, and yusuke rearranging futabas figurines so they are more visually appealing

morgana is a support friend for all of them bc igor knows they need it

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Souji/Yu

yes, he mostly wears gray semi formal clothes bc parents tell him to, no, he will not changes this

Schedule or Death

“sorry, could you repeat that?” “huh? oh yeah, i was saying that--” “yeah that’d be cool.”

cats, fishing, he just likes to be quiet. you can literally spend a day at the beach just to think if you want, and that is what yu want

has a lot of scripts for things (of which he shares with nanako!) but if he runs out he just stops talking..

inaba is a godsend bc its so fucking quiet and warm

he Yearns to hold his friends hands, but he shies away from a lot of touch (excepting yosuke, teddie, and nanako)

Cooking and Cleaning makes the world better. he and joker vibe together with this

unlike akiren, he strong arms any executive dysfunction into Be Productive or Else. his punishment is feeling the pure anxiety of having to make up for ‘lost time’. (another symptom of his workaholic parents)

writes everything down, notes are very neat, has pages dedicated for bad doodles when hes not feeling his usual Super Classroom Focus

Cannot handle secondhand embarrassment (most often caused by yosuke) and will quietly slip away to random cats or origami folding

hungry, crunch crunch folks. probably needs chewelry bc he used to chew on his shirt collars when he was younger.

cleans up after everyone in the food court, constantly worries about them accidently hurting themselves. likely spends half of group conversations watching peoples hands

he canonically eats expired food, nanako plz help your brother

really clumsy, but people only notice after they decide that he is a cool person

video games are too chaotic for him

exhausted every night from the pure amount of masking he does, if a friend spends the night (or is like yosuke) they will know his more comfortable weirdo self (tho everyone knows hes a weirdo eventually)

hyperempathetic, sometimes just understands animals and children better than peeople his age or older

Yukiko

her jokes

she and souji get in ‘trouble’ together, she and joker commit crimes together

she and chie have to coordinate outfits, its important

actually understands metaphors, but does not understand people

like me, had no clue that creepy kid was flirting with her

she is very angry when she has meltdowns that might involve slamming doors and shouting. her parents call these ‘tantrums’ and ‘unfitting for a polite daughter’ but really thats because her meltdowns tend to be caused by arguments w her family after a long day of school and TV world traipsing

the metronome meme, except hers goes between Loudest Person in the Room to Quietest Pin Drop in the Planet. she is completely unaware of this

her atmosphere brightens when chie appears. that is not only the lesbian energy within her, but also because chie is like her Favorite Person

Cannot wear Pants. No (tho she wants to try it! but she puts them on and her soul instantly squashes)

happy flappy lesbian! watch out!

Naoto

the pouty face. all the time lskdfjlasdkf

hes really snappy sometimes and i love that for him. he and akechi should fight just to see what would happen (please read Bang Bang Shoot Shoot on AO3)

“do not touch me or my hat, thank you”

no one has ever seen him shutdown and no one ever will (except for his grandpa)(and kanji)(and rise)

probably likes certain food textures and will stand for nothing less, probably feels embarrassed about his preferences with friends

constantly jumps between ‘everybody hates me so i should act like them so they dont hate me’ to ‘i refuse to be anything but very comfortable as myself, and i dont care that im making you upset sir’

he and souji are the king and queen of subtle stims, but for unhappy reasons :(

does not make jokes. cannot joke around. understand? yes, do? no.

loose clothes are the only good clothes, but all tags and obtrusive seams will be obliterated by kanji tatsumi

not very empathetic so he probably comes off as an asshole to strangers (like when he throws away his classmates confession letters without reading them) but he tries so hard to sound comforting when his buds are struggling.

his understanding of others emotions/reactions come from his learning as a detective, which seems cold+clinical to others, especially compared to souji, whos completely unexpressive but very introverted people person

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Hamuko/Minako/Kotone

big personality!! very people-oriented!! koromaru and her are buddies!! when shes having a real bad time, shes very quiet and expressions turn off

interrupts herself in the middle of conversations all the time. no one knows where shes coming from. her brains is thousands of km ahead of her body

bouncey legs, swingin arms, twirlly skirt, little somersaults! when will she stop? never!

very obvious music stims with her hands and arms! people are like “oh there she goes! happy as usual!” shes listening to minatos heavy metal playlist

switches from exhausted to excited within milliseconds. no one can predict, not even her

SEES has to ask her for context all the time cuz she’ll just continue shit from 2 weeks ago without warning

professionals will assume shes very childish bc of how chipper she is, but she is beyond mature for her age and only feels comfortable enough to have serious conversations if a person has proved themself able to handle it

collects every little thing. her room is a mess and she has to get rid of most of it every time she moves :(

hates cleaning! smells bad, feels bad hhhhhgggg

dont let mitsuru-senpai see her bedroom

gets lost in the middle of conversations with others bc shes thinking about a story connected to one(1) word that was said earlier

 no sense of time and place, she just sees her friends and goes “ah, this is the right place, then” but junpei and akihiko are also lost so now theyre all screwed

Minato/Makoto/Sakuya

no talkies, no walkies

his story in the movies is him literally learning how to function around people he cares for

doesnt get jokes, expressions, body language, empathy, subtlety, metaphors, physical contact, or eye contact. aigis is probably the only person he truly understands right away

he is still nice to people because he doesnt see a reason not to be, but also he has very limited energy so only his senpai and old people get his most polite-kindnesses

cannot describe feelings for the life of him. the team wont know hes injured or sick until hes passed out

everything is too loud, time to drown it out with my loud ass music

rocking and chewing stims, ryoji is the first person to point him out for these subtle stims (not accusingly of course, just general pure curiosity and love for the uniqueness of humanity)

likes to cover his face with whatever is available, lives like a bat in a dark dry cave

will wear anything that has pockets and his blue/gray/black palette

sleepy at all times bc he never has much energy

when he was younger he probably needed a lot of support, especially after his parents died, because he wouldnt communicate like a neurotypical and would shutdown for hours in the middle of school without warning. probably missed a lot of lessons and field trips out of pure overstimulation

eating at all times. no preference, just whatevers closest

his meltdowns probalby include humming whining noises and curling up in a ball, which makes people want to touch him, but that is the LAST thing he wants. put a blanket on him! play some music! do not talk and do not expect him to speak

aigis is the only person who can touch him normally bc her hands are cold and he likes cold

never nude, feels mmmmmmmmm without clothes and probalby wears a full robe in the hotsprings

will not do things that take more than one step w/o someone else walking him thru it, which Same

[messrmrcuder]

Neurodiverse Remus Lupin

And his loving boyfriend who helps deal with his shit though these are mainly Remus centric w some Sirius

So basically Remus has ADHD, which is a hyperactivity disorder but there’s much more than that so here’s a few of my glorious neuroatypical Remus Lupin and his boyfriend headcanons

Sure, Remus is quiet but he talks REALLY fast; to the point that it’s so hard to understand him and he usually has to repeat his words A LOT

Remus chews on literally anything. Pencils, necklaces, jumpers (both his and Sirius’), even his fingers. So Sirius buys him a rubber stimming necklaces, in high hopes that he’ll stop “eating” things that aren’t meant for his mouth. Remus wears it but forgets he has it so he still chews on things besides the necklace.

Sometimes Remus chews on his nail beds and cuticles and it makes him bleed so Sirius now covers his fingers in band-aids to make sure he doesn’t break skin and it’s the sweetest thing ever.

Remus cannot sit through a movie at all but the boy can read for hours on end. The apocalypse could be happening and Remus will kindly sit on his bed and read an entire book series that’s like 10 books long in one single sitting and the other boys just watch and question on how the hell he does this.

Hyperfixates on his ADHD? Hyperfixates on his ADHD

Remus seems to be really quiet and timid in public but if just him and the boys, he’s like, the loudest one out of the entire group. When Lily was finally apart of their little group, she was, well, safe to say she was definitely taken back by Remus’ amount of PURE ENERGY.

You never know what’s going on in his head. It’s like a computer with a million tabs open at once

Remus has meds but forgets to take them all the time. Sirius had to remind him nearly every day and Remus is just like “oh, fuck me”

Sirius just like, has to manage Remus’ days sometimes because Remus has no routine (besides his lycanthropy, which he even forgets sometimes, and he’s practically been like that his whole life)

“Uh, Siri... I can’t find my keys.”

“... Remus, babe, honey, the love of my life... they’re on your wrist.”

Remus accidentally insulting someone because it’s the first thing that came to his mind when greeting them.

Time management? Haha who’s she? Remus doesn’t know her

Shockingly does work last minute, and finishes on time and passes.

ok but Remus hyperfixating on the stupidest shit like idk rocks

How many pencils has Sirius taken away from Remus because they’re literally chewed apart? dunno, lost count a long time ago

Sirius totally allows Remus to play with his hands and hair to keep him busy, especially if they’re waiting for something or together during a really boring lecture. Sirius thinks it’s quite adorable seeing his boyfriend so focused on his hands (or hair).

Stim. Stim. Stim.

Remus stims a lot listening to music, especially if it’s one of those punk rock bands Sirius likes listening to. Serotonin hath been provided for the boy and Sirius (because his short happy werewolf boyfriend is just, *chef’s kiss*) But like sometimes he does these little nose twitches (which are more like tics rather than a stim) or Remus bouncing or swinging his feet when he’s in chair like a five year old kid who’s eaten the entire candy jar.

Arm flappy thing when he gets really excited. There was a time when Sirius and Remus were on a road trip and omg their song came on and Remus was doing the flappy arms because he was so happy as he practically screamed the lyrics.

Remus, rambling about his current hyperfixation, and Sirius, merely admiring his adorable ass boyfriend who’s currently obsessing over whales.

Even though sensory things are more related to autism spectrum disorder (ASD), some people with ADHD can be like that too and Remus definitely is one of those see people. Example, he chews ice really loudly at three am simply because of the way it feels when he does it.

Remus tries his hardest to be quiet in public. Like the fear of people getting angry because he’s very much so a handful and could be labeled as “annoying” to many people and he would rather not upset anyone for being too loud. But he’s containing a lot of energy so sometimes it’s near impossible or he’s bursting with it as soon as he’s away from the public. (Sirius loves seeing him all excited and happy but hates seeing him feeling all down in public so they don’t actually go out often)

Some people think Remus is cool and ADHD is absolutely like, amazing and quirky but it’s a big struggle in his daily life, and affects him more than others think.

There’s these small things he does that Sirius finds cute but others have no shame in bringing Remus down for it, you know, being the ablist pricks they are.

Remus having to explain to some that there’s more to his ADHD than the hyperactivity because some asses just don’t understand and it’s tiresome because people don’t realise not everyone’s ADHD is the same (nor does it fit society’s idea of it)

Remus hates his ADHD so much; wishing he was normal and not just, broken

Sirius knows of his insecurities, showering the boy in many, many compliments and letting him know that Remus is just okay the way that he is.

Remus halfly believing in them because he knows Sirius is right but there’s still a chance Sirius is lying about it.

Sirius is the supportive boyfriend that Remus always needs. Remus having bad thoughts? Not on Sirius’ watch; not while he’s still living and breathing.

Remus’ ADHD being more than just “crackhead” energy because that’s not what it is

**Most of these are things I do and experience as someone with ADHD**

[comfortmarvelimagines]

can i please get some headcanons dad!tony with autistic reader? i feel like he’d be such an amazing dad.

abso-freakin-lutely you can !!!!!! im so glad someone sent me this holy shit am i HYPED (also: there is another request for dad! tony with mum!pepper and lil sis!morgan so this one is shorter than it would otherwise be because there is more coming)

dad!tony and autistic!reader headcanons 

- tony knew you were autistic from when you were fairly little, but waited a while to get you diagnosed. he did, however, extensively research how to best parent you (in consult with autistic people/experts, of course) and did everything he could to make sure you were able to be yourself however you needed at home

-  he sought after a diagnosis when he realised he was out of his depth with sensory stuff, and needed the help of an ot

- rather than overwhelming you with sensory items (stim toys, weighted blankets, etc), he introduced things to you one at a time, and learnt what kinds of input helped 

- you switched between craving touch (hugs, squeezes, head rubs) and finding it painful so quickly as a kid that he realised that you’d need a non-verbal means of communicating whether touch was okay. you’d come up with the signalling system when you were tiny, and no one else could understand it, but you still used it to this day 

- sometimes, all you wanted to do was be close to someone and rock. he’d always sit next to you with one arm over the back of the couch, open for a hug if you wanted one

- tony had a way of reading you that no one else could match. he’s always been super big on catching things early, so that they don’t escalate into melt/shutdowns later on; for someone who’d spent most of his adulthood reliant on unhealthy coping mechanisms, he seemed hell-bent on making sure you were the opposite 

- seriously, you’d never met another non-autistic as fierce a supporter of stimming as your dad 

- every now and then, when he noticed you had a new stim, he’d ask you how it felt. it was nice, to have someone not just accepting of your stims, but genuinely interested in how you were expressing yourself 

- you liked wearing his jumpers when you weren’t home because they smelled like him. usually you didn’t like strong scents, but tony was... neutral, but safe 

- plus his arms are longer than yours so the sleeves are Optimal Length for twisting, keeping your hands warm, hiding fidget cubes inside and Ultimate Happy Flappy Hands 

- speaking of, tony found your happy flappy hands one of the best things he’d ever seen 

- he wasn’t just there for the fun stuff, though. there’d been countless nights where he sat on the side of your bed, rubbing your back, when your brain and body just wouldn’t turn off for sleep 

- school wasn’t always the greatest either. but you bet tony would drop anything and everything to come pick you up if need be 

- he also made sure that you had the accomodations you wanted and expressed that you needed. even from a young age, he’d asked you what’d be helpful. he always knew you could advocate for yourself, he was just there to amplify what you were saying 

- after a few years of bullying at school, he quietly paid for a program sending autistic educators into all schools in the district for presentations on neurodiversity. for both students and staff. sure, he knew people didn’t get autism, but some of the stuff he’d heard said to you was ridiculous 

- and yes, it obviously included a captain america psa. because those are too goddamn funny.

- he never so much as raised his voice. the only time you ever heard him get mad during a meltdown wasn’t at you, it was at the grandmother at the grocery store yelling at him to just give the kid a smack, teach them some discipline, teenagers don’t throw tantrums. fortunately pepper was there to get you outside and safe because tony was ready to deck the woman  

- it took him a while to realise what shutdowns were. you’d never seen him so guilty as when he was apologising for not realising how much pain you were in, earlier 

- you loved your dad for knowing what to do almost all of the time. panic attack? breathing exercises. shutdown? grounding exercises. super shitty day? hugs, with permission of course.  

- he made pepper teach him how to properly cook your samefoods properly 

- he always keeps up with you spIns. and not just in the obvious ways. he picked up on your excited infodumping about dinosaurs and oh, look, we’re watching a documentary about archaeology for movie night and huh there’s a new dino squishy on your desk. what’s that? tickets to the dinosaur museum downtown haha what a coincidence ??!?!?

 - he hates seeing you in pain, and every meltdown sets a deep ache behind his arc reactor. you’ve always love the pressure and warmth of his hugs post-meltdown, and he takes the opportunity to squeeze you tight and protect you from the world not compatible with your brain. even when you’re grown, not a baby anymore, that drive to put a metaphorical suit of armour around you never dissipates 

- you’ve always liked to stim with his hands. they’re familiar. you know the callouses like your own

- his watches are also stimmy, either to fidget with the clasps or to just feel the subtle ticking 

- you’ve always held hands with tony, even in public. new york is overwhelming and you need an anchor  

- and obviously, you have the most high-tech noise cancelling headphones on the market. tony stark can build anything with that mind. of course he’s gonna build stuff to make his kid’s life easier 

- you’ve absolutely adopted his specific brand of sarcasm. people have said you’re just like him in that regard too many times to count. most other sarcasm goes straight over your head, but tony’s inherited quick-wittedness has served handy in many an awkward social situation 

- you’d never know it, but he constantly stresses that he’s not doing the best/ isn’t good enough as a parent 

- to you, he’s always been the best. he’s your home, your safe place. a constant when the world is too much and too mean all at once 

- and sure, you’re not the best at telling him how much you appreciate him, but he knows. he knows when you squeeze his hand. he knows when you come home from school and infodump with happy flappy hands whilst twirling around the kitchen as he’s cooking. he knows when you join him on the couch, humming, as he drinks his coffee in the morning. he knows when you fall asleep against him as he holds you tight after a particularly bad meltdown. he knows.

[olliethesnake]

30 Days of Autism Acceptance; Day 15

Free day! Write about any topic you want!

Free day??? Time to infodump about my special interests!!

Recently I started talking to this girl at school that loves Undertale and I'm just GSJSKSKE so happy because I have someone to infodump to that won't get annoyed or bored!! ó,wò

But ye, I'm probably gonna talk about how I headcanon Papyrus and Alphys as autistic :v

Papyrus

For many different reasons, I can see Papyrus being on the spectrum. He's eccentric and hyperverbal, and he (possibly) stims on occasion. He uses a large vocabulary and speaks in an old-fashioned manner (which can be related to autism).

He always wears the same outfit (although it's implied that he's stuck in it). I'd say his samefood is spaghetti but according to the game he's never actually eaten it. He has a distaste for other foods like Grillby's. (Does he even eat???)

His room is organized and his mailbox is always empty, compared to his brother's, whose is overflowing. He seems to value tidiness and often criticizes his brother for being lazy and messy.

(Also I want to mention that he has a very advanced book on puzzles, and right next to it is a children's book called "peek-a-boo with fluffy bunny." it's just relatable to me.)

When doing new things, such as being a host or dating, he always follows a rulebook. Now I'll list some special Interests and stims. Most are canonical, a few stims are not. :0)

Special Interests

Puzzles

- has a variety of puzzles for you to solve and excitedly explains the instructions to each

- has a preferred puzzle (junior jumble) and doesn't understand the preference of another (word search)

Mettaton

- refers to MTT's show as his favorite show

- tries to show you MTT's show, and when an error screen comes on, he says "this is just a bad episode! don't judge me!!"

- hates hotland but suddenly wants to live there to see MTT

- when dating Papyrus, he uses multiple MTT brand products mid-battle

Stims

stomps his foot when angry at his brother

echolalia; alliterates when describing himself such as "powerful! popular! prestigious! that's Papyrus!"

(not canon) happy flappy!

(not canon) enjoys spinning with arms out

Alphys

Alphys seems to struggle a lot with socializing. She can communicate, but does so awkwardly and with a mild stutter. However, if you get her to talk about the right thing, she could go on and on about it confidently.

She always wears a lab coat, save for the special polka-dotted dress she wears for dates. I'd say that her samefood would be ramen (which, same, in the past :p).

She spends a lot of time in her lab, researching or partaking in her interests.

Special Interests

Anime; specifically Mew Mew Kissy Cutie

- literally infodumps the entire plot to you after asking if you wanted to watch it

- posters and merch everywhere

Technology and Science

- built a robot to house a soul

- royal scientist

- experimented on amalgamates and had a crisis when it failed

(anime) Humans

- has a ton of mangas on "human history"

- stalks you through cameras when you arrive in snowdin

- obsessed with being a part of your journey

Stims

Taps feet when nervous

(not canon) chews claws and tail

(not canon) flaps hands

(not canon) thumps tail on ground

(not canon) spinning in roll-y chair

I need to sleep lmao

💚 Ollie

[quinintheclouds]

I was in dance class today and we’re staring on a ballet of The Wizard of Oz, kinda like a jukebox musical? The opening number is the Another Day Of Sun, so when my teacher first played the music and said it was the song my HEART LEPT. Giggling, jumping up at down, flappy arms, head shaking, I don’t know I do weird ass shit when I get excited, and everyone just kinda stared at me like the freak I am. Kinda made me realize how strange that is? So can I please get some sunshine?

I am SO sorry you were made to feel bad about your joy. There’s nothing wrong or strange with flapping and jumping and bouncing. I don’t know if you have ADHD or autism or something else or nothing at all, but those reactions are super common with those two in particular. It’s called “stimming,” which is used for a lot of things, but in this instance it would’ve been your brain’s way of stimulating your body so that you could deal with your excitement. Some people require more stimulus due to lack of norepinephrine or sensory issues, and stimming is the way people can deal with the overwhelming emotional states where too much is going on, or in the cases where there isn’t enough going on. But of course I don’t know your brain or your situation, so dismiss this if irrelevant.

Regardless, it’s shitty that you had to deal with that judgement. You’re not a “freak.” You are a human being who was reacting naturally to human emotions. It’s not your fault that other human beings react differently to their emotions, or that they can be judgmental about yours. You were expressing the happiness in your heart and excitement in your mind. I’m so sorry they took that moment away from you.

I do the same thing, by the way. I got so excited about a new video recently that I started bouncing and rocking and giggling and happy-flapping and I hit my hand on the computer but didn’t care because I was so excited, so I just kept going. At home it’s so freeing, but I still feel the pressure to not stim so much in public, and that sucks.

No one should EVER have to feel shame because they feel joy.

I know it’s hard, and it can take a little bit, but try to desensitize yourself to their reactions. People will look even if they aren’t judging, because the human eye adapted to notice movement. Just because someone’s staring doesn’t mean they’re thinking anything bad of you. Remind yourself that you’re not wrong, or weird, or lesser just because you express your positive emotions visibly. Look at these awesome people who react like you and I do, and tell me it doesn’t make you smile to see them so happy:

See? Your happiness is out loud! That’s frickin’ beautiful! You don’t just feel it within yourself, you have so much passion it just bursts out of your heart and into the world like a thousand wild butterflies! You are putting your positivity into the world. That’s something you should never feel negative about. You’re an incredible, caring person, and you deserve to be happy about being happy.

[unlessimwrongwhichyouknowimnot]

Happy Hands are Flappy Hands

Summary: Fitz doesn't care if other people mock his hand-flapping, but Jemma does.

WARNINGS/TRIGGERS: Ableism, Internalized Ableism, Ableist Language, Past Child Verbal Abuse, Mocking of Autistic People

This takes place in a College/University AU series: Part One, Part Two, Part Three

Read on AO3

“JEMMA!” Jemma looked up at the sound of someone yelling her name and recognized her boyfriend, Fitz, running across the mall toward the spot where she and Daisy sat on a picnic blanket underneath a shady tree. “JEMMA!” He skidded to a stop right in front of them and stood there, hands flapping excitedly in front of his chest. “Jemma! There’s baby gorillas! At the zoo! Remember how the female was pregnant when we went last fall?” Jemma nodded, but Fitz had already continued talking. “Well, she gave birth to twins! I just saw an alert about it from the zoo’s Twitter and came straight to tell you. Can we go see them? Please?”

“Of course we can,” Jemma said, and Fitz beamed at her, flapping his hands harder. He began info-dumping about baby gorillas, but Jemma’s attention had been drawn to two guys who had been tossing a frisbee back and forth. They had stopped and were staring at them. One nudged his buddy and pointed at Fitz before flapping his own hand and laughing.

Jemma felt a tight ball of anxiety begin to form in her stomach and a general sense of unease and dread settled over her. She started to fidget with her spinner ring as she glanced at Daisy. The murderous look on her friend’s face told her that she had seen them too.

“Hey, Fitz,” Daisy interrupted him. “Just wanted you to know, there are two jackasses mocking your flapping. Want me to go beat them up?”

“No,” Fitz told her. “They can do what they want. I don’t care.” He picked up his info-dump where he had left off and Jemma did her best to pay attention and ignore the two frisbee-playing douchebags. Still, she continued to feel tense and anxious, glancing around every so often to see if anyone else was staring at them.

Later, Jemma followed Fitz back to his dorm. “Want to watch Doctor Who ?” he asked as he unlocked the door.

They entered and Jemma went straight to his desk to grab the stress ball sitting on top of his physics textbook. “How do you not care?” she blurted out.

“What?”

“When others mock you, how do you not care about that?”

Fitz scratched his cheek as he thought about his answer. “Well, my mum taught me when I was a kid that people express themselves differently. Mum cries when she’s happy; I flap my hands. None of it’s bad; it’s just different. I don’t care that people mock me because I know that I’m not doing anything bad; I’m just doing something different, and that’s their problem, not mine.”

Jemma squeezed the stress ball. “It bothers me.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know!” She dropped the ball back onto the desk and brought her hands up to squeeze around her neck and jaw. “I’m sorry, Fitz, I think I should go back to my dorm. I’m too worked up to watch anything right now.”

“Okay.” Fitz twisted his fingers together. “Is there anything I can do to help?”

“No, I think I just need to be alone to process.”

“Okay. Text me if that changes.”

“I will. Bye, Fitz.”

“Bye.”

Jemma went back to her dorm, but only stayed long enough to drop off her backpack and change into her gym clothes. She put headphones in and put her favorite song on repeat as she made her way to the gym, heading straight to the treadmill once she got there. Running always helped her clear her mind when she was struggling with something.

Why was she so upset about those two jerks mocking Fitz? Of course there was the obvious answer that she was upset because they were mocking Fitz, and that was definitely a huge part of it, but Jemma had a feeling it went deeper than that.

She was 15 minutes into her run when suddenly a memory appeared, as clear as if it had happened the previous day. She was about six or seven, standing in front of her aquarium, hands flapping excitedly as she watched the fish. Her mum entered, dropping off clean clothes for Jemma to put away. “Why do you do that?” Mum asked.

Jemma turned away from the fish, looking at her Mum in confusion.

“Move your hands like that,” Mum clarified, mimicking her flapping.

Jemma shrugged. “It feels nice.”

“Well, you shouldn’t do it. It makes you look stupid.” Mum mimicked her flapping again, making a silly face while doing so. Jemma laughed, but a strange feeling formed inside her, one she didn’t yet have the words to explain.

Jemma slowed the treadmill to a walk, now recognizing the feeling she’d felt as a child as shame. Unconsciously, her hands formed into fists and her thumbs rubbed her fingers as she squeezed. She glanced down at her hands and blinked in surprise as she suddenly realized why she stimmed like that. Oh, she thought. I started squeezing my hands as a replacement for flapping.

She got off the treadmill and went to the water fountain in almost a daze. After getting water, she left the gym, not really sure where she was going. She ended up outside of Fitz’s dorm, which didn’t really surprise her.

“Hi,” Fitz greeted her as he let her in. “Are you done processing?”

“My mum called me stupid,” she told him.

“Well, that wasn’t very kind of her,” he said.

Jemma sat down at his desk and he sat down on his bed. She told him about her memory, and her realization about why she squeezed her hands. “And it’s all because Mum told me I looked stupid once,” she finished. “How fucked up is that?”

“It’s not fucked up,” Fitz objected immediately. “Words-they have a way of cutting deep, and that stupid rhyme about sticks and stones and words never hurting is a huge fucking lie.” Fitz drummed his fingers on the bed. “I’ve told you that my dad wasn’t a good man,” he began, and Jemma nodded, “but what I left out was that he called me stupid too. And worthless. And idiot, and retarded. When mums and dads say those things, kids believe them.”

“You know it’s not true, right?” Jemma asked. “You’re not s-stupid or worthless, or anything else he said.”

“I know. Mum told me. And you know that flapping your hands doesn’t make you look stupid, either, right?”

Jemma bit her lip. “Yes?”

“Flapping your hands doesn’t make you look stupid,” Fitz repeated firmly. “It doesn’t.”

Jemma took a deep breath and nodded. “Okay.”

“Would you like a hug?” Fitz asked. Jemma nodded and stood up. Fitz stood as well and wrapped his arms around her, squeezing tight to give her the pressure she preferred. “I love you.” He felt Jemma tense in his arms. “You don’t have to say it back. Or feel it. Or anything. I just want you to know that I love you, and I’ll love you whether or not you flap your hands.”

Jemma rested her head on Fitz’s shoulder and took another deep breath. She felt safe being herself around Fitz. She knew he wouldn’t judge her, and she felt grateful that he told her that. “I love you too, Fitz,” she told him. She was pretty sure that she did. Figuring out feelings was confusing, but she definitely felt something for Fitz. She pulled away from the hug. “Still want to watch Doctor Who ?”

~*~*~*~

A few days later, Jemma and Fitz went to the zoo to see the baby gorillas. Fitz’s eyes were glued to the gorillas in the enclosure, but Jemma’s eyes were watching Fitz. She smiled as his hands flapped excitedly when the male gorilla stopped right in front of them and stared back at them through the glass.

“Jemma, look!” he whispered.

“He’s stunning.”

“That’s the babies’ dad. He’s the alpha.” Fitz continued talking, and Jemma smiled as she listened. Her hands fluttered by her side.