#this fic has become a monster

[sportspuckball]

cedar park all stars: snippet

“Leon wants us to move to Edmonton,” he said casually. 

“So that kind of statement is what we open conversations with, brother,” Taryn said after a beat. “We lead everything with ‘hi, the insanely talented and illegally hot man who thinks my daughter is the female incarnation of Sidney Crosby wants us to move to his frozen tundra’ because then I can say ‘oh, well obviously he wants you to do that so he can still be involved with you guys’ and then you can get all squirmy about him only wanting to focus on Addie.”

“Am I needed for this conversation?”

“It would probably be better for all of us if you let me take over,” Taryn admitted. “But for real, Matty - he said he wants you to move to Edmonton?” 

“Eh, ish,” Matthew said. “I said I wanted to move somewhere where we had a family because I can’t do the ‘completely alone’ parenting thing I did when we first got to Austin. And he said that he’d be there to help out, or that McDavid’s wife and the rest of the WAGs would be.” 

“Matty, that is absolutely emotionally constipated hockey player talk for ‘please move to Edmonton’.”

“He wants to work with Addie,” Matthew emphasized. “Which I get and approve of and love. Where you and Brady are getting the idea that he has any interest in me past some sort of coach/parent thing…you’re both nuts.”

“You are very bad at crushes, Matthew. Part of having one is having fun with the idea that it’s returned,” Taryn jokingly scolded. 

Matthew swallowed the tone he wanted to use. “It’s not fun for me, Tare.”

He heard her make a noise, so he repeated himself. “Taryn Tkachuck, it’s not fun. If we do move to Edmonton – which, if she can have access to the whole Oilers organization, I’d be basically neglectful if I moved her anywhere else – then he is all I have there until we get our feet under us. I cannot have fun little dreams, I have to focus on Addie. We all know what it took to get Brady to the NHL – I’m going to do the day-to-day of that by myself, Tare. The fun part of a crush you talk about…it’s just not…”

“Got it, Matty. You got it.” She was quiet for a few seconds and then continued. “Why don’t you head to bed. I’m out to watch the scrimmages next week. We can throw Addie at someone else’s house and get really drunk on Shiners and shoot pucks at the wall. Sound good?” 

He barked out a laugh. “It’s a date. Love you, Tare.” 

“Love you, too, Matty.”

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[if-music-be-the-food-of-love]

why oh why did i give this shadowhunters au so much plot? uggggggg

now i have to resolve it. 

[wickjump]

lvl20 cross is my no.1 enemy btw. if i see him there will be an unspecified lethal weapon in my paws and it will be pointed in his general location

[sillyfairygarden]

the first disciple

Summary:

Joel snorts. “I didn’t carry you out here to leave you to die, did I? You’re in no shape to go out there again, even if you are a stupid god.” He stands carefully, cursing at the noise his joints make. “So do me a favor: don’t die, mister Winter.” “It—It’s Etho,” the god says, feeling something settle in his chest that is not fear nor pain, not resignation nor the crushing cold of snow. “My name, it’s Etho.” Joel looks down at him, and now Etho can see the fire in his eyes, burning like a hearth instead of a man. “Alright then, Etho.” The knife catches the gold of the firepit, dancing with gold. “No dying, y’hear?”

[thevioletcaptain]

I know the ask is about ships but could you make a non ship one with Dean and Carlos from the Winchesters? I can't think of an exact thing for Dean to say, but the first sentence can be what Dean would say for their first meeting. Thank you if you can (*^‿^*)

"I like your hair," Dean says, staring up from where he's clinging to the bottom of Mary's winter coat, and Carlos grins wide when he adds, with all the breathless gravity of a four year old eager to impress their opinions upon a new friend; "It's swooshy and it's pretty like Mommy's hair, and your-- your beads are pretty and shiny and shiny is my favorite color."

"Swooshy and pretty and shiny is exactly what I was going for, so thank you, little buddy."

Even with almost six years between now and the last time he'd seen Mary, Carlos is relieved to find that they still have a good sense of one-another -- can still communicate silently, swiftly, like they used to when it was life or death. He meets her eye, and her face softens, and understanding passes between them before he slides one of his lucky beaded bracelets -- the bloodstone one -- free.

Dean's eyes light up when he takes it.

When he smiles, he looks just like his mother.

[for this askbox game if anyone else wants to send me a prompt]

[the-cookie-of-doom]

My entire day is just. Studying child development. And I don't like it (it's complicated) but it's making me really want to write a kid!fic?

Look, watching that one episode of Ingredients Did Something To Me, okay??

After some youthful indiscretions when he's a teenager, Kim get's a girl pregnant. Korn finds out and makes the problem go away. Kim might not find out at all, until years later, when the girl - now a woman - presents him with a toddler and tells him it's his. And Kim is shocked to hell, but if nothing else, he's loyal to his family, and holy shit this child is his family.

Or maybe Korn deals with the problem in a different way. He's not averse to raising bodyguards, Kim says as much himself. He could easily take care of the mother (either paying her off, attic-wifing her, or killing her), with the intention of raising his grandson to be the next heir after Kinn. He knows the chances of getting a child out of Kinn are slim to none. Now he won't have to worry about that. He has a grandchild that he can raise in his own image, in secret.

This is going to get long so I'm going to continue under a cut

However it happens, Kim eventually finds out, and like hell he's going to let anyone keep him from his child. It will take him a while to get used to the idea, to lean into fatherhood, but he's not going to let his own father raise his child to be a killer. Kim sees a chance to break his generational trauma and he takes it with both hands and runs.

Kim has no idea how to be a father. He didn't have a good role model. He know show he's raised, and he knows he won't be the same, so he just. Tries to do the opposite of whatever he went through as a kid. (He's probably the overly-permissive type, but that won't be a problem until later.)

Kim also doesn't have time to be a father. He's in his last year of university, he has a career to manage. Korn of course offers to help - with Kinn running the family now, he can play the part of doting grandpa, but Kim refuses. Hires a nanny (maybe the one that took care of him as a child, the only one he trusts with his own) to help him figure this all out.

The official story, as far as WiK goes, to protect his clean image, is that the toddler is his baby brother. WiK is seen as the sweet, doting older brother when they're seen in public together (which he tries to make sure isn't often, but he's not going to raise his kid in a box, fuck that). It melts the hearts of all his fans, and no one knows he was a teen parent, a terrible role model, someone to scorn.

At some point in their interactions, Kim lets it slip that he has two brothers, and Chay is confused. He knows about the toddler, but Kim mentioned two older brothers? So doesn't that mean he has three?

Eventually Kim introduces Chay to his kid, and Chay isn't stupid. He was raised by his own brother, he knows what that looks like, and it's not what he sees now. His suspicions are confirmed the first time Kim lets him into his apartment. He tries to hide all of the baby things, but Chay snoops a little bit. Finds a child's room behind a door that should have been locked. He confronts Kim, very gently, with the truth. He doesn't judge. He sad that Kim feels the need to hide, even from him, but he understands.

He also thinks the image of Kim with his son is so much cuter than the idea of him with a baby brother.

Kim lets himself be a little reckless, lets Chay spend more time with him and his son, and it hurts how easily Chay takes to him. Like they're a little family of their own. But it's not real.

The first time Kim lets - no, specifically asks - Chay to babysit, because he has no one else, his nanny is sick, and there's no one else he trusts with his son (which is a shock for both of them on it's own), leads to a dramatic shift in their relationship. Kim can't keep pretending this is just a friendship of convenience. He trusts Chay, maybe more than he should, but he can't deny it.

It's going to make the breakup so much harder, because his son is old enough to love Chay, to miss him, to ask where he is when he stops coming over, and Kim doesn't have a good enough answer. Is barely holding himself together, without the added pain of consoling his heartbroken child, crying for Chay to come home while Kim has to keep himself from doing the same.

TBH, the kid is probably how they reconcile. Next time SomethingTM happens and Kim doesn't have anyone to watch him, his first instinct is to call Chay. But he's not allowed to do that anymore. So he drops the boy off with Uncle Tankhun (and is barely able to make him leave that horrible house with his child inside, but Khun is fierce, he'll protect him) and at some point Chay comes to see Khun, and finds him playing with the kid who missed Chay so much, and he knows he should leave, but when he tries the kid cries until he throws up (it's gross, but it's also sweet, but it's also so, so heartbreaking) and Chay just. Can't. Kim might hate him for it, but he can't break that little baby's heart all over again.

After, both Tankhun and the kid demand regular visits. (Khun knows exactly what he's doing. Yeah he loves his nephew, the kid is in that excited dress-up stage and lets Khun treat him like a little doll, but he also thinks Kim is an idiot and needs to start talking to Chay again, and if this is what happens, then so be it).

Little kiddo excited tells Chay about anything and everything, and then does the same to Kim, telling him about his day, all the fun things he did with Uncle Khun and Uncle Chay, and. It hurts. Kim was not at all prepared for how much it hurts.

It continues this way for a while, with the kid an unintentional carrier pigeon between Kim and Chay, sharing aspects of their lives to each other. They never cross paths because Chay always makes sure he's not there when Kim drops him off or picks him up.

Until one day he is. Kim was late (his latest mission was particularly bloody, he had to take extra time to get himself cleaned up and put back together, he won't let his son be exposed to this part of his life) and his son is inconsolable. Chay is trying his best. Just got him to sleep in his lap when Kim finally drags himself, looking fierce until his eyes fall on his son in the arms of the man he loves, and he softens, and Chay sees it, and. They really need to talk.

But kiddo is still sleeping, and Kim doesn't want to wake him up just yet, so he just. Sits down. Looking at him because he can't look at Chay, and Chay tells him how worried kiddo was (doesn't say how worried he was, too), and how he's been fussy all night. Kim lets it slip how much kiddo missed Chay/looks forward to seeing him now (doesn't say how much he missed Chay, and always hopes for a glimpse of him, always disappointed when he isn't there)

They have a lot to work through, but it's impossible to fight with the kiddo sleeping in Chay's lap, so they're forced to be adults about it. Talking quietly, with Kim admitting to things he never thought he'd be able to say out loud. Does say how much he missed Chay, and how he never should have left Chay alone, and how he never should have let Chay think he never loved him, because he did, so much he saw a future with Chay that scared him, and he ran, because he couldn't bear it if Chay left him first, better to break his own heart

Chay forgives him. They don't get together immediately because forgiveness isn't the same as acceptance, and they still have things they need to work through. But he stops avoiding Kim, and sometimes Kim calls him instead of Khun when he needs an impromptu baby sitter, and slowly, that little family that Kim never let himself dream about starts to take form in front of his eyes, and he wonders how he could have ever let himself run away from this.

[kindlingkeen]

Hi keen! Perused through some of your recs so wanted to give something back if you're cool with that! To My Brother by a_silly_gander on ao3 is a beautiful lost days-era fic about Jason missing Dick; hit me as hard as you can by stupidandsad for Jason Todd a la fight club; and the long (long) series Alley Business by thetiniestteapot that features a Jason Todd rooted in Gotham community and resolute in his ideals! They might not all be to your taste, but I hope you like at least one of these :)

Nope, not acceptable, take your fic recs and go. LOL, of course it’s cool. I’m like the Cookie Monster of fic recs, nom nom nom.

I’m a huge fan of Alley Business. Very intense, very good. I actually owe this author a debt of gratitude. The way the stories in Alley Business are organized thematically and overlapping in time gave me all kinds of ideas on how to organize my own series, Asymmetrical Warfare. I also really like the author’s newer series, nostros.

I don’t think I’ve read either To My Brother (I’m salivating over this one, I live for Lost Days fics and I love Jay and Dick as brothers) or hit me as hard as you can; I will check them out!

In return, have my two of my favorite time travel fics:

through death and time and through space and time, both by sparkycap. They’re companion pieces; I’d suggest reading through death and time first. Oh, and maybe have a tissue ready. 🥲

Thanks so much for the ask and the recs, anon!! 💙

[pepperpixel]

Some art of Tori from @misfitmccoward ‘s Naruto fic Plasticity! Because!! It’s such a good fucking fic…! I had to do fanart for it!! honestly after I first read it I was so fucking hype about it that I was almost like “omg.. I have to do an animatic or something for this. it’s SO GOOD” but. My ability to do animatics has kinda flushed down the drain recently ghghg- But! Still!! I had to at least draw some fanart for it…!

[psychoticwillgraham]

it's a gloomy, rainy, storming evening which means it's the perfect time to work on the repo the genetic opera hannigram au

[applepies-and-starlight]

A couple of Ishmael centric fic bits before i pass out because it's 3am rn

[blubyub]

I swear to god when i finish psychonauts 1 i WILL be writing somehting about it. It may not be good but it will be something

[elysianymph]

seeing slideshows about mothers and trying not to correlate them to walburga and sirius/regulus is literally impossible

[waywardsalt]

linebeck is probably so god damn paranoid all of the time

[undefeatablesin]

Rly is a crying shame that the Foreign Garb you start with is (understandably) not the best stat-wise because I have grown obsessed with the image of Good Hunter Aloysha being dandy as sin while bullying her enemies ✨️

[jamiesfootball]

I wrote about 2500 words tonight, half for the post-season thing and half for the sleepy jamie Pavlov thing

Only problem is I hate everything I wrote today.

But at least I wrote something and there will be a better tomorrow where I can look at it with fresh eyes and go, ‘Oh, there’s the problem. Now let’s take a crack at it.’

[fakeasmr]

Sans vs. Mayoi, who wins?

In a fight? I think the skeleton with magic powers has this in the bag