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Emma do you think Scax is kind of like “I feel sorry for you” - Scotty / “I don’t think about you at all” - Max OR do you think Max is a little insecure about the Scaniel of it all OR a combination OR a secret 4th option?
i think like much of the max daniel (scotty) journey we ebb and we flow. sometimes we're in choppy waters and sometimes we're smooth sailing in the mediterranean
scotty 'i call him verstappen not max' james is the insecure one imo. can't look max in the eye, can't think about him for more than 10 seconds, can't call him by his first name even though daniel has accidentally moaned it a couple of times in bed. all a macho way of making max 'i dont think about you at all' feel inferior. but max doesn't. one of the coooreeee character traits of max is his unashamed confidence but also his unabashed support and love for daniel. max will stand on australian news and say daniel. i want to go on a date on your farm and ride bikes together and then nurse you back to health for 4 race weekends. but then there are moments where max kinda goes huh? why are u sleeping on his floor daniel. did he not offer u a bed? where max kinda goes well daniel must like him a lot if he will sleep on the floor for him. but then he gets his back up and is like but daniel must have his favourite pillow and his true crime podcast and enough blankets to keep him warm? max i dont think is ever jealous or insecure? i just he knows that he can do and be better for daniel than scotty ever could be. he's just gotta open up daniel 'woah just as friends though' ricciardo a lil bit more.
also. we must always remember. daniel has never attended a scotty james competition. but he has said 'if it can't be me, i'm glad its max'. that's the thesis.
(also we could argue that daniel has attended 0 of scotty's competitions but a hell of a lot of max's. but some will say that's just circumstances and not choice)
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Do you see my vision
#my dc posting#my art#dc#jason todd#red hood#transfem jason todd#transwoman jason todd#trans fem jason todd#trans woman jason todd#its always so weird when uve made a character trans. and then u gotta use their canon name for tagging#i feel like im deadnaming her even tho i havent come up w a name yet#the lazarus pit gives spontaneous transition. even if u havent realized ur trans yet#i feel like itd be hard to become a respected n feared n succesful crime lord if she presented as female. because of the 'sogony.#so she can have a lil perry the platypus style shit goin on w a voice modifier in the helmet#also coming back as a woman would make batman less likely to connect her w his dead 'son'. so.#idk. i dont actually have a fully formed au or timeline in mind i just find it easier to draw women#its more of a psychological thing where if im in the headspace of 'this is a woman' it becomes just easier to draw the body#🤷 it is how it is ig#censored bc tumblr's a bitch n really it doesnt matter#i had a post w like 1 note that was literally just 'i dont think [insert name] is a good name for a transfem version of [insert character]'#and it got labelled Mature by tumblr so i figured might as well not even try n be Modest and shit w the way tumblr's fuckin it up rn#anyway shoutout to Daughter of Dragons by thispatternismine for the inspiration#...how does all that hair fit comfortably inside the helmet?#ah. hmm. well that is. it sure is a question! that i will not be answering.#jason todd fanart#dc fanart
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since more of like the class swap etc started going up every once in a while there will be a question in my inbox that would take me literally multiple comics' worth of art to answer adequately lol. and I don't wanna do that under an ask I want that to have its own space! so if I don't answer ur question know that it's probably that^ above there and not that I think ur question sucks
#not art#I know I got a weird way of going about this stuff but that's me babeyy and it's my house <3#example of this that already happened on the blog is when someone asked abt pretty much just All of class swap baron#and I was like. well I'm gonna like draw that and make comics and stuff lol#I don't think I can draw like a hard line around what I'll reserve for writing about and what I'll answer in an ask etc#bc like I'm cool with talking abt the general concept and arcs I have in mind for the bad kids/player characters#and abt like the process of figuring it out and bouncing ideas off of folks#but there's a point above that where if u get to it's just. I might as well send u a lore bible or recreate the whole show for u ykwim#so yeah this is just to let u know that Im not like spiting u personally if ur question doesnt get answered#(would be a weird thing for me to do regardless tbh!)#honestly pat urself on the back lol u've hit a jackpot on subjects I Want to get to in the form of art and/or writing#I'm not an idea guy! I'm a guy who makes comics and stuff. that's how I'm approaching this (and everything else really) u get me#cool! cool. I sleep now hopefully. have a good night lads
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I have a question. You have really good art and I love it a lot, but why do you settle for drawing ocs when it doesn’t get you a lot of notes? Drawing things like the ROTTMNT turtles or the stuff people actually want to see would get you the attention you actually deserve. Why do you settle for less? (I hope this doesn’t come across as rude, I’m just genuinely curious)
its called being a ✨self indulgent artist✨
aka i dont rlly care abt notes or attention. i draw what i like (my ocs) and if it gets notes then hey!! it gets notes. art is primarily something for the artist to enjoy, so its up to the artist to draw whatever they feel they enjoy to draw. im flattered you like my art butttttt eh. im not really here for fame. just for fun 😋
#sorry if this doesnt answer ur question i kinda just woke up#m not the most coherent rn hhhgh#purple.txt [👾]
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If you could have any Asmo/reader fic what would be the things you would want from it? like an ideal fic would contain what tropes or AUS or situations or whatever
uhmm anything wellwritten that characterizes asmo similar to the way i do ! i rlly like character exploration , both more serious stuff & just sillycute...anything where asmo is a little cunning and toxic and also gets railed into oblivion.anything where hes a vampire. ill write a tag essay about the specifics
#xreaders are too unrelatable for me usually .. im aroace and the only relationship dynamics that r rlly interesting to me r likee#toxic or tumultuous...i think in many asmo fics hes just very one note or like not a complex love interest .which is fine because hes like#that in the game but i am especially drawn to fics where the author has their own kind of unique take on it. nuance. etc#it's really interesting to see situations in which asmo kind of reaps the consequences of shitty behavior or struggles with parts of himsel#f he doesnt like. not just in like ohhh im insecure sobsob but like deeprooted issues & patterns thought processes that come with being a d#demon that maybe clash with human morality or ideals...like what if he sees human lives as generally more disposable because hes lived for#so long?? what would a fic be like about him wanting a fling with a human that ends up taking apart their life but to him its just a fun#little romance without any real consequences or commitment?? even if he was obsessed w them professing his undying love etc etc he could ge#t bored and drop it anytime and outlive them by millions of years and forget...& how does a human love an entity like that? how could the r#relationship look anything close to normal ever...anyway i like fics that touch on questions like this theyre kind of rare though#this all being said i def dont think asmo is completely evil💭 nuance#at work so im literally just wasting time by thinking about this rn but this was like the asmotoni dynamic its too interesting to me#asmotoni is like this in my head but on papwr i just draw them fucking witj bunny ears sorry#this doesnt even answer ur question really. if i could write a fic rn it would be like 200k word emo band au that isnt xreader or a romance#fic it would just be asmo beel belphie as humans starting a band and their rise and fall etc ive been thinking abt that plot nonstop
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Why do people not reblog art? Like, genuine question, I don't understand. It's just as easy as pressing like and way more helpful to artists. If you like art enough to like it but not enough to reblog tbh just don't interact at all. I reblog every piece of art I see and like which is why my blog is filled to the brim constantly and I'm posting multiple times a day its like 90% art. If you don't like my art enough to reblog it that's fine but just don't even bother with my page fr
#art#artist#artwork#artist on tumblr#digital artist#im probably so alone in this opinion but idc#and if u can actually answer the question if ur someone who doesnt reblog please do#cause i genuinely dont get it#is it just like laziness or what?#cause it takes two buttons to reblog i do that shit in like half a second#ugh.#i just get so annoyed when i see people liking my art but not reblogging it cause like#thanks for saying you thought it was ok? i guess?#if you like it then you can tell me you like it by reblogging it#and that will mean significantly more because it means way more people have the chance to see it#i really dont get it
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Hello, I was just wondering if you could share more about the kind of training and preparation you did with your girls at home/on shorter walks to get them ready for long hikes. And out of curiosity, what were the traits you looked for in potential breeds/puppies to suit long hikes? 💜
Oof, I wish I had a good and technical system to present here, but the truth is that we live in a rural part of Norway where nothing is flat unless it was dug out and the asphalt cracks so fast the main roads count as mild terrain, so a lot of it just comes with the territory.
From early on I've pretty much just tried to let them learn and grow as naturally as possible and to not limit them too much, and all of our puppies have been active and come on short hikes since they were ~3 months old. Not like heavy, static, structured activity - but little off-trail mountain or forest treks focused on play and exploration. Shaping the dog I want from the start, basically.
Our activity levels fluctuate with the season and weather, so we only do really long hikes in the summer and early autumn. But it's not unusual to spend 3-4hrs going mostly uphill on a regular walk, so doubling that for a hike isn't that big of an ask as long as they're healthy and in good base condition. And once hiking season starts rolling around in June after eight months of snow/sleet/rain, I'm usually in worse shape than my dogs anyway lol. I know my dogs well and we start the season with a few warmup hikes, to see where we're all at.
As far as breeds go, idk. I just tend to like a relatively neutral, balanced build. I'm not personally into very large or heavy dogs. I appreciate a little athleticism. I want less prey drive and more handler orientation. The ideal dog for me is one that maybe doesn't Have To, but Can and Wants To. Over the years I've also learned that I like a little moderation in body and angulation, and I prefer a slightly careful dog over an overconfident one.
#i hope this ramble answers maybe one of your questions#the overconfidence esp is a thing for me#i understand that a lot of ppl want a dog that throws itself into anything no questions asked - but not in an uncontrolled environment#and melis is adding another factor to that now where#shes SO sure of herself and confident she really feels NO urge to check in w us at all. getting none of that for free w this one#i take a lot of pride in my dogs being in good condition so thats also a thing that ties into this - i try to keep them lean and muscled#one time a friend picked up Sparta and went: :O Holy Shit! and ive been chasing that high ever since#and finally#for me hiking isnt so much about Going Places its just#being. existing. vibing.#being near and with ur dog. having fun with them and being kind to them and getting to know ourselves and each other#not in relation to other people or places just as is/are/am.#it doesnt really matter if we reach a summit or whatever. as long as we come back in the same pieces as we left in it was successful
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What is the thing you disagree with in most fanon portrayals of Neil?
i used to think it was because neil was shoehorned into 'feminine' roles (whatever i thought that may be, looking back) and ultimately changed as a character to fit whatever the narrative required of him, but now that i am older and (?!) wiser i do believe my original feelings towards the ever mythicized ooc feminine neil were born from a place of rejection for gender non-conforming people, and an overall aversion to the idea of femininity (arguably one of the most important aspects of who i am, true then and true now) being tied in any way with sexual expression and preference.
i will say this. i think the knee-jerk rejection of saying 'not all gay men are feminine bottoms!' to content where one of them is, in fact, a feminine bottom, is not unlike lesbians in my own community who protest to the idea that all lesbians are man-hating hairy dykes (and try not to swoon just at the mention!). we reject gender non-confomity; we don't want it to represent our communities. we want to be one of the good ones. i'm a lesbian, but i'm not like those masculine dykes. i'm a gay man, but i'm nothing like those hyperfem sissies. fandom had come to a point where we genuinely thought conformist gender expressions were somehow lacking representation; we sincerely believed the idea that a couple made up of two masculine, gender-conforming men were somehow closer to the real deal than a couple where one of them was either feminine-presenting or had traits that can be associated with femininity.
i lived with this idea for a long time, until i started frequenting queer spaces in my area and realized that actually, in the material world, where i live, where you live, effeminate gay men do not have it easier than their masculine counterparts. the idea that they can be 'over-represented in media' is null. my feminine male friends don't allow themselves to be seen out on the street in so much as a crop top. one of the most common dealbreakers in dating apps for gay and bisexual men is gender non-conformity. a lot of arguments against feminine men who prefer to bottom in media is that 'no gay people are like this', but that is just patently untrue; my best friend in the whole world is a feminine-presenting gay man with a strict preference for being in the bottom. a girl i bought a beer for was a stone top, hyper-masculine, touch-me-not butch. for queer people, gender presentation and sexual activity cannot always be cleanly separated.
i guess (and sorry for how long this is clearly i have Thoughts) my ultimate point here is that i let my own personal disagreement with how neil is portrayed to convince me that there is something wrong with him (and, at large, any male character) being portrayed as someone who is feminine, or has strong sexual preferences, or has personality traits traditionally associated to femininity. i think that is never, ever, ever a solution for anything. there is never going to be a time where we would be right to shun and scoff at content written about gender non-conforming characters, even if they are not canonically gnc. do i still think neil is written in ways that go directly against how his personality is portrayed in canon? yes, but that is a personal opinion, and not something i should try and rationalize in social justice terms, if you get my point. i can just not like it. and i don't. no hard feelings involved :)
#asks#sorry i realized i didnt actually answer much of ur question re: neil but its because i truly think#i would be a massive hypocrite if i sat here and told you i think people are wrong for writing neil in ways similar to how i write and thin#about kevin#of course i think sometimes stuff is ooc and bad and their personalities are altered drastically to fit within#what the writer considers to be feminine#but ultimately that is just annoying. it doesnt hurt anyone and it certainly is not any worse#than fics where they are hypermasculine sadist doms#does that make sense? i can just not like it. but i am in no position to say it shouldnt exist#yes its bad. but bad things still have the right to exist. such is life#neil
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Have you tried screaming back at him?
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#ask.jpg#anon#to answer your question all the time. he doesnt care anymore. hes a lil meow machine#kyle the cat#hes screaming at me Right Now actually lol#i do need yall to sit with me and imagine this the Whole Ass Night ur tryna sleep.....thats what im dealing with
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zee!!! thoughts on hope?
i always think about pandora's box (or pithos, if you want to be a nerd), how hope was in there with all the other terrible things... famine, war, death, fear... a woman's curiosity birthing all these horrible curses to plague mankind forever... which is so unfair knowing that pandora was created with the sole intent of doing this; it was her fate to release these evil things. cursed with curiosity, the same thing that killed the cat, or whatever.
isn't it strange? that the gods placed hope in that same terrible box, because the gods weren't kind. they didn't place hope in there because they cared about humanity. sometimes hope could be as ugly as the other curses in that box. it's a soothing balm but only temporary; a bandaid on a stab wound. it hurts so much sometimes.
then again, where would we be without it? what can we do, sometimes, when there's only hope? but relying on hope to stand on its two legs alone is rarely the answer... often, miracles need to happen to carry hope to the end.
but hope can also be kindness and love. i see hope in children; it's offering prayers to anyone that can listen to please please please let these children soar, let them rise up but not as icarus did. please allow them a seat at the table, to take a bite of the fruit. let them have full bellies and dreams of creation. hope is in children saying "i have no need for hope for i have what i want." suffer as we might now, but hope needs to prevail so that these horrors are not inherited.
that's why i can't condemn hope. not yet, for when there's still need for it.
#hi idk if this makes sense#to the anon who sent this lol this question is hard to answer for someone who doesnt have a brain (me)#im a stem major this aint my thing HASKDJKAS but i tried to explain what i think#but with how the world is now... its safe to say that hope is a resource we cant afford to lose. not now#anyway goodnight lads i hope ur all doing well (haha hope get it)#Anonymous#answered
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guy that likes being independent when he has to do stuff alone
#scary#well only fcertain things.. i DO like being independent with a lot of stuff#but. this is about seeing my dads family again#bc my mom and sister both will never go to any of the get togethers or talk to them at all and havent in years#and i dont want to just?? lose contact with them all forever but i also get nervous about it like about seeing them but gaaahh#plus in addition to questions about my life they always ask me about my mom and sister and i have to answer for them too since they wont#ever see them#Like how did i become the family diplomat i am literally the worst with social skills in my immediate family and the youngest Come on#im the baby come on.#but its been like this for years now and not gotten any easier I DO LOVE my extended family thats why i still do this but#its aaalwwaayysss such a nervewracking thing bc i feel SOO AWKWARD and i dont know how to talk to people#and im more nervous than ever bc of the school thing. Much harder to seem like u have ur life together once ur 18 and 'should' be doing#certain things or having certain plans#or should have accomplished certain things#by now.. ie graduating#i just really hope my grandpa doesnt show up or if he does that he doesnt ask about school stuff#GODDDDDDDDDDDD#sorry im just so abysmally bad at being or feeling normal in social situations
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Fam like this has zero hate in it but how is gender affirming surgery any different from the ones you hate? It's literally purging the parts of your body that you or society can't accept and it's kind of just as devastating and sad. I agree with you that people should do whatever they want with their body but also like it's kind of awful to see someone suffer so much that they have to go to surgical solutions.
This is why it's so interesting to me!! And this post is super rambly with no clear answer because I'm me and I'm learning all the time!!!!!!
Your opinion is yours, but it is super interesting that upon the topic of surgery, your mind goes to 'purging the parts you hate'. Gender affirming surgeries aren't always 'cosmetic', aren't always found through suffering. Who am I to draw lines and cast aspersions? To me, it feels like as much of a grey area as most debates are, especially as I try to stay aware of my own inherent biases vs my personal issues with gender and appearance.
For example, breast surgeries. Done to combat cancer. Reductions because of back pain. Reductions for convenience. Implants for gender affirmation (for trans and cis ppl). Implants because of previous medical reductions. Or literally any number of reasons.
At what level is it 'okay' to get something done, if in my opinion, there is a level of 'not okay' at all? 'Okay' being a loose term as it is, because I certainly don't mean morally, but as a point of, say, condemning societal pressures on people. It would be presumptuous of me to ever look at something someone does for themself and say, "well that's not okay."
Is convenience a medical reasons or a cosmetic reason? Or is it neither. Is it that there is not enough clothing and aid out there for someone who is inconvenienced by large breast size? Is it that there isn't any clothing that fits cutely, that t-shirts stretch, that lingerie doesn't come in that size? Or is it inconvenient enough that it either causes their back to ache if they're too active for too long or with chronic pain that doesn't ease at all?
What about those who get surgery on their tubes or uterus, not for 'medical' reasons, but for comfort? For taking control back? For (here it is again) convenience? For gender transitioning? How could I ever hate a surgery like that?
Meanwhile, in my personal view, seeing someone get a nose job for purely cosmetic reasons is sad to me. Why did they feel they have to do that? What sort of pressure have they face throughout their life to take them to that point? But what right do I have to judge? None, other than that I am a part of the same society that made them feel their nose was not acceptable. I do not have a broad, hooked, high bridged, or flat bridged nose, so what standing do I have to judge at all?
What about someone who loves plastic surgery as they love art? For whom body modification is a joy, or as I said before, is about control. Should I be pitying them? I don't, right up until they change something I personally view as 'sad' to change. Isn't that strange? Where did I find this moral high ground from which to look down and feel pity? What arbitrary measure have I developed for what parts of the body are 'sad' to alter?
I wouldn't go up to a stranger in public and say, "I'm so sorry you got your nose done." So why do I feel comfortable pitying the actress who had a face lift? (Rhetorical, I know the objectification of celebrities is a core reason here, but it serves my point).
It goes further. At what point is a surgery 'just' a body mod? Someone getting an ear piercing to combat headaches or allergies. Someone getting their ears or genitalia taken off so they just have a hole. Someone gets bottom surgery. Someone getting their earlobe pierced. Someone getting their eyebrows tattooed because theirs don't naturally suit their gender expression 'right'. Someone getting the name of a loved one on their arm. Someone getting laser hair removal. Someone getting their eyeball tattooed. Getting their incisors capped to points. Veneers. Tongue splits. Acrylic nails. My view is already biased by a Eurocentric upbringing and the conservative nature of my town, so.
With my own biases, I do feel a hate for buccal fat removal. I do feel a hate for cosmetic nose jobs. I do feel a hate for brow lifts. I do feel a hate for hair transplants. I won't deny that. You're right, I do feel shitty that gender is so ingrained in appearance and the value therein that trans ppl can feel so devastatingly unhappy about their own bodies. At the same time, I don't feel someone getting top or bottom surgery is 'wrong' in doing so, and I do not pity them.
Oh not to even bring up teeth. This debate starts all over again at teeth. Cosmetic, comfort, medical.
My original post and my continued thoughts are never a condemnation of the individual undergoing a surgery, only on the pressures of industry and society. It's my frustrations with sexism, racism, transphobia, and fatphobia.
Gender affirming surgeries happen all the time for cis people, including very invasive ones, and I just want to be extra aware of the hypocrisy and more intense scrutiny towards trans people getting similar surgeries, you know? Especially as someone who experiences dysmorphia but not gender dysphoria.
It just comes down to all these questions, and then further still down to personal philosophy. As is the case for most of my personal philosophies, I find it hard to make blanket statements set in stone, because there's always context. There's always further understanding to be gained, if not in my own, then in hearing of how others understand.
What right do I have to feel sad? To hate?
Where is the defining line between cosmetic, comfort, and medical, if there is one?
#tw body image#tw body modification#lmk if anything else needs to be tagged!!!#im always down to be taught more btw this is so so not something im set in stone on. as you can probably tell from my rambling#all questions zero answers#NOT TO MENTION THAT I SEE LEFT WING PEOPLE MOCK APPEARANCES ALL THE TIME#OH HES AGED TERRIBLY BECAUSE HE DOESNT STAY IN HIS LANE#OH HER EVIL WHITE PERSON LIPS#OH HER BOYFRIEND LOOKS LIKE A THUMB#SHUT!!!!! UP!!!!!! ur right some people deserve to be fucking bullied but bro u kmow when you go after appearances ur also hurting#unrelated people trynna live their lives but seeing how you and everyone else shits on someone with similar characteristics#i do it too i know i am trying to get better. just. jffjgidjjfkdkdjgjkfkrrjkdjf many thoughts on this subject#long post#enough that i should tag it i think
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just looked at the splatoon tag since the fest and. ok I'm new to the franchise (like. this year new). are yall usually this rabid over stuff 😭
#splatoon#splatoon 3#genuine question bc ive never seen a fandom this full on out of their minds over a video game fake competition#also.... i promise it doesnt matter what folks choose their team by#fav idol. actual answer. fav ink color. whoever ur friends choosing#all r equally valid and fun :)#also winning gets u literally nothing anyways afaik? lmk if im wrong abt that#obviously you can be frustrated over a team not winning but taking it out on other people enjoying the game is genuine weird behavior?
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God they're really not fuckin joking abt the way teachers email like I sent a whole professional paragraph introducing myself and explaining the situation and listing out potential availability and the response was 'Come by 2:00PM on Monday…' and that was it. Not a hello, no explanation for how to find him (which I asked), and wtf is with the ellipsis this seems incredibly foreboding
#text#like alright i get it. it honestly doesnt matter i prefer straightforward messages myself#but i've had email etiquette beat into my head for 10 yrs. u even have to do a class on being professional w ur college teachers#and they write me like theyre fucking texting and have consistently ignored at least one question in every fucking email#none of them fucking answer the phone. and if u show up in person u have to wait at least an hour or theyre not there#like email is the one way to fully communicate and receive a response at any time. and they always half-ass it i hate this school
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can't stress enough that you guys don't have to answer every single ask you get. in fact you can just delete them. especially if they are causing you psychic damage.
#x#re: last reblog and that one post that critiques the idea of not responding to anon hate#if someone is trying to bait you in your asks then delete it you are not obligated to answer every stranger's questions#especially if they're extremely fucking probing questions#and if u get hate its better to just let that shit go by deleting it#i cant think of a single person who has benefited in any way from responding to hate.#it doesnt make you look bad like that one post implies but it definitely exacerbates your own negative reaction to it#at random sometimes ill get a guy sending me a bunch of hate at once and guess what. nobody ever knows bc i delete it#and as a result i dont remember what the guy even said in the first place. out of sight out of mind#but back to the baiting shit - ppl bait me sometimes too and its so easy to just delete an ask taking ur comments in bad faith#very few ppl will continue to take ur shit in bad faith so if u just delete the annoying anons then it doesnt become a bigger issue
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#Jesus. just finished my interview. no idea how it went#i think it was much too rambling on my part and they asked almost exclusively sciency questions#ugh hopefully i didn't look like a completle moron. the guy was sorta inscrutable so no idea what he thought#and he was like hmm whats ur competition here? and i dont give a fuck abt competition and also it doesnt really matter#fuck. i should have said. it would b fine if they were doing the exact same project bc we would b evolving different strains and it would b#interesting if they evolved even the exact same traits. fuck#i think objectively i probably looked like someone who halfway knows what theyre doing without the specific knowledge#which is exactly true. like mother fuckers ive got a full time job to be overworked in. i dont have time to memorize details of every#pathway change in every desert cyano#uuuuugh its just annoying bc my brain doesnt work well in the moment. i need time to process and knit together an answer#so i wouldnt b surprised if i was ranked low. oh god i was told the interview was prob a formality unless it goes terribly#itll b real embarrassing if i dont get passed this stage now#whatever it was a bit chaotic on their end too bc one guy didnt show up until halfway thru so i kinda had to go back and say things twice#uuuuuuuuuuggh. well that kinda sucked. at least its done. out of my hands now.#i was getting too excited abt it anyway. this will reaffirm my: obviously im not gonna get it vibes#i mean thats what i get for trying to join a very competitive program. like i am not a competitive person#rip to my lab mate who im gonna whine at all day abt this. i have to meet him in less than an hour#welp. there r other schools. god i hope at least one of them accepts me#ugh i just think its kinda annoying they they want u to be perfectly qualified for things lol. like i would need someone to step thru the#lab process with me literally once or twice and then id be good to go#like maybe a couple hours of someones time to remind me. thats it. humans r adaptable#i can obviously carry out a project to its conclusion and i have a lot of passion. not that they asked. but yeah#oh well. i should have breakfast before i freeze in the desert all day#unrelated
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