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#this close to losing it#my mom today was like 'you're too quiet. you dont talk enough. where are your friends? no friends huh. you're too skinny.#'wait you're actually putting on weight. you need to stop eating cake for a bit'#and then if you get upset she's like 'you're too sensitive. i have to walk on eggshells around you'
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i love how we (about 50-100 oil executives) sacrificed fall and winter and general global weather stability/security so we (about 50-100 oil executives) could have a bigger number and another yacht
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Oke I tried holding it in but I actually never done that so here I go venting on this hell site
I am participating in a uni program despite being in school. I like it and I'd like to stay in it but I failed the first of 3 exams. I can retake and I will, but in a few days I have another one to which I have Barely Studied TM.
Point is, my parents are supportive of me studying, but they see it as "She needs to pull a whole 24/7 study session" and make sour faces if I come out of my room not during meal time.
I have ruined my attention span and I have a hard time studying. I have always been addicted to YouTube and I'm trying to solve it.
Basically, today I was yelled at because my Dad came into my room (while I wasn't in it) without permission, saw a laptop with YouTube on my bed and started screaming, threatening to throw away the laptop he got me for said program, and hit my hand when I closed the door.
I am locked in my room (by choice), since both my parents are against me at this point, and we have a guest over. Me defending myself, saying I have done a part of my work and watching a 10 min video without any visuals is "throwing a tantrum in front of a guest", but my father screaming and yelling and calling me names and threatening to break my door down is okay.
The sad part (for me) is, I am currently doing the rest of the work. I don't want it to seem like the yelling worked on me, because I'm scared they will pick up on it. I really do want to succeed, but man, I wanna rest as well.
I hate yelling so I break in tears very fast , which leads me to "lose". I am this close to either saying fuck it and dropping out of the program and changing classes to the ones they (mainly Dad) don't support, starting cussing him out because words don't work on him, or reminding them that they already have a dead child who committed suicide at 15, asking do they want another suicide at 17.
Man I really hate this. I love studying, but I have my pace plus YouTube is way more enjoyable. Everything that isn't "I have acquired 3 degrees in 2 years and have the average of 15 seconds of weekly YouTube" isn't on the list for them.
They aren't abusive, but I wish they would consider my feelings more and understand that not only I am not a fucking machine, but also that I have a lot of distractions half of which are their fault.
#vent post#vent#venting#parents#adhd problems#problematic parents#russian parents#problems with dad#dad#study#productivity#teenage#teenagers#this close to losing it#shut in
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i wanted to show them the stars.
#fanart#draws#gravity falls#bill cipher#the book of bill#thisisnotawebsitedotcom#gfalls#illustration#digital art#watercolor#me: oh man art fight is over i'm probably going to lose my art motivation now :/#the triangle bastard bursting into my room at mach speed:#also translation for the ciphers in the bg are as follows:#repeating ones that fade out are just ''why did you do it'' over and over to ref the video of him w scalene and euclid on the website#and the verse next to him reads ''oh little billy / what have you done / mama's little boy / you've flown too close / to the sun''#can you tell i feel insane about the new lore
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ardbert in ultima thule
#ardbert#ardbert hylfyst#ffxiv#final fantasy xiv#endwalker#endwalker spoilers#losing my mind over close in the distance being ardbert pov#ff14#final fantasy 14
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the thing about many comics is that they will list female characters at the VERY edge of underweight for their height (or just straight up underweight) and then list male characters at the edge or well into overweight for their height and blame both on “muscle.”
Dick Grayson at 5 ft 10 and 175 lbs (general canon average) is overweight by BMI. Cassandra Cain at 5’5 and 110 lbs is underweight by BMI. and I’ve seen female characters as tall as 5’9 getting down to 110-115 lbs in canon estimates.
carrying extra muscle rarely means carrying less weight overall. Dick Grayson might be a BMI outlier for having more muscle than the average human (making his slightly overweight BMI arguably healthy) but being underweight and carrying a higher proportion of muscle than the average human rarely benefits women.
time to get real, DC. I want my 5’5+ women ripped and somewhere between 130-150. If they’re carrying more muscle, it just makes sense. if it’s for “agility” then why is Dick Grayson allowed to be overweight by BMI?
#personally I weightlift and run and do yoga and pull ups#I could get down to maybeeee 125 before I really could not maintain a lot of that#it’s just not healthy for women to be too close to underweight AND be vigorously active like that#110 at 5’5 and up is ridiculous#you lose your period#tw weight loss#tw weight discussion#tw bmi#bruce wayne#batman#dc#batfamily#cassandra cain#nightwing#dick grayson#dc comics#mini rant#sorry it just bugs me
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Okay so I know that people were talking about how Caitlyn looks weirdly similar to Jinx and Vi’s mom and people were joking abou Vi might have mommy issues for getting with a woman that looks like her mom.
Speaking of mommy issues (and banging someone that looks like your mom) I have discovered something quite interesting…
WHY DO VIKTOR AND XIMENA HAVE THE SAME PROFILE???
#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2 spoilers#caitlyn kiramman#vi arcane#felicia arcane#viktor arcane#jayce talis#ximena talis#caitvi#javik#I’m losing my shit bro#they don’t look the exact same but it’s close enough
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Look what we've become.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)
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thinking again about how much trust he had to have in Laios to recommend his own daughter in case he dies
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#chilaios#WHATEVRR#like#We see from his little nightmare snippet that his greatest fear is losing his kids#And we also know how much trauma he has around the dungeons and specifically other adventurers#How he basically lives in fight or flight mode and is constantly thinking of the worst case scenario#How unwilling he is to trust anyone or show vulnerability to anyone#And he recommended his daughter to Laios#Bc even though his years of knowing Laios means he sees him as reckless and oaf-like and maybe insane#His years of knowing Laios also mean he knows hes a good person who he can trust#And who he (secretly) genuinely cares about and sees as a close friend#So much so that he’d trust him with the lives of his kids#Though simultaneously i dont think he’d ever allow him to hold a baby
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Venom 3 spoilers:
I don't know why everyone seems so upset, did no one wait to see the end credits?
also note how in the first movie Venom says "goodbye Eddie" before inexplicably surviving the rocket explosion and in this one he says "goodbye for now"
he will come back to him like he did the first time. and I have a feeling Eddie knows that deep down too, that's why he's not too broken over it
and they can move back to their apartment and get their chickens back and the government will be off their backs because they all think Venom is gone
this is the best possible outcome
#honestly plot went better than expected#I was more upset over Sadie losing her symbiote it looked like they were close too :/ I wanted to learn about their story#also the other symbiotes dying I am upset about that too#venom#venom 3#venom the last dance#venom: the last dance#venom spoilers#venom 3 spoilers#venom the last dance spoilers#venom: the last dance spoilers#eddie brock#symbrock#fredd rambles
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act 4 :(
@chipper-smol and i came to a realization
#THID FUCKING GAAAAAAAMMMMEEEEE#i have more i wanna draw but my hands not working orz.. maybe ill get around to it later idk#i finally FINALLY managed to get inside that star room.. my own clone!! now neither of us will be virgins!!!!#i dont have anything to go off of but when the journal mentions making another 'me' it reminds me of loop saying theyre like a mirror#theyre always able to read siffrins mind without actually reading their mind (or so they say) but maybe it could just be tone matching???#or smth like that.. idk if these two things are connected though so maybe its more like subtext#i hope im not the only one who made the childrens hospital joke when it came around to color lore part 2#im also getting the sinking feeling of watching siffrin toe his way near the deep end like bro is so so close to losing it#i feel like if i knew nothing abt the game beforehand and why siffrin is looping in the first place my feelings abt this would be different#cuz id be pretty angry too if ive been stuck in a loop long enough to feel like everyone around me is pretending nothings wrong#than the fact that i have decided not to disclose im in a time loop and that everyone is living this day for the first time#although i also get hes doing this for a reason and when u believe in the universe i guess it also comes with sunk cost fallacy#'this is the path the universe led me down before i even knew what i wanted so all i can do is double down' THATS THE FATALISM TALKING#puppy plays isat#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#isat act 3 spoilers#isat act 4 spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#sona#puppysona#friends#chipper#doodles
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kiss
#KISS HIMMMMM#solavellan#pina art#if i lose power yall please carry the torch w/o me#everything started closing down here tonight lol#so we're hunkering down
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i don’t think u understand it is so important to me that dickie grayson is the shortest and physically weakest of any team that he’s on while simultaneously being the most unsettling person in the room
#dick vc i am this 👌 close to losing it#roy vc but ur fingers are touching#dick grayson#don’t mistake this for a feral dick post do NOT#nightwing#dc comics#spokes#imagine standing next to raven mid-demonic possession and the eurovision reject is the one making u uncomfortable
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"I got my sin and you got your sorrow They're born from the din and come out at night"
alt versions under the cut!!
#yipeee I'm slowly getting used to csp#my favourite guys#sorry i was gone for so long i was close-to-burnout stressed and i just lose all abilities when im stressed so :(#what abilities? all abilities#also i drew a background?? witchcraft#this took me so long you have no idea#anyway#my art#malevolent#fanart#art#blindfaith#blind faith#oscar malevolent#arthur lester#masked
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She has something she needs to tell you about
#if you look closely you can actually see me losing the will to live#anyway i think ive reached my peak of lazy backgrounds today#art#zero escape 999#zero escape#akane kurashiki
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