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finnickodaiir · 1 year ago

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#this close to losing it #my mom today was like 'you're too quiet. you dont talk enough. where are your friends? no friends huh. you're too skinny.#'wait you're actually putting on weight. you need to stop eating cake for a bit'#and then if you get upset she's like 'you're too sensitive. i have to walk on eggshells around you'

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lesbian-moon-gf · 1 year ago

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i love how we (about 50-100 oil executives) sacrificed fall and winter and general global weather stability/security so we (about 50-100 oil executives) could have a bigger number and another yacht

#this close to losing it #moon #climate emergency #it's 80f at the end of october

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yerimathy · 3 months ago

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Oke I tried holding it in but I actually never done that so here I go venting on this hell site

I am participating in a uni program despite being in school. I like it and I'd like to stay in it but I failed the first of 3 exams. I can retake and I will, but in a few days I have another one to which I have Barely Studied TM.

Point is, my parents are supportive of me studying, but they see it as "She needs to pull a whole 24/7 study session" and make sour faces if I come out of my room not during meal time.

I have ruined my attention span and I have a hard time studying. I have always been addicted to YouTube and I'm trying to solve it.

Basically, today I was yelled at because my Dad came into my room (while I wasn't in it) without permission, saw a laptop with YouTube on my bed and started screaming, threatening to throw away the laptop he got me for said program, and hit my hand when I closed the door.

I am locked in my room (by choice), since both my parents are against me at this point, and we have a guest over. Me defending myself, saying I have done a part of my work and watching a 10 min video without any visuals is "throwing a tantrum in front of a guest", but my father screaming and yelling and calling me names and threatening to break my door down is okay.

The sad part (for me) is, I am currently doing the rest of the work. I don't want it to seem like the yelling worked on me, because I'm scared they will pick up on it. I really do want to succeed, but man, I wanna rest as well.

I hate yelling so I break in tears very fast , which leads me to "lose". I am this close to either saying fuck it and dropping out of the program and changing classes to the ones they (mainly Dad) don't support, starting cussing him out because words don't work on him, or reminding them that they already have a dead child who committed suicide at 15, asking do they want another suicide at 17.

Man I really hate this. I love studying, but I have my pace plus YouTube is way more enjoyable. Everything that isn't "I have acquired 3 degrees in 2 years and have the average of 15 seconds of weekly YouTube" isn't on the list for them.

They aren't abusive, but I wish they would consider my feelings more and understand that not only I am not a fucking machine, but also that I have a lot of distractions half of which are their fault.

#vent post #vent #venting #parents #adhd problems #problematic parents #russian parents #problems with dad #dad #study #productivity #teenage #teenagers #this close to losing it #shut in

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okidraw · 4 months ago

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i wanted to show them the stars.

#fanart #draws #gravity falls #bill cipher #the book of bill #thisisnotawebsitedotcom #gfalls #illustration #digital art #watercolor #me: oh man art fight is over i'm probably going to lose my art motivation now :/#the triangle bastard bursting into my room at mach speed:#also translation for the ciphers in the bg are as follows:#repeating ones that fade out are just ''why did you do it'' over and over to ref the video of him w scalene and euclid on the website #and the verse next to him reads ''oh little billy / what have you done / mama's little boy / you've flown too close / to the sun''#can you tell i feel insane about the new lore

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chaobunnyarts · 2 months ago

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ardbert in ultima thule

#ardbert #ardbert hylfyst #ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #endwalker #endwalker spoilers #losing my mind over close in the distance being ardbert pov #ff14 #final fantasy 14

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ciderjacks · 3 months ago

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thinking again about how much trust he had to have in Laios to recommend his own daughter in case he dies

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #chilaios #WHATEVRR #like #We see from his little nightmare snippet that his greatest fear is losing his kids #And we also know how much trauma he has around the dungeons and specifically other adventurers #How he basically lives in fight or flight mode and is constantly thinking of the worst case scenario #How unwilling he is to trust anyone or show vulnerability to anyone #And he recommended his daughter to Laios #Bc even though his years of knowing Laios means he sees him as reckless and oaf-like and maybe insane #His years of knowing Laios also mean he knows hes a good person who he can trust #And who he (secretly) genuinely cares about and sees as a close friend #So much so that he’d trust him with the lives of his kids #Though simultaneously i dont think he’d ever allow him to hold a baby

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qiinamii · 1 year ago

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"Xiao does things" (and friends) twitter log part 2

-- UPDATE: removed some of the arts to make its own individual post since I am bad at organizing, sorry! (but the last one is new lol) xD

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pinacoladamatata · 2 months ago

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kiss

#KISS HIMMMMM #solavellan #pina art #if i lose power yall please carry the torch w/o me #everything started closing down here tonight lol #so we're hunkering down

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go-fornicate-yourself · 13 days ago

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Okay so I know that people were talking about how Caitlyn looks weirdly similar to Jinx and Vi’s mom and people were joking abou Vi might have mommy issues for getting with a woman that looks like her mom.

Speaking of mommy issues (and banging someone that looks like your mom) I have discovered something quite interesting…

WHY DO VIKTOR AND XIMENA HAVE THE SAME PROFILE???

#arcane #arcane season 2 #arcane spoilers #arcane season 2 spoilers #caitlyn kiramman #vi arcane #felicia arcane #viktor arcane #jayce talis #ximena talis #caitvi #javik #I’m losing my shit bro #they don’t look the exact same but it’s close enough

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mysterycitrus · 4 months ago

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i don’t think u understand it is so important to me that dickie grayson is the shortest and physically weakest of any team that he’s on while simultaneously being the most unsettling person in the room

#dick vc i am this 👌 close to losing it #roy vc but ur fingers are touching #dick grayson #don’t mistake this for a feral dick post do NOT #nightwing #dc comics #spokes #imagine standing next to raven mid-demonic possession and the eurovision reject is the one making u uncomfortable

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mikonez · 2 months ago

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"I got my sin and you got your sorrow They're born from the din and come out at night"

alt versions under the cut!!

#yipeee I'm slowly getting used to csp #my favourite guys #sorry i was gone for so long i was close-to-burnout stressed and i just lose all abilities when im stressed so :(#what abilities? all abilities #also i drew a background?? witchcraft #this took me so long you have no idea #anyway #my art #malevolent #fanart #art #blindfaith #blind faith #oscar malevolent #arthur lester #masked

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finnickodaiir · 1 year ago

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Testing again

#userjake #this close to losing it

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 11 months ago

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Lap Pillow

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Confessions of a missed opportunity: I almost had LWJ in purple for this comic.#WWX gives him one of his layers to wear and it's never specified what colour it is.#We all love the red inner robe from CQL (And other illustrations) but sit with me for a moment. Think about LWJ in Jiang Purple.#Right now. Close your eyes and give it 5-10 seconds of rotation in your brain.#Welcome back. It's beautiful isn't it. As I write these notes I am upset that I backed out of going through with it.#I think I will simply have to draw it another time. If we get gusu lan white wwx we *need* yunmeng jiang purple lwj!#Anyways; this comic is the pinnacle of teen wangji's bursting-at-the-seams-emotionality that I love him for.#For my sanity I need that teen losing his mind and following bird rules (get fluffy - get blushy - keep beeping)#He is a loser nerd with a begrudging crush on a boy that he doesn't know how to be normal about.#LWJ seems like your typical 'cool guy love interest' until you realize that he's actually kind of soggy and pathetic.#My favourite lan wangji trait is that he's funny as all hell. I feel like wwx a bit because I had a character epiphany when I realized this

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puppyeared · 2 months ago

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act 4 :(

@chipper-smol and i came to a realization

#THID FUCKING GAAAAAAAMMMMEEEEE #i have more i wanna draw but my hands not working orz.. maybe ill get around to it later idk #i finally FINALLY managed to get inside that star room.. my own clone!! now neither of us will be virgins!!!!#i dont have anything to go off of but when the journal mentions making another 'me' it reminds me of loop saying theyre like a mirror #theyre always able to read siffrins mind without actually reading their mind (or so they say) but maybe it could just be tone matching???#or smth like that.. idk if these two things are connected though so maybe its more like subtext #i hope im not the only one who made the childrens hospital joke when it came around to color lore part 2 #im also getting the sinking feeling of watching siffrin toe his way near the deep end like bro is so so close to losing it #i feel like if i knew nothing abt the game beforehand and why siffrin is looping in the first place my feelings abt this would be different #cuz id be pretty angry too if ive been stuck in a loop long enough to feel like everyone around me is pretending nothings wrong #than the fact that i have decided not to disclose im in a time loop and that everyone is living this day for the first time #although i also get hes doing this for a reason and when u believe in the universe i guess it also comes with sunk cost fallacy #'this is the path the universe led me down before i even knew what i wanted so all i can do is double down' THATS THE FATALISM TALKING #puppy plays isat #in stars and time #isat #isat spoilers #isat act 3 spoilers #isat act 4 spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #sona #puppysona #friends #chipper #doodles

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schadenfredde · 1 month ago

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Venom 3 spoilers:

I don't know why everyone seems so upset, did no one wait to see the end credits?

also note how in the first movie Venom says "goodbye Eddie" before inexplicably surviving the rocket explosion and in this one he says "goodbye for now"

he will come back to him like he did the first time. and I have a feeling Eddie knows that deep down too, that's why he's not too broken over it

and they can move back to their apartment and get their chickens back and the government will be off their backs because they all think Venom is gone

this is the best possible outcome

#honestly plot went better than expected #I was more upset over Sadie losing her symbiote it looked like they were close too :/ I wanted to learn about their story #also the other symbiotes dying I am upset about that too #venom #venom 3 #venom the last dance #venom: the last dance #venom spoilers #venom 3 spoilers #venom the last dance spoilers #venom: the last dance spoilers #eddie brock #symbrock

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ayellowapple · 12 days ago

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She has something she needs to tell you about

#if you look closely you can actually see me losing the will to live #anyway i think ive reached my peak of lazy backgrounds today #art #zero escape 999 #zero escape #akane kurashiki

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