#this broke me for real

[that-one-dark-smiley]

I'm starting to like, legitimately question my gender again. I thought I was over this, but I read this manga series called "The gender of mona lisa". Let me explain.

It's about a world in which everyone is born without a sex - and without a gender. At the age of 12, they start developing physical traits that correlate with their gender. Some actively choose to become male or female, some don't really know and someday the development just starts.

The protagonist is still genderless at 17/18 years old and the series follows their journey to discovering themselves and finding out what living as male or female is about. The manga does such a good job of showing that nothing is strictly masculine or feminine, that no matter what you look like, you are still the same person. You don't just change because your body changes.

The manga has multiple alternative endings, showing what paths the protagonist may choose while living as male or female. I don't want to spoil too much, but there's a reason they have to choose. I truly believe that no matter what they chose, they are still genderless - just in a different body.

And let me tell you: this manga fucked me up hardcore.

I relate to the protagonist almost 100%. The struggles they have with "choosing a side", their experiments with gender expression to find out who they are, the way they feel pressured to conform while just wanting to be themselves. I found myself thinking "wow, I wish I would be like, completely androgynous when it comes to my body", and feeling so connected to this experience that when I was done, I felt so much that I basically felt nothing.

This messed me up so hard. I was already suspecting that maybe I'm not as male as I thought I was. For a while, actually. Because my connection to gender is mostly, if not fully, through external things instead if what I feel on the inside. I basically feel like nothing when it comes to my gender. But I express myself typically masculine and I associate androgyny a lot with masc bodies.

So to conclude, I feel fucked up because I'm thinking "wow, I sure wish I was completely genderless" and not sure how to deal with that right now. I have never once felt so seen than I did when reading this manga, but it also punched me in the face. Sort of.

[cruelnemothesis]

[spacerockband]

Quetzalcoatlus! poised to spear her prey!

[inkskinned]

okay is she being actually immature or is it just a woman over 30 expressing a human experience you find to be immature.

like yeah. at certain ages... let shit go. im not defending the real immature shit. im not defending the karen you're picturing. i worked in retail i hate those people too. (once somebody got mad at me because she didn't like how our winter window decor was a snowman smoking a pipe. i wish i was joking).

but men at 57 will write books about how 17 year old girls are soooo sexy. they will invent worlds where women have to be naked for "armor reasons." they will write songs that treat women as objects. people rush to defend them. meanwhile a woman at 35 will be like "heartbreak is hard, actually" or "i feel betrayed by a friend" or "i am struggling with something emotionally." immediately people will say stuff like this woman is 35 by the way. by the way this woman is SO OLD to be experiencing this. BY THE WAY.

im 31, almost 32. the other day a poet was blasted online because at her "big age", she had written a poem about feeling unloved. top comment was "this woman is 29 by the way." this woman is too old to still be useful, by the way. she has to behave better . maybe if she was a good wife and mother she could stop existing loudly, and the story could continue on without her. this woman has served her purpose, by the way. she's so cringe, by the way. at 29 - so old! - she still hasn't figured out that her existence should be one of shame.

[d4ydream-girl]

comments from smosh cast + crew on shourtney's wedding post!!

ft. mythical, thomas sanders, macdoesit, and www.chess.com?? lol

[nemkero]

guess who just finished omori

[kor0kke]

Shitpost that I definitely had planned to post

Do not say hi to wild0moon from me

[sirazaroff]

*tucks hair back* Sooo guess who also saw the yuri movie recently

[nowheregoat]

I have a weird tendency to spend too much effort on dumb shit I shall try to make it to something decent ↓

Hank never had problem controlling his body, until he became a MAG, now struggling controlling his sheer power. This comes very apparent when he goes to pet his trouble maker Fluffy grunt only to squish the poor thing.

I'd like to imagine MAG Hank to also express more emotion than his normal version, meaning he gets a little Hulk moment of anger and 2BD has to come and deal with it, calm down the raging beast from tearing the base down. idk this is dumb

[sunshine-zenith]

(I know this is like three years too late but I only JUST discovered Arcane, bare with me)

Listen, I love Jayce, especially in season one, his introduction episode tugged on the heartstrings for real and I couldn’t help but want him to succeed nearly every second he was on screen in S1Act1, but like. Bruh. Forget becoming Magic Metal Jesus in season two, with how often Jayce was talked about like an underdog from humble beginnings, Viktor must’ve been born with the patience and tolerance of a saint to listen to it

[guinevereslancelot]

what was with cameron house md she spends 90% of the episode saying she wants their patient to die bc he's a genocidal dictator and her colleague husband says "babe it bothers me for ethical reasons that you want our patient to die :(" and she said "hm maybe you're right :/" but when it comes down to it the genocidal dictator lays a finger on her in an aggressive manner and chase instantly commits medical malpractice to murder the guy and then when he tells her she LEAVES HIM bc boo hoo he's a murderer now like GIRL he killed a man for you!!! he's wracked with catholic guilt!!! he's being crushed beneath the weight of his sins because he chose his devotion to you over his devotion to god!!! he literally could not get any sexier at this moment in time!!!

[cr0ssfortune]

girls :)

[rejaytionships]

cannot believe i gotta say this but please don't follow me if you're comfortable selfshipping with canon racists. i don't care if you headcanon them as otherwise, because if their racism against a real group of people is a key facet of their character (much less incredibly important to the telling of the story that this character is a racist) then i do not wanna see it. this is not the safe space for you

[transformersbrainrot]

Yall ever think about how Megatron must've compared himself to Orion before the war...

Think about it: You're a miner who got arrested and forced to kill for entertainment, and you have all this righteous anger and resentment towards the world that you yell about into the void, and somehow... somehow, your words resonate with this person who is friends with, practically family, to so many of the Senate and the elite he should be everything you despise but somehow when you meet all he can talk about is how much your words mean to him and how what you're saying is important and valuable. He's everything you never were allowed to be. He has the perfect life, and he looks up to you? Do you think it inspired him to try more? I wonder how much sooner Megatron might've snapped if Orion had never been in the picture? Orion thought so highly of him, and I can't imagine Megatron could think of himself the same way. Even with Orion's encouragement, do you think he thought of himself as bad because Orion was so good and they were so different? I don't think he ever figured out what Orion saw in him, and it breaks my heart.

[blorbocedes]

THEE lesbian situationship with your best friend break up that led to Geri leaving the Spice Girls: a know your sapphic herstory primer

a chronicle of the breakup of the spice girls, where geri left the group after being in love and breaking up with Mel B... who she used to be the closest with and go on trips together and here describing their relationship:

Geri's mom telling her her drunk at home when it's Mel B's wedding... phhhhh

if i think about the girlhood dynamic manifesting in their reunion tour as grown women 😳😵‍💫😵‍💫

Mel B revealing on Piers Morgan in 2019 she did in fact fuck Geri, tries to back it off as drunken gal pals -- geri's complete image rebrand as posh Wife And Mother who only wears white and rubs shoulders with the british elite and powerful... and downplaying everything that happpened

geri in very girlboss pantsuit shows around mel the f1 paddock and her new posho husband, redbull racing team principal and CEO. that grip on her waist tho 😵‍💫

most telling that they're exes, mel b being the only spice girl who wasn't at Geri's huge birthday bash.

[yuwuta]

gojo would kill your work husband. but if he were the work husband, that's a different story

REAL!! he’s such a hypocrite because if someone mentioned you had a work husband, his entire world would stop and he wold devise the absolute worst plans to make sure that your co-worker, everyone at your job, and everyone in the next building over knew that he was happily committed to you 

but if he is the work husband, he’s very........ dutiful in his role. there’s a loose office/lawyer au in my head where satoru is your secretary, and for all intents and purposes, your personal assistant, and he’s good at his job, but mostly because he considers his job to be pleasing you. he has coffee for you when you arrive, he moves your schedule around without you asking, he has answers to questions before you can even ask them, he has fresh flowers on your desk weekly, pokes into your meetings to pretend to hand you a file that’s really just maybe a single document in a manilla folder with candy on top of it—he’s made himself your business, your partner; he’s made himself irreplaceable, and he loves to remind everybody of that fact. 

he’s also extremely loyal. sure, he could day a week’s worth of work done in about a day, but that doesn’t mean he’ll just use his talents for anybody. he’s your secretary, so he’s at your beck and call, and everyone knows it. they know he’s the best, but also that he’s off limits—not because you won’t share him, but because satoru won’t let himself be shared. 

he also extends his duties beyond work, of course. when he hands you a print out of your schedule for the day and you’re confused by the three-hour block of time you have in the middle of the day, satoru just helps you shrug your coat of your shoulders and smiles, “that’s for the lunch date you have with me, of course!” hanging up your coat in your closet for you, “i’m paying, see you soon, sweets.” and because you’re great at your job, and satoru helps you be great, nobody really questions when the two of you have time for a 13-course tasting menu at 1pm on a tuesday afternoon. and if they did, all satoru would say that you two had a lovely date