#this broke me for real

[that-one-dark-smiley]

I'm starting to like, legitimately question my gender again. I thought I was over this, but I read this manga series called "The gender of mona lisa". Let me explain.

It's about a world in which everyone is born without a sex - and without a gender. At the age of 12, they start developing physical traits that correlate with their gender. Some actively choose to become male or female, some don't really know and someday the development just starts.

The protagonist is still genderless at 17/18 years old and the series follows their journey to discovering themselves and finding out what living as male or female is about. The manga does such a good job of showing that nothing is strictly masculine or feminine, that no matter what you look like, you are still the same person. You don't just change because your body changes.

The manga has multiple alternative endings, showing what paths the protagonist may choose while living as male or female. I don't want to spoil too much, but there's a reason they have to choose. I truly believe that no matter what they chose, they are still genderless - just in a different body.

And let me tell you: this manga fucked me up hardcore.

I relate to the protagonist almost 100%. The struggles they have with "choosing a side", their experiments with gender expression to find out who they are, the way they feel pressured to conform while just wanting to be themselves. I found myself thinking "wow, I wish I would be like, completely androgynous when it comes to my body", and feeling so connected to this experience that when I was done, I felt so much that I basically felt nothing.

This messed me up so hard. I was already suspecting that maybe I'm not as male as I thought I was. For a while, actually. Because my connection to gender is mostly, if not fully, through external things instead if what I feel on the inside. I basically feel like nothing when it comes to my gender. But I express myself typically masculine and I associate androgyny a lot with masc bodies.

So to conclude, I feel fucked up because I'm thinking "wow, I sure wish I was completely genderless" and not sure how to deal with that right now. I have never once felt so seen than I did when reading this manga, but it also punched me in the face. Sort of.

[cruelnemothesis]

[d4ydream-girl]

comments from smosh cast + crew on shourtney's wedding post!!

ft. mythical, thomas sanders, macdoesit, and www.chess.com?? lol

[nemkero]

guess who just finished omori

[kor0kke]

Shitpost that I definitely had planned to post

Do not say hi to wild0moon from me

[simplykorra]

I stare at her perfect normality until I wake up and realize that I'm still the freak I've been my whole life. One thing I've learned since then. Life has a really fucked up way of making your dreams come true. - Ava Silva

[redmyeyes]

❝ Will I ever see you again? ❞ // the smiths

FELLOW TRAVELERS 1.04 ❝Your Nuts Roasting on an Open Fire❞

[apostacism]

Also imagine Alistair breaking up with you because he has to find a "real wife" and "get heirs" and you're tainted so you can't do that for him and then a DECADE later he's still fully unmarried and without children. Sir I know you're infertile by now. What the fuck was all that about.

[guinevereslancelot]

what was with cameron house md she spends 90% of the episode saying she wants their patient to die bc he's a genocidal dictator and her colleague husband says "babe it bothers me for ethical reasons that you want our patient to die :(" and she said "hm maybe you're right :/" but when it comes down to it the genocidal dictator lays a finger on her in an aggressive manner and chase instantly commits medical malpractice to murder the guy and then when he tells her she LEAVES HIM bc boo hoo he's a murderer now like GIRL he killed a man for you!!! he's wracked with catholic guilt!!! he's being crushed beneath the weight of his sins because he chose his devotion to you over his devotion to god!!! he literally could not get any sexier at this moment in time!!!

[blorbocedes]

THEE lesbian situationship with your best friend break up that led to Geri leaving the Spice Girls: a know your sapphic herstory primer

a chronicle of the breakup of the spice girls, where geri left the group after being in love and breaking up with Mel B... who she used to be the closest with and go on trips together and here describing their relationship:

Geri's mom telling her her drunk at home when it's Mel B's wedding... phhhhh

if i think about the girlhood dynamic manifesting in their reunion tour as grown women 😳😵‍💫😵‍💫

Mel B revealing on Piers Morgan in 2019 she did in fact fuck Geri, tries to back it off as drunken gal pals -- geri's complete image rebrand as posh Wife And Mother who only wears white and rubs shoulders with the british elite and powerful... and downplaying everything that happpened

geri in very girlboss pantsuit shows around mel the f1 paddock and her new posho husband, redbull racing team principal and CEO. that grip on her waist tho 😵‍💫

most telling that they're exes, mel b being the only spice girl who wasn't at Geri's huge birthday bash.

[yuwuta]

gojo would kill your work husband. but if he were the work husband, that's a different story

REAL!! he’s such a hypocrite because if someone mentioned you had a work husband, his entire world would stop and he wold devise the absolute worst plans to make sure that your co-worker, everyone at your job, and everyone in the next building over knew that he was happily committed to you 

but if he is the work husband, he’s very........ dutiful in his role. there’s a loose office/lawyer au in my head where satoru is your secretary, and for all intents and purposes, your personal assistant, and he’s good at his job, but mostly because he considers his job to be pleasing you. he has coffee for you when you arrive, he moves your schedule around without you asking, he has answers to questions before you can even ask them, he has fresh flowers on your desk weekly, pokes into your meetings to pretend to hand you a file that’s really just maybe a single document in a manilla folder with candy on top of it—he’s made himself your business, your partner; he’s made himself irreplaceable, and he loves to remind everybody of that fact. 

he’s also extremely loyal. sure, he could day a week’s worth of work done in about a day, but that doesn’t mean he’ll just use his talents for anybody. he’s your secretary, so he’s at your beck and call, and everyone knows it. they know he’s the best, but also that he’s off limits—not because you won’t share him, but because satoru won’t let himself be shared. 

he also extends his duties beyond work, of course. when he hands you a print out of your schedule for the day and you’re confused by the three-hour block of time you have in the middle of the day, satoru just helps you shrug your coat of your shoulders and smiles, “that’s for the lunch date you have with me, of course!” hanging up your coat in your closet for you, “i’m paying, see you soon, sweets.” and because you’re great at your job, and satoru helps you be great, nobody really questions when the two of you have time for a 13-course tasting menu at 1pm on a tuesday afternoon. and if they did, all satoru would say that you two had a lovely date 

[a-flickering-soul]

it's the way to ME that sofia is just so emblematic of everything in 2022 that a lesbian should never be. she is scheming. she is obsessive. she tries to lure katya away from her good christian het relationship into a world of sin. in the context of the 1973 film, she is a perfect example of the oversexualized clutching-at-pearls lesbophobia of the time. but rewatching it now in 2022, i cant help but sympathize with her. after surviving the orphanage fire, the streets, clawing her way up to find even a scrap of beauty, of love, of tenderness...wouldnt you be obsessed with it too? wouldnt you do anything to keep it with you? wouldnt you want to eat it too? anyways sofia apologist now and forever, i LOVE problematic lesbian rep <333

[denjidenjiji]

”Dear gambler”

credit to Ronja Kappel on tiktok because I stole her idea

[rubyroses222]

lunin 🥺

[nowheregoat]

I have a weird tendency to spend too much effort on dumb shit I shall try to make it to something decent ↓

Hank never had problem controlling his body, until he became a MAG, now struggling controlling his sheer power. This comes very apparent when he goes to pet his trouble maker Fluffy grunt only to squish the poor thing.

I'd like to imagine MAG Hank to also express more emotion than his normal version, meaning he gets a little Hulk moment of anger and 2BD has to come and deal with it, calm down the raging beast from tearing the base down. idk this is dumb

[folklouire]

You said you were gonna grow up, then you were gonna come find me. Said you were gonna grow up-

Taylor Swift performing Peter at The Eras Tour | Stockholm, Sweden | May 17, 2024 (x)