#think it's cuz we skipped up but might also be for personal reasons but
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trying to be okay...just gotta make it for two more days...two days and the week is over...
#we aren't doing very well#don't know why#just arent#doesnt make sense since#good weekend#grades are fine#classes are fine#trying to stay upbeat and act normal but#don't really feel like talking much#is that a lie#i don't know#emotions have been all over the place all week#feel really great and then really dead and#shouldn't be alternating that fast that's probably not normal#am i just acting that though?#we don't know#made fun of us again today#peers were talking about illnesses and#they brought up a personal one#started making fun of people who had em so#we told em to stop#started making fun of me#they shouldn't say things like that though#not that anyone listens to me#they dont like me much#think it's cuz we skipped up but might also be for personal reasons but#yea we're#not doing so well right now#delete later
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My personal HCs of Jeaneil bestfriendism
Tws: mentions of human trafficking, sh, injuries, parent death (Mary).
(Also set in Raven!Neil AU)
•Nathaniel willingly participates in human trafficking after Mary's death, b'cuz fuck you. Living without any real destination had killed Mary's humanity and identity and he's not going to end up like her.
•Belonging to someone, meant having their brand on your back (literally) and that was going to be his saving.
•But for better for worse, ichirou was the one to pay millions of dollars for someone something like him
•ofc, this meant Nathan couldn't touch him but it also meant he would end up in the exact same place that his mum had died for
•but that was when she doubted his capabilities in exy but now that variable was taken out, no?
•By the time abram arrives at Evermore, Jean already had been living there for an year
•anyway, jean and Nathaniel meet when they were both 15 yrs old. And due them both being in hard rebellious phase, they take swings and jabs at each other cuz well...
•they were about the only ones who saw each other as equal instead being something either above or below them
•he Goes by his middle name w both Jean and kev
•Jean picks out all the bell peppers from his meal and Neil sneaks them onto Kev's plate who begrudgingly eats them
•Codependency, man. So much codependency. You'll never see one w/o the other
•sometimes when Nathaniel/abram (ur pick) sneaks them out, it starts raining and jean immediately hates it. But his partner catches a couple droplets into his hand and he flicks them onto jean, smiling like he had no demons waiting for him back home
•and jean thinks the rain might not be so bad.
•post-game interview and reporters are onto jean asking him one intrusive question after and jean just glares at them. Flat eyes and all.
•'Ram jumps in, and asks the reporter why their mum doesn't love them and maybe that's the reason they turned out like this in life— Kev pulls him away by his collar, apologising to the reporter
•they get into trouble for that ofc
•when Kevin begs jean to help him after riko breaks his hand, abram tries to stop him. He knows they'll have to pay the price but the look jean gives him is absolutely heartbreaking, "it's Kevin, abram. We have to help him."
•Nathaniel doesn't help. But hours later, when riko asks about Kev's whereabouts, he steals himself and refuses to answer.
•stitching each other while trying to make the other one keep their head down. With, Nathaniel's presence in the nest, jean finds keeping his opinion to himself... A bit harder than in canon.
•"why the actual fuck is that man wearing fucking jorts here?"
"I dunno, jean. They look kinda cool"
"I'm sorry, cool?"
•abram: "yk, that one time when you took a step towards the right with riko, you'd have reached him faster if you skipped on ahead to him—"
Jean, dead tired and barely even listening: "jfc, it's 2.30 in the morning go tf to sleep."
•abram was the one to snatch away the blades from jean. He hides them and cradles Jean's face in his hands, avoiding the bruises. That was the first time Nathaniel had seen a man that vulnerable and comfortable around him
•after kev leaves, Nathaniel tries to take over his job by swallowing the vegetables from Jean's plate. He promptly spat out that piece of broccoli.
I have more ofc, but I feel this post is becoming a bit too long so.
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Heya, saw your recent thoughts on S&M: Devil’s Playhouse- curious if you have any other critiques or maybe some praises. I didn’t yet get to play this re-release but am happy to listen to what others might think. Also my personal favourite of the games would be Hit the Road- which one is your favourite and why if you don’t mind asking?
oh user msl-229 you have unleashed a floodgate, get ready to read.
I have very few praises for devil’s playhouse because i kid you the fuck not the entire game is the just the writers treating sam like garbage. to quote an ACTUAL LINE from the game that I heard with my own two FUCKING ears, sam is “made to be ordered around” and “useless”. and do u. do u wanna know who called him useless? Max called him useless. Max. not as part of a gag or “oh it sounds better with context” no it was an insult because max is this game’s special good boy who can do no wrong and needs to put sam in his place. and people who played this fucking game cane out of it thinking it was good because it “challenged the dynamic” NO. IT RUINED THE DYNAMIC. ITS JUST A “MAX IS A SUPER SPECIAL GOOD BOY WHO FUCKS CRAZY, GUYS LOOK AT MAX HE HAS PSYCHIC POWERS!!! Sam? Oh we don’t really care about sam lmao” and ok listen sam isn’t even my favorite character. I like him a lot- hell, I AM NOT ABOVE JOKES AT SAMS EXPENSE but i like max (and also poking fun at max) just as much!!! just like my other s&m buddies tho i feel i have to defend him extra because of how BADLY this game treats him. he is constantly called fat, treated like he’s an idiotic child (both of these so much so that i’ve made it a goal to draw a little sam for every “sam is fat/stupid” joke there is about them), he’s pretty out of character in some scenes (like one where he doesn’t wanna resort to violence despite having literally no reason NOT to, and if u know sam u know he’s not above that) OH it peeves me off oh it peeves me off so much. It’s also just not really that funny, there’s some really strange scenes involving kids at some point (episode 2 i think), don’t even get me started on the pseudo-incest plotline where apparently sam and max’s great-grandparents are implied to be shacking up which. um!!! not gonna go any further into THAT. i’m being vague but man is it STRANGE!!!
One thing I will say however is that I do really like Noir Sam, which was in episode 3. With little spoilers (though why would u care u wouldnt wanna play this dumpsterfuck of a game anyways) episode 3 starts with the duo being separated and Sam goes nuts trying to find Max, leading him to become this rugged, more violent detective-esque type of character. which I think actually very nicely portrays just how much the duo need each other to function. Sam is more competent but clearly unhappy. It gave me “Adventures of Sam & Max episode 9” vibes where Max was on his own and had a similar (butnotreally) vibe of needing Sam or else the world was just. worse. cuz that’s what u do with duos like sam and max, u separate them to show the viewer just how good they are together so they root for the duo’s reunion more
My praises end there because we are only with Noir Sam for a maximum of like 30 minutes and then the rest of the episode becomes another circle-jerk in max’s name. per usual.
In my opinion? Skip it. Just read a summary of the sam-shit story if you’re curious and play a better game. Literally ANY other sam & max game would be better.
#ramblings of a kitkat#i also adore hit the road#i promise you’ll enjoy that better than whatever the hell this was#heh#‘read my lips. i. cant. pick. that. up.’ followed by the most pathetic dog whimpering lives rent free in my head#i thought ‘this time its virtual’ was lretty inoffensive as well but vr makes me violently ill#overall? telltale? what were u thinking.#thats a bad telltale. bad telltale.
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tldr: geto ain't all that /j. he (may) actually never had his shit straight, gathered, and set as many thought he did (incl gojo). u can skip to the conclusion cuz this is way 2 long
i have the idea of geto being set on his goals drilled into my head so much that I forget how vulnerable he really is. he isn't really as “i've already decided and I won't stop at anything to pursue it” as I remember him to be
like, I already know that geto's goals aren't solely for his personal gain or interests, he's not as selfish/cold-hearted as he might come off. he wanted to create a world where it's easier to live as sorcerers .... and it's not just bc he was almost killed by a nonsorcerer (toji) for a greedy reason and doesn't want it to happen to him again ... but he also had his friends and colleagues in mind—he doesn't want to see another innocent kid who had a shot at living the way she desired be killed again, he doesn't want gojo to be a tool anymore, he doesn't want to have piles of other sorcerers’ (his colleagues!!) bodies to be at the end. and mind you, when he decided to abandon everything he had, he was a teenager that saw too much as was spiraling out of control. he wasn't fully mature when he made his decision
and if u maybe squint, u can see hints of regret in his decision... maybe uncertainty or just not wanting to pursue it as much as we're all led to believe. he was away for 10 years... that's a lot of time, what exactly did he do? he was running a cult and gathering curses for his grand plan of ridding the world of nonsorcerers. but in those years, he never posed any serious threat to the jujutsu world or nonsorcerers despite his already powerful technique ,, not until his declaration of war at least. but even then, it wasn't even like he was guaranteed to win bc of how strong he's gotten... he declared that war knowing he had a good chance of losing, it was half-assed (lack of a better term). and when he did lose, he didn't bother to run away. he let gojo get to him, he let himself to die in his hands
all that to say, maybe geto didn't know what he was doing exactly—he wasn't as sure about his end goal, where he was going exactly, how he was going to do it and whatnot. it feels like he just decided on something without as much thought as he should've and is bound to that decision and felt inclined to just... keep going. dare I say, the whole thing was to give himself a new purpose. your whole life being you're a tool, a thing with an innate purpose to fulfil, isn't very pleasant to realize isn't it? (would like to add: purpose/value of life is explored multiple times in jjk). so maybe he wanted to take control of his life back by steering his goal from the one instilled to him as a sorcerer to one that he decided for himself.
his lack of actual, impactful violence is telling of this. he was shaken up by the events that stacked onto him that it caused a decision to be made when it's heaviness fell on him. he had a crisis n felt like he needed to get a hold of himself, his ideals/morals were slipping away and he needed to grasp it again, somehow. it's not actually as grounded as I remember, it's not as set in his mind as we think. it seems otherwise by the way he seems accustomed to his new life, how untroubled he looks when we see him in jjk0, how fulfilled he is with how it's going. he has new acquaintances, a family, a goal which he won't stop at anything to reach. but we dont see what's behind that... we don't see how he feels through all this, how relieved he might've been to have gojo kill him finally.
sorry for being so redundant lol I'm blabbering. but basically, geto may seem like he laid a clear path towards a goal bc of how confident he left everything the day of the KFC breakup, but he's actually unstable and unsure as hell. he stalled a LOT on doing actual impact and taking BIG steps to reach his goal. deep inside, he actually doesn't wanna go down that path, he just said he will to have a hold of himself, his ideals, his purpose.
but what do I know? I haven't rewatched jjk0 yet and I'm not done rereading the entire manga so… I don't trust my memory that much. might've remembered some things wrong or forgot a detail so .. feel free to point that out !!! as always, discussion is always appreciated :3
also this makes me a bit happy cuz now my “the deal” by mitski x geto suguru vision is now perfect<3 I'm gonna have fun making that animatic!!!! in my head almost each line fits him now, I'm so happy. I love u geto I love u mitski. I do hope I get to make that damn animatic. I'm telling you it's so geto-coded!!!
#lord this is even longer than my “gojo is a tragic character” rant#can you guess who my favorite jjk character is? just guess...#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#geto suguru#suguru geto#geto jjk#jjk geto#jujutsu kaisen geto#jujutsu geto#jjk suguru#lex yapping#jjk character analysis#kind of?#idk i js b thinking and saying#mitski#geto#jujutsu kaisen suguru
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NOOOOOOOO I LOST THE AU I WROTE FOR YOU 😭😭😭 I LITERALLY SENT IT AND TUMBLR SAID "NETWORK ERROR". L FOR THE WIFI. L. Not cool I'm literally crying I thought that AU was genius. It was a Teacher!Buggy AU with Crocomom and Dadhawk. + Shanks co-parenting Luffy with Crocodile. That note was so long I literally spent like 45 mins writing it here on your ask and it was just. Gone. Or I think it did. Why does life hate me. I'm just gonna be brief with this cuz I still think it's golden lmao. Croco and Mihawk work long hours so their kids (Luffy, Zoro, Perona) have to wait for a few hours until they're picked up by their parents. The school doesn't have school buses bc I said so (no I am not cruel it's just out of my budget /j). So Buggy takes the responsibility to keep them comfortable and entertained while they wait. Croco and Mihawk meeting this charming (and clown looking) blue-haired guy and they start courting him. Shanks gets dragged in on the courting bc of Luffy. Also he was already courting Buggy. I didn't write their process of courting I basically skipped and went,, their wedding will take part in a Goth castle. And the design are all sunshine and rainbows (literally). Sanji, Usopp, Nami, Vivi, Zoro and Luffy being in a class along with other kids. Franky, Robin, Jinbei and Brook are in higher classes. Chopper is atom. Not here in the world yet. Perona is like, 2-3yrs older than her brothers so. Yeah *awkwardly shuffles* (I love perona I swear-). Implied Zosan. Some rando: but you didn't imply shi— Me: Shhh I did. *gaslighting*. Law is also there in the classroom with lower grade strawhats. He's suffering. He only attends 3 days a week tho, he's mostly homeschooled bc of his sickness. He's homeschooled by Cora. (You can pry Law and Cora from my cold dead hands. You can separate them when I dissolve into ashes). Don't worry as he gets older his sickness is cured. Ofc he's cured by Cora. He's saved by Cora in every universe. In every AU. Every Era. Every life they will ever live. I will die on that hill– *applies the nobody dies/everyone lives tag on this AU* let my babies be happy pls. Let my man Cora live and travel the world with this emo boy (Law). Doffy isn't real, he can't hurt anyone. Ace is there. Sabo is there. Every One Piece character is out there somewhere. They're like hidden stones and you have 0.02% of finding them. I thought I was just making a Teacher!Buggy AU but then it turns into a Modern!AU for everyone. Let's gooooo. Sora divorces with Judge and remarry with Zeff so now Sanji lives with all his brothers and his sister. They get separate classrooms tho, and reiju is perona's age so she's besties with her. (I do not play by canon's rules with ages bc i live in my own world) They both tease their brothers (Sanji and Zoro) about their crushes on each other. The heart crew is there. Bepo is a dog, a very fluffy one. Kuina is alive. Kaya is there, same classroom with Usopp. I have no idea how to continue this lmao, but I do hope you find this interesting bc Buggy is 100% great with kids and probably teaches well bc he is a big nerd and makes lessons interesting. (Also, the whole reason why I wrote this instead of letting the idea slip through my mind like the others is bc the image of two goth men courting a clown looking mf was funny to me. So here we are lmao. The way I wrote this makes Shanks look like he's the person they let into their open relationship twice lol I'm so sorry 😭😭)
Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
That's really sad, I really like this idea (though I see Shanks and Buggy more as siblings, but I understand the idea of Shuggy) It's fine that this became about so many people, I really like this.
Teacher!Buggy sounds so cool, you know that he's the flashiest and maybe one of the craziness of the things he'll do to get his students good things that will boost their learning. He knows that every kid might not have the same learning paths as others.
How many classes does this man teach? Who knows, too many for how much he gets paid. All teachers needs to get paid more.
I would think Jinbei and Brook being other fun teachers in the school, like Tom could be as well!
I really like this idea, and the imagine of two gothic men trying to court a clown-looking mf is really funny to me as well.
#one piece#crocodile x buggy x mihawk#buggy the clown#sir crocodile#monkey d. luffy#dracule mihawk#roronoa zoro#perona#kuina#god ussop#kaya#black leg sanji#vinsmoke siblings#vinsmoke sora#trafalgar d. water law#rosinante corazon#cat burglar nami#vivi#too many characters#ideas~4~stories says#ask
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JJK ending sucks but what's new
The only ppl who will see this have already heard me complain but I'm gonna do it AGAIN 😈
jjk has always kinda been a mid shonen type thing but I usually like them so I wanted to watch it. I watched the first season when it released and it good but it wasn't good enough to get me reading the manga.
Then s2 came out and I kind of absorbed a lot of content through social media osmosis and it seemed pretty interesting. I only ended up watching it cuz one of my new friends watched it and another one also wanted to watch it so we watched it together in school while the teachers would side eye us 😓
I actually kind of liked it. I genuinely love a lot of the characters, like I think they're interesting in a ton of ways but sadly most of it never got explored. Most of the charas didn't get actual arcs and for the ones that did, it never felt finished or it would just feel so half baked. The plot has an endless amount of loose threads it's not even funny.
More than the actual media itself I enjoyed the process of consuming it. I loved searching up the leaks every Thursday with my friend and the fandom was funny asf too.
The fights were great too, and that's probably the only reason I found s2 to be so entertaining. But I feel like most of that credit goes to the animators and shit instead of Gege himself.
As much as I hate on the aot ending, this ending is WAYY worse. If you ignore the aot ending, the rest of the show can definitely stand on its own. The ending might even be good if you view it through a different perspective.
But jjk doesn't have that. The ending itself isn't bad. It's just that the series feels so incomplete which is what makes it so shit. I haven't seen a single person say it's good so far which rlly says smth. Can't wait for some fans to come along and be like "erm u just didn't understand the story ☝️🤓"
I don't even wanna get into all the details on why the series sucks cuz there's way too many I can list. But the main reason I hate the ending is cuz the series had SO MUCH POTENTIAL.
The characters and themes and plot were pretty good, they just needed to be explored more and it never happened and it sucks so much cuz it could've been so great and actually have smth to say.
Maybe I expected too much from a series called Sorcery Fight because there were indeed sorcerers fighting and that's pretty much it.
I might be wrong for criticizing it so much considering I haven't even read most of the manga. I just started skimming leaks every week after Gojo died like most ppl did and skipped over the previous arcs (although I did look at summaries) so maybe it'll be different if I actually read all of it at once but I doubt it. Maybe the pacing would be slightly better but that's it.
I just get mad whenever I think of what could've been. I genuinely hope someone rewrites it and does it justice even tho I'll prolly never read it.
It's just another case of "this piece of media would've been so good if it was actually good."
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#this is just me yapping abt unnecessary stuff lowkey#not gonna rant abt the aot ending just yet im tired of doing that#maybe next year once I rewatch it for the 4529246738th time
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How about some hcs for Velvette?
warnings: swearing, bad grammar, might be an OOC Velvette?? idk , mentions of cigarettes and w33d
——————general hcs + reader insert——————
Velvette had an emo phase. I will fight you on that.
“mom its not just a phase”
I believe she would 100% skip school to go smoke either cigarettes or possibly weed. She would also sneak out to go to parties and just gotta add that she definitely had strict parents. (strict parents raise sneaky kids)
She would dye those streaks in her hair i think it’s called skunk hair ??? They would definitely be red tho haha and I think her favorite movie would be Alice in Wonderland and her fav character would be the Red Queen
She would have like a lot of followers (probably some being her alt accounts) and she would just blog every second of her life, but it would definitely be something related to fashion (also i think she sould be studying fashion or something like that)
She would definitely do some wild shit like go to raves and sneak into parties she wouldn’t be even invited to. I believe she would die either by someone just putting something in her drink or that she would die by driving while being on her phone or getting run over by a car for and not noticing the car coming her way, the reason also just her being glued to her phone.
When she went to hell I think she was just an angsty teen that lived on the streets for a while, holding up a cardboard box with something blunt as fuck like “need money, broke asf” and Valentino and Vox just find her and are like “Yeah we should take her in and just become a group of Overlords with a really shitty name cuz were unoriginal”
She would be really judgy and sould be like “tf are you wearing, here darling let me make you something better ‘kay?”
She definitely makes clothes when she is angry to keep her mind off of it lmao
If you have Velvette as a friend expect a lot of really brutally honest opinions on your outfit but I think Velvette would be friends with someone that has her sense of fashion so she can have someone to bond with. She 100% makes people clothes on their birthdays and says like “yeah whatever just take it” but deep down she hopes you like it and melts if she sees you wearing it, snapping a picture of you and posts it on her sinsta.
If you have a date you know who to call when you have no idea what to wear. She would judge the person you’re going on a date with too saying something like “No no he has no sense of style! Darling just date me at this point.”
If someone hurt you like a friend or a partner she would be the first to comfort you but of course she would just be complaining about their style. That’s just how Velvette is!
As a partner she would love for you to model some of her clothes and she would take you EVERYWHERE, showing you off and just is so happy to have you there. She would definitely make you clothes and accesories and would just let you sit by her to keep her entertained letting you yap he ear off lmao
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Thats all i could come up with but Velvette fr needs more love shes the best girl character fr !! :3
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Sorry for the long wait for this review. Life has been biting me in the rear lately and I’ve been unmotivated to get anything done. But I’m finally finished with this commentary and I haven’t forgotten about the “Unhappy Campers” episode that was uploaded recently. That will be done as well!
Okay, FINALLY Season 1 Episode 8 came out and about, after a year I think. Why was it taking so long?
Well, short story; professional (or personal?) reasons involving Kesha. Also, copyright issues.
Long Story? Well, as we all know, Kesha, a pretty known popstar, was voicing the role of a character Viv created for this episode named Beelzebub. As you can see from the gif I put on top, you can tell that there are some similarities there. Not just with the voice, but also appearances here and there.... which was one of the problems and reasons why Kesha didn’t wanna voice this role, at least initially since she clearly changed her mind after a year or so. If you’ve seen this episode, you’d probably know by now that Beelzebub is a party girl; she likes to drink, party, and eat junk food n stuff. And Kesha is ALL those things; party girl, likes to drink and eat. Or at least... she was like that? Thing is, she went to rehab for all those things and is recovering from it from what I’ve heard.
Not that I wanna assume anything but... creating an oc that has certain traits that the voice actor was struggling with and had to get cleaned for, not to mention that Beelzebub is a literal reference to Kesha and how she was back in the day? I don’t know what Viv’s goal was there, but doesn’t she think that might be a little insensitive?? Now, I don’t know if Kesha is sensitive about that, but she must’ve felt some type of way about it considering she wanted nothing to do with HB in the first place and had to wait almost a year to finally decide to do it.
Also, I still don’t get why this episode had to wait a year for this. Like, I get that Kesha is Vivzie’s idol and it was her dream to have her voice someone in her show, but did she really want her to voice a role so badly she wanted to put a pause on the season 1 finale and completely skip to season 2 until finally uploading it a year later? Why couldn’t she just get someone else to voice Beelzebub? Kesha didn’t even sing the song that was played in this episode, and she wrote it!! It just kinda feels like all this was for nothing. This should probably be the last time Viv EVER tries to get big-time celebrities to voice over characters in her show. Especially when it gets so complicated to the point where you have to keep certain famous youtube videos private, when animators can’t even upload animation roughs from the episode, and when you can’t tag Kesha about her association with Helluva Boss on ANY social media. Yeah . . . It’s that complicated. Hopefully, Viv will learn some kinda lesson from all of this, cuz she had to take her “Die Young” animation off YouTube because of it, which honestly sucks (mostly for her anyway). It really is messed up, especially when considering that Viv’s Die Young video was what mainly started her whole career in the first place before Hazbin. I really hope it was worth it,Viv. . . .
Anyway, let’s just jump to the review...
So episode 8 was kinda... meh. It was alright I guess, still like always, I was expecting something outta nothing. Of course, some things happened on here that I just had to complain about, and I’ll explain later. But the gist of it is that... not a lot happened in this episode. As always, the writers were just rushing things. This whole episode might as well have been a 5-minute clip after so much wasted time on some stupid song which I’ll admit is pretty catchy (gives me 2010 vibes). And also what bothers me about this whole thing was that this was about Loona.
Lemme explain; so y’all remember Ozzie’s right? That whole thing with Blitzo spying on M&M and bringing Stolas along just to get in the club? Yeah, that episode. Now correct me if I’m wrong, but that was supposed to be a Part 1 before episode 8 before Viv decided at the last minute to change that. At the end of episode 7, Blitzo pushed Stolas away after dropping him off. He went home and was scrolling through pictures and started to cry after seeing a picture of him, his sister, and mother. I was expecting this whole episode to be about just Blitzo and what he got going on, similar to Stolas and his episode in the second season. Like maybe a flashback of his past or something with the people that was a part of his life and left at some point over what he did. We have yet to know what happened between him and Fizzarolli that ended their friendship. Or what about his sister?? Cuz apparently, she doesn’t like Blitzo either and is holding a grudge about something. With Verosika, well we already know the two dated and why they broke up sorta, but I still feel like we have yet to explore the relationship they had. Like, how the hell did a scrawny little imp like Blitzo get with such a baddie like Verosika??? What was their relationship like?
So yeah, I just feel like this episode could’ve given us a whole other different plot. If anything, the story in this episode could’ve been saved for another. Not that there was any plot to tell anyway, especially when it’s 15-minutes long and rushed as hell.
It’s literally just Loona at a party...
In episode 7 S1, Blitzo got a text from Loona saying Vortex invited her to a party and that’s where we are. The whole time, she’s having difficulties socializing with folks and is very awkward. Plus we have our new character, Beelzebub to lighten everybody’s mood. She’s also Vortex’s girlfriend, but I’ll get into that in a little bit. Also, after a while, Blitzo comes by to pick her up initially but later joins the party with Loona.
Let’s just get started....
-- Hold up, so no disclaimer of “This is for adults! You have been warned!” warning?? We’re just gonna jump straight into the episode? I’m not sure whether they forgot about that part or if they just don’t care anymore, but to me, it feels rather off. Especially since they’ve been doing it since the first episode of season 1. If you’re wanting to go all out with the r-rating anyway, it would still be best for you to put that disclaimer every time before you start the episode, especially when folks of a younger age are watching it for the first time and don’t like to be caught off guard with anything vulgar.
-- I couldn’t tell if Loona just hung up on Blitzo or just left him on read when he tried to call her. Regardless, she didn’t answer the phone while knowing fully well he’s trying to call her and its pretty rude. I know I’m being nitpicky about this part, but as someone who has parents who’d get onto you a little for not answering the phone sooner and not calling back immediately after finding out you missed the call, it can get a little triggering.
-- The hellhounds in this party don’t even look like actual hellhounds; just over a hundred different breeds of dogs with red eyes. If anything, Loona and Vortex look more like hellhounds.
-- Is it just me, or does the animation and clean-up here feel . . . . off? I mean- Look at the outlines!!
Do you see how different the outlines are in size in each different scene??? They’re thick in one part, totally thin in another, but right back to thick again, and so on. Honestly, the more I notice it, the more irritable it is. I get that there are hundreds of animators working in this show, they like to animate their way, and I’m no animator myself (not yet), but would it kill y’all to stay consistent with the clean-ups here? Why can’t you stick to the same brush size while outlining?
-- While we’re on that topic, Loona’s character model looks much more off than the outlining. I’m not sure how I can explain it, I don’t critique art or character designs often (ironic cuz I draw a lot, lol), but Loona has been drawn so stiff and thick lately. . . . . I dunno. It just doesn’t look the same. You might see what I mean if you just look at the pictures above. Once again, it just seems like the animators and artist cannot stay consistent with the animation and character appearances.
-- Loona butts in on a conversation with a couple of people she apparently doesn't get along with. I get that she's trying to socialize, but why, out of everyone in this party, did you choose to talk to someone who takes embarrassing photos of you and talks shit??
-- So this poodle hellhound took a photo of Loona throwing up that one time at a party she participated in. A party before this one of course. But last I checked, it was implied in ep 3 season 1 that Loona had never been to a party before and the one that Tex invited her to (the one in the episode) would be her first one. The party that Loona vomited at should’ve been her first one instead of the one Beezlebub is running. Not to mention that she has met some of these hellhounds before and is known as “Lunatic Loona” by most of them. This folks is yet another retcon.
-- Loona calls the poodle a bitch, leaving everybody completely shocked for some reason. “Ooooh! Teacher! She just said a bad word!” That’s seriously what they’re acting like. As if NOBODY in this wasted ass party (or in hell at all) has ever said a bad word before. If y’all don’t grow tf up-
-- I’m sorry, but if y’all asked me what I thought The seven deadly sin of Gluttony would look like, NEVER in my LIFE would I have pictured THIS--
I know I cannot have been the only one high off shrooms the moment I seen this character design. . . She looks like a concept art of an OC that was made a 12-year-old Vivziepop.
So first off, she calls herself Queen Bee... but is shaped like the rest of these furry fanservice mutts. She’s just another wolf/fox with only a little bit of bug-like features to pass off that she’s only. . . part bee. But why not just make her a FULL BEE??? Why does she have to look like a whole lava lamp hellhound??? Like, I know the lava lamp feature was supposed to be based off her personality, but why can’t that just be her hair?? Why do you have to add that part to her STOMACH!!?? I can’t even tell if that’s just apart of her clothes or her actual body! Either way, its too much!! It must’ve been hard as sh*t to animate her!!!
It doesn’t even make sense that she looks like a hellhound anyway!! Hellhounds are supposed to be in the lowest rank right beside imps and Beezlebub looks like one of them, only with an extra pair of arms!! Once again, why can’t she just be a BEE or something???
-- I always forget that Helluva Boss is supposed to be a musical. Probably because it just doesn’t fit as one at this point, especially with this pop music. When it comes to musicals, the point in the songs is that we would have to feel empathy for whoever’s singing and they also tell a story while we get a sense in what we’re about to see, and it also drops hints in what will happen next. But THIS song, it’s just a little pop music talking about sweets while also introducing Beezlebub. I get that its the point in pop music; there’s not much meaning to them and it’s only meant for you to enjoy and sing along with, but you can’t really call this show a musical when music like this is being played. Like I said from before, it’s still fairly catchy. I’ll admit that, but I could hardly feel for it.
-- I don’t wanna badge Kesha for her acting skills. It’s not like she’s been in a lot of films anyway. I mean, she’s a pop singer first and always, so that’s fair. But it was pretty, meh? Like, she kinda sounded like she didn’t even wanna be there in the studio and is only reading her lines instead of actually ACTING them while putting little emotion in what she’s saying. Honestly, most of Beelzebub’s lines are kinda pointless anyway. Like she’s just saying random bizarre monologues that I can hardly care about or even listen to. I can’t even tell if I was supposed to laugh at them or what. Seems like to me the writers only put those lines in the script just to hear the famous Ke$ha talk more. Not to mention that some of what she said sounded completely unnecessary and weird. For instance, Beelzebub mentioned how she was associated with Satan and thinks of him as her brother, but also finds him hot without his shirt on and said that she could “hit that”. . . . . Uhh, not exactly something you should say or even THINK about your brother figure ma’am. Why y’all gotta have Kesha say all that?? I can definitely see why she wouldn’t wanna act out these scripts!! She must’ve felt hella uncomfortable reading them!
And Viv, WHAT IS IT WITH YOU AND THE INCEST JOKES!!??
-- Okay, so . . . . Vortex, a lower class hellhound, and Beelzebub, one of the seven deadly sins being Gluttony (which means she a higher rank) dating?. . . Um, last I checked, a lower class and someone of higher up than that is kinda frowned upon by most of the demons in hell, as seen with how some people reacted to Blitzo and Stolas’s relationship. But for some reason, no one seems to react to Tex and Bee’s relationship?? Why is it that people mock Stolas and Blitzo for being a thing, but Tex and Bee can walk around and hold hands scott free??? I can tell that Viv just doesn't care anymore about the ranking system SHE made up.
-- I don’t really see Vortex and Bee as a couple anyway. Don’t get me wrong, I actually find it cute they’re together and even like the ship a little bit. But from what little interactions I’ve seen between them, kinda just seems like they’re more platonic best friends then boyfriend and girlfriend. I guess if we we’re to dig deep into they’re relationship, then I might see something, but . . . . I dunno, that’s probably just me.
-- Loona is so hard to read, especially now. The whole time she’s there, she’s just feeling super uncomfortable, like she doesn't even wanna be there even though she's with Vortex, who's the only person she seems to be more at ease with out of everyone in the party. Even when Bee is super welcoming and nice to her, Loona still feels bitter while not even liking her (Probably because Bee is dating Tex). And then for some reason, she just ups and leaves then starts to... tear up?? It's not too clear to me why she’s feeling sad. You can’t blame me for not knowing or picking up on it. It’s not like she was doing much of anything other than standing there and barely talking. How am I supposed to know what she’s really feeling and why she’s feeling it when she’s given no dialogue?
-- I'm reminded that Loona still acts so bitter around Blitzo and it's honestly irritating. She calls to ask him to pick her up and when he asks her if she was doing okay, she responded with such attitude! Aren’t we supposed to be sympathizing with her here??? I don’t care how frustrated she feels right now, especially since she has no reason to be. And I just love it how when people see her and say, "Oh hey Blitzo! Is that your daughter?" And she quickly responds, "I'm his ADOPTED daughter!" Like bitch. . . WAS ANYONE ASKING THAT!! He’s your family!! Paper or no paper!! DEAL WITH IT!! And no shit your adopted!! People can see that he’s an imp and you’re a HELLHOUND!!! Stop being so defensive!!
-- Are you for real right now. . . . . .
You were getting all teary-eyed n shit, wanting to go home but as soon as some hellhound hottie starts flirting with you, you immediately get over it and change your mind in less than 5 seconds before you’re about to leave???? Like you don’t even think about it?? Viv, where are you getting at here???
-- I can’t really say much about Blitzo right now. He’s barely there anyway, only making an appearance in the last 10 minutes of the episode for comic relief and a pity party.
-- Viv must really don’t know what to do with her female characters and how to go about ‘em. Loona’s shown to be introverted and sad at first to straight up confident and lively around everyone in a matter of seconds. She’s so quick to make friends and get along with other hellhounds at the party as if it was no issue from before when it was. We don’t even get to see any progression of bonding with these out-of-nowhere friends she’s making. And all because of some dude that called her hot!!! It kinda makes me question on why Loona was even feeling sad in the first place since it was so easy for her to gain confidence.
-- Y’all, I think I’m convinced right now that the only reason Loona doesn’t like Beelzebub is because she’s dating her crush! Like- there’s nothing else to it. Bee and Tex are dating, Loona is still crushing Tex and that’s why she doesn’t like Beelzebub. Not to mention she’s possibly jealous because she feels inferior to her. She’s super outgoing, social, and could easily get along with anyone, something Loona can’t easily do (though that alone shouldn’t even matter because Loona already managed to make friends and some random hellhound flirted with her). You CANNOT convince me otherwise. And if that is the reason, then honey, you’re gonna have to let that go. For real!! You’re lucky that Tex even likes you enough to want to be your friend.
So Bee and Tex confront Loona about Blitzo, saying that he’s been drinking a lot (obviously) and that he’s going overboard with the partying. They suggested that Loona go check on him to make sure he’s okay and that he doesn’t cause some kind of scene (Then again, I don’t see why Bee would care. The point of her being the sin of Gluttony IS to go overboard with nearly anything. I mean- not the whole point, but it’s a common characteristic, so I don’t think she should be worried about it. I guess it’s good to know she’s considerate though.) Then all of a sudden, Loona snaps mainly at Bee and gets so hostile towards her saying, “You don’t know anything about my dad.” such and such, and I’m just like, “Ugh, again with your attitude!!!”
For one, its pretty bold of you to stand up to a higher rank considering she could squash you in an instant.
But I mean- WHAT IS WITH THE SUDDEN HOSTILITY??? And most people wanna validate her, saying, “It was only a trauma response. You gotta understand that Loona is new to this and she’s not used to people suddenly caring and being kind. She’s just having a hard time trusting people and she did apologize.” Y’all. . . don’t even- First off, Loona's reaction to Bee felt too rushed and forced to be considered traumatic. Second off, someone having trauma does not excuse an unnecessary shitty attitude, especially when Bee has been so kind to Loona this whole episode. Third off, for someone who doesn’t trust people so easily and isn’t used to being given kindness, Loona seemed pretty quick to make friends with everyone at the party who were nice to her. She was sure as hell quick to get along with Vortex after only knowing him for a short amount of time! And he was kind to her too. She wasn’t being bitchy to them then. But when BEELZEBUB is showing care or kindness, Loona will suddenly start to act bitchy??? And because of some past trauma?? PLEASE!!
And some fans would go on to say, "She's just getting over a heartbreak. It takes a while to get over your crush."
They're saying this as if Loona is head over heels in love with Vortex when she was simply CRUSHING on him and from the moment she saw him. And yes, there IS a huge difference especially when Loona only knew Vortex in that short amount of time. I would understand Loona falling in love with Tex if they actually had the time to bond after ep 3. . . . but they didn't. At least there was no indication that they did. And on top of that, just for the record, Loona already knew that Tex had a girlfriend the same day she met him!! Which was five episodes ago!! So before y'all go on and say "She needs time to get over her crush", she should've already gotten over it by now!! I dunno why she's still crushing and blushing around him as if she believed he liked her back!
Why did she seem so shocked after Tex introduced his Bee anyway? As if Loona never recalled him mentioning he had a girlfriend back in ep 3. And say that was the reason why she was sad . . . why would it would it make her sad!!?? Like I said, she should’ve already known Tex had a girlfriend since he brought it up straight to her face. I would understand her being upset if he didn’t tell her and she didn’t find out about Bee until the last minute when Tex introduced her as his girlfriend. Then it would actually make sense for Loona to still crush on him the entire time because she wouldn’t have known he was taken and would believe she still had a shot with him. In this case, it would be understandable why it would make her sad. . . . but we didn’t go that route. Instead, we had to go about it the “Vivzie Way” (the more complicated way).
Point blank, Loona seems to only dislike Bee because she's with Tex and is jealous. And she shouldn't have reacted the way she did out of jealousy when Bee was only showing concern for Blitzo. Trauma or no trauma, I don’t care. It was unnecessary.
-- “Blitzo! BLITZO! Where are you, shithead!!”
Loona . . . . how’re you gonna get all defensive about your dad and then go straight back to calling him names?
-- For once, Loona decides she actually wants to care about her dad (mainly cuz she was told to). I guess its nice to see a cute father/daughter moment between Blitzo and Loona for once. Can’t say I feel for it at all though especially when it immediately starts to become completely pointless a season and two episodes later when we see this happen-
Seriously, how're they gonna have Loona and Blitzo bond by the end of the episode only for Loona to go back to treating him like shit the next? It’s like whatever build-up was being made between them immediately collapsed a season later, and over something as petty as a mild criticism Blitzo gave Loona. You can just TELL that Viv and the other writers don’t think before writing these scenes down!!
Also, how is it that Loona will get all concerned for Blitzo making out with folks in the party while wasted even though she was literally cheering for him to chug a whole barrel of liquor in order to beat Bee in a game. What’s sad about this is that it was one of the only times Loona calls him “Dad”. . . . In a drinking game . . . . .
-- Blitzo: "Loony, will you be there for me?"
Loona: . . .Be where?"
Be invisible, obviously. . . . Frickin' idiot. . . .
-- We're supposed to feel bad for Blitzo, but it's kinda hard for me to do that when he wasn't even the main focus in this episode at all when he should been. Still, it's not like I could feel sorry for him anyway since he brought that whole Ozzie's mess on himself.
For now, I think that's all that could be said about this episode. I might just make some edits if I feel if I left something off. But the whole gist of it is that I feel like this episode was just a whole lotta nothin'. I don’t even think Loona learned anything this entire episode. Of course, the whole plot here was Loona learning to socialize and make friends with everyone, but we didn’t even get to see any of that. And she clearly didn’t learn anything since she was influenced by some rando calling her hot. It’s honestly sad, for real. The females in this show needs some serious work not just in their stories, but their characters too.
#helluva rant#helluva boss rant#criticism#critique#animation critique#helluva boss critical#helluva boss criticism#helluva boss critique#anti helluva boss#Loona#Helluva Boss
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Hey! Kabuto, 7, 9, 15 and 24 for the character ask game!
Eyyyyy my boy <3
Under the cut cuz I'm a rambly bitch
7. What is something the fandom does with the character that you like?
I love all the jokes, drawings, and metas about the times skip, what he, Orochimaru, and Sasukes life might have been like. What we see is already pretty funny. "It must be Sasuke. He's always grumpy when he first wakes up" (chapter 306).
I also really love what I've seen from the fanfic side. Rabbitprint on ao3 especially has some wonderful character study type fics involving him. The beautiful, poetic fics that focus on the tragedy of his arc contrast with the more upbeat stuff that pokes fun at him.
The metas as well. I have to give a special shout out to all the people on tumblr who do character analysis of him. There's a lot to read into, especially since he rarely says what he's thinking exactly. Smarter minds than mine have done long pieces analyzing him, and it's always a treat to see.
All in all, Kabuto fans are passionate, and I love seeing people passionate about their characters!
9. Could I be roommates with him
Yeah, I can't picture us interacting a whole lot, though. Very, he stays where he is I stay where I am. Idk that we'd give each other reason to dislike each other, but I can't see us being friends either. Just, not a lot of shared connection personality or interests wise.
15. Favorite ship
I view him as aroace. None of his ships really appeal to me either.
I think I once threw out Haku when someone asked, like, both survive, post-war au. Idk I still feel like I'd prefer it to be platonic, though. Idk, I prefer platonic all of his ships.
Out of the relationships he has, I personally find his weird psudo-friendship thing with Naruto the most interesting. I wish we got more of it, but that's a fun space for fan exploration so I'm not too bummed out about it.
24. What character from another media does he remind me of?
Unsurprisingly, Chishiya.
Some spoilers for late Alice in Borderlands and Chishiya's arc.
There's bare bones similarities, like both being intelligent medics who are self-centered and betray the main character while the main character trusted them and even viewed them as a bit of an authority. Both survive their stories, not exactly befriending or ever being the main antagonist to the main boy but serving as a dark reflection of him in some ways.
Late in the series, the line that got me to write Chishiya was "it was like I existed to show just how empty a human can be," (chapter 56) which just emotionally wrecked me. The line also feels very Kabuto.
This might be very rambling and I haven't reread Alice in Borderland recently enough to make a real meta on this. I do see a similar sort of crisis in both characters told from very different angles. Chishiya is far more independent for one, but he also doesn't self reflect in the ways Kabuto sometimes does until the end.
#ask game#Feel weird putting this on his tag during Kabuto week#so I will not#idk if there's enough here to warrent it anyway#send me asks about characters!#my thoughts
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Note: this Gijinka sketch was made in Dec 26 2022
An idea I made year ago!
(Long post ahead)
So..I had this idea during my MU phase and that idea is "what if Johnny has a human friend?"
Sully have Boo, so I thought "You know what? I'm gonna give this Monster a little friend"
So say hello to Sammy!
(2nd note: I was joking on this old sketch about Johnny adopting the child, but, he does gives off the father figure to Sam, because I love Johnny)
(Old quick sketch from Dec 29 2022 that has been redrawn today)
Undercut will show my early concept of this au
In the early concept, Sam is a 4 y/o boy who loves bug, and since his mom work as a entomologist, he's allowed to keep a stag bettle as his pet.
How did Sam met Johnny?
Well...it's still in WIP, in the beta concept,
It takes place right after Monster Inc Movie
Lets just say, Sam accidentally met Johnny somewhere which actually scared Johnny himself (3rd note: I just wanna assume that he still think that human are toxic)
It's like when Sully & Mike are dealing with Boo at their apartment (but slightly different?)
Until someone convinced him that Sam wasn't dangerous
Time skip, One day Johnny finally became Sammy's friend.
So when it's night time, he wait for Johnny to come by just to pick him up to play with him.
Also, Sammy nickname Johnny "Beetle" because his big horn reminded him his pet Stag beetle 🪲
Most part of the stories are pretty obvious that it's still WP / unfinished, and the reason are:
- I don't even know what Johnny's home looked like (assumed he lived in a mansion or something), plus we don't know what Fear Co. Even look like on the inside (if this was necessary to this idea of mine?)
- I'm bad at writing a canon characters' accurate personalities & action (ex. What they do, how they talk and so on..)
- I might have forgotten a lot of parts about MI & MU's stories (I'm not good at remembering thing easily)
- I'm not good at making story, so I wasn't able to execute it well (due to my bad English and grammar and also lack of making good story, I think? English is not my first language anyway nor was I a good writer)
- Lastly, I'm still deciding whether I should make this into a 4 panel mini comic series or not (I was inspired from a certain game creator who made a 4koma series of their new game)
And...that's pretty much it,
Boi was this a long post compared to the post I made about my AB oc's design.
I know this was just a silly idea of mine but I still love this concept regardless.
I'm nervous to post this i public cuz' I think people might find my idea to be weird but I just had this random burst of energy of writing this post from 1 - 2 AM (yes you read that correctly).
Thank you for your time reading this!
End of post, back to sleep 🛌💤
#gijinka#johnny worthington#monster university#johnny Worthington III#Monster inc#I wouldn't say that this idea is cringy but I just want Johnny to have a father figure to little Sammy
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☆ Share 3 fun facts about you, then pass this to three of your mutuals! ☆
Wow, I've been tagged four times! @alexis513, @littlemonstert-blog, @mrs-messy and @mysummerchoi, thanks for tagging me. :3
@mysummerchoi, I feel the exact same way. 😭 Plus, I'm not used to supplying info about myself when asked, haha. That stuff always evaporates from my head. ( . _ . )
I might have maybe almost died when I was three or four? Just kidding, but my mom thinks so. It was a day at a Californian beach, I was buried up to my neck in the sand for a picture and I guess they buried me too close to the water, so when a wave washed over me, they completely lost me in the sand, like either I sunk in deeper or sand washed over my head. My uncle just scooped me out like shwoop! lol. Without a picture, I won't know if it was a bad as they thought it was.
I can be clumsy and hurt myself and for whatever reason I never get scared or feel pain with this happens. Sometimes it feels predictable or like it's happening in slo-mo and I just go 'damn' before it happens. Like, at my old job working warehouse, I tripped on my ankle I think? And I just neatly fell forward like a feather, like I just knew not to resist or I'd hurt myself more. Try to imagine a lego man but with bendable knees. Now picture how you would use that lego man in a stop-motion film. It was like that. And it was so weird too that I thought it was funny. Sometimes when I derp and hurt myself it is actually pretty damn funny, but if it happens too often I get severely frustrated and devolve into a 5-year-old. Another time we got rear-ended twice near the offramp to Santa Barbara, and before the second impact, I just relaxed expecting it -- cuz you know, shitty drunk drivers survive because they literally can't tense up or do something worse like move to look behind them (you will hurt your neck doing that) -- But… But..! Try to get my attention when I can't see you, I freak the fuck out. This was probably more than one thing, but I think it's all related to each other lol.
Maybe this is too personal, but I always find psychology and whatnot very interesting, so from that perspective I'll share this bit of dumbassery: My attachment style has improved but is still pretty damn fucky. I just recently remembered how I had a crush on this boy in middle school (our middle school had 3 separate schools attached, so only time you could mingle with students from another jr high was after school clubs and we met in art club and bonded over FLCL), and I didn't know I liked him until the following year, but then I couldn't do anything about it because he was already dating someone else, a witty Korean-American girl (and I also had a complex about not being Asian enough). Time skip three years and he's finally a freshman, so I get to see him again. (We were same age but he had to start school late). I ask if he's still with her (because I still got some feels leftover) and he said she moved to Canada and had a girlfriend. And fuck if I know why cuz... I don't. My initial reaction wasn't 'Oh goody, I get to try again!'. No. I thought 'She's bi?! Why didn't she have a crush on me?!', like in that split second I wanted to be HER girlfriend instead of this other person. How dare this totally cooler than me girl that grabbed my crush find her own super cool girl to be with, like, first I'm not good enough for him, now I'm not good enough for her, I can't even begin to imagine how cool her Canadian GF must be, blah blah blah, she must be unsurpassably cool because she was chosen by someone also unfathomably cool and that's just how that shit works, blah blah blah-- sigh. The silent screams of my pathological need to be important, everyone. And that is why I will no longer do vent posts, because I feel super ashamed whenever I get validated for my bullshit. ; u ;
Haaa, alright, pick three mutuals. Hm. Feels like everyone got tagged tbh... @peppercornpress @char-lotteral aaaand @spaciousignatius 💖
#tag game#I am le cringe#🙃#Is 3 somehow an example of pakikisama or pakikibagay? Or was I just BPD af?
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I wanna kms
I am a 17 year old girl from south east Asia. Y’all might have known how strict Asians are. Anyways my story isn’t just about that. I don’t know why am I sharing my story here but I guess maybe because I don’t think I will be around much longer so…I guess I wanna leave behind something at least.
I won’t say I am an amazing or a perfect person. I have my own flaws and I was immature asf a few years back. So please treat my story with a little kindness. I was born a pretty weak child, cuz my mom didn’t really get much for herself when she was pregnant with me. Her marriage is quite unhappy, though they try their best to never let it show in public. Before I was born dad put his own family wayyyy before mom, theirs was an arranged marriage. After I was born I guess dad fell in love with his daughter and began to be around a lot more. My mom left her job when I was born to take care of me. As I grew up, she began to be pretty strict, about my behaviour, clothing and especially studies. I was ok with it because I honestly didn’t understand much and cried it out. If I did any mistakes as a child in academics I would get severely punished and scolded, they did not beat me much. Both mom and dad. Dad sometimes used to lock me in a room if I could not get the (Bengali) alphabets right, even after he taught me so many times, I was only 2-3. I joined school when I was 4 and when I did no body treated me with kindness. Teachers made me sit at the last apparently because I was dark and not of a high caste. Then when I topped in class 1 after some rough teaching by mom things changed. Skip to class 5, I had a best friend who suddenly told me she didn’t wanna be friends anymore. I was young, it broke me. Skip to 7th grade, a boy who liked me for 2 years began dating me. He broke up with me 2 weeks after, and immediately began to date my prettiest friend. Then again I had a bf who…fell for my best friend who he used to sit with. I never trusted girls as friends after that. I changed school in 8th grade because I was also bullied physically and mentally by boys in 7th grade which included my exes. They touched me inappropriately as well. Then lockdown began and I was confined in home for the whole 8th and 9th grade. I was depressed, a lot mostly because my family situation wasn’t great either. My parents fight verbally a lot for minor reasons and it takes a toll on me. They treat me as the trauma dump and the punching bag (again not physically). It exhausts me but I still loved them. I wanted to die countless times but couldn’t for my mom. She left her job twice. She tells me all these sacrifices she did for me almost everyday. They almost divorced once but I begged and begged and kept them together. Anyways my parents are wayyyy overpossessive. I never go to school or tuition alone, even now I have never stepped out of the house alone. I don’t have my own phone or social media. I am pretty introverted so I can’t make friends easily either. After like 3 years I had made a best friend- a boy. I trusted him with everything, loved him as much as my parents. My teachers thought we were dating, so did my parents, I defended him in front of everyone. He was my home but…when he got a gf he…cut me off. His gf is super insecure which I understand in long distance relationships but….he didn’t even fight for me after all I had been through for him….happened only a few weeks ago and the pain is still raw.
Times like this I don’t get the support of my parents because they think I should be studying and not thinking of stuff like this. If I tell then, they are gonna taunt me about it for a year. Whenever I do something wrong, have mood swings, my mom is like- this is why you don’t have friends. It hurts…so much. When they discovered my scar filled arm they were horrified about what peo would think- and not why I was in such pain. What am I expecting? My own mom told me to d*e, that I was a curse in her life. She made me feel like this a lot. Cold treatment etc etc go on a lot. Still I loved her. Still I loved dad too even though he never stood up for me and always supported my mom in scolding me. I topped last year in 10th grade boards too (98%) but that isn’t enough I guess. Anyways today….i was telling mom about every one who went to the school excursion and tuition picnic. They never let me go to stuff like this because yeah they are quite overprotective. So today by mistake I told her…yeah I didn’t get to go cuz you guys won’t let me. And you know what she said?
“I wish you were born an ORPHAN in your next life, since you wanna be free”
It broke me and whatever was left of my heart. My mother, a mother is telling me…that I should be an…orphan??? Is this the woman I had been living for??
Suddenly I lost all the reason of my life. I had been used and thrown aside all my life. I had always been the second option, the backup plan. My own parents treated me like a trophy child and I still loved them. I have no other relatives to turn to. My best friend who promised he would never leave me like the others did leave me. My own mother…tell me where did I go wrong? All my life I had been kind and helpful, and was never ever mean, I assure you. So why? Why did it happen to me? Why always?? Why me??? So AITAH for wanting to just k*ll myself as soon as possible ? Because honestly I am exhausted….
Edit : Some things I missed- I had one last bf in sophomore (10th). He used to drink and smoke. Even though I told him not to. He was me, my ex best friend’s common friend. One day I suggested for a break cuz of exams and how crazy controlling and jealous he was. He drunk a lot and began to spew shit like me and my bff had an affair behind his back etc etc a lot of bad stuff. Instead of leaving my bff like he did I left my bf for doing this to his own gf and best friend.
I know my mom loves me a lot but- it’s toxic. Maybe because of how she is. But she is very controlling, abt my clothes, behaviour, who I talk to. She checks all messages regularly and is quite emotionally abusive. I tried to understand, but I am tired of not being understood.
#heart been broke so many times#personal vent#vent post#vent tag#in pain#depressing post#tw self destructive behavior#vent#self h@rm#i hate my existence#pain remains#sadnees#sadgirl#tw death#suic1de#help#hell is a teenage girl#sadcore#sad thoughts#this is depressing#depressing shit#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#sorry for being depressing#tw s3lf harm#slef harm#if you can’t love them then at least don’t harm them#i want to die#tw ed diet#vent blog
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You don’t have anon ;-;
Anyway Collector for ask game! 3, 4, 6, 7, 12
Sorry it’s a lot I want you to ramble ur heart out :3
Don't be sorry!!!! These are fun!
Oooo the Collector. Let's see here.
3: Least favorite canon thing about this character? Hmmmm, that's a tough one, cuz I really do like Collector and his character. I think Dana portrayed him really well. I guess maybe my least favorite canon thing about him is the fact that when he left he never really came back (that we saw, anyway). I wanted to see an updated design of him!
4: If you could put this character in any other media, what would you put them in? Another tough one! I think it might be interesting to see him in Star vs the Forces of Evil (before it spiraled into ship wars lol). He seems to fit the vibes of that show and would honestly be SO much more interesting than... whatever they were trying to do with season 4. Also, not sure if this counts, but if Collector could star in his own children's book I think that'd be the sweetest thing.
6: What's something you have in common with this character? I like to have fun! I like to play games! I like people to enjoy the things I like! Maybe not to the extent that Collector does, but I do like to have fun and be silly like he does :)
7: What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like? Definitely the redesigns for what he'd look like if he actually appeared after the time skip. They're all phenomenal
12: What's a headcanon you have for this character? I like to think he made frequent visits back to the gang on the Boiling Isles after he departed. He grew close to them and growing up is hard! So while yeah, some independence is good in that stage, guidance is also crucial. And he came back IN PERSON in the time skip. (for technical reasons I can see why they decided not to include him in the time skip cuz that would be a hell of a lot to animate and finagle lol).
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Characters I wouldn't be friends with if I was in a Series
1. Win (My School President)
Don’t throw any tomato’s yet. I definetly don't hate him but he's just consistently negative and angry. I can't have people like that around me, they are the type to get you beat up by strangers cuz they wanna talk crazy
2. Wai (Bad Buddy)
....We should all know why. He’s vengeful, spite-full, and would definitely get your friend group beat up (I don’t have time for that). Your friend group is getting beat up outside of a McDonald’s and it’s because he has a mouth on him. I wrote a WHOLE dissertation about wai that I never released because I do think he was in a complex situation but what he did was still ASS BACKWARDS and I still wanna fight him.
3. Khai (Theory of Love)
He had a close to garbage personality, but that’s not even the main reason I wouldn’t be friends with him. The main reason is because I can’t stand people who put romantic relationships over their friends. Its fine to spend time with and love your partner but don’t mistreat me and skip out on plans we made prior to go on a date. Also khai mainly had flings in the first damn place, he didn’t take any relationship seriously but still had the nerve to flake on friends??
4. Pi (Fish Upon the sky)
Never met someone who complains as much as him. Brat behavior and I would’ve gotten tired of it. Everyday its "why me", boo-fucking-hoo "woe is me". Honestly couldn't finish the series because he was so unlikeable. I do wanna give him some slack cuz he was bullied and used by those around him which made him bitter, but he’s just not my type of person. (Keep in mind I didn’t finish the series so maybe he got better towards the end). I might just have misunderstood him.
I feel like i'm missing some people but these are on the top of my head right now! Are there any characters y'all wouldn't be friends with?
#honorable mention is King from Bed Friend cuz we'd be more than more than friends and more than FWBs whew 😮💨 my man my man my man#can you tell I have a fear of getting beat up LMFAOOO#I will not be fighting especially not in public cuz that lands you in JAIL#tbh i wouldn't be friends with most of the bad buddy characters cuz they were fighting as if jail doesn't exist#I'm not gonna let my future be cut short due to hanging out with them#my school president#fish upon the sky#bad buddy#theory of love#my school president the series#khaithird#satangwinny#winnysatang#Gmmtv#thai bl series#off jumpol#winny thanawin#jimmysea#gmmtv series#thai bl
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bnha I guess then? ep 5-7
ohey isn't that the tumbly sexlerguy of this show? with the scarf and the 5 o'clock? actually idk if he was in the poll or if drawfee just talked about him before, but he looks like one to me.
huh. he's got his shirt tucked in and all. not planning on hulking out tonight I guess. -- come to think of it tho, there hasn't been any talk so far of whether this "inheriting" of the Quirk is going to mean that All Might loses his power. -- …okay I guess this is him saying that here?
…"Itadakimasu" is translated as "I'm off!" here. I think I'm gonna have to accept that I'm never gonna know the full meaning of that one unless I put my entire ass into learning what's probably one of the harder languages to try to learn when starting from English. 'XD I should content myself with knowing about "natsukashiku."
This fucking guy again
This other fucking guy tho, Ida (Iida? Maybe the subs just misspelled it that time? idk). Cautiously starting to like him. Bit annoying, but annoying about being a decent guy.
it's the sexlerman doing his Kakuna cosplay. Forgot he did that. Maybe he's literally just Stein but less uncomfortable to watch, that'd be fun. -- Aizawa. When do we learn pink girl's name tho? The opening flashes the names by too fast.
ZUKO. IT'S ZUKO. HI ZUKO. Hope he gets some lines soon. -- literally googles just to check that he isn't voiced by dante basco bc that might be the only thing that would actually get me to watch a dub (I just like to read shows and not have to follow verbal convo I'm not here to argue about it) -- also Froppy (?) and birdman and that one guy who by reputation needs as few lines as possible and, uh, acid girl I think? and invisible girl. and, y'know, the rest
sounds like shithead's (not The Bad Shithead, the bad shithead we already know) VA is having fun, at least. sounds fucking terrifying
…eraser what. …am I not gonna wanna like this guy? I know just enough about what eraser head (the movie) is to know I don't wanna know any more about it -- pretty sure he's bullshitting about expulsion. unless it's gonna be laser navel here who gets expelled, cuz I've never seen nuffin about him before -- stg give this man a bucket hat and clogs and poof he's from a different show -- …gawd I hope nothing tempts me to continue bleach, I haven't heard anything good about the bits past that filler even tho it's aesthetically so much more my jam
Uraraka. …I read the entire Bionicle book series as a kid, I should be able to remember that just fine. … ':|
can't get the image of saitama with his head stuck in the ceiling out of his head
…ayup. no notes. next one.
"the person with the lowest total score will be expelled" meanwhile I don't think being fucking invisible makes you run any faster or throw any harder. the fuck's No-Hat-No-Clogs on about? -- absolute dickweed. also how in fuck did invisible girl beat deku? cheating? is she even able to make her clothes invisible, or is it a Violet Parr situation where it has to be a specific material?
I mean tbf you haven't tried powering up one toe at a time yet. running/skipping that way might look stupid as hell but it's better than blondie over there
"I'M DEKU!!!" 'XD -- I also love the exaggerated reaction shots in this, they're very good -- copernican…? googles nerd.
how I've never seen a gif of "I'M… COMING THROUGH THE DOOR LIKE A NORMAL PERSON!" I'll never know
these oughta be good
okay this is cute -- facepalm nobody told me deku was a furry
…well that's conve - huh. Iida being the teammate will be interesting. (also is it gonna turn out that they're lying about it being randomized now? because this is some astonishing coincidence) -- interesting that they're literally playing rainbow six siege tho
awfully metallic for paper mache
…that's… huh. powerful moment for bakugo to just throw away like he's going to
aye, next one
haha kid bakugo walks like a rugrats character
why is zuko half-covered in ice for no reason? is that sposed to be his costume?
heh. he's not Saitama or Rock Lee. He's Karate Kid. (I saw like one or two episodes of Legion of Superheroes) His superpower is knowing what it's like to not have a Quirk. -- "I need a plan." runs off ah, yes. more time for thinking. hope he stops being relatable soon and actually comes up with a plan, tho. -- you don't need to beat Bakugo if you can get him lost tho. …maybe I'm underestimating him but I would be surprised if he bothered to memorize the layout worth a damn. -- I swear his VA is channeling a lot of mob boss for a high schooler 'XD
…Iida you're being weird. for the love of fuck please don't tell me you're gonna start listening to mr bonaparte up there
"he's just standing there… cackling like an idiot"
huh. we did learn why he's got bigass grenades on his hands. -- sidenote: …when I was a kid I wrote up superpowers that my stuffed animals had. one of them was literally this. …I gotta get myself to fucking write more. (didn't write any actual stories, tho. also obv I didn't think of the gun bit) -- and that's how deku got his costume
aye. good shit. gonna stop for tonight
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So this is the bike here and he says that you modernize it a little I don't know how you going to do that he says if you look at the frame it's smaller just like the hard knock kicker 5150 and they made a mistake and our son says no because you can't tell you're supposed to put a Harley in it and that's true too. And he was pretty sharp that guy for being gifted and he started a revolution this is I think I got them to postpone it and you get to skip all this stupid crap they're putting me through. So he looked at him and didn't say anything and he figured it out and he went to them and he said I might need help and they helped and you helped he says he's a real dear someday I have to wrestle him and those guys got excited and said they can mutate him. And he would never win and he says he might cuz I might not be that humongous and it's true but here we go
-this is the idea to take this bike and make it into a dirt bike and Enduro two different bikes it is a 110cc the motor is the Italian motor it's not the street bike but it is a very fast it's about 45 horsepower which is 15 more than the comparable Yamaha which would have I think like 400 cc's and once again it's a lot lighter but that's a lot of horsepower and this thing would scream and it would be famous for instantly and it would make it look like this and David did engineering and that's JC who is David audett and he did design it correctly the particular shape that you on this bike balances it we have changed a little but we can keep the look and the piping can be a similar size his motor is not huge and we'd make it from the 110 up to we think 250 at this size and it was still take the frame and it can hold someone at 400 pounds the way the reason is it's less material and it's less expensive and the way the frame is made is very inexpensive. He did think about it he did a decent job as an engineer and the rear is in the middle with regards to the travel of the suspension and it takes easy on the chain and the transmission and it's engineered and we will use the square box idea for the ball bearings it saves time and a lot of money and energy and we also use it on the swing arm and at a chain tensioner and we also going to make it so it's balanced but so it's about the right size for the average person and people don't do that and we will and even the posture. This is a bit forwards they have like a lower handlebars system for dirt bikes and you see them all the time and it'll be perfect and they're cheap and we can buy the part and it's really inexpensive and the frame and the engine the motor would be really cheap to build and nobody's really doing it and you need them the tires and rims we would use spokes they take quite a while to make mags never look good even when they're Chrome there are a couple that look decent and he said we should do it because it portrays that it's inexpensive and I do understand it's true if you don't want a solid rim you do have a problem with the wind only on big bikes and even then it's a problem but here is the deal he wants to start with this bike and this is a small as it gets but we would make it this size and start with 49cc and then we would also have a 110cc and there's a 90cc state and it will be in Enduro to begin with not a dirt bike and the dirt bike would be more rugged the travel will be more like a husk of Rihanna and I'm a perfect person for this and the guys are saying we're getting in there and really I like being in the background and he wants to Captain it himself and saying they won't let him and they say you don't do the job you're off fighting this war he said this is part of the war and he wants the guys in the shop and he wants to take the shop and not from the tuttels. And why would we ever do that the max are using them against us so we're thinking of doing that and he says it's a good idea it'll be American choppers there first since I thought it was an Orange county that's New York and it is but Orange county New York is not where this company was founded he's going to find out where
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I like this motorcycle and I want one reserved for me and I want one built for me I'm going to tell father and mother
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