#thing i have talked about liking for years and Also have expressed insecurity abt liking. that she reassured me over .

[avpdgirlfriend]

i fucking hate talking abt my interests forever its so embarrassing to me noo i dont genuinely like this it doesnt make me happy i actually dont feel anything ever. its soo ironic dont make fun ofme

[quartzalynlove]

Dating Johnny Cage Would Include

Pairing: Johnny Cage (mk1) x reader

Summary: hcs about dating our favorite movie star

Warnings: none

A/N: I've got so many Johnny ideas running around this head

Alright let's cut to the chase

This man's love language is gift giving

Jewelry, clothing, shoes he's buying it all for you

You know in Iron Man 3 when Tony bought the giant Christmas bunny for Pepper? Yeah expect something like that from time to time

But he's also very sentimental and will buy you things he knows you love/will make you happy

That book you've been talking about reading all year? He'll surprise you with it on a random Tuesday just to see you smile

And don't be a collector or something

You like mugs? Funko pops? Magic the Gathering?? He's the sole sponsor of your collection

His net worth may be in the millions but nothing he owns is worth more than pure joy on your face

Speaking of your face he's constantly trying to get you on the screen

Whether you think you have talent or not Johnny just wants your perfect being captured on film

"C'mon, doll, I found auditions for a lead in a rom-com. You'd steal hearts on the big screen!"

Lord knows you've already stolen his

The man's a huge kid and nerd at heart so if you're also a movie buff he'll be on cloud nine

He hasn't had many people to talk to about the magic of entertainment since his mom when he was younger

The two of you would lose track of time talking about the good, the bad, and the cheesy of movie history

This also means he will talk and flirt with you almost exclusively in movie quotes

And if at any point you start thinking they're cheesy he'll switch it up with an expression bc he knows they always make you laugh

While he is silly, nerdy, and impulsive Johnny also values quality time with you

He wouldn't trade his job for anything in the world but sometimes it's a lot

Sometimes he just needs a movie night you

Nothing but the two of you cuddled on the couch, a bottle of wine, and the entire Star Wars saga

He could never thank you enough for supporting him and in turn he fully supports you in all of your passions

Imposter syndrome and insecurity are not allowed in the house

For every flaw you see in your work he will list 10 things he loves about it

"I know it's hard not to feel like this, but even when you can't believe in yourself, I'll always be your cheerleader."

Where's his favorite place to kiss you? Where isn't

It all depends on which part of you looks most kissable at any given moment

He'll kiss your lips, cheek, forehead. He'll even kiss your stomach totally unprompted.

Got freckles or beauty spots? He's abt to become a problem

In his eyes, you're walking cinema that he can touch, taste, and love. He wouldn't miss a second of you.

Bottom line: Johnny's happiness in life is bringing joy to the world and you're no exception

The smiles of millions of his fans at Cage Con is only equal to one of yours

[grandlinedreams]

I know i request alot but i love your writing smmm

Do u mind if u r comie with writing law’s reaction if he thought his girlfriend was cheating on him?like his reaction and if he confronts or not

Emphasize on thought (she didn't cheat he misunderstood)

Stay safe aurhor chan 🖤

Hiya bb, no worries!! I'm glad that you like my writing!! And you stay safe too!! But I also hope this is to your liking!!

[Heads up!: mention of hypothetical infidelity but isn't really abt that, Law is just an anxious babe, insecurity, a lil angst, afab!reader]

"Are you excited about going home?"

You shrug, trying to play off the rise of nervouse excitement that swells in your chest as you answer Penguin. "A little, it's been ages so I'm not sure anyone's going to remember me."

"I'm sure they will," Penguin reassures you and you beam, though it dims a little as you're abruptly reminded of someone who had not shared your enthusiasm about stopping for supplies at your home island.

Law is never particularly enthusiastic about anything, but the soft smile he'd worn at the start of your excited ramble about where Bepo said you were heading had disappeared at a record rate. By the time you were done, his answers had gone to a measure of about two words if you were lucky, and you'd finally given up, heart sinking.

You don't know what the problem is. It's not as though you're planning on leaving the Heart Pirates, planning on leaving him ㅡ you would never. Though you've missed the comforts that always come with the thoughts of home, you're not about to abandon the home that you have now.

ㅡ

Law is afraid that you'll leave.

He doesn't know where the fear has come from given that it's baseless, but the enthusiasm and soft-expressioned way you describe your home island only furthers that creeping feeling until he's trying hard not to think about.

And truth be told, he wouldn't blame you if you did. Being a pirate is dangerous, especially when the bounty only continues to grow ㅡ and though he absolutely tries, he knows he can't promise your safety all the time.

You deserve stability and safety, a future that you can look to and find strong foundation in. You deserve more than what he can give you.

And though it hurts to think about the idea of losing you, Law tells himself that he'll support your decision, no matter what it may be.

ㅡ

To your surprise, there's more than a few people who recognize you, waving and offering greetings.

"Look at you, a genuine pirate now!"

"Staying out of trouble, right? Don't wanna see that pretty face on a Wanted poster!"

Law watches the way you interact with them and chastises himself for getting too into his worries of you wanting to stay here. It's clear that you miss it, but you never stray far from the small group that you've lead to gather supplies.

That is until there's a call of your name and Law looks over to find it to be an unfamilar man, perhaps a year or two younger than himself. He opens his arms, and jealousy rears its ugly green head in Law's chest when you dart forward to throw yourself into him.

He spins you, earning a shriek of delight from you before he sets you down. What he says next is inaudible, but he talks for several moments before your expression shifts to an unreadable one.

"Hey guys," you call, "canㅡcan you finish up without me? I'll meet you in a little bit, I just need to go do something."

There's varying murmurs of agreement, but something ugly blossoms in Law's stomach at the way your hand curls around the newcomer's.

ㅡ

When sunset rolls around and you still haven't come back to the Polar Tang, the ugly thing has curled claws deep into him and sewn its seeds of dissent.

Law knows you would never cheat on him, he knows ㅡ but the familiarity with which you'd treated the other man makes him wonder if you'd be happier with him rather than Law.

Again, if you'd be happier here.

Staring out at the town, it takes him a minute to register that the form growing closer is you, heart giving an uneasy lurch when he sees you lift an arm to your face. Had that other man hurt you?

A quiet "shambles" has him just a few feet from you now and you jolt, startled. "Law?"

"You've been crying," Law points out instead, the tear tracks that glisten on your cheeks. "Did that guyㅡ"

"He didn't do anything," you say, sweeping a hand over both your eyes to rid yourself of remnants. "He went with me to see my parents' graves. He's pretty much been my big brother since I was little, so he said he told everyone else that he wanted to be the one to tell me they'd passed."

Oh.

Law feels awful. He'd been worrying about you cheating on him, leaving him ㅡ and you hadn't been doing either. How could he think so little of you?

He steps closer, tugging you into his arms, heart aching at the muffled hiccup. He doesn't need to ask if you're okay when you're clearly not ㅡ and he feels even worse for the brief flare of satisfaction that you cling to him, fingers curled into his jacket.

"Sorry for worrying you," you mumble softly, "Should've come back sooner."

"Don't apologize." He pauses. "...it's me who should be doing that." When you pull away to look up at him, he looks away. "...I was worried you'd want to stay here. It's safer here, and you could find someone to give you what you deserve. Things I don't know if I can."

You stare blankly as you register his words, and he absolutely loathes the renewed shine of tears in your eyes. "Leave the Heart Pirates? The Polar Tang? You? Trafalgar Law, I would never."

He flinches at the usage of his full name, watching as you sniffle. "You owe me for making me cry again, idiot."

The uneasy tension in his chest starts to let up. "I do," he says. "I'll do anything you want me to."

You take the half-step needed to press your face back into his chest, your voice mumbled. "Can you shambles us back onto the ship? I'm tired and I wanna go home. My real home."

Relief floods his veins at your reassurance that you aren't going anywhere anytime soon, that he has nothing to worry about. That you're his as much as he's yours.

"Yeah," he answers. "Let's go home."

[bloodsadx]

thanks to everyone who has sent me asks and such saying i understand how to draw for being nice and stuff. i'm going to ramble about some influence/process stuff below if you want to read abt it

this might read as some kind of artistic statement or defense or something but i like to talk about this kind of thing just in case anybody can ever get anything meaningful out of my own thoughts and practices. i got to where i am after a lot of careful consideration and spending time thinking about what i like in other people's art, just like anybody else that makes art to any serious degree.

my "style" is very much a deliberate series of decisions that i have honed into being very fast for my own pleasure and enjoyment because i am very inspired by people like king terry/garo magazine/the heta-uma style, keiichi arawi, inio asano, hiroyuki imaishi, toru nakayama, phil elverum (as a cartoonist), gary panter (who was a friend of matt groening and wrote an essay about selling out that is worth reading and did a lot of stuff with RAW magazine which is one of my favorite things to think about), DIY/skatewear brand t shirt cartoons, early MSPA hussie stuff, etc. a lot of my favorite artists walk a line between constant high effort and low time investment art; often contrasting elaborately planned perspective grids or high resolution rendering with simple cartooning. asano and arawi i think are very clear and famous examples of artists that use 3d rendering and photography for backgrounds while drawing very deliberate and expressive characters on top of them. toru nakayama is really inspiring to me because he, like toriyama, has a very deep understanding of form AND cartooning and has a way of making extremely densely crafted cartoons which feel visceral and almost like plastic toys you can pick up and play with on the page. also just one of my favorite colorists. and i think hussie and arawi and imaishi are all fantastic character designers with very strong understandings of designing art styles that convey information very quickly and deliberately; i think bryan lee omalley and jamie hewlett were also big early influences on me for the same thing- they all have art styles with very clear line/negative space proportions, strong shape language, etc, and for a long time in my life i have sought to grasp a similar understanding of these things. and then i think phil elverum's fancy people adventures cartoons and just like skate brands and "shitty" DIY drawings and stuff (the album art for nana grizol's love it love it is like burned into my brain forever; seeing basquiat paintings and poems in a museum when i was 15 made me feel whatever and crazy and etc) are just something that serve as a constant reminder to me that some of the most effective art is art that is simply fun to look at, especially when it comes to making comic and cartoon art. simplicity and joie de vivre are very important to me as artistic concepts.

and i mean, i do fuck with crazy painter dudes and shit too; i was huge into goya when i was 14 and had a print of the witches sabbath taped to my wall until i was like 22, i fw waterhouse & bruegel the elder insanely. i am like a sponge for most kinds of art and i do a lot of art research all the time. most of my first book was heavily influenced by compositional techniques from pre-raphaelite painters and the iconography of egyptian & greek wall art and especially especially extremely crowded gothic art and the concept of horror vacui.

but anyway, im not really insecure about my art, i know how much effort and time and practice and research i've put in, i definitely know my strengths regarding cartooning and stuff, and i'm even more aware of where my work needs "improvement" in order to be "commercially viable." i've been in multiple positions in the past several years of taking art seriously where other people have been dismissive of my art and i've seen other people fail to capture the energy & simplicity that i am able to get in my own art, etc.

for people interested in my Process and the things that i work on to draw the way that i do, the way i have gotten whatever skills i have has been mostly through drawing the same things over and over and over (toenail, cavity, pimple, gunk, making different expressions and doing different poses); i draw in pen MOST of the time, and i have for a very long time, and i make few edits, and i focus on keeping energy and confidence in my lines; i do perspective studies, i've spent a lot of time doing gesture drawings and environmental studies inside and outside. i draw a lot of movie frames and do color studies of youtube videos and stuff like that. i remember reading some kind of criticism of post-KAWS/street art infiltration of commercial art that artists now are most rewarded for drawing literally the same thing over and over and over like their hands are printers and that the main thing artists are then allowed to do within that context is express themselves through minor variations within that key theme; i don't think im THAT rote but it has definitely informed my perpsective on what i do and what i am interested in doing. on some level i have designed my art to be easily reproducible by myself because i want to make comics and sometimes even to animate my characters and that requires me to be able to draw a lot of drawings relatively quickly. this is another reason why character designers and video game key artists are such massive influences on me, takehito harada and akiman and toshiyuki kusakihara being some huge ones i've spent a lot of time doing studies of i didn't mention previously.

and because the main way i make money at this point in my life is through screen printing & reproducing my drawings as items for sale, i spend a lot of time making my art Distinct, Eye Catching, and Iconic, to the degree of instant recognizability even on a t shirt or a sticker from far away, and i try to make my drawings strictly legible and generally focus on communicating ideas and emotions through big thematic and emotional gestures and strong colors that can be easily separated. this is one of the main reasons i havent developed as strong of a rendering/coloring habit; that kind of stuff is difficult to color separate for the purpose of solo DIY screen printing. but i've spent a pretty decent amount of time doing that stuff, and i spend time studying forms regardless, with the lines that i do use. a lot of my sketchbooks are me drawing literally the same thing over and over slightly differently until i have something that i feel is a strong enough cartoon to make into a shirt or patch or sticker design that satisfies a litany of criteria i have for what i consider strong cartooning.

anyway that was a very rambling post but i hope at least people get something out of it even if its just slight entertainment from me blowing hot air out of my mouth for 20 minutes.

[bdsmrist]

i know the game goes in detail about joyce’s pearly white teeth, but what about the other character’s teeth?

harry’s teeth would be surprisingly straight, but yellowed from the years of substance abuse. probably has worn down gums, too. still, i think it adds to his character. its like he has a golden smile, in a way. and funnily enough, altho hes been aware of his teeth’s condition throughout the years, that’s never stopped him from smiling. not just because of “the expression” necessarily, but because he loves giving that to ppl. loves letting them know his happiness is directed at them

kim’s teeth would be crowded. especially the bottom row. its unlikely he could afford dental care in his youth with being in the foster care system and all. and he’s probably a little insecure about it. but the few times he flashes you a smile, you can see the how one if his canines pushes the incisor in, and its the most charming thing ever; how his sharp tooth pokes out to say hello. god, i bet he has the warmest smile ever, even warmer than harry’s. it comes sparingly, and he avoids doing it, but when he does, its like god’s gift to you

jean’s teeth seem pretty normal at first glance. u dont get to see em much; he doesnt rly smile that often. nothin to smile abt in this world. however, when he *does* smile, u notice one of his premolars are missing (harry probably noticed it pretty quickly) but if u were to ask him how and why that is, its probably the most anticlimactic thing ever. not “i got my teeth knocked out on a mission once” but rather “i ate shit once middle school and thats that”

im pretty sure it’s canon that ruby has a gap tooth, which is hot and does get her bitches. but i think she just has small teeth in general, with the exception of her two front teeth. like the kind that in retrospect kinda look like shark teeth. its so cool. and also shes a side-smiler, a smirker, if you will. too powerful for this world.

idk man, i feel like teeth are often times an indicator of peoples socio-economical background that isnt talked about enough (hence, joyce’s teeth being something harry notes first hand). but i dont think we’re meant to have “perfect” teeth. teeth have stories, and hold records of our lives. and with how nuanced every single character of the disco-verse is, i dont doubt everyones smile says something unique about them.

[nectar-cellar]

more amir brainrot

i’m answering all the piping hot oc asks by nectargrapes for him bc umm i want to. i saw this as an ask game on my dash. well, nobody asked me for this. yet here we are. i love having fun!

reusing some old pics bc i don’t have time to take new ones

so if you want to learn way too much useless nsfw info abt him, continue reading below 😌

🔥 Piping Hot OC Asks 🔥

🥵 : Is your OC perceived as physically attractive to others? Is it at first glance or is it something that takes more time to reach fruition?

yes, he’s a pretty conventionally attractive guy. people tend to not compliment him on his looks though because he often has a serious expression on his face and he comes across as intimidating and unfriendly.

💦 : Is your OC’s attractiveness based on looks or a more intangible aura?

he has a reserved and serious personality which can be really attractive to someone who’s into the sexy brooding mysterious stranger kinda thing. from another perspective, he can seem awkward, closed off and unapproachable which can be a major turn-off to other people.

💪 : What is your OC’s most physically attractive attribute?

people find themselves captivated by his beautiful brown eyes when they talk to him! his height and broad shoulders definitely turn heads as well.

🧠 : What is your OC’s most mentally attractive attribute?

he has a really soft, caring and thoughtful side to him that can be really attractive to someone who has taken the time to get to know him well.

👀 : Does your OC believe they are attractive? Do they use that to their advantage?

he doesn’t think he looks anything special. to him, his appearance just is. sure, he can sense when someone is attracted to him. sure, he knows that being tall and muscular are conventionally attractive traits. but is he attractive? he would have a hard time seeing himself that way. by default, he assumes other people aren’t attracted to him. so no, using his looks to his advantage would be very out of character for him. he also doesn’t really think about whether other people find him attractive or not, he’s not someone who cares that much about his appearance or what other people think.

👃 : Does your OC smell good? Do they have a signature scent?

he smells like whatever $5 deodorant stick/spray you can find in the drugstore grooming aisle. the “sport” scent or the “fresh” scent. he doesn’t know who tom ford is or where the “eau de toilette” is.

👂 : Does your OC have an attractive voice?

he has a deep voice and he is rather soft spoken. his voice is also kind of monotone, he doesn’t have a very animated speech pattern. his voice could put someone to sleep, either from boredom or comfort lol

🚲 : Does your OC enjoy playing the field? Or are they more monogamy-minded?

amir is definitely more monogamy-minded. he does not like playing the field because he’s shy, has low self worth, and doesn’t find casual dating and hookups to be meaningful. he’s socially awkward and closed off and he wouldn’t like having someone’s attention on him, opening up to a stranger, and he doesn’t think someone would be impressed by him. he yearns for an emotional connection though, and he needs that in order for anything else to be enjoyable. he’s a hopeless romantic, he idealizes romantic relationships because they are so elusive, he just wants one relationship to be the relationship. he thinks of dating as like, if i can’t see myself marrying them in a few years, what is even the point of going on a date with them, it’d just be a waste of time!

😍 : What does your OC find irresistible in others?

he needs to be with someone who has similar values to him. he finds a kind heart to be an irresistible trait. he also loves someone who is openly affectionate towards him. he would have a hard time admitting that and asking for what he wants so he’d melt for someone who openly gives that to him. he’s also attracted to a damsel-in-distress type, it’s an insecurity and ego thing, he wants nothing more than to be someone’s hero, it’s like “even if i hate myself and think i’m worthless at least i can still make the person i love happy.” physically, he is attracted to femininity, he always thought he was straight but his attraction is much broader and it’s something about himself he continues to struggle to accept/have conflicting feelings about because of ✨ baggage ✨

💘 : Is your OC a very good flirt? Are they charming?

no, he has no game and in general he wants to be left alone. he only tries to be flirty and charming when he’s decided he likes someone and wants to seriously pursue them and knows they’d be receptive to his advances. he could never be that smooth talking playboy, life of the party type of guy.

💋 : Is your OC a good kisser? How do they do it?

he loooves kissing. he likes giving cute forehead and cheek kisses. in bed, he likes kissing his partner’s neck and down their chest, all over the body really, it’s like a physical way of expressing his strong desire for them. he’s a soft and sensual kisser but he’s not afraid to get nastier if that’s what his partner likes. 

🦴 : Does your OC have much sexual experience? What are they like?

he is not very experienced but he’s not insecure about it. he’s confident he could please someone if he put in the effort to do so. he also thinks it would be really meaningful to gain experience with his partner together, continuously learning each other’s likes and dislikes. he’s definitely seen his fair share of porn and he has kinks he’d like to explore if his partner was open to it. he’s more open-minded than he wants to admit! as long as he’s in love, he would be down to try a lot. he definitely likes to be romantic and soft in bed, vanilla would not be boring to him, the kinkier stuff would just be the cherry on top. 

💞 : Do they treat sex casually or do they view it as something with a lot of emotional weight?

he doesn’t judge other people for having casual sex but for him, sex holds a lot of emotional weight and it’s not something he would want to do with just anyone. a big part of why sex is enjoyable for him is the emotional connection with his partner and he just wouldn’t be able to reach that intensity with a stranger he doesn’t care about or has no future with.

🔥 : What’s a surefire way to make your OC get flustered?

nude photos will immediately set his imagination on fire.

🧸 : Into public displays of affection or are they more reserved?

he loves affection so he’s definitely into handholding and hugs and things like that even if he’s shy about it. he’d be so in his own little world with his partner that he wouldn’t even notice if other people were around.

💌 : How would they plan a romantic evening for a significant other?

something he would totally do is set up an outdoor movie date with a projector, big screen, hanging lights, a cozy blanket and pillows on the ground, a picnic basket full of food and wine, and a bouquet of flowers. or he would make his apartment all clean, set up candles and a record player, and cook his significant other a really good meal. for something more spontaneous, he’d pick up his significant other and go to a midnight diner for some greasy comfort food and then just have a late night drive, stop off somewhere quiet, and just talk and watch the stars.

💐 : What is their courting style? How would they woo someone?

he would find ways to spend time with them. he would muster up the courage to be direct like “hey, i want to see you, want to do ____ with me?” he’d put in the effort to plan dates. he’ll send and reply to texts consistently even though he’s not a big texter or social media user. he wouldn’t be super flirty or anything but he’d give that person his full attention and he’d make it obvious he was interested. he’ll notice and remember every little detail about that person and basically burn them into his memory and think about them constantly which would translate into him being really attentive and almost clingy.

👙 : What kind of underwear do they use? Is it pretty or functional?

functional 😭 he wears athletic undies for working out or he buys those affordable 4-6packs you can get at costco/walmart/etc. you know the ones where you get a pair of grey, navy, and black each. he has no one to impress, he gets zero bitches anyways.

[amaya-writes]

High school Au! I hope that’s ok- basically, reader is on the volleyball team, but feel left out because they are a year older than their team mates. Dazai, who didn’t really care for anything before that was sport related, was dragged by his friend group to go see one of their games.

When he sees reader perform a perfect spike and have an amazing game, he finds himself interested in learning more. He starts talking to reader and soon enough, she confides in him abt what’s been happening.

If you have any questions abt volleyball or anything related to my request, I’d be happy to help! Remember to take care of yourself and stay hydrated! Feel free to add to my reply, I don’t mind^^ anything you write (Atleast from my perspective, but I totally get what happens from a writers perspective) I’d beautiful and makes my heart EXPLODE-

Thank youuu!

EVENT MASTERLIST ABOUT THE EVENT

Notes: I changed it from a spike to a serve because I didn't feel like writing out a whole match scene, I hope that's fine! also thank you 🥺💜

Warnings: n/a

Characters involved: Dazai Osamu, mentions Chuuya

Gender-neutral reader, you/yours

The next time Chuuya dragged him to a boring sports game Dazai was going to suffocate him with that stupid hat he insisted on always wearing.

It wasn't that Dazai had a particular aversion to sports or anything. In fact, he normally enjoyed watching a few matches on his phone.

It was the fact that he had been dragged away from his work and seated in the middle of a gym stuffed with sweaty gossiping teenagers who loved to stare at their president.

Dazai's normal excuses of his duties as a representative of the school had fallen on deaf ears as Chuuya used the fact that their adorable juniors Akutagawa and Atsushi were going to have a match that afternoon to coerce Dazai into joining.

However, one match quickly turned into three and before he knew it Dazai found himself sitting through the entirety of the under eighteen volleyball qualifiers with a buzzing Chuuya clinging to his side.

"Chuuya I have things to do."

His annoyed call was ignored for the umpteenth time that day as the shorter male kept his eyes trained on the court, not even bothering to turn to Dazai as he replied.

"Just a minute! Our best spiker is about to serve."

His words intrigued Dazai more than he cared to admit, which was why the brunette found his head turning forward to observe the student clad in their school's uniform standing at the far end of the court.

Chuuya had thankfully been insightful enough to snatch the best seats for the two of them, which meant that Dazai could easily see the calm expression on your face as you tossed your ball upwards the second the sound of the referee's whistle cut through the gym.

For a second, he thought that nothing had happened.

But then Dazai heard the people around him erupt in cheers as a loud thud echoed from the other side of the court; a sound that had him turning to stare at the volleyball now idly bouncing in the middle of the opponents.

"You were right."

Dazai could sense Chuuya's smug grin even before he turned towards the redhead, but didn't bother to boost his ego more than necessary as he turned back to observe you.

"You were amazing! Of course our oldest and most experienced player would put us in the lead with one serve!"

He could tell your teammates had meant it in a nice way, but even from his seat behind your manager's bench, there was no mistaking the poorly hidden frown tugging on your lips.

The way you seemed to shrink in on yourself as your teammates continued praising you confused Dazai to no end. After all, why would you be insecure about something as simple as age?

"-turning eighteen in a couple of weeks, thankfully coach said that didn't matter."

Oh.

Being a couple of months or even a year older than your classmates was usually nothing to worry about in school. But when you start your last year, it was hard for the older children to feel included when their friends were still minors.

Some people, like Dazai, thought nothing of the age gap. But you seemed to be affected by it.

He shouldn't have cared as much as he did.

Dazai told himself he was just bored. That he chose to follow after you as you left the gym with an excuse to use the bathroom only because your insecurity was the only interesting thing he had seen all afternoon.

But that was a lie.

You were classmates who never talked much, but Osamu had always thought you were pleasant to be around. Maybe that was why he didn't like seeing you so down about something so stupid.

"You're going to be late if you just keep standing there."

You jumped up in alarm at the sudden sound of his voice, the sight making Dazai scoff in amusement as he walked up to you and took to leaning against the other end of the window you were staring out of.

"Dazai. Didn't see you there."

He hummed at your acknowledgement but was quick to speak up a moment later.

"You shouldn't be insecure about your age."

"How did you-"

Dazai shrugged at your confused questioning, with the action being the only answer he was willing to provide you.

"Doesn't matter. Listen, you're not better than them because you're a few months older. You're better because you're talented."

He moved closer to you as he spoke, only coming to a stop once you were trapped between him and the cold glass window.

"Worrying about your age just gives them something to get into your head with-"

Maybe distracting you with misleading romantic gestures wasn't the right way to ensure his school won, but Dazai didn't really care much about morals. Not when this way he could watch you squirm and part your lips as you tried to come up with some sort of a retort.

"I wouldn't want our star spiker losing over something so stupid."

He moved forward to cup your cheek and tap it affectionately before completely pulling away.

Dazai could tell you wanted to comment on his proximity, perhaps even make a move, but you weren't allowed to do anything else as the gym door behind him loudly flew open, followed by calls of your teammates searching for you.

"You should go."

You nodded along to his words, almost as if they helped snap you out of the flustered daze his proximity caused.

The sight had Dazai letting out a soft smile as he watched you pull away and return to the gym with a quick thank you.

Maybe sports games weren't so boring after all.

[r0b0t1me]

"#sorry i can only make snippets of scenes and never elaborate on them#unless someone asked me to. huehue" i am begging. you to elaborate the "train me" sketch on the upper right 🥹 and any jr. hcs you have that u wanna talk abt (but only if u want).... also pls your coloring and expressions are INSANE but this is nothing i havent told u before!!!!!!!!! i just think your sketches have so much story bleeding out of them. its great

so funny thing about the train me one....

some of these are ideas i know ive talked about already, but im pulling a lot from idw where casey copes with fear/anger/insecurity by picking fights and attempting to be a vigilante. leos always the one who portals him out of jail and patches him up but the more i think about it, raph could help in managing his anger or taking it out in a more productive way (duo missions perhaps?), even if he cant unpack the mountain of trauma caseys got on his shoulders

i cant help it that the scene where casey cusses out leo is engraved in my brain forever. the kids a jones, on top of the constant violence in his life, anger feels like something that would come pretty naturally to him in order to cope* (i know he was raised to be a soldier, following orders and keeping a check on his emotions to carry things out, so i feel like the moment he doesnt have to fight a war and keep himself in line for the sake of other people anymore everything just kind of pours out of him) donnie has easily spent 1000$ in new sandbags for the dojo

*not that i think casey is inherently violent or always upset. but i think the kids a bit messed up sometimes from the. yknow the Everything

from riches and wonders by the mountain goats. casey jones, the restless ghost who cant feel at home

actually yknow what lets make this post a mile long who cares. i wanna explore casey hanging out with all the boys. i know i focus a lot on him and leo bc their dynamic is so twisted but i need to draw him hanging with mikey, learning to cope with self expression that he never got the real chance to do in wartime. him being around donnie and the two of them both learning they can support each other while still trying to protect their family in their own way (talking mainly abt casey helping donnie with his tech here, since donnies neurotic as hell abt security after the movie to me). casey getting to know raph in general, a living legend to him. and of course cassandra, something i was too afraid to touch on before but now i think im confident enough to try and tackle at this point

i dont think ill ever get around to writing a whole story but i know eventually casey finds stability. in my mind i see him getting a job where he helps people (something in a medical field, maybe). he has a good relationship with his family, and practically lives with them 75% of the time. leo is the one hes closest to, of course. he travels the world alone after a few years and cries over fleo never getting to see it, but knows that wherever his master is that hes at peace, knowing that at least casey had the chance

i have more to talk about but im running out of steam and im starting to get embarrassingly heartfelt the longer i ramble so um- (EXPLODES)

[pochacosicon]

never made an intro post to what this account actually is so there you go

first of all i would like to address the fact that this blog is not really an ed blog. i have many issues and ed is just like an additional piece.

here’s a fragment of what my difficulties with eating are:

all my life i was fat and i still am due to the fact i had horrible binging addiction. i was consuming too much sugar everyday, to much fat and other things, i also am this type of person who stress eats a lot and all my life i was paranoid and stressed abt everything. two years ago i became pascetarian due to the fact i finally understood that i never liked eating meat like chicken, beef etc. i was happy that i was finally able to tell what i like and what i didn’t due to the fact i understood what binging was way before that so i actually started to lose weight just by eating what i actually enjoyed. i also have really bad social anxiety so through the first year of high school when i was living in dorms i wasn’t able to eat normally since i had to go to cafeteria to eat. that was the time i started having some issues with food overall. rn as i am in third year i came across a lot of issues with food since meatless meals were never an option in my dorms. and since i’m suffering from really bad depression(and many not yet diagnosed shot since my parents are pretty shit and i can’t go to the doctor myslef yet since i’m a minor) making food for myslef is really hard sometimes. tbh i really love food. not bc of the taste or anything like that, i’m passionate abt the food history and how honestly it’s getting ruined everyday by society, cuz i’m a huge believer that if fast food, processed food and sugar were never promoted that much obesity would never be a problem and we as people would live in a much healthier place. as for rn i don’t eat mainly of the reason that i can’t get out of bed through most of the day, but since i’m also terribly insecure abt my whole persona(body and mind) i don’t allow myslef to eat a lot and if i do i usually purge everything.

i also suffer from self harm addiction and as i said things that i can’t really get a real diagnosis of but are often talked about by my therapist so i’m not gonna talk about them yet.

i know this post is a mess, i have many thoughts in my mind rn abt everything and i can’t really get them out any other way than writing this post.

anyway to sum this up i’d rather not be considered as an only ed blog but rather as just my place to post my messed up thoughts since i can’t really express them any other way

[vigilskeep]

Hi, I'm not sure if you've talked about this before but how did Merrils act 3 quest end up with Keir? How did both of them feel/communicate after what happened?

first thing to say: i alter canon a little for this one. i pick the in-character dialogue option for keir, and that inexplicably forces you to kill the entire clan. i can’t accept the game canon on that one, because, you know, ludicrous and horrible writing choice i want nothing to do with. so, since i do think it’s realistic considering keir’s conflict resolution skills or lack thereof and what marethari had been telling the clan for there to have been a fight, i include the small fight with the hunters when you come out of the cave, but no harm to the rest of the clan. in my view that’s more than enough damage to account for merrill’s dialogue afterwards and keep the rest of the plot intact

anyway, that disclaimer also covers how it ends up, i guess. friendship route, goes without saying. i can’t think of anyone whose judgement keir trusts as thoroughly as he does merrill’s. what else to say... this quest was obviously a horrible time; he loves merrill, she’s so worrying to listen to in act 3 especially prior to this resolution, and she straight up asked him to come so he’d kill her if necessary. pretty much the worst outcome he can imagine. keir doesn’t think she’ll fail so he doesn’t think that he’ll have to do it, but he never breaks his word, and even if he hates it he knows demons are dangerous and wouldn’t betray merrill by preventing her from taking the precautions she’s chosen to take. having made that promise to merrill, that actually meant bringing fenris on this one to make sure someone was there who could fulfil the promise if it came to a fight with an abomination and keir couldnt do it. thats how seriously he took it

the major block in communication afterward is simply: keir fucking loathed marethari. what you have to understand is that keir’s life is centred around protecting mages and protecting family and the very first time he met marethari she pushed the inexperienced mage she was responsible for away and let her go off into templar-infested kirkwall alone and resourceless in the company of an aggressive complete stranger. not to mention the way she actively turns others of her clan against merrill even when it gets them killed for no reason (pol, the hunters, etc.) and never seems to even consider regretting it in six years, all in this stubborn attempt to make merrill change her mind and to do even worse damage than the insecurities keir thinks he can probably already blame marethari for. there are plenty of major actual game enemies he never reacted to so strongly. he bitterly regrets that her death should cause pain to merrill but that’s the extent of his regret and he blames marethari herself for the whole mess of this quest in the first place. if she hadn’t meddled, merrill would have handled it, as merrill in his experience always has. he never doubts this

so that means he struggles a bit to talk to merrill abt it all afterwards; he’s not very good at handling sensitive conversations at the best of times, and the last thing he wants is for a grieving merrill to have to deal with his anger when this isn’t abt him. but simultaneously he’s incapable of keeping quiet abt it if merrill expresses guilt over the situation because the fact that she has been made to feel like this is her fault is what incenses him in the first place. he does his best to communicate that. she’s more confident in her beliefs and i guess thus amenable to his point of view by this point in the friendship route anyway. he takes the option to encourage her to build community with the alienage elves, bc it’s good for her and bc he needs to know she’s got other people. i like to think of this as something she was doing already that he just supports, rather than how the game kind of presents it as hawke like, coming up w the idea

[baby-xemnas]

belated realization

that in laws manslut era i described some time ago here i said law is 19-22 making the 4 years younger bepo 16 and that makes my heart explode

ohhh bepo you are his teen aged wife

you are like a lame school girl with a crush on a guy with a job

oh my god the moe......bepo chan poor thing so insecure and vulnerable yes of course law san can fuck around what is bepo gonna do? put his foot down and say that no he cant because bepo thought they were in love??? (at that point law already Must have told bepo he loves him)

bepo feels so sorry for himself being stuck in a little brother role.....penshachi suspect it a little but they rly dont think they can help much so they dont ask lol (no a friend group of 4 men wont be talking abt their feewings, not even if they are childhood friends. ESPECIALLY if they are sad romantic feelings. and ESPECIALLY if they are between other half of the group. thats way too complicated)

16 year old bepo omggggg aaahh

baby you are so hormonal and love your captain so much but believe that a bear bitch could fix you (theres not any around and there wont be)

just gotta grit your teeth and take it baby boy....one day youll get everything you want (and cry a lot during)

i said it in the first post that when law gets his shit together and is done fucking randos - he wouldnt want to break bepos happiness with apologizing or expressing how he was a dumbass to hurt bepo so much - he will leave those feelings to himself and only project reassurance with bepo - because he knows bepo already forgave him. there is no point in showing bepo even more how sorry he is - it would be a burden to bepo, he could easily take it too far and make bepo feel guilty so law keeps his mouth shut that he thinks he was a clown. thats not what bepo wants/needs from him.

but that would only amplify how strongly law would feel about needing to repay bepo for the pain he caused him. nevermind that bepo is very happy finally being with him Properly as a Couple - law can be bonkers in silence about how lucky, as he Now Realized he his to have bepo be this loyal and patient and selfless

also linking this post cuz its more words abt jealous/protective law

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

this post has been in my likes for a while and i kept meaning to reblog it but i was having a hard time finding the words to express what i wanted to say

anyway this letter has actually been making me tear up for weeks now bc like. ok. this is gonna take a sec to explain:

so ive been active in the ofmd fandom since like april 2022 and while the majority of the content on here is reblogs, i also have been pretty regularly posting original stuff since like june or july 2022, primarily metas and shitposts.

but i’m definitely not posting as much as i used to (i think fall 2022 was my most prolific posting period) bc my life circumstances have changed and i dont have as much free time and energy as i did a year ago. and this is a good thing for me! im very happy with how my life is going rn! but i do miss getting to dedicate more of my time to thinking and talking abt gay pirates.

more than that tho. i also consider myself a half decent writer and like a pretty mediocre artist (and i don’t say that to be self deprecating, i’m not insecure abt where my skills are at for things that are essentially silly hobbies. worrying too much abt quality takes the fun out of it for me). and i’ve posted like a handful of scribbley ofmd doodles and one chapter of an abandoned WIP that i dislike now and actually don’t want anyone to read.

and sometimes i feel kinda? guilty?? about that?? not so much abt not posting as much anymore, bc like i said, i’m busier these days and that’s a good thing. it’s more abt art and fic, especially fic bc i actually have been writing a lot of ofmd stuff it’s just all WIPs, like i have more ofmd WIP files on my google drive than i can count and absolutely none of it is worth sharing. i’ve been telling myself i’m gonna write all this ofmd fic and then i never finish anything and sometimes it feels like i’m… idk, not doing enough for the fandom??? i feel like i should be Contributing More. like it is my civic duty and i’m letting my siblings in fandom down. and no, i don’t know why i feel this way.

anyway i have always been a big fan of rambling in the tags but i often like, forget other ppl can see them (which has gotten me in trouble before lol). in my brain, talking in the tags is like talking out loud for my own benefit.

idk i’m getting really teary realizing someone actually noticed and appreciated me doing that, that even when i’m not making any content myself or not as much of the content i want to be making or i’m making less content than i used to, i’m still contributing to the fandom in some way by cheering on other creators who have more time and/or energy to create more than i do. like i said, i’m mostly talking in the tags for myself, but i’m so so glad that ppl appreciate my thoughts and i’m so glad it’s encouraging to other fans. there is a lot of talent and a lot of love in this fandom and even tho it’s uhhh Rough Sometimes im still really fuckin glad to be here with y’all <3

For @ourflagmeansgayrights who I've never spoken to but who always reblogs with such lovely tags for all artists and gif makers and meta writers, and seems so so kind ❤️ thank you for keeping creators going!

Hi @ourflagmeansgayrights! You've received a lovely letter. 💌

[ashmp3]

okay re: ur vocal note/rant bc ofc i listened i have issues yeah omg i put it on in the background like a little podcast

and like i am sooo with you on this 😵‍💫 like its so unfair abt how a girl will take out her insecurity and anger at a guy and put it onto ANOTHER girl instead of the guy!!!! like be mad at him like it just sounds so 16th century witchhunt that apparently the guy isn't responsible for who he wants to sit and talk to and rather theyre mad that another woman is trying to charm and bewitch him like boohoo sorry u only see other women as competition and also u sound like a better person than me bc best believe if i was friends w a girl and she acted like that i would be playing breakup playlists and sulking and ripping my hair out and writing w a glitter red gel pen abt all the curses that i want to befall her bc there is nothing worse than being a girls' girl and then being hated by other girls!!!!!!!!! (esp bc of a man) feels like hell is a pit in ur stomach!!!!!!!!

and to insert myself omg i graduated hs a year and a half ago now but even from then until now ive had the same friend group which is a group of guys and for no other reason than that i genuinely like them and theyre like a group of brothers to me and we vibe but the hatred from other girls is literally heartbreaking 😭 bc every so often i would hear in high school abt 'oh xyz from this group of girls called u a pick me and talked abt u and said u want male attention' which is a batshit crazy take bc everyone knows that i preferred women anyway like wdym im not gonna date any of those guys in my group we are friends...just friends....and once in y10 this guy was obsessed w me and he was like a millionaires son and popular and i was shy and kinda intrigued so i dated him for a little while but 16 year old me would hear comments 24/7 in the hallways abt how i was some slut for doing it (it being dating him) which is crazyyyy bc every single one of these comments came from girls (and girls who i knew liked this guy)

so like omg yes to agree w u on everything nothing is more infuriating and annoying as hell when like girls forgo ur friendship and ur good intentions and just the overall sisterhood vibe bc theyre mad some guy is into u...like even if ur not into him back 😭 sorry for the long ass ask

call her daddy count your days call her ashmp3 is coming to take over ur little podcast…

i KNOWWW but genuinely she doesn’t have any reason to be mad at either of us? like he sat next to you because you dragged him there and then all you did was bat your eyelashes and giggle and i know she’s shocked that this didn’t work because she is really so pretty and men kneel down just to talk to her. And i am sure the guy doesn’t even like me i think I was intriguing to him and we hit it off well so of course it might look like that. also she knows i don’t even want him she KNOWS who i got my eyes on so i was just so shocked at her behavior.

also the whole thing about breakup playlists and red glitter pen i love you you are so funny and expressive i giggled… And yeah i don’t do that i’m like oh well moving on. I don’t like dwelling on things, and i don’t get sad i get mad. Mad because as you said, being a girls girl and then it flipping on you is just aggravating.

PEOPLE DO THAT ALL THE TIMEEEE like why is it so hard to believe that you see them as friends and they see you as a PERSON that’s their FRIEND no i’m telling you it’s girls that see attention from a guy as a confidence boost or confirmation that they are worth something which is all fucked up and not normal way to think about yourself… But i think the deep insecurities just come from the place of wanting to be accepted. And they can’t understand that you hanging out with your friends doesn’t mean anything more because they themselves couldn’t do it aka they would try and flirt… So u get hated on bc they project themselves and think what they would do. FUCKED UP!

i had that happen with another cancer guy and in hs and still now i don’t have instagram facebook nothing i am a monk in a body of a baddie. But i remember my friend showing me profile of random girl and saying “she hates you and talks shit about you bc of cancer guy” like you don’t KNOW ME. Hate HIM lmfaoosjdjsjs i mean don’t hate anyone… Crazy

and 🫂🫂🫂 long asks are always welcome and thank you for listening to my rant and i am sorry you went through things like this bc it’s truly heartbreaking being reduced to a “pick me” just because you don’t act shy around just some guys.

[ashthemadwriter-archived]

Before I send u the information, I wanted to thank u again for being so nice and accepting my request even though the event was already closed, you're such a sweetheart, really! 😣💗

So, starting with my appearance; I have greenish brown eyes, my hair is long and naturally red and I have some scattered freckles. My body is hourglass-shaped, not chubby but not skinny either. I'm 5'2 and I feel a little bad when people comment about my height, especially in jokes. (I'm a little insecure about my whole body itself; I think I'm too short, my breasts are too big compared to the rest of my body and I don't feel confident exposing it, mainly because of my s/h scars... but I'm trying to change it little by little).

As for my personality, Iʼm an intj, and my enneagram is 5w4. Iʼm quite shy and serious when Iʼm among strangers and in social situations, but Iʼm much more energetic when Iʼm with my (few) friends. Iʼm kind of "antisocial"; a complete disaster when it comes to socializing, so I hate going to crowded and noisy shitty places.

Because of my tendency for introspection, I've had a Dark Academy lifestyle since childhood; I read constantly and am passionate about literature, history, classical music, philosophy, and the arts in general. I've been singing and playing the piano for almost ten years, music is one of my biggest passions, as well as art, as I've also been drawing and painting since I was a child!

Talking about relationships, I'd say that I'm not the best person for this. Idk how to handle my own emotions, and expressing them is a bit difficult (I also have trust issues). Although touch isnʼt my love language, I try to show it in other ways, especially through words of affirmation and quality time. Since talking about my feelings is a very complicated thing, the simple act of verbalizing what I feel means that the feeling is huge, you know? I also value experiencing delightful moments with my love, whether they are remarkable or not. Just the opportunity to be by his side and enjoy his company means a lot to me! In a relationship, Iʼm looking for someone intelligent, calm, and who is willing to understand my issues and respect my need for personal space. Iʼm the kind of person who hates clinginess, but makes a small exception just for someone in particular (and Iʼd like my partner to be like me; not so clingy, but also not so cold and distant, yk?). I'm passionate abt people with whom I can have deep and intellectual conversations, especially abt topics such as art, philosophy, history, etc. I also have a certain inclination to seek validation when I'm in a relationship: I do everything to please and expect the person to acknowledge and do the same, making it clear that they love me (sorry but I have a huge praise kink and I kinda like like possessive behavior, because, for some reason, it reassures me that I'm loved💀).

holy shit, I'm sorry for sending this massive ask! I got carried away and said more than I should have. But so, who do you think I'll match with? 🖤

(...and sorry if there are any grammar mistakes, English is not my first language 😭)

Fandom: Bungou Stray Dogs

Format: Headcanons

Warnings: NSFW! content at the end, MDNI!

Word Count: 1.03K

A/n: Tysm anon, and I'm sorry I forgot to post this. I'm really sorry😭

I match you with...

Fyodor Dostoevsky!

Ah look at him in this pic. SO HANDSOME-

I think you're the perfect prey for this mischievous man🚶🏻‍♀️🤝🏻

Like, seriously lmao. He will enjoy teasing you A LOT. IDT he will comment on your body cause you're his S/o and there's definitely something special about you... So he doesn't want to break you. It's just... Fyodor, you know what I mean? He teases in his own way. By doing small affectionate moves like, reaching for your hand when he's reading a book (I can definitely see him doing that because you're not clingy/touchy so he has to do something about it), and suddenly letting go claiming that he wants to turn the page over just to see you pout and look the other way as your cheeks turn red since you're too shy to say anything/protest.

Fyodor doesn't care about body shape, ok? He's not that type of guy. He finds value in your personality. Whether you're cocky and idiotic, or intelligent and mischievous, or a mix of both. He doesn't want a S/o who's dumb, but he also has to have power on you. And believe me, it doesn't matter if your obedient or not, Fyodor will bring you down to your knees if he desires.

"Iʼm looking for someone intelligent, calm, and who is willing to understand my issues and respect my need for personal space" I think you just described Fyodor😭😭😭He will give you personal space maybe a bit too much, to the point that you're begging him to interrupt your personal space lmao🚶🏻‍♀️ But he will understand these all. He's calm, intelligent AF and yet a very simple man. You got it babe, as long as you're willing to be his pretty little mouse🚶🏻‍♀️ (You don't have a choice nut let's not scare you shall we?)

But seriously Fyodor isn't a bad man =| IK that he likes to be the one in charge and stuff but don't tell me that you aren't enjoying it?! Like, it's FYODOR DOSTOEVSKY?!! He has some goals he needs to achieve, but he might will make time for you as well.

I think he would be into someone who's not goofy y'know? Someone who's maybe a bit quiet, shy when it comes to touching and stuff because he needs to see his effect on you(the blushing/getting flustered), obedient or he will make you be🚶🏻‍♀️, and maybe a bit idk... crazy? About him of course. Like, be obsessed with him. You're personality is kinda close to that, so yes, I can see something happening between the two of you.

Imagine him sitting on the sofa taking a sip of his tea with his eyes closed as he listened to the delightful melody of the piano. How your talented hands run around on the keys, creating such beautiful symphony. He will smile by the end of the song and praise you as he stares into your eyes that are filled with the need of his approval😭

"So elegant of you, my dear. Being able to play such tricky instrument like you were born for it. As expected of my little Myshka"

GOD-😭😭😭😭😭😭

His praises are rare so enjoy these little moments-

Fyodor is delighted by you. You will have so many discussions when he has free time, about anything related to Philosophy, etc. He gets fascinated by your view on things when it's not similar to his; and if you point out something that he surprisingly hasn't considered/ thought about? He admires you. Might not straightforwardly tell you, but you can get it from his soft smile and his stare on your face when you describe your theory, meaning that he's interested in you.

POSSISSIVE. I actually cannot say that enough🚶🏻‍♀️

Fyodor is picky about his significant other, and if he chooses someone, it means that they're his and only his. No man will live to see the next day if he even dreams about laying a finger on you. Like, the barista tries to flirt with you? You will not see him at the coffee house the next day. And as much as you feel bad for the poor guy, it makes you feel butterflies in your stomach knowing your boyfriend had taken care of him. It means that in his crowded complicated mind, you're there somewhere, important enough for him to stop planning shit for a moment and take care of people who dare to take a liking toward his belongings. It makes you feel important, proud of yourself.

OK ANON THE REST IS NSFW CUZ I COULDN'T HELP MYSELF SO DON'T READ IT IF YOU'RE A MINOR THANK YOU

If you ever wear a lingerie for him... OMG

He appreciates it a lot. Will teasingly caress your scars, smiling at how you shudder at the feeling of his cold fingertips on your warm breast. Oof, he might even kiss them if he's in the mood that day, and YOU WILL LITERALLLY FALL INTO HIS LAP IF HE DOES THAT CUZ YOU JUST HAD A HEART ATTACK OMG-

TEASE. TEASE.

You're shy and quiet? OH, that's funny, cause you're the exact opposite when you're in this guy's hands🚶🏻‍♀️🤝🏻

He will have you whining, moaning, crying, begging for him to touch you more, and it will just make him smirk at how you're this needy for him despite not being touchy with others. He loves it. It feels his ego knowing he's the only one in your heart, Which is why he will treasure you and make you come if you've been acting like a good girl for him.

Holds you close to himself. Don't you dare break eye contact or tilt your head to the other side. He will grab your jaw and force you to look back at him, and might punish you if it pisses him too much. He needs to see your pretty face. He needs to see how much he got you worked up, how much of a mess you've become for him, and only him. He needs to see your face turning red, and he loves it when your moans get so loud that he has to silence them with a deep, passionate kiss ♡

Tysm for participating and giving me the opportunity to write for this man anon, GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL-

[angelsdean]

 #dean shouldering all this weight and trying to be strong and finally deciding to share what's been weighing him down     #what's been making him want to give up     #what sam has been ASKING dean to share since john died     #and he finally opens up and sam blows up and makes it abt his feelings. like dean literally wants to just keep sam SAFE     #and wants to make sure he Never has to kill his brother     #and sam's mind immediately jumps to 'dean must not trust me. dean sees me as a ticking time bomb. i could go darkside. i'm a monster'     #and dean hasn't said or expressed any of that.   

Finally on 2x10 properly on my rewatch and revisiting this post from when it was on TV reruns at the start of the year. And just, it's completely understandable for Sam to be FREAKING OUT upon hearing that his father told his brother that he might have to KILL him. Like that is a monumentally huge fucking pill to swallow. I do not blame Sam for immediately feeling hurt and betrayed and falling into a spiraling feedback loop of insecure thoughts and fears. But the betrayal and the hurt should be directed at JOHN who said this to Dean, who put this burden on Dean's shoulder, who never explained anything about what it means or what he knows / suspects about Sam and the other Special Children before dying. John is the one that kept them BOTH in the dark about everything regarding the Yellow Eyed Demon, for years. Before S1, neither Sam nor Dean really knew much of anything about John's quest. They don't learn it even IS a demon until S1.

So I am absolutely not saying Sam isn't justified in feeling very hurt and scared upon hearing this. But, it's unfair to project that displaced anger towards John onto Dean. It's unfair to act like Dean selfishly kept John's words from Sam.

Sam hurling this at Dean:

SAM: Who Cares? Take some responsibility for yourself, Dean! You had no right to keep this from me!

As if Dean hasn't been burdened with responsibility his whole life. Particularly the responsibility of keeping Sam safe--in all ways. As if Dean wasn't in part keeping this truth from Sam to keep Sam safe emotionally, to spare him the absolute hurt and betrayal he's experiencing now at finding out his father said he may one day need to be killed.

Sam also has been aware since 2x02 that something has been weighing Dean down immensely. To the point where Dean has been acting differently. Dean's anger and recklessness in these early S2 episodes are not the norm. For much of his life Dean has never been "the angry one." He's also never been one to not care about others. The way he acts so flippant toward some of the victims of recent cases like not feeling so sorry for the people making demon deals in 2x08 or all his big talk (with not so big follow-through) about not letting a "bleeding heart" get in the way of killing a supposedly-infected man in 2x09---this stuff is meant to stand out as out of character for Dean, and Sam notices. He notices that something is so very wrong, something is affecting Dean badly. And he assumes it's simply grief over John, and later guilt over John very likely making a deal to save Dean.

But really what's been weighing on Dean the most is this, the stuff John told Dean before he died. And Dean tells him that in this scene. How much he wishes John had never spoken in the first place.

DEAN: You think I wanted this? Huh? I wish to God he'd never opened his mouth. Then I wouldn't have to walk around with this screaming in my head all day.

Sam has been begging Dean to open up to him, and at the end of 2x09 he asks Dean to let Sam carry some of that weight. So Dean finally decides to tell him, and the first thing Sam does is blow up at Dean and make Dean feel like the bad guy.

Instead of being like, "Fuck Dad, how could he do that?" It's how could YOU not tell me and what? [were you waiting to make sure] That I don't turn evil?

Dean begs Sam to take a break from hunting. To lay low. Not because he thinks Sam might "turn evil" but because he wants to keep Sam out of sight from both hunters and demons alike. If they lie low, he can keep Sam safe from other people who might want to either kill Sam or use him. Dean already knows he won't be killing his brother, no matter what. We just saw in 2x09, when they thought Sam might be infected, that he wouldn't do it. Dean isn't waiting around to see if Sam will go "dark side." They were JUST in a situation where Sam appeared to be infected with a demon virus, which would make him a "monster" and Dean couldn't and wouldn't kill him, so it's not about that. But that is what Sam fears most, so he projects that onto Dean in this moment.

And then Dean again begs Sam for them to just lay low, to take some time to think and figure things out and keep out of harms way...........and in the very next scene Sam is sneaking out, putting himself in harms way without anyone else to have his back, just doing what he wants. Peak stubborn taurus Sam.

oh i wanna shake sam. his little outburst at dean when he finds out what john said before he died....what john put on dean isn't dean's fault and dean is right to want to lay low and stay out of harm's way. and sam, insecure and afraid, is hurling accusations and blame at dean, putting words in dean's mouth, and dean is repeatedly shouting "i didn't say that!" re: sam becoming evil but sam won't listen to a damn thing above his own internal thoughts

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Love Language|| Jujutsu Kaisen

“I wanna be fluent in your love language. Learning your love language.” 

A/N: If you didn’t guess from the tagline this is inspired by the song love language by Kehlani. I’ll probably do more of these with different shows and what not because why not. If I missed anyone lmk and I can make a part 2. Also please tag spoilers appropriately esp for manga readers, that being said spoilers for the prequel? manga on Yuuta’s part.

Characters: Itadori, Fushiguro, Kugisaki, Maki, Inumaki, Okkotsu, Gojo, Nanami, Sukuna

Warnings: said it b4 but spoiler warnings in general but esp on Yuuji, Yuuta, and Maki’s parts

Plot synopsis: The 5 love languages; physical affection, quality time, words of affirmation, gift giving and acts of service, and how each jujutsu kaisen character shows their love and affection for you. Ft. a gender neutral reader!

Word count: 2352

Itadori Yuuji

Love Language: Quality time and physical affection

Ok listen-

So for physical affection, Yuuji’s just that kind of person

He is all about giving to you

He’s holding hands with you if you’re ever walking anywhere, and if you’re not a hand holder pls pls pls let him hold your pinky he likes the reassurance

No but seriously he loves to hold you like yall could be walking in completely opposite directions and he’ll try to find some way to hold onto you until the very last second

And even then he’s all ‘:( babe imy’

‘Yuuji we just talked 2 minutes ago’

Another way he shows his love is through quality time

I think for him this is the biggest thing overall, esp as a jujutsu sorcerer bcus you never know yk but also because you’re important to him

Like remember how he literally went to occult club so that he could get out of school in time to go visit his grandpa...ye :(

He also loves finding dumb touristy things to do with you while in Tokyo or anywhere yall go together on a mission 

If you get together before he died and came back then that time he had to spend away from you literally killed him

Like my mans was goin THROUGH it

He almost considered spoiling Gojo’s secret

When he sees you again, he’s not gonna let go for like a solid day

Fushiguro Megumi

Love Language: acts of service and words of affirmation

This boy loves you so much

He loves to tell you all the things he loves about you when you’re alone

But he’s a little awkward with his words sometimes, hence where acts of service come in

He’ll immediately offer to hold your things, run to help you train or study, and if you’re cold? He’s fully prepared to never see his jacket again

Also he can’t cook but he’s fully prepared to suffer hearing Sukuna and suffering through Yuuji’s antics if it means he can learn how to make your favorite food

He also will surprise you by making you a playlist of all the songs that you’ve had stuck in your head and sends it to you randomly out of the blue one day like ‘thought you might like this’

However the best of both worlds is when he leaves you little notes throughout the day or sends you texts asking if you need anything or just encouraging you to keep going 

Negl he’s lowkey the president of the Y/N support club bcus-

You need anything? It’s yours

Cravings? Sad? Angry? What do you need bby, I’ve got it for you

Also he’s totally the type to be like you need help fuckin this person up? 

Also before yall started dating, Fushiguro was a mess

He was constantly asking to spar with you and go on missions, basically anything he could do to be near you  

End of the day, Fushiguro loves you and makes sure you know it whether it’s through his actions or his words

Kugisaki Nobara

Love Language: physical affection

So, she’s not the best with words, she tries but like someone help her bcus she is LOST

Like when she had a crush on you she was like “c’mere dumbass i wanna give you a hug”

In fact, she still is like “c’mere” but now you are dating :)

She loves you though and at first she doesn’t really know how to show it 

But one day you both come home from training and you just look at each other like ‘yeah today sucks’ and yall both just held each other for the rest of the day 

After that, she decided that she wants to do that with you but like always

She’s holding your hand, kissing your cheek when you go shopping, etc. etc.

She really loves to cling to you because she always has this fear that maybe one day you’ll get killed or just disappear so she figures might as well hold onto you for as long as we’ve got

After missions, she’s running up to you and if you aren’t prepared for the tackle, you’re probably gonna fall

On dates too, like if you guys have to meet up for a date, she’s tackling you

On the subject of dates...

She doesn’t mind PDA, and while she might hold your hand or arm so that you don’t get separated

She also doesn’t mind wiping food off your face and eating it, only to then kiss the spot on your face the food was previously at

She will split her shopping load between the two of you, however she will be slightly pouty if she’s carrying more than you (she then cheers up when she realizes she can do more shopping to “balance” the two of you)

In private she’s very cuddly and kissy which honestly isn’t that bad until it gets hot

At which point she’ll just say turn on the ac or convince you to walk around in a tank top (or something like it) so that she can continue holding you

Tbh she prefers the big spoon, but if she’s ever upset you let her be the little spoon >:(

All in all a very loving girlfriend who tries her best to show how much she loves you by glomping you at any given moment. 

Zenin Maki

Love language: acts of service and quality time

So you’re telling me that Maki wouldn’t immediately go out of her way to make sure her and her s/o can spend as much time together as possible?????

Like she’s super observant (which can cause her to be a bit harsh, see Yuuta) but she can always tell what’s bothering you

So if you’re upset that you haven’t been spending enough time together due to her being out on missions or otherwise busy she’s immediately running to finish her stuff and spend time with you.

((She’s very sorry, but on the bright side she brought your favorites!))

Maki is also an acts of service type

This mostly ties in with her kind of direct action way of thinking

She thinks she’s slick but you can always see her sneaking around to do small things like grabbing your laundry for you and folding it

She’s very much like if you love someone, you gotta prove it

Overall, dates with her are very intimate and personal to the two of you

Like she’ll take you to a frog pond you landed in during a fight once

Or you’ll take her to a street fair that serves this exclusive food that Maki mentioned wanting to try 

However, Maki shows her love through quality time and acts of service and while she does receive love from these to a degree, she is very much a words of affirmation gal

She’s not insecure in her day to day life but she has her moments, everyone does

Sometimes, she’ll feel like shit and a failure and all she wants is for you to say that she’s doing amazing and that she’s a great girlfriend.

Inumaki Toge

Love language: Physical affection

Because of his curse, he can’t exactly express how he feels about you through words

He does text you frequently throughout the day (I’ll have to do a hc abt that someday)

But he’d prefer not to be on his phone to communicate if you’re right in front of him

So he does the next best thing and just smothers you in physical affection

He loves kissing you the most

Like he could spend hours just kissing you if you let him (please let him)

But in public, he gets if you’re not a big fan of pda he’s willing to tone it down as long as he gets kisses later in private

He’d still prefer it if you held his hand or linked pinkies maintaining touch in some way

Also, unrelated, but it means so much to him if you try to understand his sushi language

He knows realistically the foundation of any relationship is communication so already he’s at a disadvantage because of his curse 

But if he sees you like take notes after he says something or start to need him to text you to translate, his heart is swelling

Like ‘omg this person loves me enough to learn a whole new language <333′

Another tangent but before you were together he was struggling so muchhhh

Like how does one express their feelings for someone without words?

If you’re Inumaki, you buy some flowers and text said person to meet you at a cafe

It took an embarrassingly long time for you to realize it was a date, but once you did, you ever so gently linked pinkies with Toge

Okkotsu Yuuta

Love language: words. of. affirmation. 

He’s literally so sensitive please tell him you love him regularly

In return he’ll be sure to tell you how much he loves you too

He knows that he can’t really be there for you as much as he’d like but he likes to let you know that he’s thinking of you

Doesn’t matter the time, if you call, he’s answering

If he doesn’t he’ll cry he’ll immediately call you back and is apologizing for missing your call

You assure him it’s no big deal but the man has his volume turned all the way up and changed your ringtone to one specific for you by the time you’ve even said hey

Aside from that, he really is sensitive

He’s been through a lot especially with Rika as well as growing up alone and bullied 

So for him, it’s everything to hear that you like having him around and don’t think he’s too much or anything like that

Of course, he gets better with time, trusting you and having the confidence in himself to not need constant assurance

That being said, if you ever just whisper in his ear, “I love you, Yuuta.”

That’s not your boyfriend, that’s a puddle of love on the floor

(Maki, Panda, and Inumaki had a field day when they saw him, Fushiguro now questions if Yuuta really is a respectable 2nd year.)

Gojo Satoru

Love language: gift giving and quality time

So Gojo doesn’t exactly get to spend a ton of time

Between missions, him beefing with higher ups, and you and him playing parent the baby sorcerers yall don’t exactly get time to go out much

In which case Gojo tends to default to two options:

He’ll either go the extra mile to try and spend time with you 

Whether that be an at home date where he tries and fails to surprise you with a home cooked meal

Or a date out at a restaurant or cafe (which you tend to visit after his home cooking efforts)

OR he’ll bring you various souvenirs from his missions

He loves to spoil you, and if he could he’d probably bring you back a whole store’s worth of stuff

But alas, airport security regulations

Anyways, he loves to spoil you especially if he can spoil you with sweets because it benefits him in two ways 

He treasures all the time you spend together, and he does try to overcompensate for his absence with gifts

Despite your assurances, it’s kind of a guilty pleasure at this point (just let him, trying to argue just goads him on further)

He doesn’t only buy you small things, he enjoys buying you outfits

And he especially likes seeing you in them 

Kento Nanami

Love Language: acts of service

Y’all remember the episode where he killed that curse that was bothering that baker lady?? Yea that

He’s literally such an acts of service boyfriend it’s not even funny

Before you got together, he would memorize your coffee order and bring you a cup pretty much everyday like clockwork

Now that you’re togehter, he wakes up before you so h=that when you wake up there’s the smell of coffee throughout the house

When you come out of you’re shared bedroom and he’s just scrooling through his phone like “mornin’”

Of course you already made the bed and ironed his clothes because relationships are give and take

And then when you leave for your jobs in the morning, he kisses you and holds the door open for you

He’ll draw a bath for you if he gets home before you, if you let him join or not is up to you

Also, if you ever get sick, he’s actually the best

Like he isn’t the best cook but he can heat up soup and tea

He’ll run to the store while you’re asleep and when you wake up, there’s like a whole tray of food in front of you and he’s like ‘it’s important to eat and drink so your body can heal’

And when you inevitably fall asleep after eating and taking medicine at his insistence, he tucks you in and clears away the dishes, exiting with little more than a kiss to your head

Ryoumen Sukuna

Love Language: gift giving and acts of service

So like Sukuna never says he loves you...ever

But he does notice if someone or something’s making you uncomfortable, and if so, said entity’s head will be presented to you later that day

You also just so happen to be the only person he can tolerate being around him for longer than 20 seconds

He also loves to give you jewelry, he likes seeing you adorned in something from him

He also isn’t gonna just handle all your problems for you, he will push you to become stronger by training with you 

He’ll also expect this energy to be reciprocated, as long as you’re pushing yourself to be better, he’s content with that

(He wants to see you grow because he’s scared that if he ever gets caught lackin one day you’ll end up dead)

He’ll never tell you or admit it, but Sukuna truly does care for you and hold you in a regard that he doesn’t have for others

So be grateful jkjk