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B/p 2 times today and I feel insane idk how to live my life anymore

I’m just gonna go insane I think cuz I have nothing else left to do

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Todays bf (267)

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Binged on milka cookies today but it’s whatever at this point, I’m gonna eat some fruit moose, 2 eggs, cucumber and cherry tomatoes for lunch tmrw and that will prolly be it for Friday

Need to decide what I’m gonna be eating next week since I’m on a tight budget till the end of the month

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I feel fucking insane idk what’s goin on guys im so fucking scared I need to get home or I’m gonna fucking melt down at the fucking bus stop

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Accidentally I did a 24h fast today so tmrw I’m doin only 18h one and prolly ending it with omad

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I hate that I can’t weight myself

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TYSM FOR 2K GUYS I LOVE YALL SOSOSOSO MUCH AND CARE FOR YOU ALL REMEMBER THAT IM ALWAYS HERE FOR U 🫶🫶🫶🫶‼️‼️‼️🤍🤍🤍🤍

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Gonna do an omad tmrw and prolly just eat the same thing for the rest of the week as well cuz I don’t have any money lol

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GUESSS WHO FUCKING BINGED TODAY AHHAHAHA IM GINNA KILL MY SLEF

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Ate some skyr and had a coffee with vanilla soy milk for bf (150) cuz I have to take my meds, super mad about that cuz I won’t be able to fast as long as I want to but I need to prioritize taking care of my mental health if I wanna survive uni

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Went to a psychiatrist yesterday and she diagnosed me with some personality disorder and also eating disorder (mix of Ana and Mia) and honestly idk how to feel about all that.

Im nowhere near being diagnosed with them, like I just have problems with food but idk anymore

For the past month I’ve been losing and gaining back the same 3kg and now I don’t even have a scale co idk how much I weigh

These days I usually just do omad, when I’m with people I tend to eat like one additional meal but that’s about it

I hate how everything is going on right now

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Feeling like kms today a lil bit too much tbh

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Been omading for the past week and yesterday I had a mini binge so I feel kinda awful and I’m too scared to weigh myself but imma omad today again and then prolly just fast for the rest of the week cuz I have no money for food lol

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Why is it so hard to talk to new people

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I FUVKING HATE EVERYTHING I WISH I COULD JUST FUCKING DISAPPEAR OR FUCKING DIE

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Im finally at my weight back from March, well actually it’s 200g less so I’m super happy

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