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Cady girl
cadygirl! reader x lando norris
summary: you usually hated being a cady girl but a certain boy changed that
a/n: reallyyy super short fic that came into my mind like an hour ago. enjoy! xx
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Being a cady girl wasn't fun most of the time, 18-year-old trust fund kids thought that they could say whatever they wanted to you and give you the lowest of low tips. But it did have its ups, like the pay or like when a cute guy would come up to you but it usually always ended in him showing no interest in you or secretly being a freak. Today was one of those times, let's just hope it goes well
A man had waved you down mentally rolling your eyes because he just gave off gross rich boy vibes but when he opened his mouth you were surprised to hear a ācan I just have a coke and water pleaseā and not āare you offering any other things that aren't on the menuā accompanied with a disgusting smirk and a peak up your skirt. You looked schocked for a bit but then hopped off to get his things. āOkay that will be 9.75ā you said with a smile that hadn't crossed your face in a long time, it was a genuine and nice smile. His friend said something that you couldn't hear and the cute boy replied with a look down at his golf cart and and laughed āchat stopā āsorry huhā you asked. He looked up cheeks bright red āoh sorry I'm live streaming and my chat said that you were cuteā you let out a knowing āohhh, well tell them I said thank youā and started to climb back into your cart āits true ya knowā you turned around and smiled āoh reallyā he put his head down while stuffing his hands in his pockets and nodded shyly āyea of course, your gorgeousā āthank youā you felt your cheeks warm up and started to drive away
2 hours later you were still thinking about the cute boy you served but tried pushing the thought away thinking you'd never see him again. Deep in your thoughts suddenly the sound of an engine catches your attention you turn around and see the cute boy from earlier. He walks up to you āHey so you can totally tell me to go fuck off but could I get your number so maybe we could go on a date or something?ā extending his phone out to you. God you never thought you would be excited that a golf boy was hitting on you āyea, of course, Iād love to!ā you said as you typed your number into his phone āThanks by the way Iām Landoā you smile āmy names y/nā ācute name to match the cute face.ā you laugh shyly as he starts to speak again āso what days do you have off, so we can hang outā āI only work on weekends and fridays, so any other day is goodā he nods reassuringly āok so how about coffee at the cafe like two blocks down on Monday?ā youād seen the coffee place and has been meaning to go get never ended up going through with it āyea actually Iād love that Iāve been meaning to goā ānice Iāve been meaning to go too! Iāll see you Friday, itās a dateā Lando said with a smile then walked away He was the cutest boy youād ever seen. And from that moment on you knew you were doomed.
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I read and agree with 95% of your post.
Prefacing: You're great. You are wonderful, I am now following your very good posts and I am a ball of weird neurotic energy that has to get this off my chest.
Why?
TheHorrorsā¢ as of late have made me need to explain this like five times in four days.
Writing it like this means we can discuss it, i can link a post and people who need to see it can see it and I can get on with my life instead of having a redundant talk.
I might add citations pictures, etc etc later but I've already spent 45 minutes writing and re-writing this and I need to get this out of my system.
Once again, you're great and the fustration inside the response is not directed at you but at the issue itself.
You? Wonderful. Glorious poster. Evil baby. Delightful. Much love. Excellent Blorbo choices.
Issue? Shitty. Fills me with outrage. Paradoxical. MurderDeathKill.
Okay? Okay: rant begin:
The problem is "atomized individualism"...
1) Has a really well known and distorted meaning in libertarian circles you're probably unaware of which says "we're very rational and we never get emotional, and if I've got mine fuck you" coming from John Locke who quietly leaves out the "equality" part. 2) Actually self-defeating and paradoxical (I'll explain this)
Atomism claims everybody is
self-interested, self-sufficient and that altruism (being nice for the sake of being nice) is purely performative -- and that in functinal applied practice, asking for help or having systems to fall back on is inherently not-ok because you're not being the platonic ideal of the atomism (this is actually how familial orders emerge, instead of socialized safety-nets).
The fine text is also supposed to state that every member is equal which kind of contradicts the idea that the individual is pushed first; if you have more resources than others, your ability to execute on your individuality is inherently unequal.
It boils down to "the individual" vs "every individual" which gets very very messy.
It should mean freedom from bad things (over-exposure, abuse, starvation, etc, etc) not freedom to do bad things -- but this is where things start to get dicey.
Individualism claims the individual is the primary source of all value, and that the individual is always rational -- with the applied caviat that if anybody is acting irrationally, they lose their individuality.
You're gonna see a lot of applied caviats. Things which sound good on paper, but play out in really really messy ways in real people as side-effects of value-systems which then become the main goals of said systems when they benefit the people upholding those systems.
Combining atomization and individualism, you get...
"I am entirely rational, I am the only source of value, I am self-sufficient, and I am concerned with myself, and anybody who disagrees with me is irrational, because I am rationality defined"
So to go over the freedom part again:
This plays out as...
"uhhh yeah its a philosophy that means its good for me to not pay my taxes, because taxes are evil because they hurt me personally and specifically as an individual by subtracting my explicit capacity to execute on my self-interest (eg, get thing)"
This the mentality of your Peter Thiels, your Elon Musks, and your Donald Trumps. People who only see the "the divine right of kings" as wrong because they themselves are not the kings.
Wait, this is a lot, how did we get to this???
Their definitions ignore that most social definitions and benefits come from implicit attitudes and behaviors we do unconsciously (since humans spend most of their time running in a kind of autopilot called automaticity).
We learn this implicit automaticity from being raised, cared for, socialized, taught, and forgiven. They are hard to measure with a utility function mathematically, because they're hazy and vague and are often the root of interpretations of words (as we've experienced here, with this very thread).
Explicit attitudes are those which happen at the conscious or aware level: Its when you know you have to do something, or you haven't engrained something so you do it performatively out loud. This is significantly easier to measure with a utility function and is a huge part of how the legal system functions, and why the legal system assumes all actors (people) are rational.
Spoilers: All "rational" decision-making neurologically speaking originates from urges and feelings, and is then packaged and organized into "rationality".
Nobody human is rational; there are only rationalizers. Anybody who claims to be rational and calls anybody else emotional is both lying and projecting. If nobody felt anything, nobody would do anything: That's what depression is, even high functioning depression.
Going further, communication and implicit attitude learning and how explicit attitudes become implicit attitudes is the human skill.
Its why its inherently nonsensical to try and atomize us from eachother. We are all disturbingly susceptible to propaganda.
It isn't our tool-use (corvids molluscs, diatoms and arachnids have us beat there up until the last 80 to 15,000 years when we did metal properly afaik) -- its not our intelligence or short-term-memory (primates have us beat there, as genius level counters, strategizers and selectors): Its communication and sharing out strategies.
This is what we mean when we call humans "social organisms".
Seperating individuals truly leads to brain damage, which we see in those who undergo extended solitary isolation -- and likewise those who are placed into extended sensory deprivation such as white-room torture.
So, returning to our point:
What actually happens to our self-interested agents?
They refuse to concede that they can be irrational (which they scientifically and verifiably are: we are all irrational most of the time running on habit and memory, not pure decision making).
Result?
Self-interested agents who will not concede always compete -- whether towards singular or group-goals, and as resources collapse the group goals become singular goals.
Why?
Conceding that you are capable of irrationality and understanding what this means and the consequences and trusting that you can feel safe doing this requires emotional insight.
To develop emotional insight, you need to be a skilled communicator or have had excellent social training either through direct social contact or secondary social contact (social and cognitive stimulus creating cognitive simulations, aka media you consume).
The venn diagram of properties producing ultra-competitors is...
Dysthymia (being unable to create enjoyment or satisfaction without external validation, such as scoring, numbers or from another perosn)
An insecure/avoidant attachment style (eg, you depend on the numbers system because forming trust is compromised for whatever reason)
This produces an arms-race of ultra-competitors all trying to maximize whatever society sees as the most valuable (eg, money) -- who quickly figure out that the optimal strategy is to limit the number of competitors they have.
They do this by tricking the other members into playing "other games" or to collect "other things" as a distraction to sate them while improving how well they achieve their own goals.
These are your time vampires like the internet, your endless merchandising of ownership/consumer status, your religions to sate existential status needs, your abusive families playing for membership approval status needs, etc.
Rant End.
Okay, so now what?
So I agree with 95% of what you're saying, and I'm a pedantic bitch basically.
I love betraying nation and bloodline. I love rejecting the social order. I love being able to pursue my own goals even when the world around me wants me to adopt theirs instead. I love blasphemy and queerness and getting to choose who my family is.
I love this.
Everything you want is good, but atomized individualism is not the descriptor for those things because pure atomized individual reinvents the problems it seeks to solve for the individual by externalizing them to maximize its own returns.
Its why libertarians always create government again, but with extra steps where they are the leaders, which is apparently fine for some reason.
"I love atomized individualism" is not a statement you can make in a void, especially given current events.
What you mean is
"I love equitable atomacized indivividualism"
And by adding just one word that clarifies your statement and nullifies so many MANY problems, I 100% agree with you.
Okay got that out of my system.
Phew.
May your self-loving-vampire and may all of your self-loving be glorious and your Kohaku pleantiful.
Take care! :3
I love atomized individualism. I love betraying nation and bloodline. I love rejecting the social order. I love being able to pursue my own goals even when the world around me wants me to adopt theirs instead. I love blasphemy and queerness and getting to choose who my family is.
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people smarter than me have said this before but jesus christ why does every job seem to require at least a year of experience and a degree in some hyperspecific field. where did the entry level positions go? how am i even supposed to get experience if none of yall will give me a job without it?
#theres already almost nothing related to my field being offered but even the unrelated things that i think i could try are out bc of this#most of the stuff id actually care abt doing actually require 3-5+yrs! in a field that i cant get into without experience i cant get!#and people talk abt how 'nobody wants to work' i am BEGGING you for a job. literally begging (cover letters).#im coming to the horrifying realization that its possible Nothing i have done w my entire life matters. i have nothing useful#i really feel like i made a mistake. that cant be the best five years of my life i wasnt even happy during most of them#i applied to six jobs weeks ago and ive heard back from one of them and it was a rejection. and theres nothing else to apply to#my degree isnt helping and all of my hobbies are useless. why am i only good at/passionate abt arts. why not math or smth instead#i should have just done ece like i was planning to instead of my honours. what was even the point#and im watching other people in my year get great jobs right out of university. watching my BROTHER get offered work on a silver platter#hes 19 and got five different offers + didnt apply people just asked him to work for them. second year in a row this has happened#hes never had to work for minimum wage. hes always had a good job in his field lined up anytime he wants to work and it always pays well#and i finished five years and ive had to beg for everything ive ever gotten and its still not enough to count for anything#im proud of him but fuck it stings a little#levi.txt#vent tw#oh right i forgot i should just walk in and shake the managers hand. /right/. and they will simply give me a job on the spot bc of this#if people whove been working the same job since before 1990 dont fucking stop giving me bad advice istfg#and these same people say nepotism isnt real and in the same breath talk abt giving their nephew a summer job at their company#literally all i want is work i can be decent at that i care abt and making a living wage. it doesnt have to be fun i dont want to be rich#i just want to do an ok job feel like my work matters and make enough to start my life. thats all
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Ok totally honestly, I recommend drawing stuff from fandoms to start with so you can get more followers and post art as often as possible. It usually works cuz people here are lookihg more for fanarts then normal art, if that makes sense.
Do you have a price sheet? If so, put it in a pinned post, maybe not many people pay attention to it but sometimes someone does it.
Art servers are good but there are usually more people there looking for people who would like to order something than people looking for someone to draw something for them. Basicially more artists than commissioners (is that a word?)
Try looking for something on CastingCall, sometimes people look for artists there. Nothing major, but you can find both paid and non-paid ones, but don't worry because the non-paid ones can sometimes give you extra exposure. Iike for example being artist for free for somebody who sings on youtube.
I'm not a specialist, I'm just throwing out random ideas XD. these are the things I did so yk.
Totally honestly I started getting most of my commissions when I had 2k followers so it took a while to even get noticed so. You have to be patient unless you already have those 2k.
I feel like I should leave Tumblr again I don't think I'm cool enough to hang out with the cool people
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Always sucks to me seeing those people who like, developed a following with one specific game/franchise/whatever who've just like, clearly fallen out of love with it but are still engaging and making content for it since they're 'the [whatever thing] guy' but you can clearly tell they're bitter and sour about it since all their content is just sad and complaining and shit and it's just like
Dude, if you're not having fun you can like, do something else
You know that, right?
#it sucks that the way online subcultures form that ends up completely deincentivising basic shit like ''finding new interests''#or ''avoiding burnout''#and you see it everywhere too#like with tumblr blogs or youtubers or streamers#but idk it's pretty telling for someone who still says they like a thing but has absolutely nothing good to say about it#putting absolutely nothing but bad vibes out there bringing down the atmosphere#most heartbreaking when it's streamers who's livelihoods rely on that thing that's burning them out#but I've seen it with shit like tumblr blogs and such too#like if it's your literal job that's one thing but like#lotta the time I see it it's just like not#and like#we live in an age where we're literally drowning in media to consume#if you're burnt out or need a break you can just like#find something else to occupy your time#nobody's paying you you can just leave#the self is constantly changing#ever-shifting like water#it's ok if your interests do too#if it sucks hit da bricks#and all that#pun's text posts
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NPD BPD combo will make you feel like a starving wild circus animal every time you remember other people exist
#ok to rb#vent tw#it's like. we have a member who has NPD proper as cohost now#so our BPD and NPD symptoms have been combined into one worse thing#and it's baby's first Real Narc Crash and Ive been having RSD inflicted panic attacks every day#and I'm getting really fucking exhausted so the point where Im thinking stuff like 'I wish I could kms rn but that'd be too shitty and I#know this shit has to get better eventually because it has before so Im just#trying to relax#and in this case it's not like I have imo a compelling reason like my friends are all paying a proportionate amount of attention to me#to the energy for friends they have to give like I'm not being NEGLECTED#but I am so attention starved it's actually insane#and if it were just that itd be fine but I'm pmsing and Ive been losing sleep#from a mix of medical issues and exotraumatic nightmares#so I'm just. I'm absolutely Fucking Miserable#and its nobodies fault so instead of getting pissed off at someone Im just pissed off at everyone and no one at the same time#I just want to feel special again but its like. even if I DID feel comfortable asking for more attention#1. It wouldn't feel genuine and nothing my friends could easily do would stop it from not feeling genuine#2. I've been cluster B long enough to know that this stuff has to sort itself out naturally#asking for vallidation can be good at the right times but when I'm wanting to rely on it most thats when I need to find something else#but genuinely IDFK anymore man like I'm too tired to do shit I feel like all of my energy this month has been#STOPPING myself from doing stuff so when I try and think about what I actually Want To Do I feel so obstructed and exhausted I feel like#there's nothing fulfilling rn bc my stupid ass brain is like why find joy in anything if everyone hates you and you don't matter#(<- literally no one in my life has even implied this but. that's just how mental illness goes sometimes)#I just need to hang on until this narc crash is over and my friend groups aren't in the middle of like#2 million different things we're all struggling with stopping us from hanging out very much#I do think this happens every winter though#Ironically I love the winter weather and the rain and cold and gray (idk if I have SAD but if I do it's for the summer)#but I never enjoy the season like I want to because it's the most busy time of year so everyone is stressed out and doesn't have much time#to vibe like I want to so I end up just feeling pretty miserable until the slow time of year when people can relax more#It's usually like
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I love drawing Aris as sif so much she's so cutsies. It almost makes up for the horrors of having to draw her as sif. Almost.
#rat rambles#eternal gales#stars posting#I will live in a state of not rly understanding everyone's hatred of lineart until I do sprite redraws#I get it now. this is hell#it doesnt help that I have to improv poses and expressions and stuff a thing that Im not good enough at style emulation to do well#I was going to try to do all of sifs battle portraits with aris but Im like 3 hours in and only done with 5 of them I am not strong enough#tbf in theory the rest after the first 7 shouldnt be as bad since I can just edit the first ones but I dont wannaaaaa#I Do have ideas tho. alas.#Ive just been thinking oh so hard abt her expressions throughout the acts#also abt her going through the horrors in general#for the first two acts she isnt smilely like sif is instead having a very determined look#but after that she becomes a lot more like. innitentive I guess?#basically imagine she's like completely stuck in her own head at that point and is barely processing the things around her#she also gets her only smile within this set being her buff/heal animation where she puts on a fake smile to try to meet her pretend#shes ok and paying attention quota#its not helping. its only making the others worry more.#I have the least ideas for act 5 but I think it'd be fun to maybe have her actually make eye contact with the camera for those?#shes looking off center for all her other ones so I think itd help set the tone of oh god fucked up shit is happening#also she tends to mask more when stressed so.#in general its just very fun thinking abt the ways aris would handle things differently than sif#for one she doesnt have as many side quests where she gets nosy and regrets it due to a mix of her being so fixated on solving the loops#and her just generally being bad at reading most ppl leading her to not rly noticing or caring abt stuff that sif would#mainly she doesnt get the confession side quest despite sier still trying every loop because she didn't rly realize how important it was to#sier and just sorta assumed it was not that important in the grand scheme of things#but she Does have a similar side quest with mase where she gets to have a self hatred spiral <3#in the house shed sometimes catch mase secretly pick some stuff up when shes not looking and if she asks at the end hed say that he was#going to make something but didnt get everything he needed. this leads aris to assume itd be some tool or weapon or smth like the bomb#so if she went around and found all the spots where he collects stuff in one loop shed be able to ask again and he'd reveal he wanted to#make matching bracelets for everyone. and aris would get frustrated and upset and then freak out because she got mad and spiral
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Should.....should I become a pharmacy tech......
#thing i can most likely do with ok pay (not good)#dad keeps mentioning over the years some friend's daughter who was trained for free by kroger#and i keep coming up short on this job search and having a job cover that $1000+ fee would be nice#but every review from ppl who work retail pharm make it sound like you'll be seconds away from being actively s**cidal š#but i mean. maybe i do retail for a year then try my hardest to get into hospital pharm instead. idkidk#I'm still trying to practice for this tech cert but i don't have the money for the exam because. no job š#and i feel worse and worse having no cash for don ations#sentext
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I still can't believe they're charging THAT much for the shadow of the erdtree dlc... for like 2/3 of the base game price there fucking better be 100+ hours of content in there š¤Ø
#the dlc actually costs more than i paid for elden ring itself bc i originally got it for 40% off lol.....#just looking at it again bc every few days im like maybe i should preorder it... and then i see the price tag and š#to be fair i wouldnt put it past them to have 100 extra hours of gameplay bc elden ring is a fucking insane length already#but i dont know if i would even want to play 100 extra hours thats so much girl i work full time u cant do this to me š#ok im sure it wont be that long. but probably a good 30 hours i imagine based on how theyve priced dlc for other games#maybe 40 for me bc i like to explore things thoroughly....#i dont think their pricing is usually that unfair tbh. like yeah 50 quid is wayy more than i would pay for most games but im prolly gonna-#end up with a solid 200 hours by the time ive done absolutely everything so it is worth all that. and its so incredibly gorgeous#ive had days playing it where ive almost felt like its real like the sheer level of detail.... damn!!#i like the sound of the sote levelling system tho + some of the bosses look cool..... but im NOT playing it for a few months at least#im gonna need a longass tolerance break once ive 100%ed the base game. gives them time to roll out bugfixes for sote anyway#and idc abt seeing spoilers n stuff bc i waited 2 years to play elden ring + completed it + now have 140 hours and frankly-#i still dont know shit about the plot. sorry thal wasnt paying attention she got too carried away by her bloodlust#god forbid women do anything......#anyyywayyyy. im gonna play a little and then head off to bed. hope i can sleep better tn but we'll see w these meds innit#.diaries
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Figuring out I'm on the ace spectrum was so difficult because I have always been a horny bitch. I knew what sex was at a fairly young age, because I'd asked my mom and she's one of those good parents who'll answer questions like those, and as I grew older and would ask more complex questions, her answers would evolve along with my curiosity and understanding of the world. And I remember having fantasies as young as 9 or 10 years old, even if they were hella vague and nothing close to what sex actually is lol
So as I became a teenager, and all my friends' focus turned from playing with dolls to flirting with boys, I automatically thought I was attracted to boys. And I paid more attention to Cute Boys than I did to Cute Girls, because girls were just nice to look at while boys were People To Have Crushes On. Because of heteronormativity. Looking back on it now, I know there were girls I liked to stare at just as intently as boys, although less often because I wasn't trying to pay attention. And I certainly didn't fantasize about girls because I started reading romance novels in 5th grade, so I was fantasizing about male romantic partners because that was the fiction I was consuming. I didn't even realize fantasizing about girls was possible until I was 17, and I had a few "am I a lesbian" internal crises for years because of it.
So when I did start having sex, I had A LOT OF IT with SO MANY different guys, and eventually a couple of women once I started accepting that bisexuality was real. But it was never really fulfilling. Not like my fantasies were. Not like my books were. I was slutty because sex was fun, I was horny, there were plenty of options so I kept searching for that satisfaction I was craving.
Getting married was a relief (even though it turns out I'm aro-spec too lol) because I was tired of hunting, and even if sex with my husband was meh, at least I had someone around to scratch that itch if I had it, and he didn't mind if I occasionally took care of things on my own because I'd read an especially hot scene in a romance.
I learned about asexuality in my early 20s, but I brushed it off. Couldn't be me, I'm far too horny for that. But I think that comes from the fact that everything you hear about Aces is attached to sex-repulsion or sex-indifference. I wasn't either of those things. I was horny all the dang time. I was fantasizing about sex all the dang time. I figured actual sex was meh because my imagination was so vivid that real life could never match up. Which could be true to an extent, but I think not as much as popular opinion would have us believe. If fantasy was really that much better for everyone, then I think we'd have less incels and unplanned pregnancies than we do.
In my 30s I finally saw people talking about The Spectrum, and I started examining my past, and I figured out I wasn't really attracted to anyone I had sex with. I do occasionally find someone attractive; there are men and women and enbies who make my skin feel tight and give me a little wave of lightheadedness lol... but it's always always the fantasy that gets me really going. If given the opportunity I wouldn't have sex with any of those people. Thank you, but no thank you, I'd rather just imagine it than physically participate in the act with them.
(Ok I might go down on them, but that's less about wanting sex, and more about being able to add them to my Tally. Hell yeah I want to brag about making *insert hot person* have an orgasm. There's PRIDE in that kind of accomplishment lol)
I have a lot of respect for aces that are not horny. I understand it even if I don't share the sentiment. And I feel like most of them understand me even if they don't share the sentiment. There's a solidarity between us.
Until I go into a fandom tag for a character that the aces have glommed onto because they're canonically ace or headcanoned as ace. Good lord, the non-horny aces can turn into downright vicious bastards if a horny ace sexualizes their blorbo.
This post is for them.
Horny aces exist. Please look up "autochorissexual, lithosexual, and aegosexual."
Refer to those definitions in regards to romantic attraction as well as sexual attraction.
Some aces may not fall into one of those definitions, because asexuality is a spectrum, but they may still be horny.
Horny aces are not disrespecting you by enjoying being horny on main. We promise we'll wash the stickiness off our hands before we hold your hands in queer solidarity.
And most importantly: Your blorbo is fictional and does not need to be defended from icky sexuality. They exist in an infinite multiverse, so your blorbo and my blorbo are not the same, even if they appear to be on the surface.
AND:
This post is also for the people who are confused about themselves because they're horny but don't actually feel attraction. You're not crazy, you're not wishy washy, you're not "waiting for the right person to come along" (unless you are, in which case I hope you find them). You're just a thin strip of color on a massive rainbow that holds more unique shades than anyone can perceive at a glance.
You're valid. You're one of us too.
And don't be mean to the non-horny aces. Tag your smut so they can avoid it. (But actually so I can find it lol)
#ltleramblings#queer stuff#seriously the fandom fights are so exhausting#thank goodness for the block button#asexuality
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don't tell Bucky - B.Barnes x reader
Summary: Reader is broke and refuses to tell mob!bucky the extend of it
TW: fluff, happy ending, little swears, mention of money, getting fired, (think that's everything)
ENJOY!!
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Y/N was used to the biting cold in her apartment, it had been a long few months with her hours being cut down and bills piling up she was in debt. Badly. She had started cutting costs where possible, heating was the first to go, she had opted forĀ not turning the heating on despite the freezing temperatures outside, food was the second thing to go, she had starting making meals stretch and eating less and slowly things seemed a little more manageable. The bills continued to pile up, yet things seemed a little easier. Every single penny was put to the side to clear her debt. She had been seeing Bucky as much as possible but she couldnāt talk to him about it, he would just offer to pay her debt off and then sheād owe him for almost the rest of her life. She couldnāt ask him. She wouldnāt. Bucky had picked her up from work, it was a surprise, and something Y/N was grateful for as she wouldnāt have to pay for the bus home.Ā
āDo you want to stay at mine tonight?ā Bucky asked gently pressing a kiss to her cheek as they finished their heavy make-out session in the carĀ
āIāve got work in the morning,ā She said softly, breath slipping through her lipsĀ
āCall in sickā Bucky said between kisses āYou can go without one shift canāt you?ā Bucky askedĀ
āWeāre short staffed Buck, I need to be thereā She lied easily,Ā
āLet me come in? I just want to hold you tonightā He said softly pressing another kiss to her lips. Y/N nodded in agreement, how could she ever say no to an offer like that?Ā
Bucky followed Y/N up the stairs to her apartment, she unlocked the door and was met by an icy breeze. Bucky shuddered.Ā
āWhy is it so cold baby? Your heating broken?ā He askedĀ
āHmm?ā Y/N asked turning around to face himĀ
āYour apartment Y/N, itās coldāĀ
āOh, sorry Buck I turned the heating offāĀ
āFor good?ā Bucky asked closing the door behind him āOr is it broken?ā He asked
āOh, no I just turned it off whilst I was at workā Y/N said softly,Ā
āWhy would you do that?ā Bucky asked again pulling Y/N into an embraceĀ
āIt was just while I went to work Buckā
āThatās not safe doll, you should keep the heating on so you donāt get ill, even when youāre not home. You need to come into a warm houseā Bucky said, Y/N resisted the urge to cry.Ā
āI usually do Bucky, it was just a one offā she said.Ā
Bucky didnāt mention the heating again that night. Y/N was grateful for that small mercy. What he did mention was the mountain of blankets that sat on her bed.Ā
āDoll?ā He called from her bedroomĀ
āYeah?ā She replied coming into the bedroom, her eyes falling on Buckyās metal hand clasping three blankets,Ā
āYou coming down with something?ā He asked āI can call Banner to come and check on you if you want?āĀ
āOh Buck, no Iām ok. Just get cold when youāre not hereā She said, it wasnāt a complete lie, just a small one. It made her feel a little better.Ā
āYou know you could just move in with me?ā Bucky offeredĀ
āDonāt be silly Bucky, weāve spoken about thisā She said and Bucky stopped himself from starting an argument by pressing his lips to hers.Ā
ā ā āĀ
The next few weeks were tricky. Y/N had started picking up more shifts than she could count which lessened her time to do anything; most of all see Bucky.Ā
When one fateful day put Y/Nās life into a tailspin,Ā
āY/N could you come into my office when you get a moment please?ā Her bossās voice cut through the noise, and Y/N felt a panic run through her body,Ā
āIāll come nowā She said quickly, hurrying behind the shorter lady, āis everything ok?āĀ
āTake a seat Y/Nā She said, Y/N knew this wasnāt good, she never asked her to take a seat before, this had got to be bad news.Ā
āHave I done something wrong?āĀ
āNo, Y/N youāre one of the best workers we have hereā She said taking a deep breath ābut we canāt afford to keep you on, with prices and wages going up weāre cutting down to less staff members and well itās only fair that we let you go first. Youāve got enough experience to get another job quickly whereas the others donātāĀ
āYou mean the others are cheaper because they are younger?ā Y/N said noticing the true meaning behind her words.Ā
āThat isnāt what we are doing Y/Nā her boss spoke halfheartedlyĀ
āWhen do I leave?ā Y/N asked dejectedly, knowing it was a loosing battleĀ
āTodayās your last shift, you are let go without holiday pay or leave noticeā She said passing Y/N an envelope āAll the necessary documents are in here, please hand your keys in at the end of the shiftāĀ
āNo need to waitā Y/N said, pulling her work keys out her bag and putting them on the desk. Picking up the envelope, Y/N walked out.Ā
The walk home was a cold one, not only because of the biting wind but Y/N felt empty, numb, like sheād just been caught in the rain. She wanted to call Bucky, but after her neglect of him she knew that he was probably mad at her and calling him to cry would not be the best way to go. However, her ringtone cut Y/Nās moping thoughts short,Ā
āHello?āĀ
āDoll, oh thank god. Steve just told me he passed you on the street, heās turning around to pick you up so donāt go anywhere. Whatās happened?ā Bucky askedĀ
āNothing Buck, Iāll talk to you later, tell Steve not to worryāĀ
āNo, heās picking you up and you can come here or go home then come here, or just head home if thatās what you want but Iād rather Steve did it than you walk yourself doll okay?ā He saidĀ
āItās going to happened whatever I say right?ā Y/N chuckled halfheartedly, the lack of reply on Buckyās end confirmed it āIāll wait for SteveāĀ
āGood girl, Iāll see you soonā He said ending the call quickly.Ā
As if on cue Steveās car pulled into view,Ā
āHey Y/N, Buckās waiting for youā He said opening the door for her,Ā
āThanks SteveāĀ
After a few quiet minutes Y/N answered the question which was burning in Steve's mind,Ā
āI got firedā She said quietly,Ā
āThey did what? Oh Buck wonāt be happy, how dare theyā Steve said forcefully,Ā
āThey canāt afford me apparentlyā Y/N chuckled sadlyĀ
āBullshitāĀ
āPromise you wonāt tell Bucky?ā She askedĀ
āI wonāt lie to him if he asksā Steve said āBut Iāll divert attention so he doesnāt askā Steve agreed quietlyĀ
ā ā ā ā āĀ
Y/N had avoided Bucky for another two weeks, she hadnāt meant to. But she had been sending CVās, babysitting, dog walking and selling small handmade bits online. Anything possible to make some money, she was yet to receive an interview or even any interest. It seemed that everyone was full of employees or was hiring younger staff, there was no place for Y/N.Ā
She had been dodging her landlord phone calls, and the electricity company and even a few others who she knew were angry that she hadnāt paid. Stretching her legs out wide on the floor she took a minute away from her laptop screen and picked up her phone.Ā
āIām on my way, be there in 15ā Bucky had texted around 15 minutes ago, Y/N let out a panicked sigh and started picking up the mess around her to try and make herself look presentable for Bucky, she had to keep up appearances.Ā
āDoll?ā Bucky called through her apartment,Ā
āIn hereā She replied quickly shoving some dirty clothes at the bottom of her wardrobe,Ā
āHey dollā He said softly pulling her in for a kiss, not seeming to notice her dishevelled state.Ā
āHey Buckyā she pressed a kiss to his lips, something she had missed dearly.Ā
āI need to talk to youā Bucky said pulling her down to sit on the bed, she sat down with his hands gripped in hers as if he was about to disappear.Ā
āI know Iāve been awful Buck, I havenāt spoken to you and Iāve avoided you, please donāt be mad, Iāve just been so stressed andāā
Bucky quickly cut her off āIām not breaking up with you Y/NāĀ
āYouāre not?āĀ
āNo, doll Iām notāĀ
āOhāĀ
āI know whatās going on Y/Nā he said sincerelyĀ
āNothingās going onāĀ
āDoll I knowāĀ
āBucky nothing is going onā
āYou got fired, youāve been trying to find another job, youāve been dog walking, which Iām not happy with because thatās dangerous when you donāt know the dog or the owner, and youāve been selling your adorably little crochet animals onlineā Bucky saidĀ
āYou got someone to follow meāĀ
āYou started shutting me outā Bucky justifiedĀ
āFair enoughāĀ
āDid I miss anything?ā Bucky askedĀ
āNoā Y/N said her eyes welling up with tears, she let go on Buckyās hand to hide her face in them,Ā
āOh doll, come hereā Bucky said wrapping his arms around her, letting her cry all her stresses and troubles away onto his shirt, he knew once she had cried they would be able to talk through options properly.Ā
āIām sorryā Y/N said with a sniffleĀ
āCan I finish what I was saying earlier?ā Bucky asked, Y/N nodded silently āIāve paid off all your debts, I did the landlord, electricity, water and that loan you took out, you can pay me back if you want to if you have the money, if not itās my birthday present to you I know you wonāt accept it any other wayā He saidĀ
āBucky pleaseā
āItās already doneāĀ
āI should be able to do this better,IĀ should be able to pay my fucking billsāĀ
āNoā Bucky said calmlyĀ
āNo?āĀ
āNo youāre not doing that. You are doing as best as you can. And I refuse to listen to that shit. Now put on a nice dress, weāre going out to eatāĀ
ā ā ā āĀ
That night when Bucky and Y/N were laying in bed cuddled up to each other, Y/N decided to be braveĀ
āBucky?āĀ
āYes doll?āĀ
āDo you think I could move in with you?ā She asked pressing a kiss to his chest āI donāt think I want to do this alone anymoreāĀ
āDoll, Iād be delightedāĀ
#bucky barnes#bucky#bucky barnes x y/n#bucky x reader#bucky angst#itsthewritergal#mob bucky#mob!bucky fluff#mob!buck#mob!bucky x reader#mob!bucky
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Five Hargreeves NSFW Headcanons
Ok, so here are some smutty headcanons that I have developed for Five over time. Obviously, this is my personal version and if youāve read any of my stories, you will recognize a lot of these! Also, these are intended to be with a female partner, even though I feel like Five could be with any gender or orientation. If heās attracted to a person and has a connection with them, thatās all that matters. I just write him with cis women because thatās what I am and thatās what I know. Let me know if you think I missed any! š
Warnings: Smut! Sex! Turn back if you don't want smut!
Letās start with relationships: Five does not have the patience, nor the inclination, to care about most people outside of his immediate family. He knows heās smarter (a lot smarter) than the average human, and spending more time than he needs to with someone else and their tiny brain is highly irritating. He does not have a lot of friends and doesnāt feel the need for any. That does not mean he isnāt attracted to women and doesnāt notice them. He most definitely notices. And once in a while he may indulge in a drunken fling here and there. However, when he meets that one woman that lights a fire in him, then it's game over. Heās done for, head over heels, no one will ever come close, in love for all eternity. Heās not going to fall for just anyone, either. Aside from having a body that he wants to fuck all day for the rest of his life, you also have to be smart. And witty. And not put up with any of his shit. Just because heās in love with you, does not mean heās not going to slip up sometimes and say or do something to piss you off. But when you come back at him with some major attitude and fight, he will end up loving you even more. Five needs a spicy woman to put him in his place sometimes.
Blow Jobs: Holy shit, this man loves a good blow job! Nothing makes him hotter than watching you service him. He wants to shove you down on your knees and watch intently as you take him all the way into your mouth until his cock hits the back of your throat. And if you can handle it, heās going to fuck your face. Grab your hair in his fist and thrust himself into you until youāre gagging and drooling, tears running down your cheeks. Maybe heāll come down your throat, maybe he wonāt. Heāll let you know first, though. But if youāre going to be in a relationship with him, you better get used to having his dick in your mouth.
Cunnilingus: He may want you to suck his cock, but heās more than willing to pay back the favor. In fact, Five wants to eat you out like the starving man he once was. Your taste and your scent drives him wild and heāll take as long as you need. In fact, sometimes, he wonāt stop even if you want him to. You can be begging him to stop and to fuck you instead, but heāll just hold you down by your hips and look up at you with that knowing smirk of his; his mouth shining with your juices, and shake his head. Denied. Then heās back at it, sucking and licking and fucking your pussy with his tongue until youāre a shuddering, crying mess, and your back is arching off the bed.
Orgasms: Continuing on that theme, Five will not come until you have, at least once but preferably a couple of times. He considers this a personal challenge, and heās going to do everything in his power to make sure youāre screaming and shaking before heās satisfied enough to let himself go. Ok, sure, there are times when maybe he does not perform as amazingly as heād like. Times when you drive him so fucking crazy with the way youāre writhing underneath him and looking at him with that sexy little pout of yours that he canāt hold back. Heāll feel guilty about it afterwards, though, so once heās able to think straight again, heāll make sure youāre taken care of.
Daddy kink: This is it, guys. The big one. The thing that he absolutely goes fucking crazy over. You want Five to lose his mind over you? Sit on his lap and call him Daddy. Purr it seductively next to his ear while you run a hand down his chest. Remind him of it when youāre on your knees, looking back up at him with wide, innocent eyes, as you slowly unbuckle his belt. Moan it loudly just before he makes you come. Odds are, heās going to be the older one in the relationship, so it just plays into his preferred role of the man in charge. He is the Daddy, here, and donāt you fucking forget it.
Cum: He wants you either covered in it or filled with it. Five loves nothing more than to come inside of you, watching his load drip out of you, dripping down your legs or pooling on the sheets underneath you. But sometimes he canāt control himself, taking matters into his own hands, and covering your tits or your ass in ropes of his cum. Seeing his semen all over you lights up that feral part of his brain because it reminds him and you who you belong to. He usually does this when heās not thinking clearly, and then will feel badly afterwards, especially if he didnāt tell you he was going to do it in the first place. Youāll have to tell him itās ok and that you donāt mind; that you liked it, actually. After he feels better about himself, heāll quickly blink into the bathroom and grab a washcloth or tissues to help clean you up.
Dominance: Obviously, Five likes to be the one calling the shots. He is going to tell you, or more likely order you, to do what he wants. Whether he wants you riding him hard and fast, or on your hands and knees so he can fuck you from behind, heāll let you know. Or maybe heāll just throw you around, no words needed, until heās got you where he wants you. He wants to overpower you, hold you down, pin you against a wall, flatten you with his body on top of yours. He wants to grip your wrists tightly in his hands and shove your legs apart with his knees. You are his to do with what he wants, but thatās only because he knows thatās what you like. It might not even be anything rough or physical that shows heās in charge. It could be a subtle look in your direction, or a small command of āCome hereā or āNoā to your request that has you weak in the knees and doing whatever he wants. You might have him wrapped around your finger in every other aspect of your relationship, but inside the bedroom he is the boss.
Submission: There is one tiny little caveat to that dominance thing. Once in a while, you get to be in charge. Yes, he likes to be the dominant one, but heās also up for being the sub every now and then. Maybe itās a spur of the moment thing that you hesitantly try, and for some reason, heās into it that day. Maybe heās really pissing you off and he needs to be reminded that you are not a doormat for his temper tantrums and misplaced rage. This is when things can really get fun. Now you get to order him around, and heās going to listen. Make him to eat you out until you tell him to stop. Tie him up with his own necktie and make him really work for it. Tease him until his cock is so hard and leaking that heās squirming and begging you to fuck him. Rub your wet pussy up and down his shaft, but donāt let him in, until heās whining like a little bitch and you laugh before finally giving in. Call him a good boy and slap his ass. He will do it all for you, because he loves you. And maybe because he secretly likes it, too. And when itās all over, he will pretend that it was a one-time deal and you are dreaming if you think thatās ever going to happen again. You know better, though.
Dirty talk: Oh boy, heās a talker. Not only does Five like the sound of his own voice, he wants to hear yours, too. He is going to lay out his entire dirty plan for you, in detail, out loud while he gets started. Then, heās going to share with you each of the thoughts running through his head during the act, as well. It all depends on his mood and whether heās being rough or soft, demanding or sweet. āFuck me harderā āYouāre so tight, you feel amazingā āGod damn it, I never want to stop fucking youā āYouāre so beautifulā āI love youā āYouāre all I needā Heās not shy about what he wants to hear from you, either. āTell me who you belong toā āWhose cock do you want inside of you?ā āTell me how I make you feelā He wants to hear all of it. There may be a few times where he orders you to stay quiet while he teases and fucks you hard, but that wonāt stop him from chattering away himself. Unless heās got some severe laryngitis going on, you are going to hear A LOT from Five Hargreeves during sex.
Rough Sex: Yes! He wants to fuck you into the mattress, or wall, or floor, or whatever surface he can find. But not in a violent or cruel way; he knows how you like it and heās going to deliver. Heās going to make getting your pussy pounded into oblivion feel amazing. Shoving his cock inside of you, your leg thrown over his shoulder, sweat forming on his body, hair flopping in his eyes, jaw set in concentration as he rams into you over and over until you are screaming. He loves you, heāll remind you, as he flips you over onto all fours and continues to fuck you so perfectly that you wonāt be able to think or walk straight for a week. Weāre talking hair-pulling, ass-slapping, sucking and biting until youāre bruised kind of rough.
Sweet/slow Sex: Also yes! Five likes it rough sometimes, but he also likes to take his time with you. He loves you, you are his entire world, and he just canāt believe you love him, too. So, he will cover your body with soft kisses, caressing every part of you while he tells you how gorgeous you are. He will worship your body, because to him you are the most perfect woman in the world. He will never love anyone else but you, and as he fucks you slow and rhythmically, with your legs and arms wrapped tightly around him, he will gaze lovingly into your eyes and tell you so.
Insecurities: We all know Five is the most confident man in the room. Heās arrogant and bossy, and isnāt afraid of anything or anyone. But, he has a lot of trauma, and with that comes shame, and regret, and feelings of inadequacy. Most people donāt know this about him. Most people except for you. With you, he letās his guard down. He is safe with you and he can finally be himself. When the nightmares come, or the panic attacks, or just the overwhelming thoughts of self-doubt that plague him, he turns to you for comfort. Sometimes that means just lying there with you in the dark, as he lays his head on your chest and you give him soft kisses and run your fingers through his hair. Other times, he may need more than that. Because he needs to feel you, all of you, to make sure you are real. His touches and kisses will lead to more, and it all has to do with love and not lust, and his vulnerability with you. You are his lifeline to the only real happiness he knows and heās terrified of it being ripped away from him again. He will bury his face in the crook of your neck while he thrusts slowly into you, kissing you softly and trying desperately not to shed the tears that are already making their way down his face. He wants to hear you say youāll never leave him because he doesnāt want to be alone. And when you reassure him over and over with more kisses and whispers of how much you love him, he will eventually relax once more.
Names: Five loves to give you pet names. Sometimes they give a sense of his dominance over you, or may even be sarcastic if heās being a jerk (sweetheart and honey can sound completely different depending on his tone). Other times they are just a form of his love for you and even if they are old fashioned (darling, my love, etc), you love hearing them from him. He likes to have a special name for you that no one else calls you, too. And he generally saves a couple just for sexy times (āgo on baby, come for meā) that he knows drives you crazy. You can have pet names for him, too, and you love knowing you are the only one that can get away with that.
His own name: Along the same lines, Five wants to hear you say his name. When youāre whispering it quietly as heās trailing kisses down your neck. As youāre whining and begging pitifully when he teases you and holds out on you instead of just fucking you like you want. And especially when you are screaming his name so loud the neighbors down the street can hear. It totally plays into his ego to have you moaning his name while heās making you lose your mind with his cock or his fingers. Once you start sobbing and crying out his name in pure ecstasy, heās probably not going to be able to last much longer because that is music to his ears. But if you really want to kick it up a notch and pretty much guarantee heās going to be violently coming inside of you in a matter of seconds, use his full name. Throwing in a āNumber Fiveā is like an automatic switch for him and its game over.
Loud sex: Continuing onā¦he wants you loud. This goes along with the dirty talk and moaning his name. He wants to hear you. He wants the neighbors to hear you. He wants the whole god damn city to hear you. And he wants everyone to know just who is fucking you. Maybe it will make run-ins with neighbors at the mailbox a little awkward in the morning, but Five doesnāt really give a shit. He wants his girl screaming so loud for him that itās a wonder the cops donāt get called. And heāll wear that badge of honor proudly, just adding to the other list of things he knows heās the fucking king of.
Kissing: Five loves kissing you. He canāt get enough of it. Yes, he loves fucking and everything else sex-related, but kissing is always incorporated, even with the roughest of sex. Remember, this man is touch starved, but he also doesnāt like most people touching him. You are the exception. The fact that he has found someone to love and that loves him in return is nothing short of a miracle for him. So, kissing you and being kissed by you, is heaven. You can feel all of his love and desire for you in those kisses, whether they are soft and gentle, or hungry and desperate. He kisses you in the morning and when you leave for the day. He kisses you when you come home and before you go to sleep. Sometimes when youāre just standing there, washing dishes, or sitting reading a book, you will look so cute to him that he canāt help himself and heāll tilt your face up towards him with a hand on your chin and kiss you until you want to melt into a puddle at his feet. He will also ask you to kiss him, stopping you as you walk by him by taking your hand and pulling you in close, an arm around your waist. āKiss me. Please,ā heāll say quietly with the most innocent looking face and your heart will break for him. Itās the please that gets you. But he really doesnāt need to ask, because you will never not want to give him as many kisses as he needs. Ā Ā
Masturbation: If anyone is an expert in jerking off, itās Five Hargreeves. How could he not be? It was him and his hand/Dolores for 45 years, and a guy has needs. Would he prefer your mouth or your pussy to stick his dick in? Absolutely. But sometimes youāre not available, or the timing isnāt right, or youāre not in the mood. In which case, Five knows exactly how to efficiently and quickly rub one out and then go about his day. He loves to watch you finger yourself, though. Especially when he makes you tell him who you are thinking of while youāre doing it (always him). He also has no shame in masturbating in front of you while you are taking care of yourself. Sitting there, nonchalantly and slowly stroking his hard cock while he watches you play with yourself, maybe giving you directions while you do it. Itās just one of the ways he reminds you whoās in charge.
Praise: Yes, he will praise you for being a good girl. This kind of goes hand in hand with the Daddy kink. āBe a good girl for Daddy,ā heāll tell you while slowly running the back of his hand down your cheek. If you follow his directions, he will give you all the praise you deserve. āSuch a good girl, taking it so well for meā āThatās my good girlā āThatās right baby, youāre perfectā āYouāre doing so good, just a little longer sweetheartā He might be demanding you suck his cock or flinging you around like a ragdoll on the bed and fucking you senseless, but he will always tell you how good you are being for him. Like the perfect gentleman he is.
Appearance: This includes body type, clothing, lingerie, hair, and make-up. Five does not have a specific body type per se. If he finds you attractive, he finds you attractive, end of story. He may have a slight preference towards nice boobs and a tight ass, but thatās just on a superficial basis. Chubby tummy? Thick thighs? Flat chest? Bony elbows and knees? He does not care. If he loves you, then youāre the most beautiful woman in the world and he wouldnāt want you any other way. He does love a tight skirt and high heels, though. Watching your ass bounce along while you sashay your hips in front of him will have him wishing he could blink you away somewhere private, flip that skirt up, and take care of business. And if you whisper in passing that youāre not wearing any underwear, he just might. Five loves you fully naked, sprawled out just for him. But his brain misfires a few times when he sees you in sexy lingerie. A lace bra, tight corset, thong panties, or even just a skimpy little tank top has him drooling and stumbling all over himself in an effort to get his dick under control. Wearing a sexy outfit like this is a good way to make him the submissive one, because he will do anything for you at this point. Itās actually pretty hilarious to see him at a loss for words for once, jaw on the floor, and licking his lips at just the sight of you. A flustered Five is the best. He doesnāt have much preference for hair style, as long as thereās enough to grab in his fist when youāre blowing him. Same goes for make-up. The only exception to that is lipstick. Five loves when you wear red lipstick for him. He likes to see the trail it makes over his body as your lips kiss and suck him all over. He loves to see it smudged all over your mouth, on his face, and on his cock. Itās just one of those things that reminds him that you are all his.
Possessiveness: Which brings us to this. Five can be a little possessive. Not in a āyouāre not going anywhere without me" kind of way. Heās not at all like that. But he does like to remind you now and then who exactly you belong to. That body is only for him to touch, and kiss, and fuck. He doesnāt get jealous, because thereās nothing to be jealous over. He trusts you and you trust him. You are independent and have your own life outside of him, and thatās just one of the reasons he loves you. But he does get territorial, and thereās a difference. If another man puts a hand on you and you donāt like it, or someone propositions you in some way, well then they are in for a real big fucking awakening. Five may try to keep his assassin instincts to himself most of the time, but if he sees some random guy disrespecting you, things are going to get ugly. He may not even need to use any actual physical force or violence. Just the threat of it is usually enough. But if that doesnāt work, and the stupid moron isnāt backing down, well, thatās their own fault. There will be a fake, saccharine smile, and a derisive chuckle as the last warning. Then the poor bastard will find himself either punched in the mouth or facedown in the dirt with a foot on his back while being forced to give a teary apology for his treatment of you. If he were ever faced with the need, Five would kill for you. No questions asked. Youāre in real danger? He wonāt think twice about putting a bullet into some dudeās skull. Luckily, a few clever insults, some well-timed blinks, and a swift kick to the jaw are all he really needs to get his point across. Then afterwards, heāll take you home and fuck your brains out, because you are his and he is yours, and you wouldnāt want it any other way. Ā
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idk if it's genuine excitement or the energy drink i had earlier that's actually letting me focus and work but dude. i am CRUSHING this essay. this is Fun To Write. i think i'm actually doing a really good job here. wtf. i love my major man
#i am a LITTLE bit sad i cant do grad school bc like. im going to miss writing essays and researching and all once i graduate#i do genuinely like doing it. call me a nerd or whatever but i love it esp when its on smth fun and interesting like this#now im not sad enough to actually DO grad school lmao#unless i got offered a scholarship or smth idk. wont happen but. hm. if it did.#seriously tho. i would think more seriously abt it if it werent for my adhd. i just dont think its realistic for me#as much as i like my field i dont think i have the ability to focus well enough to complete the work id need to complete#i went to the meeting abt grad school i learned abt what it requires/why people do it and all. i just dont think i can do that#and bc i ultimately cant get diagnosed -> cannot get help/medication thats not going to improve any time soon#after years of learning how to adapt and work with my brain this is probably the best i can do without medical/institutional intervention#its not worth paying a shitload of money and possibly setting my career back by years only to fail out yk?#im not too torn up abt it. ill give it more thought if it becomes relevant but rn its not really on my radar#ive done an excellent job in school! im getting an honours degree (hopefully)! most people dont even get that far#a lot of people with my condition dont even get into university let alone graduate. im incredibly lucky to be able to do what i can#levi.txt#this is all over the place but takeaway is im having a good time! things are coming together i feel confident in my work#im gathering theorists and sources for the section on night of the living dead and having a blast#ive got my examples all lined up my arguments make sense in my head i know where to look for applicable theories etc etc#i just need supporting quotes and im working on that rn!! it hasnt even been that hard#ok. back to work. i need to harness the power of caffeine once more (made my brain quiet) (no longer full of bees) (im in charge)
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ā° HC: BEING IN A SITUATIONSHIP WITH THE JJK F*CKBOYS
DESCRIPTION: my hcs on what itād be like to be in a situationship/fwb situation with the jjk men hehe
FEATURED: gojo satoru, geto suguru, nanami kento, fushiguro toji
WARNINGS: 18+ MINORS DNI. fem + afab reader, this is fully self indulgent i'm just taking my own shiddy experiences and coping via hot anime men, suggestive content/smut, pretty standard manwhore behavior, slightly toxic, not wholesome, kinda crack tbh, some mentions of degradation as a kink, objectifying women, just like the real thing lol!
A/N: LONG BUT READ! this will Not have an ending where you get together at least not rn these are just my hcs all in good fun ur just having fun ok ur not heartbroken everything is okay. they are not good boys here they are normal regular boys
GOJO SATORU
has way too many hoes. way too many
so much so that he gave up on remembering their names and just saves their numbers like āosaka w the hand kinkā, ābig tits shibariā, āslut from trigā, āhostess best bjsā
has someoneās boobs with his name written on them in sharpie as his wallpaper
says i love you when he cums inside and you never know if you should believe it
throws you off when he agrees to meet your friends only for him to flirt with them in front of you
takes you to the best clubs with bottle service, lets the girls sit on his lap and laughs when you get mad
pays for your ubers everywhere every time
into the weirdest shit like wearing your underwear laughing like a lunatic the whole time heās fucking you then after he cums gets sulky and embarrassed
lays it on thick with the pet names, gives zero fucks if that confuses you even further
very public with you and it makes you wonder how many other girls put themselves through this humiliation just for the d
gets jealous about you being with other people and needs to prove himself by eating it from the back or something
fwb with gojo is just a huge mindfuck honestly he doesnāt take anything seriously and this is no different sorry! itās fun tho!
GETO SUGURU
keeps it extremely platonic because he likes to tell himself he has a conscience
too busy for regular chit chat ignores your texts all day then hits you up when he wants to fuck
even more of a whore than gojo is which is why he makes sure not to lead anyone on he just does not need the trouble
answers all your personal questions about him with one word answers
he lets you choose the movie for netflix and chill at least! but will never remember it or the fact that itās your favorite :(
cleans you up after sex and brings you water
has female hygiene products in his bathroom which is both a red and a green flag
lets you stay after sex and you just lay there on his bed watching him do stuff on his computer but he will not be talking to you
never calls you baby or anything when heās fucking you just goes oh fuck yeah right there fuuuuck your pussy
genuinely respects you and has nice decent sex with you unless you tell him that youāre kinky
in which case he fucks you just how you want it and gets off on how turned on you are
not one of those guys who gets jealous of sex toys and holds the wand on your clit for you
likes to make you cum over and over and over again
fwb with geto makes your heart clench because heās just such a gentleman but you got way too much competition to even think about it
NANAMI KENTO
a professional in every sense of the word
uses sex as stress relief
thinks he's too old for this shit but you make him feel alive so he fucks you like he can empty all of his frustrations into you
invites you to his apartment serves you expensive liquor and lets you initiate things most times unless heās too pent up
can actually have very nice conversations with you
never has the āwhat are we talkā because he makes it clear heās too busy for a relationship
lets you spend the night if itās too late but solely for your safety/logistics
does your taxes for you but will not call you anything beyond an āacquaintanceā
texts you happy holidays but does not know when your birthday is
gets tested consistently even though heās not fucking anyone else and always uses a condom unless you beg him not to
eats you out because he thinks itās relaxing and spends hours prepping you
the sexual tension is soooo thick when you two fuck all you can hear is grunts and growls and moans and wet slapping sounds and itās so hot
has some random turn ons like gets bricked up when youāre wearing lipstick or stockings
fwb with nanami is very enjoyable and easy itāll get complicated if you develop feelings because he does not want to date but who cares yolo am i right
FUSHIGURO TOJI
broke ass deadbeat dad why are you into him
absolutely nasty sex
you know if he had a girlfriend heād respect her too much to do the things he does to you
dick game so bomb that youāre scared heās gonna give you a child even when heās wearing a condom
wants to fuck you every way he possibly can on every fuckable surface with zero regard for your physical integrity
eats his cum right out of you
ego is so big, grins so wide and fucks you so hard when you stroke his muscles
loves to eat pussy but only after heās fucked you because he likes it tight and hot with minimal prep
doesnāt follow you on any social media but jerks off to your instagram pics
has like 3 different phone numbers and you donāt know why
has only let you come over once, didnāt let you shower after
no pet names but calls you a dirty whore and other degrading shit
loves it if you cry on his dick
doesnāt give a fuck about your safety sorry youāre on your own
has never told you his last name
one time you asked to see a picture of his son and he didnāt speak for 3 whole minutes
fwb with toji is the nastiest sex youāve ever had truly itās just sinful and everyoneās dark hidden fantasy half of it you couldnāt tell your closest friends because itās just too much
a/n sorry
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ā- # āget out of my office, Luke.ā
Luke Castellan x Apollo!fem!reader
warning - cussing, percy third wheeling, argument
others - situationship, not dating, percy : š§š¼, this is all over the place,
Luke tries to find out what Percy is good at to find his godly parent
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While y/n is trying to mind her own business in the infirmary, a not so subtle, Luke pays her a visit.
a/n - sTOP, why do i relate to Percy so much š āš»
also gonna post a poll soon if this does well <3
āwhy are we even going here, itās not like iām the son of Apollo.ā
Percy complained when Luke dragged him over to the infirmary.
āthats where your wrong buddy. some Apollo kids are really bad archers and really good medics.ā he says as he opens the infirmary door to reveal a teenage girl tending to a camper.
The girlās head quickly snapped to look at them with a kind look on her face before it was quickly washed away when her eyes set on the older boy.
āwhat do you want, Castellan?ā she said clearly annoyed, at the sight of this Luke smirked knowing that he was getting on her nerve already without even saying anything.
āwhat? i canāt see my favorite nurse?ā he said dramatically and put a hand over his heart like he was hurt.
āisnāt that the kid who killed the minotaur?ā the patient groaned in pain as she looked at the younger blond boy. ārest, you canāt do anything until you recover, hun.ā The nurse said to the young girl who was still in awe of Percy ( the patient is like 10 )
The nurse quickly muttered a sleeping spell and looked back at the two boys who were still in the same position.
āhow can I help you?ā
āwell, sweet girl, I need to find out if Percy is the son of Apollo.ā
She groaned at the nickname and then studied Percy. she quickly mumbled a no and then turned her back to the crate of medicine, that needed to get restocked. āwhat do you mean, ānoā ?ā Luke shot annoyance bubbling up inside of him
āi mean, no, Luke. Iāve seen him at archery. he has no aim.ā she explained. āWell, not all Apollo kids are good at archery.ā she scoffs a bit and then fired back, ābut most are, and iām not letting him experiment in my office just to try to find what heās good at.ā
Percy looked at Luke and then at the girl and said, āsheās right, now letās go.ā he said as a not so subtle plead for help to get away from the awkwardness.
both of the older counselors ignored the blond boy and resumed their argument. āwhy canāt you just let him do something!ā Luke hissed,
āI said no, dumbass, and if heās anything like you he might just kill a patient.ā
āoh thanks a lot, fuck face.ā he grumbled
āI mean it, get out of my office, Luke.ā she demanded, Luke sighed angrily before lightly pushing Percy out of the door.
once they were outside. Percy turned to Luke and asked, āwho was that?ā āY/n L/n, meanest Apollo kid youāll meet.ā āhow do you two know each other?ā
āweāre friends.ā as Luke said this Percy look at him confused. āwhat? then why were you arguing?ā
āits kinda our thing, i guess.ā
āthat canāt be healthy.ā
āyeah, but i love āer. sheās great.ā Percy then looked at him like he was crazy and quickly muttered an ok without giving another thought.
Luke smirked a bit and then thought of something and ran back into the infirmary room, slightly kissing her on the cheek playfully and running out after she yelled with a flustered face.
āGET OUT OF MY OFFICE, LUKE.ā
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sorry this is shit <3 love you all!!
#luke castellan x reader#luke castellan#pjo x reader#luke x reader#luke castellan x you#pjo show#percy jackon and the olympians#argument#percy : š§š¼#wish i was y/n šāš»#no because this actually happened to me once ( i was percy š )
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bruh
#my mom was like lets watch something right and i was like u choose bc i thought i was gonna just do work and not rly pay attention#but she chose 18 99 just kinda randomly but now we're 6 eps in and im kinda invested ngl TT#it's so far from what i would usually watch and it's creeping me the fuck out#but it's highkey rly good i think#i ws like scrolling thru the tag a tiny bit bc i was just like#i need to see some ppl saying like it's gonna end ok or something bc im just lowkey freaked out at all times rn watching njfnjfnbjggffj#i did see a bit of a gifset of some of the actors in an interview/game thing like laughing and having fun#and like usually w shows i like i get invested in the cast a lil bit and watch interviews and everyhing#but i feel like im gonna fucking NEED to for this LMAO just to be like THESE R PPL THAT CAN BE HAPPY AND GOOF AROUND JSGJHKFJDJHGKSDF#idk if my mom's gonna stay up to watch this whole thing tonight....... but ngl i feel like if she doesnt im going to#bc im like i need to know at this point i need resolution idk if i can like sleep if not lmfaooo#also the fucking soundtrack for this show is too fucking good at being mysterious and creepy#like pls lmao jfnfjbnjfkkfgdf im like half watching most of the time bc i . dont watch shit like this lol#but the fucking music and sound effects and stuff damn#also the damn violence rn wow :D#watching over top of my glasses so i cant rly seeeeeeeee lmfaooo#also the language thing rly makes this so interesting to me#woof anyway i was not made for watching shit like this lmfao *continues to watch* lets go#need to watch some hea/rtstopper interviews and shti after this make me happy and calmer LMFAO#jeanne talks#also i have aboue a 20% idea of what the FUCK is going on in this show lmaoo#and i think that;s all i could take knowing lmfao
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