#theyve been friends with my ex for a very long time

[agalaxyofjoy]

turns out i won't be having Thanksgiving dinner with anyone.

[kindestegg]

🖊 >:3c

the wheel has chosen!! razz!!

well the thing about razz is theyre a character thats been with me for a long time, theyre multipurpose, one of my specialest meow meows ever, i adore them so muchies theyre so niceys. theyre an afrobrazilian teenager who is super exciteable and loves cartoons and art and they themself are suuuuuper cartoony. in most of their appearances they always have this exaggerated cartoon character mascot personality to them which makes them very charming to my eyes. they also have adhd, so combined with how toony they are theyll often literally be bouncing off the walls lol doing insane silly antics.

their best friend, juliana, kinda enables them and is enabled by them, since shes got kind of a mad scientist attitude and wants to experiment with literally every single thing that dares exist in front of her. and razz loves a good amount of fun so theyre down for it. however they can often be the straight man to ju when it comes to how far these experiments go, though theyll get easily swayed as well since they have a ride or die mentality for her. theyre also actually the most intelligent one out of the two, while ju is the most ambitious person coming up with the actual experiments and pushing to do different things and asking questions, razz is the one who holds actual knowledge about the situation and will have technical info (ex.: ju wants to experiment with turning her washing machine into a mech. shell be down for doing just about anything and messing around but razz will probably be the one looking up how to learn basic mechanical knowledge and pass that down for ju)

they lead somewhat different lives n play different roles depending on the story theyre in. currently theyre being inserted along with ju into tss, and in it theyre a human exchange student who along with ju comes to the boiling isles. strangely enough, theyve got some funky kind of biology going on, since theyre a rare case of a human whom, by ingesting magic items/foods, can actually turn that into energy and have their body become more malleable (hence cartoony!) and can even locate different sorts of magic by taste and smell. theyre still just a normal human though!!!

[fagcrush]

"maybe I should share my list of shit I had to put up with" Doooo it

Well here u go anon!

Wasn't gonna do this but if ppl wanna sit here and vague me I'm gonna be the one to actually say whats up.

I do want to say I do not think I was fully innocent in this group. I did tend to vent to much and drive topics into the ground. I was in a pretty awful place for awhile, was not being treated for stuff I needed to be treated for, had few ways to cope, and made it others problem. I've had time to reflect now that my head is more clear and I'm more medicated and stuff and yeah removing me was reasonable but the way they went about it and the way one mod (who I'll call Mod A through this) was constantly aggressive with me and took issue with things that weren't actually problems is my issue.

It's a long list (literally went over nitro limit) so. Under a read more

When I first moved in w my now ex roommate, we had an incident where they went on a week long vacation when we were struggling to pay rent, and the only thing they talked about was how they were going to have sex I started confusion offer them going so far out of town and only talking about that, and Mod A snapped and said it's not my business and I'm being weird. I think it is my business if they're taking time off work when we have bills to pay.

There was a point where I wanted to try to do content creation full time bc of all the stress trying to find a consistent, good job post-pandemic, working a fucking shitty ass job (one of those ppl trying to sell you shit in the middle of Walmart), I made a little half-joke about paying for the stream coaching advertised on a bottle of soda I had. Mod A for some reason felt the need to get snippy about this, and I kind of snipped back about how I just really want to stream full time because my job is making me extremely unhappy, and it was like "well if you worked better at your job maybe you'd be happy" (which. Damn. How's that boot taste)

I shared a post where I felt someone was being incredibly cruel over a small innocent comment, and Mod A said that the person was justified and funny. Which. I don't remember the thread exactly but it was a small comment that the person could have silently blocked over if it bothered them that much, rather than making a show of it and putting a person on blast, especially given tumblrs hobby of telling people to kill themselves after theyve been "owned." The argument ended with it telling me to "get over" being bullied for being too weird for others, which I stated is the reason I hate the cruelty over minorly "annoying."

Several people in the server were the "it's the fault of third party voters and people who abstain of trump wins" type. The argument happened very early into the election season but

Someone sent me a very vague anon about something a friend of mine did, with zero detail or anything, and then blocked me and now people treat me like a horrible person for taking the side of the person that actually gave me context and talked like an adult.

I was removed from the "irl" side channel some of the closer members were allowed in without being told or warned because I got mad that an ex friend (also incredibly petty drama) gave some personal info out about me for like. No reason.

I was frequently given advice when I did not ask for it, and then people would get mad that I wasn't taking the advice. I think the worst case of this was being given advice on how to make my rp replies longer when I was ranting about elitism in the rp community. That's not what I said. I said I want people to be more accepting of short form and even gave an example of my own rp that's well developed when a lot of our replies are dialogue only. Yeah I should have dropped it long ago but is it really that hard to say "Do you want advice?"

One person was just. Really set on ignoring everything going on in Palestine because "it makes me sad."

Another person constantly huffed and puffed about the PS5 not having exclusives, and ignored me when I tried to explain that most people STILL can't afford a PS5 because it came out smack dab in the middle of a recession and at one point cost basically as much as a used car.

This person also got real huffy and pouty about person giving valid criticism to genshins character models always drastically changing from the announcement art.

I talked frequently about how much I love the group mygo from bang dream. About my frustration when they were delayed, about how I wish I knew more ppl that liked them, about how much their music means to me. When they got added to en, Mod A decided to just say "idgaf about mygo" and it just. Felt rlly hurtful, especially considering it can't handle people not liking bnha

it also loved to hate on morfonica, another group I frequently expressed my love for bc I relate to the singer Mashiro and her struggles. And idk in general I think having this much vitriol for fictional teenage girls while you like bakugo just makes you look like a clown.

Mod A was talking about the BNHA Burger King Collab in France, and I pointed out we shouldn't be celebrating this since Burger King is on the BDS list, and it just kept talking about how excited it is.

When I was visiting an out of town friend, we were thinking of going to see a movie. The only things playing the day and time we could go were Beetlejuice and the Deadpool and Wolverine movie. My husband is incredibly uncomfortable w Beetlejuice bc of the whole dating a teenager plot point, and I was hearing mixed things on Marvel movies being boycotted bc of the Captain America movie, so I asked the server if they knew. For some reason someone got... Really passive aggressive with me for asking, without even knowing why I was asking, and told me to just pirate it. Like I know I can do that. I was asking because I want to go out and do something with a friend but our options are limited. (And yet someone celebrating an actually BDS boycotted thing is perfectly fine! When I found out later that the only thing BDS asked people to boycott was Captain America!)

Mod A was just. Weirdly obsessed with omegaverse stuff w b/akudek/u (censoring so it doesn't pop up in the search) and while the conversation was technically sfw, omegaverse is still at its core a fetish that you shouldn't be applying to underage character. You literally can't seperate it from its core being "There are people who need to fuck monthly or they get incredibly sick/die." And especially w BNHA's tendency to sexualize underage characters it's just. Nasty.

They were really nasty and negative toward vtuber merch and I would ask ppl to cool it down bc I love vtuber merch and they like. Wouldn't.

Also really nasty towards people that like Project Sekai knowing I liked it.

In general there was honestly a lot of hypocrisy with "You can't even criticize my interests, but I'm gonna totally trash on yours."

I was like... Removed without being told. And they didn't consult the owner or anything.

While some things were understandable like me venting about things and not stopping, part of their problem is what I've talked about with people saying it's "TMI" for me to use vague terms to talk about my husband and I trying to have a baby. Also apparently me talking a lot about how I hate how the Deco*27 song Rabbit Hole was kind of bastardized by a really weird animation and how the animation ended up more popular than the official key art. God forbid I want a song about trauma not to turn into "LOOK Miku is having SEX LOL."

Tbh just... Overall the way Mod A was allowed to bully me constantly was so weird.

Oh and this stuff from Mod A and another mod on Tumblr after I was kicked

I'm sure I'm missing shit bc that was just such a bad environment but hey.

[lucyslovelies]

hi queen could you write me a scott x straight female who has freckles and wears a yellow top and likes seth rogen movies reader? i'll pay you

Thank you so much for requesting anon! I'd be more than happy! Sorry for the delay, I was recently court ordered to psychiatric evaluation but I just got out!

Scott x Reader

Scott Dustler walked out of the cabin. It was a sunny morning on Wawanakwa island, and the first day of the competition. After All-Stars Chris suddenly had revealed a loophole in six contestant's contracts that contracted them for another season, though Scott didn't know who else was there, since he had mysteriously arrived alone.

A rustling in a bush nearby distracted the skinny cute ginger and he turned to see Dakota, a blonde airhead who was obsessed with attention and fame (AN: In this AU I decided that the ROTI ending is non-canonical. I will make a separate post about my personal headcanon for the true ending if asked). She was covered in scratches, mud and sticks and looked mad. "Scott?" she asked. "I got dropped off in the middle of the woods for christs sake! Chris couldnt even bring me to the docks... how did you get here?"

"The boat, same as always. No one else was on board through.... do you know who else is on the island?"

"Yes... Heather Smith is here, and so is Noah Lonnie. But those are the only returning contestants... the other two are new" Dakota smiled.

"Wow, new contestants already?" Scott chuckled.

"Yeah, one boy and one girl" Dakota laughed.

"Fresh meat huh... their in for a real surprise when they get here" Scott muttered.

Suddenly a noise happened from anothr bush, this time it was across the way though. Heather Smith tumbled out, her long black hair tied into a bun at the tope of her head. She was newly 18 and looked the part, which made the pictures falling out of her coat even more mysterious, since they appeared to be a small boy. Pehaps her nephew? Scott thought.

"Hi Heather" Dakota said. she was being friendlier than usual, so Sxott thought about using her in an alliance. However he shrugged it off and turned away.

"Whos that?" she pointed to the pictures.

"Uhhh, that's my boyfriend duh" Heather spit on Dakota. Scott was about to take a look when another person emerged from the forest. It was Noah.

"Cody Anderson, remember?" he rolled his eyes sarcastically and a bit gayly, Scott thought. "Theyve been dating since like world tour"

Heather crossed her arms but her eyes were dreamy as she thought of her boyfriend. He expression made Scott's tummy hurt as he thought about his last ex, Courtney, who had dumped him to be with his old friend Mike...

A tear came to his eye which was very unmanly so Scott flicked it away.

"Where are teh new contestants?" Dakota said.

"I saw one earlier it looked like a girl but I could hardly tell" Heather replied

"What do you mean?" Scott asked

"Well the hair was all brown and messy and short enough to either be a boy or a girl, a little androgynous if you ask me. It had freckles too, lots of them... I hate that look" Heather explained.

"Really?" Scott inquired.

"Yeah" Noah added. "And I saw a boy too with curly brown hair... he was kindof cute too... wait, I meant-"

Heather rolled her eyes. "Ignore him. hes just a silly little gayboy"

"Heather that's kindof homophobic..." Dakota muttered but Heather ignored her and did her makeup.

Scott didnt add in (he knew Heather was right, but as a bi sexual he was still offended) because he was thinking about the girl heater described... it sounded almost like Courtney, except the part about the androgyny.

Suddenly another sound came from behind them. everyone jumped but it was just a boy and a girl emerging from the wilderness. The girl was just like Heather had described, except she was wearing a bright yellow crop top under a pair of overall jeans with white sneakers. her hair was a bit tousled by the wind and she had freckles too, but her eyes were green instead of brown like courtney's. the boy said something first.

"h-hey everyone... I'm mickey and this is my sister y/n" he said sounding nervous. "we're triplets but our brother Jay is in the hospital with pneumonia so only we could come"

"Siblings" Heather aske.d she looked sweet but she was like a snake, Scott could tell she was figuring out that the two mjstve had an alliance already. Scott was not unsure of that himself.

"Hi everyone, I'm y/n" the girl said, holding out her hand for Scott to shake. he accepted it and noticed her firm grip and rough hands- it was lmost like shed been raised on a farm. she wasnt like any other girl on the island so far and scott wasn't sure what to think of that yet....

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[flufflecat]

rank the tma entities from favorite to least favorite! that's the first distracting thing I could think of <3

(ive been thinking very hard about my answer for like 3 days now fjkfdlsa thank you so much for this ask. also this is apparently going to be very long, so sorry about this yall)

ok so top to bottom, fav down to least fav:

CORRUPTION - i hate the corruption with my entire being, but i think its legally required to be my fav bc its My entity and i love bugs and fungi and such so very much. this dumb stupid entity just suits me in every possible way, and it makes me soooo mad. its currently stink bug season and ive already found like 4 of them in my house and befriended them. i would definitely be a corruption avatar in TMA and just spend my time terrorizing random people with stink bugs and being like "uhmm, i dont see what you think im doing wrong?? my bugs are just having a good time and i think these people just need to learn to see the benefits of having bugs around??? i think youre being really judgy right now, and need to let me chill" and also i would take jane prentiss out back and bury her in a flower pot because EW stay away from me maggot lady 🤢 (and stop pretending to be worms, youre MAGGOTS!! worms dont deserve this slander) ((dont talk to me about phylogeny and the definition of worm, i do not care. jane prentiss doesnt deserve to be compared to the kind pink creature we most commonly depict as Worm))

STRANGER - theyre the entity i WANT to be an avatar of. would be number 1 if i wasnt forced to pledge loyalty to the corruption. theyve got like the whole aesthetic down perfectly. clowns, taxidermy, weird and offputting creatures, just like a normal guy but you dont want him around, fish i guess, mannequins. its IDEAL. i want to be nikola's friend soooo badly. i think the clown apocalypse wouldve been pretty fun and jon shouldve just let it happen.

SPIRAL - they're every gay persons dream, and i dont even know why we all love them so much. their category feels so broad and im not quite sure what im supposed to be scared of here. why are people scared of fractals again?? literally no idea. im not afraid of them in the slightest, but also all of my dreams have a really spiral-esque aesthetic and all take place in giant labyrinths of hotels and amusement parks and malls and whatever. i wanna submit an application to join their cause because of how dedicated i am to labyrinths. @ the distortion, please call me

FLESH - i just think jared hopworth is really funny, and the flesh is so hilarious to me because it just feels like the working class of entities. entity thats most likely to work a blue collar job and just be a normal person you can go fishing with. entity voted somehow strangest and also most normal. why do they have a meat pit. they amuse me to no end. like alright, have fun with your meat or whatever. im having a great time.

SLAUGHTER - idk why theyre so high up on the list, but idk i think i just love some good violence. the war aesthetic bores me, but they make up for it with their dedication to knives and stabbing. entity that is easiest to make a playlist for because you just have to pick edgy songs from early 2010s amvs. Grifters Bone was actually just playing "I Can't Decide" by the Scissor Sisters.

END - death is just like kinda fun tbh. simple, straightforward, down to earth kinda entity. people really liked connecting unus annus to the end so they instantly rise in the ranking for me. i would invite an end avatar to my house to bake a pie, which i cant really say is true for any other entity.

VAST - used to be higher on the list, but one of my ex-friends really liked them so now im legally required to form a grudge. their aesthetic is great and every vast avatar just seems like theyre having a genuinely good time! being their avatar would probably be the best option out of all of them, since all you have to do is throw some people off a building every now and then, and you can spend the rest of the time just flying around the upper atmosphere or chilling in the ocean. literally nothing about them scares me. the vast emptiness of unexplored depths/heights? thats cool as hell, and i would LOVE to be stuck at the bottom of the ocean. im obsessed with how large the universe is and how small we are. unfathomably large creatures? give me more!!! whales arent big enough, and i think the vast is right to want creatures so large that you cant even perceive them. i was so disappointed as a child when i found out that dinosaurs werent like 100 stories tall. if a shark the size of mount everest showed up at my house, that would be the greatest day of my life. anyway they would be number 4 but theyre 7 now because that friend ruined them. get rekt.

EYE - tbh i dont have much to say about the eye. theyre just sorta there for me. they get points bc the aesthetic is impeccable and everyone draws dope art, and also i own SO much eye themed clothing, but like. idk. theyre watching, i guess. sure, whatever. bonus points for ben meredith though.

HUNT - im surprised i dont like them more, but to me they just feel like a less edgy version of the slaughter. theyre slaughter's slightly more boring younger sibling. none of their avatars seem like theyre having a fun time, and they just dont seem like people i could get along with. like come onnnnn give it up for a bit and focus less on your stupid job, just go camping without making it about some lame Quest or something UGH. extra credit for having werewolves though, i do love werewolves.

BURIED - every time i take a "what entity are you" quiz it gives me the buried, so i have unfortunately developed a vendetta against them. just bc i like dirt doesnt make me a buried avatar!! i have nothing against them specifically, but they just arent Me. 2nd most down to earth avatar after the end (haha thats ironic ha ha), and i could definitely see myself easily being friends with their avatars bc they all seem like pretty normal people, but eh. just not my fav. they should be, but theyre not. sorry, buried

WEB - now i do love a good edgy manipulative character, but i just dont like the web. they seem soooooo self-aggrandizing and im like GEEEEZ can you chill for a second??? i know youre maaaasters of manipulation, but join the club, i can do that too. they have probably the most solid aesthetic out of the entities, with the puppet and spider thing being super cool, but they just dont do enough with it. every time the web does anything i just wanna roll my eyes and find someone less pompous to monologue at me

DESOLATION - i love fire. i love fire, and burning things, and arson, and you guys let me down. youre a cult and not even a fun one!! get over yourselves and just learn to have a good time!! way too obsessed with their pseudo-religious imagery. they need to take a page out of the vast's book and learn to just have a good time

LONELY - eh, they just dont appeal to me. feels like too genuine of a "fear" to be something i could enjoy. im not like afraid of loneliness, it just annoys and depresses me to experience. and i dont want to be stuck around someone who builds their entire brand on not having friends. go to therapy.

DARK - they take the cult thing that the desolation is so obsessed with, and then do an even worse job at it. was ANYONE in the dark having a good time, ever? you all could be so edgy, yet here you are just being downright depressing to interact with. get some hobbies.

EXTINCTION - i dont like them and they are impossible to make a playlist for. number stations are cool though.

CORRUPTION - theyre on here again. i hate you, corruption. stupid horrible worm maggot loser entity. does nothing useful and is terrible at everything. are any of OUR avatars having a good time? No, theyre not!! i dont wanna be stuck with these maggot idiots!! the big plan for world domination was "worm door"???? dear lord. im so ashamed to be involved with them.

[missmeinyourbones]

hemlo L ! i hope ure doing well .. ♡

i keep thinking of this scenario / prompt

& I DESPERATELY NEED UR THOUGHTS

BC UR BRAIN IS SO SEXC ! ! >//<

imagine the same dabi from ur love is series .. like the reader is really kind, warm, and so forgiving & patient with him (even though dabi can be very harsh) the reader takes him in despite everything .. but what if the reader is still pining for someone else ?-? it can be an ex or jus a long time childhood friend theyve always had feelings for !

im interested to know ur thoughts to how dabi would react & feel when the first person he's ever fallen for; the person who's made him feel loved & cared for to be hung up or having feelings for someone else ㅠoㅠ

its okie if u decide to ignore this ! i know ure very busy & probably stressed too .. i hope ure still taking care of urself ! i wish life will treat u with the same kindness you give to all of us ૮₍つ´˘`₎つ 🌷 i'll always be a lover of all the things you write !

omg hiiiiiii first things first...thank u LOL for even indulging me in this thought <3 because touya truly means the world to me and this little universe i've created with him and reader in my to love is to... series is something i hold very dear to my heart. so thank you for taking the time out of your day to send me your kind words. truly support like this makes me happier than u will ever know, and i am extremely lucky to have people like you enjoying my work <3

ok now moving onto the actual content lol im not gonna write a full piece on this but i do have some Thots....

while i do think that something like that is such a heartbreakingly tragic fallout that could make a beautiful story line...i just dont see reader doing that??? like i think the whole reason they are the way they are with touya (patient when he's harsh, gentle when he's cornered, sturdy when he falters) is because they are just as in love with him as he is them! the whole series is basically me giving touya the love and care he deserves LMFAO so i envision reader as the embodiment of his personal little angel for his little broken soul </3 i see their dynamic kinda like the "A fell first but B fell harder" trope, i think touya and reader are just as much in love with one another, but go through their own journeys with coming to that realization and showing that outwardly. and i think thats the beautiful thing about learning to love! its different for everyone and doesnt have a specific shape or form. its like water, slipping through crevices and malleable to the touch

but hypothetically taking this question out of context from the series and just thinking about touya loving someone who loves someone else, i don't even think he'd let himself. i think everything he does is an internal battle, so even if someone loved him wholeheartedly, he'd still try his very hardest not to let himself reciprocate it. hes been hurt too many times and has dealt with too much pain to even let himself try. i also think its pretty clear that he views himself as a lost cause and has one sole thing in mind for himself before dying, so i truly dont think he'd allow himself to fall in love with anyone, let alone someone who doesnt feel it back. hes so pathetically stubborn, i dont think he'd ever allow himself to indulge in something as fragile as love

[acaciapines]

I will ask you about your toh daemon au: Staying in line with your current thoughts with Luz and Hunter being siblings, how do you imagine that their daemons get along and expand on the sibling dynamic here?

okay one thank you so much for asking in. i want to answer this so BAD but literally all the fun answer are spoilers </3 which is why they're so fun to write! the entire driving idea behind this fic is to examine what it means to settle, and to like...explore the idea we are given of daemons in the hdm books (ex: daemons only ever talking to other daemons and even then thats rare). and luz and hunter literally are built SPECIFICALLY to answer these questions most out of the entire cast, 'cause eda and king deal with different questions, and the other kids touch on them some, but not to the extent that luz and hunter do.

BUT what i can tell you is this:

mari (luz's daemon) doesnt actually like hunter at first dfngfg shes a LOT more unforgiving of him when he betrays them in hunting palismen and holds a grudge and is sort of pissed at luz for feeling sorry for this guy. like luz, he literally [redacted, this au's version of stealing palismen for belos to chomp, in which he succeeds]. he made our life worse. why are you still thinking about him?

fidelity (hunter's palisman, w/ palisman being to witches what daemons are to humans) is the exact opposite of mari! the two of them (luzmari and hunter-fidelity) are sort of like...theyre split across the same halves, if that makes sense? luz and fidelity both want to believe the best in each other, want to reach out and be friends and have this mean something, because they're more similar than they arent, but mari and hunter are like nope, nope, we have problems (hunter dealing w/ belos; mari trying to rebuild the portal to the human world) and 100% are not about to befriend the person on the opposite side. nope. nope. not at all.

unfortunately for the two of them luz and fidelity are very good at being persuasive.

they are like....somewhat unhealthily codependent on each other, in the beginning. in this au theres about a 90% chance hunter's staying at the owl house after hollow mind, unless i veer WILDLY off my outline, and because of that they are very much sticking together as much as they can. hunter struggles a lot with touch because his entire life belos has sort of manhandled him without hunter's consent and luz is the only person he willingly seeks out affection from, because she's luz, and she doesnt really expect anything of him. he tries to kidnap her! shes seen his worst moments! and him trying to do better is enough for her, even if he thinks hes doing a shitty job at it.

fidelity Refuses to leave luz's side after hollow mind. flat out will not go far from her which works because hunter doesnt talk to her for a WHILE after the events of that episode. shes like...really overprotective and get into arguments with the owl beast over this.

mari acts fed up with this all but there is this part of her that appreciates it, because for so long she's had to be the one doing the protecting: she had to feel everything hard, because otherwise luz would feel it, and if luz isn't happy mari can't be that for them. so having fidelity around to be the protector means mari can actually for once in her life Deal With Her Emotions.

post kings tide in the human realm hunter is the only person luz will really tell her problems to, because he understands in a way the other kids just dont. because theyve been through so much together and he wont judge her for wanting to run away, for wanting to be selfish, when all her other friends are missing their families back on the boiling isles and what right does luz have to want to run away? when she has her mom right here?

i thought this is what i wanted, mari says, and its the first time shes ever let herself think this, this is how it was supposed to end. us going home. but now...

well, says hunter, as luz buries her face in fidelity's fur, i'll be here. so you'll always have that.

[dbssh]

fr though i think hutch and victor are one of my favourite dynamics to think about because they have no history with each other, theyve literally never met each other before the story starts, and the only reason theyre even in opposition to each other is because hutch has never met him and knows nothing about him.except what theyve been told, right? and like, i dont think aja is neccessarily uncharitable in how she talks about him but shes just very... in her own head i suppose? she thinks of him basically as "how he treats me" and very little else (i think she struggles with empathy but doesnt really... know that thats whats happening? she hasnt interacted with a lot of people in general so i think she just thinks of it as her poor social skills without realizing that someone else would be able to like. idk. see other people in a fundementally different way than she does. but i digress) and as far as hutch knows victor is just kind of a piece of shit with like, implications of a more complicated history but like. i guess its like being told about your friends ex or whatever like you never met them so you just know the shitty bits and dont really see the whole person, you mostly just know how they hurt someone you cared about and how unfair it was that they did that. so i think oncw they start really like, being around victor, i think hutch kind of starts wanting to give him the benifit of the doubt more... i dont think they really notice how skewed ajas view of the world is until theyre like, in this new environment yk? theyve been together so long in very isolated, easy, comfortable circumstances its really easy to forget each others maladaptations to the world at large. and like, idk i think theyd be inclined to see where hes coming from more as time goes on and he kind of lets his smarter-than-you-no-feelings asshole exterior fall away and like. i think theyd really be able to see what hes dealing with in a way aja would never be able to and kasey is too young to really be privvy to. and i think especially after victor lets it slips that he sees aja as more of a daughter than a sibling i think itd just. sit with them.

[eviclair]

I don’t know if I’ve ever heard of your actual thoughts(tm) on khr, so what’s your constructive review on the series as a whole? Like some positives and negatives w/ the writing, characters, etc. If u don’t feel like answering, feel free to ignore this LOL.

 tl;dr because this is 800 words of nonsense. i think you should know i would not know a constructive review if it bit me in the ass.

my guy i have not done a full read of khr in maybe two years and i know that does not sound like a long time but i have the long-term memory of a fruit fly. please bear with me. luckily for both of us i liveblogged the last time i read so i at least have my own sparknotes jdflaksjddaf

first off! khr is a satire manga!!! i cannot stress this enough, i can and will fight you to the death about this!!! “oh but it gets serious later” it grows a PLOT, thats not the same thing. khr is stupid as hell and that is both on purpose and my favorite thing about it.

i fucking love shonen man!!! its all about FIGHTING and LOVING YOUR FRIENDS and HAVING EMOTIONS and. bro im a water sign. my mars is in gemini, there is nothing i can do about this, god made me and said “get that bitch some found family and also some incredible violence” and we all just have to live with that. 

khr is so much all of those things that i did not realize they were being made fun of until very long after the fact so my current opinions are very much not the ones i started with jaldkhjdfhd but man. once i clued in i both loved it so much more and became 100% incapable of interacting with fandom in any meaningful way L M A O

i just. the main conceit is that theyve weaponized the deus ex machina eleventh-hour shonen power up. the “my dead family came back to life to kill me” trope is used three separate times. the big bad student body president is a delinquent. theres an entire subset of above magic god powers thatre just

the tyl bazooka was just ripping on the Timeskip Arc until the Timeskip Arc actually happened?? like fuuta’s special thing is that he can communicate with the Meta Planet to divine Character Rankings, i dont know what to tell you!!! the truth is out there!!! 

like DO YOU EVEN REMEMBER that time tsuna experienced a villain’s flashback sequence FOR HIM because i fucking do, i think about it every day,

so in the sense of “please critique the writing”, i cant do that because im pretty sure 98% of all the tropey bullshit is by design. do i wish people like the kokuyo gang got more characterization outside of being ride-or-die villain sidekicks?? of course i do but thats my own damn fault for seeing cool side characters and losing all higher brain function. on the other hand, hibari being the person he is and having absolutely no backstory or motivation beyond “get out of my school” is really fucking funny and keeps me warm at night, so. win some, lose some.

(the 2% of the writing that isnt tropey bullshit that i CAN critique is whatever is happening with kyoko. Bad Female Cast is definitely a shonen trope but its a shitty one and i want it to die. within maybe four minutes of kyoko being introduced she tries to body a man and then thats just never spoken about again?? wheres that energy queen?!!! let kyoko say fuck!!!!)

((this applies to haru too in the sense that all she really does is make moon eyes at tsuna but the way in which she does so is honestly so fucking funny and unhinged that it comes back around to being great. like yeah yep yes ma’am thats 100% bonafide Girl Who Throws Skittles In A Puddle And Calls It Potion right there please may i have another))

If khr took itself even 4% more seriously it could be really deep and compelling and i think that frustrates a lot of people, but i think i like it better this way?? half the fun for me is reading in between the lines!! the subtext, however unintentional it may be!!

examples: yamamoto is one of my favorites just because theres SO FUCKING MUCH to unpack about him!! canon gives us a lot of information about him just by virtue of the fact that he’s a Main Character, but paradoxically he himself is never really the focus. he just Does Shit and you have to figure out why on your own and i LOVE DOING THAT.

i dont love mukuro because he’s a fleshed out and nuanced villain, i love him because he says shit like “i went to hell six times” and never expounds upon that or “i can definitely trust the information i got from this magic monocle called Demon Spade’s Super Evil Murder Eye or whatever the fuck” and then expresses surprise when daemon spade is an asshole. he goes and willfully fucks up the only job anyones ever given him (impersonate 80 year old leonardo lippi) because he Just Has to shapeshift into a young hot dude and hand deliver byakuran, the boss of the Flower Family, the Family that names all its members after Flowers, a bouquet that means “i am in disguise ;) cant catch me bitch ;)”

like WHAT THE FUCK!!

i dont know man. i just like puzzles and khr is a gift that keeps giving.

(sidenote that should’ve maybe just been the subject of the post but re:i cant shut the fuck up about anything ever, i love tsuna so much. so much. his personality!! his relationships!!! his growth!!! his growth!!!!! his growth!!!!!!! khr has its claws in me because i see tsuna do something cool or brave or even deeply stupid actually and my whole heart goes AAAAAAAAA bc thats him!!! thats my son!!!!! my baby boy whom ive raised since birth!!!!!! suit me up and call me a reborn kinnie, fuck!!!!!!!!!)

[bakugohoex]

chapter seven ➺  hidden motives

pairing: pro hero katsuki bakugo x pro hero female reader

cw: language 

word count: 2100+

a/n: i promise this series will end soon, i just havent posted for it since decmber whoops, also i promise later on there will be be a lot more action between you and bakugo, i just need to set the plot up, and from the next two chapters theyve got a lot of contact between the two of you

summary:  in which the untrustworthiness of heroes has arised and you and toga get sent on your own little mission, what turns into gaining intel turns into something a lot bigger than you expected, with old friends coming back and an understandment that you were lied to for a very long time

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The purple bruises from last week had disappeared, but the burnt sensation around your wrist remained, it had began to heal but even then, the bandages that Bakugo replaced every night didn’t help. You and Bakugo sat in front of the tv, Tomura with a drink in his hand and Toga beside you trying to gain your attention.

“Can we still really trust the heroes?” One of the civilians had spoken through the TV but you had stopped paying attention. 

Toga’s lips curved to a smirk at the sight of the screen, the events of the prior week had been televised. The blazing night, the murders that occurred and then the couple, the couple you led to death. You could feel Bakugo shift his weight closer to you, he didn’t speak, no usual anger, he was complying watching along. Your face was the next to pop up, a picture taken at the scene where you had stopped the two police officers from grabbing Dabi.

“Ex pro hero Y/n Y/l/n was seen running out of an alleyway after what seemed to be her partner had robbed a convenience store, inside the alleyway were two unconscious police men. If you see this woman contact the police and stay away from her, she is highly dangerous…”

Bakugo closed the TV, seeing how your face had turned sour, “don’t worry about it.” It was soft but you could sense that he was getting more and more frustrated being surrounded by villains.

He had been on ice with Dabi, glaring at him whenever he could, refusing to go out with him and opting to go with Mr Compress. He hated this but most of all he hated seeing how vulnerable you had gotten. You were both cold and sad to him, he’d hear soft sobs some nights and others you were cold and reclusive.

You knew watching the broadcast what you were, a pawn. The Front would never need someone like you, they always wanted Bakugo, but you, they would wear you down until you died in your own means.

“Dabi should be back now, you both can go.” Tomura had told you and Toga that you’d both have to collect some files; it was easy enough to sneak into the commission. With both your quirks you could easily get past security and get the files that they needed. You didn’t question why Tomura had even asked you both to go, but you complied, and Toga had become impatient and grabbed your bandaged arm.

You had wanted to ask what Dabi had been doing but didn’t bother seeing him agitated. His mind was always eerily empty, he never had thoughts and was always just planning his next villainous plan or deciding a meeting for this mysterious man he had been associated with. He never spoke the name of the man and it seemed like nobody ever questioned where he went past midnight.

Suppressing the pain, you gain a fake grin to the girl, her grip still around your burnt arm, it would need checking up properly but that would never occur. You both began walking outside, your black hoodies covering your head and the sunglasses you wore. It had become a lot darker through the afternoon, so it looked normal enough.

Her voice kept playing in the back of your ears, you weren’t paying attention to her, her voice being very annoying, and you wished you could just tell her to fuck off. But you nodded, agreed at her words, acted out as a perfect little villain that you were.

“Y/n, we’re here.” Her cruel grin was evident in her malice tone, she looked between the commission building that you had been in, only three weeks ago. But here you were, a villain ready to infiltrate, you both hid to the side, already knowing what she was going to do.

Seeing the man come to the side, a cigarette in his hands, Toga grabbed her knife and stuck it in him before ingesting his blood. “Y/n now.” She spoke as he tried to scream for help, instead you controlled his head and pushed him into the concrete making him go unconscious. You saw the large rubbish container; you should’ve probably put him in there. But his bleeding head would be fine, and you still wanted him to be found.

You watched her transform in the man and began controlling those in the building. It was a mass group, but your main goal was to control those at the bottom floor and then in groups once you were passed security. She started walking towards the door and you followed, all the thoughts that filled your head would definitely give you a headache, but you kept at it, every single one of them was under your quirk, making them allow you through, letting you both into the elevator and with ease you had made it with the girl.

She tried to figure out what the man’s quirk was, but to no avail couldn’t, trying everything even hurting herself. But it didn’t work, “Y/n, you should’ve looked in his head to see what his quirk was.”

“Sorry, next time I will.” You tapped your foot impatiently; she watched your eyes skim the buttons of the elevator. You remember running away from this exact elevator to tell the president that you would agree to this.

You wondered how she was doing in a safe house, how Todoroki was doing, if being dead was nice and calm for the two of them. You knew when the plan was initiated, they’d both have there own reveals, how they could both go back to their own lives. But you knew most of all, that you’d owe Todoroki, you’d treat the boy to dinner or some other meal.

Toga softly pushed your arm, getting you out of your gaze, you followed her, controlling the cameras away from you both and finally reaching the file room. The commission had decided to have both paper and electronic copies of each human with a quirk, each pro hero and each villain. You had gone through the database a lot when you first started out as a sidekick, you knew the system by the back of your hand.

“We need hard copies.” You nodded, Tomura had gave you both a list to get the files for. You had assumed it was to see how he could vitalise different people to benefit him. But the list varied from normal humans, to pro heroes and villains, it didn’t make sense at all. You grabbed the files you and Toga had designated, before going through the pro heroes cabinet. Finding both yours and Bakugo’s file, your names in bold, with the words inactive stamped across it. You saw the photos they had used, it was fresh out of UA, how young you both had been, so vulnerable unaware of what was to come.

You softly skimmed on Bakugo’s photos, the nights you had been spending in the same bed had brought another side to the boy. Kinder, softer even, he still acted like a dickhead, but he knew the position you both were in and was trying to remind you of why you were even doing this.

“Y/n, I cant find this guy’s, help me.” She whined using the mans voice, it sounded horrific, but you nodded, dropping the files back in the cabinet and walking back to her.

“What’s the name?” She passes the piece of paper, taking a look at the name sprawled over it. The name Aone, you went through the A section, trying to look for the name.

That’s when you saw it, the name of someone a lot more familiar. The lettering was exact, even the surname was the same. But it couldn’t be, his name sprawled in a file of villains, a file of active villains. He couldn’t be, he was dead, he couldn’t exist, he couldn’t be alive. You touched the folder, your mind going through the motions, you heard a squeal Toga having found the file. But all you could see was the name, the name that you hadn’t heard since you were 15 years old. The name of the boy who had saved you, who you had lost.

Grabbing the folder and putting it on top of the others, you both left as quickly as you could. But as fate would have it the loud sound of an alarm blared through the rooms, the elevator had locked itself and being on the fifth floor was not the plan. You saw how heroes had come running up the stairs.

“What do we do Y/n?” Toga had transformed back to herself, and you knew there was only one way out.

You grabbed her, passing her the folders, “keep them tight, you trust me.” It was a stupid question, there was no trust within the two of you, you both were not even friends.

“Just do it.” She muttered grabbing onto the papers with a force, you held her arm, seeing the quirks activate around you.

And a face you hadn’t expected, “Y/n.”

“Deku.” You whispered. He had his arm out, the red and yellow circling his arms, you went into his head saying the words he was shocked to hear. A sorry, an apology, not something a true villain would ever say, he hadn’t expected to see you here, noticing the files in Toga’s hands. He wanted to stop you, but you had gone off in a run.

“Y/n don’t.” He shouted.

It hadn’t stopped you, the window shattered from the force, you both flew out of the window, falling lower and lower, you saw the rubbish container, moving it to where you’d land. It had been a quick movement, and you both landed with a loud scream into the rubbish.

“We have to run.” You said to her grabbing the files and taking off out of the rubbish heap. You took one look back to the building, Midoriya looking out of the window. The saddened face he had, you remembered the first time you had met him, having introduced yourself on the first day of UA. He had always thought of you to be the sweetest girl to ever exist. But here you were, and he could hardly even recognise you.

You could hear the pro heroes try and run after you, but you did something drastic to stop them. Moving the cars that had been on the road to crash into each other and stop the heroes movements, it was petty. But it had worked and both you and Toga both ran for your life’s worth.

Toga was the first to run into the Front’s building, you behind, you had slipped the file quickly away from her own grasp. Knowing she’d ask too many questions, “everything okay?”

Bakugo’s voice was softer and you tried to give a nod, but he continued, “she mentioned shitty Deku, what happened?”

“I’ll tell you later.” You tried to excuse yourself but were stopped by his own grip.

His eyes looked angry, but with a hint of worry, “don’t do this shit, tell me now.”

You looked down, not knowing how to speak, you just wanted to leave, find out the truth but you had to deal with the blond boy. “He was at the commission that was it.”

His grip on your arm had loosened but still lingered, eyeing you up and down. “Did you say anything to him?”

You shook your head, but the slam of the wall that you had been leaning against, caught everybody off guard. Toga stopping her recount of the event as she watched your eyes calmer than usual. The yellow sparks making the wall become ashier.

“Don’t fucking lie to me Y/n, not when we’ve been through too much.” He had known in an instant you had lied; he knew your tell so easily, how you’d answer questions with your facial expressions rather than speak out the lie.

He knew you too well, had paid attention to you for so many years. He knew you inside and out and it bothered him you had kept it from him. “I said I’m sorry, that’s it.” He looked at your eyes, you were hiding something more. He was not letting this go but had let go of your arm seeing you quickly excuse yourself to get changed. Instead you sat on the bed, the hoodie wrapped around your body, staring at the brown folder, the name on a small label at the top.

Why does a file even exist for him? Files for the dead get moved to the basement, it made no sense. Was there some sort of hidden motive for his file to even exist?

You took a deep breathe, opening the file to see the picture of the deceased boy and the words Active stamped across the field. The name of the boys sprawled largely in bold, it was him. A soft tap against the door and the name ahead of you. Akira was alive.

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[moonlight-mischief]

This is a warning post, and I just need to vent also. It involves someone I dated for almost 4 years, and known for 10 years. He and I never had issues, no fights, nothing. He was my best friend, whom I've known most of my life...

This is an Instagram screenshot of his new profile he created (his new picture involves him with a gun now, very professional and smart I know), he keeps blocking me when I try to reach out and ask what happened.

The day before he did all this.. he said our relationship was his sunshine, and what made him wanna keep going and that he loved me so much.

I don't know how a human being can crush someone like this and not explain why.. especially since he always preached about communication to others with me. We were inseparable.

Anyway, I copy and pasted my post I made from Instagram down below. I apologize if it seems harsh but I'm very hurt.

lmfao slept on my ass.

youre the one sleeping on people, you ghosting piece of shit.

this dude was my friend for 10 years and we dated for almost 4 years (4 this year) and outta buttfuck nowhere he ghosted me.

our relationship was a great one with no issues. it was like a fairy tale. people always said they wanted a relationship like ours. but i should've known this fucker, PAUL, not jac'quese(he's just going by his middle name to hide like a pussy ass bitch) is a liar. he's said so many lies, and manipulated me fully. i thought he actually loved me, but obviously not since he disappeared outta nowhere and refuses to speak to me while i've been trying my best to reach out. it's despicable.

he really had me fooled.

4 years dating is so very long, but to him it's nothing and he reacted to one of my messages by laughing. he's been laughing at my fucking pain this whole time. what kind of human wastes someones life for that long like that and laughs at it when they're trying to reach out to you and express how theyve made you feel and want to know what the fuck even happened??.

i should've known he was going to do this since he always ghosted girls in the past, but i thought i was different since we were really close friends, and i had literally witnessed all his behavior.

either way, i thought he changed, he kissed my ass and i fell for him.

obviously a trap.

he's a fucking whore that doesn't respect women one bit. he just uses them and tosses them aside when he's fucking bored.

this is why people say MEN ARE TRASH.

HE IS WHY.

like yeah, sorry for being in love lmfao

sorry for spoiling you, being your sugar momma. wish i could have that shit back lmfao

btw he always changes his name online to get with other girls and hide from the ones he has ghosted.

and he even went back to two old ex close friends that completely ditched us outta buttfuck nowhere and he always claimed he didn't care about them since they abandoned us so he'd never go back. well, obviously there's several lies this mf has been telling so lmfao

he's scum.

[soccialcreature]

rebels s4 first-time watch liveblogging! (just jedi knight on bcuz i only wanna watch the good eps of this show)

sorry. the hair is bad. maybe dont let a blind man give himself a haircut

kanan and hera r the only too bitches i care about in this house

theyre soooo cuuuute ugh

y go to the fuel depot tho that seems like a recipe for disaster

kanan didnt have to b dramatic about it i think they all cudve gotten away if he had just got in the ship. theyve been in tighter situations before

can kanan b a force ghost tho? just to talk to hera. idc about the others. hera seems rly broken up about this

hera: *crying*.  chopper:  bur bur. bur bur bur bur bur.    hera: *sniffles* youre right

ezra and hera reminiscing about kanan is actually really good and really hits :(

the side plot is stupid. y not just use a bomb-bomb and kill that little grey bitch. a fuckin paint bomb? r u serious?let zeb kill him bitch goddamnit zeb deserves a little murder. as a treat

what the fuck is happening

god fucking damnit dave u fucking furry ive had enough of these fucking wolves

i hate how they talk

EZRA SAID “AHSOKA” <33333

leave hera alone she needs like 5 fucking minutes to grieve her baby-daddie’s death goddamn

FUCK YEAHHHHH WE R GOING BACK TO THE JEDI TEMPLE i love the jedi i miss the clone wars :(

im gonna say it. the loth-cats cudve been cuter

ohmygod dave finally made his dream come true of having his characters ride wolves (bcuz he said he wanted ahsoka to ride a wolf at some point. but these guys riding wolves r fine too i guess. ahsoka makes anything cooler tho... jus sayin)

AHSOKA

this is some force-power-bullshit that i can GET BEHIND. TELEPORTING WOLVES HELL YEAH

WHY CUDNT THEY JUST FUCKING KEEP THE STORMTROOPER OUTFITS THAT THEY STOLE THE FIRST TIME WHY. DO THEY HAVE TO DO THIS SAME BULLSHIT EVERY. GODDAMN. EPISODE

they literally have no asses

who the fuck is this crusty bitch

COURUSCANT lets go there. i miss the clone wars :(

wait wheres rex. is he safe? is he alright?

y does sabine have to b here

good job ezra u got it. u cracked the code. ahsoka is the daughter <3

sorry nothing was happening so i blanked out for a bit but now we are in the world between worlds AND I AM HEARING THE VOICES OF ALL OF MY FRIENDS GOD I LOVE U GUYS OBI WAN AHSOKA ANAKIN I LOVE YALL

this scene is very cool tho

ugh stop can i skip the sabine scenes? i wanna hang out w ezra in the world between worlds

AHSOKA AHSOKA AHSOKA AHSOKA AHSOKA AHSOKA AHSOKA

SO FUCKING COOOOOOOL

she shud do the thing again where she falls onto her back and kicks the enemy away i think thatd b rly fun

hellooooo hottie

ahsoka  <3

does she know shes the baddest bitch in the galaxy? i feel like she doesnt know. i feel like sabine thinks SHES the baddest bitch in the galaxy but rly its ahsoka

is it like ahsokas job is to dramatically go “anakin...” 

when did she name the fucking bird

ok god complex ezra

ahsokas been through so much shit in her lifetime. she can literally understand any trauma just name it

cud we not have done one more take to have my guy palps say ahsokas name correctly? i mean its not a huge deal but like. was he payed by the second???

“i will. i promise” ahsoka ur so fucking cute

wh

whered it go

how can the entire temple just skrrt away

REX

KALLUS

AHHH MY FRIENDS

WOLFFE AND GREGGOR

HONDO

okay what the fuck is happening y did everyone just show up

ahsoka said “ima take a nap hmu after the finale”

i hate this fuckin grey dude

hondo ily

sorry i stopped paying attention but wolffe just had a line so im back now

OHMYGOSH

BOYFRIENDS

KALLUZEB IN THE SAME FRAME OHMYGOODNESS

oh my fuck this next episode is HOW MANY MINUTES LONG?????

hera in this ep b like ‘am i gregnant?’

kallus ur the coolest bitch in this whole show (minus ahsoka)

go hera <3

yo what the fuck

this episode is 47 goddamn minutes so that we have time for this pig catapulting bullshit?

the whole second half of this show is just the writers making excuses to have thrawn do absolutely nothing while still pretending like he’s a threat

why r there 2 separate animal dues ex machinas in this finale?

yoooo ezra i actually rly like u bro :(((

hey where the fuck is darth vade y did he just dip out of the show. i feel like he cud help the empire out in this situation

very weird that thrawn supports sabines patreon or whatever the fuck

heyyyy palpatine what the fuck

they were rly broken up about kanans death for like. an episode. but theyre chill now theyre over it

y is palpatine into ezra?

can kallus and zeb smooch? just once? please? wud that b so hard?

how is this pig not dead

oh lmao he is dead hahahahahahah

im still confused about how greggor didnt die in clone wars. i thought he died? was i tripping?

palpatine is trying so hard not to saw “dewit” right now

what does destroying the temple accomplish?

HOW R THEY STORMTROOPERS MISSING THESE SHOTS WHAT THE FUCK HE IS A STATIC TARGET

oh so NOW ull kill the little grey bitch

GOD FUCK THE PIG IS ALIVE????? ARGH U AINT CUTE BITCH. JUST DIE

y cant he get out of there tho

bro a bitch is crying

yooo

theyre dating

hera’s makeup

the way i broke down when i saw ahsoka

tears

[ghoestys]

here is beryl! my second muse! and the most chaotic muse of the two so i can do stuff in the gc because silvia doesnt allow me to do that :pensive: 

statistics

full name: beryl hazel dunst nickname(s): ber (bear), b  age: twenty three date of birth: june 5th, 1997 hometown: los angeles, california  gender: cis female religion: atheist sexuality: bisexual  hair color: dark brown, almost black eye color: dark brown  height: 5'8″

prompt + blackmail 

a member of the yale's elite, they're twenty-three and a senior undergrad student majoring in sociology. they are as scrupulous as they are manipulative.

1. she’s aware that elijah is her half brother, but does not want to tell elijah about their familial connection due to her anger towards their father and fear of elijah not wanting a sister. 2. robbed various wealthy individuals she met when using the sugar baby app once a month. very good at getting into their bank accounts and leaving them dry. theyve never told on her because she’s a minor and it’d look bad on them. 3. her intial intentions after meeting colette a few years ago was to drain her of all her money. The ahn family was supposed to be beryl's big money target, but failed to do so after getting feelings for colette.

bio

family / school / life / wtvr

beryl is the child of kathleen dunst and elijah cho’s father. 

kathlenne was a 1 time winning beauty queen who attempted to get into the acting world, but ultimately failed.

while trying to get into the acting scene, this is where beryl’s mother met  elijah’s father and they had a small affair that resulted in the birth of beryl

elijah’s father obviously didnt want to be involved in this pregnancy because he had a wife, so elijah’s father paid kathleen a big sum of money to keep quiet and so the public would never find out 

beryl has never met her father, but she is aware of who her father is. according to her mother, her wealthy father picked another family and left them to fend for themselves. 

the money that elijah’s father gave kathleen was alot, but it wasnt enough for them to live off of for their entire life

growing up, beryl was surrounded by her mother’s revolving doors of lovers. kathleen hated the idea of work and lifting a finger to do labor, so she made sure to find people who were rich that could take care of her  and her child instead 

her mother was beautiful and had a way of getting people wrapped around her finger. the two didnt have the best life or the best house, but they always had the best things bc the dates always spoiled the mom and beryl too to get closer to the mom 

from her mom and this environment, beryl essentially learned that if she found someone to take care of shed never had to work so hard in life ever again just like how her mother never has to lift a finger 

as long as u have people wrapped around ur finger then ur powerful n u can do wtvr u want and have wtvr u want. 

knowing this, beryl hated work with everything in her and doesnt dream of labor at all BUT she knew that if she wanted to have a wealthy life for the rest of her life, then she’d have to go to a place filled w wealthy people and to her that meant a prestigious college and that’s  what made her think yale was the place she needed to b at  

she busted her ass in school and got her way into yale, but only w the intentions of soon finding someone wealthy to hopefully fall in love and never have to work again 

in between high school tho she did date anyone that was wealthy and if u didnt reach the income level she wanted then u were either a quick fling or nothing to her at all like beryl really does have money eyes only 

she knew that being a sugar baby wouldve been easier but she thought it was dangerous n disgusting for old men to want minors so she’d meet them once, get their information, n rob them of their money. she’d keep n hide the money n live the life style she wanted and she’d make sure the money lasted for a month so she’d only have to do it once a month bc again. she hates labor and having to do that sugar baby meeting shit felt like labor to her 

only got into the elites becasue she went to the media saying she got in and she was so happy about it and  it got so big that the jung couldnt tell the media beryl was lying bc  it was already big n hyped up so beryl was just allowed in bc it wouldve looked really bad if she was just kicked out after raving about how elites accepted  her with open arms and all  

beryl scammed her way in <3 

personality

personality wise i think beryl is very chaotic n will do wtvr 

i think shes a post it note because if ur rich she’ll literally latch onto u 

from her mom, she learned how to get people wrapped around her finger  really fast so manipulating people to get what she wants? not new to her <3 

also will adjust her personality to whoever she is trying to get. if she knows ur into sports or a big vegan then she will change herself to b a vegan around u and will studying  everything there is  to kno about sports so she can get u like. she will do anything to  get u wrapped n in her hold n if that means faking shit then she  fucking will 

currently trying to find someone who will take care of her for the rest of her life so if ur rich n single n eligible then <3 she is coming like. she really is just a big gold digging bitch but shes hoping she’ll find love so that she can enjoy the rest of her life instead of having to fake an orgasm everytime u feel like

money over looks. could have a crush on someone who is poor but beryl would b like? ok gtg u cant take care of me like i need to b taken cared for so i have to run! could b in love w them  but beryl will still leave them bc again. she wants to b taken cared for and marrying wealthy is the only way in her head

a mixture of a hopeless romantic n a cynic. she probs doesnt even know what real love is bc her only image is her mom and her mom only ever used people to get what she wanted

that is all for  now but basically shes a gold digger, has money eyes, a post it note, manipulative, will adjust her personality to fit a person, chaotic, really friendly n talkative n ya 

connection idea

bffs

enemies 

frenemies

someone she latches onto bc shes rich 

someone she is fake friends w bc they r rich n wants to use them as a bank 

someone she used for money n then left 

an ex that she was probs in love with but broke up with bc they were poor n didnt have the minimum income level required to be with her 

i had this for silv too but this quote: “our love was like a star. dead when we found it but it look so pretty from afar”

someone she knew in high school perhaps bc shes from california

someone she became friends with to get something from them but then it became genuine on beryls part?? 

thats it for now <3 

[delbeugre]

Have you seen SADIE BEUGRE? DEL is in HER/THEIR SENIOR year. The MATHEMATICS MAJOR is 24 years old & is a CAPRICORN. People say SHE/THEY are GRITTY, BEWITCHING, RETICENT and WASPISH. Rumors say they’re a member of HASTINGS. I heard from the gossip blog that SHE BIT AN EX-BOYFRIEND’S PINKY FINGER OFF AFTER SHE FOUND OUT HE CHEATED, AND THEN HAPPILY SERVED TIME FOR IT.

im tommy im a freak and of course i am here to get freakalicious with u all... this is my newest frankenstein type creation named sadie i know .02% about her yet but i am more than confident she will b nothing but a fun time! like this if ur down to plot!

TW: VIOLENCE, MENTIONS OF JAIL/PROSECUTION, MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, DRUG USE

BACKSTORY

capricorn sun / virgo moon / scorpio rising

raised by her uncle Big (his name) who is a hermit shut in town local in the depths of the florida marshland like some goosebumps protagonist. hes gone far past socially acceptable in terms of his ability to connect with the modern person but is wise beyond belief... his whole vibe is a warped cross between a cryptid and a mountain man that forages and cooks neighborhood plants. married for 27 years before his wife passed from illness. its quite possibly the only thing hes ever been emotional about

but dels entry to his life throws a wrench in his sadness (despite abandonment being what they bond over). she takes the focus away from his loss with her presence; her dad, his brother, died in a tragic train-car collision around the same time (which is speculated to be a suicide bt nobody can ever really be sure). he was a single parent so her custody is thrown up in the air for a few months as cps decides what they r gna do with this freshly orphaned little scrapper

she just kinda turns up on his doorstep n from there they cohabit a space. shes arnd 6-7 at this time... big never seemed to b phased by the fact tht she was a child n tended to treat her more like an apprentice or guest. he was never close to her father because of their age difference, being the older out of the two, so to have his daughter become his responsibility is just..... weird

this doesnt mean that he wouldnt provide for her bt it was. not very parental whatsoever.... no conversation or interaction beyond what was necessary. she was a mute fr a while and still is? to a degree.... very short spoken

when she got to her preteens he offered her an allowance in exchange for little odds and ends of stuff to be taken care of around the house. errands n all tht.... sometimes he wld purposefully leave things for her to pick up n take care of without mentioning it for a bonus. taught her the importance of saving your money and the horrid corruptness of a society basing everythings worth off paper. big exposed her to a lot of knowledge and took advantage of her silent curiosity by fueling it with books, homeschooling, life skills (catching a fish, setting a trap, knowing your berries in the woods...... the works)

her teens carried out the same way bt with the introduction of a real job, a spot down at the local butcher shop checking people out at the register and helping around the back of house. del knows a great deal abt cow/pig/chicken/etc anatomy from her years here..... she committed to being 100% vegan into her early twenties because of her trauma frm this occupation

it paid very well tho n was the best gig she was going to get within a reasonable biking route from home. so she settled!

the plan wasnt to keep it up for long anyway. she worked rly hard for her spot at yates and didnt intend to ever screw herself over. her plan was to get her bachelors, masters, become a professor, pursue a personal hobby of agriculture and build an elaborate greenhouse to live in

bt things happen..... 

some 35yr old douche with a green thumb woos her at a gardening store n swoops in to teach her a little more abt romance; all of this, of course, under the guise that he had all these tips and tricks for living environmentally friendly. a lame hippie wannabe that shouldve never even approached her bt alas.... he did

love is a touchy subject n it hadnt been something she set her sights on, but she was interested in wht this dude could teach her n at 19 she ended up falling in love. she delayed her education to stay an extra year back home and work out another plan which included him

this was very disappointing to her uncle bt he didnt have anything to say abt it. it was never parental before n it was never going to be, so this was another lesson she wld just have to overcome on her own

it turns out that she doesnt care for infidelity. when the confession comes out its met with a lot of screaming, bawling, blistering white hot anger. the whole incident is blacked out of her mind to b honest....

matters of the heart are no longer something to concern herself with because of the repercussions of her rash behavior regarding heartbreak O________O she spent a year in jail n still has to attend therapy / anger management meetings

deep down she is still hurting. there was a lot of pain... bt the sadness is not over the loss of some noob. she is in a state of constant disappointment, detaching from herself out of shame. putting her own life on pause only for it to turn out like that? stupid stupid stupid... 

PERSONALITY

chugging along! tldr spectre-like swamp nymph aura with the slightest (not so slight) unhinged feral tendencies

delicate like a moth resting in the gleam of a flashlight.... her anger singes her wings when shes too comfortable staying in one place, so theres always constant stimulation, always shifting gears. shes prone to feeling threatened; that being said, sadie is wary of walking in crowds, a little bit skittish when approached without making eye contact beforehand. like a small grey kitten..... in a big wide world

has a hard time keeping a conversation bt is very interested in debate, and even more so in studying alongside someone in complete silence. it reminds her of home in the same sense tht her uncle wld nudge her to keep reading by always having his own book open

doesnt have many friends and is alright with that. rumors are tht she is still a virgin bt who really knows? not i...... bt i wldnt be surprised if this was true. shes not impressed by people nor material items so this whole yates crowd is a turn off

she is truly clueless when it comes to how to behave around anyone her age. i think she understands but it just doesnt compute. she could come off as impolite bt it is just standoffishness? some people cld try to crack her but i dont think even she knows what that would be, or what that would look like. even in her one (1) failed relationship it was never deep heart to hearts or sharing dinner..... solitude is her realm

del is very comfortable with herself, very open with her wardrobe! doesnt leave too much to the imagination? she appreciates the human experience n expresses that thru this whole “body is a temple” type thing.... not quite confidence, but proudness of being. has gotten multiple notices frm professors for her tops being too sheer, nylons too ratted up, etc. has dirt under her fingernails half the time, chipped polish, some chapstick. smudges her eyeshadow on with her fingers

doesnt smoke cigarettes all too often but is dependent on weed. it kinda perpetuates her paranoid demeanor bt at the same time it keeps her lax enough to be able to mentally handle city life

her room is a playground for huge monstera plants, christmas cacti, ivy creeping along the doorway. she sleeps on a tiny thin mattress on the floor with a linen sheet and has her books stacked up on the ground next to it to hold her ashtray. the whole thing is dumb empty

takes her studies seriously and pinches every penny she can..... she has never ordered herself a coffee frm somewhere before, ordered food frm a restaurant... nothing. i wld think the most she would branch out from harvesting everything on her own is buying a bag of sunflower seeds frm a gas station, but even then, she much prefers eating stuff she grows herself. has a tomato plant, some basil beginning to sprout, etc.... manageable crops for any college students tiny space

...

bt yea thats it thats all! connections cld be all over the place. im legit open to anything. theres only a few tht come to mind right off that bat: 

a few people that get along with her? same classes? they shared a bowl n now theyre getting into the nitty gritty of some personal conversation that is veering into no mans land....

some sort of clueless makeover moment? arent rly into sadie as a person bt see a lot of potential... perhaps need a plus one to a party on the fly and figure thats the best option theyve got

crushes? this wld be fun n potentially dangerous! like playing with a hot cast iron pan or something :)

again im vry new to rp so i wld like to leave a lot of stuff up to chemistry, brainstorming n stuff like that, but please consider everything on the table! what i hav mentioned is the tip of the iceberg im so burnt out n i wrote a lot more than i intended to i am so sorry but i promise i am friendly

[normal-thoughts-official]

Speaking of kinky sex, do malec like role playing 👀

hoooo boy they sure as fuck do!!!!!!!!!!!! personally im a big fan of boss/secretary roleplay for twi malec. idk why it just looks like it fits them you know? Magnus in a beautiful pencil skirt and Alec just being in his element, giving him orders, and Magnus is lowkey flushed and loving the way Alec is so authoritative and barely looks at him, loving the way the skirt constricts him and makes him feel lowkey like hes tied up.... and if he has a toy in his cunt, maybe rabbit vibrator that Alec controls, it makes it just that much harder for him to escape the pressure on his pussy and clit.... and he has to keep trying to focus and do his tasks or else Alec will "punish" him and then "find out" about his toy... hmmmmmmm

@manzini wrote a great fic about this that i highly recommend tbh, it was everything i always dreamt of 👌👌👌👌

so yeah okay I'm partial towards that one but there are so many other possibilities! tbh i think that they both enjoy roleplaying a lot, both because of the scenarios they get to play out that obviously wouldnt be good otherwise, but also because, like. honestly? they have fun with it

we know they are huge dorks and sometimes they will just. get lost in creating the backstory for their characters and just get so invested??? and then suddenly they have this entire alternate universe for their roleplay and eventually they pull out blue prints and start mapping the secret villain lair that they're gonna set this whole thing in, planning for decorations, designing clothes/costumes, just. the whole shebang. and they argue passionately about the merits of blue vs green for the sheets and what each of them's backstory is going to be and. OKAY I KNOW THIS IS NOT THE HORNY CONTENT YOU ORDERED BUT IM JUST A SUCKER FOR THEM BEING SILLY AND EXCITED AND GOING WAY TOO DEEP INTO THINGS UNNECESSARILY JUST FOR FUN OKAY

also you know they have infinite time immortal Alec, babey! so they can be as elaborate as they want in their fantasies and possibly keep escalating. Magnus will be making himself some tea and Alec will stroll in all like "remember that hero/villain roleplay we did the other day? so what if there was a plot twist-" and Magnus will like, sit down and whip out this notebook so they can sketch and take notes. also you know with ADHD Magnus and autistic Alec they hyperfocus okay so suddenly 7 hours have passed and theyve been just deep into a lenghty debate on the economy and political relations of prince!Magnus' imaginary kingdom and they dont even know how they got there

tbh i have discussed this for a long time with my friend @thesorrowoflizards and its still one of my favorite stories/ideas that we have created. i think the original idea was mine but they added a lot so yeah udndjdn

anyway! as you might have guessed from this rant i also think theyre very into "villain Alec kidnaps superhero Magnus, and the bounds turn Magnus on and Alec smirks at what a little whore he is, what would people say if they knew the great hero Magnus Bane likes to be tied up and fucked by his nemesis~" as well as "prince Magnus loves being fucked and dommed by his servant Alec" like in @kinkymagnus' brilliant fic sitting on the throne which is not roleplaying but I'm still gonna throw here.

other good options: princess Magnus is saved by hero Alec and then Alec takes care of him in other ways 👀👀 (which usually brings out alec's protective side and entails a lot of reverent touches, praise kink, long eating out sessions where he gets Magnus to squirt on his face multiple times.....), maid Magnus whos a slut and is desperately trying to seduce their boss, begging to be fucked... strangers at a club, like another anon suggested on this blog ...... plus of course the weirdly specific scenarios like "apocalypse sex", or "ex lovers who reunite years later and can't resist each other", or....

yeah that's all I've got rkfndkdn i dont know a lot of roleplaying scenarios but hey hmu with them 👀👀👀

[violentviolette]

What does love feel like to you, being someone with aspd?

from what I understand love feels very different for me than the average person. and it's a bit *vague hand gesture* but I'll try and explain as best I can

first off, I'm romance repulsed and probably by definition some form of demi-romantic tho I dont really Id that way. love is something I experience very infrequently and so it's hard for me to recognize but on the few occasions I do feel it, I feel it very deeply and nothing can change that.

but really it just feels... uncomfortable. I dont really... like? the way love makes me feel. mostly because love requires a lot of vulnerability and that makes my skin crawl. the fact that my wife knows me so intimately was very offputting at first and still makes me kind of squirm sometimes.

love to me means needing someone. I need the people I love, because their presence in my life brings me joy, comfort, security, and happiness. if they were to leave my life I'd be deeply distressed if not lose my shit completely. and for a long time I equated that with weakness. relying on and needing people to stay whole felt weak and wrong to me, so when my wife and I broke up and I realized I was miserable without her and that I couldnt just move on and get over her like all my previous ex's I kind of had a full on mental breakdown and hated myself for caring about her so much. I did everything I could think of to stop caring about her but none of it worked. I obviously got over that becsuse I found out that's stupid and unhealthy but I still dont like how much I need her, even if I've accepted it. and by need her I dont mean that I need her to do or perform certain things for me. I mean I simply need her to exist in my life.

love for me also means caring about someone outside of how that effects me. so for most people, I dont really care about what happens to them or in their lives. I dont care about how they feel. but for my wife and my best friend and my brother, I care deeply about what happens to them. I worry about them and their wellbeing, I want them to be happy and I'm invested in that happiness in a selfless way that I'm not with other people. which again, I really struggled with at first. I thought caring about something meant giving up power in a relationship. the more invested u were in something the more someone else could use that against u. so the person with the most power was the person who cared the least. which is absolute fuckin nonsense because relationships shouldnt be about power and control but hey, who knew.

now that I recognize that caring about people isnt a weakness and is infact required for a healthy relationship, I allow myself to show that I care. which for me usually means purposeful acts of kindness or caring because I cant do words. I show love and caring by things like cooking for people, cleaning their space, buying them things I know theyll love (hilariously enough I am an amazing gift giver), doing a task theyve been stressed about for them, making things for them (if we date be prepared to be on the recieving end of a lot of random art pieces) ect. anything that I think might make them happy. those are much easier to do imo than saying that I care or trying to be comforting or mushy. so I speak with my actions.

so yea. that's mostly? what love feels like for me. it's a combination of wanting someone to be in my life for no other reason than their existence brings me joy and caring about them and their wellbeing outside of myself. so I do what I can and what I've learned is healthy in order to keep them in my life and happy about that.